Colleen Finally Admits She's Wrong - RELAX #39

[@melaniebell8236]

This podcast should just be Erik talking about normal childhood things that happen outside of California and Colleen reacting to it

[@giabarrone7422]

I want to hear more about Colleen's fundi-like religious upbringing where the Care Bear Stare is thought to be a power from the devil.

[@maddyhill2630]

I love her so much but Colleen never believes Erik when he talks about normal things outside of Cali and it reallllY annoys me bc it’s kinda the same thing with every Californian living in their own little world

[@jorieschwartz6202]

I would watch that so hard

[@zozodioz]

Yess

[@katiemarie5725]

THIS

[@carriannesquires6964]

“As the brits say takin a piss” -Erik Stocklin has me screaming laughing. Takin a piss is peeing!!Takin THE piss is the phrase he was looking for 😅😂

[@mariromantics]

nah hes just pissing /j

[@zoeisme53]

Hahahahha I came to say the same 😂

[@gabrielebauzaite525]

People use both anyway :)

[@gabrielebauzaite525]

@@Gohappygirl exactly

[@seannemairi]

hahah i'm not a brit, but i came here exactly for this hahaha

[@houseofanubisluvr05]

Erik’s explanation of his anxiety and his first anxiety attack is so spot on. That’s exactly how mine feel, and I just completely shut down

[@joakuz]

Timestamp?

[@lydiajantz1862]

i completely relate to erik about how he feels about his anxiety, my anxiety is based around being worried about getting anxious. i stop myself from going places because i am scared i will get anxious there which ends up giving me anxiety. it’s such a mind game and it sucks because it can stop you from going where u want to go. just like he said with disney land, he doesn’t like it there because of that experience. and i feel the same way about restaurants and other places.

[@giuliacacciatore4765]

SAME

[@tishstewart1]

Same!!

[@kumaravelharinifsps9075]

SAME!!!!

[@drdarian]

Question for Erik: I’d like to know more about his acting experience/stories and if he’s worried about type casting. I see a lot of the time he plays either the “lovable goof” or the “sexy psycho.”

[@tjbrat44]

Sexy psycho's are groovy!! 😎

[@joakuz]

Good question!!!

[@siarasims]

@PeaceSeeker049 lol joe goldberg is typing

[@llTheMilkyWayll]

“We always talk about your symptoms, let’s talk about MY symptoms!” “-I have something to say-” “sHOcKinG” I love you guys LOL

[@jacinta-r8h]

😂😂

[@sagehill9019]

Time stamps?

[@llTheMilkyWayll]

@@sagehill9019 1:09:00 !

[@sagehill9019]

@@llTheMilkyWayll thank you!!

[@kelsey1014]

Same

[@corahatcher9131]

This was one of the funniest podcast I’m literally in tears. You guys chemistry is so there lol like how you play off of each other you can tell youre so much more than just being married you are the best of friends 😂😂😂

[@violetsienna]

TIMESTAMPS: 0:00-Intro 1:16- Who Needs To Relax 13:45-Bump Check 15:06-Everlywell Sponspor 17:45-Christmas Debate 33:08-Daily Harvest Sponsor 35:30-Random Shower And Hair Talk 37:40-Colleen And Erik’s Relationship In. A Nutshell 40:16- Flynn’s Green Guinea Pig 41:56-Pet History 50:46-Canva Sponsor 58:14-Pet Talk 1:04:58- Pregnancy Talk 1:12:16-Uncommon Goods Sponsor

[@chloehunt6927]

you’re the best

[@ZAPRandom]

thank you SM

[@miraclewest8681]

You deserve love and everything good in this world

[@joannaking9190]

‘’Your bump looks good, it looks like Jennifer Aniston in an episode of friends” - Erik Stocklin

[@sunflower7045]

You mean Derek Stockland? 😉

[@joannaking9190]

@@sunflower7045 ah yes, sorry I miss quoted

[@filmzen281]

Nipples

[@carriannesquires6964]

Colleen was worried about cutting Erik off and talking over him in this episode but I love the dynamic they have together. I know why she is so hard on herself sometimes but I wish she was a little kinder on herself sometimes. She is a brave wonderful woman who is having a hard pregnancy and also has adhd to contend with on a daily basis. I wish she could see herself for the wonderful woman she is!

[@hernameispekka_Rebecca]

I agree! Makes me sad she feels self concious but dont blame her because people really comment on how rude she is that she interrupts and how can Erik stand her and crappy things like that and makes sense that it would get to you. Especially with something like that which she already doesnt like about herself!

[@erin723]

I was thinking about this also since I had just finished the vlog before this. But for me it felt like a normal conversation. No worries Colleen! 😘

[@carriannesquires6964]

@PeaceSeeker049 she said in her vlog that she noticed it when she was watching the video before she posted it. I don’t think it was about the comment section as she hadn’t seen that yet but she is very hard on herself especially now that she is pregnant and it’s a difficult time for her. I think she is doing an amazing job considering she has adhd and is unmedicated atm which she said about in her vlog so it’s harder for her to concentrate on conversations etc. She just needs to give herself some love rather than criticism but it’s hard to do that for yourself

[@TdScar]

It can be frustrating. I have adhd and am a HORRIBLE interrupter and I don’t realize I’m doing it at the time and when I do realize I’m doing it I feel bad that I’m interrupting because I know it’s annoying for other people even if they understand my adhd and my struggles with it. Even though they know it’s not on purpose it can be annoying and you never want to come off rude to people

[@missconstrues]

I believe solidarity is the word Erik was searching for.

[@shannons4818]

💯

[@violetsienna]

Or compassion

[@claireelizondo2337]

I thank you for your service. He planted that seed of insanity in my brain so I've been scanning comments to find the answer 😅

[@JenDoe777]

Oh I was thinking moral support

[@giuliacacciatore4765]

YES SOLIDARITY THANK YOU

[@a_jax85]

Erik’s expressions while lovingly gazing at Colleen’s Ad Reads are everything. 🥰 These two are peanut butter and jelly and I’m here for it.

[@Hannah-wh3vo]

As a fellow lady with ADHD, and knowing Colleen felt self conscious about her unmedicated pregnant ADHD self in this video, I gotta say the whole thing made me cry tears of laughter because I've never related so hard to someone else's energy. It is a GIFT to me whenever I meet a fellow unmedicated ADHDer because it makes my soul come alive, even if it is a bit too chaotic for the normies. I know it's frustrating to live with, but I think it's also kind of excellent..

[@princessbrekka]

i’ve been unmediated for 4 years now it’s hard to manage some days but i’m getting the hang of it

[@kelsey1014]

Ive always been scared of gett8ng pregnant simply because id have to go off my ADHD medicine. But colleen makes me less scared.

[@livs7953]

I live for the chaotic unmediated adhd energy. It is so relatable coming from a fellow adhd-er

[@laurentoren]

I’ve heard the “anxiety about being anxious” called anticipatory anxiety. The actual event isn’t that big of a deal, but you’re so nervous about the possibility of the event causing a panic attack that you work yourself up

[@kelseytabone8101]

The whole segment about your panic/anxiety attacks is SO relatable for me. 6 years ago I was diagnosed with chronic anxiety and a panic disorder. I also get a numb/tingling face, hands and neck during a panic attack. And TOTALLY related to Erik when he said it isn't the anxiety.. it's the anxiousness about having another attack. That caused me to have so many more panic/anxiety attacks, just thinking about when it could happen again. Thank you for talking about this! More people need to hear it. ❤

[@georgia673]

Yes I loved that he talked about this. I suffer from panic disorder too. It's so strange to think when I was younger all I was anxious about was social situations and now my anxiety has completely changed to being consumed by my fear of panic attacks. I would love for Erik to talk about it more as I haven't really heard many people talk about panic disorder.

[@kelseytabone8101]

@@georgia673 Yes! I was pleasantly surprised he shared so much with us since he is more of a private person, but also because in my experience most people that deal with crippling anxiety/ panic disorder don't talk about it in detail. Especially men, again.. that's just my experience. I think between the misconceptions from society and the general fear of having another attack.. it keeps most people from talking or bringing awareness. I'm going on 7 years with a diagnosis and I wrote my original post 4 times before I finally posted it. lol Again, super proud of both of them for being so open with us. It made me feel seen/understood and the whole time I was audibly agreeing with them. 🤣

[@tannygaming2824]

that's how i became agoraphobic i just lock myself in alone in a bubble trying to control my environment as much as i can to avoid anxiety and panic attacks

[@genesisf9785]

YES. I was so scared once I was winding down that it would come back or would happen again the next day which triggered more anxiety for me. It was a vicious cycle.

[@aleciapearson7685]

Decorate all of November like an advent calendar. Every day a new decoration starting small and with the 30th being your big tree that way it's like a countdown to the Christmas season. I think that might be a fun way to compromise and extend the joy of decorating

[@elisa1942]

That’s actually a really good idea!

[@SF-xg2km]

i was screaming the word: "solidarity" at Erik when he tried to find the word😭😭😂❤️

[@TheAvaMansouri]

same omfg I was like yall are RIGHT there

[@abbbsterrslife7997]

Hahhhhhahahhhh brooooooooo meeeee 😂😂😂😂

[@artlifeandlove]

I thought he was trying to say posterity sake. But solidarity makes more sense!

[@dianalopez4925]

eriK calling it a stressed bellybutton is killing me!! Lol 😂 he’s so stressed about it

[@hernameispekka_Rebecca]

He's afraid the babies are improvising a new exit stratergy! 😂

[@sarahisbell1918]

When he’s older he can probably go in there. My daughter was the same when she was his age. This year she is four and I told her it’s a really cool Halloween store with pretend Halloween stuff. And as soon as I went in I told her “oh look this thing is gonna pop out at me when I step here! “ and everything was “omg so spookyyyy” and “omg so silly” and I would show her the robot parts and stuff. She ended up loving it

[@JennaSullivan112]

COLLEEN I love that you are so aware about how small animals take a lot more work than most people think they do!! Amazing! Most parents just randomly get these animals and they don’t get the best life.

[@cora8857]

One podcast episode a week isn’t enough 😫 LOVE YOU GUYS AND APPRECIATE EVERYTHING YOU DO 💕

[@ytrando12312]

Use this comment as the petition for 2 videoed date nights a week

[@alaska401]

Not a shed but a dedicated room for all things Christmas including a year round tree or two. You have a big house. There must be a room that is not used that can be permanently decorated. Colleen stays up all night being creative this could work.

[@glitter2431]

Yes! I think she should go ALL out for a single room, I’m talking rugs, trees, sheets, bedding, pillows, wallpaper, fake snow, a record player with only Christmas vinyls to play, winter candles, lights etc! I think she’d love it, hopefully whenever they move they have a spare room for that.

[@giabarrone7422]

Yeah her Miranda room she seems to spend most of her day in, why can't she swap the fall decor for Xmas decor?

[@janetatum8966]

Ya, she used to have a year-round Christmas room. Now Flynn's room?

[@caitlinsiemens1534]

Or even half of the Miranda room or something with Christmas all year round so she still has a separate Miranda space too

[@jaxmd35]

The Christmas club house situated in the backyard right next to Flynn’s and the twins playhouse

[@reganholcombe3597]

I’ve just recently gotten on medication for my anxiety and hearing Eric talk about his experience is so helpful and comforting to know someone else feels like I do!

[@sophie5300]

the way erik describes his anxiety made me feel so heard! this has been my biggest struggle for years and it’s so strange to me so hear someone else talking about it … and as something that STILL makes them nervous, not something they’ve moved past completely. wow. i love you both so much.

[@malkyyy3418]

Erik is gonna have nightmares about colleen’s belly button turning into a christmas tree😂☠️

[@mmgogre9973]

Thank you, now so will I as that image entirely appeared intact in my brain as I read your comment. 🤣😉

[@chescarockwellgabriel]

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

[@authorgirlpetparent]

HILARIOUS

[@imsacacitr]

This is the only comment I actually laughed at ever

[@haileygg6]

🤣🤣🤣💀

[@spagetd1526]

i think colleens love of christmas is so fun, because so many people grow out of the overwhelming joy of it as kids, it’s wonderful how she’s still so excited about it

[@jessvazquez21]

Fun fact! The umbilical cord (more specifically the umbilical vein) actually serves a purpose after birth in the baby! It becomes the round ligament of the liver, called ligamentum teres which can essentially help someone in the future if they have liver disease such as cirrhosis or portal hypertension to drain blood from the liver! Nerdy ultrasound tech knowledge, sorry haha but I thought maybe you’d find it interesting about what’s going on behind this new belly button of your newborns 😂 love you guys!

[@jaimelynn6464]

That’s so cool I never knew that!! Thank u for sharing :)

[@juliatimmons2542]

Does thatean that a belly button infection may have to do with the liver in adults?

[@jessvazquez21]

@@juliatimmons2542 I have no idea tbh!

[@TheMoonGodness]

Wow thank You for sharing that... It's so cool to know

[@theblackschaos]

That is so neat I never knew that!

[@angelica1793]

Listening to you guys while working a 12 hour shift is honestly my peace during chaos, and hearing how you two bicker is so precious lol

[@georgia673]

Erik, I completely understand your struggles with anxiety. I had my first panic attack a year and a half ago. And that was beginning of my fear of panic attacks. I went on to have panic attacks every couple weeks until my therapist pointed out that I was having them because I was expecting to have them. So I had to change my way of thinking from "Oh God I'm going to have a panic attack today" to "I'm okay. I'm not going to have a panic attack". It's been over a year since my last full blown panic attack and yet I fear it everyday. And I fear feeling anxious because I am scared that feeling will turn into a panic attack. Lexapro has helped me a lot thank goodness.

[@mbk3509]

Instead of Colleen having a Christmas room I think Eric needs a non-Christmas room . Just a room where he can go and relax and not be around Christmas stuff.

[@laurrrrrr3097]

This!!! A great compromise, Colleen said she decorates every room. Maybe keep one living room without decorations

[@giabarrone7422]

The problem is that he has to take care of Flynn and Colleen 24/7 so there would be no "time off" to relax in a room alone. He'd have to be in all the common spaces which Colleen want to decorate now.

[@mmgogre9973]

Maybe if the non-Christmas room was a major family room? Like one they use daily…. Then he’d have a room that he spends time in where he isn’t surrounded… but, Colleen could still decorate the other rooms… then, they could also downsize on the amount of decorations that they then have to store away…

[@MarinaBallerina]

A grinch room 😂

[@aarguellez1803]

She doesn't decorate their room

[@nata6126]

Growing up in New England (Massachusetts), I loved decorating for Christmas before Thanksgiving. I totally agree with Colleen, it makes me beyond happy and I love celebrating Thanksgiving with Christmas decorations.

[@karenmoreno5447]

Thank you Eric for opening up about your anxiety episode…….My son had his first episode at 25, he had just got a new job and it came with a big raise and he had a big anxiety episode. He now has medication and that makes him feel better knowing he has meds that can help. He is an old soul, and is very sensitive (seems very similar to Eric). And similarly, when I was pregnant with him, I had a huge anxiety episode that sounded very similar to Colleens……the amount of pressure you feel when you have a rough pregnancy and can’t be the same energetic, capable person, then having all the pain and sick yuck too…….I am surprised that everyone who is pregnant doesn’t have multiple episodes! Thank you both for being honest, and open…it will help so many, 28 years ago when I had my episode nobody that I knew could relate and it made me feel like I was the absolute worse at being pregnant. You guys are the best!

[@RealityChick77]

Flynn for president! Logical, kind, and accepting

[@fruitypatchouli]

Honestly, yes. I'm here for it.

[@lolahunter3227]

At a young age to

[@asheard23]

“A shed is for tools and rats” - Colleen Ballinger, 2021

[@niallhoransearring2105]

IM MEGAN THAT SENT THE TWEET LMAO

[@erin723]

The anxiety about anxiety is a common symptom of anxiety. And you’re more prone to another panic/anxiety attack because you’re anxious about it happening again. Stupid vicious cycle. Highly recommend Mayim Bialik’s Breakdown podcast (also on KZbin).

[@denasmolins5938]

Great that you are showing how anxiety affects you and demystifies it for people. Knowing that so many people suffer from anxiety in different degrees helps a lot. It is something that can be managed and I am glad that y’all are openly talking about it.

[@its_sigh9545]

Colleen reads comments with a negative voice. If she read it in a positive voice, I think the way she took them would be different. She seems to think the comments about Christmas were hate comments but they weren’t at all.

[@JennaSullivan112]

I totally agree! I went back to look at the comments and I see barely any bad ones and I think it’s because of how I read them in my head

[@lauradavis9819]

TOTALLY understand how Eric feels about being afraid of feeling anxious which in turn makes you feel anxious and it is just a domino effect. When I had these feelings in the beginning I thought I was the only person that had this problem but if you start telling other people how you feel you start to relise there are a lot of us out here that have the same feelings as Eric described

[@deyah123]

Yesss. At first I felt like the only person in the world that this had happened to. I thought I was “crazy” and if I told this to someone they wouldn’t understand but when I told others I realized unfortunately many people feel these things and my therapist told me that it is super common

[@Ava_Lynn7]

Lol I love how they spent like a whole 30 minutes on one of their episodes about how people spell Erik's name incorrectly and people still do it.

[@funwithfriends634]

Omg at 57:54 when Erik says "Oh, ok" sounded just like how Flynn says it. 😂

[@kitkat508]

I’m totally with Eric. My belly button is strangely sensitive. Literally makes me a little nauseous if touched.

[@TheChubbyCinderella]

Same! Also gets sore lol

[@SUGASITO]

same tho, it makes me feel icky lmfao

[@skylinmay4846]

Yes omg

[@408-m7q]

Same lol..

[@kelsey1014]

My belly botton being touched makes me have to pee. Also them talking about belly buttons made me nauseous idk how colleen didnt get nauseous.

[@livyplayzroblox7688]

I love you guys so much! You are the cutest! Side note- Colleen, you are so strong and inspirational! I watch your vlogs everyday! You are my “therapy” watching your vlogs everyday makes me the happiest person! Hope you are doing well! Have a great day!! 🥰

[@sarahtorres96]

erik i relate to your type of anxiety !! anxious about being anxious. i like how u described “once the door is open u worry about it happening again”. very accurate!

[@sabrinarittinger1901]

It is absolutely okay and good to talk about your experiences with anxiety and panic attacks. Thanks to Erik for giving this personal insight, it also got me thinking about how I could not be in crowded places for some time because it made me so stressed. And the reason was also not because of the people but because I feared I would get anxious among all those people around me. It really got better with slow exposure therapy, I absolutely enjoy concerts and similar events now, however, after Corona these experiences will be new once again. Hope it stays good and calm :) And hope that Erik can enjoy Disneyland someday :D

[@lucinaramsey4705]

I loved this episode so much, you guys talked about so many different things about yourselves and a few personal moments too… I laughed so many times

[@paigecarey9674]

In the vlogs Colleen mentioned she hated this episode because she was so everywhere, I loved it! I didn't notice at all. You are your own worst critic Colleen, we love you!! Be you💕

[@stefuhfuhmarie]

Thanks so much for this episode! I honestly never thought anyone had experienced anxiety / panic like I do. I am the best at panic about panic. Or anxiety about anxiety. You hear you’re not alone, but I think actually discussing the nitty gritty (while it sucks for the person going through it) it helps us all as a people. 💜🌷

[@ssophialilyy]

Absolutely loved this podcast! You two are hilarious. Colleen I know how on your vlog channel you were talking about cringing when you watched it back because of your ADHD, but you are genuinely such a beautiful person and you can see that through all of your content. You're entertaining, funny and caring and I know we all love watching along on your little podcast date nights. You're a star and we love you!

[@afuhrm21]

I can’t even explain how much I relate to you Erik! I also had an anxiety attack before I ever knew I had anxiety, and it was also in a place where I just kinda had to stick it out. After the initial wave, I basically just had one long anxiety attack for the rest of the week. Ever since, the vast majority of my anxiety is simply me being worried about being anxious. The fear of fear itself is a pretty vicious cycle. I’m so glad you talked about this, I have never heard of anybody else who has this similar type of anxiety. It’s great to know I’m not alone!

[@HaleyAlton211]

ERIK I couldn’t agree with you more- I completely understand this type of anxiety and it’s so hard to explain. I have suffered for anxiety for years and used to have a panic disorder- the WORST part wasn’t anything specific it was being terrified of being triggered into panic. When people say they have anxiety because they’re worried about something like a test- NOT the same. Having anxiety for a moment vs having an anxiety disorder is truly worlds different. I avoided going out of my dorm room for 3 months in college, and the fear of fear is something I’ve had to deal with since.

[@idkwhatimdoingheree]

I love you Both so much! Your chemistry and humor is so awesome to listen and watch. Thank you for consistently doing this podcast!

[@joankgillette]

Erik is my favorite. The things he puts up with. His reactions are literally me. Only men get belly button lint btw because they have hair on their stomach that it sticks to. I had 2 csections, emergency with my son and planned with my daughter. I was very scared the first time but the second time I only got a little bit nervous the morning of. I had such great experiences but I won’t lie the recovery is HARD. My second recovery was much harder than the first.

[@destinimalonson9568]

Erik, thank you for opening up and sharing your experience with anxiety. I can relate so much. I've come to realize I've delt with anxiety all my life, but recently it was the worst it'd ever been. I used to rarely have panic attacks, but I began having them more frequently and it caused my body to constantly dump adrenaline being anxious about when another panic attack might come on. It's the worst. And I was so uneducated about it until it happened to me. I can't honestly say I don't think I've met another person who described it as accurately or in a way I related to so much. It's nice to know I'm not crazy or alone.

[@lilygrace1438]

Best podcast ever. Love you so much. You guys are the most talented sweet kind loving caring supportive amazing encouraging humans.

[@sisibarney6753]

Oh my goodness- I totally understand you Erik about feeling anxious about being anxious, it happens to me all the time!!

[@jacinta-r8h]

This podcast has gotta be the most interesting and funny podcast i have ever heard 😂😂🤣😅. Keep up the good work Colleen and Erik!

[@mariahbull2378]

I just wanted to say that Erik explaining his anxiety is exactly how I experience my own. With anxiety being so different for everyone, it felt really good to hear someone who experiences it the same as myself.

[@normakanazir7404]

This podcast was ABSOLUTELY HILARIOUS 😂😂👏🏻 That video of Colleen and Erik, (their relationship in a nutshell) I can’t🤣

[@arctic9729]

Love how honest and open you guys are and it's so cool that you always make it work for each other. Only podcast i really look forward to watch.

[@jacobbjake]

In Australia it’s summer for Christmas and it doesn’t feel like the “magical white Christmas” so having decorations and trees make it’s feel like that Eric has experienced that magic white Christmas when he was younger but colleen hasn’t

[@teagannovak3120]

I'm a single mom with PTSD and newly developed social anxiety (after being isolated for the last... however long it been 😅) It was my kids' school homecoming last week and they wanted to go to the high-school football game since their friends were going (they are in 2nd & 3rd grade) Their friend's sister is on the cheerl squad and they would be able to cheer with the team if they went. As we were getting ready to leave, a panic attack hits. I was crying and hysterical and acting like a complete child "I don't wanna go!" I had to talk myself down and reassure myself that this was for my kids and that I was giving them the experiences that I never received growing up. It was terrible. I'm in a new city, in a new career and have always been insecure throughout my life (PTSD has definitely intensified all of that... and I, too, have ADHD- diagnosed at 29). I pulled myself together and we finally made it to the game around half-time. Although I didn't know anybody there, the kids had SO MUCH FUN and watching them interact with their friends and actually being able to cheer with "the squad" made it all worth it 💝 I am so proud of myself for overcoming my panic attack and giving my kids a great experience 🥰💪👩‍👧‍👧 Today I was cleaning out my wallet and found a "fortune" that I felt the need to save from a fortune cookie- it read: "Fear is interested paid on a debt that you may not owe"

[@katelynstrong2008]

“I’m being a FENIMIST!” 😂😂😂

[@aliannasvlogs6453]

I totally relate to Erik with the anxiety and anxiousness. I have always been really afraid to get sick anywhere in public. After having my first anxiety attack about it and feeling like I was sick to my stomach while the world was closing up on me and taking 1-3 hours to get over it I always have gotten anxious about being anxious and having anxiety attacks. So I get anxious and then feel anxious about it so I just get more and more anxious until I have an anxiety attack. I have gotten way better but it sometimes sneaks up on me. It feels so good to have someone relate to me and it feels like i’m not alone

[@confused1379]

I do like how Flynn has his priorities straight. Man with chainsaw hands screaming how he beat a woman? Fine, okay, not an issue. Jumping spider? Hell no! Me too Flynn, me too. 😂👏🏻

[@nataliehawkins826]

I so look forward to this podcast every week!!

[@emilywll]

I don't enjoy decorating for Christmas early because the season is less exciting if it takes up 1/4 of the year. If you have access to the joy of Christmas all the time (or a large percentage of it) it will get old, you don't get the experience of a magical time that you have to wait for every year. It's the same reason Starbucks has pumpkin spice only in the fall, because if they had it available all the time, it wouldn't be something to look forward to or savour for the time you do have it, and over time would be less exciting and enjoyable. It is also harder to identify the specific ~vibe~ of the season and relate it to different things around you like the daylight, scents, weather, etc if that makes any sense at all. I also agree that it's overstimulating, and for myself I can't relax at all when I don't have control over my physical surroundings in my own home. So I do understand it in that aspect as well.

[@madeleneabraham]

Thank you so much, Colleen and Erik, for being raw and open about anxiety. It’s very relatable and your bravery is highly appreciated xx

[@daisyescobar3511]

12:48 is it just me or did Erik fart lol he even looks back 😂 I just found it funny

[@Alomind8]

100%. She interrupted his first attempt to subtly pull it off by leaning into her story 😆

[@leahjohnson4880]

just had the worst night, i feel so safe here. thank you all so much 💌

[@giabarrone7422]

I have a disability that prevents me from standing in place and they do make a whole array of shower chairs. I have been told it makes showers very relaxing for those without disability.

[@nicolevanherwynen4798]

I'm so impressed with how well Flynn communicates his emotions. 🥺❤️

[@sarahlynnserafin8892]

Not a shed… it could be “Colleen’s Christmas Cottage” … it’s all about perspective! Dreamy… a year-round happy place

[@JuneNelson]

YESSSSSSSS

[@niallhoransearring2105]

LMAO IM THE ONE THAT SENT THAT TWEET HAHAHAHHA

[@kellyjo7126]

LITERALLY THANK TOU ERIK FOR BRINGING THIS UO i also have and iratinal fear of like breaking of my bellybutton and i’ve never felt more heard.

[@sitagoldstein8802]

I’m earlyyy! Just wanted to say I LOVE the pod and listen every Wednesday morning and then watch with my family on Thursday 😊💛😆

[@sahgreene]

I was really interested in listening to Erik talk about his anxiety. Mine manifests the same way. It first happened in high school and moving forward I would just get so nervous about feeling that way again that in turn it would basically cause it. So thanks for opening up Erik :) there are definitely people who can relate.

[@emma.duckwall]

I agree with both of their arguments about the Christmas decorating. Personally my family does decorations around the middle of November. I understand why Erik doesn't like the decorations being up as early as Colleen. But it makes her happy, and i understand why she keeps them up for as long as she does. Christmas decorations are a lot and only leaving them up for a little bit seems pointless to me.

[@Cullenore]

YESSS ERIK. Fear of experiencing anxiety or panic again is very real and common for folks with attacks. Thank you for your vulnerability in sharing about your own relationship to anxiety in this podcast. Countless listeners can relate; I assure you. I like you even more than I did before. Coolest dude, dad, and Lovey ever!!! ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️

[@elizabethmorton3616]

Colleen’s got all the animals from the 12 days of Christmas song lol

[@janelleeus4534]

Eric must HHAAATE the Miranda room lol

[@scary_elyce.]

Eric is looking for the word solidarity!

[@beepboop4285]

Colleen!!!! I support you decorating on November 1st. I am the exact same way and LOVE LOVE LOVE Christmas and don’t understand why others get bothered by others decorating early. I’m even nice about it and don’t decorate the outside of my place until after thanksgiving. I’m the only person in my family who no longer lives in my home state so I currently use that as an excuse to decorate earlier because I fly home for the holidays and don’t get to spend 2+ weeks with my decor…. But honestly, I’ll always be a decorate on nov 1st person 🤫 it brings me so much joy and is my favorite time of the year. Ps: PLEASE talk about your haunting experiences in the next episode. I’ve been waiting for it!!!

[@izzybaumgartner]

"Colleen and DEREK have a podcast" (if you know, you know😂😂)

[@zoey6122]

That’s how I sing it now 😂

[@andreaguzman2295]

Only real og’s know hahah

[@cindy020294]

That anxious about feeling anxious feeling is something that I feel all the time. Like Erik, I'm a pretty private person, so just thinking about going through an anxiety attack or panic attack in front of people stresses me out even more, and drives my anxiety even harder. It's also the reason I was diagnosed with Panic Disorder, apparently if the fear of having another panic/anxiety becomes intense enough it can even lead to agoraphobia.

[@jessicahubbard8440]

I've been dealing with agoraphobia since the beginning of Covid lockdown, 2020. I haven't been able to leave my house and it really, REALLY sucks. I'm a prisoner in my own body, in my own home.

[@jessdelea4005]

I see where Eriks coming from with his anxiety for sure I feel that way

[@colleenbellscanadiangarden9180]

just wanted to let you know I have been putting off doing alot of things in my home. it's been so easy to sit and watch videos but since watching just one video of relax I have been able to listen to the pod casts and work it gives me a time line to get as much accomplished as I can yet enjoying listening and getting to know you both more! this has been a win win and I'm listening backwards so I have 37 more pod casts to go thanks 😊

[@suzannaharbon4365]

Don’t worry about the ramblings Colleen. I am like this when I forget to take my meds and people are surprised.

[@racheltucker4687]

I’m amazed at your honesty about your experiences of anxiety. Thank you.

[@JenKnee423]

Colleen, people weren’t coming for you because of when you wanted to decorate. People were siding with Eric because you came off as very selfish, not listening to him or caring about his feelings. It was like it’s my way or the highway and not willing to compromise. Nothing to do with your happiness or the decorations.

[@rachellamirabella8333]

This! No one was attacking her or saying her side was invalid. I think people just saw Erik struggling to be heard and felt defensive of him.

[@dandelion-honey]

It's fun to watch them talk and banter. 😂💗 Love you guys!

[@ashleybs2010]

It’s so crazy to me how mad people get about the Christmas decorations topic. As someone who doesn’t love Christmas and the decorations I genuinely don’t care when people decorate. Sure I’ll roll my eyes sometimes when that time comes and there’s music in the stores and on the radio and Christmas decorations in stores but it literally doesn’t effect me in any way when people decide to decorate their houses lol I’m on colleens side on this one. Decorate early your deserve it. But also make sure Erik has his space that is Christmas free. 😅

[@giabarrone7422]

If you had to clean it all up yourself, you might disagree.

[@allisong1551]

@Gia The viewers arent cleaning Colleen's house so this comment is more directed that way I think!

[@alwayzjello]

I like that you go off on tangents, it makes it more interesting.

[@CoffeeQueen03]

I sang the intro song, as I always do because yes, but at the end of it somehow wound up saying "That's the name of our codpast" So that's where I'm at. But very excited to watch this

[@christinafreeani2149]

ERIC!!!!! YEEEESSSS!!! I am able to talk myself through anxious days BECAUSE I cant even give myself proof of a reason to be anxious about! But I know some people/at certain times arent even able to talk to themselves at the time

[@sunflower7045]

My sister took me to a haunted house a few years ago. I always knew she had a strong fight reaction, but I learned just how strong when she used me as a weapon to throw at the jump scare monsters. 😐

[@laurelflint1866]

😯🤪🤭

[@fizz_bizz]

I relate to Eric. I get anxiety about something, usually then I cannot sleep and can only fall asleep once I've stayed up all night and sleep once its morning(I think it's the part of me that feels safer during the daytime). But then the next day it comes to time for sleep, and I get anxious about getting anxiety and not being able to fall asleep again. Usually I actually fall asleep and sleep pretty well on that second day but the moments of worrying about getting anxiety again are not fun whatsoever. And the things I normally get anxiety about relate to social anxiety somehow, or me worrying about my own safety in some way(which both are from being an over thinker). It's comforting to know I'm not the only one who feels this way, and to have people like my family to ask for comfort/advice or just to talk to. I'm also glad that Eric stayed by Colleen when she had that attack and that Colleen is ok. Love you both and this podcast!!

[@Thisusernameisoverrated]

1:07:23 I’d be willing to bet Erik is thinking of the word solidarity

[@Etancam]

ok i NEED an episode about a bunch of Eriks wood storys bc they all seem so interesting and need more who else?

[@Etancam]

also i love how Erik has that typical movie kid like that goes to the woods and prans houses near halloween like it sounds like a movie

[@SnowFamilyVacations]

The word Erik was looking for was Solidarity

[@Natasha27garden]

When I was a student I couldn’t study in a “cluttered” space because it was overwhelming and I couldn’t concentrate. It feels like a similar topic here where they’re already managing the clutter of a toddler and then add the micromanaging of the Christmas decor in the main areas. I get it. I also LOVE the idea of an over the top, year round Christmas room.

[@angiemae03]

why is it that every time Colleen's hair looks so beautiful, she thinks it looks horrific? It's so funny to me that she spends time straightening it, but it looks so nice with the curls.

[@Cutiepenguin42]

Woah. I totally forgot about her Christmas room and yet hearing her mention it just uncovered that memory!