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[@lakiaraduran]

I've asked 3 therapists over 10+ years about my difficulty with clutter and stuff accumulating in my home and none of them could help or give me any insight. Years have gone by and all I've felt is more shame and confusion about it. The way you have cut through the noise and clarified how it's connected with CPTSD in a little over 30 minutes is illuminating and life saving. Thank you. The part about emotional and mental clutter is spot on and I hadn't identified them as such until you named and explained them. You have alchemized your pain and turned it into wisdom. You have finally made this make sense. This is what I needed to know. I've been searching for this information for a long time. Your videos are helping me in ways I didn't know I needed.

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

Thank you so much for the encouraging words! -Cara@TeamFairy

[@ursamagickmt672]

What they said. I've tried my best to deal with clutter but it always comes back! 🙄

[@laleezy77]

Same here I'm still wowing

[@PaigeSquared]

I've been in & out of therapy for about 15yrs now, and I also have NEVER had a single therapist connect mess with mental health, let alone history of trauma. None of their desks were much neater than mine, though. 👀😆I expressed a lot of angst regarding my inability to keep a tidy house, and each one seemed to dismiss or brush it off. I would be told I'm worrying about the wrong things, or not to take it so seriously. The male therapists would look at me with pity, as if they were thinking, "poor woman, stressing herself out over matters so frivolous." This video's summary of how mess is interconnected with a dysfunctional history was *very* relevant to my life & how I "keep house!!" Too relevant. 😅 Last week I watched a KZbin video about decluttering home and mind, it was on Mel Robbins channel (I don't remember the name of who she interviewed, the woman was a blogger who stumbled into the field via addressing her own issues). I found the interview VERY informational, and I can honestly say just one week after watching that video (it was like an hour and a half long) I have less stress and feel less overwhelmed about my house. I actually have a bit of hope that every surface isn't going to be cluttered forever, that I will be able to maintain a house that I'm not embarrassed of when I have visitors. The main idea that stuck out to me was the perception of "getting the house in shape," as being a project vs ongoing process/daily habit. I attack a cleaning like a project, because my daily "normal" isn't able to maintain the house at my preferred level of cleanliness. Instead of addressing the house the way you would any other project, apparently it is less stressful to approach it with methods that can become an ongoing (daily) process, so that the daily reality is closer to our preference. Another concept I really liked was the "container concept," which helps prioritize what to keep around difficult emotions that (usually) get in the way of minimizing/letting things go. A place to live has only so much space; our dressers are not infinite, the containers have a max amount. We come to terms with the reality of the amount of stuff our containers can reasonably handle. The issue isn't filth/mold with clutter, moreso too much stuff than the container can fit comfortably! Purging the excess stuff is no longer you choosing to toss things due to their value/lack of; it becomes a process of honoring the space you have and it's true capacity, as well as being authentic/ in tune with yourself and the life you want to have. Basically you fill your containers with your favorite things until they are full. If you find that you wish to add something, you choose which thing is less favored comparatively for you personally. (Almost like a boundary issue, now that I think of it; extra clutter might be an inability to recognize the boundaries of a container/space; what will fit properly and look nice and not frustrate us.) I definitely recommend listening to that interview if you get the chance! I started listening to it "in the background," while I was cooking, but I ended up stopping about halfway through and restarting from the beginning, when I was able to sit down and take notes!! I didn't think they'd say anything that was actually new or shocking about keeping a clean home, TBH. They actually covered four or five ideas and systems that were quite different from how I have ever considered cleaning or organizing.

[@lakiaraduran]

@@PaigeSquared was the person being interviewed KC Davis? Her book “How To Keep House While Drowning” helped me so much. I resonate with everything you said. A male therapist told me that I’m just messy and that’s ok and that a man will like me as I am. 🙄But no, I’m not messy, I like clear spaces, I just have trauma and chronic disregulation. What an incompetent asshole he was

[@gobears6487]

Oddly enough I am happy to clean other people's clutter and organize other people's stuff... but I absolutely get that overwhelmed thing about my own! Thanks for this 🙏👍

[@inana3408]

same here....

[@naznow]

Same-since there’s no emotional attachment the decisions are almost effortless for me if I’m helping someone else.

[@ItCantRainForever2]

Truth be told it's cuz we are attached to our stuff

[@loriraemorris4142]

Same❤😅😅

[@bonnacon1610]

Yes, because there’s no shame attached to someone else’s stuff, whereas our own is marinaded in shame.

[@sauravbasu8805]

I live in the eastern part of India and there is a custom of cleaning and decluttering our homes which takes place before the new year of our Bengali calender comes. The cleaning is about a month-long process done daily in bits (say, discarding old, torn unusable clothes, empty boxes, cleaning walls and floors, washing bedcovers and cushions, cleaning the garden etc.)which ends in the last day of the old year. On new year, we have a custom of wearing new clothes after taking bath, eating and distributing sweets, wishing friends and relatives for a happy year ahead. I think having a deadline and making it an annual custom of giving a clean and fresh start help a great deal.

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

That sounds lovely!

[@lisaknaggs1088]

Makes soooo much sense that this would be helpful culturally (non-shaming as everyone is doing it) plus people can anticipate the time and practice and know that "this is what we're doing now!" Thanks so much for sharing! Peace to you

[@GingerNinja1]

@sauravbasu8805 Excellent idea. I also think it makes a person feel more accountable when everyone else is doing this along with you. Short-term goals though with a beginning & an end makes it more manageable in my opinion. Thanks for the idea.

[@robertahubert9155]

That's me totally 😢😢

[@countrygirl4422]

I wash my bed covers a lot more often than that.

[@aquachonk]

Clutter CAUSES anxiety and depression for me. I've become a minimalist on so many levels and it's so friggin' RELAXING.

[@abiahpelem2649]

same here .

[@dubya5626]

Just explained to my adult son as we watched this video that anxiety/clutter/anxiety/(etc.) is not only a vicious cycle that "snowballs" as things get worse, but often are a chicken/egg phenomenon. It is not important which came first, and often there is no way to tell. Other things, such as being busy and short on time, and pulled from all sides, I've found, can trigger both at the same time! Often there are external factors -- sometimes related to past trauma -- that can trigger one, the other, or both. It is good to be aware of this, and prepared to break the cycle early, as soon as you are away. This video, perhaps most importantly, helps one prepare to identify the presence of clutter/anxiety, and get in front of it. Start small, especially if feeling overwhelmed. Rome wasn't built in a day, and neither was the site for building Roma cleared/decluttered in a day! I explained to my son that if you know both are occurring and you find yourself in pajamas on Saturday at 11 AM, sometimes the best thing you can do to work on the clutter (and to dispel the feeling of being overwhelmed) is to take a shower and get dressed, first! Clutter/anxiety is tied closely into associated (even if minimal semblance of) depression and self-defeating thoughts. Best to start at the bottom with the simple yet important things, and work up ... Little by little. Minimalism movement is great, but some influencers make it sound easy and once-and-done. It is most certainly not! Decluttering, like Minimalism, is a process of not only changing the status quo, but also changing our outlooks and behaviors. This can only occur a little at a time. Again, Rome...

[@wookie7409]

Well said. @@dubya5626

[@faigee3493]

I never found it relaxing struggling to keep up . When I was young, I was rushing around like a nut case trying to keep everything in placemaking. Sure, laundry toys, etc. We're all put in place and nicely done. And I had several older ladies. Tell me your children will only be children for a little while. And you're not even letting them play healthfully. Because you are insistent upon having everything, put away nicely, they said, relax and enjoy your life Perfection is not to be all and end all. In fact my mind felt so much more healthy after that. There did come time as my children got olderthat I insisted they help me keep things organized. And to be honest, I have a couple of my children who are not healthy mentally but they keep their place in order and it is a big thing for them. I think somehow some people feel like if you look organized and you look healthy somehow. It will happen and you will feel better about yourself. I don't know. I definitely need to unclutter but I do not want to become obsessed with it again like I used to be

[@gottabme]

Kinda went from one extreme to the other, myself.

[@nathanrohde3292]

While clutter can induce certain types of stress, its a sign of "I don't have the cognitive load to make the decisions to address this problem."

[@katiekane5247]

🎯

[@chintz7428]

This is all too common in older folks as they age

[@lyndseygolden7546]

That’s so true

[@danielaruhl1710]

Spot on!

[@prizethought]

Its similar to how people with a ton of unresolved & unhealed trama/baggage are over x10 more likely to be addicted to something, their brains are seeking coping mechanisms for all the stockpiled hidden pain and they don't even know it.

[@user-kg2jc9ym6h]

“Your trauma is an injury not your identity.” Thank you for this!!!

[@martycech5844]

Amen!

[@wmfife1]

Yes I was going to say the same. Priceless truth.

[@TheCynicalJay]

god it's so difficult to realize this... thank you all for reminding me

[@jasminehasan890]

Identification is often mental clutter

[@angelaharris1112]

Easier said than done. 😪

[@angelaelenbaas218]

The important thing to remember here is that she says it’s a strong hypothesis. This is her rendition of clutter. Being too organized can also be a symptom of trauma as it gives one a sense of control. Don’t beat yourself up. Just make effort to do better everyday.

[@latebloomer7191]

It's ok. She's talking to those of us with clutter issues. The last section is very helpful, because it expands "clutter" to emotional blocks. It's wonderful content!

[@BEAUTYnIQ]

​@latebloomer7191 cut it out.. thenOP has a right to express an opposing opinion if she wants..! control your issues..! they can be either side of the fence.. gl!

[@lynnettepryor7460]

Agreed extremes of both are not healthy minds

[@lynncolbert7280]

When I try to clean up my clutter I get so tired that I need to lie down. I feel incapacitated and overwhelmed.

[@LuluLulu-jw9fi]

Start by doing 15 minutes a day . Use microwave timer on and stop after 15 minutes. Doing 15 minutes a day will be 1.5 hrs a week. Increase as you become competent and feel no so tired anymore

[@patriciapayne1274]

@@LuluLulu-jw9fi I'm the same way. I like your suggestion. Thanks.

[@janegolson237]

My mom says, “The item has served its purpose. Now let it go.” That phrase has been so helpful for me.

[@hankhill3417]

That is what some people say about their spouse

[@kfoster3616]

@@hankhill3417 - indeed they do

[@pokeystar1980]

It's hard to let go of gifts. I struggle with this. It makes me feel I'm ungrateful.

[@NancySTL]

I love that!!!

[@sunrise2570]

@@hankhill3417 🤣

[@kelliesmith4068]

While going to a therapist when I was in that 23 year abusive marriage (1980 to 2003), I told my therapist I just didn't have the energy to keep the kitchen clean & keep up with the housework. He said something insightful for me. He said it made sense bcuz I was using soooooo much energy just to survive life being married to the abusive husband. Now, in retrospect, 20 years agter the divorce, I see I really am a person capable to keep up with the housework. It really saps energy keeping clutter around, but it is so difficult to declutter while trying to survive.

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

Great points, thank you for sharing. -Cara@TeamFairy

[@Type_null14]

I will survive this. Thank you 🙏 it's been very difficult just to give myself some grace.

[@SRR0247]

"... it is so difficult to declutter while trying to survive" - you said it!

[@sonnyroy497]

Yes, I understand what it's like to be married to someone like that, it's very traumatizing. It's taken me years to heal from this. I'm still healing and praying and healing.... it's a process ✝️🙏✝️.

[@nmc1859]

Thank you for sharing this. I am with a narcissistic spouse and it makes a lot of sense. I never had this problem prior to being with him

[@ArleneHeer]

I did not have childhood trauma and was neat and tidy for decades…..until I married a narcissist. I was never familiar with this disorder and after the “love bombing” experienced emotional and verbal abuse that was foreign to me. I knew I had to leave, then he had a stroke and the guilt of “what will people think if I leave him now…he was such a great guy”, kept me in the marriage another seven years. I almost let his behavior kill me physically and emotionally. Over seven years have passed and I am finally done picking up the pieces of myself. During the period of divorcing, my clutter was paralyzing. I slowly dug myself out with the help of my son…..but I’m a work in progress. Thank you for your insight. I need to hear more of what you have to say!

[@user-ce7jc7ml6i]

You are lucky your ex didn't alienate your son. Mine has alienated both my children.

[@user-bs5sk9kp3c]

I did a sharp intake of breath when I read your comment. Sounds precisely the same as my situation, except I am all on my own. It's so difficult.

[@Brainalicious]

Life is HARD! I'm proud of you.

[@melissacabrera8545]

​@user-bs5sk9kp3c you are never alone. God is with you. Reach out to DV support groups, maybe that will help. I know the shame is paralizing...Please love yourself enough to get out of unkind situations.

[@pittymama4500]

Me too! I kept the best house and I was super mommy until he broke me. Now I'm just broken and no longer social butterfly as my own children I hardly even see anymore because I don't leave the house in order to go do anything and they don't want to just come hang out with me at my house. Why don't they want to come hang out at my house? Because I just have a lot of stuff! There's a never-ending cycle to this s***.

[@BeMoreMd]

Clutter began for me almost 20 years ago when my mom died and I had to raise my special needs sister who was 13 at the time. I became so overwhelmed that I couldn't focus on anything other than my sister. The clutter in my mind spilled over into all aspects of my life. This video is so powerful and life changing!

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

I'm so glad the video was helpful, thanks for sharing :) -Calista@TeamFairy

[@CJ-tf5yd]

I’ll bet you raised her well! Blessings to you!❤️✌️

[@UVIcki]

Yes, as a parent of SN kids I can relate.

[@kimberlyolsen9995]

What I relate to is so much these life events the passing of someone where we take on the items of other people, especially the items of other people we care and love so much that have gone on… Parents, death, kids, leaving the nest,… It’s not where it all began for me with clutter, but it intensified the situation and itmade the part where I feel immobile locked into place

[@kimberlyolsen9995]

Oh, but what I meant to say, you have a situation in the present tense a living situation, a life situation that demands all your attention. You can’t always just take care of even having a few extra hours or minutes to fix up all the clutter and get it organized, especially with the overwhelm in your life and mind.

[@StarOnTheWater]

Trauma causes anxiety. Anxiety causes clutter. Clutter causes anxiety.

[@missyflutter5562]

Boom

[@ItCantRainForever2]

I agree 💯

[@CorePathway]

Clutter helps me hide.

[@kellygreenii]

For some. For me clutter keeps people away. I feel less anxious. Plus I think it was one of the few areas of passive resistance as a child to my mother’s intrusive and controlling behavior. You want a clean house? Yeah? Watch this…..

[@luluthedoberman7490]

As I read "clutter keeps people away" I thought: Ah! Why should people be kept away, did people cause harm in the past? Then I read further and it makes total sense. It's almost like a subconscious defense mechanism or behaviour meant to protect the self from harm (in this case: people/mother). Thank you for sharing because now I understand myself even better.

[@Chrisbybeebee]

My husband recently had to be hospitalized for four months due to a back injury. The 911 emergency workers and police reported us to social services for having a toxic mess and for the clutter being unsafe for him. I was forced to have my house cleaned or they wouldn't let him come home and he would probably be placed in a home. We worked with the social worker and she put me in touch with a restoration company. We split the cost and I just had my home professionally deep-cleaned and de-cluttered. 13 years worth of clutter, cigarette butts and grimy dirt! It cost thousands of dollars and was well worth it! I feel so happy and energized and have now organized my papers and finances. My self-esteem is soaring and now I don't feel fear and shame at the thought of having people drop in. I hope others can somehow get help in clearing and cleaning their homes. My city has a "hoarding team" which works in conjunction with our health department. I just couldn't do it on my own. I spent 3 1/2 months planning it my head and was paralyzed as far actually making a move on my own. So when it was coming to "crunch time" about a week befoe he was released, we finally hired the restoration team. They cleaned the house from top to bottom in 3-4 days. The health department chipped in thankfully. I would encourage people to check and see if their municipality or health department could assist in both counseling you and in doing the actual clean-up. It may cure your needless suffering. Most of all, I wish you lots of ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤🕊🕊🕊🕊

[@jackandlill]

What a great story of inspiration Christine! Thank you for sharing about your city having a "hoarding team" - what a great, great idea! I had no idea such a thing might exist! It's always so inspiring when people are courageous enough to share their truth - so thank you!! Enjoy this new space & place within yourself. ♥

[@angelacahill9460]

Brave and selfless of you to share your experience. Thank you! Glad it's a happy ending.

[@mossyoakmom8880]

That is wonderful ! We knew some people that used to be our neighbors that had a house that was dirty and over taken by animal smell. The husband had a stroke and lived a few more years in this mess before he died. Too bad they didn’t have to clean it up before he came home from the hospital. I feel his last years would have been more peaceful in a clean, decent environment.

[@foofyastralpunk5875]

Thank you for sharing your amazing experience. I'm glad your husband was able to come back to your home and share in your reenergized space. So brave of you to go through this and tell us about the experience. The fact that your city government was able to facilitate and help pay for this service is so great! I for one never realized that this was an option out there. Love and light to you and I'm sure your newfound energy will lead you down new and exciting paths!❤️

[@ursulafogle458]

Wow. What a wonderful support response. I'm so glad you were able to get that kind of help from your community. My best hopes for you and your husband.

[@sherrymcmullin1914]

Finally I understand trauma. Everything makes so much sense. Clutter, feeling stuck, non social, shame, blame. Thank you so much.❤

[@tmichaelsnc]

I'm a guy who has been stuck for years with, for many reasons, trapped with the thoughts, I gotta, why can't I, shame and so forth. I listen to all types of persons to help with motivation to get things done. I used to and always was ,on top of my responsibilities, and keeping things in "order." It was so important to me. Over time, I stopped caring, and chaos began. I avoided watching your message for about 4 days after it popped up. Knowing the struggle of being accountable, I was discouraged. I have to say I am so glad I listened to your post. You were spot on with your message. I wasn't irritated or felt the need to fast forward , and I listened I began to take action. I really like you. You are real and sincere. 😮 thank you so much for just being real. I so appreciate that. The most useful message I've seen in a very, very long time. Kudos to you!!! You've made a difference. I listened three or more times as I was truly motivated. Huge back story to me, but many many thanks yous.

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

We're all sending you encouragement :) -Calista@TeamFairy

[@CJ-tf5yd]

I can relate. I did the same thing. She’s super, and very helpful! No more hating ourselves!✌️❤️

[@christineputman4850]

Yes She is able to relate with us. As she has had to overcome some things also.

[@MariaHurst-jg4ze]

Yes so can I one day at a time or even 5min yes we get stuck child hood truma gives us a hard life going forward we don't understand why us why do we feel so sad but only we can change it we can find peace I'm trying to anyway you are in my prayers

[@truthteller816]

" Your trama is an INJURY, NOT an IDENTITY, IT'S NOT WHO YOU ARE." I love ❤ this statement, more people need to hear this truth ❣️

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

Agreed :) -Cara@TeamFairy

[@SE45CX]

Do away with the people in your life who take your trauma as your identity.

[@whobeyou5342]

I think many younger people today are embracing the exact opposite idea. Trauma has become trendy like a fashion style that many people on social media try to one-up each other with.

[@laurierounds7102]

I love that!! Thank you

[@josepablolunasanchez1283]

That is a common mistake among people. If a person HAS flu, flu is seen as a disease caused by microorganisms. But for some strange reason, people say "you ARE" + name of a mental issue. To BE and to HAVE are different things. We need NOT to normalize lack of health. I suspect that narcissistic people with power want not to be criticized and that is why they promote such ill normalization principles. They fear criticism so much and they believe that they are the standard, not the outlier. And that is part of their disorder.

[@user-lv8gc6vw4g]

Less than 3 minutes into this and I was in tears. For the 1st time in my 60+ years everything makes sense to me.

[@purplepheasant4776]

Wow. Better late than never. Time to begin to live. You can do this!

[@TheJosieDavisChannel]

There is a Clutters Anonymous

[@wendi2819]

Me too ❤❤❤

[@tanyamiller6083]

Yes

[@wendyellis6402]

This would be me.

[@jschoeneck]

Wow lack of power, we as children who were abused never had power . We couldn’t control any thing we were never taught how to control the healthy way of being able to make choices. Wow wow wow! Thank you !

[@luckyneko1]

Chronic illness for much of my life has been my biggest trauma. I cry for people and animals that are suffering. The little things I buy to cheer myself up are causing more stress. Recent years I've dealt with the loss of 2 people I love the most. I'd love to return to my childhood. Thank you for this.

[@iseethroughyou]

I actually organized a pile of important papers today, and I felt so good afterward, I actually mowed my lawn and have been singing ever since. Lately, I tend to put away one or two things every time I walk into a room or a different space, and my Mantra has been: "Hey, it's better than it was" LOL. One day at a time, my friends. We're going to make it through this.

[@suekelsey1329]

Me also!👍

[@TheMissionLog]

Same! I also may do something like "today I will clean up 26 things" (since I'm 26 years old). My husband does the same thing because I do it (he cleans 32 things)

[@movingonandup322]

I love this! "Hey. It's better than it was!" Very good thing to say to yourself after improving in any way. It's like giving yourself a gold star for your little victory! I got 2 things done today that were hanging over my head for a while now... but at the cost of failing at getting done another thing I really wanted to get done today too. I'm trying to focus on giving myself credit for the 2 things and not to sulk about the failure of the 1 task not completed.

[@nativetexan53]

Your method is the same method i have for cleaning house. I pick up clothes to put in the laundry and i remember i have to put the wash in the dryer, which i also have to empty before i can empty the washing machine. Then i remember I needed some of that stuff to clean your machine off of Amazon so I go to my phone to order it before i forget. Then when I'm on Amazon i remember that i meant to order vitamins so i order those too. And the beat goes on.....

[@loradunn2993]

Recently, I was trying to remove "One thing, from each room, every day." It was going pretty well up to the point when i had to go out of state for a bit, then got sick, then had a family emergency, then injured my back. Hoping to get back on track soon. Like you said, one day at a time. And appreciate the win, no matter how small.

[@froggy8030]

The Clutter is a comfort blanket I have against facing the emptiness and my sadness and anxiety worthlessness

[@user-lw3ri8us4w]

yep. and i've noticed surrounding myself with stuff i like (books, games, clothes, journals) and letting them be everywhere/wherever instead of organizing them, makes me feel constantly "comforted". i also love that i am rebelling against my abusive mom's obsession with "cleanliness" over even her children's mental health.

[@mida-hg6jm]

@@user-lw3ri8us4w hey are you okay?

[@KoolT]

Also it says, I HAVE ALL THIS, I OWN all this, especially if you grew up really poor

[@rupinderh01]

You might find running on empty books 1 and 2 helpful

[@victoriarosario3338]

@@KoolT That was my Dad in a nutshell. When videocassettes came out, he just couldn't believe all of the movies that he could own!

[@marcielynn4886]

I live in aTiny house, if I leave a newspaper on the couch, my whole house looks clutterd.😮

[@soomitch9177]

I live in a small house and about to move into a Tiny. I know exactly what you mean! :)

[@g.m.robertson8700]

matter of opinion

[@margaretlockhart6198]

😲

[@solarwinds-]

I was that little bird stuck in a cage that I could never leave. The door was open but I could not fly out. It wasn't an abusive relationship or anything, it was the work world. Even tho I had spent a lifetime saving money & I had my social security, I could never retire bc I would starve, I would lose my house. I saw the work force getting younger and younger than me. I got to the point where I felt so out of place. I was like the old lady of the office. I had NOTHING in common with my coworkers. The work world began to be so alien to me. Well the stock market losing 10% of my savings every time I turned around got me to a financial advisor and he showed me, yes you can fly out of that cage and have a retirement. He set me up with a secure annuity without the stock market. Now, I'm free! I'm free! I'm free!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[@fionaparr4768]

I wish.

[@user-yt3so4pk7u]

The GREAT REPUBLICAN RECESSION DID ME IN, I HAD SAVED FOR 40 YEARS BUT I WAS SELF-EMPLOYED SO NO GOVERNMENT ASSISTANCE. I DIDN’T HAVE WORK I HAD MY SAVINGS. I LIVED ON MY RETIREMENT SAVINGS FOR 4 YEARS DEPLETED MY SAVINGS. NOW AS A RETIRED PERSON I AM POOR,

[@BEAUTYnIQ]

​@@user-yt3so4pk7uit wasn't republicans.. go back to barney frank who was a Democrat, he should be in jail for what he did to fanny mae and freddy mac.. even W (republican president, warned us on the front page of the NY times..!) said something should be done abt fanny mae and freddy mac.. but the Dem congress wouldnt.. it was the clintons who de-funded our intel and caused 911.. and also clinton had an almost Trillion (yes with a capital "T"..!) Trillion $$ dollar surplus (SURPLUS!) when he took office.. and what did he do with it.. ffs educate yourself on what happened before parroting the soros-sponsored cnn propaganda..

[@BEAUTYnIQ]

​@@user-yt3so4pk7ualso even if self-employed.. after 4O years you should easily hav a decent social security amount unless you broke the law and never paid taxes and employment deductions..

[@margaretlockhart6198]

Well done and Congratulations!😃

[@kathyoverton998]

It's a vicious cycle. Not only do I have some hoarding issues, but my brother was a hoarder and my mother was a depression-era mom. My hoarding brother passed away over a year ago and my mother moved in with my other brother due to her dementia. Here I am trying to get my mother's house straightened out while dealing with other family drama. I am ADHD and the sole caregiver of my autistic niece. So I am extremely overwhelmed. This makes me feel like I can't do anything. It's very hard to even start. But I did one thing. I got rid of a mattress that was just sitting around and that opened up a lot of space. Seeing that freespace motivated me to get started and I have gotten a lot done since then.

[@iyaayas]

I love your Analysis of the Space. I go at least 5 years at a time collecting clutter until I've had enough and start cleaning until I run out of steam (usually when all space is used and I don't want to get rid of anything). I usually get started by opening up one space area. Then I use that space for sorting and getting rid of things while deciding where to put keep things. My first step is to get boxes and sort between trash and non-trash (Non-Trash Gets sorted according to the room I'm going to just those those things in while I focus on decluttering and cleaning just one room). Sadly, I've never gotten fully past the first step in my 22 years of adulthood. But at least I can manage not to let my home become a hoarder's paradise.

[@vermilliongecko]

I feel for you, but I'm also really proud of you for getting started.

[@Staceyintampa]

You can do this! You are obviously the strongest person ever because you were gifted for caring for others that cannot take care of themselves. It's helped me to do just 1 thing, without allowing any other thoughts to creep in. Do 1 thing at a time. If you make a decision on 1 thing, move to the next. And allow yourself to feel the accomplishment of doing that 1 thing. Good luck!

[@imeldapearce]

P)

[@iseethroughyou]

I celebrate the tiniest of successes these days. like putting away one or two items when I go into another room. My Mantra has been Hey it's better than it was. But you're right, even doing one thing provides instant gratification ( and probably a dopamine rush LOL) and really helps with the shame. I got rid of an exercise machine & 3 old lawn mowers that were part of the giant mountain of things in my garage and it really really helped. You quite a lot on your hands to go through at one time, and I am relating with you quite a bit with my situation. We got this! I truly feel lighter and have hope for the future. I know we're going to make it :) I'm so practiced at being resilient but today I had some healthy anger and my Rebellion picked up today and I literally refuse to let these difficult times get the best of me. Light and love and healing strength to you, my friend.

[@cindyarnold3003]

While listening to you I was making a donation pile and bagging it. For the last couple months I've taken at least two bags a week and drop them off on my way to work. The wonderful feeling I get from this is fantastic! I've ended toxic relationships by saying no to people who aren't good for my mental health. I'm about to pay off a credit card, I bought myself some new furniture and am changing my diet. I'm tired of being " stuck".

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

It sounds like you're making great progress! Thanks for sharing. -Calista@TeamFairy

[@pjj9491]

Omg...you are sooooo right

[@pjj9491]

The older I get and less physicality I have, the more crap stacks up...cant declutter when u cant pickup the bags and boxes, so we stack...nobody likes around me and now its too cluttered to hire someone😢😂

[@Thomassina1]

Good for you, it's very uplifting, you are taking back your power.

[@cindyarnold3003]

PJj, just try one little space at a time. With me it's like the more I declutter the more energy I have. Starting is the hardest part.

[@randallsmerna384]

I trade time with a buddy that struggles with clutter as I do and we work at each other's house. Having that input and support really helps challenge you.

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

Thanks for sharing! -Calista@TeamFairy

[@suzystrikie]

I’m French, Listening to you make me feel less alone in this issue of cluttering. Thank you 🙏 By the way: I’m cluttering in cycles,sometimes I have times I’m well organized and then I come back to the times I make believe myself that I don’t mind of anything which is around me… Sorry for poor English 😅

[@sauravbasu8805]

Did you ever observe that you clutter more when you have lower physical and mental energy ?

[@Gracie.Gardener]

As a child, my parent would demand that I clean and then scream at me the entire time. It was never good enough. I was constantly teased for being the messy one. It felt like I could never get away from any of it. It ate away at my self worth. I broke free from it all when I gave away 99% of what I owed in 2021. For the first time in my life I felt free. I was free of expectation. Free of things I don’t want or need. Life is simpler with less! I can still be a bit messy (especially when I cook) but as I heal, I desire a calmer, less cluttered environment.

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

Yes, freedom is the answer. That was a hard situation to get out of, happy for you :) -Cara@TeamFairy

[@user-lw3ri8us4w]

oh my god i had the exact same experience. my mother was so disgustingly abusive and shamey when it came to cleaning. OF COURSE i'd grow to fcking hate it and avoid it. in my case i still accumulate things and am messy, but i'm slowly getting better as i heal as well. congratulations on your healing so far and blessings for your future healing.

[@JoeHoboBro]

I have the same problem! My dad would yell at me that I'm messy and to clean but didn't tell me how or what to do. My mother would scream at me to clean and then tell me I did it wrong and she would do it herself after I had tried. I learned that it's not something I can do and just didn't try anymore because it makes me feel like I'm not good enough and I would just avoid it. I'm trying to associate good things with cleaning now. I put on music and make a to do list and watch cleaning videos to learn. I'm not over it but I'm working on it.

[@ashleyyohn4006]

I do (but from here on it will be DID) this. I don't scream at them the entire time but I get so angry that they don't do it right. It's always been in my head, that they have enough time to do it right. Thank you for sharing this. I have never seen it from this perspective. (OCD on cleanliness but not clutter apparently)

[@lisaknaggs1088]

I can sooo relate, y'all! Not only did my mom yell at me with an abusive mantra that she repeated until I cried so hard I was hyperventilating, then she would have me go help her organize (hold boxes, put them down, hand them back to her) When I was curious about what was in a box and wanted to know more, I got in trouble for asking, shamed, and learned to be quiet and play assistant to my mom, praying she wouldn't re-start the abuse. When I got introduced to IFS (Internal Family Systems) and could name "a part of me holds on to things longer than they are useful" or "a part of me feels overwhelmed and doesn't believe I can ever get organized," REALLY helped me stop shaming myself and start believing in me. I LOVE organizing WITH someone helping me (ADHD, too) White board helps me loads, too! Love and Peace, Hope & Deep Breathing to you all! xo

[@msjgavf1]

favorit phrase, your trauma is an injury not an identity. You happened accidentally on my feed and I needed to hear you! Thank you for this video

[@WORTHY333]

Ditto 💞

[@kdawg4585]

Same. This popped up under a completely unrelated video but I never thought clutter was a result of past trauma.

[@blessed7645]

Same here.... It was by accident and i so needed to hear this.. 💕🙏🏾

[@tcla3854]

I heard that too

[@synergy2222]

Me too! So glad you came up in my feed. I'm just starting therapy for depression and want him to watch this video because I don't know if he understands these connections. I got a TBI (traumatic brain injury) at work in April 2019 and I've never been so overwhelmed with clutter, and feelings of absolute humiliation. I'd just unloaded 2 storage units to my small home after selling my 2nd home. My current home is 675 sq ft the other was 2025 sq ft and there was a lot of things to purge, donate, etc. My intention was to go through it all as quickly as possible and then I got the TBI and multiple bodily injuries. Within 5 days I couldn't walk or talk normal and had multi tonal tinnitus 24/7 and couldn't sleep for almost 2 years. I would go in spurts of purging then go into the inability to make decisions mindset and I was fatigued by the mental, emotional thoughts of the daunting tasks and then beating myself up over being 'lazy'. I'm still not back to work as dizzy spells from the injury keep resurfacing and it's likely I may not be able to. I'm a flight attendant and I loved my job, so I'm also dealing with confusion, fear, and uncertainty of my future. I'm feeling like a shell of my 'self' as I've had no social life, no physical support system other than by phone with a few friends. I know just having my clutter gone I will free up stuck energy and feel better about myself and see more open choices for my life. But I'm 67 and I feel I'm just watching the countdown of my life as I lose myself in the process.

[@tammyjohnston4874]

Thank you for your insight on this clutter in my home and in my head. I’m 63 years old and I’ve had trauma throughout 90% of it. Is cost me dearly, and is now affecting my daily life and home. Nobody understands that I hate living this disorganized and I’m severely embarrassed on a daily basis. Reminding me constantly of my failures is not helping me, it’s making things worse. I now understand that it is really a product of my disability, and now I can fix it over time. I can move mountains for others, I just can’t seem to do it for myself. 🙏🙏

[@lisabonneyberry4198]

I'm 54 years old and my 18 year marriage, 22 year relationship is ending in part because of my clutter issues. This is the first time I've ever come across a true understanding of what's happening. I recently stumbled into a trauma therapy group and realized how much childhood trauma I carry, and when I listen to the first half of this video you describe so many things about me and my house and my world to a T. It's one of the first times I could sit here and not just feel shame about what I'm not able to do and about the way things accumulate around me even though I do engage and decluttering. I've always struggled with how it just comes back and I couldn't understand the dynamic. I never considered myself a hoarder so I appreciate your delineation because I don't think that that describes me, I think it is truly clutter issues tied to CPTSD. I may have found this too late to save my marriage but it could save my life and my sense of myself and create a better future for my 15-year-old daughter 💖

[@jt4621]

Growing up poor... that really hit home. Trauma, fear of losing someone or something precious, fear of losing memories, hoarding and clutter are a big part of my life. Your success gives me hope.

[@batintheattic7293]

Yes. When we are so used to not having things when we need them we will collect them when we can - because that's security for us.

[@jt4621]

@@batintheattic7293 security that came in handy when lockdowns due to the pandemic occurred, but not necessary at all times. I am striving to make it into a reasonable amount instead of going overboard like a zombie apocalypse is about to happen! I think my anxiety over the uncontrollable has a huge part in my hoarding, growing up poor was just a part. Praying for healing.

[@sunnyadams5842]

​@@jt4621 Keep it moving, Baby - You got this! Jesus is a Big Help! Couldn't do it without Him. ❤

[@zakiraperkovic6221]

I am with you

[@patriciasalem3606]

Yes. A lot of decluttering advice is "Just toss it - you can buy another if you need it." But many people can't buy another when the time comes. Anyone who has ever been poor probably hangs onto more things "just in case."

[@loribabineaux2945]

I've found that working on my clutter in 5 minute increments is manageable. Thinking I have to spend 2 hours or all day on it makes it even more overwhelming that it already is. Five minutes feels manageable. This also helps with my mental clutter.

[@vlw4165]

I agree. Used to motivate my kids with the finale of the William Tell Overture (Lone Ranger music) to see how much we could put away before that rousing music ended. Nowadays I play the "game of 10" with myself. When the clutter is overwhelming, I say to myself, "Well, I'll just put away 10 things." That goes fast and I'm usually motivated to play the same game again and again.

[@Rollwithit699]

Thank you! I'll try that, one small spot, 5-10 minutes a day. It should eventually help make a difference. All the paper clutter is so embarrassing but every time I try to fix it, my heart starts pounding and I'm extremely overwhelmed.

[@janine8843]

I really like this idea. I'm an all or nothing type, which basically have me doing nothing.😂 Thank you for this great suggestion. 😊

[@machitect]

Thanks for the tip. Actually, after watching this video I started removing stuff already. Will work on toiletries later in the day. This is so freeing.

[@rachaelkp]

​@@machitect Good change! 🎉

[@debh5780]

Finally, this is described as a physical problem of being overwhelmed instead of something to be blamed for and ashamed of. All that does is add to the problem. Amazing work !!! 😮😮😮💜💜💜

[@MarthaRodriguez-hy3xf]

❤

[@jajanesaddictions]

My Clutter is that my father died when I was 4 and I believe people either die on you or leave you. I don't trust anyone.

[@asea5130]

You can find a help with God; the Father who made you in his image, the Son Jesus who lived, and was Crucified, died for Our sins, and Rose from the dead, Conquering death for us...and the Holy Spirit who is With us on Earth Always! I am so sorry for your Great Loses, God will Never leave us...I am praying for you and Us, try talking to God, I am Catholic and we are lost without God. You are worth it!

[@ELCPAKansas]

Gosh! Clutter is a SYMPTOM. A side effect. Not a character flaw or mental disability. So much truth and enlightenment in the first 7 minutes of this video. Thank you! 👏💡

[@Abril-1234]

I feel so much shame about my inability to keep my home clean 😭

[@kissmissthis]

@@Abril-1234 you’re still a good person and that’s what matters.

[@lizziesangi1602]

@@Abril-1234 True! It's worse when we get older. Just FOLLOW simple rules - Throw garbage in garbage can. All garbage and food. Keep the kitchen sink empty. Hang up clothes. Put clothes in drawers. ALWAYS clean the toilet bowl. Vacuum - picks up hair, dust, crumbs, ashes. Maybe you're eligible for a home health aid. In NJ they do laundry, vacuum, dust, clean bathroom, wash dishes - like a personal house cleaning. Please look into that through your social services, food stamps and ask your Doctor. You can do it!!! God bless you 🌹✝️🌹

[@tillygirl7450]

@@lizziesangi1602 I can get through the first half of your list dealing with the kitchen. I may not always get to everything else - as long the kitchen is clean and organized - it becomes my focal point to help me not get overwhelmed as much.

[@MyOver50]

​@@tillygirl7450 Put the stuff on a weekly calendar because breaking it down makes it easier. Once that system is working add small tasks to it. Be aware of your place feeling better to be in & treat yourself with a new tea, flowers, etc..

[@alison4316]

C-PTSD person here. I accumulate stuff. I collect. I have a difficult time throwing "sentimental" things away. Thank you for this.

[@iahelcathartesaura3887]

SAME HERE!!! Your comment does me MUCH GOOD to read 😊🙏 (and the number of thumbs up when I read your comment is the same # as my birthday lol. A sentimental, meaningful synchronicity for me 😊 🧡) ALL THE BEST! All mighty, gentle, enjoyable, strengthening healing to you.

[@francesbeth2077]

I understand this we live in the past and have to let things go. It's all psychological. Get counseling and pray. Try to live in the present. I am working on this now.

[@ShannyFMinstereo]

Same ❤

[@maureenkidd6629]

I wouldn't throw away sentimental things....

[@GypsyGirl317]

@@maureenkidd6629 sometimes we have to, in order to clear our space. We can take photos of the items for the memory.

[@christ-upfellowship5413]

My friend Sheila Shaw died and came back. She had an afterlife exoerience. She met Christ and He told her forgiveness and kindness are so important. He also told her He wantw us to "clean your house." She said anything He would not like, get rid of it. This includes your behaviors. Get rid of jealousies, gossip, addictions, etc. she said decluttering helps you to "hear Him." Thr Word talks about "cursed objects," etc. Thanks for this video. ❤❤❤

[@gretchenpinto8852]

I thank God for this woman. This popped up right when I needed to declutter!

[@cjsoywaxcandles]

I’ve finally gotten to the point where I prove to myself I’m healing every time I clean or straighten something up… every time I put something in its place I tell myself how wonderful I am!!! It’s helping!

[@PeaceIsYeshua]

Yes!! FlyLady calls it, “Finally loving yourself.” ❤

[@haveyouflossedtoday]

I haven’t heard of FlyLady for so long! Thank you for the reminder ❤

[@PeaceIsYeshua]

@@haveyouflossedtoday Aww! You’re so welcome! She does daily videos and is so uplifting. I just love her! 🥰

[@anna84259]

Me too. I've become somewhat obsessed with cleaning after escaping an extremely messy environment where I was basically incapable of organizing or cleaning or anything of the sorts. It was also unhealthy, because I've literally had bad breakdowns if I was unable to clean on my "routine clean day" just because I was so horribly afraid that if I don't clean it now I'll never be able to clean again and somehow will go back to that horrid mess I've been living in. I think it's slowly going away and now I'm starting to just appreciate the act itself. I feel accomplished when I see a clean space and I feel like my efforts have paid off. It makes my brain feel good, in a way, like almost nothing does. It's also just nice to do an activity where you can just kind of turn your brain off and just "scrub scrub vacuum scrub no thoughts head empty", it's such a nice feeling when most of the time your brain seems to work on emergency mode.

[@markc1234golf]

bless you what a good tip you made me smile

[@shirleylum2198]

You are absolutely right. My parents were traumatized when they were young, and they in turn traumatized their own children, but this is where I put the stop for my own children. I deal with my CPTSD one day at a time and every day is a new day for healing. I am moving forward everyday, age 65 with CPTSD, and I thank you for your channel.

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

Wonderful to be empowered to stop the cycle! -Cara@TeamFairy

[@cherylmcanally1898]

So spot on..God bless you

[@DulceN]

Same here, best wishes to you.

[@randomisland2872]

I am 71. I had traumatizing parents who had also been traumatized in their childhoods. I'm still working on my issues from having them as parents.

[@shannon4768]

All I can think to say right now is THANK YOU

[@user-ei4zb5xp2p]

Amen

[@jimslancio]

Clutter is a symptom. I'm looking in the mirror. And I'm not reay anxious to get out from behind my clutter. Good thing I stumbled onto this video.

[@Coco_xoxo]

I agree, I’m usually really cluttered. I’ve noticed even when I clean, it doesn’t make me feel less anxious or depressed. I feel the same, the room is just cleaner.

[@s.rogers5773]

Same! Or even if I've cleaned my room, bathroom, etc., I know there's a mess hiding in the cabinets and closet, so cleaning doesn't really feel as fulfilling as it should.

[@despicabledavidshort3806]

I can clean all day but no 😔 ne could ever know bc of the clutter 😭

[@anamac820]

​@@despicabledavidshort3806 I can clean all day but never feel like I cleaned enough....or the overwhelm doesn't go away and I use the excuse of cleaning my house to basically hide from all of my other responsibilities but it really feels like I have to clean because I want to feel calm, but it doesn't work.

[@ItCantRainForever2]

​@@anamac820 omg I get it. Isolation sucks

[@anniehope8651]

To me, cleaning and decluttering isn't fulfilling either. That's why I have so much trouble doing it. I get nothing out of it.

[@SparkHomeschool]

I recently cleaned out a room that had become a storage room. As I went through the layers it was almost like an archaeological dig and I could tell what was happening in my life at the time that that particular stack was created. I realized I was getting super emotional on a certain stack that matched up with the month my dad spent in the hospital. I hadn’t let myself feel any of it. Cleaning out the room also cleaned out the heaviness I had had in my heart over the last 10 months

[@annapachaclarke2392]

Yes, the clutter happens because of emotional attachment to events which happened 😢

[@theresedublin]

Wow!

[@huntswoman]

I’ve done the same thing~ Bless your heart!!! We are so thankful for this realization, aren’t we! It’s rough, but amazing at the same time… may you be blessed as you continue to progress!

[@ella5319]

I at one time kept a very orderly home, worked to make it look good, I cared about things like that, but now my closets are a mess, I rarely polish my furniture, the one thing i do keep neat is my kitchen. I need to get myself together.

[@user-yt3so4pk7u]

Thank you for your understanding. I have all the symptoms. I have anxiety, depression, ADHD & Clutter. I have horrible chronic pain. I am about to have surgery that hopefully will cure it. Before the surgery I have been going through my stuff. To downsize too much good stuff. I want to sell the items of value & that is a challenge. I am on a antidepressant. Pain drains energy. Hopefully when I am healed, I will get it together again. VOTE BLUE

[@Iquey]

Clutter can also be a shield of privacy. If you've had your privacy violated or lacked control as a kid or always has people trying to invalidate your mind, you end up using clutter to put barriers between intruders and a peaceful refuge where you can be yourself, where you can hide pieces of yourself in the clutter that the abuser can't find. The problem is when it gets to a point where you can't even find what you stashed in the clutter, and then you end up forgetting where you put yourself. 😵‍💫 So decluttering is important to keep yourself organized and getting away from abuse is important so you don't have to hide yourself from anyone in your own house.

[@willowway9552]

Thank you so much for your comment. My mother violated every part of me… she raided my room and my clothes regularly. Then I married an abusive, invasive, controlling alcoholic. I managed to heal a lot in therapy and get away from all my abusers. EMDR helped a lot. But then the pandemic brought back all the chaos and distress of my unpredictable childhood. I was once again afraid in my own home. I couldn’t see any point in cleaning just to stay locked up alone in my house. I felt safer with stuff piled all around me. I’m definitely in hiding. Thank you for what you shared. I feel less alone. I’m finally starting to find other ways to feel safe in the world again, and working at coming out from behind all my barricades. 🙏💕✨

[@shelleyd9910]

Thank you for saying that. Now I understand why I keep my wardrobe of clothes on half of my bed that my ex would have had as his side. He was an abuser and withdrew from me sexually. And I never felt safe sleeping next to him. Not sure what to do with this.

[@jamiethrogmorton2540]

Well said. I can totally relate to this as I hide in my messy cocoon.

[@Aprayerfortheloney]

What an insightful comment, I agree it's definitely true in my case.

[@tessH]

You worded what I feel.

[@Jeanne6OH]

My issue with clutter is directly caused by my parents randomly intruding into whatever activity I was engaged to harass and berate me over a situation that had usually been sitting there for some time. They'd force me to clean my room while shrieking the most horrible insults that kids shouldn't deal with at all, my dad loved to stand there while I was washing dishes and tell me what an awful person I was. I tied the knot with my husband on the condition that he would never ask me to do the dishes, ever. I've always hated cleaning and just assumed everyone else did, too. I started watching Clutterbugs, which gave me great insight into my organizational style, which helped a lot, then I started watching Aurikaterina. She LOVES to clean! I was profoundly moved watching this woman bring joy to cleaning, it really changed my perspective on the issue. I bought microfiber cloths, a squeegee and degreaser for the first time and actually started using them. Then I started watching videos on minimalism and the clutter really started to disappear. My family used to tell me that I hated cleaning, then I found out I really loved cleaning, just not when someone was screaming in my face while I was doing it!

[@user-lw3ri8us4w]

oh my god. this comment is so inspiring from me, who went through the exact same thing in childhood. thank you, thank you, for sharing your story.💗

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

What a horrible way to grow up and what an amazing experience of discovering this part of yourself! -Cara@TeamFairy

[@SusanS_]

So sorry you had your Family treat you unkind … God bless and hope you have peace ☮️

[@dashamccormick4088]

Congratulations on getting your mental and emotional power back!!!!

[@inkivaari9392]

@Aurikatariina mentioned 🇫🇮

[@kaylamorgan9157]

When my mental clutter is out of control. I have no motivation to clean be it myself or space. I finally started cleaning again and have made a walking space from the kitchen to the living room. It’s like a breath of fresh air has been taken. Still feel ashamed but I also feel better making this small change. Took out trash, recycling and compost.

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

Good job! Small steps count too! Nika@TeamFairy

[@buckethyacinth9598]

I was a teenager in the 70s too, and what that friend did to you was a double betrayal - first, by going behind your back to make out with your boyfriend, and second not to fess up til SO MUCH later. That was not a genuine friendship, and it SHOULD have fallen apart, regardless of how long ago it happened. Time makes us older, but does not turn us into a completely different person. I know you have dealt with this in your own way, I just wanted to give you a little belated encouragement that you had every right to feel resentment over that. Here's a true 70s friendship for you: my girlfriend going into a nightclub to confront her ex about something, and me out in the parking lot letting the air out of his tires.

[@sandyshanks111]

I had a traumatic childhood and I have the opposite reaction. I can't STAND clutter and I get anxious if my living area isn't clean, streamlined, and clutter-free. Perhaps it's because the one relative who knew my situation and literally saved my life by getting me out of it was very neat and tidy, and I unconsciously emulate her because I was always at peace in her presence.

[@katieegan5178]

That’s so wonderful you were able to have that example to follow 💗

[@cbell8863]

I also had childhood trauma. Like you I'm the opposite. I'm super extra anal about things not being orderly. I HAFTA have everything clean , neat & organized or I CNT function. I literally have brain fog if things are not orderly. Not OCD neat but tidy. I cannot function in dysfunction 🤷‍♀️

[@scotnick59]

I had a bad childhood, but I am like Sandy. I am tidy but not immaculate. Being in a dirty, cluttered house just makes me more depressed.

[@bethlund3945]

I have to have things tidy and clean to function or else I get overwhelmed and stagnant but my husband thrives in the clutter. It’s always caused tension in the marriage. Any advise?

[@PeterLawton]

I think that sometimes clean, streamlined, and clutterfree is a way to control what you can, if only that much of your life. I've seen it in myself and in a few others. One friend had her fridge so clean and organized, it looked like a high end retailer's display case. Her parents had died suddenly and too young, and that hit her hard.

[@mattpool260]

"You start with the thing right in front of you." Might be the best bit of advice I've ever heard. Thank you.

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

Thanks for your kind comment! Happy de-cluttering! Julie@TeamFairy

[@Padraigp]

I do that every day. It doesnt get anywhere. At some point you may need help. Everyday i do whats in front of me which is the dogs stuff the kids stuff the dishes the sink the floor the bathroom etc... but theres then no energy left for organising the guitar related things. Or the old laptop chargers in a box. Lol. At a certain point you have to go beyond whats in front of you which is the daily chores and get somone in to help with the overload.

[@GypsyGirl317]

@@Padraigp I'm finding that taking good supplements, and increasing my protein intake has increased my energy, and I am able to accomplish more. It is a good feeling! 😍 🌿 🙆🏻‍♀️

[@Padraigp]

@@GypsyGirl317 nice. I should remember to get more protien as well when i did force myself it made a difference my muscles felt a lot less sore all the time but ive not been doing it lately. Coffee is not the bets breakfast but sometimes all i feel i have time for. Thanks for the reminder!

[@rnmom65]

I learned more from you in this 38 minute video than I have in the many sessions of therapy...thank you so much. This video is good!!!!

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

I'm so glad you're here :) -Calista@TeamFairy

[@secrethealinghacks1913]

So true! 😢

[@CygnusMaximusXIII]

If you keep a task list of some kind, I also highly recommend adding things you've already done that weren't on the list. Moving them immediately to "complete" status gives that tiny dopamine boost and can help motivate you to get other things done too.

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

Great suggestion! -Cara@TeamFairy

[@eparkerv3]

This is spot on to me. Clutter is a reflection of inner clutter. My journey with clutter and tolerance for it has moved naturally as I've healed. I now love throwing or gifting away what I would not want to move in 2-4 weeks if I had to. I've noted that certain physical and sexual trauma victims clutter their appearance by design to avoid drawing attention.

[@malindarayallen]

That's really good advice! 😊

[@Tina06019]

I do this. It’s quite helpful to add one or two tasks which I have just completed onto my current task list. Say I suddenly scrub the tub because I see it is dirty and that’s yucky RIGHT NOW. Having done that sometimes will allow me to make a to-do list and Do It.

[@laurenbaah5384]

It might give you a dopamine boost, but everyone does not receive a dopamine boost.

[@lesliefitzgerald2354]

I am grateful that I found this video. My best friend, now deceased, had all of the clutter listed above and it was so hard for me to deal with her mental state and her house that had TONS of clutter. Now I realize that she had childhood trauma which lead to this. I knew her since we were four years old and she died at 62. Her lifestyle and brain activity drove me crazy as everything was so stressful to her. She was abused by her brothers growing up, her dad was a critic and her mother was a drunk who never got out of bed. In those days you could send children to the liquor store for cigarettes and alcohol if they had a note, and so the mom would lay around in bed, in her moo moo, and get drunk and chain smoke. I always knew my friend was neglected, but since I was too, I thought she would be like me and get over it. I guess some people don't. Although she is gone, I can now cut her a little more slack knowing that she was out of control and had no help.

[@eva5601]

62 is young.😢 Now she is resting.

[@kailadellapenna1594]

@lesliefitzgerald2354 I sincerely hope you don’t let that bother you or make you feel bad that she drove you a little crazy. I get we all deal with things differently, but that was your best friend. That you was SO LUCKY to have for so long and I’m sure she knew you just meant well. A best friend doesn’t tell you what you WANT to hear, they tell you what you NEED to hear! I knew my best friend since birth, I only got ALMOST 15 years with her, and she consistently called me out when I needed it. She never let me just go with things. I knew it was because she loved me. That was a real friend. A real friend ALWAYS wants the best for you. I tell all the younger girls that I know if your best friend isn’t hyping you up even when you’re out shining her, she ain’t your friend. My JayGirl died Aug. 17th of 07 an her birthday is Oct. 20th. She would have been 15. I was just 15 myself when she passed. I’m 32 now. Not a day goes by I don’t think of her. She’s irreplaceable. 62 is too young, but your very lucky to have had as much time with her as you did. I like to think I keep a part of my bestie alive by who I am, I’m sure she’s still alive in you when people you knew see you. ♥️ I know this was so random and I hope you took it as heartfelt as I meant it. I just read that and for some reasons listed it really clicked with me.

[@faithm9284]

So grateful you were her friend all those years, even if some moments were difficult for you. It's difficult to be as patient as you have had to be to be her friend. I get it! Thank you! GOD bless you! 💌🥳

[@diannegarrett852]

That's so sad..

[@Dani-ICU-RN]

Thank God she had you ❤

[@adel8632]

You’re speaking directly to me. I know it’s trauma.

[@rhythmandblues_alibi]

I spent at least an hour reading and replying to outraged comments on a Facebook post this morning, maybe even longer. I realised later I was doing it to distract myself from feelings of grief and sadness and it was such an utter waste of time and energy that just left me feeling angry and defeated. It threw my whole day off and I so regretted the lost time. I think that's where a lot of Facebook outrage comes from, just a lot of damanged, lonely, frustrated people screaming into the digital void, desperate not to feel 😓

[@jasonhansen8996]

Holy S*&%!!!!!! Lady, you just NAILED my childhood. Strangely enough, 4 years ago I had to have help to escape a very bad relationship and I couldn't for the life of me understand what or how it happened to me but the bottom completely fell out from under me. I am a Marine and from the time I left home until 4 years ago - EVERYTHING was always neat, clean organized and I was NEVER ashamed to let anyone into my home. I was proud, to be honest. Suddenly, I couldn't find the energy to clean or put anything away or be who I knew myself to be. You just hit me with a spotlight and might have just pointed the spotlight on my issue. THANK GOD FOR YOU.

[@dianebellitti4590]

She is so wonderful and helpful! I felt the same exact way listening to her. ❤

[@bridgetsieger2261]

I understand, I always used to have a proud home I called “guest ready”. Now, at my age and with sobriety I am drowning in trauma and I live in clutter and am ashamed of having guests over. It must be worse as a marine as you are trained to be neat and bounce coins off the bed. Now, I just can’t get out of bed.

[@jasonhansen8996]

@@bridgetsieger2261 I wouldn't mind talking to you personally. Because yeah you're right

[@bridgetsieger2261]

@@jasonhansen8996 I literally don’t know how to make private chat in KZbin can you show me ? I’d like to talk to you, too.

[@bridgetsieger2261]

@@jasonhansen8996 I dunno how right I am about stuff anymore. I’m having such a hard time lately. Is it something in the air? How did I go from what I was to this? If you could see the clutter.. it’s not just that.. so much of myself I think is lost. Or gone. I’ve always been better pals and roommates with military folks because of ‘certain things’. I’ve not served, however. How are you?

[@nnekaatto]

I grew up in a cluttered home with very messy parents, and it always made me uncomfortable; even as a kid, I knew that something wasn't right. So now, keeping my place organized and clean is incredibly therapeutic for me.

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

It can certianly serve as a way to take power back! -Cara@TeamFairy

[@alisondunning7116]

My childhood was similar - my difficult Dad had hoarding tendencies. But he blamed me for the mess and, too often, threw my belongings out when he decluttered. As soon as I got my own place, it felt important to keep it calm and clear. I still find that I have to create a peaceful, visual space before settling down to concentrate on something I enjoy.

[@floss202]

Same and some of my behavior has gone the opposite. I keep so much control over my environment keeping it clear of clutter it becomes obsessive. I know it's a knee jerk reaction to growing up in clutter, and it's still based in anxiety

[@josl1345]

Same here. I never had company growing up and aside from relatives I still prefer not to. I hate clutter. It's an uphill battle for me because my two kids are so messy. Their 'clean' is not clean at all. The 12 year old always wants company over and it gives me so much anxiety but I allow it for her sake lol.

[@garyhuntsr71698]

I totally immersed in this lecture while I'm trying to clear up the clutters that has been plaguing me to the bones for years... Detraumatizing myself ❤

[@annel2875]

Clutter is definitely a symptom of being unwell. There's also this feeling that your stuff is your family, and you refuse to get rid of it and make it "feel" abandoned because you know yourself what it feels like to be abandoned.

[@katiewest7908]

Yes!

[@thorgerdurhalldorsdottir1402]

I like how she relates all this back to herself and gives personal perspective. Makes this video less judgmental and there’s less “professional distance” and because of it it’s easier to listen to the advice and take it to heart without being defensive

[@brendamoore1190]

Very true! This person seems able to empathize!

[@feeltheyumyums]

Spot on! 😀 where did you learn about professional distance?

[@canaidianz]

Standing OV 👏👏👏 u nailed it.. 👊 extremely relatable! Not a clinical approach.

[@purplerain0517]

​@@feeltheyumyumsprofessional distance is for professionals. But we ain't pros. I know I'm not. Are YOU?

[@feeltheyumyums]

@@purplerain0517not sure why the aggression? I learned about professional distance in graduate school becoming a clinical mental health counselor. I was just excited that someone else knew the term, and wondered where they learned it.

[@victoriarosario3338]

2:42 Yes, Anna, you are Spot On! When I was 19 years old, my counselor told me, "Your room reflects the way you feel..." Well, I'm 63 and STILL a cluttered, scattered mess. Trauma, anyone? 😖 p.s. Thank you so much for this segment. I'm going to share it with some people close to me. Maybe they'll understand it's not that I don't care. I actually care a great deal. And actually, after 3 months of horrible dysregulation, I finally did a load of laundry yesterday! I'm friggin' hopeful!😅❤

[@breegray4162]

Hi, I can so relate to your comment. I too feel stuck. Yet I find that when things are getting visibly better, I make it worse. This is a new revelation. I'😢m actually taking the exact opposite action, and rebuilding my clutter comfort blanket?!! 😢😂...Not sure how to get started again?

[@ItCantRainForever2]

I get it. It's so debilitating at times.

[@ScoutGrey]

well done doing the laundry...I know that was not easy....well done...wishing you all the best

[@maryiced3931]

That's so awesome. I try and pick up just one item from the floor per week. Doing that helps build my self-esteem and confidence in myself.

[@victoriarosario3338]

@@breegray4162 Hi Bree, I totally get what you're saying. 2 [personal] life examples came to mind. Mine were both fear-based. Future Events Appearing Real. The first was an audition back in the late 80's at Six Flags Great Adventure (NJ), for their Variety Shows. My vocal audition went very well. After the "dance" audition (I'm a singer), the person making the selections invited me back, but told me to "lose 13 pounds". As binge-eating was always a way for me to self-soothe, I immediately bought a package of candy orange slices and frantically wolfed them down. Ensuring self-sabotage and failure. At 2nd audition, I obviously had not lost the weight. 🙄 So, I didn't get the job (I had sung with a band there called, "A Touch of Brass") for a season, many years before. I did get a callback to be a "body puppet" for one of the children's shows, Lol... Silly me, I declined. Only because I knew how hot those costumes were...I've "cut myself off at the knees" so many times; and its the last thing I ever wanted to have happen to myself. With that (I don't know if my rant helped at all)...Regarding your "clutter comfort blanket" 😥my bed has been a cluttered mess since my relationship (mutually) ended 3 months ago. I sleep on a "sliver" of his side. Like a can't bear to allow myself to rest on the entire bed. That it would just "amplify" how EMPTY I feel inside. 😭 See?...insight...❣🙏💖 It hurts...but it's a step in a healthier direction, I hope!🥰 I'm sending you a HUGE hug through the Universe. I hope it reaches you and spreads out to all of us trying to work through this mess. Again, Anna...Beloved Crappy Childhood Fairy, Thank you for bringing us all together, and reminding us that we are not alone, and Yes, we can heal. It may not happen as quickly as we would like...but we are beautiful "works in progress" after all...🥲🥰🙏💔💖😊

[@nicoles_handle]

I honestly have no idea what I might be traumatized about, but I definitely can relate to all the symptoms.

[@nathananderson8720]

This is one of the channels that gave me the courage to start my KZbin channel 10 months ago about self development. Now I have 1,955 subs and > 2k hours of watch time. I know it’s not comparable with others but I’m still proud I started because I’ve been learning so many lessons that I could haven’t learned without getting started in the 1st place.

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

That’s HUGE! Big hug and congratulations!

[@nathananderson8720]

@@CrappyChildhoodFairy Whoever you are, I don't know you personally but I can say that you're one of the non-judgmental and open-minded people who is not fixated on tangible or external factors in order to learn from someone like me. Just because someone doesn't have a piece of paper as a credential, doesn't mean that person is not entitled to share personal experiences with the hope & intention to inspire others. Keep up with whatever it is that you're doing to improve mankind or improving your life even to a slight degree each day. This is just one part of a bigger puzzle for creating my KZbin channel about holistic health. I literally could have died back when I was 14 years old due to major depression but here I am right now replying to you, a KZbinr, who's full of fulfillment and dedication to help others to be a better version of themselves. I ain't better than anyone else but my old self. That's all that really makes this KZbin thing more meaningful and enjoyable. Thanks so much for your support! I am hoping that you can join me with this endless personal development journey! :)

[@by_katrin]

I immediately raised my head and became extremely alert when you said, "If the news you are reading is not useful, it is clutter." I am currently distracting myself with extremely emotionally charged topics on social media while I I can no longer see my tabletop because of all the stuff. This hit me just right. Thank you!! Best wishes from Switzerland ♥

[@TeaRose9]

I completely relate.

[@TheMary0831]

I'm weaning myself off social media. It's the worst waste of time and the biggest trigger/manipulator of mood, and self-worth. Horrible.

[@ZsuzsaKarolySmith]

@@TheMary0831 That is true in certain cases, however, social media can have a positive effect as well. Think support groups, hobby groups, and in fact this video that you commented on and I replied to! Just be selective and use the positive side of social media to your advantage!

[@TheMary0831]

@@ZsuzsaKarolySmith I don't consider YT to be "social media" in the same way I do say, Facebook or Twitter, which I consider toxic. I don't even really like help groups. I don't do well in groups, as there are always a-holes in them to ruin whatever good they intend. Just my experience. In any case, I personally do better without social media and don't think it has done anything to help society as a whole.

[@ZsuzsaKarolySmith]

@@TheMary0831 I’m a member of several art groups on Facebook and have a loyal community of friends on Instagram as well. We share a passion for mixed media and art journalling which unites us. We support and encourage each other - I’ve never had a bad experience in many years. But I know what you mean, it can be pretty nasty elsewhere (especially when it comes to politics) - but I can honestly say I have made many friendships through social media, so I would not tar everything with the same brush. You just have to find your tribe.

[@gracie2375]

All other videos on YT about hoarding and clutter are garbage compared to this one. You’re so right and express yourself so genuinely and clearly. You’re realistic and show the root causes instead of the annoying clean freaks, minimalists types that make us messies feel like 💩. This is groundbreaking stuff! Love it and want to change my life even at 66 years of age. ❤

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

Yes! Thank you for your kind words.

[@packrat76]

People love to ridicule others who have messy houses and clutter. It's not that simple and the clutter tends to accumulate over the years and it becomes an uphill battle to the one or ones struggling with it. People typically don't even try to understand their situation.

[@auntmary6544]

I’m 66 too and feel EXACTLY the same!! This video is going to be a game changer-I can feel it!❤

[@delllarralde]

I am 67 and just found this. I agree with you!

[@lindalary7760]

I am almost 66 and I feel the same way too. Just found her!!👏👏👏

[@Sitting8ull]

It's like you've been to my house, and my mind! 🙂

[@belindadoler9148]

It’s almost like you are inside my head! I’m in tears right now because there is hope!

[@louniece1650]

What's a nightmare for me is the beatings and rapes I went through was centered around housework and cleaning. So the actual cleaning is very hard and terrifying for me.

[@sansocie]

How heart breaking 💔. Do not give up.

[@jenniferboyd2200]

I'm so sorry ❤ I get it. Thinking of you.

[@duelenigma7732]

But now you are cleaning and organizing for you. I got rid of everything that reminded me. Old photos are in a box under the stairs.

[@lc5666]

I didn't experience the abuse that you did, but I was verbally abused and hit as a (very young) child because of not cleaning to standards, when I had not been taught how to do it. I am better now than I used to be, but I still have trouble cleaning when anyone is watching, and if someone criticizes or gives me advice about cleaning while I'm cleaning, I shut down. It's very hard. ❤️❤️

[@5gx673]

I'm so sorry. We are with you

[@agailframe6590]

You're the first person to really give me the information that can set me free from all the clutter in my life. I'm 80 years old and have suffered all my life from guilt, anxiety, hiding my feelings from others, because of all the shame and loneliness all this causes in my head and my heart. ❤

[@randomisland2872]

I'm 71 and also working on all these issues. At least the information on U tooube has given me the info to empower me with some understanding!!!

[@justkiddin84]

It’s never too late. 60 here, wanting to change it before some other poor person has to do it.❤

[@lydialedbetter2041]

I'm 74. Have NO ONE to dispose of my STUFF if I outlive my husband. My only child is dead and have no grandchildren. I find it so difficult to get rid of things that were gifts from my parents and grandparents....things that I love for the memories. I'm so stuck. 😢

[@AmethystWoman]

68. Shame my whole life.

[@Staceyintampa]

@@lydialedbetter2041 do you have any other family?

[@YourOldDog]

You nailed my life. Raised in a poor family I always wanted a workshop of my own. When I got it I was afraid to use it because I didn't have a warehouse full of materials and was afraid to "waste" what precious materials to work with that I had. So I would build workbenches but use them like shelves so I never had a place to actually work. I bought industrial shelves and filled them with stuff I haven't touched in 20 years, thats how important this stuff was to me. Thank ;you for the explanation of what I had working against me. Now I can try to declutter my life to make room for what I like to do....play in my shop. Maybe I won't be paralyzed with thought when I need to cut into a nice board.

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

You can do it! Good luck! Nika@TeamFairy

[@Katerina2020]

I absolutely agree with the idea that clutter is a symptom. I am a clean freak, but do struggle with letting go of things, so clutter does accumulate in some corners and drawers of my home. After I started taking antidepressants it's been so easy to part with things I don't need.

[@Canuckbelgo]

I'm about 7 minutes in and I can't stop crying. I didn't even realise how sad this makes me feel. I'm struggling so much : clutter in my closets and bedroom. Our downstairs is fine - I try to keep it as orderly as possible if anyone comes by but upstairs is a mess. I feel SO ASHAMED! I've also been struggling with my weight. You definitely touched a nerve with me. I have always said to my husband that my cluttering and messiness MUST surely be due to my terrible childhood - but eat the same time I didn't want to make it an excuse either. My father was Bipolar (but when he wasn't in his cra&zy manic state, he was a good father) and a depressive abusive mother. She'd smack us and scream at us all day every day. She'd say we were all worthless and stupid and being the sort of middle child (well I have a younger sister by 2 years but she was always cherished and sheltered from mom's rants - "funnily" enough she is a veritable psychopath now diagnosed with HND (I think it's Histrionic Narcissistic Disorder). I ended up leaving for university at 18 but didn't know what I wanted and flunked (never any order to cope with studying) so I left and came to Europe. I recognise now that I was fleeing an awful situation at home. I could literally write a book - and I would if I didn't procrastinate so much (almost comical). Anyway, I got a second chance at life with a wonderful husband and by some miracle, I had a second daughter (naturally) when I was 45. She is truly the light of my life. I just need to lose weight and get my health back. I was obsessed learning about keto and fasting but to get down and "just do it' is so hard. I now do a 36 hr fast every week but I must combine that with keto to really see results. Ugh. SO much in my mind. So much to do... I'm usually a jovial person actually but for some reason this video really made me cry deeply. Anyway, I had better put cold water on my face as my husband just dropped off our little girl at her granny's for the day (she'll be 9 next week) and he took the day off so we could spend some special time together. I desperately need guidance. It's as if I need someone to take me by the hand and to gently tell me what to do. Huge irony as I HATE being told what to do - my mother was so awful to me/us. That's where it comes from I guess. I'll be looking through your videos to try to see if I can find any tips on how to jump start myself. You seem like such a kind person.

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

This free course is an excellent jump start: bit.ly/CCF_DailyPractice -Cara@TeamFairy

[@Mindcoach1on1]

I am a life coach and these are areas of my expertise in helping people move forward. I am also a mindset Mentor. I would love to give you a free 20 minute consultation if you are interested.

[@calista1280]

Canuckbelgo, I feel your pain! 😢 Luckily, before a beach vacation I got determined & had a breakthrough! I went low carb (Healthy Atkins/Keto) & finally started losing weight, so far 7 lbs!!! I watched tons of Keto and Functional Medicine Doctors like Dr Hyman, Dr Berg etc... So I did it by delaying breakfast til 10am, skipping lunch or grabbing a piece of cheese & meat or an apple (no bread!) if I felt light headed and we have dinner at 5:30-6. I have substituted wild rice or quinoa for brown rice or potatoes & a large mixed green salad, sometimes with sunflower seeds. Olive oil & red wine or balsamic vinegar for dressing. Now, this is the start of the FAST, so eat nothing til 10am the next morning! YOU CAN DO IT, YOU GOT THIS! 🎉😅 🙏 🤲 🕊 ♥️

[@fxrivrgirl]

Just always remember after your triggers anxiety etc that do many are just like you. & its ok to be how you are. A work in progress. Some of just take a bit more hilly path. ♡

[@Telocar]

Same I felt as though something thought I was supposed to hear this. The clothes really hit home for me

[@natasa2882]

"The bird in a cage with the door open" - that is spot on for me. So afraid to leave the cage. I realized that I'm holding my life away. Thank you!

[@infiniLor]

I'm extremely aware of the situation and STILL cannot take a step out!

[@TeaRose9]

This is exactly how it is for most who grew up in trauma.

[@wmfife1]

@@infiniLorFor what it's worth, believe it or not this also describes certain species of birds! I know because I had one. Cage-bound it's known as. So it's more than just a saying. It's part of life.

[@deeorr6403]

I left the bird cage door open. She flew right into the ceiling fan.

[@crystalheard5895]

This 👆🏻

[@Lightonahill25]

I can't believe I found you, I spent an hour on the phone with my cluttered and traumatized friend this evening and we are on different continents! You are beautiful and honest and so practically helpful. This is for a dear young friend of mine who has CPTSD and I pray he'll watch it and many others of your videos. Thank you, dear lady...

[@LaniAnne402]

I totally relate to the cupboards being FULL! My family has more than enough food. I was raised by parents and grandparents who lived through the Depression. We saved everything! My husband has helped me by sorting through the shelves with me. He is aware of my childhood sexual abuse and has been a great help to me in dealing with the ramifications of this abuse. Thank you so much for this informational video. ❤

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

Glad to hear you have a supportive husband! Good luck on your healing journey! Nika@TeamFairy

[@TiMarie13]

The trauma is not necessarily from childhood. Mine is from an abusive long term marriage. Same symptoms.

[@lovemagicandroad]

Me too! From abusive marriage isolation, loss of career and illnesses. I feel like I lost all my life potential when I got married. Now I’m 65 without career close friends or family. And still divorce ongoing for 5 years already. He’s 13 years younger than me and attempting to maximize his profits off me. It’s very traumatizing.

[@izzyallen7712]

Same here 😢

[@jarkachalmovianska7812]

​@@lovemagicandroadit will get better...allow yourself to be happy...let go... give him what he wants and move on

[@themountainsandthesea4121]

​@@lovemagicandroadI am sorry

[@cockeyedoptimista]

​@lovemagicandroad Oh Lord. Sorry. Well I'm almost 70 and I'm in the same boat and struggling to maintain hope (while I still keep making mistakes!) Dunno about me but there is still hope for you, keep your chin up. You can still accomplish things. Take care.

[@BookZealots]

"Your trauma is an injury but it's not an identity. It's not what you are." So true! And I see so many people hang on to past hurts like a badge of honor instead of moving forward in life, but I've never heard it so distinctly worded. Thank you.

[@frankG335]

Some even make it their entire identity and profession.

[@francesbeth2077]

Yes, it makes you limp through life, never knowing why, instead of run. Get surgery and get it out. Take medication if necessary and go to counseling. Never disclose it, many people who had never been through traumatic events will rarely understand you. They may even be cold and callous. Go to God. People understand physical disease but not mental wounds or injuries. Unless they physically see i, they won't believe you.

[@BookZealots]

@@frankG335 lol you are quite correct in that statement.

[@BookZealots]

@@christinerisden5799 I can relate to being stalked, but had the opposite reaction. I wanted everything organized so that if something was moved I would know. I had to find a balance and not let clutter or being OCD control my life. I hope you find your balance.

[@BookZealots]

@@christinerisden5799 🤗 I'm happy to hear this.

[@oravenoboo]

I don't know when you did this post as there is no timeline.....I cannot believe that you have hit the nail on the head and almost brings tears to my eyes that at last somebody understands my mindset. I would love to be able to talk to you on a more one to one but even if not you have expressed everything in my journey over 56 years that has ever come close to my experience. thankyou so much....Amanda from England x It's incredible, I am also an adult of an alcoholic mother....A psychologist here told me that I was F*c"K$d.... his analogy was train crash after train crash after train crash so on and so forth......thankyou so much for your candor it has made me feel less alone x

[@hope4463]

I love that it comes from someone that has lived through it.

[@paulablair395]

I appreciate the knowledge that clutter is part of my trauma. I just thought I was lazy and worthless. Overbuying food is one of my problems - if it's on sale, it's on my shelves. I have food that has been stored in my closet for a couple of years. I keep thinking that I will live off my shelves and stop buying groceries for a while, but then there comes a news report that food is going to be scarce and prices will just keep going up. I have double depression, CPTSD, and a few more serious diseases. I'm 65 and feel like it is too late to have any healing. I've been on antidepressants since my early 20's. The good thing is that I am learning about trauma, understanding why I am the way I am.

[@spiralali]

I believe that as long as you're alive and learning, there's no such thing as too late. Maybe your timing is perfect! My mom is 70, about to turn 71, (with childhood trauma and abusive partners as an adult), and she's taking steps forward, learning more, and her momentum has been building as she's slowly cut down on her meds. (With assistance from Drs) I believe whatever I feel drawn to learn more about holds my next step toward healing. Have you seen the documentary, "Medication Normal"? Whichever steps you take next, or even resting and processing, I'm rooting for you~

[@annadonahue4119]

Isn't it great for us older folk to learn from Anna! She has answers we've needed our entire lives. Which brings hope back into the picture! So good!

[@jeanaallison7236]

🙏💕 MUCH LOVE to you 😌🐝🌞

[@katarzynapuchaa128]

If possible, you can try to find EMDR therapy, there are online ones as well. For me, it started healing from my trauma unbelievably quickly - two sessions were enough to see the difference! I wish you strength and good health 👋

[@redrustyhill2]

Having shelves full of food is a good thing, its also smart

[@MrsDebBee]

My mother grew up during the depression. She saved everything and passed that down to me 😩

[@catistrolling7333]

Same here. When my father died he had all these fluorescent light and parts. Asked mom - will we fix them - nope - so through them out

[@dianaaiello588]

Me too !! I just cleaned out my little kitchen drawer with bread ties . Why I’m I saving this ???? 😂

[@lalo1967]

@@dianaaiello588 exactly!! Starting by the Why? Make us go to the core of the problem.

[@DevineVic]

But you have the power to change that. You are in charge of your life.. The one sitting at the driver's seat.

[@MrsDebBee]

My mother used to file her papers in her old purses. Oh the things she passes down to me 😩

[@tjax68]

Grieving the past of the stuff you used and not wanting to part with it 💯 Also, anyone else hold on to fave clothes because they come back in style every few decades?

[@nyayahalpin]

Absolutely, staying the same size for the past 30 years is a blessing and a curse. Plus I’ve always preferred a more timeless, traditional style so it’s hard to throw out clothing. We find yourself wearing different types for the different hats/roles we’ve taken on throughout our lives.

[@juliahartmann9689]

This video is the most deep, professional video I've seen on KZbin. It made me cry, but it was necessary. I cannot thank you enough. I've been feeling exactly like this: "It makes it hard to me to notice that I have choices when I feel overwhelmed". Is like I don't have choices, it's either A or B, being both bad. It's obviously a bias but it is how one feels.

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

I'm so glad it was helpful. Thanks.

[@rhythmandblues_alibi]

Yes the black and white "either one or the other" thinking is so hard to shake and gain clear perspective 😓

[@Simple_Mind11369]

This is so well thought out and spoken. One thing that helped me was taking my sabbath. Sabbath is a day for rest. I chose the original Sabbath of Saturday. On this day it did not matter what my eyes fell on, I did not have to feel guilty OR get started on it. The way this worked was that I literally did the things I felt to be important in the 6 days before the Sabbath, and then I had a day off, and it did not matter what was left undone, or what anyone else thought I should be doing. I took the day off. everybody gets a day off. It was a life saver and it enabled me to get more done in the other six days. It was the best tool I had ever found. Thank you for helping us find more.

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

Great suggestion! -Cara@TeamFairy

[@janine8843]

I like that! Thank you 😊

[@somyah2960]

❤ Our Father knows what we need! ❤

[@yadiramarie22]

Wow! Beautiful suggestion, I do this like 3 years ago from now and is a joy and a really beautiful way to reach the wellness physically and spiritually, I have to confess that sometimes I skip but I always return to celebrate my day, is like my brain and body ask for it! Thanks to Hashem for his laws and counsel because He knows best!

[@homebodyheaven6114]

God’s “10 Commandments “ are really just our Father’s loving instructions to bless us. So glad you have learned that. ❤

[@fromthemoonraccoon]

10:52 11:18 20:14 22:40 24:32 29:41 33:39 - Useful methods for decluttering

[@lovesafiyyah12]

Omg thank you❤

[@fromthemoonraccoon]

@@lovesafiyyah12 You're welcome. Really, they're just "notes to self", but I'm very happy you find them helpful :)

[@smac1823]

Thanks!

[@cassidyv6355]

Thank you!!!

[@saraheschweiler4939]

Thank you bunches! 🙏🌿💐🌿😊💚😘🌿💐🌿🙏

[@jasminemosby4874]

I’ve realized my room is a reflection of my mind. So for me when I clean my room up even when I don’t feel like it, it’s like I’m cleaning out all the other stuff, plus I feel accomplished because I done something productive for myself.

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

Thanks for sharing! -Calista@TeamFairy

[@grannyfranny3661]

Wow, I have struggled so long with clutter. This is the first time I understand and will be watching and learning. Thank you for giving hope.

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

We're all rooting for you! -Calista@TeamFairy

[@rigofernandez830]

THERES NOTHING LIKE GIVING AND GETTING " REAL WORLD" ADVISE FROM SOMEONE THAT HAS ACTUALLY GONE THROUGH IT ..AND NOT JUST REPEATING WHAT THEY'VE READ OR BEEN TAUGHT IN COLLEGE. I LOVE YOUR INSIGHT!.. POWERFUL WISDOM. 👌

[@chelseaphilice7458]

So true ❤

[@pammypampam6920]

AGREED! I'm always more willing to take advice from "been there, done that" types who conquered "it"!

[@MariaMendez-sn2mj]

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[@Grim1of2]

Please don't write everything in capitals, it sounds like you're shouting really loud.

[@rigofernandez830]

@@Grim1of2 😂... Gotcha ..thnkx..👍👍👍👍

[@adrianmasters250]

What it comes down to is being stuck in survival mode after trauma, then all non-essential tasks become very difficult to perform because they're not directly related to surviving. If you are constantly on high alert, your mind cannot engage with menial tasks such as cleaning, tidying, organizing and so on. I've noticed that when I reach a point where all of my life stress is at a low level and there are no pressing survival issues (bills paid, work secured, food available, relationships are good, health is good etc.) then I automatically get the urge to clean and organize my space. That is a rarity however and most of the time it's like pulling teeth to even wipe a counter or take out the trash.

[@loriar1027]

I suffer from anxiety and have most of my life. But i learned early on in life that clutter to me is like kryptonite. As long as I keep it far away from me I’m fine. If things get cluttered I get more and more dysfunctional till I start😊 throwing things out. Everything in my home has a place and I keep everything in its place.

[@SleepGood11]

👍

[@MMacAttack]

I look at the mess & clutter and feel paralyzed on where to start , so it finally gets done when it’s gets overwhelming & even embarrassing where I KNOW i can’t live like this. It’s an “ as within, so without” situation and I become aware of that. Also , cellphone scrolling doesn’t help, it wastes HOURS a day , but that’s another issue . Great enlightening video Thank you!

[@user-gh8lr3xb6w]

Yessss!!!! You spoke my mind!

[@Sssmaug]

​@@user-gh8lr3xb6w And mine. Late 70s, stuck in a morass of unfinished "projects" (= clutter) & sadness over the deterioration of many of my lifelong beloveds. It's a vicious cycle. The CCF is a light in the gloom. 💓

[@felixthekate4800]

Ditto.

[@elizabethdiane6791]

Exactly

[@rhythmandblues_alibi]

Same 😓

[@karenlenk1724]

Childhood trauma can also create neat freaks like my mom. She was extremely organized and prided herself on household cleanliness but suffered terrible trauma in her youth. It was a way of having control in her environment when life was tremendous and utter chaos.

[@ajuarez3869]

I had so much trauma in my youth! You name it and I’ve learned bed through it. I was the same as your mother UNTIL I was hurt on the job. Had a failed back surgery and began living in physical pain 24/7 (11 years ago). Then my mother who was my best friend, passed away and right after that I discovered my husband of 32 yrs cheating on me. My life is chaos and cluttered and I haven’t been able to change it.

[@em6644]

I’m so so sorry all that has happened to you. He should never have treated you like that and I’m so so sorry for your loss, that is heartbreaking 💔 I’m glad you and your mother loved each other so much but I’m sorry you can’t share that friendship with her in the same way anymore. I doubt that anything I can say would help but I really hope you eventually arrive at a new normal that you can be at peace with 💕

[@ajuarez3869]

@@em6644 Thank you! You are so kind! Little by little and day by day, my life is getting back to my happy place. I just have to purposefully get up every morning and focus on all the things I have to be grateful for (3 children and 5 grandchildren). I’m aware that children learn so much from their parents behavior. I can only pray my children learn that God has us during ALL times of our life. If God lead me to the storm, He will lead me out of it (or sometimes carry me out of it). I know I’ve never been through anything without coming through stronger and wiser than I was before. I thought I could not make it this far but God knew what I could handle. I won’t lie and say I haven’t wanted to give up. However, would I want my children or grandchildren to give up on life or deal with the suicide of a parent as I did as I watched my father put a bullet in head? Hell NO! I will teach by example. I will be strong for them. I will make them proud of me again. Thank you again for your kind words❤️🙏

[@donijessen]

​​@@ajuarez3869 One step at a time. Tidy for 15 mins where you can see immediately result. Celebrate the joy about them and bid it farewell. You will be okay. Be kind to yourself and rejoice in your uniqueness. Your mom made you and she was the best friend ever.

[@ajuarez3869]

@@donijessen That is GREAT ADVICE! Thank you! You are so right about my mom. She was the strongest woman I have ever known. I try to make her proud every single day. Thanks again❤️🙏💪🏼

[@Angelofloveandhappiness]

Im glad i watched this.. and did anyone else imagine the little bird in a cage with the door open

[@sarahrose1665]

I love the "and or solutions" given as you're dealing with the overwhelm... When I'm listening I just keep saying to myself " Father I just love her"💕. 🙋🌹GA USA 🇺🇸👍

[@molchmolchmolchmolch]

"You don't have to start at the root cause, you can start wi th any symptom where you feel enough inner power to do sthg." That's so reassuring and such a helpful perspective. I sometimes get immobilized bc I keep thinking that this one thin is maybe not the most important thing to work on. And then I can't decide and don't do much with anything. Thank you 🙏

[@moirosalina]

That's so recognisable

[@stevecarter8810]

I am also in this picture! When I have enough presence of mind in this situation I set a timer for 15-25 minutes and tell myself I will work on SOMEthing, ANYthing for that time while I figure out what's the MOST useful thing to do. Doesn't always work but I'll take the times it does.

[@RC-eb5hq]

A friend once said something very supportive: "Baby steps rock!" Between upbringing, school, and work, I was convinced that if you didn't complete something entirely and perfectly, you were a failure, so starting almost anything was overwhelming. I've since discovered that even making a little bit of progress is, at least, progress. And often a little progress provides motivation. Getting started is half the battle, but after that.... "A body in motion stays in motion..."

[@SE45CX]

I do have a clutter issue with unfinished DIY projects in the house and on car maintenance. Dedicating time on those tough tasks show very little visible reward at first but I've learned to be kind to myself on the progress that I do make on them.

[@lisae6725]

I think she actually gets it! That made me feel better just hearing that. I also have he full cupboards full of food because it's always made me feel more secure knowing that I can go awhile without running out but I really can't eat this much and should stay out of the grocery stores until it goes down.

[@kristelwalton3141]

My boyfriend struggles with clutter and your perspective helps me see this tendency with more compassion. Thank you.

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

You are so welcome! -Calista@TeamFairy