dealing with loss | last flying solo vlog

[@FriedSushiOctopus]

we all loved lil Pep more than he could ever know 🥺❤️

[@letitiakiu]

Hana, This week more than ever, I've been thinking about how much my puppo has filled my soul. The love you have for Pepper can be felt by all of us, and I wish I can help ease the pain. As we know, losing our pups is something we all try to prepare for, and I hope this helps, but everytime I get anxiety about losing Reido, I tell myself how lucky I am to have experienced the love that she has given me. It's unlike anything in the entire universe. Pepper's cross over the rainbow bridge was only made better and full of love by you. He's not waiting for you to meet him, because he's always with you in spirit. ❤️

[@veronicamora2851]

Hey Hana and Jimmy. Couldn’t stop crying watching this but just want you guys to know that pepper wouldn’t want you guys to ever blame yourselves for his passing. He lived a very good and long life with the most loving parents and sooo many internet buddies he’s never met that love him too. Maybe Pepper will find his Salt or Sugar in puppy heaven until you guys see him again. Much love to you guys ❤️

[@Kaykayrose26]

I still remember the day my dog passed away. I drove 4 hrs back home to come see him before we had to put him down. It was the most painful experience. Although Pepper passed suddenly, He's resting comfortably up on doggy heaven. You guys showed him so much love and took such good care of him. What a wonderful, happy life he had because of you and jimmy! RIP Pepper Xx

[@annikablanchard9222]

i bawled my eyes out to this and when i heard the news that pepper passed. my family’s dog is going to be 14 this year and i can’t even imagine him passing and the grief that comes along with that. we never forget the unconditional love dogs give to us. i hope your heart can heal in time. ❤️

[@andreahernandez5705]

Rest In Peace Pepper.

[@herroally]

I am so sorry for your loss. Last October I lost my soulmate kitty of 15 years, we adopted her when I was only 6 years old and we grew up together. They are family, they are our lives, and loss can feel never ending. Just remember all the memories and good times you have had, and the amazing life you were able to give Pepper. One day you'll think about him and it won't hurt as much anymore, you'll be comforted by his memory. He'll be watching over you ❤

[@lynnguyennn]

Seeing you and Jimmy cry when you saw Pepper’s paw. That broke my heart. I am sorry this happened so suddenly. He was beyond loved. Thank you for sharing this with us. ❤️

[@lifeofasherbear8616]

I can’t stop crying , this video touched my heart in so many ways. RIP Pepper, puppy heaven is honored to have you. To Hana and Jimmy, you were both amazing parents a dog could ever ask for, please never forget that.

[@tiachu]

the clip of ollie in the hallway with you saying “i miss him too” made me start crying so hard 😭 i hope pepper knows how loved he was and is, and i’m sending my best wishes to you and jimmy 💗💗 so sorry for your loss :-( ❣️

[@circlinq]

You know how dogs are happy no matter what you do because they love you so much? How they forgive you right away for accidentally stepping on their tail? These dogs wouldn't want their favorite humans to be too sad for too long 💖 But I 100% understand. I have a senior dog. I understand. Virtual hug for you.

[@rushalimitra3959]

We love pepper. Rest in peace😭❤️

[@q115118]

Pepper had a great life, I bet he's glad that you are his owner too.

[@melanieneroza7502]

I grew so attached to Pepper as I watched him in your vlogs. You gave him such a wonderful life and he got to see so much of this world. It inspires me to do more with my own pup. 🥺❤️

[@Alice-wo2lr]

It took me three weeks to be finally ready to see this video because i already knew that i would cry this much seeing pepper’s old videos with u in it. It’s just so heartbreaking and i fully understand that ur having hard times expressing ur feelings since I am pretty much the same with you. I am so sorry and I 100% believe that pepper was happy with you in all time… i pray for you and pepper

[@mariships3320]

i didn’t watch because i knew i would cry like a baby and i was right. i’m so sorry for your loss

[@soyounglee2165]

I am bawling for the past 20 minutes... I'm so sorry for your loss Hana. We could all see how much you love and cared for him and we grew to love him as well. Rest in peace Pepper. He will be missed ❤️❤️❤️

[@Emily-qx9db]

I'm so so sorry Hana! I felt your pain entirely while watching. I lost my doggy last summer after almost 13 years with her. Time will heal, you gave Pepper an amazing life don't forget that :)

[@junharada90]

This is too hard to watch. Rest well pepper.

[@nesha540]

omg no. I’m so sorry. may he rest in peace. ❤️

[@sushirollies24]

I just found the time and strength to watch this and now I'm crying in my bed 😭 I've recently lost my dog and best friend of 11 years earlier this year and watching this vid just made me remember her a lot. I miss her terribly and also always feel that I could've cared for her much better but I just really hope she's in a better place now 🥺 hugs to everyone missing their lovely best friends

[@priscillaishere]

I am bawling my eyes out after watching this video. I can see how much you loved Pepper and how much of an awesome life he had. I lost my 13 year old dog this passed December due to sudden kidney failure. I swear loosing a doggy best friend is way worse than I could have ever imagined. Sending you and Jimmy ❤️

[@briannavillasenor7481]

man not gonna lie i cried the whole time while watching this, i cried a lot. losing our little loved ones is the absolute worst. especially when we feel this lingering shadow of guilt because we feel like we could’ve done way more for them in their last moments. i still break down whenever i talk about the loss of my little bunny to others and it’s already been around 7 months since she has passed. loss really is a long process and it’s such a pain in the ass sometimes. but like you said hana, it is apart of life. but man i can’t wait to see my beautiful little bunbun again one day.

[@rachelnguyen4283]

this made me cry so much. rest in peace pepper. we all miss you so much

[@itsanjuhlli]

Oh Hana, I am so sorry about Pepper. Sending lots of love your way ❤️

[@RACHELYEWON]

hi hana ~ i usually don't comment on videos but i felt like i needed to say both thank you and im so sorry for your loss. my dog passed away back in march and i also had him for a really long time like you did with pepper. the last few months of his life were honestly probably painful for him but i was too selfish to put him down because the thought of cutting his life short prematurely seemed so cruel to me. i also didnt really know how to talk about it openly because it felt silly in comparison to other peoples problems, and its been so hard for me to come to terms with what happened / not beat myself up for it ...but i think watching this video really helped me accept that loss is loss, and losing an animal can be just as painful as any other loss. i really resonated with a lot of your video and it honestly helped a lot with the healing process so i wanted to say thank you. time will definitely, definitely heal i promise. its hard to believe but soon enough, the thought of him won't make you sad anymore and he'll be such a lovely memory for you and everyone he met. i hope you know how many people are keeping you and pepper in their thoughts and how loved he is and will continue to be

[@jeanetteoxo]

Ugh Hana I'm so sorry I cried like a baby. This breaks my heart. We love you so much pepper. You will be missed. Lots of hugs to you Hana. 🤍☁️

[@filmedbylisa]

i think more so than a sad video this is a video full of endless love for pepper and how precious he is

[@rinedbhutia3741]

Pepper’s watching u from above so be strong and happy ok ❤️

[@estrellasjournal]

aw I’m sorry and I hope u feel better soon. rip pepper.

[@rayandrob4945]

so sorry for your loss, pepper was clearly so very loved and had such an amazing life with many great adventures. I promise he knew he was so loved and reminisced over all the great time he had with you as he was passing. he is still there with you in your heart and watching over you. I just lost my pet as well this month. it’s so hard and it makes you question how you ever even lived without them before and how to go on. It brings me comfort knowing that they no longer will ever feel pain again and I hope I will be able to see my kitty again someday. thank you for sharing pepper with us, he will live forever in our hearts and memories 🧡

[@meeluuk]

RIP Pepper , we love you so much ❤ its okay to feel sad for a while and after that you'll get better , time heals❤

[@shhshad]

I don’t know how I would have survived my night if you hadn’t included those clips at the end. He lived his best life with you Hana. Rest well Pepper ❤️

[@madisonnicole5710]

Damn, I'm crying. I just lived through this 2 months ago when my baby had a stroke and I had to rush him to the Vet. Putting him down was the hardest thing I've ever had to do but the love I had for that dog was so immense I would do it all over again just to have him in my life again. He was my baby and had been through every major life instance with me. But I know I gave him the absolute best life I could give him and I know he knew how loved he was. So don't forget that Pepper knew the same thing. You gave him a great life full of love and memories.

[@emilytumy]

Thank you for sharing. I also lost my dog of 14 years two years ago. It wasn’t easy but Time will heal. Peppers in doggy heaven now knowing that you loved him very much 💕. Sending you all my love during this time.

[@adarks8410]

sending you love and strength. pepper is in doggie heaven now with all the toys !! you’ll always have a little angel pepper protecting you from now on.

[@Autumn-tq4to]

I just wanna hug you so bad. I just lost my dog too after losing my other one earlier this year. I felt your pain so much. I still feel emtpy and my house just doesn't feel the same without them. This video really helped me feel less alone. Iosing my best friends made me want to go with them too, i was told i was being overdramatic but i knew i wasn't the only one who has felt this way. Pepper is safe now and watching over you💕 I hope you feel better soon, you gave him such a sweet life

[@letapham]

hana ive only been watching you for a little over a year now but i watched all ur old vids with pepper and it made my heart melt

[@newdramalamma]

hi hana...I just wanna thank you for your vulnerability and for posting such a raw and intimate moment of your life here. I remember when my dog passed away, I kept looking for videos on KZbin of ppl who lost their dogs...just someone who could identify with me, the loss, the grieving, the emptiness I felt. I know past me would’ve been so grateful if I saw your video then, so thank you :-) I wanna affirm that your emotions are so valid and to just take your time to grieve the loss of pep. For my family and I, we discovered our dog had cancer and lost him on the same day, so we didn’t even have the chance to say goodbye. He also passed away very young so it was completely unexpected. After he left us, my family stayed at a hotel for the week after because it was too painful to come home to an empty house. I remember having a friend walk me home every day too, just so I could have someone if I started crying...it’s been 3 years since my dog has passed and my parents still cry when we look at where his bed used to be. His ashes are above our tv along w his leash, his water bowl and some of his fur that we kept in a little ziplock hehe we love him dearly till this day and things will get better :-) a quote I always held very close to my heart was; the only good thing about your dog leaving before you, is that when you go to heaven, he will be the first to greet you! Hehe stay strong Hana! You are very loved ❤️❤️

[@monalisadoley5339]

Thank you so much for this. I lost my beautiful beautiful pet 2 months ago and didn’t grief because I was still in denial. I am still in denial but at the same time I am somehow coming to terms with my loss. I am quite in the depressed state now where I hardly go out anymore and not motivated to do anything. I know i’ll be fine but this loss is too heartbreaking for me. He was my first pet . Sending you love and strength. Rest in peace pepper and my sweet sweet Leo .🕊

[@JULIEHXO]

What is grief but love persevering. And yours and jimmy's love for pepper is so palpable throughout this video. Thank you for sharing pepper with us and being vulnerable. Sending so much love to your guys and pepper.

[@syifaamusa]

i’m crying so hard watching this.. i’m so glad you had jimmy and ollie with you as you were going through this. rip pepper 🤍

[@kindsouls5326]

i'm so sorry for the loss, one of the main reasons holding me back from getting a pet is the fear of loss. but at the same time pets bring so much more happiness to life. everything eventually comes to an end and it is about accepting nature :(

[@ruchikab1243]

I’m so sorry for your loss and I hope you feel better soon 💔 sending you love. Rest in peace pep 🤍 This breaks my heart :’(

[@faycoleman9023]

Whelp I didn't think I was gonna cry but when the audio played I broke down and sobbed.

[@itsmianotmya]

Losing a pet is so hard :( I’m sorry for your loss, pepper always made me smile on your vlogs ♥️

[@roselee8942]

I'm sorry for your loss, Hana :( It's really hard to lose someone who has been with you for so long, and I hope you don't feel pressured to uphold a happy image. The grieving process takes time and it's okay to feel like the world has stopped, even if it seems like everyone's still going on with their life. Take time for yourself and reach out to friends when you need some support, stay safe!

[@isabelcervantes3193]

Im so sorry for your loss. I've dealt with so much pet loss in my life and honestly it doesn't get easier each time, there's always regrets. But its true, we gave them our love and company and thats so much more than many animals can hope for. 💔💕 I cried my eyes out so so much when one of my parakeets died two years ago and then the other one got sick and I cried for weeks barely affording her treatment and then deciding she deserved to avoid more pain, either way niether of those deaths felt right...but I just try to remember the happy moments and hope they felt loved. In your case Pepper was immensely loved by all of us so I'm sure all of our babies gladly recieved him at the rainbow bridge 🌈❤

[@siobhansamyn6203]

I am so sorry for your loss Hana. Losing your best friend is really hard and dogs always unconditionally love us so much so it is easy to blame ourselves to not have done enough. But I am sure Pepper had the best life with you and Jimmy, you were always there to be with him and go on little adventures. You love him so much, if we can see that just by watching your videos Pepper def knows. Rest in Peace Pepper 💚

[@abigaillimbaga1447]

I’m so sorry for your lost hana 💔 I know how hard it is losing someone who has been there for almost your whole life. Sending virtual hug 😊🥺 STAY STRONG!

[@susanclayton9821]

Hana, I am so sorry for your loss. The pain of loosing a loved pet is indescribable. I’m praying for comfort for you and Jimmy both in the weeks to come 🥺🤍

[@headbrubsincharge1780]

im so sorry, hana. I hope you feel better soon. I am sure he is always with you❤

[@hannahgohya]

i felt every part of this vlog. i want you to know it's okay to cry, to eat, to grieve however you need to. know that he'll always love you. we love you. you're strong, you're wonderful. loss is not easy, take however long you'd like.

[@jennyy1130]

Hana I'm so sorry, Pepper was and is so loved by you and all of us. I'm sure he felt it all the way :) Rest in paradise baby

[@sw33tfr0styy]

I am so sorry for your loss Hana and Jimmy. I know this feeling very well. You guys gave Pepper the best life a pup could ask for. He will be remembered 😊

[@mariaduran158]

Dear Hana, I’m sorry for your loss, I can relate so much with you as I’m a mom to an elder doggy as well and loved to watch you and Pepper together 🤍 I know it’s hard but I also know that you loved Pepper with all your heart and he will always love you from heaven. Sending you big hugs and strength take the time you need 🌠🐶🤍🥺

[@moninag.70]

I'm so sorry for your loss, Hana. Run free in puppy heaven, Pepper. xx

[@sighyah]

I couldn't help but cry as I feel that grief is one of the strongest emotions we can feel. I am so glad Jimmy was able to fly to be with you and I thank you for your strength and willingness to be open with us. Please take the time you need to feel and heal 💖

[@dorothytran2926]

Love you Hana and hope you and Jimmy are doing ok. As a fellow dog owner this really broke my heart to see you deal with Pepper’s loss. I’m wishing you all the strength in the world to get through this ❤️

[@gabriella8141]

I had to pause a lot during the video because my dog died of heart failure, too. I thought it would be easier because it's been 6 months but I was surprised to find out it's not yet. I'm really really sorry for your loss. I got my dog when I was 5 for Christmas and his ashes arrived on Christmas after he passed; the timing seemed to work out just right for him to come back home exactly 17 years later. Because I got him so young I don't remember life without him, so the adjustment is still so hard. It took months for me to adjust my habits of waiting for him around the corner, but I'm just glad to say it does get better, even if just 1%. I still feel kind of empty without my best friend, but that's the price we pay for loving. Toto was the love of my life, too. Pepper loves you unconditionally, so I hope you can forgive yourself for any amount of guilt you might feel, because he never felt bitterness toward you and knows you tried your best.

[@SatieSatie]

I just found this while lying in bed, depressed and with my cat's urn beside me. I am so sorry, Hana. I couldn't even finish watching the video because it made me cry too much. My beautiful angelic Ragdoll boy's heart gave up on him in December after an entire year of my desperate attempts to keep him alive, to keep him a bit longer in my life that has become so terribly empty and filled with sadness now. He gave me 11 years of the best and the most important companionship I've ever had. Glad you're feeling better now. Rest in peace, sweet Pepper. 🤍

[@MultiPriscilla09]

Im so sorry for your loss. You were the best mother to Pepper. I too lost my bestfriend a few years ago to heart failure. It’s unfortunate we ourselves as their most trusted human couldn’t truly do anything to help. What matters is we were there for them through it all. Beginning to end. I’m sure you have Pepper the best life. Although they may only be a part of our lives, we were their entire life. You did amazing. Pepper will always be with you.

[@babababababangtan7539]

I am so sorry for your loss. I understand how tough it is to lose a furry best friend. It honestly still hurts till this day. But just know that you were able to love, cherish, and care for Pepper. You gave Pepper a beautiful and wonderful life, bringing him on adventures. I'm sure he is so grateful to have an owner like you! May he rest peacefully ): Sending you so much love Hana, keep strong 💖

[@risingwithhope]

words cannot describe... feeling so much for you Hana

[@victoriabriand820]

Stay strong both of you guys ❤️ pepper is so loved by everyone and we’re all going to miss him so much.

[@aakankshasingh8893]

Rest in peace pepper, we all miss you very much

[@cherylchua405]

I'm so sorry for your loss Hana. I just lost my dog recently too and I know how hard it can be not having him by your side anymore. I hope you take all the time you need to grieve and heal and just know that Pepper knows you did your best in giving him the best life possible filled with happiness. He's in a better place without suffering anymore. I don't think anyone can ever fully move on from the heartbreak of losing a pet because of the deep connection we have with them, but he will continue to live on forever in our hearts ❤️

[@heyitsajano3548]

I'm so glad peper was brought up by such a loving family...♥️♥️♥️♥️😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 I hope you feel better soon.

[@LaBerry02]

im crying ;( pepper was so loved by you, jimmy, and all of us.

[@mochi3713]

I’m a longtime subscriber but this is my first time commenting. Saw your video as soon as you uploaded but came back to comment. I lost my furbaby not too long ago. I miss her so much and I wish I could have been a better friend to her. I still cry when I think about her and I don’t think I’ll get another dog even though I’ll always love animals. Nobody knows how heartbreaking it is to lose a furbaby until they go through it themselves. Seeing you post about Pepper made me so sad. I cried because I know how important he was to you. My heart breaks all over again for you. Sending you lots of love, Hana. You truly deserve the best and I really wish you were my friend IRL so I could be there for you.

[@meatbunluver123]

I am so sorry for your loss. I don't normally comment on videos, but I just wanted to let you and Jimmy and the lovely angel Pepper know that you have touched the lives of many people and our thoughts are with you. I don't really think you can ever truly prepare for the loss of a loved one or the grief that comes thereafter, but I hope as time goes on, all the positivity and love Pepper has given you and Jimmy can light you both through this dark time.

[@kajasorensen]

i'm so sorry for your loss, anybody could tell how much pepper loved & adored you

[@nicoleong7807]

rest in peace lil pepper - we miss u dearly everyday. hana, give yourself time to rest and heal; loss isnt easy and it takes time. one step at a time dear, it will get better :” sending all my love and hugs xxx

[@janprudente6429]

This reminded me so much of my dog's passing from health failure too. I know how painful this is but i know you'll push through. Pepper had the best life because of your love.

[@uscangaestevezareli3891]

Rest In Peace, send you hugs:( I'm so sorry

[@suvekshatamang7762]

Rest in peace pepper🤍we love you so much and I hope you feel better soon hana, sending you alots of love and hugs🤍🤍🤍

[@nicolem.9354]

I’m so sorry for your loss. I understand your pain, I lost my beautiful dog a couple of years ago and it was so difficult since she had been with me for many years and had been there for some of the most important moments of my life. I hope you get some needed rest and comfort.

[@allicynnpeanut]

Oh Pepper 😢...I am sorry for your loss! I went through this too almost 1year ago. I know the feeling of missing your bestie. Thinking of you! HUGS!

[@goddessss1]

RIP Pepper

[@initfordainspo]

You and Jimmy. I feel so much pain for you guys

[@konglee8393]

Pepper was a great and beloved dog. He must be in a peaceful place without any pain. Hope you will be fine soon Hana.

[@vl5222]

It’s amazing how pets touch our lives and make a lasting impact. Sorry for your loss and thanks for sharing Pepper with us.

[@mayracovarrubias3691]

I’m so sorry for your loss I’ve been watching you for the past couple years and I know how much you loved Pepper and the great life you gave him 🥺 stay strong sending big hugs

[@natalies1021]

Aw I’m so sorry for your loss. Losing a pet is one of the hardest things in life. Rest In Peace pepper 💜

[@neta193]

I am so sorry for your loss hana❤️ Sending you the warmest hug Rip pep🤍

[@clairelam8342]

hana im so sorry for your loss. I've watched you and pepper since I was in highschool (over 4 years now!). I'm not usually one to comment but i hope you know we are all wishing you the best. we are all here to support you

[@lunaplena]

i cried so much watching this i didn't know you lost him until just now. i'm SO sorry for your loss. i've been following you for years and loved seeing pepper in your videos he was such a pretty and sweet puppy...i can't even imagine how hard this is for you. please take care! i'm sending you love

[@dipsy__22]

Sorry for your loss hana 💔 Sending lots of love on your way Pepper will be truly missed 😢 RIP xx

[@idkuandidwt]

I’m so sorry!!! I loved seeing lil pepito 😔

[@Stubby1031]

I keep wanting to say something but can't find the words... Rest in peace Pepper. Thank u for letting us get to know you. We'll miss you and hope you're frolicking in puppy heaven among other puppers and are getting lots of treats and runs. ❤️

[@nanciiberry]

I cried a lot for almost the whole clip. I'm really sorry for your loss. Send you lots of love and hug from here. Love you and be strong ❤️

[@tanyasoum3982]

I’m so sorry for your loss Hana and I love you 💛

[@mamrak159]

Hana im so sorry for your loss. I know how it feels to lose your dog. my dog became paralyzed with old age and was in so much pain so we have to put im down and he passed in my arms. Pepper is so lucky to have you and jimmy as parents. We will all miss pepper :(

[@kathrynyang196]

aww hana, i cried through the whole video bcuz i know how much pepper means to you, being with you through everything. I don't know how to comfort you or say anything that can make you feel a little better because I know how hard it is to lose someone who is so important to you. I just want to tell you that we are all here for you and I genuinely hope that you can live a happy life forever, for yourself, everyone who cares about you, and pepper

[@samirathehobbit]

I'm so sorry for your loss, I lost my pup a couple years ago but I'll always miss him. Pepper was so happy with you, you were the best owner he could have asked for

[@lizhuanglin6100]

I cried myself to sleep every single night for 3 whole months after I lost my first dog. A dog is like having a tiny piece of heaven in your possession, they are a beautiful spark of ur past , present and will remain a beautiful shining light in your future. I will miss my first dog always and I tell him often of the new friends who had joined puppy heaven. Will tell him to keep a look out for pepper

[@jessiepayang]

I'm so sorry for your loss. I have two puppos that are my world. It's a hard thing to have pets knowing that they will eventually have to leave. Probably one of the hardest things to do. I know Pepper knows that you did all you could and his life was filled with tremendous amount of love, joy and security. Sending you virtual hugs and love!

[@nunally]

This video made me cry so much, probably a month after it was uploaded, my first baby, who looked exactly like yours, passed away. She got sick at the beginning of this year and though we did the best we could, she passed away on June. I wasn't even home, I was working, I had just arrived at my workplace when my mom sent me a message to tell me that she had passed. I had to hold back my tears during the whole morning (I'm a teacher), I was able to cry when I got home, I couldn't say goodbye, and that made me feel guilty for a long time, I know she knew we loved her a lot, but still, made me feel so bad. We have other babies, three more dogs, but she was our first one, she was with us since we were kids so it does hurt a lot. I miss her a lot. Thank you for sharing this, this video made me cry as much as I needed, and helped me. I know your baby and mine, are better now.

[@geraldineramirez6152]

I’ve been watching your KZbin videos since I was in high school, I just can’t believe Pepper won’t be in your videos anymore, it hurts so much! I’m just glad Jimmy was there for you, and that Pepper is in a better and happier place now! Im sending you a big hug 🤍 love you

[@todamogi]

Hi Hana, You may not ever see this, but I had to put my dog down yesterday. I remember watching this video long time ago and decided to watch again. It’s really hard right now, but I really appreciate this video.