Did NOT EXPECT This! BTS Suga (AGUST D) - The Last 마지막 [Lyrics Han|Rom|Eng] (Metalhead Reacts)

Hello! My name is TEEJ. I am an aspiring music artist and content creator. Today I will be reacting to BTS again in hopes of expanding my K-pop knowledge and music library. Fingers crossed you like me reacting to my first listen to this BTS song.
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[@ashleyder9164]

The concert he is referring to happened many years ago in Japan. The concert was cancelled ostensibly because both Suga and V were sick, but Suga later wrote a long very honest note to fans explaining that he'd had a severe panic attack and that's why he was unable to perform.

[@TEEJ-9]

ahh~ noted...that's tough.

[@justnic3305]

I want to point out that this lyric video has the last lines of this song incorrect. He doesn’t repeat the “show me the money” line. The line is “I was born out of han” or “sorrow created me”. ‘Han’ is a uniquely Korean term which encompasses internalized feelings of sorrow, grief, resentment that exists in all Koreans. Dial 6137’s lyrics are closest to that translation. I think they are actually one of the best lyric translation channels. This was the last song he performed at his concerts and it was amazing. I never thought I would ever get to see this song performed so to experience it live in concert was unforgettable. Thanks for the thoughtful reaction.

[@TEEJ-9]

ahhh! Now that's a bit more fitting here. Ty! & thanks for joining w/me for this song.

[@NinaMarie7]

this song is so powerful. this translation leaves out some detail but it's still a popular translation.a few things... the beeping is the dr asking if he's contemplated harming himself, he answers that he has. and show me the money is a show in korea that rappers often go compete on, there had been some people talking trash about suga and rm that they should go on show me the money like the fact that they hadn't meant they weren't good rappers, so he was kind of yelling there that it's not that he 'can't' go on it its that he doesn't want to, and it's not that people didn't try to betray them it's that they couldn't. part of what i love about this is he is so vulnerable and you can hear so much pain and anger in his lyrics and delivery, yet he turns it around to shout out how he fought through it all and is triumphant. if you ever see the dday concert...this song is such a powerful and emotional moment.

[@TEEJ-9]

Thx for these details. This is all getting deeper than I expected.

[@ericweinman9447]

While you can say behind every artist there is a weak self, this song has a much more Korean context. The Idol platform for years was looked down upon by Korean males and in particular by the Korean rap underground which considered Idol rappers as vapid, betraying hip hop, and simply being complicit to a commercial endeavor by the music corporations. So Suga opens up with a conflict he has been experiencing. Is his music legitimate from the heart or by being an Idol rapper, has he sacrificed his integrity for potential financial success? Early on he suffered a lot of ridicule for being an Idol and it messed with his mind. But as the second verse says, he has come to accept his address is idol.

[@TEEJ-9]

mmm I see. Thx for the info 🤔now I'm a step closer to piecing this puzzle together.

[@suga_rush]

"Min Yoongi is already dead (I killed him)" You have seen this motif in the Agust D trilogy where he is killing versions of himself over and over again. While it signifies growth in the Trilogy, I think here it signifies a loss of innocence. In a way, I think 'The Last' and 'Amygdala' are two sides of a coin. One as Agust D who born out of anger as a coping mechanism and the other as Min Yoongi who has to face and deal with all these issues before he can be resurrected again. He cannot go back to who he was before all his suffering. He has to go through it all to find himself again. At least that's how I interpreted it.

[@meggan3574]

very nicely said!

[@TEEJ-9]

Actually, awesome interpretation here. I'd like to think that.

[@MariaChavez-ey5sr]

There is a certain feral rawness to many of his songs and lyrics that feels so real. It’s a level of being transparent that isn’t just fearless so much of himself is relatable. Keep in mind there is very little mental health in Korea much less do idols ever speak about it. He was exceptionally brave and it let other idols reach out to him. He studies psychology and has said he’s thought of a career as a counselor. Their company has a focus on mental health and support.

[@TEEJ-9]

Wow! Crazy info...that's beautiful

[@HILovinties]

It was in Japan, where he hid in the bathroom, the second night in Kobe, 2015. He couldn’t bring himself to go on stage. His anxiety was too great. He eventually did go back by himself to face it. He ended up posting about it. “But since the second day in Kobe, Japan, the day I couldn’t get myself on stage, I wasn’t so sure if I could face a lot of people again and look them in the eyes. So I went back to Kobe, that same concert hall. From the time I arrived, until the time the concert should have begun, I wandered around the hall. I went to the box office. The entrance. All over the stadium. I wanted to feel what everyone felt. I came to face a lot of feelings. The joy. The thrill of waiting for the show to start. The sadness. The resentment. The rage, the disappointment, and more. I want to understand. And I do. So I am sorry. I am sorry that I am an imperfect human being. I am sorry that I act tough when I’m only a weak and vulnerable person. I came to admit once again that I am not enough. I prayed there, though I don’t have a religion. The end is already set. But even though I know how this ends, I will not change. I won’t ever turn numb to these emotions.” ~ Suga

[@2137natan]

the letter is actually a lot longer!!! its easy to find on twitter

[@TEEJ-9]

Thx for the info! I'm falling into my feels a bit ngl

[@elianamariano308]

SUGA is such a corageous man amidst his vulnerabilities at that time. To go back and face his fears?!

[@sabinemuller8124]

now you know why we love him so deeply. i adore his bravery and openness, he is my beloved role model.

[@beccal.5369]

As most ARMY know Suga has suffered for many years with depression, anxiety and compulsion (OCD). After his panic attack had canceled the concert in Kobe, that he was refering to in this song, Suga went back to the venue when it was empty to reflect, he then had a short break , and wrote a long letter for ARMY (translation below) ... Hello, this is Suga. Many people were curious as to what I was doing on my break, and to simply put it, I walked a lot, slept a lot and thought a lot. I wanted to go on a trip to organize my thoughts before working on my mixtape. I also had a place I must go to. I wanted to do things I was able to do not as a 22-year old BTS’ Suga, but as a 22-year old Min Yoongi. It was a time where I looked back at myself. The things I will say now are things I wanted to share not as a singer to a fan or as BTS to ARMY, but to talk to you as human to human. I've always wanted to be a cool person to a lot of people. Having rational thoughts and making rational decisions in any situations. I wanted to live like my father. My father said to take a look around you when there's something to be happy about. Be calm and make rational decisions when happy. The first day when "I need u" got 1st place, I took a look at my surroundings. Every minute I'm happy, I acted as if I'm not. When I'm sad I acted as if I'm not. Even if I like it, I acted as if I don't like it. I pretended to be cold-hearted and pretended to be strong. If a joy is shared, it will be doubled but if a sadness is shared, it won't get smaller. That's what I thought. I know I'm a person who's bad at expressing my emotions but I've been living that way and I thought it's right. One day, I can't exactly remember when, I was in a car with my father and he said "Yoongi, don't live like me". The first day of vacation. The first day ever since I was born, I drank with my family. It has been 6 years since I left home. We were all just chatting, listening to stories that we haven't heard of. The strong and cool father that I know, knows how to feel hurt and sad, how to feel happy and love.. 1.5-pyeong in the practice room, my studio is my wide meadows and narrow prison. I can do anything and at the same time, I can't really do anything. I can work on music thoughtlessly for 20 hours, but I can also sit there and not do anything but just thinking for 20 hours. I was 11 years old when I first started writing my own lyrics. When I listen to good music, I will feel really excited and I feel really happy more than anything. To me, music is my hope and my happiness, I also want to be someone's hope and happiness. Actually I'm someone who would just walk away rather to crash and feel pain. Anyone hates being hurt and I don't want to get hurt. In "Nevermind", "If you feel like you a going to crash then accelerate more". Perharps, that's actually what I wanted to say to myself. The most upsetting time for me when I face a large number of people, is when I face myself who isn’t able to be fair to everyone. I didn’t want to hurt anyone, but there are times I couldn’t do that. I think I’m still a person that lacks in many things. The second day of the concert in Kobe... I don’t think I’ve ever slept deeply after that day. Could it be because of the fact that I gave a wound to many people? Whenever I fell asleep, I would wake up with cold sweat. Because I already once have not been able to go on stage before and have hurt many people, I said that I’ll go up (to perform) no matter what situation arises. Everyone tried to stop me. I really cried a ton at the situation of not being able to go up on stage. And I know crying is losing. It’s really easy for me to cope with my own sorrow, but witnessing those who love me in sadness is very hard. I made them sad, once again. If I could go back to that day, I would go on stage no matter what. So there was just one place to go. I went to Kobe during my break. Many people tried to stop me from going, but I didn’t want to be ashamed of myself any longer. So I just went to Kobe without planning. It was my second time visiting the concert venue after a concert. The first was Ax Hall at late night after finishing the first Red Bullet concert. The second time was the Kobe World Memorial Hall, at where I failed to perform. I hate becoming a numb person. I didn’t want to take the love and these glorious days for granted. I didn’t want to be a numb person. That’s why I visited the venues again on my own. (T/N: He’s saying he doesn’t want to take all the love he’s receiving as granted, he really wants to appreciate every single love he gets. He’s meaning numb in the way by how he wouldn’t be able to feel what the fans feel about him. He’s basically saying he wants to appreciate every love he gets from his fans) I liked being on stage, and I still do. When I was 15 and performed in front of 2 people I stood proudly and made eye contact with them during my performance. However after my debut I feel that I have not been righteous towards myself. I think it may be because I knew better than anyone that I wasn’t perfect. And then on the day of the first performance of HYYH on stage I made proud eye contact with the audience that I didn’t do in quite a while. But after the second day of the Kobe concert when I was unable to stand on stage, I didn’t have the courage to confidently confront the large number of people. So that’s why I visited Kobe, the concert hall again. I kept wandering around the area by the concert hall from the time I arrived there until the time our performance was due to begin that day. From the ticketing booth to the entrance and the concert hall - I wanted to feel the same emotions as you all from every nook and corner. I felt many emotions. Happiness, the excited nervousness felt while waiting for the performance, sadness, resentment, anger, regret, etc. I wanted to understand you all, and I do understand. So I’m sorry and apologetic, for I am not a perfect human being. I’m a person who is weak but acts strong. Once again I realized that I was a person who’s lacking. Although I’m not religious, I prayed at that place. After all, at the end, it was a fated day. Even if it’s ended, let’s not let this heart become numb. To me, who wanted to spend every moment alone, you all were taking up quite a large part (of my mind). Age and gender, nationality and religion, what language you use - all of that isn’t important. "Whether you're young or old, whether you have a hidden child, It doesn't matter", haven't I said this already. That day, we unexpectedly had a Music Bank broadcast and I boarded a plane and returned a day before planned. I returned after organizing my many thoughts. Once again, while feeling that I’m a blessed person, I felt that I need to be a person who lives every moment feeling thankful. This is the moment I realizied the fact that 22-year old Min Yoongi, who hates being an adult, is standing in front of the threshold to being an adult. Thank you for making me a blessed person, ARMY. Although I’m never able to say this because I’m bad at expressing myself. Here I am conveying my feelings and thoughts once more through a piece of less-than-satisfactory writing. I will live while being thankful of every moment as I am such a lacking human being. I love you, ARMY.

[@andrearaether4220]

Wow, that's an amazing and great job of re-reacting to reacting. So much information, thank you❣️ Thank you❣️

[@TEEJ-9]

🙏🙏 Thx for this!

[@saraswathimuttan8965]

❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@materidouska286]

Thank you for a nice reaction. Seeing a newbie delving into Yoongi´s work and appreciating it like you have been doing is lovey. You can´t go wrong with AgustD if you are into heavy, deep, meaningful lyrics that describe life as is but also bring hope, comfort and sustenance. People say his music is better than therapy. It is relatable, it is healing and it is lasting. Majority of his songs as AgustD but also some from his discography as Suga with BTS ( Interlude: Shadow, First love ) are both deeply personal and introspective and do not try to please anybody. Punchy, direct, raw, stripped to the bone. He said himself about his latest album D-day - it is not a kind album :-) No sugar and candy, no lalala, nanana, and nothing that would lack substance . All of his albums ( two previous mix tapes from 2016 and 2020 and now also his D-day album from 2023) are interconnected and follow a continuous red tread story line of him as a musician but also as a human being. He is the best story teller. His lyrics are touching and engaging and is presentation of them when he raps adding raw emotional twist to it with his charismatic deep voice and also how he works with his flow and breathing are an ultimate cherry on the top of the cake. Also, majority of his work is self-written, self-composed and self-produced. If you like "The Last" I urge you to search out a live performance of it from his D-day tour. The Last was a closing act of his set list and is beyond iconic. His last day of that tour in Seoul was something incredible and beyond special. I strongly recommend you watch it to understand what a stage beast this guy is. Thanks again !

[@TEEJ-9]

Thank you for the info and support for the Yoongi dives, honestly 🙏 may be odd, but I'm glad someone mentioned his breathing. I took notice of it after reactions. I'll tap into this live being mentioned.

[@eileencritchley4630]

I can never read Yoongie's letter without tears rolling down my cheeks same for the track. I don't even realise I'm crying until I realise my face is all wet.

[@TEEJ-9]

It def warrants that sort of reaction

[@a2g2u2s.t.d]

This is the song that made him my bias! Check the live version sometime. Intense for sure. So Far Away is another good one. Re: Min Yoongi is dead, I killed him. IMO, it's referring to that alter ego he created (as shown in the Amygdala MV when the scar first shows up). That's not Min Yoongi or Suga. That's our boy Agust D, conflicted and unsure about himself.

[@TEEJ-9]

Ahhh~ yea that makes sense though 🤔 He is an entire puzzle to put together lol I love it though. I'll try to look into the live

[@CelesteKayla13]

Seeing this song live was so emotional for me cause i was an army when it released and i felt so connected to it. Also hearing the lyrics and the whole venue screaming 내 fan들아 떳떳이 고개들길 누가 나만큼 해 (My fans, keep your head up proudly Who else would do as much as I do? ) after all the years in between of suffering and hardships that Bts and Army have been through together was like a weight being lifted. I definitely cried the whole concert lol

[@TEEJ-9]

Damn, what ride. Love to hear it.

[@annaravenheart9253]

he has a way of pulling out your heart and show it to you. the way he is so venerable and lets us know we are not alone. if even someone like him has those struggles and can share his feelings so can we. helps to elevate some of that shame . he said Min Yoongi is dead is referring to his past self, his weak self, the him that was consumed by fear. ( my interpretation)

[@lyannnnnnnwolf]

Yoongi is my ultimate bias and I absolutely love all of his songs even though I never cared for rap before lol But I actually can't really listen to a lot of his songs he's released as Agust D cuz, well, as you saw, everything is very personal and I can relate to a lot of specific feelings he writes about. So it's for my own mental health that I can't listen much to his songs, which makes me a bit sad, but I like to imagine that Yoongi himself would just tell me to take care of myself first, and it's not like I never listen to them Anyway, great reaction! I've legit watched all of your BTS reactions till now. Your analysis of lyrics is honestly one of my favourite parts!

[@TEEJ-9]

Yoongi bias? Let's goo! Btw that totally makes sense. My younger sister is the same way. All of the BTS vids? Kinds shocks me a bit lol Thank you!! & thnx for the kind feedback!!

[@judyburgess3357]

Pain, pain, pain. Suga can tell it.

[@what_what__]

i love the way he expressing this lyrics

[@what_what__]

he didnt hit his shoulder from other members, but he was hit by a car while he was driving his motobike

[@TEEJ-9]

ahh I see, I see. Ty!

[@giakulasa]

​@TEEJ-9 yeah the depiction in the Amygdala mv where he was on his delivery scooter

[@xbucks77]

Check out his solo from the Wings Album FIRST LOVE. Another honest and heart wrenching masterpiece.

[@keenaamarillia6763]

WOW...i've never been soooo early in ur reaction video😄 Im gonna comeback and put some words after watching ur reaction😁😁 FYI when in the lyrics he said "Show Me The Money",its a korean show that all rapper including idol rapper competing to be the best rapper. Its also the show where Boby (IKON rapper) mocking RM. I highly recommended u to listening to SNOOZE by Agust D feat Woosung from The Rose and Ryuichi Sakamoto (famous pianist from Japan). Its song that contain message from AgustD as Sunbaenim(senior) for their Hobaes(junior) in idol industry. Pay attention to the lyrics when u listening to this song to become more understand how cruel is idol industry. And i suggest u to watch on ur own,Suga show called Suchiwta when AgustD become the guest and RM is the host of the show. U gonna understand a little background story of the creation of AgustD album from the first mixtape to D-Day album

[@TEEJ-9]

😅 It's like that sometimes. Mocking RM? Doesn't sound like a good guy. I hope to get to Snooze very soon and I will def look into this Suga show. Ty!

[@keenaamarillia6763]

@@TEEJ-9 😄😄 I dont have the right to judge him,i dont know him really well😁😁 Its a diss rap which was addressed to RM. But they said its ordinary thing in rap culture to make rap diss about someone

[@TEEJ-9]

@@keenaamarillia6763 Ahh, yea, dissing and that competitive nature is a big part of the culture.

[@becca9781]

Lol 1.) he has a song called "shadow" again about his success 2.) First love is emotion spit out in the page (Great reaction 😊)

[@becca9781]

Jeez also AgustD and NF are two of my favorite artists

[@TEEJ-9]

@@becca9781 Nicee! Love NF and def falling into AgustD. I'll note those tracks down.

[@suzy7645]

Please also react to Suga’s song First Love from the BTS album Wings. It’s about his love for music and what it means to him. 💜🥢

[@TEEJ-9]

ohhh bet!

[@endoraismygma]

I LOVE HIM with my whole heart 💜

[@Rxpinn]

Fun fact, Yoongi mentioned he's a fan of NF :) Also he performed this song as rhe finale song in his tour.

[@TEEJ-9]

Yoongi is an NF fan? NIcee! I assume it's because of the raw, emotions depths in lyrics & delivery. I've got to tap into tis live being mentioned.

[@Rxpinn]

@@TEEJ-9 I was an NF fan wayyyyy before Agust D and when I heard The Last, it reminded me of Therapy session. There is a very brief mention of NF here : kzbin.info/www/bejne/qnnHcqyCocp_lcksi=ldZL6nbPoSuDJnHg

[@Ween4ever]

I’ve only watched part of your reaction to this so far. Yes, to many, it can trigger bad thoughts. For me, Ihave everything he went through (except the huge success 😊) and many moments similar to where you first paused it. Suga/Agust-D/ Yoongi became my bias immediately when I started liking them long long time ago because he’s so raw, gentle on the inside, shows his vulnerability through his passion for music, and much more! By listening to his music where many cannot, I find comfort knowing someone like him is sharing to help others and at least I know there is 1 person out there (even if never meet) that truly understands what many go through. He does this for himself and for ARMY. Plus, he’s inspirational with all his other works and BTS lyrics, music productions, etc. Thank you Teej! I’ll see what you choose from the comments or for yourself next time. I also hope you are able to get through whatever it is you go through.. Similar reason why I’ve been away and may be or not comment much anymore for a bit. Maybe just say hi! 😊💜💜💜🇨🇦

[@TEEJ-9]

Preach! Also, much love to you for that. Hope the best for you out there. *note: this comment was originally in lyric format, but it was kinda ok, so I got rid of it and wrote it in my lyric book lmao*

[@oliviawilliams-rial2362]

Thank you Teej! This song is one of my favorites. Please please do Dis-ease next!

[@a2g2u2s.t.d]

Yes dis-ease!

[@TEEJ-9]

np, Thx for chillin w/me. I think you're possibly the 1st to recommend this one...noted!

[@user-fr2wn4mv7v]

You should watch "AGUST D" (song name) by Suga/agust D, yoongi, its fire

[@mabelmoon7759]

Hi, 11:58 the doctor asked him if he ever tried to un@live himself.

[@user-ye9zq6cc8p]

У нас в России, был такой поэт, артист и музыкант Владимир Высоцкий. Он написал такие строки (я позволила себе немного их переделать): Поэт идёт босыми пятками по лезвию ножа, и режет в кровь свою больную душу. Вот это про нашего Императора Мин.

[@TEEJ-9]

Это глубже, чем может показаться на первый взгляд. У меня есть старая подруга по имени Шахкзода, кажется, она уже упоминала о чем-то подобном. Это имя вызывает у меня дежавю.

[@user-ye9zq6cc8p]

Не удивлюсь, если так и есть на самом деле. Юнги ведь не просто слова умеет в рифму произносить. Он ПОЭТ, а значит не может обойтись без того, чтобы открыть свою душу, даже если это принесёт боль ему самому. Вот и Намджун такой же, только он больше философ, как мне кажется.

[@khyatichouhan6371]

i just got goosebumps listening to this again

[@oliviawilliams-rial2362]

Also! This is the song that Yoongi addresses his crushed shoulder for the first time (we later see it in Amygdala). He also talks about social anxiety, depression and OCD.

[@suzy7645]

I love him so much for addressing his dark side, mental struggles so directly. Other BTS work also speaks about this such as the Love Yourself albums. Who else does this??? Other Kpop or western boy bands- no. Especially from a country like Korea with the highest youth su!cide rate and where mental health is severely lacking. BTS just renewed their UNICEF partnership this week for another 7 years with a new campaign. It is part 2 of their UNICEF Love Yourself campaign, called “On My Mind”. It aims to improve and support mental health of youth from around the world. 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

[@femmy-syahrani]

The live performance of this song is so powerful. It's also the last song in his setlist. After shouting the word "shit!" he turned around and walked off the stage and the concert ended. (Except his very last concert, where he thanks the audience after the song.)

[@ladiehang]

Wish you could see this live. It was amazing. KZbin has live version, go check it out. Just the way he sing it, wow. You can feel all his emotions and pain.

[@giakulasa]

Hi! Just found your channel and falling a bit into the rabbit hole just watched 5 of your vids consecutively 🤭 Suga is my bias too. I saw a few ppl here recommend Shadow Interlude, i think it's an extension of some of the concepts here (it's Suga's solo song from their Map of the Soul Album, a whole series based on Carl Jung's psychological concepts). In Shadow he talks about the lingering darkness that always hangs around throughout his success, and towards the end of the song his shadow replies to him we will never be apart I am you and you are me theres nothing you can do but just accept it. Always gives me goosebumps

[@Tke]

I don’t think anyone’s mentioned it yet but most fans believe the concert he references is one in Japan within the last year of this album’s release. He never stated it exactly but they believe it was that one because both Suga and V were missing from it and the others only stayed for a few songs before they left early for being too worried about them. (Again basing off rumors around that time, no actual proof), people said V passed out pre-concert from being very ill and Suga locked himself into a room while having something akin to a panic attack. I forget the exact date but you can see fancams where both Suga and V are missing.

[@materidouska286]

I think its safe to say it is not just rumors at this point. Their 26th of December 2015 HYYH concert in Kobe was cancelled due to both Tae and Yoongi missing "being rushed to the hospital" . Yoongi later on wrote a heart felt letter of apology to Army and even visited Kobe on his own free time to contemplate on the event and how it effected him and prayed there and pleaded for forgiveness. Look where he is now :-) So proud of him - overcoming, growing, learning and wining in the end.

[@Tke]

The reason I say rumors is because there is SOME Army who think he’s referencing a different concert (I can’t remember which one off hand) where he made a comment that he’d been feeling anxious before they headed to Japan. So to avoid that debate again I simply said rumors. I still definitely agree it’s the Japan one but hey, I’m open to any Army with extra opinions. (We go down like HYYH Yoonko-LMAO)

[@Yoon4Ever93]

Support and buy Min Yoongi’s vinyl D-Day (Target, Walmart, Barnes and Noble). ❤️💙🧡

[@TEEJ-9]

Will do!

[@2137natan]

hi about the concert part it was a concert in japan in 2015 he wasnt able to perform and a month later he wrote this letter "Hello, this is Suga. Many people were curious as to what I was doing on my break, and to simply put it, I walked a lot, slept a lot and thought a lot. I wanted to go on a trip to organize my thoughts before working on my mixtape. I also had a place I must go to. I wanted to do things I was able to do not as a 24 year old BTS’ Suga, but as a 24 year old Min Yoongi. It was a time where I looked back at myself. The things I will say now are things I wanted to share not as a Singer and Fan, or as Bangtan and ARMY, but to talk to you as human to human. The most upsetting time for me when I face a large number of people, is when I face myself who isn’t able to be fair to everyone. I didn’t want to hurt anyone, but there are times I couldn’t do that. I think I’m still a person that lacks in many things. The second day of the concert in Kobe.. I don’t think I’ve ever slept deeply after that day. Could it be because of the fact that I gave a wound to many people? Whenever I fell asleep, I would wake up with cold sweat. Because I already once have not been able to go on stage before and have hurt many people, I said that I’ll go up (to perform) no matter what situation arises. Everyone tried to stop me. I really cried a ton at the situation of not being able to go up on stage. And I know crying is losing." It’s really easy for me to cope with my own sorrow, but witnessing those who love me in sadness is very hard. I made them sad, once again. If I could go back to that day, I would go on stage no matter what. So there was just one place to go. I went to Kobe during my break. Many people tried to stop me from going, but I didn’t want to be ashamed of myself any longer. So I just went to Kobe. It was my second time visiting the concert venue after a concert. The first was Ax Hall at late night after finishing the first Red Bullet concert. The second time was the Kobe World Memorial Hall, at where I failed to perform. *A/N: the Kobe performance he was talking about was the 화양연화 concert in Kobe Hall Japan back in December 2015 which was cancelled due to Suga and V being sick. They were able to perform on the first day but during the second day, Suga and V got sick (felt nauseous) and were brought to the hospital. Big Hit didn't want to present the group without all the members so they decided to just cancel the remaining two nights of the show. I hate becoming a numb person. I didn’t want to take the love and these glorious days for granted. I didn’t want to be a numb person. That’s why I visited the venues again on my own. (T/N: He’s saying he doesn’t want to take all the love he’s receiving *for granted, he really wants to appreciate every single love he gets. He’s meaning numb in the way by how he wouldn’t be able to feel what the fans feel about him. He’s basically saying he wants to appreciate every love he gets from his fans) I liked being on stage, and I still do. When I was 17 and performed in front of 2 people I stood proudly and made eye contact with them during my performance. However after my debut I feel that I have not been righteous towards myself. I think it may be because I knew better then that I wasn’t perfect. And the on the day of the first performance of 화양연화 on stage I made proud eye contact with the audience that I didn’t do in quite a while. But after the second day of the Kobe concert when I was unable to stand on stage, I didn’t have the courage to confidently confront the large number of people. So that’s why I visited Kobe, the concert hall again. I kept wandering around the area by the concert hall from the time I arrived there until the time our performance was due to begin that day. From the ticketing booth to the entrance and the concert hall - I wanted to feel the same emotions as you all from every nook and corner. I felt many emotions. Happiness, the excited nervousness felt while waiting for the performance, sadness, resentment, anger, regret, etc. , I wanted to understand you all, and I do understand. So I’m sorry and apologetic, for I am not a perfect human being. I’m a person who is weak, but acts strong. Once again I realised that I was a person who’s lacking. Although I’m not religious, I prayed at that place. After all at the end, it was a fated day. Even if it’s ended, let’s not let this heart become numb. To me, who wanted to spend every moment alone, you all were taking up quite a large part (of my mind). Age and gender, nationality and religion, what language you use - all of that isn’t important to me. That day, we unexpectedly had a Music Bank broadcast and I boarded a plane and returned a day before planned. I returned after organizing my many thoughts. Once again, while feeling that I’m a blessed person, I felt that I need to be a person who lives every moment feeling thankful. Thank you for making me a blessed person, ARMY, Although I’m never able to say this because I’m bad at expressing myself. Here I am conveying my feelings and thoughts once more through a piece of less-than-satisfactory writing. I will live while being thankful of every moment as I am such a lacking human being. I love you, ARMYs."

[@TEEJ-9]

🙏 Much appreciated mate!

[@trtl3498]

I just want to say that I really enjoy your videos and journey through BTS! 💜

[@TEEJ-9]

😭thank you! Means a lot💜

[@tracydowd4013]

It's fine to go back and get every lyric and word. Yoon-gi's lyrics almost demand that you do that. He was talking about how he attempted un-aliving himself. (I think it's ridiculous I need to say it like that to avoid getting a post deleted). Yoon-gi always goes in deep, from his soul. His journey was dark and bright. BTS went through so much. A second run-through is always good. Yoon-gi always talks about how he created Agust D so he could express his anger and pain, or the undesirable part of ourselves (shadows) that we hide and try to suppress. The things we don't like about ourselves. If you suppress your shadows, you can't truly know yourself. His shadows are front and center in this song. This was long before they covered topics like Map Of Soul theory of individuation (shadow, persona, ego). If you don't accept all parts of yourself (including your shadows), you can't reach individuation, which refers to the process of forming a stable personality. I personally think his first mixtape was the beginning of Yoongi's journey to discovering his shadows. RM went through a similar experience in his own mixtapes. As well as HOBI and JIMIN. I'm sure they all have to a certain degree. But each one if a different journey and worth checking out, eventually. Yoon-gi has grown so much over the years, that I truly believe their art is their therapy. The more they create music and share their souls with us, the better and more wiser they get. I can't wait for when they comeback in 2025. By the way, the live performance of this song is awesome, at his world tour Agust D D-Day concert.

[@Clovis_Rose]

It's great hearing your knowledge and personal thoughts and connections to the music and lyrics!

[@heathernile4700]

This song is great and very self reflecting. The first half describes his hardships. He wrote that part early in his career. He then came back years later and wrote how his life changed and telling his fans that he is fine. Our Min Yoongi has a habit of writing parts of songs and holds onto them until he gets reinspired to finish it. He has a unbelievable talent. 💜

[@catarinapaula9458]

Now you get here... You have to react to interlude shadow

[@ashleyder9164]

One of my absolute favorite AgustD songs 💜💜💜

[@V_NYC]

Thoughts… we,.. ( ARMY ) know Yoongi’s story better than muggles… therefore, of course we understand more than newbies😉 Suggest you react to more earlier songs,.. and if you decide to know more about our #BTS,.. there’s always their game show RUN BTS! ~ Multitude of good and mediocre interviews…where you can slowly get to know n understand their individual personalities, strengths, and..chaotic energy that we love! 😉 tysm for respecting Yoongi’s creations!💝AND sharing glimpses of yourself with us.

[@AG-yb9ye]

THhis song guts me every time I hear it. The first time I listened I cried. I listened on repeat and cried and it still makes me tear up. My daughter had asked me to listen and my heart broke for both of them.i am so proud of that man for where he is today.

[@cboz6137]

That's our Yoongi. 🔥🔥😭😭 Seriously every song so good. There's a lot to this and others have responded well so I'll leave it at that. I'm 0T7 but Yoongi's music is my soul fr.

[@catarinapaula9458]

When he talks about doctor asking him a question, this translation have been soften out!! "The doctor ask me if I ever? ( long and dramatic pause) i answered with no excitation I have!"

[@fabrineclaudino6191]

loving tour reactions, ans i love this song, when it came out and i read the translation for the first time i was in tears, and still brings tears to my eyes sometimes. i would love to see you reacting to entire albuns (i like long videos haha) and giving your thoughts on it. And you have to react to RM too! I would say he is a little less raw and more poetic with his lyrics, but i believe you would enjoy his music too

[@liliputjo3951]

Thank you for reaction. And there is another banger song Agust D and give it to me

[@addiejupiter6370]

Yes Sir 💜

[@pchs144]

thank you

[@arcrios9100]

Day 5 of asking for a patron. This song was so heartfelt snd deep. It really hit me and made me understand more than I wouldve imagined. I love that youre branching eith so much variety on your Channel! I look forward to every vid, whether it be deep and meaningful, or an absolute banger! Thanks Teej!

[@V_NYC]

My love, Min Yoongi ~ so proud of our Lotus flower!! #BTS #AgustD #Suga #Yoongi 💜🔥🎶🐾👍🏼♥️ Thx for appreciating Min Genius!

[@Emma.00.00]

I Don t know if you react at Shadow ... it is amazing

[@adeleneliu1179]

Yes, Interlude Shadow another banger.

[@TEEJ-9]

@@adeleneliu1179 Noted!

[@liliputjo3951]

​@@TEEJ-9Interlude Shadow has 2 versions. MV version is the shortest.. spotify version is the longest. I recommend both

[@MarcIzanagiReacts]

The spelling deffff supports both! 🔥

[@namastan5580]

💜

[@Ween4ever]

I can’t say for certain about the Min Yoongi line, but I take it the same way as you think.

[@marlinaputri305]

💜💜💜💜

[@rafaelsmith5737]

Check out Suga's First Love

[@Eshraq777]

🥹💜

[@rafaelsmith5737]

5:33. 6:12 r. 7:10. 10:22

[@user-jf1dw6mu2s]

this song make me pain Эта песня делает больно. Я не знаю, как перевести это....

[@TEEJ-9]

Может быть, это сработает --> "This song makes me very emotional" или "This song cuts deep"

[@mariepettersson6422]

Your sound very bad and ecco

[@TEEJ-9]

Eh can't do much about it at the moment. Hopefully I can upgrade smoothly after a while longer. See you next time lol