I think this song is about a child being neglected and they finally leave, but despite them leaving they still crave the love and warmth from their parent that never existed in the first place, "The things I didn't have were uncountable," she says. She ran away but was never able to return, "The shadow of a door won't open" referring to her mother shutting her out. The story shows that the girl was upholding impossible expectations and when she didn't meet those expectations she was punished for it, shown at 0:44 and 1:20 where she says, "I'll be a good child no matter when: The rule mom used to set for me" but then she "Lost it by the roadside on a cold night" referring to when she eventually left. It's shown throughout the song that no matter what she did she was never met with the warmth of love, "Not special, not your favorite" She made it out, however she still has this fear and this craving to go back to all that she knew. Which is shown at 0:50 when the dinner bell rings and she's shot with fear. And later when she's shown eating the snow dipped in warm, yellow light. She makes a faux table setting and remembers the "good" times she's had when she would eat her mothers home cooking. It's almost like she can't let it go and still falls for the lies her mom lays out for her. The promises that it would be different. She says, "Dinner bell, just call my name" wanting her mom to call out for her. But the glasses try to stop her at 1:48 from falling into the trap of going back to her mother. She says, "I can't choose, but why, why do I need her?" and at 2:16 her mother turns around and she sees the truth. Her mothers warm/loving face is just an empty cold lie. She realizes that what she craved and what she remembered were just lies set out for her, "So I just called it love reluctantly?" She never had real love, but as a kid knowing nothing else she perceived it as love and craved to have that familiarity once more. When she realizes that all she remembered was a lie she finally turns into the girl we see the the beginning, dark eyes, a black collar, and black wings settled on her back, on the other side of the fence. She turns into the girl she dreamed of being at the start, someone with freedom. Where she says, "I can soar in dreams with the wings I got from a witch back then," at 2:17 we see her finally transform. She finally knows the truth and though she is happy she's now empty and devoid of light. No longer holding onto that false reality: she stomps out the dinner plates at 0:38 and 1:34 and lets go, "Nobody notices. Nothing changes. I already know," and finally letting her craving for her mother go she says, "Stop my fever, dinner bell, stop it softly" and accepts that she's never going to have a loving mother and she's never going to be called back. It ends on her with her dinner glasses, the ones who've protected her and been their the whole time, by her side bathed in warm light.
@HarmonicVector Жыл бұрын
Part of me believes that whatever transformed her has partially hollowed her out to make room for the eldritch power she has within, and that she's trying to remember what it is to enjoy food; to live in a sense. To once again bathe in these memories of light, but when she tries to remember, they too are hollow. She can't even begin to remember what the smell of a meal is, let alone the kind mother that cooked it. All she remembers is power seeping into her veins, and the wings she rides upon, forever wandering the cold.
@HarmonicVector Жыл бұрын
Also, keep in mind that the girl has two pairs of eyes. When she was just a girl, they were eyes that matched her hair (probably the yellow we see when she wakes up from destroying the table in the 2nd chorus), but after transforming, she gained parallaxed black eyes, with what can only be considered yellow pupils, unusual. She is DEFINITELY not the same person after whatever took her over.
@evannotoven Жыл бұрын
@@HarmonicVector She actually has three pairs of eyes! blue when she's at home, yellow when she leaves home (and returns) and then black when she transformed. And I agree that she can't remember what it is to enjoy food, it's a chore for her now. She doesn't enjoy it but she knows she'll be "Small and miserable" because it doesn't have the warmth from her mother like others have but she still needs it to survive. When she says "What was the warmth made of? The child on the other side wouldn't know the answer" I think she's referring to the kids who have loving/warm meals they don't question why it tastes the way it does. Because for her she's never had it, so she would question why there's is warm as opposed to her who never experienced a warm meal (She says it immediately after saying she's watched other families together in their home, commenting that in comparison "The things I didn't have were uncountable"). Plus her comment about the "Kids on the other side" points to that while her home wasn't full of warm loving parents, there's did. And in some way she's envious as her mother never cooked for her; she comments "I drink the soup made by the toy chef" and then it shows a flashback to her childhood; explaining that chefs cooked for her instead. And when she returns home and sees her mother cooking, when the mother is revealed to not have a face I believe this means because she's never cooked for her, she can't even imagine a false memory where her mother would give her a loving meal to begin with. The witch that transformed her seemed to take something away, her mouth drips blue and after that her eyes are no longer blue. Whether that be eldritch power she possesses and that's why or if it's a metaphor for trauma taking away a childs innocence making her hollow when she realizes the truth: Or both. It could be why her mom wanted her to be perfect, maybe she looked down upon her for being different and not what she envisioned a "perfect child" to be. When she threw away that rule she had to accept that she could no longer be the perfect child her mother expected. I also believe that she may be a princess, like beauty and the beast but she is both sides of the same coin. Her plates and cups are sentient and take care of her, and she has chefs that cook for her, her home has a balcony almost like a palace, and she has a fence around her home. But instead of being a perfect princess she becomes a "monster" because of a witch that transforms her. Whatever it is, her leaving and being on her own symbolizes that she must find a reason to live outside of the wish to eat her mothers warm cooking.
@Thtaoy1029 Жыл бұрын
How the actual f did i overlook over these details? Mad respect to all yall
I get the feeling this song is either about a girl who lost her mom, and is left trying to deal with the loneliness which is portrayed as “hunger”, or it’s about a girl who is neglected by her mom (hence the line “I couldn’t choose, but why do I need her? Because I couldn’t choose, so I just called it love reluctantly?” And things like “no one notices, nothing changes. I know already.”) and craves a warm place with a loving family. Either way, very sad song but beautiful art and animation as always!! お母さんを失った娘の話かな?それともお母さんに放置されていて、暖かい家族を欲している子の話…?どっちにしろとても切ない感じだけど、絵も曲もとても素敵~新曲ありがとうございます!!
"Just normally, just normally" hits especially when you hear Miku's voice is more conservatively tuned, in line with her normal range, instead of HaruGohan's much higher and shriller Miku tone.
Every new songs makes me more in love into Harumaki Gohan songs since Melty Land Nightmare, I'm so happy to see this artist evolving and also those gorgeous animations are blowing my mind every single time! I can't describe how much his songs impacted my life, and I can't wait to hear more of his songs! But for now, let's listen to this a couple thousands times.