DON'T GIVE UP WHEN IT'S HARD - AM I DOING WELL? ANOREXIA RECOVERY - CRYING OVER CHIPS - WEEKEND VLOG

Vlog of the weekend!
EVEN MORE BAGELS!
I keep wondering if I am doing well, especially if I find it hard one day...
A fun filled weekend even though I cried. Also, I don't even know why I get worked up about certain things. But the more you challenge, the more you realise you NEED to challenge, and then the more life you see there is that you have to live!
What is your favourite thing to do at the weekend?
FOLLOW ME ON INSTAGRAM: www.instagram....

[@alannahfitzpatrick3335]

As your mum said you’re half the size of Alisha so of course you need to eat more than her!! But you’re so brave to keep going after that little mini blip. Your progress in the last few weeks is so incredibly inspiring and I know you’ll continue to inspire so many people who are also trying to recover. You’re so brave Elzani I feel so connected to your journey and it really lifts my spirits to see you getting stronger and more lively with every video. You have such a wonderful personality and you’re so beautiful you deserve nothing but the best ❤️❤️

[@AngelicasRecovery]

Allie O’Connor I agree with everything you just said

[@kecrn4132]

Angelica’s Recovery - me too!!

[@mirandadefazio9964]

Love I meant lol not live

[@jessicahare8518]

Elzani's Mum you are absolutely amazing, it actually makes me want to cry how lovely you are. I had an anorexic sister growing up, she was in and out of hospital my whole childhood so I know what it's like, it is incredibly difficult to watch someone you love live with anorexia. No one sees the tears behind closed doors when everyone has gone to bed and you lay there praying they make it through the night. Your patience and love is truly beautiful. Elzani you are amazing too and so strong. You're easily my fav KZbinr and I am so excited to watch your recovery xx P.S I cry all the time too and I'm not even unwell lol xx don't worry about it.

[@misscritter4038]

I've noticed how, whenever you have a "breakdown," which is REALLY merely an expression of emotion, the things you say to yourself are PRECISELY the things you ought to say...aside from, "I'm annoying everyone," because I think you know (in your heart) if annoyances exist in your family members, it's at the illness, not YOU. Things like; "It doesn't matter who eats what," "I need to stop comparing myself to others," "I NEED to eat loads," "It's ok," "I'm just gonna relax because I should calm down." You KNOW what to do & how to think & I'm quite LITERALLY (& quite privileged to be able to be😉) watching you retrain & reframe your thinking & your self-talk. You are NOT annoying, you are a brave, thoughtful, caring, considerate, positive, uplifting, dedicated, STRONG young lady who has set her mind to changing & improving her life & overcoming an EXTREMELY powerful illness that she is REFUSING to give up on or allow to take her life. Tell yourself THAT in your weak & vulnerable moments because not only do you DESERVE recovery, but you're FIGHTING for it, EARNING it, & WINNING this battle each & every day❣ Elzani, you ARE doing this...don't EVER doubt that! ❤❤❤

[@kecrn4132]

Missy Cougnet - you said all of that sooooo perfectly! It is exactly what I was thinking....only I couldn’t put into words as well as you did! You are AMAZING, Elzani💕

[@sara.4140]

Such a nice a positive comment! We love you Elzani, we are all rooting for you, keep going because you’re doing amazing!💕

[@jackichemslave]

Seeing you cry broke my heart 💔 you are such a sweet, beautiful, and intelligent young woman. Please never give up, the world needs more people like you ❤️❤️❤️

[@agustinajaimes9619]

keep fighting, you're going to get even more beautiful with every bite. You're giving me strenght to fight my ed and you inspire me a lot, without you i wouldnt push myself to try harder. Thank you, ily!

[@emilymorgan817]

You need to stop comparing your portions to the people around you. Your family are trying to maintain their weight or maybe even lose a few pounds, they are eating for their own goals! You need to focus on you and what you want out of life, you need to gain weight so you need to eat more than everyone around you, a lot more, if your going to achieve your goals! Don’t compare to those around you compare to yourself yesterday, your competing with yourself and your Ed not anyone else. Your doing so amazing and I love how you include the good and the bad in your vlogs ❤️ your a beautiful strong boss ass lady and your going to kick this Ed’s butt xxxxxxx

[@shannonuribe2732]

Hello Elzani I hope you see my comment, I just wanna tell you how important your videos are to me, I’m 22 and have been struggling with EDs since I was 15. Anyway, I want you to know I ALWAYS eat watching your videos, it makes me feel a bit more brave to watch you eat so I eat with you, I think “this girl is so strong for making her way to recovery, and also sharing that story with the world” so you give me strength because I feel like I’m with someone who understands how it’s like, take care and continue to your goal of recovery, you can do it!!

[@luciajellybean7666]

All these emotions... are so true and so relatable. Thank you for not editing those out as it is so important to see how real it is. thank you and your family for being such inspirations :') sending heaps of love from New Zealand!!

[@sylveemoonfaye8533]

Man i wish i had a mom like yours

[@throughrose-colouredeyes6284]

i'm sending you a big hug. i feel you. xo

[@jijie.6046]

Lol me too my mom hates me and makes me want to kms

[@Brokendreams77]

Same ☹️ my relationship with my mum is so bad

[@vegangainzhue4548]

@@jijie.6046 No she doesn't, what a fucking stupid thing to say

[@Lunarangst]

Vegan Gainz Hue you've no idea . What a fucking stupid thing for you to ignorantly say

[@danaklamecki8820]

Awwww sweet Elzani.....keep up the good work! No one is perfect. Please take good care of yourself and remember that we all are here to cheer you on. ❤️❤️

[@lenacgrimmie4803]

Your mom is literally amazing. Mine would never be so patient with me. You can be so lucky to have her!

[@chellyw63]

Your doing extremely well, and your sharing your recovery too, that’s amazing that you are doing this , your helping so many others to face their fears, I was ill for so many years and now live with severe damage to my body, the earlier someone seeks help to recover the better, and your vlogs are helping people to do this, be proud of your achievement xx

[@onlyme7308]

Always remember hunger is a dynamic thing. There is no rule about snacks being bigger than main meals. It’s about the needs of the body and in a healthy individual they will change with illness/injury/pregnancy obviously for a woman, movement exercise, hormonal changes etc. Feeding your body at this time is going to be different to anyone else’s because you are healing, recovering and need nourishment so very much. The best thing I was ever told was my happiness is an inside job; if we validate ourselves with acceptance and self-love we have a more consistent way of feeling peace rather than relying on others or comparing ourselves to others because it’s too variable and subjective. I love your vlogs. They are so grounded, real and profoundly inspiring. Keep fighting warrior. You are a beautiful light on this earth. ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

[@StopSmearCampaigns]

Crying is good. It releases negative emotions instead of bottling them up. And, it means you are pushing your pushing your limits because if you are crying, you are out of your comfort zone and hence you are progressing. It doesn't matter how slow you think you are progressing either, as long as you are moving forward. And sometimes we don't think we are moving forward but maybe write a list of things you did/ate/wouldn't eat when you were at your worst and last year and compare them to now. Focus on how far you have come and not how far you have to go. Also, I'm jealous of your family! It's so hard to do this on one's own! But then again I don't have the relationship with my mum as you have with yours, which is my fault not hers though. I just find it hard to open up, so never apologise for talking about it a lot to the point that you believe you are annoying your family because I'm sure they appreciate the fact that you can. As well as the fact that they are more than likely not as annoyed as you think, like your mum said.

[@HIGHIMALYSSA]

we need your mom to make a video of how to make some of yalls dinners they look so good

[@sophia_8298]

Alyssa Brianne For real. Especially the roast dinner. I practically inhaled my iPad when I saw that.

[@Jewels3398]

Remember recovery is NOT perfect. You may have set backs but that doesn’t mean it’s all over, it means that you are human like everyone else in this world. Everyone has their off days. It is okay! People continue on... and so can you. I believe in you.

[@kellyw3699]

26:56 that look in your eyes when you think about what you just said LOL!

[@thedrugthatkilled]

Comparison is the thief of joy 💕 You really are doing so well 💋

[@MayimHastings]

Brilliant! 👏 Brava!

[@thedrugthatkilled]

Tay Leigh 💖 thanks lovely! 💋💋

[@summerhumble9386]

Just think everyday a day passes you’ve either gotten stronger or stayed the same and we all no which one it the best 💪🏻

[@sofijastojanovic1909]

this girl is so amazing, and kind and it just make me happy when she smile.I'm not okay but my family force me to eat so I argue with them but i have to be strong, and she is helping me!Thank you🥰

[@throughrose-colouredeyes6284]

you are doing your best, and that is all anyone can do. you deserve to be so proud of yourself. you are fighting an illness that is trying to take your life, and a shouting voice in your head that you gave in to for so long. that is divine, to say the least, and no easy feat. you are not the bad person your mind says you are. every hard hurdle takes you one step closer to the other side of this. "no rain, no flowers." keep trying, brave heart. we are all here beside you. ps. your mum deserves an award. she is such a sweet support. please tell her i say thankyou. she is a role model for other parents, just like you are a role model for others trying to get better. we will all get there, it just takes time. be patient and gentle with yourself. i send my love. x

[@OriginalOWL]

So many emotions. You are doing so well. Your mum is very right, I am now starting to see you getting healthier. In your eyes, your smile, the way you are carrying yourself. You are such an inspiration, thank you for sharing this journey with the world!

[@katsullivan1038]

You should try biscoff and nutella mixed on one bagel it's amazing too just had that on toast for a snack yesterday

[@Carrot880]

You ARE doing great! It's not about not ever having a hard time or worse days. It's about getting over them and back on track, which is what you continuously do. And you seem to do it faster every time and that's what really counts! Some people say they still have occasional ED thoughts after years of being fully recovered, they just don't act on them and so they don't get any stronger and go away quickly. You are still in a very early stage of recovery, you shouldn't even expect yourself to not have ED thoughts. It's not realistic, so don't beat yourself because of that. Just notice them, fight them, move on. You got this, there's absolutely no doubt about it anymore! What I would recommend, if you don't already do it, is to think what makes you struggle more on some days. Is it really the amount or types of food you eat? Or maybe, did you sleep worse or were you generally more tired or stressed about something? Do you notice any time pattern (hormones swaying - they are there even if there's not enough for normal function)? Were there triggers that weren't there on good days, and could you start processing your way through them? Much love. :) (Mum, you are amazing. I want to be like you if I ever have kids.)

[@goldencloset1554]

it breaks my heart to see you cry because it’s visible how hard you try to improve, but don’t let these bad times ruin your day cause you are doing amazing, and you’ll be able to overcome all this and have an incredible life cause you deserve, keep going we’re here for you 💘

[@gemma_dancer4169]

golden closet KOOKIE :)

[@lovietabigne7272]

Been watching this girl since she was hospitalize and how she conquered to recovery.im so proud of you girl you are such a inspiration. You just proved that there is always a rainbow after the rain❤️❤️❤️

[@tazzjensen5948]

I know it doesn't seem like it but I have seen u come along way already an I'm a stranger try not to be so hard on yourself everyday that u wake up an eat is a success. Keep going sending love from qld australia your mum is amazing your lucky to have her.

[@rimaruttempest6109]

A 40 MINUTE ELZANI VIDEO hehe my day just got better! I’m struggling with binging and purging and I’m not strong enough to even want to recover yet. The fact that you even WANT TO fight your ED is something to be so proud of. Keep fighting💪🏼 I know you can get through this

[@tia5505]

ahhhhH i love seeing u get excited about trying new stuff/stuff you haven't had in ages!!! you deserve to be healthy and happy ♥️

[@DDelilahM]

your mom is so lovely and supportive..... we all have difficult moments in every day but we get through them just like you do... i think youre doing smashingly, and im very proud of you...Love from New York!

[@_gog3thelp]

I think it's interesting that you try to bring yourself out of it in situations like this. "Why am I crying over stuff I've already eaten?" You're a strong girl, that is so hard to do for yourself. Proud of you. 🥺

[@LittlestHoboKatie]

Its not about how many times you fall, but how many times you get back up again, or something! you are doing brilliantly, keep challenging yourself, allow yourself everything you need to get better, eat what you want and maybe even more on top, you can never have too much Elzani, you need to burst through this mindset, you can do it. Do some positive affirmations in the morning and at night.. I WILL GET BETTER I AM WORTH IT I AM BEAUTIFUL I CAN DO THIS.. Things like that, out loud in the mirror.. it releases chemicals in the brain and really helps.. chin up hun

[@shiftingrealities4213]

Elzani you are funny and smart and compassionate, you keep going, you have so much to live for and bring so much to the recovery community and to those in you're immediate life, keep empowering yourself and building a beautiful mindset, you got this! You are stronger than you know, we all are! 😃💖👏🙌💪😘

[@daisyharrison9228]

Your doing so well I wish I could say the same I have an eating disorder and I’m struggling right now u r an inspiration 💜

[@its_msk]

"Cant believe I missed out on so many bagels" idk why but I loved that 💜

[@rosetree2624]

You’re doing so amazing 💗 I know it can all get overwhelming. Just push through because you deserve to be healthy. You are not a burden, ever!

[@MB-cz8kh]

you are so strong elzani, you are so precious to this world and im so happy you are using your voice to help others through their journey while you are going through yours.

[@hemimaraetai2177]

A lot of what we do in life annoys other people. I'm sure your family annoys you at times. They can't do much about that and neither can you, you just have to get on with life and recovery. Your mum is SO GREAT! Every time you ask "is this too much" (aloud or in your head) and then you're like WHATEVER and eat anyway, you're chipping away at the eating disorder and winning.

[@jodie6578]

We’re all so proud of you! Progress isn’t always easy but the fact you’re pushing yourself shows you how strong you really are! Keep going x

[@chelseydixon3917]

Your mum speaks so much sense. There really is no too much right now. You NEED to get yourself to a healthy weight before your brain can catch up SO you may aswell do it on foods that you actually enjoy? Do you want to get to a recovered stage but still be avoiding lots of different foods? Or try them along the way and face the fears so they are no longer fears xxx

[@nessabettencourt]

Dont worry about the downs because they make up stronger, you can do this and theres 20,000 of us here for you on the good and bad times. 🧡

[@hadilali2104]

You know what you should do you should take a bagel and on one half spread some biscff spread and on the other halp some nutella then close the bagel and eat it it's amazing

[@pouriaabadsafian]

Your mother is an incredible person. You and us subscribers need to do something for her! Through your videos, she has been a massive help to me too :D

[@melijxx]

oh my gosh you are doing incredible. it’s so refreshing and inspiring watching you. keep on fighting girl, you are so strong!

[@deyaniraramos1396]

I'm very proud of you Elzani, things like this happens. Uugh, parents are always like that but it's okay. Your brave and wonderful. You've done sooo much don't doubt yourself or discount all the effort you've put in all you've done so far, it's incredible. I believe your admirable 🖤🖤🖤💜💜💜👍👍😎😎😎☺️☺️🥣🍳🖤🖤🖤🌟🌟🌟💖💖

[@carlyturner3664]

every time you post it makes me so happy to see how healthier you are getting. It can be so hard comparing yourself to others, but you are doing amazing and will come out victorious in the end

[@cursed.jellyfish4693]

I am so incredibly proud of you Elzani, you are such a strong and wonderful person. I have followed your journey through these videos and I noticed that with every video you seem more lively and your radiant personality is beaming from the screen. I never leave comments on youtube but I felt I really needed to express this. This journey is a rocky one but so worth it. You're doing great!

[@rochellechism8011]

Your mom is an angel You are so blessed to have such loving support. You are doing beautifully. Keep the momentum going. Love to you from California 😍

[@beautifultragedy5820]

Recovery is never an easy path, but I believe that it's so worth it. It's incredibly hard to overcome your ED thoughts and break the rules that your mind has made. But we have to understand that this is the price we have to pay in order to have not only a healthy body but also a healthy mind and relationship with ourselves. There might be times where you think you can't do it anymore, but, Elzani, please never give up. You'll be so grateful that you fought this battle in the future. Stay strong, lots of love xx

[@adellebelle2537]

Love more REAL videos / vlogs as it’s shares awareness and also makes us feel not so alone. Most instagrams etc are recovery accounts that look so easy when that’s just not the truth. Love it elzani well done. I loved the one before this too- I related so much.

[@jennymedy]

Wow, it is so beautiful where you live!! That view 😍 You are beautiful too and stronger than you know. So many people watch your videos and want you to get better. I don't know you personally but what I have seen from your videos you seem to be so kind, genuine and just a person I would love to have as a friend ❤

[@mittamacdonald4382]

Hang in there Elzani we’re so proud of you! 💞💞💞 You’re braver than I could ever be x

[@LucyandWilbur]

You’re doing great Elzani, I have AN too and i know how much it affects the whole family. I’m a twin too so I’ve always have that comparison, my sister is quite like Alicia and encourages me to eat more things (sometimes plating it up for me) which can be super challenging and makes me get angry but really it’s the ED getting angry as it feels threatened. My twin and I are so close and I think she just gets frustrated with the illness, it affects the whole family and I always feel super guilty for that. My Mum is like yours though and I don’t know what I’d do without her. Your Mum is amazing, she really listens to you and gives you time to express how you’re feeling. Well done on the chips despite not wanting them. Do you think it felt bad to eat them as the environment wasn’t ‘perfect’ so it felt like a waste? I noticed when you were eating them your sisters were quite loud and not really paying attention, plus it seemed very stressful for you to have them. Maybe you could practice some mindfulness before mealtimes and after so that you’re not constantly thinking and talking about food. Remember we need so much more than our family who are healthy, keep reminding yourself of this. You’re unwell, they’re not so you need extra medicine to get well. It doesnt make you greedy and nothing is ever too much. We’ve been starving ourselves for so long that now our bodies are just wanting to eat everything and it’s overwhelming. I’ve reached weight restoration once before I had this relapse and when I started to eat, food is alllll I thought about. After a good while though of eating properly I remember sitting outside in the garden and realising my mind wasn’t so preoccupied with food anymore and I felt more satisfied after eating. In the beginning I felt like I was eating so much but my consultant said to eat whatever I fancy and lots of it! Then my body began to trust me I guess and wasn’t always crying out for food so I became less preoccupied. This will happen to you too! The body is such an amazing thing, anything you eat now won’t be wasted whether you like it or not, it will all help to get your life back! It doesn’t always have to be perfect, even if you didn’t enjoy it it’s still energy and goodness for your body so how can that be a waste? nobody loves every single thing they eat. Focus on the long term and what you want and as you say, you have to get comfortable with feeling uncomfortable. If you feel uncomfortable you’re probably doing it right, it won’t last forever. Think of how your life would be if you listened to AN? And what it could be if you didn’t? I’m doing well with my recovery now since Christmas although I still have slip ups. As long as you’re moving forwards then that’s ok. I think it’s better to change myself, even if it results in a breakdown as at least I’ve done it and can move forwards. By not challenging ourselves we’re just stuck. This comment is super long but I just wanted to send you some encouragement and to keep going! You’re inspiring me to try so many new things! I had some dark milk on Sat and loved it! Xxxx

[@paytongriffin6033]

It's okay to cry! You're doing awesome, sweet girl! Keep up the hard work. You look different now than in your older videos- healthier! You've got a whole support system here!!

[@laurak893]

Your mom is so supportive I love it so happy that you have a family that supports you so much ❣️💛

[@sarahwass6249]

Yes you can get them here in the uk 😊 they are really delicious cheese and ham a great topping and toasted and if you put them in a panini maker melting them. glad you are doing much better now 😏

[@hillerychan9483]

Elzani you are doing so well! Even if I don’t know you personally I am so proud of how far you’ve come and I want to give you a great big bear hug! I am 17 and also am anorexic you have inspired me to recover too and it’s really really really hard! But seeing you do it has helped me motivate myself to get better ❤️ we can do it!

[@randisuttles4454]

Your doing great sweetie do not give up, you have so many people rooting for you!

[@caseeey5843]

I wish so much that I had a mum as caring and supportive as yours. I’ve had an eating disorder for four years so I fully understand how hard it is, but you’re doing so well and I wish you all the best, you deserve more than what your eating disorder wants for you💕

[@lorinafrecska8808]

I just wanna say I'M SO PROUD OF YOU and the way you want and believe in recovery literally made me cry You're such a strong&beautiful person. Keep fighting we are all rooting for you🙏♥️

[@no1Animallover101JAB]

Everybody has bad days no matter what they are struggling with hun your not alone just keep doing what your doing cause you’ve improved soooooooo much since Christmas! Your such a wonderful person I wish I could hang out with you and listen to Taylor swift and try new foods with you!

[@holybiebahyt]

Your videos keep me going with my anorexia recovery. Please never stop uploading. You are so amazing and the progress you made since day one is insane 💪🏼👏🏼❤️

[@underthestarsoverthemoon4259]

Elzani you can do it!!!! KEEP GOING GIRL!!! YOU GOT THIS!!!!❤️💖❤️❤️💕❤️❤️💕💕❤️

[@juliansgma]

Oh no Elzani, you can’t cry because I cry with you. You’re doing so good, and your mom is right. It doesn’t matter if your sisters are annoyed. I promise you it didn’t bother them as much as it does you. You’re a bit more sensitive than them and that’s ok! Yes, thank your Mom for the potato demonstration! They look “divine!” 😂 I love your family!

[@carlottamund3177]

Your mum is an amazing supporter❤️

[@armandspravasts9448]

You are handling it perfectly!!!Just don't stop.You are beautiful,smart,strong and most importantly you have supporting family around you.

[@sunnyD9]

It’s okay if you have a bad day. Every day doesn’t need to be perfect. Perfection is something no one has. The thing you should focus on and be proud of is that you tried. And you always try so well. Keep at it Elzani! You’re doing great and you’re eating enough! We’re here for you.

[@rebeccagriffin2515]

I just want to hug you. I cried with you. The struggle is real. You are doing AMAZINGLY. That ana voice is beast and you're doing brilliantly challenging it. Unless you've been there i don't think anyone can truly understand the strength it takes. Keep challenging my lovely xxx

[@winnie8196]

You're doing so so well. Stay strong Elzani💖💖

[@ohwatermelonninja]

Awh Elzani - It's heartbreaking to see you cry. You are NOT doing badly. You are so incredibly strong and awesome. Great things take time and the things that are the hardest are the most rewarding in the end. Those things are so worth fighting for. Just keep going. You have a whole army behind you ! Now, repeat after me: You is smart, You is kind, You is important. BIG BIG hug all the way from South Africa xx

[@nizma88]

Elzani dont say sorry when you cry , You are recovering and you are doing so well your family should understand that this will be hard at times but that you are doing so well

[@no1Animallover101JAB]

You should try tahini it’s made from sesame seeds! It’s amazing on roast potatoes

[@arctichare2740]

I agree! It also tastes great with stir-fried broccoli and half the juice of a lemon.

[@angietrif]

you're doing so well! I love how u show the good and the bad it makes it so realistic

[@toandeathrandomer]

No no no I will only have butter with muffin for breakfast , you are much more willing to try foods and new foods than most of us .. be proud of yourself for even in the down times your doing better now then you were in the up times when anorexia was wining (if you get what I mean) ... AMAZING

[@SweetAsCandy456042]

Keep strong babygirl. You're doing amazing. We are all so proud!

[@flowerbreanna]

you're so beautiful and watching you progress in these videos shows how strong you are!! of course there will be little bumps, recovery is never a smooth road. but every time you conquer each little breakdown, you come out stronger. i believe in you and i'm excited for you and your future! on a side-note, you are the only other person i've heard who says cauliflower tastes like fish... i have ALWAYS said that! but nobody ever agrees! haha

[@user-oe1mo5ds8c]

Elzani, you are doing AMAZING! Keep pushing, you really are doing great.

[@edi165]

my favourite bagel topping is peanut butter and jam (soooo good) but nutella is also amazing! Keep fighting beautiful xoxoxo

[@iwanuch222]

You're looking amazing Elzani! We're all so proud of you! Set backs are natural, its all part of the process c: Much love, from Australia! Sarah xx

[@suzanamusicsuzy]

You are an amazing girl I must say that.The first time I watched your videos I didnt know what to expect but when I watched your videos I feel inspired to work on myself to better myself into a healthier person i dont have anorexia but there is allways place for improvment I wanted to take this moment and leave this comment to a amazing and kind and one of the rare kindhearted and genuine youtubers on this platform.❤👌

[@maggieknight685]

Your doing so well !💖 Keep on fighting I know you can get through this. Your stronger then you think 🤗 love magan

[@Amimoosie]

Elzani, the stronger you become and fight against the horrible anorexic voice the angrier and louder it may become, it’s scared that it’s losing you so will scream and shout as much as possible in an attempt to get you to run back to it. Keep fighting, push through the wall and act against negative thoughts- keep proving to your ED that you are so much stronger and deserve a life far more amazing and fulfilling. Also, one thing that gets me through is remembering that YOUR BODY DOES NOT, I REPEAT NOT, DIGEST OR METABOLISE FOOD ANY DIFFERENTLY IF THOSE AROUND YOU EAT LESS THAN YOU. You can do this 💪🏻💕

[@annisabelle1731]

Hang in there Sweet Elzani, you are so strong and beautiful keep on doing a great job . I LOVE YOU 🙂💕💞❤

[@brebenn9077]

I love when she says “yeah baby” she’s too cute

[@Ilikeoatmealmorethanyou]

You are doing amazing, Elzani!!

[@ecoline453]

You have a great mom! And sometimes its okay to be not hard for yourself. Ther is always a new day. If one day does not work. Its always a progress, only if you keep trying the next day. Remember you are only human. Its okay to have a little bit of fear. Aslong as it does not controle your life, and from what I can see, you are learning to master it. And it is something not everyone can say. Keep on trying! You have lots who believe in you, so you can allow to believe in yourself, and keep trying 😚💪

[@sweetwtf]

I'd love to see an update, a more recent one. I just want to tell you that you are so beautiful, so brave, and strong! I know at times you may feel you aren't, but you really are!!! I love your honesty, how you've made yourself vulnerable. You are amazing my dear! I pray you continue down this path! You will! You can! Sending love from Chicago illinois USA!

[@SarahDawesFilms]

You, my beautiful Elzani, are doing an amazing job. I don't know you in 'real life' but from watching your videos I can tell you try so hard to overcome your struggles. I think you're bloody amazing and such an inspiration. Keep going sweetpea because you light this world up xxxxxxx

[@shelleyn2884]

You are doing wonderfully well. Please don’t torture yourself with thoughts that something you ate was massive or too much or even not as much as whoever. You need every bit you can get and it’s bringing you your life back with every bite. You are very brave and lovely.

[@herequeer4005]

You look radiant .. your glow is comimg back and its beautiful !! We can all see you are trying and even when it gets tough - you keep fighting and i am so proud of you !!! . ALSO you need to eat more because you are healing and growing more strength up !! You are doing so good ❤

[@brandikransi6348]

Everything bagels have sesame, poppy seeds, and little bits of garlic, so yum! ❤️❤️ and my favorite bagel topping is mounds of cream cheese and bacon!! 🤭😋😍

[@AngelicasRecovery]

I’m so happy that you have a supportive family. It probably makes things a little bit easier.

[@Crocs4cats]

Mumzani! That's my first memory of Nutella too☺️ We used to get it from the sweet shop in a tiny tub for 10p ( It was the 80's) , I think it came with a tiny spatula too because we just ate it out of the tub on the way home😄

[@juststephani5549]

Keep it u hun. You got this. One day at a time one minute at a time one second at a time. You will get there. Have patience and love for yourself. You deserve recovery and happiness

[@angelm6552]

havent watched all of this yret but actually breaks my heart to see u cry and i dont even know u but u inspire me so much and u are so so strong and you ate doig AMAZING keep fighting

[@marlenaseile4446]

You are helping me a lot! I really love watching you’re videos. Keep going, you’re doing so great! ♥️

[@FilipMattson]

Thank you for sharing both your ups and downs. We can tell that you're strong, and we're all rooting for you!

[@anaverba4824]

I know it's hard Elzani, but don't feel bad because we all have bad days! You are doing so well, so don't even worry! Keep up the amazing, amazing work! That nutella bagel was an amazing idea and not wrong whatsoever, do what makes you happy!

[@cjacki1394]

You’re doing so well. It’s really impressive how far you’ve come in such a short amount of time! So happy for you

[@qoruto4850]

I like cream cheese and banana on my bagels but Nutella with strawberries on bagels are also delicious!