Alex's Depersonalization Recovery Story (2024)

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2 ай бұрын

04:01 Panic Attack Triggers DPDR
06:45 Existential Questions
12:36 "Why is reality the way it is?"
15:46 This can't be anxiety!
20:00 Alex's DPDR Symptoms
22:50 "This is the rest of my life?"
27:57 Like an episode of Black Mirror
30:30 Finding the term 'Depersonalization'
34:22 Why Isn't DPDR Better Known?
39:01 Fear Levels
41:00 The Lowest Point
44:46 "I was shockingly functional"
48:05 Loss of Appetite
51:53 Starting to Recover
57:00 The Power Of Habit
1:04:02 What Connects All The Fears?
1:06:14 You're SO Exhausted!
1:08:55 Mindfulness + Meditation
1:14:23 An Analytical Mind
1:19:19 DPDR feels like a Nuclear Attack
1:23:45 Interstellar ❤️
1:25:50 DPDR after recovery?
1:31:32 Feelings of Guilt
1:35:00 The Depersonalization Manual
1:38:15 Can You REALLY Get Back To Normal?
1:44:24 Medication
1:47:25 Alex's Advice For DPDR Sufferers
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Alex is 31 years old. Last year, he developed Depersonalization Disorder after a panic attack he had during a 10 mile race. His symptoms included: Existential dread, feelings of unreality, anxious rumination and constant self checking.
Alex struggled with Depersonalization Disorder and its symptoms for about 9 months.
But fortunately he has since made a complete recovery. And Alex with us today to talk about his experience with and recovery from Depersonalization Disorder.
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@Dpmanual 2 ай бұрын

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@hollyscapelliti8674 2 ай бұрын

Describes my horrifying journey through DPDR. Like a nightmare that you can’t wake up from the terror. Nonstop rumination’s, existential thoughts and the feeling of being so lost and alone because it feels impossible to articulate. Finally after more than a year starting to have more moments of what I can remember of normalcy.

@Dpmanual 2 ай бұрын

Thanks for your comment Holly -- I'm sorry to hear you've been having a difficult time, but very glad that you're starting to improve and move towards recovery 😊

@neo23thirty-eight 2 ай бұрын

Hearing the way you were terrified about the existential questions concerning your dogs consciousness made me have a gentle smile inside because there was almost something so incredibly not scary about that question. I say this with the history of being terrified by all sorts of other existential questions. But hearing about an existential issue that I never had a problem with wildly puts things in perspective. Thank you for that example 😊

@Dpmanual 2 ай бұрын

@@neo23thirty-eight Glad it was helpful 😊

@diartahazrolli9411 2 ай бұрын

I think that I finally understood where the problem is, the reason that dp/dr has lasted me is that I have given it attention and it only exists because of attention, now I am working with myself not to check if the symptoms are there or not. I'm living life even though it's still hard, even though there's still fear about whether I'll know when I'll recover or not, but I'm not giving up. We can do it💪🏻

@inkcityco 2 ай бұрын

Yes

@LilKobra 2 ай бұрын

Giving attention to DP/DR increases anxiety, even if it is small and you have no idea that you are afraid, and it is the trigger for this disorder. Each day you give less time to these thoughts, their number will become smaller and smaller day by day until they are negligible and you forget that you had them. Don't think about when it will pass, because it will pass anyway, and checking whether you still have these thoughts or symptoms increases anxiety, remember what you have learned and do not give time and space to intrusive thoughts. Live your life bro! ❤❤

@diartahazrolli9411 2 ай бұрын

⁠@@LilKobradid u recovered? Yes actually now i don’t think of dp/dr like before i feel like i’m getting better but sometimes i feel still weird and still my vision is a littrl bit blurry i hope i will reconnect again as soon as is possible

@LilKobra 2 ай бұрын

@@diartahazrolli9411 I haven't fully recovered yet, but it's getting closer, your blurry vision is just a reaction to stress where your pupils are dilated to receive more light, they can be overtired sometimes, don't pay attention to the symptoms and they will go away when you calm down for a while

@santinofamiglietti6480 2 ай бұрын

How do you go about not checking in on it. This is the part I find the hardest.

@ThatOneMuslimAlbo_ 2 ай бұрын

The way he described DP/DR is perfec

@Dpmanual 2 ай бұрын

Agreed 😊👍

@blackvulture7999 Ай бұрын

Yeah, simply as it is.

@dimetrodon2250 2 ай бұрын

I don’t know why it feels so much worse this time around. Like I’m terrified of everything, I can’t immerse or distract myself this time, even the feeling of going to therapy didn’t help. I worried about never being able to be a deep thinker or a daydreamer ever again, never able to read about my interests or enjoy a good mystery novel, worried that the very culmination of my autistic being is being overtaken, worried that I’m not in the same situation that allowed me to heal last time (in a college dorm surrounded by friends at all times, who kept me accountable and distracted me with stuff) I feel like the existential and strange thoughts/feelings are even worse this time around, keeping me from immersing myself into a distraction or work. every coping mechanism/grounding technique is failing (or I’m just self sabotaging). I keep either calling crisis hotlines or binging your videos over and over to stay off of forums/google. I do think a part of this is my meds, but I need to convince my NP first, so I can learn the best way to get off of them. I feel like I can’t enjoy my life anymore, like there’s no life TO enjoy. Three weeks ago depersonalization was just a distant memory, now it’s my entire life.

@MarcelFerrin- Ай бұрын

You need help man I can offer some help

@korylewis7858 25 күн бұрын

Yup this is me right now and down to ALMOST EVRY detail, even the timing, my DP DR .. started 3 weeks ago after a really bad panic attack. I first got DPDR after a panic attack in 2013 .. beat it, then in 2016 or 2017 I had another bad panic attack .. DP/DR again .. beat it again! And now here we are 2024 and it’s back after another bad panic attack, I’m Fucking pissed.

@santinofamiglietti6480 2 ай бұрын

Has anyone ever felt like they’re going to “lose control” because of DPDR? Almost like trying to snap yourself out of it?

@Dpmanual 2 ай бұрын

Don’t worry, feelings like that are super common with DPDR. I know they can be frustrating but they will fade away and stop as you recover 😊 www.dpmanual.com/about/do-i-have-depersonalization-disorder/

@railalamatawalu2888 Ай бұрын

This ia such a good video Sean especially you letting people talk about their recovery rather than what anxiety as a whole does to someone. Really appreciate you...God bless you always❤

@Dpmanual Ай бұрын

Glad you found it helpful 😊

@hollytaylor9421 2 ай бұрын

This really resonates with me!!!! Thank you so much

@Dpmanual 2 ай бұрын

Glad it was helpful Holly! 😊👍

@Leptyzz 2 ай бұрын

Has anyone ever experienced what feels like pressure in the brain while having DPDR? I feel disconnected, far away from my surroundings, but also experience brain heat and pressure in my brain along with occasional brain “zaps”. Is this common in DPDR? The pressure in my head isn’t uncomfortable but I’m worried about it.

@Dpmanual 2 ай бұрын

Don’t worry, headaches / head tension + pressure are super common with DP and all anxiety-based conditions 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-exhaustion-and-muscle-pain/

@Userr368 2 ай бұрын

I got rid of feeling unreal but now i got some like brain pain or pressure

@differ3nt_225 2 ай бұрын

Me too every day thought I was the only one

@COLOFIDUTI 2 ай бұрын

the heart issue really resonate with me, glad the "mental" part of anxiety is really light for me.Ive dealt with crazy harm/self harm ocd ,but for me , it was so absurd that i laughed at it😂 snd they went away within days

@audiovisualss 2 ай бұрын

ive had dp for 18 years we got this :)))

@Dpmanual 2 ай бұрын

Don't worry, it doesn't matter what caused it, how long it’s lasted, or whether it’s been 24/7 or episodic, you can always switch DPDR off completely by stopping the anxiety that's causing it 😊 Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/how-long-does-depersonalization-last/

@aril7718 2 ай бұрын

I am pretty confused with Dpdr. I've had it for 4 years and sure, when I focus on it, it becomes a lot worse but even when i dont give it any attention, life doesn't feel as clear as it used to.

@yermach6837 2 ай бұрын

Another great video! Thank you!

@Dpmanual 2 ай бұрын

Glad you enjoyed it! 😊🙏

@RobotRobot-ho6mb 2 ай бұрын

Sean "The idea of generating a feeling that motivates the behaviour of this DPDR and I can deal with the ideas and I will recover.

@erb9956 2 ай бұрын

Yeah i have had DPDR for like 8 months now. Everything that he said happened to me, i tried to fight constant checking on myself, but it does now work for me. I feel like i can't recover, i feel depressed, i don't want to leave my house, i don't want to study or do anything. Normality became so distant that i can't imagine being normal. I don't know if i should buy your dp manual. I feel like it won't work for me because i'm constantly drowning so deep in my own head if (that makes sense) This is tragedy. In 3 days i have to go back to college. This is insane.

@higher_selff 2 ай бұрын

Be Thankful, for the experience, for anxiety. Accept it fully and don't fight it. Because it is through pain that we awaken and become better and stronger souls. Because of which you fulfill your destiny and your desires. Everything is as it should be, the universe will load us with exactly as much as we can handle and need to overcome. Semen retention brother. We are god temple. Find that GOD inside You. You are on a low frequency, therefore Anxiety creates anxious thoughts. You need to uplift yourself with Physical training and energy within yourself. Stay positive during pain. You will overcome brother.

@erb9956 2 ай бұрын

@@higher_selff Yeah the universe is loading us with too much because people commit suicide and hurt themselfes. I'm trying to believe that God will save me but i'm losing my faith.

@Zamoxi 2 ай бұрын

You’re doing it wrong friend. The point is not to wait around for motivation to be felt and then you get up and do something. The point is to do stuff even if you don’t want too. You do this every day. No matter how sad or scared you feel. It does not matter you get up and you do things. Motivation does not matter. Get up and do things and with time it will go away. It’s up and down but it will go away.

@erb9956 2 ай бұрын

@@Zamoxi I'm not waiting for motivation, i try to fight it everyday but still it is here. I've been fighting for like 5 months without success. I randomly feel better and worse going trough my day. I'm work out 2-3 times a week, i study and do all that college shit, i pray, but it is still here. That's the problem

@Zamoxi 2 ай бұрын

@@erb9956 do everything you’re doing without expecting this to go away. In your head you’ve created a habit of checking in with how you feel. Is the DpDr still here. You do this every day a bunch of times a day. You need to break that habit and that’s how it goes away. Even if it takes a long time break the habit and don’t quit.

@davoroxi 22 күн бұрын

39:28 - 40:40 oh boy, describing my experience so accurately...

@jonathanlay2005 2 ай бұрын

Hello Sean. I got dpdr from 2 bad panic attacks on weed back in 2021. It lingered for a few months but being at school all the time helped distract my brain enough for it to eventually go away. Fast forward to summer of 2023 I had a panic attack and a few days after that my symptoms of dpdr came back. Ever since then it’s gotten worse and worse throughout the months. The symptoms i experience is distorted reality, blank mind, weird thoughts, frequent headaches, memory problems, and the one that bothers me most is distorted time. Hours and days go by so scared quick and can’t find myself to stop thinking about these symptoms. I’m in such a bad state if mind, I strongly believe something is cognitively wrong with me, like i have dementia or alzheimer’s. I’m really desperate for advice

@Dpmanual 2 ай бұрын

Don’t worry Jonathan, from what you've described that all sounds like a very typical case of weed-induced DPDR to me. I know it can be frightening but remember that it's just your body and brain's natural response to stress and anxiety. It's not permanent and it can't hurt you 😊 Remember too that worries about loss of memory or time are super common with DPDR: www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-and-memory-loss/ And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR.

@RobotRobot-ho6mb 2 ай бұрын

Is DPDR anxiety usually thought and can be replaced and I will recover?

@RobotRobot-ho6mb 2 ай бұрын

I have DPDR, but my pressure times are high, and I always have a pulse in my body. Is this normal? Thank you, Shawn?

@ruslanzzzz3538 2 ай бұрын

Shaun what do you think about the channel? Coach Jordan Hardgrave. He says that DP/DR is not anxiety based, but trauma based. Can you answer that we still need to reduce the level of anxiety or treat this trauma. I watched all your videos and plan to buy the manual. But the Coach Jordan Hardgrave channel confused me. After your videos, I felt better and I understood where to move, but now I’m confused. Thanks for your answer in advance

@NationalPK Ай бұрын

Trauma is just a very stressful experience that you’ve had in the past, it’s are stress based really

@user-yo2bb4kw9l 12 күн бұрын

I am 19 years old..I had it in my 12th grade ..I don't know the reason of the cause..It may be due to studies..I am a school topper .I love to study , love to go school but i don't know why it happened..I have been preparing for NEET exam for two years but couldn't make it due to this severe anxiety and its symptoms..From last 3 weeks i have experiencing severe dpdr ..I can't tolerate , i can't realize time like this is morning or evening. This is the main thing that scarying me..Till now I didn't went to psychiatrist...From Tamilnadu ,India..

@Dpmanual 10 күн бұрын

Hey, thanks for your comment. Firstly, please make sure that you’re speaking to your parents about what’s happening. It’s very important that they know what’s going on. Secondly, I know DPDR can be frightening but remember that it's just your body and brain's natural response to stress and anxiety. It's not permanent and it can't hurt you. You can and will recover. Make sure to read through all the info and articles on my website at www.dpmanual.com And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR 👍

@LinditaGaniji 2 ай бұрын

est quand quand ont guéri de la dp dr ont retrouve notre vis normal et ont sais qui ont est ?

@freeviebee 2 ай бұрын

Oui !

@Userr368 2 ай бұрын

Can anyone who started smoking again tell me how was their frist time smoking after recovering

@RobotRobot-ho6mb 2 ай бұрын

Is the imbalance normal?

@user-sy1hh8dd4f 2 ай бұрын

hi. i think i have dp, because this feel is so strange. i feel like i am lost my head and i am alienation wiyh my head every day. 24/7. when i am happy dp dont go away. why?

@MarcelFerrin- Ай бұрын

You are in an anxious state

@user-sy1hh8dd4f Ай бұрын

@@MarcelFerrin- how do you know?

@MarcelFerrin- Ай бұрын

@@user-sy1hh8dd4f your symptoms you described Feeling dissociation You are in an anxious state You need to desensitize your nervous system so over time it can go back to normal. It’s a process

@solomeen6512 2 ай бұрын

shawn my vision is fixed and things look normal a lot of the time but i feel super unmotivated, depressed, distracted, and existential. im not interested in anything anymore, im not looking forward to anything. the brain fog is still there, im often confused and restless. is feeling depressed like this normal?

@Userr368 2 ай бұрын

Did u have darker and blurry vission at night

@Fredrick-fn3vy 2 ай бұрын

Yes I had a bad weed high and everything is different now😭

@solomeen6512 2 ай бұрын

@@Userr368 i think so when i wake up in the night (which happens every night)

@Userr368 2 ай бұрын

@@solomeen6512 mine is only blury and darker when i go outside at night but its alot better than before

@user-pj3ln6fq7d 2 ай бұрын

did u recover from dpdr

@Userr368 2 ай бұрын

Now when i feel real and everything i feel some brain pain or some pressure on brain is this normal and that gives me little anxiety

@Dpmanual 2 ай бұрын

Don’t worry, headaches / head tension + pressure are super common with DP and all anxiety-based conditions www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-exhaustion-and-muscle-pain/

@differ3nt_225 2 ай бұрын

Me too

@SharandeepSingh-dx3yk 2 ай бұрын

Shaun, when I rotate my head it feel so scary. I think my parents aren't real. God please save us all.

@SharandeepSingh-dx3yk 2 ай бұрын

@@user-pj3ln6fq7d right

@SharandeepSingh-dx3yk 2 ай бұрын

@@user-pj3ln6fq7d right

@MarcelFerrin- Ай бұрын

You are fine man Do you need some help I can help you

@SharandeepSingh-dx3yk Ай бұрын

@@MarcelFerrin- yes

@SharandeepSingh-dx3yk Ай бұрын

@@MarcelFerrin- absolutely

@jontysahota8204 2 ай бұрын

shaun what about tinitus and after images ? …. is there is any possiblity to heal from them

@AboveAllRanks364 2 ай бұрын

Tinnitus can cause panic attacks which in turn makes you susceptible to the DP loop. Your brain can take up to 18 months to habituate to tinnitus but if you get desperate, try bimodal stimulation.

@user-bv5cb2tl9g 2 ай бұрын

What if you are one of those people who have had it for 10 plus years?

@Dpmanual 2 ай бұрын

Don't worry, it doesn't matter how long it’s lasted, you can always switch DPDR off completely by stopping the anxiety that's causing it 😊 Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/how-long-does-depersonalization-last/

@RobotRobot-ho6mb 2 ай бұрын

Is DPDR anxiety usually only intellectual? There is nothing wrong in the brain?

@Zamoxi 2 ай бұрын

Correct. This is the case for 99% of people who go through DPDR

@RobotRobot-ho6mb 2 ай бұрын

@@Zamoxi ssnp ahmed_robot70

@shannon4769 10 күн бұрын

All it is is anxiety and your body trying to protect itself with fight or flight. Zoloft helped me! 25mg

@Dpmanual 9 күн бұрын

Thanks for your comment Shannon! And read this, I think you'll find it very useful 😊 www.dpmanual.com/about/depersonalization-definition-what-is-it/

@nvb455 2 ай бұрын

All recovery stories on here i’ve seen are more about derealisation. The existential anxiety, questioning reality ect ect. I am someone who feels no anxiety, no existential thoughts, no feeling unreal and I keep hearing every recovery story mention the same things. Nothing looks weird to me….i just feel very disconnected, unmotivated, forgetful…no emotional reactions… Seems like people with depersonalisation can’t heal? Only anxious people with derealisation….?

@Dpmanual 2 ай бұрын

Across the recovery stories people regularly describe feelings of disconnection, lack of motivation, memory issues, emotional numbness etc 😊 DP and DR are two sides of the same coin, and you can always recover! 😊 Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-and-derealization-whats-the-difference/ And watch this too: kzbin.info/www/bejne/h6qWdXR8eaeMaZI

@mrderp8227 2 ай бұрын

This particular case was very DP heavy, i found.

@XHEADTOWALLX 2 ай бұрын

Everyone wants to think theirs is different.

@mrderp8227 2 ай бұрын

@@XHEADTOWALLXYeah, exactly.

@lexis44youngwestcoast17 Ай бұрын

I can’t even sleep

@Dpmanual Ай бұрын

Don’t worry, issues with sleeping and dreaming are very common with DPDR and all anxiety-based conditions. 😊 I know it can be frustrating but they are temporary and harmless and will fade away and stop as your recovery continues: www.dpmanual.com/articles/why-does-depersonalization-affect-sleep-and-dreams/