Tim's Depersonalization Recovery Story (AND Tattoo!)

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03:05 Depersonalization from Weed
09:15 Stress brings DPDR back
18:06 Explaining DPDR to Friends + Family
23:14 "WHY did I smoke that weed?"
24:53 DPDR becoming more aggressive
30:55 Tim's worst symptoms
38:55 Being unable to eat
43:08 Finding out what DPDR really is
46:04 The lowest point
48:00 Tim's DPDR Tattoo!
51:11 The Depersonalization Recovery Process
56:28 Getting back to normal!
59:42 The DP Manual
1:01:03 Advice for people with DPDR
1:03:24 Tim's KZbin Channel
Check out Tim's KZbin channel: ‪@timmorrisdrums‬
Insta: timmorrisdrums
Tim's band: linktr.ee/Parttimeparadise
Tim Morris is 25 years old. He first encountered DPDR back in 2014 due to a bad weed experience.
Over the following years Tim experienced recurring episodes of Depersonalization and Derealization, which unfortunately became more prolonged, intense and frightening as he grew older.
But thankfully, Tim has managed to recover completely and he's with us today to talk about his experience with and recovery from Depersonalization Disorder.
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Disclaimer: Please note that the medical information contained within this video is not intended as a substitute for consultation with a professional physician and is not a recommendation of specific therapies.

[@Dpmanual]

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[@LocalMachine]

"The world had changed and only for me, and I was the only one who could see it" - what a great description! Thank you Tim for sharing your story!

[@timmorrisdrums]

Im glad my words were able to come across in a relatable way. I’m super happy you enjoyed my story 🙂

[@marlysaf]

@@timmorrisdrumshi! Anywhere I could have a chat with you? Struggling a little bit right now.

[@timmorrisdrums]

@@marlysaf of course! It should be in the description of the video!

[@marlysaf]

@@timmorrisdrums just text you!

[@esmeraldaguerra9647]

I suffered from this for about a year would cry everyday now im fully recovered its truly possible to get out of this just keep yourself busy and slowy you will start focusing on this feeling less and less and eventually it will fade

[@Dpmanual]

Thanks for your comment Esmerelda and I'm very glad to hear you've recovered 😊

[@esmeraldaguerra9647]

@MISI would ask myself those questions to and what iv came to notice was that i kept checking up on myself for example i would ask myself “what if it comes back” i was terrified of that thought its self that it would lead me start to overthinking about this one thought so much to the point where it actually came back the way I dealt with it was just to basically not even think much of these questions because once you start overthinking thats when you mess up because its like staying stuck in one place instead of moving on so whenever you get the thought about asking yourself these questions try not to think to deeply about them just let the thought be and move on

[@timmorrisdrums]

So happy to hear you recovered 😊💜

[@Davotheledge]

I really relate to Tim's story about not being able to feel the Christmas spirit. Sensing the void where your feelings once were is one of the most terrifying things ever.

[@timmorrisdrums]

It was a very hard part of my recovery but makes you stronger in the end (:

[@Davotheledge]

@@timmorrisdrums Absolutely it does. I feel like nothing else could teach you some of those things about yourself ✌️

[@marcelopereira-df9pe]

​@@timmorrisdrums i feel like the sensations have changed and i dont feel things like i used to before like pain or hot and cold and just an emotinal numbness dont feel Hunger anymore Im really scared Im not gonna feel me anymore. Does it Come back?

[@KadeMichael]

I remember one Christmas Day when I was 16 being so overwhelmed at the thought of not feeling the feelings I thought I should be on the day that I was physically sick.

[@dimetrodon2250]

My birthday is coming up and the Anhedonia is really getting to me. All of a sudden, not being able to just... feel things. Its rough. There are so many things going on right now that I'd normally be excited for or upset about or angry at (in terms or real world events, scientific discoveries, new videogames and updates, stuff going on with my job, new movies, new chapters of my usual favorite comics, fun events going on with some of the content creators I usually watch) but... I just... don't or can't care. And I WANT to care! My usual interests have fallen apart to the point where I can't even just think about them. That safe space in my head where I daydream and think up stories and world-build or create head canons for various things I usually like, it feels just as hazy and behind glass as reality does. My favorite things all just give me anxiety now. I want to be able to look forward to things again, or even to dread things again. Its only been around 3 weeks and my life feels like it just... shattered. Last time I was like this, it lasted 4 whole months, and I didn't feel like I was making any progress until the third month of that, and I remember feeling this vulnerable, "not all there" feeling for like a few months after that, my memories and the emotions behind them felt hazy for a while after. This feeling of missing out on things that you are directly experiencing or are even an ACTIVE PARTICIPANT in feels really rough to deal with.

[@45ounce]

I lived this for over 3 years. I know exactly the feeling he went through and it’s utterly life changing and you are so far detached from reality. Sad thing is I was obsessed with getting rid of it and that just prolonged the recovery.

[@michaelharrison5564]

Yeap it was a vicious circle for me

[@Dpmanual]

Thanks for your comment and I hope you're feeling better these days 😊

[@suarrex-_-4117]

im starting to get better fill your mind with positivity no matter how uncomfortable it may feel

[@AfghanFTW]

How do you feel now like you still feel like ur not real?

[@suarrex-_-4117]

i still slightly feel it but barely and its going away so it doesnt bother me anymore

[@AfghanFTW]

@@suarrex-_-4117 have you recovered?

[@ari_7002]

im going through this right now and crying at how accurate the descriptions are to how im feeling, i feel like reality is so overwhelming and idk how to go back to normal :(

[@Dpmanual]

Hey, thanks for your comment and I'm sorry to hear you've been having a difficult time ❤️ I know DPDR can be scary but just remember that it’s a natural reaction to stress and anxiety, and people experience it all the time. The National Institute on Mental Illness estimates that up to 75% of people experience at least one depersonalization / derealization episode in their lives. It's part of your brain's natural defence mechanism and usually it only lasts a few seconds or minutes at a time. It's only when it's focused on as a separate problem (feeling like you're going crazy / in a dream etc) that it can turn into a feedback loop with the anxiety that caused it in the first place. But no matter what caused it or how long you've had it, you can always switch it off completely by stopping that anxious feedback loop. Make sure to carefully read through all the articles and info on my website at www.dpmanual.com and my book The Depersonalization Manual. And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR 👍

[@abigaillove5117]

Man i felt it when he said he felt the weight of everything all at once coming in on him... my grandma passed , i am burned out at a job ive been at for 4 years and also trying to move out... it became ro much... trying to recover from the chronix DPDR Now

[@Dpmanual]

Hey Abigail, thanks for your comment and I'm sorry to hear you've been having a difficult time ❤️ I know DPDR can be scary but just remember that it’s a natural reaction to stress and anxiety, and people experience it all the time. The National Institute on Mental Illness estimates that up to 75% of people experience at least one depersonalization / derealization episode in their lives. It's part of your brain's natural defence mechanism and usually it only lasts a few seconds or minutes at a time. It's only when it's focused on as a separate problem (feeling like you're going crazy / in a dream etc) that it can turn into a feedback loop with the anxiety that caused it in the first place. But no matter what caused it or how long you've had it, you can always switch it off completely by stopping that anxious feedback loop. Make sure to carefully read through all the articles and info on my website at www.dpmanual.com and my book The Depersonalization Manual. And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR 👍

[@Agent_Butterman]

I wanted to thank you for making this channel from the bottom of my heart. I've been experiencing episodes of DR due to epilepsy that causes very frightening focal aware seizures. After each seizure I have a high chance of getting an episode of DR that can last days to months. I'm currently stuck in a bout of it now unfortunately but I'm hoping to get back out soon. It's really great to lean on stuff like this channel when you are deep in that hole and feel you can't make your way out.

[@Dpmanual]

Thanks for your comment Patrick and I'm so happy to hear the channel has been helpful 😊

[@melissa104]

I really relate to his Story. Thank you your videos, because before I didnt know that someone else has this kind of disorders. Recently my dispersonalization got worser and I dont feel concection to my life my family friends pets or work. This year I think it started, since i requested the sense of my life and job. I realized I am not happy with my job and I have searched for other options. But I was never satisfied till now. And I feel hopeless not like depression something different. I wondered because I love life but not my circumstance. And this year my anxiety hit me really. I have got panic attacks and before I never thought I get this. I have overthinked always. And know I realized that all came together. My Ocd, panic attacks and anxiety. I hope I can recover, because it took over my life. Not as bad, but yes. I am stuck in life and want to change. But dont know how to start... Thank you for everything you do 😊💫

[@mons5968]

Thank you so much for sharing this. I experienced dpdr at 17 and then again the end of last year until the present. I’m beginning to get to that stage where I feel comfortable experiencing these symptoms however it’s super challenging. I’m about to get the dp manual 🙏🏽

[@Dpmanual]

Thanks for your comment Mons and I'm so glad to hear the video was helpful! 😊

[@theclaamaterasu]

"slip out of my own reality" yes exactly

[@hughiedavies6069]

I know the way Tim felt, and I'm currently going through it. When the talk began he said he lost interest in food. my ears pricked up, then when I listened to the talk I totally related to his experience. Thanks for sharing

[@Dpmanual]

Thanks for your comment Hughie and I'm very glad to hear you found the video helpful 😊

[@timmorrisdrums]

I’m glad my story resonates with yours! I know hearing a similar story from someone else can actually be very helpful to the recovery process. 🙂

[@jaeespo5413]

Since 2009 to 2012 and in and out until present day. Thank you so much for sharing your story.

[@Dpmanual]

Glad you found it helpful Jae 😊 And don't worry, it doesn't matter what caused it or how long you've had it, you can always switch DPDR off completely by stopping the anxiety that's causing it. Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/how-long-does-depersonalization-last/

[@88Hypxr]

I swear on day I will be here in comments and I'm gonna tell you that i'm fully recovered I swear on GOD Inshallah

[@Dpmanual]

Looking forward to it! 😊

[@DiegoSilva-kk8mv]

Me toooo

[@Dpmanual]

@@DiegoSilva-kk8mv 😊😊

[@mrderp8227]

INSHALLAH!

[@hadjer8146]

I recovered so can you ❤

[@nancyliawoods]

I certainly relate. I almost didnt go to an archery shoot this past weekend because of my social anxiety, days leading up to it were so so hard. But i went and had the greatest time and, thats how it usually goes when i just suck it up and go. We gotta keep on keepin on. Appreciate your work! X❤

[@Dpmanual]

Well done Nancy, keep up the good work! 😊

[@nancyliawoods]

@@Dpmanual thanks so much

[@Dpmanual]

@@nancyliawoods Happy to help 😊

[@You-to-be]

Thanks thanks thanks thanks. Really helped me . I'm also 25, just had my first weed attack 4 weeks ago, felt like a seizure, was unable to move for what felt like hours but perhaps it was minutes. Laying on my back in my yard praying to get control of my body. Then the fog set in.

[@Dpmanual]

Glad to hear the video was helpful 😊

[@TrumpyJake]

how are you doing now?

[@You-to-be]

@@TrumpyJake suffered a bit from existential solipsistic OCD for a good while until just recently (about a week ago). Been off weed for more than a month and half now. I'm doing pretty good now, the anxiety was horrendous to deal with, but i haven't had to deal with it for close to a week now, until recently it was a daily occurrence. I'm still not fully healed but my mind is definitely healing cuz i can see the difference. I'm grateful for my sanity and mental well-being being restored slowly and gradually. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. Never touching weed again. Never abusing substances again.

[@grahamtech]

I’ve had dpdr since 2017 and I relate with sooo much of this, I have had a lot of these symptoms as well as: standing up and feeling like a puppet, as well as not recognizing myself

[@Dpmanual]

Thanks for your comment Graham and I'm very glad to hear the video was helpful! 😊 Don't worry, it doesn't matter what caused it, how long it’s lasted, or whether it’s been 24/7 or episodic, you can always switch DPDR off completely by stopping the anxiety that's causing it 😊 Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/how-long-does-depersonalization-last/

[@I3oob_Master69]

Thanks a lot Tim a lot of what you described I’m feeling even what you’ve been through I don’t feel alone.

[@timmorrisdrums]

You’re definitely not alone 🙂💜

[@I3oob_Master69]

@@timmorrisdrums thanks brother much love ! 🙏

[@JohnLopez-gt6og]

I can function pretty much normally during the day because im always distracted by work and whatever podcast im listening to, but at night time when my wife and kid fall asleep and I only have myself, I go deep its been this way for about a year but only lately have I been experiencing what I believe are panic attacks(Ive never had them thats why i sai "I believe") feeling like I cant breath, when I am alone is when I go deep but I am also anti social and dont like being around anyone for prolongued periods of time so its like a double edge sword... just found your channel i hope listening to these stories make me realize I have not conpletely lost my mind...

[@Dpmanual]

So glad you found the video helpful John, and welcome to the channel 😊 And don't worry, you're not losing your mind 😊 Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-three-reasons-youre-not-going-crazy-2/

[@crayonangelss23]

I'm a PA native too! Congrats Tim. Videos like yours are so helpful. I'm recovering, and trying to accept the dips that come with this process :)

[@Dpmanual]

Glad to hear you found it helpful 😊 Keep up the good work!

[@timmorrisdrums]

Ay, PA team! 😅 I’m so glad my story is helpful to you. You’ve got this! Just keep living your life, enjoying it, and I promise one day you’ll wake up and realize you haven’t even thought about any of this. 😊

[@crayonangelss23]

@@timmorrisdrums That's kind of you to say, thank you!! That's exactly how I felt the first time I recovered a few years ago. Then boom a nasty divorce brought me back hahah

[@makhomoovervoorde8988]

Thank you for the video . I am starting to feel better but the vision and light sensitivity are so frustrating for me at the moment.

[@Dpmanual]

Glad to hear the video was helpful! And don’t worry, visual symptoms like that are super common with DPDR and will fade away and stop as you recover 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/does-depersonalization-affect-vision/

[@Bellan8845]

I started to get it first from drinking like almost everyday for little over a year and first i started to get anxiety, and when i stoped totally drink i had DPDR also like an result from drinking alcohol. So thats why im not drinking anymore and now im almost 1 year sober. Alcohol can also start this from my experience but yes even Weed so fuck to both of those things. What i have learned is to no matter of situation in life positive or negative dont run from it and DONT ruin it with Weed or alcohol! blessed everyone🙏🏽

[@Dpmanual]

Thanks for your comment! 😊 And yes, alcohol (and in particular, being hungover) was something I had to watch out for during recovery: www.dpmanual.com/articles/can-alcohol-cause-depersonalization/

[@carolinamuller1822]

First I was scared nothing was real. Now after thinking so much about it I feel like Im trapped in reality and doesnt matter where I go Im still stuck in reality and in the world. I dont know how to explain this and it makes me feel very uncomfortable and uneasy. I dont even know if thats still derealization or if its something else. It feels like I thought so much about reality that I dont feel comfortable with reality anymore

[@Dpmanual]

Don’t worry Carolina, existential / intrusive thoughts like that are super common with DPDR. I know they can be frustrating and frightening but they are also temporary and harmless and will fade away and stop as your recovery continues 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-fears-and-anxious-thoughts/ And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR.

[@user-le5vb3dy7s]

I also first got it from weed. It was terrifying. I thought I was either dying or dead and in hell. I was shaking, crying it was just terrible. Then a couple years ago I started having heart palpatations and chest pain, turns out I was having a panic attack and I got DR again for two months. It went away for a little over two years and now its back. Im trying my best to just ignore it and hope it goes away soon

[@Dpmanual]

Hey Robert, thanks for your comment 😊 And don’t worry, that all sounds like a very typical case of weed-induced DPDR to me. I know it can be frightening but remember that it's just your body and brain's natural response to stress and anxiety. It's not permanent and it can't hurt you 😊 You can and will recover. Make sure to read through all the info and articles on my website at www.dpmanual.com

[@daumele]

I did get a panic attack after multiple drugs at once (LSD, MDMA, weed, alcohol). It was at 2019. After that I had DPDR for a week or two, I do not remember clearly. I did not think much about it then. I googled that this can happen after psychedelics and as it went away I thought Ok this is what can happen nothing to worry about. Fast forward to 2024 January, I was finishing my workout at the gym and suddenly I felt very lightheaded, thought I will pass out and this caused panic attack. Now again, 12 weeks in I have DPDR. First few weeks were really difficult. I could not work, I could not remember what I was doing, could not do simple tasks. Now I feel much better, not sure how I improved, I just started getting back to life even if it was scary and uncomfortable. I do go to the gym again, I do work but still feel this slight DPDR feeling. Very minimal. Also floaters in the vision, afterimages, sensitivity to light and patterns. I am sure it will disappear soon. I just wonder should I ever try psychedelics again? That initial trip was very pleasant and memorable, just after everything I smoked joint and it caused me to panic hard but now I am afraid to try anything again but I would really love to explore them more.

[@Dpmanual]

I know DPDR can be scary but just remember that it’s a natural reaction to stress and anxiety, and people experience it all the time. The National Institute on Mental Illness estimates that up to 75% of people experience at least one depersonalization / derealization episode in their lives. It's part of your brain's natural defence mechanism and usually it only lasts a few seconds or minutes at a time. It's only when it's focused on as a separate problem (feeling like you're going crazy / in a dream etc) that it can turn into a feedback loop with the anxiety that caused it in the first place. But no matter what caused it or how long you've had it, you can always switch it off completely by stopping that anxious feedback loop. Make sure to carefully read through all the articles and info on my website at www.dpmanual.com and my book The Depersonalization Manual. In terms of trying psychedelics again, that should not be your priority for now, make sure you're focusing on your own recovery from DPDR at the moment. Read this, I think you'll find it useful: www.dpmanual.com/articles/weed-after-depersonalization/ And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR.

[@LarrySwishamane]

21:25 Brilliant analogy! Not to mention, your were architect of the fabricate & you did the yanking. times infinity !!!

[@Dpmanual]

Thanks 😊😊

[@LarrySwishamane]

@@Dpmanual iCant help but wonder when the concept of “predestination” was theorized, this is why. Right? The evidence is quite compelling. Tbh: iAdmire the fundamental simplicity of its design. Obviously, the theory of relativity, law of attraction, inertia, etc. But at the same time (thanks to self-preservation/survival) kinda cruel & diabolical & cosmic (& effective) optical/audible illusion to be subjective to…emphasis on “SUBJECT” How much freedom/options do you have, when everything u See, say, hear, feel, or be is all YOU…..get? At least, That’s my experience

[@darrend2035]

When he said “ Why did I take that second edible “ that hit home for me

[@Dpmanual]

It's a very common experience 😊

[@TheShemko]

Hello Shaun, Hope you are doing well. I just wanted to ask you did you had the feeling when you had derealization like every day is the same?

[@Dpmanual]

Don’t worry Vasil, feelings like that are super common with DPDR and will fade away and stop as you recover 😊 www.dpmanual.com/about/do-i-have-depersonalization-disorder/

[@user-sy1hh8dd4f]

when i think that this estrangement has passed, it start again. three times already.can it be? why?

[@brittneywelch2186]

Omg the food thing! It's not just me!

[@Dpmanual]

No that's very common 😊 www.dpmanual.com/about/my-depersonalization-story/

[@timmorrisdrums]

Not just you at all Brittney 🙂

[@CatWhiskerClaws]

His mindset change was a major major thing! Being able to change your thinking is not an easy task, but it is possible!

[@mars__4]

When will memory and concentrate become normal. I canot concentrate on anything at all and my memory is so bas

[@Dpmanual]

Don't worry, concentration + memory issues are very common with DPDR 😊 I know they can be frustrating but they will fade away and stop as your recovery continues: www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-and-memory-loss/

[@denis9983]

The worst part is that anxiety makes me not think straight. Like i start having so many thoughts and they are just so bad, i feel like idk what to do anymore and just wanna cry. I am 16 and got dp from weed abt 3 weeks ago, i didn´t know what it was at first and thought i was going crazy and at times thought it was depression or something. It was scary, it felt like my home wasn´t my home and my thoughts weren´t mine. the feeling didn´t leave me and i thought the weed got me into a pshycosis, thankfully i am getting better each day and don´t feel that much derealization anymore but still do feel a lot of depersonalization when i am particularly anxious. It is weird because the anxiety didn´t go away but the deralization did. I am seriosly thinking about getting mental help, but i dont know if it is a viable option.

[@Dpmanual]

Hey Denis, thanks for your comment. Firstly, please make sure that you’re speaking to your parents about what’s happening. It’s very important that they know what’s going on. Secondly, I know DPDR can be frightening but remember that it's just your body and brain's natural response to stress and anxiety. It's not permanent and it can't hurt you. You can and will recover. Make sure to read through all the info and articles on my website at www.dpmanual.com And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR 👍

[@timmorrisdrums]

This reminds me of my experience. You’re not alone in this. I agree with everything Shaun suggests and I promise you, everything is going to be okay. ❤

[@denis9983]

@@timmorrisdrums thanks for your support. I am truly getting better day by day. Especially since i understood that dpdr wasn’t the main problem but anxiety was. I truly thought i was in a pshycosis or something and needed to be locked up in a mental hospital. And having weird thoughts like” what if i just passed out when i was hitting that joint and im in a coma so this is all a dream”. It is very scary. But now that i understand it better i am better dealing with this. Hearing ur story rlly helped me out🫶🏻

[@TrumpyJake]

how are you doing now?

[@ahmedismail318]

@@denis9983How you feeling right now?

[@dekayalebarney8499]

I survived a depersonalization experience in 2016 if youd be interested in having me on Id be willing and happy to share my story

[@marcelopereira-df9pe]

What did you feel at the time?

[@dekayalebarney8499]

As if the lights were on but no one was home..extremely intense experience

[@ozwaldd_4162]

I can’t tell if it’s dp or something worse when I lay down I get headaches and a stuffy nose. Going to work makes me feel dizzy/nauseous and sometimes I’ll get the feeling of being high like heavy eyes and my vision feels off. It all started the morning after I greened-out

[@Dpmanual]

Thanks for your comment 😊 And take a look through the lists of symptoms here, see if they sound familiar: www.dpmanual.com/about/do-i-have-depersonalization-disorder/ www.dpmanual.com/about/depersonalization-symptoms-the-10-most-common/

[@TrumpyJake]

how are you feeling now

[@ozwaldd_4162]

@@TrumpyJake I don’t get headaches much anymore visions still kinda weird most of it’s gone away idk what was wrong k

[@bambipamo9188]

Im currently going through the worst period of my life. The dpdr started about a month and a half ago as almost an afterthought, and now im having extremely severe panic attacks that last for days. Its only noon and ive already vomited twice from the panic and fear. I cant seem to think about anything but the derealization and anything and everything triggers me. The only time im not crying and hyperventilating is when im sleeping.

[@nikitaaaron7781]

I can tell you I have been here it does get better with acceptance I know it’s hard but it will get better ❤

[@Dpmanual]

Hey, thanks for your comment. I know DPDR can be scary but just remember that it’s a natural reaction to stress and anxiety, and people experience it all the time. The National Institute on Mental Illness estimates that up to 75% of people experience at least one depersonalization / derealization episode in their lives. It's part of your brain's natural defence mechanism and usually it only lasts a few seconds or minutes at a time. It's only when it's focused on as a separate problem (feeling like you're going crazy / in a dream etc) that it can turn into a feedback loop with the anxiety that caused it in the first place. But no matter what caused it or how long you've had it, you can always switch it off completely by stopping that anxious feedback loop. Make sure to carefully read through all the articles and info on my website at www.dpmanual.com and my book The Depersonalization Manual. And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR 👍

[@bambipamo9188]

@@nikitaaaron7781 im glad to know im not the only person that has gone through this❤️ i know logically that im safe and nothing has changed, but for some reason my body wont leave panic mode? Is this something you also experienced?

[@nikitaaaron7781]

@@bambipamo9188 yes it is scary and no matter how many times you feel the way you feel you still feel scared it’s very hard trust me

[@aglimpseintotheafterlife]

Hey, I started in April and for 3 weeks my body was in panic mode 24/7, I didn't understand why I felt this way. I ended up admitting myself to the mental hospital cause it was too much, I got everything checked out and I'm 100 percent healthy so now I know it's all anxiety and fear, the Dr prescribed me buspirone and wow it brought down my physical symptoms so much I'm so grateful for that medicine. RightNow I feel like I need to just re train my brain to go back to normal cause it's been used to be on high alert for the past 3 weeks so I feel like I need to slowly heal my mind. It's hard but watching these videos help knowing the crazy thoughts are just stemming from anxiety and dp.

[@courtneylincoln9738]

is it normal to experience it while i drive ? like the road doesn’t look real and i don’t feel like i’m actually driving ? sometimes i have to pull over because when i think about it too much it makes me feel faintish

[@Dpmanual]

Read this Courtney, I think you'll find it very useful 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/should-you-drive-with-depersonalization

[@timmorrisdrums]

Hey Courtney, it is completely normal that you’re experiencing that. I remember having this feeling a lot in my recovery. Your mind is anxious, trying to find things to focus on that are “threats” but you know yourself that none of this is a threat. Therefore, it’s making you question your reality. Your reality has not changed though, and you know that. Even if you fear that it will change, I promise this will go away, and there is nothing unusual about what you’re experiencing.🙂 Let me know if this helped at all. I highly suggest you checking out Shaun’s DP Manual book if you haven’t already 😁

[@CourtneySDawn]

This is exactly how Iv felt for over 2 months now. I don’t even have DP/DR 24/7 but I feel like Iv “woke up” and can’t view life or reality the same anymore. I just want to go back to viewing things the same and not questioning the nature of reality or consciousness in general. It’s obsessive and debilitating I’m so depressed. Has anyone else made it through this and gone back to normal?

[@Dpmanual]

Don’t worry Courtney, existential / intrusive thoughts like that are super common with DPDR. I know they can be frustrating and frightening but they are also temporary and harmless and will fade away and stop as your recovery continues 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-fears-and-anxious-thoughts/ And yes, you can and will get 100% back to normal 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/back-to-normal-after-depersonalization/

[@CourtneySDawn]

@@Dpmanual Thankyou 🙏🏻 but what about when they are still there and dpdr isn’t? I feel like I’m living in panic over these thoughts and that’s what ends up triggering dpdr/dissociating.

[@Dpmanual]

@@CourtneySDawn Hi Courtney, the thoughts are symptoms of DPDR, and your fear of them will fade away as your recovery continues. When you recover the thoughts will no longer frighten you 😊 Read this: www.dpmanual.com/articles/what-does-depersonalization-recovery-feel-like/

[@CourtneySDawn]

@@Dpmanual I feel like I’m different because everyone has these stories of being weed/drug induced. Mine started from a panic attack after watching a video on simulation theory and spiraled into everyday panic attacks and anxiety and now depression feeling like I won’t ever not question these things now 😞

[@Dpmanual]

@@CourtneySDawn Don't worry, DPDR is commonly triggered by panic attacks 😊Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/what-causes-depersonalization-disorder/

[@Reshma.333]

Hey shawn !! My dp/dr is getting better but i still sometimes get panic attacks. Also i have ocd and intrusive thought that i would harm some one else....😢What should i do ? So many things still feel weird to me....

[@Dpmanual]

Don’t worry Reshma, intrusive thoughts like that are super common with DPDR and all anxiety-based conditions. I know they can be frustrating and frightening but they are also temporary and harmless and will fade away and stop as your recovery continues 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-fears-and-anxious-thoughts/

[@Reshma.333]

@@Dpmanual No but I feel like I would something bad or suddenly feel what if I don't know what am doing.

[@animalfacts360planet]

@@Reshma.333how are you feeling now

[@Reshma.333]

@@animalfacts360planet now I work. As long as I am working there's nothing wrong but when I get off from work negative thoughts .. but I am living a simple life now sometimes when I think of it I get flash back I get anxiety but I can handle myself these days .I thank GOD🙏

[@animalfacts360planet]

@@Reshma.333 that is amazing just allow all those feelings thoughts and flash backs that will remind you of dpdr there they will fade away (inshAllah)

[@Brazilian_Lioness]

Experiencing this with long covid ....

[@Dpmanual]

Hi Stephanie! Take a look at these interviews, I think you'll find them useful: kzbin.info/www/bejne/pIDWh2yolNtggZY kzbin.info/www/bejne/gXPNhamQbtSGm9U

[@miriammacomson5987]

I'm trying to explain what happened to my family and one of my sisters said I may have psychosis. That freaked me out..BTW I went to the hospital ER Feb 3rd of this year, they gave me fentanyl for a little pain I told the nurse I didn't want it, but she talked me into taking it. I went home fell asleep and when I woke up the next morning I had the worst panic attack I've ever had in my life. I'm 48 years old and I can count on one hand how many panic attacks or anxiety attacks I have had. Anyways, as I was saying the next day the horrible panic attack I had the next day set off 24/7 panic attacks for the next two weeks. I couldn't eat I lost 30lbs so far, or sleep, and if I did fall asleep I was drenched in sweat from having panic in my sleep. I was so overwhelmed because I woke up one day and felt very strange like I was going insane, I had to be admitted to a psyche hospital because I wanted to die. The very first time I've ever been to a psych hospital. I said no way at 48 years old am I going through this. I'm frustrated, sad, and scared I will stay stuck like this. I have always believed in God but the dpdr has me asking 1000 questions about life, death, God, the universe, etc. I can't even imagine being normal again. Ive given myself self diagnosis of heart trouble, brain tumor, bloot clots, going insane, cancer, brain damage from the fentanyl, bloodclot in my legs because of pain,etc,Feb 3rd I have felt like I'm dying everyday, and I'm still here, but I can't convince my mind I'm not dying. This is by far the worst thing ive ever been through in my life. I just want to get my life back, I miss talking to my boys and having fun with them. Like I said it's been 3 months but it feels like it's been 3 years. Things I did 3 to 4 months ago feels like it happened years ago. I know our brains need to feel safe, but once the trauma is over why can't it just leave, this is horrible, absolutely horrible!! It's not as bad as it was at first but it's still very very uncomfortable. I can NOT put up with this for several years. Please Jesus help me!!!😢😢😢😢

[@SS-zd6zb]

Firstly you need to address your anxiety which is what is driving your panix, heart palpitations, intrusive thoughts etc. The best way is to allow everything. Accept it's nerves. That is all. Adrenaline and cortisol on an extremely sensitised nervous system. Once your parasympathetic nervous system heals (adrenaline releasing nerves) and goes into normal functioning all your symptoms will clear up at the same time. Firstly learn how to allow panic attacks (that is what clears them up it's counterintuitive) then work on allowing all your other symptoms. It takes time to heal your nervous system so be prepared to allow time to pass. Best way is to dive into life and live it like you don't have anxiety (easier said than done but with practice you can do it). Over time your nervous system will heal. Dpdr is a symtpom of anxiety like heart palpitations. Nausea. Sweating. Etc so it'll clear up too when you lower your general anxiety levels. Which sounds like they're up really high right now but definitely can come down. Study anxiety and how the nervous system works. It'll put your mind at a lot of ease knowing that's all this is. No demon on your shoulder you're doing this to yourself by getting worked up and also having your fear response up high (which also comes down when you allow symtpoms to be present)

[@AfghanFTW]

All you gotta do is relax and let it be there if you panic it gets worsw

[@miriammacomson5987]

@@SS-zd6zbthat's the thing before I got the fentanyl for pain at the hospital I was ok. I wasn't anxious, depressed, or stressed. The fentanyl caused the severe panic attacks and I haven't felt the sane since. So I don't know how to find the root cause to my anxiety. I only have anxiety now because how I feel. So, how do I address the anxiety stress with no cause?!😭

[@SS-zd6zb]

@miriam macomson it doesn't matter what the root cause is. You have to learn to accept the anxiety as right now you aren't and you're in a daily battle with how you feel which causes stress (cortisol) to be released into your bloodstream and the cycle of symptoms continue daily. When you start to accept the anxiety and all the symtpoms only then does your stress levels reduce and nervous system begins to heal (slowly) and over time it comes back into natural balance and symptoms clear up. Read up on anxiety it will remove all your fear of symptoms as it's perfectly normal to feel this way in a hyper anxious state or disordered anxiety.

[@miriammacomson5987]

@@AfghanFTW 😭 that's easier said than done. I feel like I'm on another planet!! Everything feels very very off. I wouldn't wish this crap on ANYONE!!! I feel like I've been drugged with something, and my high won't come down!! I REALLY REALLY can't believe something this horrible even exist!! Before this happened to me I could never understand what was so bad in someone's life they wanted to commit suicide. For the first time I understood after getting dpdr, when I didn't know what it was I wanted to die so I had to go to the mental hospital. I bet half of suicides from anxious and depressed people had dpdr committed suicide because they didn't know they were going to be alright. I don't entertain the thought of suicide anymore. I coukdnt hurt my boys and family like that, and now I know you can go back to being normal. The way my mind is now though feels like I'm going to be like this forever. Even though our brains are trying to protect us IM VERY ANGRY we have to suffer like this. I feel so sorry for everyone who has dpdr!!!! This is a little to extreme for the brain to put out this much heartache over a panick attack or drugs!!

[@hiruhiru5998]

Hey Shaun in which country do you live?

[@Dpmanual]

Ireland 😊 🇮🇪

[@AnaLiana-wr6qo]

I’m from Africa, please if you’re reading this and you are from Any African country let me know, do u have any awareness in your country about Dpdr ?

[@HunterHunts-qt3cx]

Hey guys i just want to know is it normal for some one that has been suffering from depression since 2009 for the episode to happen every 2-3 years and last for like 8 month or sometime just over a year plz some one explain as i find it realy hard to have a normal life at this rate

[@Dpmanual]

Don't worry Hunter, it doesn't matter what caused it or how long you've had it, you can always switch DPDR off completely by stopping the anxiety that's causing it 😊 Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/how-long-does-depersonalization-last/

[@juanrosas2465]

Hello everyone, I'm currently 17 years old and anxiety's been winning so far. This all started from a terrible weed experience. I had my first anxiety attack and Derealization/ Depersonalization experience on March 6, 2023, l'm almost 3 months in my anxiety recovery. I've been doing good but just 3 days ago l've been having mini panic attacks again and feelings of unreality and intrusive thoughts which is super scary. I'm not sure if they are setbacks or if should worry or what. I don't know what to do anymore. I wanna go back to being the fun and joyful person I've always been. I also want to get better before I start college. Now with this anxiety thing, I feel like I can't acommplish my dreams and there's no point of living if your gonna feel like this forever: (. I guess what I'm asking is for some motivation and what I could do to recover. Anything would help, I just want to recover from this once and for all.

[@Dpmanual]

Hey Juan, thanks for your comment. Firstly, please make sure that you’re speaking to your parents about what’s happening. It’s very important that they know what’s going on. Secondly, I know DPDR can be frightening but remember that it's just your body and brain's natural response to stress and anxiety. It's not permanent and it can't hurt you. You can and will recover. Make sure to read through all the info and articles on my website at www.dpmanual.com And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR 👍

[@cem7745]

Hello Juan and everyone else, I just turned 17 yesterday and I've been experiencing DP/DR for 7 months now, everyday I am in constant fear from when I wake up until I sleep. These have been the hardest months of my life. I have 2 therapist but nothing seems to help, my therapist put me on prozac and Abilify. Abilify did not work at all, it made my face move involuntarily, and prozac is just an antidepressant. It all started from a horrible first experience with weed. Very rarely I get these panic attacks or something which makes men feel like the exact moment when I smoked the weed, which absolutely freaks me out. I don't know what to do and I feel like I ave ruined my life at this age. I just want this to go, I want to be myself again

[@juanrosas2465]

@@cem7745 Hey cem, try to get yourself busy and something I heard that works is not being on your phone a lot and be in tune with nature and stop seeing any videos on KZbin or anywhere else and focuse on your present life and future

[@cem7745]

@@juanrosas2465 thanks for the advice, im just scared because it hasn't gone away after 7 months

[@timmorrisdrums]

I’m glad to hear you’re on your way to a full recovery! I definitely had what I felt were “setbacks” in my recovery. I definitely recommend checking out the DPDR audio book from Shaun and reading any information on the website for some constant reminders that this is all okay and normal. I can promise you that this isn’t permanent 🙂❤️

[@miriammacomson5987]

Can someone please tell me if going back to normal feels weird as well ..I have been in dpdr for 3 months now. I'm not sure if I know what normal will feel like, and another woman freaked me out because she said getting back to normal gave her more panic and anxiety.

[@shafiarmstrong6044]

No, I was in dpdr for almost a year and what makes it worse is thinking about it too much and freaking out, so avoid doing that and going back to normal takes time but you’ll realize it as you get better and back to normal. Hang on there sister, you’re not alone and we’re with you.

[@miriammacomson5987]

@@shafiarmstrong6044 Thank you soooo much❤️❤️😭

[@Waves353]

How are you now Miriam?

[@miriammacomson5987]

@@Waves353 still have ocd death existential crisis, no appetite, still have to force-fed myself. I got my appetite for about 2-3 days and left again. I'm so tired, my brain is broken!!

[@miriammacomson5987]

@@Waves353 I can function a little I'm a recluse now, I barely leave my room. I judt feel off, completely off. I'm not as bad as the beginning but how I feel now stuck with all of this fear is unbearable!! I don't think I'll ever be the same. I ask God why me. I pray constantly, I've been like this for 10 months now and to be honest I think feeling normal scares me too.

[@toprabah1290]

I am really suffering I just can’t make this go away it is following me even if I am not paying attention to it even when I am ignoring it it doesn’t go away The only thing I am afraid of that I won’t find recovery for a long time

[@Dpmanual]

Hey, thanks for your comment 😊 I know DPDR can be scary but just remember that it’s a natural reaction to stress and anxiety, and people experience it all the time. The National Institute on Mental Illness estimates that up to 75% of people experience at least one depersonalization / derealization episode in their lives. It's part of your brain's natural defence mechanism and usually it only lasts a few seconds or minutes at a time. It's only when it's focused on as a separate problem (feeling like you're going crazy / in a dream etc) that it can turn into a feedback loop with the anxiety that caused it in the first place. But no matter what caused it or how long you've had it, you can always switch it off completely by stopping that anxious feedback loop. Make sure to carefully read through all the articles and info on my website at www.dpmanual.com and my book The Depersonalization Manual. And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR 👍

[@toprabah1290]

Thank you I understand all that but my problem is that I see people who had it they recovered with your book an your videos but me no I do not know why

[@toprabah1290]

Some time I feel like it is going away and it is stopping but it is coming back I feel good and I say ohhh finally I am recovered but for just 2 or 3 hours and it will come back

[@deejaykoded3851]

Have been experiencing for 9rs can i still recoverd frm it? I don't even know what reality feels like anymore.... worst feeling ever

[@Dpmanual]

Don't worry, it doesn't matter what caused it or how long you've had it, you can always switch DPDR off completely by stopping the anxiety that's causing it 😊 Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/how-long-does-depersonalization-last/

[@timmorrisdrums]

The length of time does not change the severity of anything. Because truthfully, there is no severity. I know it feels it now, but I can guarantee you that this will pass the more you stick to the golden rules of the recovery that Shaun mentions in his book. You’re okay, I promise 💜

[@hiruhiru5998]

What are the activities which require lot of our attention?

[@Dpmanual]

Head over to my website at www.dpmanual.com, there’s tons of info and tips on DPDR recovery there 😊

[@tashaandjacob6836]

Nobody finds the correlations with medications and how others ten times worse once you start trying them?

[@riccardoaddis5746]

Is there a recovery story with someone suffering 24/7 from DPDR? I've watched a few but they all seem to have it not all the time..?

[@Dpmanual]

Oh I'd say for everyone I've interviewed (and me too), we've all had extended periods of suffering with DPDR 24/7. I had it for months on end like that: www.dpmanual.com/about/my-depersonalization-story/

[@riccardoaddis5746]

@@Dpmanual Oh ok thank you very much!I was asking because I watched 4 recovery stories and they Always talk like It comes and goes while mine is Always there and it's a year and a half now...

[@Dpmanual]

@@riccardoaddis5746 Don't worry Riccardo, it doesn't matter what caused it or how long you've had it (or how consistent it's been!), you can always switch DPDR off completely by stopping the anxiety that's causing it 😊 Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/how-long-does-depersonalization-last/

[@riccardoaddis5746]

@@Dpmanual Thank you Shaun, you give me hope!

[@Dpmanual]

@@riccardoaddis5746 Happy to help! 😊

[@bjeffbuck1369]

I never heard about this before today. I stumbled over it on google. Now i know what is f@cked up my head since i was 15. I'm now 49years. All i read about. It was just check check check. Every box. Started first time on weed first time i got high. But it went away after 18 hours. But a year later i was so stupid and did alot of glue and gas sniffing for some months. The same feeling came back. That you not really exist, and the world around you is just blurred. It stayed like this for 33years. I talked to shrinks. They never told me about this. It was only. Do you use drugs. No i dont. I drink beers and my regular adhd speed i get from my doctor🤯

[@Dpmanual]

Hi Jeff, Thanks for your comment -- I'm sorry to hear that you've been struggling for so long but glad that you've finally found an answer and that the video was helpful. I know DPDR can be scary but just remember that it’s a natural reaction to stress and anxiety, and people experience it all the time. The National Institute on Mental Illness estimates that up to 75% of people experience at least one depersonalization / derealization episode in their lives. It's part of your brain's natural defence mechanism and usually it only lasts a few seconds or minutes at a time. It's only when it's focused on as a separate problem (feeling like you're going crazy / in a dream etc) that it can turn into a feedback loop with the anxiety that caused it in the first place. But no matter what caused it or how long you've had it, you can always switch it off completely by stopping that anxious feedback loop. Make sure to carefully read through all the articles and info on my website at www.dpmanual.com and my book The Depersonalization Manual. And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR 👍

[@bjeffbuck1369]

@@Dpmanual thank you for answering. Yes i will for sure go and get help. Now i finaly can have something to show them that will help me trying to explain what im going through. Its just mind numbling that i never heard about this before now. After all these years in what i can describe as a nightmare you never wake from.

[@user-kg4op9ee1y]

Please reply to my comment. Does it need brain tests because I visited a psychiatrist to no avail. Please tell me. I don't want to stay in this case because I'm asking how strange questions.😢😢😢😢

[@Dpmanual]

If you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR.

[@user-kg4op9ee1y]

@@Dpmanual I already talked to him but it didn’t help me

[@KadeMichael]

Is it normal to think that I’m not meant to be here? Like with the complete disconnection from yourself and the existential thoughts it’s easy to feel like you shouldn’t be on this planet…

[@Dpmanual]

Don’t worry, existential / intrusive thoughts like that are super common with DPDR. I know they can be frustrating and frightening but they are also temporary and harmless and will fade away and stop as your recovery continues 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-fears-and-anxious-thoughts/

[@lucynjiru1135]

Is dpdr the same as trauma coz i did my research and its kinda relates and what part of the brain does it affect coz in my case ive had it for 9yrs now 24/7 and i always wonder will it ever go away

[@Dpmanual]

Don't worry Lucy, it doesn't matter what caused it or how long you've had it, you can always switch DPDR off completely by stopping the anxiety that's causing it 😊 Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/how-long-does-depersonalization-last/

[@darrend2035]

Did you get migraines??

[@Dpmanual]

Don’t worry, headaches are super common with DP and all anxiety-based conditions 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-exhaustion-and-muscle-pain/

[@djdb1214]

Is this channel not for me because I don't have depersonalization I have derealization

[@Dpmanual]

Read this, I think you'll find it helpful 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-and-derealization-whats-the-difference/

[@hiruhiru5998]

I live in India and here there's nobody to help dp sufferers

[@Shifa34569]

hey there i can to help you i had dp too but recoverd completely i am indian too

[@hiruhiru5998]

@@Shifa34569 Thank you. How can you help?

[@Newrippleeffect991]

Yea Buddha