Dr. K Talks with Reckful about Good Mental Health [Finale, Pt. 6]

Dr. K talks with Reckful about his good mental health, ayurveda, and relationships.
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[@HealthyGamerGG]

Dr. K will still talk with Reckful but in private! Learn more about Doshas and Ayurveda here: kzbin.info/www/bejne/Y3OolZuJbpKWpNE

[@anthonyromano785]

@HealthyGamerGG Can't express my gratitude for your presence here. You really have a modern energy to how you teach and I hope you continue to broaden your audience! Thank you for everything!

[@RamKumar-yi6wn]

Dr.K ,please take him in as your patient and make it clear to him that you're his doctor not friend.

[@AXharoth]

i want to say to everybody look at reckful if the student is diligent and the mentor is good results will be there

[@xxxxgrinxxxx]

I can feel my heart

[@Intolerantt]

I wish I had someone like you in my life to talk to :( I've being physically sexually and mentally abused as a kid became a problem child had a addictive personality with many drugs throughout high school ended up in jail tried turn my life around and now feel so isolated and alone in my life even more so with covid and not being around anyone I have been in a very bad and dark place not being able to recognize my own worth at times and really struggling finding reasons to keep it together and wanting to wake up :( I have been watching your videos and finding myself breaking down a lot about some of the truths you allow me to see. Everyday is a struggle thank you for your work

[@etherealvice8308]

Reckful, for many of us you were the first step in finding HealthyGamer and beginning our journey of changing our lives. You may be gone but you will never be forgotten as the man that changed our lives forever.. The suffering is over, peace eternal.

[@VeggieRice]

I echo the thought in the beginning of your reply here, but the suffering is not over. Not for Byron's family, which already had endured loss, not for Byron's exes whom he implicated in his final moments both in person and on his massive social media platform, and not for hundreds of thousands of his fans who identified and empathized with him. Suicide is not the end of suffering, it is the deferment of it to others

[@antdx316]

@@VeggieRice We don't know what happens in the afterlife but it's safer to assume it could be worse if done wrong on Earth but as for wrong on earth, that is also assumed and backed by what people believe either collectively or personally. The real question, people who die from COVID or other things at a young age they had no control of who wanted to live but couldn't. We all are doing this results based perspective so focused without bothering to give a comparison with everything else that has happened in the world. People who die as a young loved cancer child versus people who lived successfully for Many decades only to seem to have made it into Hell.

[@VeggieRice]

@@antdx316 There has never been one shred of evidence for or against there being some sort of dimension where we spend an 'afterlife.' We are animals and we die like animals. People who would try to pervert or warp your sense of morality or behavioral guidelines only for the sake of "heaven" or out of fear of "hell" are literally manipulative. If you subscribe to a religious (or better yet, non religious spiritual) ideology, that's fine. It should enhance your life while you are living. There are no promises after death, and there is no balance or justice in a universe that lets kids die of cancer or elderly of Covid. To seek rhyme or reason out of the random is detrimental to our mental health. I say live and let live, enjoy what time we have together because IT IS PRECIOUS AND WE'RE NOT GUARANTEED MORE

[@antdx316]

@@VeggieRice It's good to have at least a better outlook. Of course having and not having can have it's own set of unique problems. How you see life is how everyone, imo, should see life. The thing is, not everyone sees it that way. If we were to take everything you've said but the very last one about life being precious, what do you think the presentation would look like instead? especially considering some people no longer like their life?

[@VeggieRice]

@@antdx316 If you took everything away except my last sentence, nothing changes. My initial reply to this thread was that the suffering was not over for his family and loved ones who had to suffer the fallout in the wake of his death, and how much the compound loss of his brother esp must be bearing down on his family. We spun off into a tangent about the afterlife, but like i alluded to before, that's largely irrelevant bc we cannot prove or disprove its existence, so i choose to stick to matter of the material plane. Idt it's healthy to send messages like "your suffering is over, sweet reckful, so happy for that for you" when there are suicidal people who may be consuming media about reckful's passing. it communicates that death is the answer and feeds into a fantasy about 'hey if i off myself i might get to go to heaven and all the pain i feel now will be replaced with joy' when in reality, all we know is that you'll cease to exist. completely. i don't want that. btw, unrelated, but in 2004 i jumped off a cliff in an attempt to take my life. for the next decade or so after that i struggled w substance abuse to self-medicate crippling depression and issues form a csa childhood. i'm not speaking on this as someone with no skin in the game or experience on the field. i know you mean well and i genuinely vibe with much of what you've been saying, and i know that you have nothing but goodwill, so i don't wanna come off too didactic here, i'm really just speaking my personal piece on it

[@kmhowardva]

RIP buddy. Seeing your first interview with Dr. K popped up in my recommend videos months ago. I never heard of either of you two prior to that. I was going through my own stuff at that time, and your first interview changed my life. After seeing it for the first time, I changed my major to psychology. Since then, I have been working to finish up my bachelors and eventually apply to medical school to become a psychiatrist. Between your pain, and watching Dr. K touch so many people's lives, I know that my purpose in life is to help similar people that were in your situation. Thank you for being brave and speaking up about your mental health and touch the lives of so many others in a positive way. I hope you have found your brother and you can finally rest your mind. We love you, brother. Dr. K. Keep doing what you are doing. I don't think you realize the positive impact you have implemented in so many of our lives. I love all of you guys and everyone in the comment section. You matter, your life matters, your mental health matters. Stay strong guys, it gets better

[@johndayton4384]

Obi-Kev Kenobi cheers - this type of bravery won’t soon be forgotten - legends never die.

[@eminemilly]

Good job take care ♡

[@charliekill88]

Good shit

[@claire6223]

These are empty words that give false hope. Reckful did not find his brother because he is gone, they are both gone. There is nothing after death and you don't know that it gets better. To think otherwise is naive and blindly optimistic.

[@paiinvvs]

@@claire6223 okay negative ass nancy

[@Dashu16]

Even though Reckful was very unfocused, keep in mind that a recurring problem for him is loneliness and building lasting relationships. He was super excited to hang out with Talbadar and show Dr. K and the stream 'hey this is my friend that I've known for 10 years and he still likes me!' Pretty cute

[@FETTYNOP]

Cuz he messes with people when tripsitting. He messed with destiny on mushrooms and look at destiny now.

[@goddesskoala7907]

Chris Wilhelm It’s so sad cause he seems like a really nice guy!!! It’s obvious he’s really desperate for connections, but I find it really endearing!

[@charliekill88]

@@YtCsBt have you seen the guy? He’s fucking insane now... idk if this whole Reck fucking him up with shrooms is true but Destiny is definitely fucked in the head.

[@seaoftraffic]

Mediation helped me so much, I meditate 1 hour every day for 3 years now. I have no day dreams, no random thoughts, my mind is so clear every day. I feel this constant bliss throughout the day, like I am microdosing mdma. If I am working my mind is in the flow. 3 years ago I was so stressed that I even started getting random sized patches of baldness on my head, I was so close to suicide, because feeling this constant negativity throughout the day 24/7 even when I am sleeping was miserable. I was on my 3 year streak of smoking 3 joints per day, when I decided to try meditation. Like Dr K said no thoughts are just first step then comes non-attachment to your body, feelings. My meditation technique changed over the years, when I expanded my consciousness and understood how I work. How I meditate now is I open my awareness as much as possible (everything you experience is part of your awareness) and try to see the connections between feeling of self and the experiences which are bothering me. Once I locate the connection I see that I am the one actually generating that experience and I am able to cut it. The less I am attached to the experiences the less ego I will have and the smaller self becomes. (Self is an illusion btw and having no self means being enlightened). Stripping away self could be scary, because you don't feel in control anymore and you lose all the things you thought you were, so most people don't go that far.

[@VCDreamTeam]

That opening line is now haunting "the work is not just what we do together, it's what you do in your mind after we talk" RIP Byron

[@charliekill88]

Fucking sucks man, RIP Byron.

[@ajmosutra7667]

You cant save everyone

[@M-eye-k]

RIP Reckful. I know you helped change many people’s lives by giving the world an insight on your struggles and I wish you could have been thanked enough. I still find it so hard to believe. I wish there was something we as a community could’ve done to help. This series will bring value to countless more people for years to come. I wish you could’ve been here to see it.

[@awesomezaka]

Dr. K has the patience of a god.

[@PolGamesOnTwitch]

+1. he works with people with adictions, he need to have that level. See he redirect Rekful at a point when he was so dispersed he was listen to Dr. K.

[@ButtonJoe]

Every time reckful walks away when K is talking really stresses me out.

[@really-._.-]

@@ButtonJoe it shows disrespect more than anything. If Rekful is really feeling good as he claims to be, some of his actions show that he is a bit of a "bad person". I could be wrong, but the level of disrespect while Dr. K was talking or presenting a point cannot be blamed fully on "ADHD" or his "vatta" personality type. That bothered me, the number of interruptions and too many times trying to finish what Dr. was saying.

[@Sunedosa]

@@really-._.- He's always doing that, finishing sentences, interupting etc. Very hyper even if he feels good. He can/will feel good but his hangups, behaviour issues will remain to a certain extent. It doesn't mean that he's a bad person because of that.

[@miauw1999]

Sunedosa he’s usually on shrooms during these sessions right? You can tell he’s on something so that explains why he wanders off mentally and physically in convos.

[@napjacob]

Reckful completed the tutorial.

[@FabulousJejmaze]

pog

[@kwamp684]

but he quit the game...

[@chaedd]

@@kwamp684 bipolar is fucked up what the low hits it hits really hard...

[@jarrodong4430]

@@chaedd rng gave him shit cards :(

[@GlassOfWater87]

he pressed alt + F4.

[@professorc-dawgscastle8591]

What went wrong? I never followed Reckful or even knew who he was until this tragic incident, but looking back at all this, he looks so happy, like everything was really looking up... Heartbreaking to see it all ended like this...

[@tbgame2266]

Idk what was going on but, the way he talked to K reminded me how I used to talk to my therapist. I lied about how I was doing, then came back a month later and said sorry for it. The stress to see a breakthrough is stressful.

[@ad_kk16]

@@tbgame2266 It seems like it's the case

[@joeldixton5627]

When men open up, it's often only a single layer. A conversation can't make everything better, no matter what is said. What a fucking tragedy

[@Ruben-ue6tv]

Can someone tell me what happen to him?! How did he die?? Sry for saying the things like this. I saw the news in Twitter 1 hour ago and incredible that I was seeing all these talks/therapys. I'm still a litlle shocked. RIP

[@joeldixton5627]

@@Ruben-ue6tv suicide apparently. That's all we know

[@RagTagg]

Man, I'm glad I stumbled across this channel. Very cool content dude, I'm grateful you've been able to find time to use your insight to help others. Fascinating videos...I've got a lot to catch up on with your uploads now!

[@MSafwat99]

Same feeling ❤️🙏

[@tiggerknowsbest6817]

I enjoyed this as i enjoy watching Reckful and his progress. Today Reckful seemed quite manic and it was a little vexing watching his ADD spike so frequently throughout the stream. I hope he can truly find peace to be more mindful of his thoughts for even a split second before talking over Dr. K constantly.

[@deeelle6567]

Agree. This was the part of the series where it felt like Dr. K couldn't get a word in without being interrupted a majority of the time

[@RamKumar-yi6wn]

I'm starting to hate this guy. He seems to have everything going for him but decides to wallow in self-pity because he's habituated to feeling bad about himself while living the good life

[@jaredhead9503]

@@RamKumar-yi6wn Where do you think hatred comes from?

[@comboguard]

Jared head you’re actually woke bro

[@RamKumar-yi6wn]

@@jaredhead9503 Hmm so I gave your question very serious consideration. Looking within myself I tried to pinpoint the sensation of hatred and I could find nothing. Now thinking about why I felt negatively towards Reckful, I realised that this is the second chat of his with Dr.K where he has been high. I was concerned for him in his first high chat(pt 5) but now I'm more irritated than concerned because he insists on getting high before he shows up even though the general feedback in the comments was for him to stay sober. And dude seems to be functioning on a high level in other things like in the stock market. I doubt he would be able to even get out of bed if he were seriously considering killing himself daily. Makes me think he has got addicted to self-pity and taking shrooms for it. I think that answers your question.

[@shamrokz95]

I wonder if he truly felt like he was improving or if he just wanted to portray that to the viewers as a sign of hope for their struggles. RIP

[@agz4370]

wow thats deep thinking

[@accrx]

You can really feel that he wasn't getting any better at least it's what I feel from these calls, he was sadly on the path of the darkest decision already

[@Crabbadabba]

@@accrxYeah those reoccurring dreams of suicide from falling really confirmed that.

[@CnTrLRogue]

watching all of these back in order and rapidly, it seems like reckful is way more hopeful at the start as funny as that sounds. him feeling new feelings was exciting, and the more and more this went on, it seems like that he wanted to believe Dr K was helping him improve and not that Dr k was helping him to improve himself. "i love when i talk to you" "i need guidance". Those are accurate, but it never seemed like "I need help to fix myself", it seems "i need u to fix me and ill help u do that." I would guess leading to maybe "the best cant fix me so i must just be unfixable" and a whole host of other bombarding thoughts.

[@n.4717]

After watching this series Reckful seemed like a really nice guy and I wanted to check out his streams. And today I come home from work and his first stream I see is ,, rip Reckful, rerunning old vods.....

[@KenpahchiTV]

Damn, I'm gonna miss these sessions.. Really glad these happened tho, it got me into meditating daily! I'm on day 9 so far, and i'm really getting into the swing of things!

[@getusome6776]

great to hear im starting aswell it feels good to just make time for yourself.

[@you120999]

Which exercise are you doing

[@ItzTrickshotHD]

Same just a few days more in than u. Has helped so far

[@FETTYNOP]

Try heroin to align chakras

[@veryfinan5187]

Morris Prickarts how do you actually meditate

[@RedPlayerOne]

Very impactful ground covered today! It's funny how when you get depressed it feels like THAT is reality, that all the happiness and bliss you felt before was an illusion, a distraction from the base reality; the tragedy of human existence. Depression is a lack of perspective, fundamentally.

[@leiasart4610]

I imagine Dr. K has a thick skin and is able to deal with things like that in a healthy way, but I hope he's doing well. I onyl knew reckful through the dr k streams, but I rewatched them multiple times, often to sleep. Kinda surreal. But Dr. K did a great thing for him, he was the best thing that could've happened to him in this past time I imagine.

[@joaovitorxxd]

RIP Reckful.. You'll be missed

[@Yolligraphone]

You've helped me so much, just in your Rekful streams. I watched your very first stream with Rekful after a long day as a boom operator on a non-paid set, and so many things came together for me while I watched. I saw so much of myself in Rekful, and I was having the same breakthroughs he was as you were taking him through everything. The next day, despite barely getting enough sleep, I felt my life starting to take an upward trajectory. What Rekful said near the end of this video really spoke to me. He said something about how when he's sad, he looks back at times when he was happy and thinks that he was just dreaming. That the default state of living is sadness, discontentment, a lack of meaning. I can identify with this so much. When I'm depressed, I tend to view my old happy self as a naive idiot. But when I'm happy, I see my past depressed self as a jaded cynic who doesn't see the opportunities available to him and isn't even trying to realize his full potential. So much of my life has been spent in a state of depression and brain fog. Last spring it got worse than ever, and toward the end of the summer, things started getting better. Less gloomy, but I still had a hard time finding the motivation to do basic things. Fast forward to late fall and I come across you, Dr. K. You shook me. You got me to see the errors in my own thinking and perceptions. Because of your conversation with Rekful, I began to grasp a deeper understanding of what really makes me tick as a person, and how I can use that to motivate me in life. Through understanding that Rekful really wants to help people by preventing them from ever becoming as lonely as he was, I saw how I could use my own compassion to help people through doing what I love: street photography and film making. I'm on a better path now, and I know that I'm the one doing all the work, but I wouldn't have such a strong sense of direction if it weren't for you. So, thank you.

[@drthvdr2802]

Rest in peace Byron FeelsStrongMan

[@Fiends4]

This one was scary - he jumped off his high-rise and died, like in his dreams.. Man it's hard listening to these.

[@yngvis]

Is this confirmed anywhere?

[@tpower1912]

@@yngvis Tons of people took photos of a police scene with a guy matching him dead outside a high rise apartment in Austin that day

[@posadist681]

i cant find a picture of his body

[@cinnamoncat2731]

@@posadist681 why would you want to find a picture of his dead body?

[@posadist681]

@@cinnamoncat2731 I want to see how much damage the fall did or if he died a different way

[@powerforu94]

it wasn't enough ... goddamn it man ... don't blame yourself dr k. You did all you could to help him

[@nativon926]

I just need to vent real quick. I lost a friend to a drug overdose a few months ago and reckful reminds me a lot of him. I wish we could love people enough to heal them, you know? Idk I hope they can feel how much we cared about them. How sorry we are that we didn't or couldn't do more. That we miss them.

[@MrBanelingBust]

Holy shit he acts exactly like a friend of mine who's bipolar when he's at the absolute peak of mania. It's very sad to see :(

[@frederikolsen767]

I hope your friend is alright buddy... :)

[@theorganizedplaylist8956]

How does he act?

[@zigzagmouse3632]

I have followed reckful since I was a teenager. From early WoW all the way up until when he streamed Hearthstone. I watched his games with Kollectiv, Venruki, CDew and all the original teammates for years. Referenced reckful all the time in RBG and Pvp groups. This guy was icon to my nerd brain for years and years.

[@stupidrainbo]

This is great. I'd love to see some other streamers too, though, so I understand the reason to end it with Reckful, but I'm also happy to hear that you'll still talk with him :D

[@Xylus.]

I never watched Reckful before he passed. Wasn't aware of him unfortunately, but I couldn't help bit be drawn in. Knowing that Reckful lost his fight with mental illness, never found the meaning he was searching for is so devastating, because he was such a lovable person. But, in the words of Dr. K, when a champion falls, you pick up the sword and fight. I just wish I could let everyone know, someone wants to love you. Someone wants to help you. Nothing is ever hopeless. Reckful himself said, whenever he was happy, the idea than life was meaningless didn't even matter. We can't give up hope, because even if everything is meaningless, there is always something you can find to transcend that. There is always a meaning to life that you can personally imbue it with. And, being the arbiter of your own existential goals, while difficult, is the ultimate freedom as well. Being the arbiter of your own existential meaning is daunting, scary, and I don't think it can healthily be done without love. Love of self, and love of others.

[@wowaddict112233]

8:50 - 9:10 sounds and looks like foreshadowing to Reckful's death..Sorry Reckful..many will miss you brother. If only we could just res the dead like in World of Warcraft.

[@alliancesuxftw]

17:40 damn that hits too hard man. Wherever you may be I hope you found peace. RIP Reckful ❤️

[@ASIRA89]

the status-effect analogy is a really good analogy for mental state, i think. You can have buffs or debuffs on yourself at any time. Learn to cleanse yourself of the debuffs. To do that, you first have to identify what debuffs you have. Then you can cleanse one after the other. Not all at once. Fokus on one at a time. And to help with that, you can medidate to add buffs. Spending time with friends will add a buff. Falling in love is a buff. Earting good food will add a buff. Working out physicly will add a buff. (and so on). Having status effects on you seems natural, since everything around us influences our state of mind. And it feels like if we want to "level up" our understanding of ourselves, we first have to get rid of ALL status effects, bad ones AND good ones as well. So that we only look at our "blank character". And when we have a realisation or a "moment of enlightenment" we earned 1 new skillpoint that we can apply to our character. No matter what status effects (buffs or debuffs) we will gain afterwards, our skill-points will always stay the foundation of our character.

[@treynolds94]

In this video I can see Reckful has actually given up. He is only saying things the Doctor wants to hear. His behaviour is close to the first time they chated. RIP Reckful.

[@justsayin3084]

i discovered who he was and his story a couple of days ago.i was going to comment the exact same thing.so sad....

[@ajmosutra7667]

How did you. Conclude. That

[@treynolds94]

@@ajmosutra7667 looking at his body language in relation to the first time they met was very similiar. Very unfocused and looking away from the camera everytime he was saying something that Dr. K wanted to hear. Didnt seem to be taking any of it serious.

[@ajmosutra7667]

@@treynolds94 thanks

[@Alan7moore]

@@treynolds94 I didn't get that impression at all - he was looking off camera at the secondary screen where Dr. K's video was most of the time. His friend also pointed out that the video was on the other screen.

[@HerraWillow]

Devastated about the news. Watching this again in memory of Byron. Rest in peace old friend

[@mrbounceoffwithdat4420]

At least he didn't miss lethal this time xD

[@dziugasdj]

@@mrbounceoffwithdat4420 that's not funny at all..

[@mrbounceoffwithdat4420]

@@dziugasdj its a meme relax

[@HerraWillow]

@@mrbounceoffwithdat4420 disrespectful af

[@dziugasdj]

@@mrbounceoffwithdat4420 I know it's a meme, but it's not funny at all right now. You're just dumb as fuck.

[@shokew2241]

RIP HOMIE, you helped me a lot with your brave honesty.

[@M-eye-k]

Although I understand bringing more people on stream and that is extremely important. But I also feel there is a lot of value from seeing how reckful could continue to "level up" now that he's out of a much darker place. Maybe just an audio recording or any form of that insight I think would be really appreciated. Amazing stuff this series has been incredible! 🙌

[@vxn490]

It'll come if it needs to. Reckful doesn't realize it's all an illusion. It will take him a long-ass time to come out of this funk. More than 2 years.

[@ae86.mp43]

@@vxn490 what illusion??? what is funk??? please explain.

[@vxn490]

@@ae86.mp43 the peaks and the valleys are an illusion. you can't get attached to the good times. the way he acts when Dr K says it's just the start of the upward trend, he is JUST like a little kid. this is not a good sign. he hasn't matured or integrated what he's learned from these talks yet, and he still lives for external validation. as long as he doesn't know how to feel fulfilled from WITHIN without needing twitch chat or twitter replies with hearts in them, he won't be truly happy or traquil. he will always depend on other people and external stuff to feel good and that is always fleeting. "funk" is a term that can mean a bad patch in life or something difficult to get through.

[@ae86.mp43]

@@vxn490 ooohhhh that makes sense. Thank You

[@joshnewton9794]

I have been watching this playlist sequentially over the last week and getting to this video today of all days hits me so hard

[@ibeprofinn8890]

I feel that man, I had just started watching this series of dr k and reckful and I related to reckful and felt for him. It really hurts to see hours of him just talking about his feeling with dr K.

[@elektrotehnik94]

This video series is the only resource I've found online, or anywhere else, on how to guidedly introduce myself to the process of detachment

[@bishbach310]

I'm shocked by his death. I was glad watching those videos and seeing him feeling better. Rest in peace, gladiator.

[@MrHogzor]

Thank you Dr. K for all the hard work for people like Reckful. But sometimes it's not just enough. R.i.p Byron "Reckful" Bernstein.

[@eyur]

11:40 - suicide pact with own mother 17:00 - 17:30 recurring death dream 26:45 - shoves roommate on cam/pressures 5min break while grabbing "drink" - that was already on his desk 30:10 - explains itself constant profession of happiness

[@eminemilly]

Damn :[

[@sprainedankle8547]

😢

[@enmemoriamedia4957]

the drink part was weird..

[@VioletEmerald]

Feeling like falling is something I've felt in bed/kinda in dreams but unlike him I certainly never interpreted it as me dying... And the fact that his mind goes there... :(

[@LifeofBalouch]

After watching all of the sessions I feel the Saddest part is that he is gone even after he tried so hard to live...

[@jiffpop5143]

"Me and my mom had a suicide pact" Holy shit that's messed up

[@VioletEmerald]

Yeah. Wow. His whole family was/is so extremely damaged.

[@gemik]

Dr. K the kickstarter of happy streamers.

[@DingDongDaddyFromDumas]

@@phroggie1242 bruh moment

[@MSafwat99]

Not just gamers. God bless him

[@FabulousJejmaze]

I have enjoyed the Reckful Arc! That time when the both of you teared up talking about your dads was really moving, and I’d be lying if I said I didn’t join the tear train for a bit. Thank you for doing this, Dr. K, and props to Reckful for being so receptive!

[@CheleBadoo]

I only recently started watching Dr. K and found these interviews with Reckful. As someone with bipolar I can hardly watch this, because Reckful is incredibly, becoming dangerously manic in this video. He is euphoric and hyperactive throughout the entire video. We all know that he crashed after this. So sad that he took his own life.

[@ArlekTV]

This is so beautiful. What a nice friendship you guys have, the moment at 35:37 really made me smile.

[@kcarter0001]

ArlekTV same

[@RamKumar-yi6wn]

Nah.

[@TheMrgrafixable]

wholesome

[@Leo-nc5hs]

Ram Kumar not needed here mate

[@RamKumar-yi6wn]

@@Leo-nc5hs What's not needed here ? Reckful was high and feeling extra-friendly

[@kent7711]

Reckful wanted to be more friend then patient this time.

[@AlexH274]

That's natural, yes? Speaking 6 times for over 12 hours about your struggle with someone who listens and understands sounds a lot like friendship.

[@Gomace]

omg 5:37, when the camera lighting fades to dark, because he bends his head for the light in the background to overshadow his face lighting, and he start talking about his past, it's like a movie man.

[@Osjey]

sometimes Dr.K had panic in his eyes, like he saw some red flags and did his best to help Reckful but knew that sometimes even a therapist can't help... :(

[@kateginger]

Maybe he realised he was manic and so not necessarily doing better... I feel so bad for both of them and his family. So much pain...

[@bevs9995]

timestamp those next time

[@giovanaflaviarosin9088]

I realy liked that they mentionated how somene can be "like the wind". Its easy to blame reckful for being distracted but at the same time it wouldnt be wise to blame the wind for blowing. He is doing amazing progress.

[@Guardsgotgame11]

It’s sad because everyone saw him struggling, the ups and downs, the mood changes. I truly believe Dr K helped him a lot, he seemed so optimistic. Devastating. RIP RECKFUL 👼

[@kon.pod1]

I wish that people were able to analyze this video, as I myself also suffer from depression, anxiety, depersonalization ect. Its hard to watch Reckful talk about how "well hes doing" while on the inside its only getting worse. Dr. K I know you like to encourage people to feel better about them selves but I thinks its just as important to acknowledge the fact that you can see that there are noticeable things wrong with their mental state at the moment. To me personally each episode seemed like Reckful was getting worse, I don't know if its just coinsidence that he was having a worse day but its hard to watch his desperate need for something that he isn't always true about.

[@willnelson3362]

I hope you're doing well. You posted some videos of some gainz about a year ago and you looked really great! If you ever feel real down, I hope you can somehow find a way to take a trip and wander the world a bit. It's full of beauty, you're a strong young man, there are a whole lot of amazing adventures for you to have.

[@mikecfafaf8695]

Thank you so much for doing this with reckful. I enjoyed it and able to learn from it. Pls keep up with the AOE healing; appreciate it!

[@leeadkins1360]

Thanks for doing so much to try to help Dr K, we love you bro

[@SpeedThe1]

RIP Byron, you will be forever missed and remembered.

[@eillswim]

The falling dream is a natural response to your heart rate slowing while you sleep, That's why it wakes you. And that's why ALOT of people have the same falling dream, you don't die in the dream, you hit the bottom and awaken

[@deadlyfemboy4289]

Sounds scary, glad i never had these, if anything im mostly climbing up in my dreams, be it stairs or buildings lol

[@N0N5T0P]

I hope he can make a video to properly explain the vata pitta dosha stuff!

[@RamKumar-yi6wn]

Dude he already has. Click the link in his pinned comment.

[@N0N5T0P]

@@RamKumar-yi6wn Thank you!

[@riqzo]

9:04 Dr K: *I just think you're ascending into heaven every like 30 seconds* Reckful: *Yeah...* This is probably the saddest thing I've read, R.I.P Byron :(

[@vasusaini8885]

We brothers, cause I was gonna comment the same thing.

[@Ken-S]

I can see both of Dr. K and Reckful had try their best through these videos. RIP.

[@jimikallioinen762]

Makes me happy to see the progress Reckful has made :D This is something I wanna do in the future, to help people to get into a better place mentally and to make their mental strength much stronger

[@e.c2891]

The moment in peace when he says I love you Dr.K really got me... I think this is the most peaceful moment he ever felt in this reality

[@blunty6feetunder]

17:31 - 17:50 is so eerie knowing the method he chose to end his life.

[@theknowledgeofself]

Yup, made my stomach drop

[@theknowledgeofself]

Chase Callahan I mean rumor or circulated through confirmation although I don't know personally, but if it is so it just is mind boggling given he says this here and in a chat with others in one of his last streams, something along the lines of "maybe I need to die in order to get to the next level" and that's usually how people rationalize their thoughts when their locked away alone in the dispair that falls upon one.

[@blunty6feetunder]

@Chase Callahan He jumped off his balcony

[@MrPriceo0]

@@blunty6feetunder how do you know?

[@nickcollier-webb3327]

A piece of me died with him too, but at least we can still visit

[@zmarnold]

so sad to see this segment stop on stream, it has helped me so much tho thank you so much Dr. K for sharing this with youtube

[@RamKumar-yi6wn]

It's just the Reckful saga that's ending.

[@vxn490]

Trust me it will be much more helpful for you and all of us to watch Dr K talking with other people instead of reckful.

[@dantecasola599]

[@AurelianoShowsTheWorld]

Thx for these videos, Doctor K and Reckful. That was an amazing journey. Strong work, boys! Hope to soo more of you in the future! Reckful, you just give people like me hope, man :) You are a good example!

[@MiQ0707]

17:35 So sad he actually took action on what he was always dreaming.

[@SuckMyGreasyPrick]

Is that how Reckful went out? Dam I've seen several different things where he took pills (I think that was a previous attempt though), to jumping... But wasn't really sure how he truly decided to do it. Sucks either way.

[@colderquicker]

Dreams aren't logical, you're overanalyzing.

[@charliekill88]

@@colderquicker welcome to the Internet lol Rip Byron

[@bobobsen]

@@colderquicker dreams are absolutely logical

[@deathsolve]

@@bobobsen According to that logic, if you dream about killing someone, you have suppressed murderer instincts. If you dream about flying you must be a bird? Yep, dreams must be absolutely logical. You have absolutely no clue about the topic.

[@CoreyBernstein919]

He’s not doing better in this video, he’s on mushrooms. RIP man.

[@JamesNeilMeece]

I know this is titled as the Finale, but I do hope to see a follow up in 6/12 months. Keep up the good work Dr. K! Best wishes Reckful!

[@Anotherhumanexisting]

Bipolar ii is no joke. I’ve done intensive therapy for 7+ years and have meds. Yet I am still 99% certain it will kill me. I am unable to trust in my own self to build any kind of reliable stability in my life with emotions/relationship/jobs/living situations/etc. It is an unrelenting biological condition in my experience. And childhood trauma, and modern life demands just add fuel to the fire… The hypomanic time can be just as dangerous as the depressed times. I don’t trust either.

[@hercb4388]

This is how it starts you help teach and inform the people with a wide reach so they can then rely the information to their audience which starts a chain reaction. This will make a big impact much more than helping just one person ever could even though that matters too.

[@joschkazimdars]

He had recurring dreams of him falling and die. That hits hard ;(

[@mytwosense]

absolutely tragic - RIP Reckful

[@snared_]

"I have another appointment" Do you call non-clinical meetups appointments as well or meetings or something else? I've heard some people distinguish the two when they are licensed, so I'm just curious. RIP Reckful, gone unfathomably early.

[@XTen1000DaysX]

Same as "this is not therapy" proceeds to do therapy lol.

[@douglaskramer1853]

Reckful was so fucking strong. Many of you that can relate to a certain degree with Reckful knows how hard it is to open up, even to a single person, and he did it all the time to thousands of people. RIP Byron, one of the truest of our kind

[@amale441]

Rip Reckful, man, I hope he's in a better place.

[@claire6223]

He's not, but at least he no longer has to suffer.

[@deadlyfemboy4289]

​@@claire6223 cant even imagine what it feels like when a person wants to end their own life all the time.. must be living hell...

[@howlsitgoing]

19:20 R: I have some Ethereum. Is it based on ether? Dr. K: I certainly think so, because it's based on empty space The doc is a funny man.

[@hughjass6000]

17:31 He already visualized how he would die. I believe he died from falling. RIP Byron

[@Codycjhh]

He didn't

[@WhiteRhino.]

@@Codycjhh he jumped out of his building, what are you even talking about

[@boxhbbb3530]

17:30 the recurring falling death dream. That was shocking to hear

[@maty3950]

I just finished the last video i had left to watch from your interviews and said "oh man i wish there were more" BOOM new video

[@Consequentiality]

We can't help them all, rest in peace Byron.

[@xTheRealPSx]

When he said he has dreams over and over again of him falling my heart sank. There was no fucking way anyone would’ve picked up on his intent.

[@sandr6298]

this is what a manic state looks like. this is exactly what i get like:( its incredibly fun then and there but so hard to bounce back from after

[@itsyaboiskeletor3983]

Its actually so sad listen to this now he was still showing the signs you just needed to look deeper

[@Shannon_Plante]

What a beautiful ending. I hope Reckul is still doing his meditation, talking with Dr K, and building on who he really is.

[@INCAnitysy]

Well sadly he suicided :(

[@bbeckford90]

For people panicking, it's just with reckful. He's not stopping with videos but just with reckful so don't worry.

[@JakeSimmer]

Haha, let them think what they think mate... ;-) Just jumped in the last VOD on Twitch atm...

[@NorthAyase]

@@JakeSimmer Haha, let them inform who they inform mate... ;-) Just finished eating the last Cup of Noodles atm...

[@juustas]

Dr. K if Reckful wants and you find some time in stream scedule, could you do some sessions live? Seeing Reckful progress is really inspiring, and really relatable because most of us have seen his struggles for years and this transformation is really magical. Love your mission, your sessions bring me peace during anxious evenings

[@stevebob240]

Rest In Peace, Reckful. He helped a lot of people.

[@bennyadvent]

I'm super happy Dr.K could be the spark that ignites Reckful's personal growth. Great AOE heal. The dungeon of life is getting easier..

[@ethank2005]

All of this goes back to his brother’s suicide. Realize that killing yourself can destroy your entire family for decades after you’re gone.

[@Xtenz01]

I would like to know more about Nian .(i don't really know how to write it ) . I struggle with that . When i want to reach my emotion of self , i feel a strong Aura of confidence , strength , but also fragility and doubt scattered all over the place . I've always devoted my life in helping other people , even when it would be detrimental in the long run for me . When i was around 5-6 years old i started feeling different than the other childs . I felt emotions really , really strongly and i thought very early on , that childs and some adults were talking nonsence . I felt despair every waking hour . So i started suppressing all my emotions and understanding. I ended up crippling myself at that young age , now when i try to do speciic things or letting out my emotions , i'm having some wierd headaches . I've actually reached a point where i can feel emotions for half a second and i automatically shut them down without any control over it. It feels like i wrote over my own code . And this is why i want to know more about Nian .After thinking that long about myself i don't know who i am anymore .

[@FilmerJunior]

Who knew peace and bliss could be found at the club 32:43

[@vasya9349]

RIP Byron , we still miss you so much

[@NordicDragon89]

Thank you Dr. K. The system works. The AOE heal is working. This series of talks with Reckful has made me connect the dots and given me perspective about the fact that I have unprocessed trauma as well. I've cried watching this series in sympathy for Reckful and myself. Watching this has given me tools and the building blocks to heal and made me observe my own thoughts and feelings. I feel validated on a level I've never felt before. Thank you!

[@SlyApex]

Happy for Byron. Hope he continues to work on himself and finds peace

[@DaddysBathTime]

It's hilarious how unfocused Reckful was

[@AXharoth]

so rude xD

[@yolkthosenuts]

Haven't watched the vid yet but is he high again?

[@AXharoth]

@@yolkthosenuts so high can fly

[@Jesusaross]

I think it's more troubling than hilarious. Reckful seems manic high.

[@RamKumar-yi6wn]

It's fucking rude and annoying. Reckful is incredibly lucky to have someone like Dr.K try to help him out. But he behaves like it's a game chatroom. Sky Williams on the other hand knows and recognises Dr.K as manna from heaven and actually makes an effort to get better and that's why he deserves more sessions than Shroomful.

[@FightDight]

this dude Reckful starts making his bed as soon as Dr. K begins to speak .... SMH Reck

[@trentonchristensen4793]

I think someone said it in his stream and it bothered him so he fixed it.

[@albertle8457]

RIP Reckful

[@skaels]

RIP Reckful. You will live on in the memories of those who've lives you touched. The world is a better place because of you.

[@Keqing420]

Goodnight reckful you are forever loved

[@kcarter0001]

These sessions gave me a lot to think about. I’m excited for others to come on

[@RamKumar-yi6wn]

I want more and more Sky Williams .He's a good guy ! Never been so invested in seeing a stranger turn his life around.