Drug Addicted Couple-Monique and Kyle

[@Hallerose985]

I am the mother of his first child and we are doing really amazing :) my son is thriving beautifully despite Kyle’s relapse when he was a newborn and now being in a single parent household. We are making the best of it. His family is extremely supportive as well despite his absence. From the moment I found out I was pregnant (and months before) I dedicated my entire being to my son… I knew if/when Kyle relapsed I would do what I had to do to maintain peace for my son and not disrupt his development as a small, growing baby. He was around him for only a short period of time following his relapse because I fought hard to remove us from the toxic environment. Just wanted to post to let viewers know that at least one baby out of this interview is more than okay!!! We haven’t seen Kyle in 3 years and he is unfortunately unrecognizable. This was very hard to watch. But if it was up to him he would still be in our son’s life… he just clearly is not capable and I made a decision to remove him completely for obvious reasons. But he has such a beautiful soul at his core… such a gentle, kind and talented person and I, as well as my family and his, still pray for his recovery, but from a very far distance.

[@lexxvandorn2375]

Thank you for sharing sending you love n strength

[@blackluxurians6062]

Thanks for sharing. It's hard because you don't want your son to see him down and out

[@dickiedoo7310]

You let thus dude hit?

[@tajavillasenor5923]

Thank u for sharing. Best wishes to u and ur son.

[@Hallerose985]

@dickie doo Like I said… he is unrecognizable in this interview and looks, acts and even sounds nothing like he did before he relapsed. He was a completely different person with a lot going for him…

[@ashleyallen7138]

I’m a postpartum nurse and it’s very difficult having empathy for these women who continue to have multiple babies. I watch their newborns struggle with withdrawals. You can not console them no matter how hard you try.

[@miapdx503]

Yes, I have empathy for addicts. But once you become pregnant, you are responsible for every decision you make. Parenting is all about putting your children first. You create them, they are born helpless, and if you don't do it right you can completely ruin the life of an innocent child. There's birth control, abortion, adoption. But once you make the decision to make a baby, it's not about you.

[@nomadsteve5297]

I complain about my job as truck driver, but your job, that takes a very special person to be able to do, in fact just thinking about your job makes me tear up, Thank you for doing what you do

[@alicebu8698]

You are awesome god bless you

[@ginnypurdey1]

@@miapdx503 Totally agree Mia. I think what got me in this interview, whether through drugs or total lack of empathy are the children and their future. Yes, it is alot more complicated in their lives than we have probably seen. Having worked in the 80s in a long term rehab for opiate dependent Mothers and their children in London, this couple have MUCH to learn about basic parenting, if they really want to.

[@k_xxo]

That must be such a tough job😒 Definitely takes a special person to do that. ❤️

[@katieunger6689]

Does anyone else enjoy reading other people's comments just as much as they enjoy watching the Soft White Underbelly videos? 110% respect and love to Mark. Thank you for the incredible videos!

[@gwynethpaltrow6896]

yes love all the insight

[@marylreddick]

Of course

[@ridef0rlife]

Yeah, peoples insights are really interesting and often, insightful.

[@murandyrandy]

I’m scrolling while it plays

[@Didisayhi]

Yup!

[@amyp3548]

This was my story. I was homeless 3 years, lost my son and got stuck. Suboxone and treatment saved me. I've been drugfree for almost 3 years now after 26 years in active addiction. We do recover

[@carmagurl317]

Proud of you !!

[@Catalinaobregon]

Herculean strength getting clean. Very proud of you.

[@MALONE2348]

Good job!

[@amyp3548]

Thank you!!

[@auroraborealis13579]

Right on, you bad ass!! Thanks for sharing! 💗👍🏼

[@bethanyr6951]

She gave up four children for drugs and this man, then says it's the system that's to blame. Such a sad state of denial.

[@canadianapatricia669]

I'm just wondering if you've been in their shoes, and had tried or had actually received help from the system? I haven't been in their shoes, at least in respect to drugs. But I can speak to needing help with mental health and it definitely could be a lot better than what it is. Sad, but true.

[@miapdx503]

@@canadianapatricia669 our mental health system, like all our institutions, is failing. But you don't give up, or use that as an excuse. I'm currently on a waiting list. I've been waiting a long time...

[@miapdx503]

Until she takes responsibility she's gonna stay stuck. You're absolutely right.

[@WelcomeToThe92503]

@@canadianapatricia669 I get it But also.. this woman in particular is *CLEARLY HAPPY AND ALMOST BOASTFUL* about the life shes living As she referred/refers to it a handful of times as a "rock and roll lifestyle" and says shes having "fun" and is "living her youth" ... refers to herself and her boyfriend as gorgeous ...SAYS SHE "HAS NO SHAME IN HER DRUG USE" ...and actually called it a "stepping stone" with absolutely LITTLE TO NO REMORSE about her children being taken. I get it.. cus I'm an addict. I was actively taking opiates since 2006 and lost almost everything I had (which isnt much) in 2020 during the PANDEMIC because of fentanyl and spending 20$ per pill ..and taking up to 10 a day .. and at 41 years old I almost lost it all in 12 months Thank God I finally gave suboxone a chance as its something I had always entertained but before the fentanyl I was taking norcos and didnt see it as a big issue I say all that to say .. I'm not judging her. As I know when you're in active addiction NOTHING ELSE EXCEPT THE NEXT SCORE MATTERS. and supercedes everything. So I get it Its one thing to be an addict and hit rock bottom But....... IT'S A WHOLE NOTHER THING. . TO LISTEN TO THE NUMBER OF REASONS this woman is using to try and justify her use. . Whats scary about her ...is she still hasnt hit her rock bottom. As she said it herself...she isnt embarrassed by her addiction. And she laughs and smiles about her situation as if what they're going thru are typical relationship problems.. and that THEY ARENT REALLY AT ROCK BOTTOM YET. Youd think having had given birth to 5 children already and having them all be taken from you... youd have a level of maturity and insight that most ppl dont but as I continue to listen to the interview it seems like shes happy her kids aren't with her .. and that she wants to "live her youth" and she seems to think what shes doing right now Is her "living her youth" as she doesn't seem conflicted at all by what shes doing and how shes living Only worried about Who SHES MEETING... and who's gonna help her and who isnt . Like I'm sorry but she seeks like she HAS PETER PAN SYNDROME.. and Carries herself like a teenager as she keeps referring to what shes doing as "fun" and a "rock and roll lifestyle " etc. The dude seems to be living in reality But THE WOMAN seems to be the ONE LIVING IN LALA LAND. Whatever the case. .I truly hope she gets it together. And its important for addicts like her to know... *NOTHING ABOUT THEYRE DOING IS ROCK AND ROLL , GLAMOROUS OR COOL.. SHE WILL DIE AT SOME POINT* and I know I'm not the first person to tell her that and surely wont be the last The truth is she nor him or their lifestyle Is glamorous . No one is EVER GOING TO GIVE THEM ATTENTION AND CARE SHE SEEKS IN THE STREET FOR BEING A NICE PERSON AND HAVING A BIG HEART I HOPE THEY CAN TRY A MAT PROGRAM AND GET ON SUBOXONE. It worked for me and countless others who never thought wed get off the hard drugs CUS IF THEY DONT SNAP OUT OF THE DELUSION THEY will DIE THEY WILL LEAVE ALL OF THEIR CHILDREN AND THIS WORLD..AS A HOMELESS DRUG ADDICTED PERSON WHO NO ONE IN THE STREETS WILL BLINK AN EYE OVER NOT A ROCKSTAR OR EMPATH.. OR SOMEONE WHO HELPS THE HOMELESS ETC. SHE WILL DIE A HOMELESS ADDICTED MOTHER OF 5 . AND NO ONE THEY HANG OUT WITH OR THATS HOMELESS WITH THEM...WILL CARE PERIOD POINT BLANK. END OF STORY . Case closed. AND IM SORRY They need to know that If they try and get on a suboxone PROGRAM Asap and give REAL LIFE A CHANCE

[@steved7872]

@@WelcomeToThe92503 Thank you very much for writing exactly what I was thinking, as I am a very slow typist (haha) But seriously I agree 100% with everything you said. I am 49 yrs old and became an alcoholic at 13 and an addict at 15. Did all the usual drugs (pot,coke,acid,speed,etc.) and finally graduated to heroin at 32.(so stupid). I went into a methadone clinic on june 2nd 2010 and have never touched a drug since.I switched to suboxone about 2 yrs ago and It really does let you live. I think the dude should lose that chick. she is in fantasy land and I think she loves living the way they do.I also think 90% of what comes out of her mouth is absolute lies. I wouldn't trust that bitch for a second. But as you know, ya gotta wan't to stop!!!!!

[@andifaye4186]

my jaw dropped. She is very disconnected from reality, I think way more than he is. Maybe it’s the difference of long term effects from meth vs heroin? Very interesting. I just cannot believe that she’s put 4 children into this world, used meth through pregnancy and doesn’t feel ashamed. Narcissism and addiction make one bad storm. This one was super infuriating to watch.

[@ashleyreyna9100]

She is very selfish and disconnected from reality! Why have 4 children only for someone else to raise if you still want to live out your childhood.

[@D.1992-w9l]

Spot on

[@populisttrope9385]

She is a master manipulator.

[@1428monsterdrink]

I think she is sugar coating it. Shes obv not ready to get better

[@dp6970]

Kyle is definitely real. He’s honest and not trying to sugarcoat any of his or their experiences. The chick though, grandiose and disconnected. Could be the drug or just her personality.🤷🏻‍♀️

[@MrSdbmgarcia]

she said, " I have a big heart I want to help people, the homeless...." but abandoned her own kids. heart breaking for their kids that have to suffer at the beginning of their lives with drugs in their systems and parents that don't give a crap because of their drug addictions. I really hope they get help and clean up.

[@bobshenix]

She's delusional. He's depressed.

[@kamayaburt8698]

I’m the kid of two parents who was addicted to drugs and every time I would see my mother she had a new boyfriend but never not once tried to develop a relationship with her kids! I understand that she couldn’t help what she loved but it was hard growing up.

[@MrSdbmgarcia]

@@kamayaburt8698 I hope that your heart is at peace and know that regardless of your upbringing you matter and you are loved!

[@datboyayayron]

@@bobshenix my mother is not what u say my mother is very fine I love my mom the way she is please keep negative comments to urself

[@kamayaburt8698]

Thank you so much for the beautiful words sending nothing but love your way.

[@krystapeckham5346]

Hey, I’m Kyle’s biological sister! I wasn’t going to comment due to my lack of words after getting through this difficult video but I found the need after reading some comments here I figured I would voice our family as well as my own opinion. Kyle has known his whole life about his step father (my biological father) and has had nothing but an amazing relationship with him since he was 3 years old. Our dad was everything you could ever need in a father roll who treated and loved Kyle as his own, always. They had many talks when Kyle began to go down the wrong path in High School, Following a crowd that influenced into the life he is living today. Anyways, to summarize the father aspect of Kyle’s life was nothing of a mystery or secret as he paints this picture here. As for the bullying, Kyle does certainly have adhd. But, Despite the fact he was actually popular in school and had many friends that introduced him to “cool things” that shortly but surely became habits to him. Ever since the beginning of his addiction he has always tried to find a blame. Weather it be his family, friends, the mother of his first born, it was always everyone but himself. It’s very hard to see how he has changed physically and mentally, knowing he has such an amazing personality and talent behind his barriers of addiction. He has the capability of being a great father, an awesome brother and a killer tattoo artist, but this is the life he unfortunately fell into. I pray everyday along with my parents for his recovery, hoping one day he will open his eyes to reality and seek the help he needs to become his greatest potential. ♥️

[@wanderingsoul2931]

I’m so sorry you have to see this it must be so hard.. can’t imagine what your family has been through . They say they have a baby.. did the system take that baby? We’re you ever able to meet the baby? This breaks my heart. Poor kids. His other child’s mother commented she is good and has her son thankfully.. glad you have contact w her.. yes addicts blame everyone but themselves. At some point they have to I guess just grow up and take responsibility for their lives.. I have addicts in my family too so I know

[@krystapeckham5346]

@@wanderingsoul2931 Monique and Kyles baby is currently under care of Monique’s family along with her other children. Unfortunately no, We have never met his other son. Just pictures, we have no relationship with him. But Halle, we have a great relationship with her! As well as with my nephew. Who is an awesome little boy, thanks to him having an amazing mother raising him with all the love in the world! ♥️ Hopefully one day his journey with addiction will end and he will realize the help he should be looking for, not only for himself but for his two sons as well. 🙏🏼

[@micheledaly5823]

@A. Jones that is not true.Anyone can beat addiction if they are willing to quit and be responsible adults.Every day they get up and choose to chase drugs instead of taking care of their children and that is a selfish irresponsible choice. But it is a choice.Every day people get clean because they want a better life.Blaming the drugs is being an enabler. Being a drug addict is a choice.Half the people in this country are in pain and had childhood trauma and still work and raise their children.What you said is total BS

[@micheledaly5823]

@A. Jones what dosent work is absent neglectful parents and the cycles they create of absent parents.The cycle continues and they don't want to take accountability for their actions and the damage they do to their children and then they do it to their children.Like I said it's a choice. Drugs are addictive but that dosent excuse reckless irresponsible behavior. Plenty people use drugs and still maintain jobs homes and relationships.Dont feel sorry for addicts that:s whole purpose in life is their next fix and to hell with who they hurt or what they are willing to do for it.

[@n.mkhize9626]

I understand you. I didn't even know how deep my brother was in this life until he was dead. I don't know what I would of have done, or how I would have fought for him if I had known sooner. I know when he did die I faught hard to maintain some sense of dignity of his death while his drug "family" were interested in keeping their own addictions a secret by having a whole lot of strangers claim they know my family personally....and spreading lies about our moralities and characters. This happened almost 5 years and I am still hurt, and upset with my brother. I feel like as the man of our family he did not protect us (family). To have complete strangers destroy our my family and create numerous stories, while we were mourning I felt so lifeless in that moment. I now realize the people my brother considered, "his family", were only his family because drugs was what they all lived for. Therefore that is what truly brought them together and made them a family. I also realize my brother himself told a lot of lies about appearent traumas about his up bringing. I know for a fact, my brother was the king of our family. The first born on our immediate family, first grand child on both sides of the family, first nephew...literally a king. In African culture that is a very celebrated position to be in. My brother was loved, but he loved drugs more and died for his purpose. It is interesting to see "his family" confess one by one, when I bump into them in public, on how my brother really died. I feel so unprotected to know the police will not even allow us to view the police report due to his live in girlfriend refuses to allow his family to know the truth. Your situation may or may not be as extreme as mine. Mine does involve a lot of racial obstacles. But I don't doubt your pain runs just as deep. Especially seeing this video of your brother. When I read your message I could not help but think how much hurt, shock, and gut ranching pain would I be feeling if I were to just happen to see my brother on here, in his worst condition. My heart aches for you. I hope you and your family find peace.

[@sarashady4205]

I know Kyle. He's from Fall river Massachusetts. His mother is a really nice women and the story he tells of being bullied is very much true. His life turned for the worse after finding out his life wad a lie growing up. He's really a good person. Just a lost soul 💔 pray for him instead of judging

[@evaamp6218]

Wow really sad ! What do you mean, what did he find out ? He truly seems like a nice person :(

[@rungeon83]

Most people who go down Kyles routes arent "just bad people" they are struggling with mental health and Trauma, we've slowly accepted depression isn't "just a choice" we now need to look at addiction as a symptom of mental health, and treat these humans as we do other humans with mental health issues.

[@moominmamma9176]

@@evaamp6218 he found out his dad was not his real father

[@taylorwilson805]

You would be surprised how much that is a shock to identity. It shakes people to their core.

[@HandbagDiva]

@@ebbydirelle I know someone this happened to and it affected her deeply. She was around 20 years old when her “ father’s “ new girlfriend told her “ he’s not even your real father, ask your mom “. She was devastated & thank god she didn’t turn to drugs but she had a lot to work through because of it.

[@leklekjasmine416]

"I'm not ashamed of drug use" you're never gonna get better when you have no shame. She also speaks more passionately about loving him than her own kids

[@saraa1741]

Omg, I'm glad I'm not the only one feeling this way. She said she saw him doing something and it was the cutest thing she ever saw. Mam you just gave birth to your child, yet your baby is clearly not the most precious thing, a man is.

[@DAVIDTORRESANI]

If Mark brings her on a second Time? If God allows her that Second chance. I think she may have different views. But than I see Narcissistic personality. Who knows? I wish them the best.

[@bobshenix]

E X A C T L Y .... she even refused to be ashamed of herself when by her own account she smoked and used meth during her entire pregnancy. Kyle looks so depressed and at least he doesn't sugarcoat their lifestyle. He would be better off without her IMO

[@TSR228]

She sure did. She also isn’t ashamed of her children being born addicted to drugs. 😞

[@tmer20]

she literally said she rather be in the streets with him than be with a guy with money or that would take care of her better than this guy smh

[@vanessacali794]

I went to high school w her , and although she’s deep into her drug use she still so beautiful just like I remember her. She was the cutest girl in our high school, she hung around the “popular kids” her smile was always so bright … I’ve been searching for her for years & now i see this. ☹️ she was one of the ones who introduced me to her friends when I first attended Birmingham high school in van nuys! We shared good times and many laughs. A lot of our high school friends are just as shocked as I am. We knew she was wild but didn’t know she would go down this path. So sad & So unfortunate to see her in this situation. I hope she gets all the help she needs, and may god continue to be by her side 💜

[@WhatsupPattaya]

Dang Vanessa. That’s crazy

[@jockogo1689]

💜 Lean💜

[@ShotThroughKarl]

I hope she sees this so she can see the love.

[@quinnrivera5075]

Sad. I went to Taft . This girl seems intelligent. And not really “street”. But obviously losing her kids and living on the street she is. Addiction is awful. Especially when it’s someone you love. Hope she gets her shit together. And hope my addict gets it together one day too .

[@mnlpo5517]

@Kenosha “3pt shoota” I’m going to pray for you instead

[@ZaraBizara]

She says her heart is so big she wants to help the youth and the homeless, but the only people she didn't mention were her own children she abandoned.

[@xxjoeyt07xx]

She has 4 kids yet smiles when she talks about "living the rockstar lifestyle without the money" absolutely terrible.

[@a.marvellehoneyman4560]

Drugs make you delusional…obviously

[@mollyfyna2144]

She's a narcissist

[@chashmal10]

@@a.marvellehoneyman4560 or she already wasnt a good person, cant know from this

[@a.marvellehoneyman4560]

@@chashmal10 no we cannot know, from this…we’re all choosing to live life with our own free will, to do good or evil. I believe we’re inherently good, but need to fight against our own fallen nature; or become better, more whole people as we get to know ourselves. I choose to take pity on her, I don’t believe she’s inherently evil, she’s taking evil in, by using drugs, and that invites all kind of low energy.

[@a.marvellehoneyman4560]

@@mollyfyna2144 many a person who is addicted is extremely selfish, they’re not necessarily a malignant narcissist…that said, I’m certain when you use you bring on jezebel spirits, that can make you behave like one.

[@ginnypurdey1]

Monique and Kyle are committed to their lifestyle of chaos. They feed off eachother, which gives them the excuse to keep using. I see NO desperation here for change, especially when it comes to their children. I hope one day Monique and Kyle will wake up and get real.

[@brazenlilhussy5975]

I was gonna comment that I'm not sure about these couples interviews..just that it's so hard to get to the 'truth' because they talk about this stuff themselves all day,every day. As in its their lives..they live it and have their story as it is..the actual story might be a little different.🤷‍♂️ I was very close with a girl when we were both using too..it makes it so hard to get a right train of thought going because you're basically speaking into a mirror (that talks right back and tells u what you want to hear). This is not a dig at anyone, like you say. There's a little bit of enjoying the 'romanticism' to this life here, whatever gets them through the night I guess. Its not easy.

[@Forgiveiolord]

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[@sobrietysociety]

I COMPLETELY AGREE. I think this bitch is the fuxkin devil.. She doesn't give 2 shits about this guy. She PREFERS the lifestyle. She WILL die as a result of her experiences. I hope he gets put in jail before he dies, that way he can actually get a little clean time under his belt and maybe implement a little program

[@boxinghitman2303]

@@brazenlilhussy5975 i have seen you comment on another channel other than this 1 which is kinda crazy out of millions n millions of ppl and thousands of channels lol. Guess when we watch somethng we have similar interests in other certain channels

[@brazenlilhussy5975]

@@boxinghitman2303 Lol..yeah I find myself noticing the same names also, and if I click on the channel icon I'll see the first 6 channels and they'll be the same as I'm subscribed to! They know too much maaaaan! Hope you're doing OK man.

[@Chickentender77922]

I had a difficult time feeling anything positive about her. No, no, you're not beautiful. Being good looking has nothing to do with it. The fact that this woman has delivered 4 children into this world and continues to live like she does. I feel for those kids.

[@Th3Watch3r]

She's not completely a babbling idiot either. Seems like she would realize this.

[@islabee94]

Yeah there's definitely something wrong with her aside from the drugs. Highly manipulative and delusional and a very unrealistic portrayal of herself as this saintly figure even though she's clearly very low empathy. But she is beautiful, especially for a methhead (!!). I can only imagine how stunning she was before she became addicted to meth.

[@sierrachoco5271]

@@islabee94 She is pretty but when someone says "I'm good looking" you wonder what their real motive is!!

[@UziWitDaHighTops]

Total narcissist. The meth makes sense.

[@CB-of3zj]

Her demeanor may be a coping mechanism. I noticed she can’t really talk about her kids and changes the topic. We need to not judge. We don’t know what she is really thinking or feeling.

[@brittanykayla2060]

Kyle was my best friend for many years of my life. This was such a hard hard thing for me to watch. I know the things he’s been through from his family to the start of the nonsense. I always tried to be there for him. This breaks my heart. But I’ll always love him. He is a lost soul. But he was always one of the best people I’ve ever known. Just got caught up in the worst things. I wish things didn’t end up this way. I wish he was able to stay clean. This just breaks my heart 🥺😔❤️

[@angelafernandez9927]

Do you know how is doing now? He seems really humble and nice boy

[@brittanykayla2060]

@@angelafernandez9927 he’ll forever be my little brother.. I haven’t heard from him in a while. Between me changing my social media and him not having access to his sometimes and him changing his as well it’s been tough but he truly is a genuinely good hearted person. It’s so sad to see what’s happened over the years but he’s still in there somewhere

[@mamacita4860]

Big hug to you❤️

[@The_snatch_wrecker]

Was he clapping your cheeks in the past?

[@semiramismunoz8948]

First thing he has to stay away from that party animal, that woman

[@GiGi_to_3]

Mark, I love the couple interviews because it shows the co-dependence & toxicity that the programs tell addicts to avoid. I can understand why they don't want to be alone on the streets. Relationships are hard enough without addiction so I'm sure compounded with addiction the decision-making & judgement is terrible. I pray the children are being raised in great homes & do well ❤

[@maldust7438]

Very well said

[@pambeforethestorm9784]

Love this comment, you spoke absolute jewels here 💎❤

[@leneo1731]

It's true what you're saying. I believe some of the programs advice people to stay single for twelve months after they get clean. Many programs don't do couples because it can be very destructive and a huge distraction for the other residents. They often bring a lot of drama. Many addicts look at these rules and advice as some form of punishment. They won't go to rehab if they can't be together or they leave because they meet someone there and they and they'd rather leave than follow the rules. Many addict haven't had love when they grew up so that's what they want the most in this world. It's so sad.

[@stanislouse4168]

Don't count on it.

[@jonathansteadman7935]

Been there myself, and thought the same thing.

[@justmelissa7010]

Most loving person that used during her entire pregnancy. There is help EVERYWHERE for pregnant women on drugs.

[@5thdimension625]

Monique is extremely grandiose and has an over inflated and distorted sense of her beauty. Also, saying “I’m the most loving person I know” she misses the boat where 5 minutes later, she admits to being verbally abusive. And, she left her four sons. People who are attached to their children don’t have their children removed. They leave the lifestyle that impedes their responsibility to their children.

[@beebobox]

She can be verbally abusive and still the most loving person "she knows" thats sad if true. But might be like you said, a distortion of the truth.

[@user-yk9sk7pg6v]

@5th D - What do you mean? I think she is very physically beautiful. Especially since she doesn't spend nearly as much time/$ on her inner/outer health & beauty as I do, for example (with 'clean'/organic eating, exercise everyday, expensive facials, superfood supplements, gut health, emotional hygiene/sleep hygiene practices, safe & secure family/community relations, and so on).. She is much more physically attractive than I (or at least on par, depending on who's looking) and with hardly trying & without a fraction of the support, it seems. I cannot imagine what her physical beauty would be if she just tended to it even in the slightest.

[@luluinterrupted9213]

Amen to that! I would do any damn thing for my child. Anything. I would be miserable without her. No high in the world would make me choose drugs over her. I think addicts are lost and made bad decisions but can still change and get clean. But I have no respect for a woman who would put being on the streets for drugs over her own children. I'm sorry I just don't. Never will.

[@luluinterrupted9213]

@@user-yk9sk7pg6v she is more like good looking to the point where you can tell she used to be drop dead gorgeous. People that end up doing drugs and losing their good appearance they once had are still in the mind frame that they were beautiful. They don't realize how awful they look present day. Though she is attractive, I guarantee she is nowhere near as attractive as she was before she got on drugs. I had a very good friend of mine that was absolutely gorgeous but ended up getting on drugs and her appearance just wasted away but she still remembers and thinks in her head that she's just as beautiful as she was before. They do not realize how much their physical appearance has changed.

[@lilaworley8935]

I heard what you heard. She loves everyone.... except her children. Ugh

[@Whytrussian]

“I don’t steal from people, I would rather steal from store.. or corporations” 3 min later: “ I just got out of jail for residential burglary” lol 😂

[@jacksmith7726]

And Stealing from corporations still affects law abiding citizens the corps just pass the cost on to consumers.

[@theesweetscience2084]

Lol! He DID say that he would "RATHER" steal from companies. He did say he would do what he has to do.

[@bowlingbbabe]

@@theesweetscience2084 it isn't what he "has" to do

[@ItsFreshItsAnne]

@@bowlingbbabe Well that's pretty clear honestly. Lol

[@loridavis7442]

Drug addicts are just liars. They both contradicted themselves so many times.

[@jramy-w1f65]

She doesnt regret losing her kids or ruining their lives. This is the only time i didnt feel sorry for someone on this channel

[@leilawade2279]

I agree she just blase talks of her children are with family whatever.. .

[@jramy-w1f65]

@@leilawade2279 They're with her family and she says they have addiction issues. Hope they are ok

[@tywandaclark701]

I don't think she doesn't regret I really believe they are high during this interview. I think mentally to cope this is what she does, I also think she does this to keep him from spiraling even further. Until she gets clean, you won't hear her true story. He would like to get better I feel but it won't happen with her.

[@kitt3ncake445]

I think she is just so numb emotionally from drugs if she got clean it would be too much to handle

[@fkgabbana]

You can’t really say that about someone who is in full addiction. Being high, you don’t feel empathy. And you don’t care about anyone, even yourself. You just care about getting your drug.

[@cameraobscura2379]

The fact that Monique has deluded herself that she became a meth addict as a Florence Nightingale-like act to watch over Kyle is proof of how badly she needs to return to rehab and recovery work. The trauma inflicted on the children will echo in the kids' lives for decades.

[@jbirish2144]

The fact that she brushes off using while pregnant knowing the babies will have to go through withdrawal, perhaps a learning disorder at the least really got to me. I’ve been around addiction all my life, but this girl takes the cake. No intention of getting clean, let’s just be free and have fun.

[@michaelax3025]

Do you realize what type of channel this is, right?? Judgemental much?

[@cameraobscura2379]

@NY DEVIL Yes. She would be twacked out, paranoid, and possibly having auditory/visual hallucinations. That's not exactly a good state for a "caregiver." She could go to 7-11 and buy a coffee and an energy drink instead if that was the real reason, which it clearly wasn't. Just an excuse that sounds good to her.

[@cameraobscura2379]

@@michaelax3025 Not sure who you're replying to. I know exactly what type of channel this is. This is the comments section, not the "blow sunshine up people's asses" section. She needs to return to rehab. Anyone in recovery or professional in the field of addiction knows that. She did it once; she can do it again. Meanwhile, her kids suffer daily from not having a mother to love and guide them. Having an open and honest discussion about addiction is not being judgemental. What would you prefer, enabling?

[@jenniferkoopman9711]

@NY DEVIL I can tell you a more ridiculous excuse... my ex husband said he used meth so that he could connect with people on drugs and teach them God's word. He did meth to save lost souls!

[@Patishungry]

It is hard to feel bad for the woman. She seems really happy with what she’s doing and where she is.

[@joseph2832]

Based.

[@valariewillis6000]

And according to her...."it's really hard when you're Good Looking"

[@Herewearenowentertainus]

She “doesn’t have any regrets”, but she also states she “regrets listening to other people”. They both explicitly state they do not steal from people but it’s okay to steal from stores and companies… meanwhile he was just sprung from country for a residential burglary. They are both in the thick of it , unfortunately. They seem way to ignorant ( or arrogant & delusional) to acknowledge any accountability for making the choices they’ve made. They have managed to put their codependency on each other first and foremost, and that is going to make it exponentially harder for themselves to move forward in a positive direction. Idk. I’m not the judge nor jury, but I hope and pray for a miracle for them. I do not believe anyone deserves to live like this, even when they believe they are content have deluded themselves into thinking they’ve found happiness in each other.

[@frankievelez1542]

@@valariewillis6000 wEs

[@pattygravs6354]

@@valariewillis6000 she didn't want her little boyfriend to be alone on the streets, well what about her for kids?? She is a complete narcissist, and she's used to manipulating people to get what she wants and she thinks people feel sorry for her for her drug use. She is a complete loser.

[@Discovering_Nicole1]

I lost custody of my son for 1yr. I cried every single day I was apart from my son. I worried about him everyday. I have had him back for 6yrs and I still cry when I talk about it...

[@plokoon4]

Just found your channel recently and I wanted to say thank you for what you've been doing. These are the people that go unnoticed everyday and you have given them a chance to tell their stories. Beautiful work.

[@blueblissification]

To hear her say she doesn't feel ashamed for doing drugs during her whole pregnancy is disgusting and selfish...that hurt my heart immensely for those poor kids. When they see this I hope they are able to release her because she's not a mother.

[@iheartshaneandjeffree]

As a mother of an 8 year old and also being currently pregnant, I could not imagine. I felt guilty for having a soda the other day. Just wow

[@livesofluxuries]

You talking about an addict she’s actively addicted. She is not her own.

[@saleemasha1742]

@@livesofluxuries she needs to choose drugs or having kids can't go for both

[@trudieristich795]

@@saleemasha1742 unfortunately that's going to be the drugs already has been

[@yakesita2355]

She just admitted to having mental problems.

[@Monk-eee]

This couple reminds me of me and my x husband. We where homeless in Florida in 2016-18 and when we sobered up he felt like he was better then me and just left after I would stay awake all night making sure he stayed breathing!!! I don't trust anyone anymore! I was kidnapped and traded for 9 days that messed my head up so bad. I just want to love life again and I find it so hard my past sneaks into my thoughts everyday. When does it go away. These 2 and so many others on SWU are articulate, kind, friendly people for the shht they go threw. I love this show and hope that one day I find peace within myself as well as all addicts in and out of recovery. On 5-21 I will have 3 years sober!!! God willing ✌️💜😀🙏

[@sallyscott9172]

Hang in there! I'm praying for you!

[@jenkies89]

That is so unfortunate that you experienced something so horrific at such a young age😣. I think a lot of people who have been through similar situations can resonate with your ability to triumph through intense adversity. Sending you love and peace in your heart. Congrats on your sobriety ❤️

[@Forgiveiolord]

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[@ZootZinBootZ]

Thank you for putting your story out... I just identified with your thoughts on when the echo from the past will stop ringing that hurt. I don't know if it will help bit my hell-on-earth time of crisis finally got quite for me when I set goals and got new things that build up my mind to feel some pride. Nothing can change the hurt but your perspective can change to overview instead of feeling still 'in' the situations echo.

[@maplecookies2036]

Healing Hugs. Be proud of how far you've come. 🌹 Wishing you the best.

[@BlondieGirl2287]

"10 hours can go by and it feels like you haven't done anything." I'm not drug addicted but I relate to this so much.

[@Kaixo-Zemouz]

😂 story of my life

[@msdemeanour]

My life in lockdown, Australia

[@quietcell]

I told a therapist that once and it turned out that I have inattentive Adhd...

[@merricat3025]

Do you have DID?

[@josegomez-dy1xc]

Yes I can relate. It's a trip.

[@Noonesbusiness408]

It is amazing how much we can lie to ourselves. How our egos try so so hard to be a victim instead of taking responsibility. The perspective in your head can be so wrong and yet you can't see it at all. What even is reality? Watching how this woman talked about herself was very eye opening to me and made me wonder how much I play the victim or don't take responsibility - let my ego control me... wish them the best but it is very clear where they are headed. Especially with their mindset and thoughts.

[@rahrahrobbbieee]

Very well said.

[@wandarask8444]

So true . It had taken me year's to understand this. X

[@stanislouse4168]

They are the quintessential LOSERS.

[@GregK1247]

Accountability is something the world struggles with

[@biancagarcia603]

Study the effects of trauma and the talk about responsibility, it’s an excuse to not have empathy quite frankly.

[@sandramorrison2215]

Because of my husband and I using we had to give our last child up for adoption. It was open and private We met the couple.Thank God. I'm 60 now and I still Cry.I can't get over how she brags about this guy and missing him. Not only one but four children taken away. I never got over losing one.

[@okletstalk1372]

Give her time

[@MirandaLee312]

Factsss it seems as though it’s more sympathetic for the addicts rather than the children. It’s frustrates me to the core.

[@elleluxe]

They were CHILDREN once. Maybe she feels her children are better off without her 😔

[@sj9410]

Cuz she never bonded with them. She has a stronger bond with him and the drugs than her kids.

[@naelyneurkopfen9741]

@@elleluxe And then they grew up and destroyed 4 or 5 children. What's your point?

[@TotallyKayla]

This couple is just wow.... My husband and I have been in recovery for 7 years and living a "normal life" is absolutely possible. He and I lived in a tent for years and lost our children too.... But this girl almost seems proud of her life, this guy I can't tell if he's dope sick or high as a kite..... I think possibly dope sick... But jeez man... They are just breaking my heart....[ Watching this was so sad and I'm blessed my husband and I are where we are today.

[@Untamed2U]

Powerhouse Ministries Transformational Center for women and children

[@erickiyoshiphillips2323]

He ain't dopesick lol he nodding off.

[@TotallyKayla]

@@Untamed2U um... Okay? Not sure why you commented that under my comment. I don't need services. I'm sober. Have been for 5 years.

[@TotallyKayla]

@@erickiyoshiphillips2323 idk.... Either way he's making me sick to my stomach. People like these 2 are the reason every addict is looked at like the scum of the earth.

[@kenyaamina257]

U sound a little judgy...I would think you would be more compassionate.

[@6STRAWBERRY6MILKY6]

She reminds me of my mom. She dipped out on me when I was 4 for drugs and haven’t seen her since. I turned out to have substance abuse disorder too but am now sober without any kids hopefully breaking the cycle. I hope she gets the help she needs and chooses to be there for her kids. They need her.

[@justasub]

Congratulations on sobriety!! It's not easy but worth every minute!!

[@6STRAWBERRY6MILKY6]

@@justasub thank you 🥹 I commented this 7 months ago and am still goin strong. I appreciate you 😭

[@josegomez-dy1xc]

I'm so sorry. God bless

[@ericjones2659]

For being a drug addict for almost 30 years I was in several relationships that NEVER had a good ending. Been clean now for almost 11 years and can say my relationships now are pure and real. I pray that this couple gets it together one day.🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

[@k_xxo]

Good for you! Glad to hear your doing better 👏🏻

[@SeekTruth28]

I'm glad that you got clean bro.

[@skyangelthefan]

Greatful that you have been clean. Sending you my positivity to keep on staying clean and on a happier path in your life.

[@egyjuice]

Eric Jones... how did you manage

[@ericjones2659]

@@k_xxo thank you I appreciate you.

[@JustJenRx]

Man, looking at them is like looking in my rear view mirror. Started drinking foam off my grandpa’s beer at age 4, drinking and smoking 🚬 at age 10. Weed when I was 12, shrooms and acid at 13. Coke at 16 with my bio dad. Pills galore from 19-26. Then heroin at 26-34. Prison from 34-37. Been sober since 11/1/14 and I’ll never look back. How did I go to prison, bc I called a dope boy who’s phone was tapped. Me and 92 other people were indicted on a drug sweep, oddly enough the task force dubbed it “operation clean sweep” Cleveland’s largest indictment. I got fentanyl one time….That was 11/1/14. It nearly killed me. That was my 6th nearly fatal OD. I firmly believe I’m on this earth for a reason now. To share this. Now I have a badass KZbin channel, and I’m the mom my 2 boys have always deserved. It is possible to get clean. If these two want to have any success getting sober….they must separate and go to treatment on their own. If she wants them kids back, she can go get clean. They just need to want to do it. Unfortunately, couples whom are afflicted with addiction, are less likely to achieve long-term sobriety. I wish them the best. I always tell people if I did it, anyone can. You just gotta want it more than you want them drugs.

[@rentrann]

Same (as far as looking in rear view mirror) Congrats on your sobriety! You’ve got two years on me. 10/21/2016 ***we do recover***

[@Sayre777]

You’re so awesome. I’m proud of you. You’ve been through so much

[@RockstahRolln]

What a testimony! Thank you for sharing and it is amazing to acknowledge your life being saved. I hope you are a blessing to others going down this path and wish you the very best in your channel!

[@hollowjew9629]

RESPECT

[@rafaelah3521]

Congratulations…you are an inspiration. And you are very beautiful. Never look back, please!

[@rossm8231]

“Rock star lifestyle without the money.” This has to be the single biggest denial of a situation I’ve seen on this channel yet by a subject.

[@mysticmama740]

I thought it was pretty accurate! Many stars get high all day but it doesnt look like this bc theyre poor. Even with money the person undernwath is often not happy and has mental health issues as monique highlights

[@myeyeswentdeaf6213]

Nah I agree with that statement. Rock stars get just as high just as often, except they have the money to do it in a mansion. Most rich n famous addicts would be just like this if u took the money n fame away.

[@cartierwhite_lasvegas]

I understand what she is saying,

[@andy420bb]

Rockstar lifestyle without the money, fame, recognition, talent, etc. So no not really the same

[@micheledaly5823]

Right. Rock stars don't sleep in tents. They travel eat well and are paid well. The total opposite of her existence. I have never seen a worse case of denial as with her. Her perception of herself her lifestyle and her relationship with her children are so far from reality and the truth. The worse part is she takes 0 accountability for her life and choices.

[@victoriamartinez972]

She’s is extremely aware of the realities in her life (her kids getting taken, her messing him over etc) yet she is showing extreme signs of being a manipulative narcissistic female in this duo. She’s content with how she’s living and has an excuse for every aspect of her choices and her life. Sad. My mother was the same way. Clinging to a man and her drug of choice, and having an excuse for pushing the kids to the back burner. He is more self aware and takes more accountability than she does. Sad smh

[@somethinggood9267]

I don't know if she actually has NPD but I was thinking exactly the same thing. Maybe the drugs have made her extremely narcissistic, but she shows a huge lack of empathy for the harm that her choices have made.

[@waybackboyz1483]

Wants to help the youth But not her oWn kids 😂😆

[@junemarshall-kingsley566]

And it's always someone else's fault because she was "too nice" and trusted them because of her big heart.

[@John_Connor556]

Indeed.

[@khalilahd.]

It’s so heartbreaking to see people get introduced and addicted to drugs at such a young age 🥺

[@thechurch5000]

I started doing hard drugs when I was 15. I quit everything when I turned 21 because of Narcotics Anonymous and the help of friends. I'm going to be 54 this year.

[@MistyCunard]

I’m sitting here drinking coffee and thinking the exact same thing. My parents had very little monetarily but we were loved, valued and treated well every day.

[@Forgiveiolord]

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[@cjsomething4995]

Ya. It's better when they start at like 70. Spend that retirement savings and go out with a bang I guess. Lol

[@ayana188]

@@cjsomething4995 your making light of a horrible thing but at least experimenting/ doing drugs as an older adult you don’t drag your family down emotionally and financially opposed to when your a dirty draws don’t like showers teen/ young adult.

[@hannahaustin272]

Kyle seems to be genuinely regretful and unhappy with his lifestyle choices, while Monique seems like she's glamorizing her situation. It's really sad. I wish the best for both of them.

[@junemarshall-kingsley566]

Her words at the end about "quality vs. quantity" were like a parrot repeating something they heard from somewhere. It brings home the fact that it's really people's behavior that matters, not what they say. Anyone can look good in an interview, a job application, or a date. It's how they behave that counts and that is not what we get to see here. In many of these interviews the people come across as fabulous people who have had it rough and are misunderstood. However, as Mark pointed out in an interview he gave on his own perspective, it's the people who really want to change and take responsibility for their actions that get out of the downward plunge. Calling this lifestyle like being a Rock Star without the money shows a resistance to changing the degradation and ill health that comes from living in the streets.

[@Amy-ky4bc]

She lost her kids and she's not ashamed.. :(

[@Forgiveiolord]

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[@a.marvellehoneyman4560]

She’s very high!! That’s likely why.

[@datboyayayron]

@@a.marvellehoneyman4560 my mom was not high in this video she was sober I can tell when my mom is high and when she is not high my mom isn’t the person y’all think she is

[@a.marvellehoneyman4560]

@@datboyayayron thank you for letting me know, I’m sorry to judge.

[@aaliyahcollins2803]

He’s a parent too…..

[@janises.160]

When they were asked about their regrets, i appreciated the fact that he went back to the time he relapsed when his first child was a baby and said he wished he could’ve said no. She on the other hand is talking about how she wish she wouldn’t have listened to someone when they told her that he was cheating and that made her get high and nearly die while pregnant. I’m sure she has some sort of remorse for losing 4 children, but it would’ve been nice to hear that. This is the internet and her children may see this video some day so I’m sure that would make a difference like “maybe she did care and she really did try hard” Hope they can fight their demons, but they have to want the help and i don’t think they are there yet.

[@semiramismunoz8948]

She is damage horrible, I will not try to help this girl with a Halo

[@Tammy-jl2io]

My sibling and I were in the Foster Care system due to neglect from parents who's priorities were partying before parenting. It had much effect on my brother and I for years. I have ZERO empathy for anyone who continues to have children and continue their selfish drugs use / abuse. Especially when they have the tools offered to sober up and straighten up! Better to be above the influence than under it!

[@semiramismunoz8948]

Same here

[@ml5301]

All I can say is I hope all the children that came from these two grow up in a home full of love.

[@datboyayayron]

Hey I just wanted to reply this is Monique’s son her oldest we are doing fine and my mother isn’t the person U think she is she was a great mother for 13 years by herself my dad doesn’t even make a effort to call me but my mom still calls me and comes to see me even if she is high,homeless,beat up anything Monique’s Gordon is my mother and I have no shame to say that yes my mom is an addict and I love her with all my heart

[@isabellaestrella3028]

@@datboyayayron i’m sending you so so so much love💜💜💜 feel free to reach out to me if you ever want to talk or need anything💜💜

[@3amigos919]

@@datboyayayron I hope you are doing well 😊

[@ruthymorales7208]

@@datboyayayronlet me just say, you are such a great and a,amazing child! The fact that you can still see your mother and be so insightful to the fact that she is NOT her addiction, says so much about you! I was an addict for 7 years, and my children weren’t ashamed of me, I always came around even when I was sick and falling apart, and bc my kids never gave their backs to me, served as a motivation to get clean. I am happy to say I’m 5 years clean, and have both my children, and I am very happy that you are well. You’re 100% right, you can’t judge a person by 1 interview, no one knows your mother like you as her son, so I truly hope that one day she can return to being what she was when she wasn’t in the clutches of addiction. I wish you nothing the best as a mother myself. Don’t know if you’ll ever read this, but you and your family will be in my prayers.

[@aura3337]

I really hope she doesn’t have anymore children. We’re all different, and we view life differently. I’ve never walked a day in her shoes, but I found it incredibly strange that she didn’t even shed a tear when talking about all four children being taken away. And the fact that she says she’s so caring and loving, and wants to help everyone…… yet, she doesn’t seem to care or want to help her OWN children. But then again, we don’t truly know them and what really goes on in their heads. AND as we all know, extended drug use can totally distort a person’s thoughts and ideas.

[@tisha9970]

You described a sociopath

[@kenyaamina257]

Wow you are judging and making assumptions. This woman is in pain, you can't possibly expect her to present in a way where your little self would be comfortable. I hope when she reads these comments, she magically skips yours. Your a trigger for her and I can't imagine after reading your comment she would consider not using for that day.

[@tylergardner7667]

I hate to see people get so broken from drug abuse. These people are so beautiful and have so much potential. Sending them both love and strength to persevere, thank you both for sharing. I would have liked to hear Kyle talk more for sure, I noticed her cutting him off a lot. I’m sure without realizing but hearing his perspective was more interesting to hear.

[@annvidovic5270]

Their story helps me see how strong addiction is. They don’t emphasize the pain caused by separation from their children and that stuns me. Addiction makes drugs more important than caring for one’s children, wow. My heart aches for them because I don’t want them to be addicts.

[@rungeon83]

Ann there is studies that prove opiates surpress that part of the brain, that mothers at the time can go without caring about losing a child, but when they come of that drug that part of the brain is not surpressed and the guilt is to much so they relaspe. It's a very interesting topic.

[@susiesmith406]

So true. It's how the cycle of addiction continues.

[@Anne_Onymous]

It can definitely become a vicious, counter-intuitive cycle. Most assume if using is hurting you, then you'd stop using; but it can be the opposite since the drugs help you cope. You're hurt, so you use to escape the pain... Which in turn hurts your loved ones and you, so you use to escape that.... Which hurts your loved ones and you more, so then you use to escape that.... Which hurts your loved ones and you even worse, so you use to escape that.... And so on. The deeper you go, the harder it is to get clean because it's more to have to face. Very hard hole to climb out of (and definitely not one you're getting out of while in a toxic codependent relationship with another addict).

[@Anne_Onymous]

@@susiesmith406 Read this after replying about the cycle lol. I feel like a lot of people still don't understand it unfortunately.

[@livesofluxuries]

Yea they are not themselves

[@coweenuh453]

These couple interviews hit me in the feels. I had an extremely codependent relationship with my sons father while we were using meth. It’s been over six years now and thankfully we’re clean, and ended up staying together. I always wonder what we looked like from an outside point of view.

[@SeekTruth28]

Congratulations on staying clean!

[@coweenuh453]

@@SeekTruth28 thanks! It’s been the best six years of my life and I couldn’t imagine it any other way.

[@chadg6874]

God bless and continue to heal your family!

[@chadg6874]

God bless and continue to heal your family!

[@SexMusicPlants]

❤

[@Lisa7gee]

I was Monique from age of 13 up to when she went to rehab. I sobered up by myself and thank god I never lost my kids. But I see how easy it is. I too met a man and led me to the most drug use I ever done in my life but unlike her I left and never looked back.

[@mommyof3_908]

She's got an answer and an excuse for EVERYTHING. He seems a lot more tired and ready to get clean than she does. She is still glamorizing the lifestyle. It's time to grow up sweetie. Your kids need you. And the way she was smirking when he spoke about his relapse! Yeah. He's gotta get away from this one.

[@judithnicholais1492]

NO those kids do not need her --- I shouldn't judge --- she doesn't see them now so maybe that's for the best.

[@singerpour6946]

“I’d rather steal from a store than from a person“ “ I went to jail for 4 months for residential burglary”

[@incantationsbykaryn]

I caught that too. You always know an addict is lying when there mouth is moving...

[@phatheffer3439]

You have to have a good memory if you want to be a successful liar. Her memory is not so good! 🤦🏻‍♂️

[@Forgiveiolord]

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[@rober657]

Stores were probably closed

[@Retics]

Right! They both lying! That's what drug addicts do.

[@sonderevokingbuns]

All the people claiming this woman needs to get away from this man: She met him in rehab. Why? Because she was a raging alcoholic who blew coke and ate xanax. I doubt it was her decision to go to rehab, too. Probably court ordered. She already had 3 of her children taken out of her custody because of her drug addiction. Stop trying to find excuses for this person, she fucked her life up all by herself.

[@phatheffer3439]

At least stop blaming it on the man.

[@Forgiveiolord]

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[@cameraobscura2379]

They need to get away from each other (goes both ways) to get clean. In addition to their substance abuse, they are also co-dependent.

[@NittyGritty420]

I don’t see anyone saying that in the comments?

[@wroger6746]

Facts! It’s time to hold women accountable for their actions. These are grown adults.

[@shannoncross4825]

The saddest thing I heard from this video was her saying she hast to stay awake to make sure he’s breathing, putting so much ““ effort to help him“ but won’t do that for her own flesh and blood

[@moons4363]

Agree

[@meco4068]

It's called codependency - look it up!

[@stacitowery3475]

Ha, her doing meth was hardly altruistic 🤣

[@lowellparker216]

Thoroughly enjoy your passion for exposing the subtleties to the worlds within the world. If I’m being honest, your channel keeps me grounded where I am in my life today. I don’t and can’t judge anyone on your channel, recommend viewers hold that back until you experience the darkest days you thought would never grace your eyes.

[@michelesoares6016]

She enjoys this lifestyle. It seems to me he wants to stop more then she does. She regrets listening to people but not loosing her children. No responsibility for her actions. She has such a big heart but doesn't seem to think about her children.

[@clairemagenta5720]

I think maybe it’s because she feels like they may be better off without them but doesn’t necessarily want to be alone. I’m glad her kids were taken and not living on the street while they’re high. Too many kids get trafficked because of parent like this that will sell them for a quick high.

[@Itshistory_itspoetry]

She’s on meth lol. she’s not grandiose, she’s high on meth, talking a lot bc of it and codependent. That’s it. Boy is nodding out, given up and uncomfortably numb. They are just in completely opposite worlds… I like both of them and can relate. When you’re in active addiction like that you have no idea how to do life … you don’t think you can. Your worth gets so low, you don’t even think you’ll be able to do things like pay the bills. You don’t trust your mind.. I can so relate to that. The fear of living is a self worth curse…. Kyle, your minds deceiving you. You’d absolutely be able to do life, know how to pay bills, the best thing you can do though is learn how to function by yourself not in a romantic codependent relationship. You need friends you need to be around ppl, you need practice, you need patience. You need one day. And grounding yourself to life in that one sober day and play life like a game. Start from scratch and figure out wtf your interests and hobbies are. Sign up for a rec softball/baseball league. Ask for help, and start somewhere and remind yourself your human and aloud to make mistakes … errors and failing make character. Don’t let it define your whole identity. It’s easy to see the potential In you both.

[@gjallarnews140]

I think a big factor keeping Monique addicted is the blaming of everyone else for her life. I'm sure she had a shitty childhood but she's putting this up as a shield from (self-)criticism. That way she doesn't have to feel guilty but it takes away her agency over her life.

[@carmagurl317]

This is great advice for anyone on how to do life.

[@1428monsterdrink]

Great comment. All the comments judging and putting them down even more. They will not get better unless they are ready to

[@a.marvellehoneyman4560]

Well said!

[@adiat3002]

Thank you!! I saw the comments and thought the same thing. The audience of swu sees an addict who’s in a bad mood humble sad crying and love them but god forbid they aren’t sobbing and even worse… think that they’re attractive 🤣 suddenly they’re hopeless

[@wandarask8444]

Kyle, I hope you watch this episode of yourself to realise the guy your looking at is you, Have a good look to really to understand you deserve so much more and believe it. Your good looking guy, smart speak well, and caring I bet Kyle, you would tell your children how special they are and you know it's true the same goes for you. There are many people who would guide you, it's yours to have don't be afraid to have people who would really stand by your side. Take care Love Australia x

[@KimbradleyMasterGardener]

Well stated. Nashville Tennessee USA 🇺🇸 ♥

[@junkieelovee]

what are you talking about he's smart and speaks well lmaooo he's barely talking and when he does he's mumbling

[@sophieengland5823]

Take care Kyle, East Midlands, UK 🇬🇧

[@keelaleath4037]

When she said her greatest fear is finding him dead and not the prospect of never getting back to her own children was wild to hear as a mother.

[@JC-vt1lg]

I was thinking the same thing and wanted to see if any one else felt same.

[@funkiergoose4262]

Same

[@mellownessuperstar2618]

I agree. Blows my mind.

[@merricat3025]

I don't think she's connected to their children . She has no bond with them

[@shupingwang3392]

She has no bond whatsoever with her children. She did say the same of her mother.

[@pc.3543]

Shes annoying. Shes still in the “this is a party, and fun, and freeing” phase. She doesnt give a shit about her kids. And doesnt feel ashamed. She shouldn’t feel ashamed. That feeling doesnt belong in drug addiction. But she should feel urgency and responsibility and compassion at least for her kids. Maybe its the drugs. But you aren’t a child anymore monique. You make big adult decisions and have 4 babies. You are selfish and need to wake up. One thing is to be an addict the other is to think everything is perfectly fine with your horrible choices. Kyle is deep down the rabbit hole but monique seems likes shes still going down it happily and welcomingly. Its bad because her enthusiasm to this lifestyle isnt going to help either of them.

[@gonagetcha8102]

She believed what someone told her about Kyle and actually OD over it....but she didn't cheat while he was in jail. Although EVIL THINKS EVIL??? NAH ....YEAH??? SOMEBODY PLEASE HELP ME HERE??

[@lilaworley8935]

PLEASE stop having children and putting them through this terrible cycle. Stop having children!! You're sending them into the flames that burned you. "Family dysfunction rolls down from generation to generation like a fire in the woods, taking down everything in its path until one person in one generation has the courage to turn and face the flames. That person brings peace to their ancestors and spares the children that follow." T Real

[@cami5173]

The people that need to stop having kids will never be the ones to realize it.

[@k_xxo]

Agreed. Also using the entire time she was pregnant. 🤦🏻‍♀️😫

[@lilaworley8935]

@@k_xxo and regrets nothing.... Ugh. I feel horrible for their children.

[@thedeerslayer3247]

It's not all her fault guys... She is purdy cute & am sure guys have bn taking advantage of her for quite some time... Just saying...

[@Forgiveiolord]

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[@JazzyJazz7724]

This is the first time I’ve seen Mark interview a drug addicted woman who DID NOT cry when speaking about her children. Kyle would be better off without her. Edit: Cry or show any emotion whatsoever.

[@ashleyreyna9100]

I thought the same thing, she’s codependent and manipulative. He would be better off alone

[@Triplejayz6118]

Yes I agree. I can’t speak for them and say exactly what they are going through but It sounds like in order to be relevant in his life she needs to use drugs like him. He’s been an addict way before her and once she met him she decided to use. Instead she should of helped him Change his addiction if she wanted to stay in his life . I think they can definitely still change but I feel like it has to start with her It sounds like she’s only around bc” she scared of leaving him alone to die” almost like she chooses this life vs him ,he’s been doing it very long it’s his life . but it’s worse to continuously keep using bc eventually it will lead to death.

[@JazzyJazz7724]

@@Triplejayz6118 They met in rehab. She was an addict before they met. In my opinion, she's full of excuses. "I started doing Meth because I needed to stay up to watch him". I feel like she's proud of that, like it was some sort of sacrifice. How about making some sacrifices for her children???? She smoked meth throughout her entire pregnancy of her 1 year old! I can't imagine the withdrawals that little baby has suffered. I have sympathy for drug addicts but she is a crappy mother. PERIOD.

[@JazzyJazz7724]

@@ashleyreyna9100 I believe he can successfully complete rehab and stay clean without her in his life. He seems to not want to do Fentanyl anymore. She seems like she enjoys smoking Meth or as she says it "love to party".

[@ashleyreyna9100]

@@JazzyJazz7724 I feel the same way!

[@Kyle-vt1cs]

hey just want to thank you for your time and the opportunity to share a little bit of my life

[@ashleeyyy6421]

You seem like a sweet and talented person hun. Im a recovering addict so a lot of what you said have been things I’ve also thought, but getting clean is always a possibility don’t give up! When you get sober and have had some time to recover I would love to get tatted by you. sending love.

[@816DawG]

The way so many people use the word 'stuck' has really helped me respect myself a little more because as a child of 2 addicts it was hard to know anything else growing up. Looking back now it can be hard to accept the 'escape' of it too. i.e I have a beautiful wife and 2 healthy kids, but I have days where I feel stuck back in the home of my parents; despite being 14 hours away from them now, and on a 'wish them well' mindset because addiction truly is not a choice once your in it.

[@lilred3688]

I love the way you weren't disrespectful of them. You can tell you are a strong person coming out of your own situation on the top side. You easily could have had an "excuse" to go down the wrong path. Respect to you and your beautiful family. It takes a lot to over come such adversity.

[@capnfuzzybutt]

💛

[@NicoleS16]

She’s full of excuses. A professional victim. No accountability. Hopefully she makes it out alive. He on the other hand seems very defeated and just needs the right people and he would probably give recovery a chance. Praying for them

[@meco4068]

LOL

[@larry6400]

I wish all the self righteous people that are sOoo quick to judge in this comment section actually took the time to understand, to the core, the challenges that these people are facing. Drug addiction is a disease - the most sophisticated research in neurology & psychology conclusively backs this up. The deeper layers of it(drug addiction), which is the question of what actually leads people towards such a disease knowing the absolute detriment upon one’s existence it has - points to childhood trauma, which the response to is linked to one’s temperament and tolerance which links to genetics amongst other things. It’s a complex issue through and through. All these self righteous fucks out here judging these people thinking that they are somewhat better - I hope i don’t see you in hell with me. Where is the love, the compassion, the empathy ??? why speak if you’re not trying to help. All this virtue signalling, pseudo morality talk makes me wanna vomit. I have friends and brothers that are hard drugs addicts - and it’s been exactly these kinds of people who have repeatedly gotten in the way of us helping and in some cases just simply exacerbated the problems. And this 🖕is what I have for ya’ll !!!

[@VanaGrace]

Well she also admitted to her being on uppers and him being on downers soooo it makes sense 🤷🏽‍♀️

[@overcomingobstacles8675]

Monique I’m a recovering addict, I’m not conceded, but I am pretty like yourself. Sex work is called a “ yet”, especially when you are on the street, there’s going to come a time that you will make that choice to get into a car for 10 mins for 200 bucks. But the awesome thing about having “ yets”, is you can keep them “ yets” if you get off the street now, get clean, go to a program. Mama, I’m telling you, I’m 33, been to 24 programs, black listed ( kicked out) out of majority of them. Jail, 6 times, lost my son, ended up making fast cash for dope. You can stop this all by making 1 choice… granted it will be the hardest choice you will ever have to make, but you can make it. You are strong, intelligent and beautiful. I hope you read this and turn your life around. 💗

[@heatherdaniels7118]

This is so true. Clean 10 years and 4 months... I have some yets still and oh my gosh I'm so happy. You hit the nail on the head. I'll keep my yets and stay clean one day at a time.

[@mashobane9982]

Mark your work is incredible to give a voice to the voiceless and rehumanise the dehumanised. You challenge our beliefs and treat your subjects with so much respect

[@wren.ch.]

Word. Awesome

[@WelcomeToThe92503]

I hate to judge...especially cus I'm a 15+ year addict who put a people handful of people thru hell because of my drug use...(BUT I ALSO DID GET IT TOGETHER ..exactly one year ago to date with a MAT PROGRAM and suboxone) But its AMAZING the NUMBER OF REASONS addicts use to try and justify their use Especially the woman. Whats scary about her ...is she still hasnt hit her rock bottom. As she said it herself...she isnt embarrassed by her addiction. And she laughs and smiles about her situation as if what they're going thru are typical relationship problems.. and that THEY ARENT REALLY AT ROCK BOTTOM YET. Youd think having had given birth to 5 children already and having them all be taken from you... youd have a level of maturity and insight that most ppl dont but as I continue to listen to the interview it seems like shes happy her kids aren't with her .. and that she wants to "live her youth" and she seems to think what shes doing right now Is her "living her youth" as she doesn't seem conflicted at all by what shes doing and how shes living Only worried about Who SHES MEETING... and who's gonna help her and who isnt . Like I'm sorry but she seeks like she HAS PETER PAN SYNDROME.. and Carries herself like a teenager as she keeps referring to what shes doing as "fun" and a "rock and roll lifestyle " etc. The dude seems to be living in reality But THE WOMAN seems to be the ONE LIVING IN LALA LAND. Like imagine having to watch your mother on this interview. .almost boasting about THE LIFE SHE CHOSE over you with little to no remorse Idk AM I TRIPPIN? It seriously seems to me that she isnt really conflicted with her life at the moment.. and that shes choosing to embrace it.. maybe I'm missing something Whatever the case. .I truly hope she gets it together. And if shes reading this.. *NOTHING ABOUT WHAT YOURE DOING IS ROCK AND ROLL OR COOL.. YOU WILL DIE AT SOME POINT* and I know I'm not the first person to tell you that and surely wont be the last But I guess the hope Is.. that because you chose to open your life to all of US. WE CAN ALL COLLECTIVELY TELL YOU. .. you arent glamorous . No one is EVER GOING TO GIVE YOU THE ATTENTION AND CARE YOU WANT FOR BEING A NICE PERSON AND HAVING A BIG HEART IF YOU REALLY LOVE YOURSELF. . you WILL GIVE A WAY AT GETTING SOBER A CHANCE TRY A MAT PROGRAM AND GET ON SUBOXONE. AND YOUR CAN ALSO BENEFIT FROM IT TOO. It worked for me and countless others who never thought wed get off the hard drugs ALSO USE THIS AS AN OPPORTUNITY TO WAKE UP .. and LISTEN TO EVERYONE IN THE COMMENTS...and TAKE ALL THE CRITICISM TO HEART. Cus that's how serious IT IS. You will DIE YOU WILL LEAVE ALL OF YOUR CHILDREN AND THIS WORLD..AS A HOMELESS PERSON NOT A ROCKSTAR OR EMPATH.. OR SOMEONE WHO HELPS THE HOMELESS ETC. YOU WILL DIE A HOMELESS ADDICTED MOTHER OF 5 . AND NO ONE YOUR WITH OR THATS HOMELESS WITH YOU...WILL CARE OR BAT AN EYE PERIOD POINT BLANK. END OF STORY . Case closed. try and get on a suboxone PROGRAM Asap and give REAL LIFE A CHANCE

[@rodriguezccg]

Took the words right out of my mouth!

[@1428monsterdrink]

I watched my mother stay addicted for 12+ years. She stayed away because she was so ashamed and full of guilt and when we did see her it was full of broken promises and "im sorrys" She eventually got clean ONLY when she was ready to. The woman in this video doesnt see the problem and is sugar coating her life style and is full of excuses. She will seek help when she is ready

[@inked6880]

Love your comment and congratulations to you in staying clean. I do hope they read the comment section also. Want to add that this is what a Co dependant and toxic relationship looks like. The two of them are on completely different pages even in their DOC. The woman has no insight whatsoever whereas the guy appears to . He has remorse or guilt about his kids where she expresses none. She is party mode and he is just maintaining his habit. He seems near ready for change, however staying with her will probably be the death of him. Enabling him is not a healthy kind of love. Making sure each other doesn't die means encouraging each other to try to get sober and taking the steps to do so. Addiction sux, I hope they get out of that shit hole.

[@pambeforethestorm9784]

Beautifully said 💯❤ and Congrats on your sober journey, keep up the great work, life is a beautiful thing if we give it a chance

[@clipaqua8848]

"im an empath!" -the worst person you've ever met. (viral tweet)

[@elsieANNxo]

she showed no accountability, she’s homeless because she didn’t want Kyle alone, she uses meth because she has to stay awake to watch Kyle. if those things are true and she’s willing to do ANYTHING for Kyle, why not do it for those four babies? because it’s not true. she is an addict whose poor behavior and drug use is what drives those actions. not Kyle. also- being an addict does NOT mean you are not responsible for your actions. i am also an addict with 7 year old son who i by the grace of God i have a good relationship with, who i raise and who i am now a good mother to. only through honesty and accountability can we achieve those things.

[@pearltoomer6392]

THE THING IS HER BABIES IS BETTER OFF NOT BEING WITH HER, RIGHT NOW, PLUS SHE ON METH THAT DRUG DESTORY THEIRS BRAIN CELLS, SHE REALLY CANNOT THINK, PLUS THEY ARE USING TIS DRUG TOGETHER JUST WONDER WHERE THE FATHER OF HER KIDS AT, THEY SHOULD TAKE THEIRS OWN CHILDREN AND CARE FOR THEM SHE NOT THE ONLY PARENT.

[@christopherstockman3635]

@@pearltoomer6392 no one ever said she should have her babies with her ofc she shouldn’t she’s a fucking grandiose junkie. This person was saying she try’s and blame other people for her actions when she could use her babies as motivation to get sober. But she’s not gonna do that bc she’s a junkie and just cares for herself. Calm tf down

[@irinakay151]

She's codependent that's also a disease, just the way she's addicted drugs she is also addicted to this person.

[@medicine2202]

This is almost clear as day that she is narscistically abusing him. She speaks for him and he literally sits in the shadow. If you look close enough it appears like Kyle is in Moniques shadow. Kyle isn't necessarily a victim but she's clearly abusive. This is good documentation of toxic and abusive relationships.

[@jacquelinefitzpatrick2405]

I saw the same amd agree with you.

[@silvershadow7655]

Yep - she keeps praising herself and subtly putting him down.

[@bobshenix]

@@silvershadow7655 She is selfish and delusional and he is just uber depressed.

[@islabee94]

@@bobshenix yeah this is the one.

[@kristenmarielle3497]

Yessss

[@Julia-sj9rz]

She seems so happy and content like its some huge party and he seems sad and miserable like he wants out but he doesn’t think he ever could. So toxic for each other! Heartbreaking!

[@rachelw821]

“ I want help everyone- the homeless and the youth” Girl you can’t even help yourself. Why not just start there?

[@msamazinggrace1918]

When the drugs steal her beauty and mind, then what? Reality over ignorance is a better choice, until you get their your lying to yourself.

[@viviane_casella]

She describes disfuncional dynamics as fun: "my family was chaotic, fun" "we did drugs, which doesn't make it better, but it's fun". Lady, the word your are looking for is not "fun" but "depressing".

[@jojobee42]

I paid attention to that too. Also when she said she's not ashamed of her drug use - even though it's what made her lose her kids too...

[@SwissCheese112]

no not depressing, pure selfishness

[@kickimeijer5271]

I guess we should listen to what she tells us, not what we want her to tell us.

[@Smileyson58]

I really can’t feel anything for someone that doesn’t give up drugs for a few months while they are pregnant.

[@meco4068]

She should have flown to France and found a beautiful rehab in the countryside where she could really focus on healing and self care before bring a beautiful soul into this world!

[@christolenepayne2089]

It's called "addiction" for a reason.

[@Mulatika_]

@nadia I agree with YOU

[@cyndihunter6022]

This lady's mentality reminds me exactly of my mom and aunt.... My aunt lost all 4 of her children and my mom lost all 3. They both did drugs during their pregnancies and continuously chose drugs/men over their children until the day that they each died (both at the age of 45, in 2008 and 2015). She obviously can't even fathom (and doesn't care) what this is doing to her children, they will battle everything she has created within them the rest of their lives. Once they go on to have their own children, they will wonder how their mother could have ever possibly chosen drugs and abandoned them. They will see their own children, how much they love them, how much they would do anything to protect them and care for them above everything else and it will make them resent the whole situation even more than they did when they were a child going through it because they know they could NEVER do it to their own children, that they could NEVER choose ANYTHING over them, let alone a fleeting moment of pleasure that the drug (or insert any other addiction here) provides. It's sad and makes me sick, I feel so bad for her children and wish THEM nothing but the best. But for her, whatever happens, happens.... She is an adult and making her own choices and one day she will face the consequences. I do not see her getting sober or getting help, she's obviously too self centered to do anything other than pursue her own interests and desires. Maybe I'm wrong, though? Hopefully, one day I will see an update on them that proves me wrong. (And I only speak of her, not him, because if5 how she speaks about this whole situation and comes across. He seems depressed and out of it and just along for the ride, chasing a past happiness. I saw the comment from the first girlfriend, and the lady here looks like an exact copy that is addicted to drugs. And also since dad's leave all the time, but when you're MOM can leave so she can party and have drugs it really hits the heart hard 💔)

[@maryreid3387]

Awesome comment- my thoughts nearly exact. Thank you.

[@laceyelizabeth816]

Her cheating on him while he was locked up really got to him. He said she had other options but she didn't take them. I wonder what those options were 🤔. Another great interview Mark ❤

[@mysticmama740]

Me too, i wonder. I cant imagine any good ons?!

[@laceyelizabeth816]

@@mysticmama740 well she is from Cali so maybe there is a family member she could stay with if she got sober. She claimed she keeps getting high with him in the streets because she wants to stay awake and look after him but that's obviously not the only reason.

[@miked9466]

It would get to me too. I was lucky my wife had a friends that helped her out every time I got locked up. We have 16 yrs clean now.

[@laceyelizabeth816]

@@miked9466 congratulations on your sobriety!

[@veenessa2540]

Honestly I don't think she's good for him I think she's the one holding him back from trying to change get clean she's so full of s*** I can see through her

[@TSR228]

No accountability taken. Everything was someone else’s fault. 😞

[@jtelectric9905]

She justifies every wrong decision she's made. Every time she points her finger to blame her life on something, she needs to look at her hand and see 3 fingers pointing back at her. Kyle is a true addict and seems like he truly wants to beat his situation. He is so deep into the drugs it will be a huge battle to ever get clean. Really a shame to see these two young people with such potential just completely self destruct

[@sarashady4205]

I know him from back home in Massachusetts. Every word he says about latching onto the wrong crowd for acceptance is very much true. He's a lost soul but you can tell he's not comfortable in his situation or being with her. I pray he beats this and comes home to his mother

[@KimbradleyMasterGardener]

@@sarashady4205 me too. Hope he makes it home!

[@gisselmontero2304]

She's full of shit.... jst making excuses

[@t.c.5456]

Exactly

[@KomoyaK]

She’s justifying it because she wants to protect him and save him 🥲 it’s trash. He’s just letting her.

[@sues3728]

Thank you to the family & mother of his child commenting .. really appreciated ❤🙏🏻

[@priscilla7525]

I kept waiting for her to say her biggest regret was losing all her babies…very sad that this woman is in either total denial and or psychosis or just really doesn’t give a shot about her kids…

[@Jay42000]

Yet, her son is under the comments taking up for the b-word. 🙄

[@merricat3025]

@Jay Yeah, I think her son, who really does love his mother, is in denial of how much havoc she's caused his life. It's sad. I hope the best for him. I hope the people who care for him give him love, support, and structure she doesn't choose to or know how

[@stixxnstonerz3450]

I watch these videos to better understand addicts because I have siblings that are addicted. But truthfully, sometimes it makes me angry to see ppl keep making mistakes then blaming others for it. Especially, bringing children into this world when they can’t take care of them. But continues to keep making babies then making it others responsibility to give it a better life.

[@HumanOptimization]

good for you for trying. yeah, it's truly difficult to understand them and their decisions lol

[@UziWitDaHighTops]

I would say the large majority of addicts aren’t like this. Many are like you and me, and nobody knows. Many others are self destructive but not towards other people. Not all of em fuck people over and steal and cheat and have a bunch of kids they can’t support and all that, those are just the ones we can see and the type portrayed by most movies and TV and whatnot. Not that this couple does all that, but They are full of excuses, the starting meth just to stay awake to watch over someone is so ridiculous it would be funny if it wasn’t sad. Not being ashamed of drug use because it’s a stepping stone to the rest of life is fucking retarded. There’s a big difference between that and being proud of being clean and accepting your past. Maybe that’s what she meant, but it certainly sounded like she is certainly in denial about her life and addiction.

[@infantry101102]

That chick has no remorse for her actions. Crazy.

[@stopandbe1134]

it's almost like she's an addict

[@infantry101102]

@@stopandbe1134 yeah, yeah. So was I at one point, I felt and still feel bad for what I did during that time of my life.

[@SubZeroJill]

"a hard happy"..... I know exactly how that is. I'm not sure how to describe it, but I like these two.... they seem to be really kind-hearted ppl deep down, who just happen to have drugs come inevitably as part of their lives. I wish them all the best and hope they both find the better side of happy soon

[@liquidnova1796]

They really should put these people on birth control cause all those children they lost will have a messed up life because of them

[@danielgraham2298]

You don’t know that though. I don’t really believe that because someone has an addiction, you have the right to not allow them to have children, that’s fucking ridiculous

[@cami5173]

@@danielgraham2298 no it’s not :) >said every child of an addict ever

[@toag3009]

Abandoning 4 humans is awful but using meth and heroin while pregnant and birthing an addicted baby is DISGUSTING 🤮 Any woman that births an addicted baby should be charged and locked up IMO 💯

[@miapdx503]

@@danielgraham2298 no one has the right to completely mess up the lives of the innocent ones. If you're going to be someone's mother, you mom up, square up and be that. *You owe it to your babies.* They don't deserve abandonment, chaos, a cold blooded parent. No one deserves that. When I learned I was pregnant with my eldest son, I changed my life, that day. Pregnancy is sacred. You don't introduce poison to a fetus. That's evil, and it's a decision that's made. I refuse to assist them in making excuses. Do what you want to your own body and mind, you're grown. But once you start to reproduce, your responsibility is enormous. Own it or don't do it.

[@Forgiveiolord]

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[@ahh1180]

As a kid I got beaten almost everyday with a wrench. I have managed to keep clean and do well in life it just comes down to what you want for yourself not what others try to make you ,

[@cami5173]

Every person processes trauma differently. Also physical and verbal abuse cause different problems in people. 10 people could be abused the exact same way and end up differently at the end.

[@Forgiveiolord]

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[@MariselaR.da1daOnly]

@@cami5173 these 2 have no excuse at all! Stop enabling their behavior. This is not that type of situation. They chose this lifestyle and she enjoys it! She has no shame and no desire to change at all!

[@MariselaR.da1daOnly]

You deserve a huge amount of credit for getting passed your abuse and doing well! Really an awesome thing!

[@cami5173]

@@MariselaR.da1daOnly you didn’t watch the video then? The lady said she was literally born into a family of addicts, you’re just spreading hate.

[@redgraphicunicorn]

Again, with the pregnancy and drug use. And she doesn't seem to have a problem with this. If she wants to do drugs, that is one thing, but I personally find it disgusting and abusive to subject an unborn child to her nasty habit. It literally makes me cry to think of those children. If these folks want to kill themselves with drugs, that is THEIR choice. There is such a thing as birth control though - USE IT!

[@darrenhaywood7924]

Okay well most of the time the women who are on drugs are already dependent on the substance BEFORE getting pregnant... so during pregnancy their body craves that.. I'm sure if you were strung out youd have a hard time getting on your feet. It's easy to sit and throw around your two cents from a screen. These are people. You think youd make any better decisions on drugs ? Try them then.

[@redgraphicunicorn]

@@darrenhaywood7924 I'm sorry, but that is a poor excuse. And for bringing a child into this world that is already addicted to drugs. She talked like she knew exactly what she was doing and had no qualms about it. There was no need to get pregnant in the first place, and she did it 4 times! I'm sorry, but I find that immoral and so very sad. There are places to get birth control - hell, our insane government is giving out crack pipes... so I am sure they can find some form of birth control to get on. It's an easy choice. Quit making excuses.

[@grundgesetzart.1463]

@@darrenhaywood7924 I definitely would make and have made better choices, on "drugs". I live in Germany, here everything is different, true. We smoked meth from time to time and snorted it too. We (my clique and I) used to hang out, drink, steal. Somehow I still managed to finish school and then also, university. We were "functioning" addicts. But seeing what this "lifestyle" did to my parents - it stole their peace of mind, their happiness, ultimately also their health - I stopped it. Everything except the alcohol, but this also is much less than it used to be. Now I work and have my own apartment. There were even no kids involved, I never wanted to get pregnant while living and looking like this. Disgusting....and no, meth use is not a "genetic condition". We all can make the choice to use, or not to. Unless someone shoves the pipe or the powder up your mouth/nose violently and forces you to comsume it, but I'd say this does not happen that often. Thank you.

[@mike7984]

@@darrenhaywood7924 u defending this POS? U must be on meth too lol

[@mike7984]

@@darrenhaywood7924 “try them then” what kind of comment is that lol. She didn’t even have a hard life.

[@nicoledonnelly6154]

Ah man I just saw this today and this is hard to watch. I went to school with Kyle and he is so talented and gifted with his art work. Kyle was someone you looked at and you just felt he was ment for great things. I hope he pulls himself from the trenches and turns his life around. 🙏. You can tell his soul is tired

[@omonaijanimi]

“I don’t know what happiness feels like” - that hit me hard. Can’t imagine what a burden that is… to search for something that you can’t understand. My heart breaks for her and everyone involved

[@Bigfootz2004]

She's regrets listening to other people's BS, but she is the one full of BS and in total denial about how her current situation is the direct result of her decisions and actions.

[@Retics]

She's not afraid of never seeing her kids again. Her hardest moment wasn't losing her kids.. it's something to do with him! I feel NOTHING for her. No remorse. Sympathy... nothing

[@kirstenbrassel1875]

Kyle seems deep within his drug addiction, and this girl seems to be embracing it, likely enjoying isolating him from everyone who cares about him and genuinely wants him to get better. She was loving this moment of attention. I hope he gets away from her and has some clarity, without her speaking over him every chance she gets.

[@bl3524]

Okay but they’re both addicts, he’s on a downer and she’s on a upper and that’s why the dynamic on the vid is like that

[@CatalinaFOIA]

6:14 How do you have 4 BOYS and lose custody of ALL of them, the last one at a completely different time!?!?! That's when you know you're life is a downward spiral. She has an excuse for everything 🙄 "I stayed in the streets so he wouldn't di€." Yah, okay, if your children ever hear your excuses they will not be happy with your excuses.

[@Supraifyification]

i don't get the point of talking bad about someone whos alredy hit rock bottom. yes she shouldn't have had kids, but i don't really think they could think clear because they have been drugged for so long. not that thats an excuse but you can't really talk sense into an addict, they need to get clean first.

[@kgrim024]

It’s so unfair to a child to start in this world having been born from an addict causing the baby withdrawals and disabilities and a horrible start. Having lost their parents because they are choosing addiction. If your heart is big help your children by helping yourself to be healthy. By putting your health first so you can get well to put your children first. I understand broken childhoods. Needing love because you didn’t get it. But you can’t just have a child to get that love if you aren’t clean, it’s not fair and the child will be taken away. A child isn’t a possession and they are a real person whose life you can fuck up too. I get being broken. But I don’t get putting anything before your children. At least try. At least hate the lifestyle. There are supports and you need to work hard so one day your kids can say yes, my parents had a drug problem but they cared enough to work their asses off and get sober and come back to me. Instead of feeling like the people who should have loved them the most left them and didn’t care. Instead of repeating your childhood. I can’t believe you had kids if this is the life you say you want.

[@lj9524]

“I’m not ashamed of my drug use…its just another stepping stone in my life….” I wonder where the next “stone” will lead? I am afraid no where good. I pray they will somehow find a new path for their lives. Her beauty will fade as a result of her substance abuse. He really loves her but I am worried that he will try to exploit her beauty for drug money at some point. I pray for them both to get on a substance free path. My heart goes out to both of them as they struggle to survive in the streets. “ Stuck on stupid”… as she stated. Hard to overcome….

[@andrewk7199]

Wait -- "her" beauty? I thought they were both dudes...

[@myrnagordon3409]

A RIP stone

[@meco4068]

@@andrewk7199 lol, how does a man use through the entire pregnancy? You didn't catch that..?

[@andrewk7199]

@@meco4068 you wanna take another shot at that comment? Didn't come out right.

[@meco4068]

@@andrewk7199 made about as much sense as you thinking they were both dudes!

[@brandimyhren6317]

Nothing they said made very much sense to me. It’s not love it’s addiction without drugs they’d have nothing in common.

[@loriedwards4953]

People that don't do drugs could never understand the need to stay even. Your not trying to get high, your just trying to function in your every day life. Being sick is a nightmare.

[@anthonyfuscellaro233]

The most important point she made is "They categorize drug use and mental health different, but it's all the same, we got screws loose.". It's something me and my GF are struggling with now. Were both in a methadone program trying to get clean, but we can't get any help with out mental health and it really takes a toll on us. It's eye opening to watch this.

[@08loviedovie]

I hope you‘ll make it!

[@sachasturgeon9885]

It’s ok that they care about each other.The concern is the level of care for this man over her children. This is heartbreaking. Truly hope they will over come.

[@fundamonium]

Do you really think it's the love of this man over her kids? No. It's the love of the drugs over her kids. This guys makes her feel safe living the life she does. The man always gets blamed, but she is using him as an excuse.

[@MiguelAngel-ir3ck]

The honesty is what i appreciate the most from the people being interviewed .

[@johnfernandez2060]

This the kind of couple that’ll break into your car parked in a garage at 4 am to steal anything they can in it to sell it. Don’t be fooled, yeah it’s sad that they’re in the situation but they have no empathy for human life

[@Phoenixx.1999]

I believe she’s a truly nasty piece of work under the ‘facade’, that I assume, she thinks she’s fooling everyone with. I hope Kyle can get away from her, restart his life and get clean.

[@EvaSawicka]

Agreed!!

[@hanalala3164]

Lol did u hear what he said? They deserve each other

[@Phoenixx.1999]

@@hanalala3164 nah read my comment again

[@jamesmckeon9139]

Face tats will hold him back in life

[@Ben-xf7uy]

A year and a half clean. Seeing Kyle nod off and have the opiate smile (frowning). I feel for them. Just living day to day.... Thank god my family never gave up on me. God knows they should have

[@gdbarker9818]

She thinks living this life of addiction is "freedom" She is delusional