my little brother is gone

[@3IsStronger]

I understand what its like. My ex of 11yrs did the same in August as well. His family lied to people saying it was a homicide which to me was disgusting because the hid the fact that we all struggle and they lied to protect their image because they didn't want people to see that he needed help and they didn't see it or wasn't there for him. But we don't always have control, he was the love of my life I fell in love at first sight with him. He left MD to take a job in CA and he died a few years after being there. Fight through everyone, you have to learn to kick life in the balls when you see it coming for you. Get help to win that battle don't do it alone.

[@BLEOWcrackjack]

I've been watching since you had your prank channel, you got me through a rough patch in my life back then. Thank you, I'm sending you my prayers and positive energy. I'm very sorry for your loss.

[@ilovegothhoez]

Larry, I don't exactly know how I came across you on the internet all those years ago but I am someone who has thought about you throughout the years and kept coming back to see what you were up to. I remember back then, you really were crying for help. You seemed pretty lost at the time and even then you found a way to amuse the internet. And then you kind of went MIA for a bit, I remember trying to look you up many times with no success and then a couple years later I saw you had gotten into CS and moved into the apartment with a big smile on your face, I don't know man... things like that are truly inspiring to see. It is one thing to beat depression, its another to completely turn your life around in the process and do more. I don't know why what happened to your brother happened, but please stay strong and keep moving forward. You are a special human being. People think about you and are intrigued by your way of thinking. I pray for your family and I wish you the absolute best

[@dummycodes]

thank you for seeing me and what i was going through. even more for supporting me

[@pcb462]

I’ve been a nurse for 34 years. There is just no magic answer to help loss of a soul. A soul who brought music to your life. You strain to keep hearing it but it’s gone. Unfinished music. I’m going to be praying for you as you learn to live with a void that is left in your heart. 💜

[@lillydaisy670]

My heart breaks for you and your family. I'm sure this wasn't an easy video to share, but I'm so thankful that you did. This has literally been one of the worst years of my life. My mind has been taking me to some dark places and I often wonder what the point of anything is anymore. I can empathize with at least a small fraction of how your brother must have felt. On top of that, I feel like I've wasted so much time battling fear and anxiety, and as a result, not living in my purpose. This was my reminder today to keep going. Thank you for your vulnerability and authenticity. I'm always rooting for you and I know you will do great things 🩷✨

[@bethanysimpson4968]

I love you, Larry! I’m so proud of you for speaking so openly about your grieving process and how you’ve been feeling. I’m here for you always

[@thekidd7]

Oh my word. I was following you since the vlog livinlikeblacklarry days. I can't believe you went through this. My heart breaks for you man. You're so talented and positive. Wishing yourself and your family the very best.

[@Chiraqboy-Theplugshit]

Sorry for your loss bro use to watch your videos from like 6 years back always had me dying hope u and your fam get better

[@sabrinahandsome8278]

I stopped coding years ago but I still look forward to your videos. I've been struggling with my mental health for most of the year. My mind has gone to some pretty dark places so I can understand a little of what your brother was going through. My heart goes out to you and your family. Please keep uploading and being a positive force. We need you ❤.

[@yoapolloboy]

I'm really sorry for your loss Larry, it must be really hard to pass what you and your family been passing through and I can't imagine the pain, thank you so much for making this video and sharing this with us, my relationship is getting totally ruined and there's no fix anymore, she was the first that made me really fall in love and made my earth quake, I was thinking to do the worst with myself because I feel empty and unfullfiling, but your video just opened my eyes that life is worth living, you just saved me with this video, I will be grateful forever

[@lanceanthony5043]

You know, this may sound harsh but did you know God writes all our stories in his book of life. He writes our beginning and our end so in this instance your brother's final chapter was simply read and then his book was closed.

[@chloelee5405]

I have been watching your videos since you had your prank channel, ever since I started watching you I have finished school, finished a vocational school, finished university, worked 3 years in a profession, married, got 2 kids, transitioned into a different gender . And you were one of the view channels that kept my spirit up. I thank you for that.

[@KristianTBV]

Thank You! I adore your perseverance for purpose. You’re not even close to seeing how much you’ll achieve. I love you Larry.

[@natgenesis5038]

Sorry to hear that 😢me too I’m living with depression since I was 13 years old ;Take care yourself brother and keep going .

[@T_Quik]

Extremely sorry for your loss Larry. Please continue to be strong, for lil bro. Maybe look into devops for something more fulfilling?

[@worsethanjoerogan8061]

This is why even at my most depressed, I never seriously considered suicide. It would have absolutely destroyed my family emotionally.

[@philliphaynes6775]

I'm so sorry to hear this. My condolences brother

[@kdubsosolid]

Proud of you cuzzo, this videos gives plenty of us strength and encouragement. Sean was search a light in any conversation. I’m proud of for continuing your pursuit to help others and helping yourself ❤️❤️ please keep it up.

[@dummycodes]

thank you for always supporting me cousin

[@MikeeBuildsCode]

Bro I’m so sorry you had to deal with that. I can’t even imagine what you’re doing through. Just want to extend some love to you brudda. 🫶🏾

[@Teazy93]

Same exact experience in October with my Brother 🙏🏾😔 praying for you aswell❤

[@the77th]

Just lost my best friend of 13 years. Spoke to him EVERY DAY. Praying for you

[@dummycodes]

truly sorry for your loss

[@the77th]

@@dummycodes same to you brother….. I can’t imagine what you’re dealing with… I’m sure it feels like there’s an everlasting void somewhere out there in the world. Just take it day by day…..that’s the best you can do….

[@AnnA-jd4xm]

I'm so fucking sorry this happened, Larry. RIP to your bro.

[@sleepyg2120]

Thank you for sharing. I lost my little brother May 2022 to fentanyl. I'm still so angry yet comitted to working through it.

[@codebreatherHQ]

Sending you fortitude to get through this. You got this!

[@DWEthiopia]

So sorry for your loss, Larry. Thank you for sharing this video and I hope you can continue to make impactful videos like this in the future. You inspire me with your courage and vulnerability. I am 32 years old and I sometimes struggle with depression and anxiety. It sucks but your video helps a lot. I am very confident you will live a very fulfilling life and it will be very impactful for lots of people. God bless!

[@azam987654321]

Thanks for this video my friend. Much love to you Larry

[@inexisle]

I’m sorry man, my older brother also killed himself back in 2018. Life has never been the same for any of us. It’s like the grieving never ends

[@eyenew4794]

Much love to you bruh. Rest in Power to your loved one 🤲🏾 🙏🏾

[@perpetuallearna9466]

Sorry for your loss

[@mudiametokunboh2370]

Sorry for your loss! Praying for you and the family

[@fusionid6647]

my condolences dawg, life not easy for anyone, just hope your year would be a little more present for you

[@nicki_nick]

Wow the poise you have displayed in such a struggling time, the way you have chosen to battle grief, and the way you took the time to share such a message even in such a trying time is truly amazing. I’m sorry for your loss and I’m wishing you best of luck in your future endeavors and plight for fulfillment in life!

[@karnez05]

Oh my god man, first off much love to you and the fam. I’ve been watching your journey for awhile now man. Keep your head up brother

[@IYI_WOLF_IYI]

I’m sorry man, wishing you the best always

[@plafayette]

Sorry to hear that your family suffered this loss 🙏🏿

[@user-gu1sl1mn2m]

Larry I messaged u a while ago on ig to check in with you but I’m glad to see this vid and I’m happy that u made the decision to move close to family cause you decided that’s what you needed and wanted and didn’t let society dictate what you do. It’s really good to hear that you’re taking this day by day and finding a healthy way to process it as well. I’m excited to see what you’re working on as well as seeing more uploads next year. Love you man!

[@polycarpatalor8109]

All this time I was wondering why you took a long break from KZbin.... it's hard to lose a family member. My condolences. May the Lord console you and your household. You are gonna be fine ❤

[@joelmillington2370]

Hey bro I remember watching you and being inspired. I'm really sorry for what you're experiencing. Grief really do suck and it never ends. But being inspired by your brothers' legacy and his profound impact on the world is one of the best ways to honor him. Thank you for once again being an inspiration to me and I'm sure many others. Thank you sharing this with us; with me. Thank you.

[@sid6576]

Just came across your channel, I can't imagine losing someone like that, take care bro, wishing good fortune

[@jobhernandez3174]

sorry for your loss my brother. i have schizoafective myself and its been a struggle. have a great year :-)

[@derickmoncado]

Heavy video man, but inspiring words, take your time, take as much as you need and just stay up brother, do what feels right.

[@NamelessOcean]

Thank you for sharing your life and experiences.

[@cjbtantay]

I'm sorry for your loss, Larry. Damn bro. I appreciate your vulnerability. I hope all is well with you.

[@RickyRollinsMedia]

My condolences 😢

[@hermn2593]

Praying for you and your family brother. Worst pain ever. 🙏🏻 ❤💛❤️

[@razorred0]

Been watching you since forever. I have watched your journey & how youve gone thru so much & I feel for you. But I feel like life’s ups and downs has given you wisdom and a perspective on living that many people lack. You strive for a truly fulfilling life whereas many others lie to themselves about what they want or what makes them happy, ultimately letting life make the decisions for them. Though you said you don’t want kids, I think you’d offer so so much as a parent and a mentor with your perspectives & you’d raise truly genuine people. Take it from me, I have gone thru alot as well( maybe too much haha) but watching your journey from pranks to vlogs to coding has oddly enough seemed something like a coming of age story. But you definitely have been one of the main figures who has inspired me to take the push to figure out what makes me happy. For one, I started thinking about programming (and even before that vlogging if i gotta be honest) after your videos and without them I may have not realized how much of an enjoyment I had in it. (Also after reflecting introspectively on my life I didn’t realize how much I actually wanted to do tech instead of health). And after being on and off for a couple years, now I’m working towards that. However from you I realized that I needed to figure out so many other things when finding true happiness, a job I like can only contribute to so much. So my goal is to do everything that will or can make me happy, or at least get as far as I can. I think the sole decision i made for myself is I dont have a choice not to anymore I have to do everything I want. Though I haven’t pursued everything as of yet (cause it’s alot 😂) I feel like I am at least able to visualize partially where I want to be in the future and try to do what I can to make it real and I havent been able to do that for a long time. I feel like that’s enough to keep me going for now

[@razorred0]

I know i ramble a lot but I want to say this: You’ve gotten so far as a person and you’ll only get farther. You inspire people that you’ll never know and you’ll continue to do so. My condolences my friend

[@apostle7542]

What was his prank channel called?

[@razorred0]

@@apostle7542 it was livinglikeblacklarry but it was deleted years ago i think

[@mayao.9570]

I've never watched any of your videos, but the KZbin algo brought me here. I just wanted to say that I can only imagine what that pain felt like. My brother attempted to take his own life a year and a half ago and the pain from that alone was unimaginable (in some ways I still can't believe it was real/happened). To your point, the finality of life was truly a wake-up call for all of us during those moments my brother laid in the hospital hanging on to life. One of the toughest things for me was grappling with the guilt.. and even now. Something that I promised myself was that the things I'd do in life going forward would be something that speaks to my soul. It took me a long time to get to that point, so I'm glad you were able to get there sooner. Despite how tough it was, thank you for sharing. My heart is with your family and I'm sending my strength your way. I hope that 2024 brings you a sense of guidance as you live out your life in the way your brother would hope you would.

[@Punicia]

May your brother rest up🙏It is a shame how the U.S. neglects the mental health of its citizens despite its affluence. Hoping this can change and help becomes more widespread

[@SankofaX]

I send my condolences. I try to preserver and fight though the stresses of life in general. I hope for your family to heal. Honor those who are gone. sending light and support in words and good intentions.

[@lordcron]

Great video. Much respect. This will help those who need it.

[@projectKhaled]

thanks for sharing

[@saitamajay6435]

Damn bro im sorry my dad offed himself back in 2021 stay strong

[@dummycodes]

we both gotta stay strong

[@ZFREntertainment]

so sorry to hear man. lost my grandmother at the beginning of October, death sucks, stay strong and keep pushing

[@OthMan-nn2gq]

Sending all my love and prayers for you and your family Larry. Stay strong.

[@LibertarianGal]

I'm so sorry. I lost my little brother almost three years ago, and I am lost now. I lived my life largely centered around him always being here. It hurts. Take care of yourself.

[@ajbimg]

damn man i absorbed every word you spoke. sending you strength and keeping you in my prayers

[@perryetienne5377]

Sorry for your loss, Larry. I feel for you. I lost my dad this year to cancer. Losing a family member, especially a close one, takes its toll. Hoping that you hold on to the great memories. As long as he is in your heart, he will always live on.

[@EditedbySilvers]

Sorry for you loss, Larry! Hope you're keeping well!

[@lancerdonnie]

So sorry for your loss. You shall overcome

[@jeffthebuilderr]

My condolences to you and your family Larry please be well. Peace

[@JohnnyShotGunz]

Thank you and I’m sorry Larry. Take care

[@MissRedWine]

Larry wow i'm so sorry.i can relate to having dark times and i was thinking of ending "it" too. thoughts keep coming in my mind about ending it but i have support who i can go back to and talk with. the thing that's stopping me is my family's love and the worst thing i don't want to see is my family's heart being broken because of me. i use to get mad at comments like "if you go away you're being selfish towards your family and those who love you". i have to remind myself literally EVERYDAY why i have a purpose in this world. it is very hard but videos like these that just randomly pop up in my reccomdations is telling me to keep being here. sorry if my story is triggering but i just wanted to share it with someone and i'm so sorry of what you and your family is going through larry. i don't ever want to see my family like this. them hearing of bad news of me.

[@marcell7406]

keep yo head up big bra

[@Marlvern]

My condolences Larry.❤

[@bkouceila]

I am really sorry for your loss. It is tough to loose a loved one. I won't pretend to understand what you or your family are going through. The only thing I can do is advise you to look into religion specifically Islam because you'll learn the purpose of life, how to deal with tragedies and everything

[@Dimelo_Orion]

My condolences to you and your family. I’m sorry to hear what happened to your brother . Hope you and your family find the strength to move forward . Looked forward to always watching your videos always keeping things real and upfront about them.

[@simplymincy]

I've been a fan of your channel for years. I'm so sorry to hear this brother.

[@sipp5657]

My absolute full condolences.

[@Kaeeeeeeel]

I couldn’t imagine how things may be day to day, I hope you find peace during this time.

[@patriotlightning7791]

I am here for you. ❤ Bravery and Fortitude! ❤

[@ManWhoLostTheWar]

keeping you and your family in my prayers, i was a little late but i feel for you and i hope you guys are okay 🩷

[@lkkpov]

Hi Larry. I'm sorry for your loss. This came as a heavy shocker as your words landed on my ears. My deepest condolences to you and your family. I hope for nothing but the best for your year 2024. Take care bro. Respect.

[@slicceddy6229]

Literally just thought about you tonight and went hunting to see if you're still on youtube. Sorry to hear. My condolences to you and your family

[@draper468]

Hate to see this as you first upload in awhile. Praying for you and your family. Try to have a Merry Christmas Larry even tho I know it won’t ever feel the same.

[@I_Lemaire]

I am so, so sorry for your loss.

[@KeepItFresh02]

I've been hearing a lot about people killing themselves lately. An old highschool person I knew who was a popular football player just killed himself last month. I wonder what it could be? what changed in the last 2 years?

[@invis6965]

Be strong Larry.

[@iraawtf]

Therapy. Therapy. Therapy. I lost a lot friends to suicide. From 2015-2023 I’ve lost 10 friends, family to suicide and I’ve had my last conversations with people in the army that lost their battle to suicide. To anyone out there grieving or fighting this battle. Please just start with therapy. It will not solve all the problems but it’s a great fucking place to start. I’m sorry this happened to you and to anyone else. The biggest take away I’ve learned from life and this specific topic is we just have to be better friends. But the flip to that coin is people are going to people. We can’t save everybody and that’s the saddest part about all of this

[@MrPayo92]

so sorry for you, best of wishes to you

[@ashes2snow_]

Got you in my prayers 🙏🙏

[@JenJHayden]

I'm just here to listen. I hear you.

[@Dayspastthis]

Shout you out Larry man I've been seeing him cook since he was with Ashley and cooking up music bro. Keep pushing bro I'm sorry for your loss

[@iamanatta]

My friend I hope you're doing well now

[@fordford514]

I'm so sorry man

[@kazitox]

gg lil bro

[@AZITHEMLGPRO]

Traditionally The whole of point is having your own place was to house women & children. Women have their own money & life nowadays

[@klyetruman7285]

I just lost my little brother 0ct.17th 2023. Just 5 days after his birthday,he was 29. I'm so sorry for your loss. I pray peace and comfort over you and your family.

[@paultremblay3008]

So sorry for your loss, I am thinking of you and your family. I appreciate your candor and vulnerability in making this post, it demonstrates a very generous nature to reach out and offer to help others in this dark moment. I hope to hear more from you in the future, you are a great communicator and offer deep insights about what work in tech is like. I agree fully there is more to life than a flashy paycheck, and that you have to focus on what brings you the most satisfaction and purpose in life.

[@mohammed_alsurour]

الله يرحمه ويغفرله

[@xt-cj7jg]

rest in peace...

[@deedavis926]

Dang man rip 😢🙏🏽

[@amillytv5700]

I’m so sorry Larry 😢

[@azam987654321]

I believe the psychosis had to do with entities

[@philmckay9973]

good post

[@yddududf]

Merry Christmas

[@mrglitch2982]

I am so sorry for your loss. please try islam, it will help you a lot

[@dmitrishostakovich3156]

Why do you smile when you talk about you brother's suicide? You smile and laugh and touch your eyes as if you are crying but you were not.

[@AwxyFromHere]

nervous laughter most likely

[@xae3dcfed3]

Thats Awful. Sorry for your loss bro.