eating like I had EXTREME HUNGER again for 24 hours *this was so bad*

eating like I had EXTREME HUNGER again for 24 hours this was so bad

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@laurisophie 5 ай бұрын

Wen I finally ate everything that I needed it felt sooo extreme, I just wasn't used to the amount of food you truly have to consume to live. In the beginning, I gained weight like crazy and like you said, my "extreme hunger" never really subsided, because it actually wasn't that extreme. I still eat like that every day and am no longer gaining weight, because my body is finally at a point, where it is happpy. Hunger cues are back to normal and my body imagine did improve so much. It was the scaryest thing I ever did, but it surely was worth it. Sending much love to everyone that is struggling with an ED right now, you've got this. There is a way out. Always. You are so much more, than just your body.

@antonellarusso1233 5 ай бұрын

Hi,my problem is that im healthy BMI 21 now but gaining weight but exercise everyday and eating max 1800 Cal day....im stuck in quasi recovery by years because normal bmi but hipotalamic amenorrea and a lot of mentale restriction😢 anyway thank you sooo much for sharing your recovery journey ❤ ciao from Roma

@laurisophie 5 ай бұрын

@@antonellarusso1233 Hey I have a resource for you, that might be worth looking into. It's the podcast "Recovery Talk" by Amalia Rach Lee. She is an eating disorder specialized Nutritionist and explains the biology of EDs very well. I honestly don't know where I would be today if I hadn't listened to this podcast. Surely I had to listen to the episodes multiple times before it finally clicked and I could let go. Amalia is a great person and everyone episode feels super safe, she understands where you are coming from and has been at the same point herself. It won't be easy to get out of quasi recovery, but I believe that you can make it. Sending you a digital hug from Germany 🫂

@__therealrapunzel 5 ай бұрын

thankyou so much for this comment, this will help so many people ❤

@laurisophie 5 ай бұрын

@@antonellarusso1233 Hey I might have a resource for you that could possibly be helpful for you. It's a podcast called: "Recovery Talk" by Amalia Rach Lee. She is an eating disorder specialized Nutritionist and explains the biology of EDs in a very understandable way. Knowing what exactly was happening in my body and why really helped me to fight my anorexia. Amalia had an ED herself and every episode of this podcast feels unbelievably safe. I honestly don't know where I would be today, if I hadn't found it last year. So maybe this would be something you might want to look into. I am sending you a big digital hug from Germany 🫂

@mummytrolls 5 ай бұрын

when i was in treatment, my team explained to me that the way a starved body processes food is different than regular bodies. calories are treated differently when a person is recovering from starvation vs healthy people. for example, i had heart damage from my ed. it’s common to have some sort of body damage from starvation no matter what weight you are. a body damaged by starvation, when given adequate nutrition, won’t necessarily use ‘extra calories’ (calories over your tdee) and put it in fat stores. it often takes that energy and uses it to repair the damage starvation has caused. my team explained that my meal plan was so high calorie yet i was barely gaining weight cus my body was using that fuel to repair damage, like to my heart. it used maintenance calories to just keep me alive and the rest was used to repair organ damage. that’s part of why i was super tired all the time despite eating loads of food (cus i assumed id have loads of energy if i ate a lot of calories). my team explained to me that it was super important to keep my meal plan high calorie and be patient cus soon i’d gain weight. it was actually really stressful in early recovery cus i ate so much food and barely put on weight and one of my doctors would get super frustrated with me and put in place super strict rules / surveillance cus she was convinced i was doing ed behaviors because i’d eat so far above my tdee and not gain anything. we’d argue about it often cus she said it was impossible to eat my meal plan and not gain weight but some other doctors in my team told her what they told me (that it’s normal and my body was doing what it had to for survival). remember if you’re in recovery, especially early recovery, and you think you’re eating too much or you’re worried your weight isn’t doing what it should (whether you think you’re gaining too much or too little), trust your treatment team and trust your body knows what to do to survive. our bodies are built to do whatever possible to survive and it knows where to direct energy to repair the damage starvation has done to your body.

@wildreadmasibi3950 5 ай бұрын

God bless you. ❤

@kayoum.s 5 ай бұрын

As someone who is struggling with anorexia right now and trying to recover i thought i was crazy for suddenly eating so much, i thought i kept on binging although it was healthy. I didn't know what extreme hunger was but this video literally taught me so much i can talk about this with my dietitian now, thank you for being brave and uploading stuff like this! :)

@genius2655 5 ай бұрын

Recovery made me realise how much of a picky eater I am. When I was deep in my ED, and in early recovery, I would eat anything. Now I’ve realised what I do and don’t like, and some of the things I don’t like anymore were things I craved during my ED + recovery Example: Domino’s pizza. It’s so shit. Nothing compared to a fresh pizza from an Italian restaurant

@__therealrapunzel 5 ай бұрын

i’m so proud of you for choosing recovery and discovering new things about yourself! i’m literally the same in terms of what foods i choose to eat now!

@eldyska 5 ай бұрын

i've been stuck in quasi recovery now for like half a year, for this period of time i have been experiencing extreme hunger but never honored to so i just now feel like it's too late to do it since im eating almost a normal amount of food for a non disorded person. so i want to thank you for saying you have experienced extreme hunger when you fully committed to recovery, it makes me feel like i still can honor it even tho im not in early recovery and right after restriction. at least i hope i still can honor it💗💗

@Pluto-tj9mq 5 ай бұрын

When I was in early recovery my food choices were genuinely so odd and random . I could get through a packet of chocolate like malteasers EASILY and now whenever I try one I’m like ew. Now I’d say that I give a lot less of a crap, I wake up with pretty much no idea what I’m going to eat other than a few staples of my diet . It’s so much easier to just live life now ! One of the greatest joys of recovery in my experience is the variety of life that comes with time :)

@tashac164 5 ай бұрын

i hope to reach this point one day but am so proud of you for doing so already. i cant imagine how freeing that must feel x

@priscillaanderson2949 4 ай бұрын

Me too!

@doaa7025 5 ай бұрын

I hope to reach a point where I feel full and don't want to finish eating. The video was very encouraging. Thank you.

@__therealrapunzel 5 ай бұрын

you will get there, it’s just a long journey. i’m so proud of you ❤

@charltte7194 4 ай бұрын

As someone who is in early stages of recovery, this video helps me feel better about myself because I have been experiencing extreme hunger and my ed has been convincing me that I’m binging and that I’ll continue like this forever but this video really inspired me to keep going and listen to my body 💗

@beakyton 5 ай бұрын

I find it so impressive you're able to eat the same meals as you did during recovery since for me, that would be too triggering so it's v inspiring to see someone being able to do what they'd done in recovery and not be thrown back. thank you for this Millie!!!!

@bearclaire 5 ай бұрын

What did your meals in recovery look like vs now ? Hope your doing well xx

@genius2655 5 ай бұрын

I agree! I can eat most things that I ate in recovery, but there are several things that remind me of recovery (or even my ED) and I tend to avoid them. They are triggering to an extent, but I also just ate so much of them that I genuinely don’t want them anymore

@beakyton 5 ай бұрын

@@bearclaire for a while I ate the exact same things for lunch and breakfast everyday. they dont look that different really in size but I avoid now like wholewheat tortillas and like the exact granola bars and snacks I had because although they're all normal foods, I dont like the associated vibes

@__therealrapunzel 5 ай бұрын

it was definitely the hardest thing i’ve done in a long time… i didn’t think about how mentally uncomfortable it might be until i started but it was an interesting experience hahaha

@cassie8215 5 ай бұрын

I'm in recovery after extreme restricting for a year, I have not experienced extreme hunger which I feel makes it harder for me because now I'm totally lost on how much im supposed to be eating. im definitely eating significantly more, 3 full meals and 2 snacks versus before when I only ate one meal a day. but even though I'm eating so much more, I'm not gaining any weight, in fact I've stayed the same weight entirely. I recently discovered I have something called hypermetabolism which happens to a lot of people beginning recovery. it's just so discouraging because it makes me feel like I'm not recovering even though mentally I'm committed and I'm eating so much now, I think my hunger cues are just messed up from extreme restriction for so long that I don't even know when I'm hungry or not.

@shashasha6385 5 ай бұрын

Thats greatt you’re doing amazing 🎉

@alexafisher3798 5 ай бұрын

When you were in the midst of recovery, were you experiencing any physical symptoms that you didn’t expect? I am in the depth of recovery and keep getting hot flashes, joint swelling, weird hormonal irregularities

@MarVil_i 5 ай бұрын

I had anorexia and bulimia and i used to binge a lot.. i still do sometimes.. now i eat enough but i still count calories and i cant stop.. i am scared of gaining weight and i really feel like i will necer stop eating if i try honouring my mental hunger bc my hunger and fullness cues are not how they should be and my stomach can fit extreme volumes of food bc of my binging… i really dont know what to do…..

@salome1967 5 ай бұрын

i’m in a similar situation. i wish i could help but all i can say is im sorry you’re going through this ❤️ people say the only way to subside mental hunger is to honour it but it’s so scary when food is the only thing you think about ever. also i can’t imagine how the people around me would react to the quantity i’d eat. good luck 🫶

@MarVil_i 5 ай бұрын

@@salome1967 oh wow, thank you so much. It really does help to know that others have this problem too, like real people.. thank you again and good luck back. We got this! (somehow…) 🙈

@olivia-xe5el 5 ай бұрын

Honestly my extreme haunger really has been extreme for the first couple of months in my recovery. And thats totally fine!!! For example I ate 2 big breakfast, big lunch and big dinner and had like 8 snacks a day. There were days where I was CONSTANTLY eating and even waking up 2 times per night because I was starving (mentally & physically). There were days when I ate 300g chocolate bars and was still craving Nutella Toast, chocolate granola and cake 2 hours later. I tried my best to honor it all and it was the best thing I could have done. I had a few "Phases" of EH but now 3 years later I am at a healthy and steady weight, dont have a single fear food anymore and got my period back. There is hope for all of you, if I can do it you can do it too!!

@strawbelly-zk1fi 4 ай бұрын

hey millie, this might sound like a weird request but could you make a video (or short) on weetabix? i just bought my first box ever and have zero clue how to eat them, since i‘m not british. are you supposed to let them get soggy or what is the hype with them???? i‘m so confused. thank you so much for sharing your journey!

@Violets-rt3mw 5 ай бұрын

No but the hunger at the beginning of my recovery was so real 😭

@alracart 5 ай бұрын

Omg those pancakess look so delicious, do u may have the receipt?😋

@bearclaire 5 ай бұрын

How did yiu feel the day after ? Normal or less hungry , bloated etc ?

@__therealrapunzel 5 ай бұрын

tbh i didn’t feel as bad as i thought i would! i thought id have no appetite but i basically just went to eating like normal. i was really cautious about not subconsciously restricting to compensate and so it was fine! my hunger signals and metabolism are so settled now that one day of random eating didn’t affect it luckily!

@karo_karo 5 ай бұрын

i’ve been in recovery for about 4 months now. some days i feel like i’ve finally begun to understand my hunger/fullness ques and that i’ve recovered completely. but then suddenly i get out of control and eat large amounts of food, to the point that i’m very full. is this normal or am i developing a binge eating disorder?

@__therealrapunzel 5 ай бұрын

@@karo_karo i promise you that is totally normal! it will subside with time, but this early on in recovery you will still get random extreme hunger cues and eat lots. it gets better, just don’t give up 💗

@__therealrapunzel 5 ай бұрын

@karo_karo 5 ай бұрын

@@__therealrapunzelahhh thank you so much for confirming! i have felt so confused until now ❤

@user-hx8ee9ly3q 5 ай бұрын

@@karo_karo just never restrict afterwards and those "binging" episodes WILL subside And i dont mean that what you do is binging Youre most likely eating large amounts sometimes cause your body really does need those "extra" calories It takes a LOT of calories for your body to heal the damage your ed caused

@fiona.is.healing 4 ай бұрын

I’m in exactly the same situation 🙈 I’m now in recovery since 4.5 month and feel so obsessed with food. I always have to make sure I have enough snacks with me, even when I just go to the city for 3 hours. I wake up pretty early bc I’m hungry and when I eat something I feel more hungry than before…

@mirchen01 5 ай бұрын

You are such a safe place ❤

@__therealrapunzel 5 ай бұрын

this is the best compliment ever, thankyou ❤

@mirchen01 5 ай бұрын

@@__therealrapunzel awww 🥹

@CheyenneHutchison-r5n 5 ай бұрын

Thank you for this video !🩵

@__therealrapunzel 5 ай бұрын

thankyou for watching!! ❤

@FrumpetMoof 5 ай бұрын

You are so stunning holy shit. You are seriously gorgeous 😍

@__therealrapunzel 5 ай бұрын

aww this is so kind, thankyou :)

@thomasdalby9031 5 ай бұрын

id love a fryed pizza right now

@giselarenner7007 5 ай бұрын

I've been in recovery for 5 weeks but now I'm just binging and have gained 18 pounds I'm still pretty dang skinny but I dk if this is normal bc I am hungry mentally

@ednahamulic6764 5 ай бұрын

It’s not bingeing, don’t worry darling ❤ I’m also in active recovery and actually I’m not underweight by any means (haven’t been in a long time), but I also struggle with mental hunger. I’m working with a professional and if I’ve learnt anything, it’s that we’ve got to trust our mental hunger because it’s the only way out. Our bodies need to gain trust again and they’ll do so if we continue to provide them with food however they may ask for it (mentally or by physical cues). I hope this helped! Trust your body, it wants best for you, it’s not working against you 🫶🏻 it’s only ED screaming louder because it’s dying!!

@vanessale1903 5 ай бұрын

I can’t say much since everyone’s different but sounds pretty normal, your bodys tryna regain back nutrients it’s been lacking

@Viro843 5 ай бұрын

Good job girl❤❤

@mooni-journey 4 ай бұрын

Tysm for your video! It’s so inspiring. Just a personal question: I have started try to restore weight and really want to recovery from anorexia. And I have heard a lot of extreme hunger as part of the recovery process. So I’m kind of expecting for it to come but it doesn’t so far. Does it means I’m not doing enough? Just thought having ‘extreme hunger’ might be helpful for me to feel easier to get more food in as I’m still struggling with low appetite. Thanks

@МаріяКороль-ч3и 4 ай бұрын

Not everyone may experience extreme hunger but u can experience it later and EH it's not not only physical hunger but also mental hunger. constant thoughts about food, watching mukbangs or looking at food at the stores all the time - this is extreme hunger too. If you're waiting for extreme hunger to eat more or to have permission to eat more, then don't. you have permission to eat what do you want, when do u want, how much do u want. but make sure you're not at risk to have refeeding syndrome..

@mooni-journey 4 ай бұрын

@@МаріяКороль-ч3и Those are really valid points and v helpful. Tysm

@katiagardnerthorpe 5 ай бұрын

So proud of you!

@FrumpetMoof 5 ай бұрын

Do you use fake tan? If so which do you use? You live in the UK which is cloudy most of the time yet you are so tan!

@__therealrapunzel 5 ай бұрын

i don’t! my mum has very olive skin & i’ve inherited a bit of it :))

@FrumpetMoof 5 ай бұрын

@@__therealrapunzelI’m so envious!!! It’s stunning 😍

@Fella. 5 ай бұрын

Love ur videos!!.

@__therealrapunzel 5 ай бұрын

thankyou so much!!

@LillianRuth-h2y 5 ай бұрын

16:39 were you watching the office USA 😅 I love that show 🫶🏼

@peepisspooo2002 5 ай бұрын

Can I ask which meds your on? Only if your comfortable to share ofc ❤

@__therealrapunzel 5 ай бұрын

ofc! i take sertraline :)

@salome1967 5 ай бұрын

What if I’ve struggled with anorexia AND bulimia and want to recover but the thought of honouring my mental hunger makes me so scared because I can’t stand the feeling of being full without being 🤢

@FrumpetMoof 5 ай бұрын

I was in a similar situation. However it turns out that it isn’t YOU who can’t stand feeling full, it’s your eating disorder. When you were child did you want to vomit whenever you felt satiated? I’m guessing not. The only way to win is to recognise that it isn’t you who’s unhappy it’s Anna (anorexia), and channel the same self-control and determination that brought you to this dark place, into recovery. I’m sure you used to feel hungry and hated that too, but gradually as you persisted your body got used to feeling hungry all the time and now it feels normal. But it’s not!! I used to dream about certain safe foods I considered treats, but when I finally recovered and tried them, I realised how gross and bland they were! When you are feeling full (which you have to in order to recover) and feel compelled to throw up, remind yourself that it is ANOREXIA and BULIMIA talking, and they don’t have your best interests at heart. In fact they want to kill you. Now, when it comes to challenging my eating disorder, I feel more guilt for not doing so as opposed to letting anorexia take control and avoiding the fear, because I’m well enough to now see that it’s an abusive relationship. I wish you all the best ❤

@r.m.5426 5 ай бұрын

❤❤❤

@squidward578 5 ай бұрын

Thankfully I was in a facility so I couldn’t honor my extreme hunger

@marcopaolimarin3525 5 ай бұрын

What if I suffer from binge eating ?

@Adrian-lb6hp 5 ай бұрын

In what sense do you mean this question? How to recover from it?

@gracie1x 5 ай бұрын

id recommend getting someone to speak to, someone online can only do so much. a therapist or a psychiatrist could be really helpful to you, if that’s not available look for people who have suffered from the same and see what they recommend. i wish you healing 🩵

@Roro-r1p 5 ай бұрын

Me too😢 How old are you?😊❤

@Sandra-Marina-u9y 5 ай бұрын

Seeing your scars remind me of bad times... Could you get rid of the razorblades?? I did not. I hope you did.😔

@squidward578 5 ай бұрын

Girl food is still your whole life you can’t even hide it. Recovery is not just about your food and body and that’s all you post about? You should take the focus off food and your body

@__therealrapunzel 5 ай бұрын

@@squidward578 it’s crazy but it’s almost like i have a whole life outside of what i post! you guys see such a small part of my life on social media :))

@Paul-gp6ol 4 ай бұрын

And?