Finally Opening Up.

[@jeremynedrow7003]

I was an opiate addict for 15 years because of my stepmother giving me oc 80s so she could cheat on my father without me telling on her. Ive struggled my ass off to make it. Since then ive married had my daughter graduated from college ,bought a home and succeeded in life. It will work out as long as you keep fighting. I promise life gets better. Were routing for your success. Your a fighter just like me. Never stop fighting. I have lived on my own since i was 15 and i totally understand your struggle.

[@ericasedc]

Jer! Man you have been here since the beginning. I cannot explain how meaningful our friendship is. I truly appreciate you. Thank you for always cheering for me- and supporting the channel.

[@jeremynedrow7003]

@@ericasedc I appreciate everything you have done. I'm glad the knife hobby has brought us together as friends.

[@b_shady_22]

Very similar struggle Brother .. Great Job for making a difference 👊🏼☑️💜

[@ronaldbundick9898]

I used to take OC 20mg & drink Straight Crown Royal & Beer but not now

[@Babyoilballer]

@@ronaldbundick9898OC is benign compared to what’s going around now

[@GaryRebok-jm2bt]

I came across your channel as a new enthusiast to knives. I’m also a pastor who feels the pain and struggles of your life. There is no magic wand to wave and I don’t try to do that, but I also feel your strength and my encouragement to you is to trust in yourself made in the image of God. You’ve made great strides, so don’t give up. I’ll pray for yo and continue supporting your channel.

[@ericasedc]

@@GaryRebok-jm2bt thank you so so much!!!!🥰

[@ericblase4873]

You’re probably the most authentic content creator I watch on KZbin. Rooting for you and sending good vibes. ❤

[@ericasedc]

Wow thank you!

[@pow-low]

I’ll continue to keep you in my prayers Erica. Thank you for opening up and sharing this vulnerable side with us. Please know that in the future I will always continue to pray for you whether or not you request it or whether or not you explain why the prayers/good vibes are being requested. Stay strong. Your story and struggles inspire me to be the best person I can be every day.

[@ericasedc]

Thank you. I need it!!! That means so much to me

[@Fr_dG]

That was very heartfelt. From, one total stranger to another, May God continue to bless you. 😊

[@ericasedc]

Thank you. God Bless❤🎉

[@PabloGonzalez-hw4eu]

Last night I Saw a random video of you..... and I liked a lot.You are such a lovely person and so young so beautiful soul. Best wishes to you from Argentina.

[@ericasedc]

@@PabloGonzalez-hw4eu Awh thank you!!! I really appreciate it!!!!

[@LibertyFromLead]

Erica I appreciate you making this video. And for what it's worth I wanna say keep trying and I can relate. I've felt like that my whole life too. My "mother" has her own issues and has never been there for me but a small amount of time. My grandparents raised me. I was also an opiate dependent from age 16 to 27. Mine started with hydrocodone which my mother gave me and then soon to be again for the second time step dad continued to use with me bc he was also an opiate user. Anyway, I'll be 40 the first week of December. I stopped using opiates and on November 9 it'll be 13 years. I did choose to use Methadone to help me. I have serious chronic pain that is debilitating and disables me in several parts of my body. I only have 4 disc in my back and neck that's not directly causing problems or very damaged in some way. I'm looking at three surgeries on my back and at least two and likely three on my neck. It scares me so I've put it off for a while. Dealing with that severe of chronic pain daily takes a humungous toll not only physically but mentally and emotionally. I'm like you and on the outside I try to hide it and be the strong positive one but am struggling inside. So many are for various reasons. That feeling of treading water you described and just not knowing what or how to do what it takes eventho on paper you know. I get that. I had to grow up very fast like you and never had that emotional or even physical guidance or basic direction. I was expected to know somehow even at less than 10 years old. I raised myself with everything including financial bc I had SSI from my father getting killed in a semi accident. Not the wreck but him being my father is a whole other issue itself that my mother is part of bc she told me later around 8 or so he really wasn't my father and my "real" father was another guy she was having an affair with but somehow was known. Who knows bc my mother lies constantly if she thinks she can or if it makes her not accountable or responsible or if someone will believe it. Like I said she has issues. But I'm thankful my grandparents were good to me and was my rocks. I took care of my grandmaw later on when she got down and sick until she passed RIP. She raised me and I told her of gladly and happily take care of her. That messed me up when she passed bc she was like my mother. Now I'm having to take care of my mother and brother eventho my mother is in better shape than me. My brother has issues with Asperger's and has some autistic things and some other mental and physical issues he needs help with. He doesn't drive. Ok this is another thing I work on. I end up a little unbalanced and talk too much about my own problems when I'm wanting and intending on being there for someone like in this situation with you. So I'll stop yappin' sorry. I just want you to know somehow eventho we don't know each other whatsoever that I don't know how to help directly but just know that you are special and really are a great person that helps more than you know. I wish there was some way for you to feel different and get the things and resources that you need to help in those ways. It's ridiculous but of you could have simple help you would come out on a higher level bc of it. I dont know what to say besides thanks and I appreciate you. I like knives a lot but I'm not a super serious knife nerd as much as you and say CutleryLover Jeff and Jacob Peterson and others are. I enjoy y'all's channels for them yes but mostly for the regular stuff like life stuff and personality. You always close with great advice like to "learn to use your shit" and "learn to sharpen your knives" and you tell everybody that you love us and to "TAKE CARE" so we know and have someone. That says a lot Erica and I appreciate that and you. Hope you feel better and can get thru and find some helpful ways. Also hope you find some way to get health insurance and a good steady stable income bc you deserve to. That will help a tremendous amount. Anyway, 🗣️Love you girl. TAKE CARE ! 🫂🫶🏼🇺🇸

[@ericasedc]

Thank you so much for sharing your story! We all have one. I am humbled to be categorized with those guys. THANK YOU❤

[@narkfly]

Erica, you have been a breath of fresh air in the KZbin knife community - your emphasis on transparency, reliability during actual use of tools versus gimmicks & talking points, and your dedicated efforts to help us learn how to (freehand!) sharpen the tools we have invested money in... you are a gem, as Nick Shabazz would say. I wish I could give you a hug (I am told I am a good hugger, I learned from my great aunt who gave the best hugs in the world). Sending you love from Tennessee (it's warmer down here). Here are a couple things this video has me feeling that I want to share with you: First, something that has helped me get through troubling times. Everyone has their own struggles, I can't compare my low times with yours - but I found something that has helped me get through mine. Abraham Lincoln's phrase that helped him get through the struggles he faced with some of the darkest times in this country's history: "This, too, shall pass." It may seem a trite platitude on its surface, but fully embracing the notion gives a great amount of power to your ability to weather any storm, and can take power away from any obstacle's ability to deter your indomitability. You have a fierce, individualistic determination in you. I can see it, and I very much respect it. You have persevered to be where you are today, and you will absolutely persevere to overcome the current obstacle / setback in your way right now. I would encourage you to give credence to the thoughts that give you the strength to persevere, as this phrase has helped me. "This, too, shall pass." Second, some of what you touch on in this video indicates something of a feeling of lack of direction. If you haven't looked into Stoicism, I think its groundedness in reality and in personal strength may be in line with your way of looking at the world. I wish you all the best, you are a great benefit to the tool-centered community of KZbin. I hope your gamble of opening up pays dividends in seeing support from those you have helped and benefited so much. Peace to you, my dear.

[@ericasedc]

Thank you so much for the advice. I am totally taking it all in❤

[@steveb6553]

Thoughts and prayers for you Erica! The knife community loves and appreciates you!!✌️

[@ericasedc]

I appreciate ALL of you!!!

[@edcevo3052]

I had my legs crushed in a motorcycle wreck when I was 20 and got addicted and I'm 40 now still battling it! So props to you!

[@ericasedc]

Omg. I am SO SORRY

[@edcevo3052]

@@ericasedc it's all good. They were suppose to amputate my legs but I got to keep them and I can still walk so I'm blessed for sure!

[@mannynieves493]

My family pray for you and God always be with you and go to bless you and your work. God bless you and the best wishes for you 🙏.

[@ericasedc]

Thanks so much for the blessings ❤

[@pstaehlin]

My heart is sad for you. I appreciate you opening up like you have. Thank you for sharing. I'm all the way on the left coast in Oregon but if I could I'd give you a big hug. Hang in there and be strong. YOU ARE LOVED!!

[@ericasedc]

We can just do a virtual hug🥰

[@paullmight42]

I lost most of my 20s to oxy...i don't wish it on my worst enemy...I am 42 now, clean since january 2011...

[@ericasedc]

Congrats man. That one is a life destroyer. I took part in many addictions. That one kept a hold on me the worst though.

[@paullmight42]

@@ericasedc sounds right

[@wtalex378]

We're with you and we love you!!! Thank you for opening up and sharing with us. It isn't easy! You are not alone!!

[@ericasedc]

I love you!!!

[@bigg7379]

Came for the knife vids. Want you to know you are loved and you are worth it. We all have days where we struggle and feel less than but you’ve been fighting your whole life and I’m proud of you. Thank you for sharing this with us.

[@ericasedc]

@@bigg7379 thank you for your love!!!!!!!

[@jasonmccomas7220]

I’m 46 and battled for 12 years addicted to OC’s. I tried methadone then suboxone and then finally I was so sick of being sick. My son was born January 9th 2007 and I got sober and clean before he was born. He was the thing I needed to get clean. I thought to myself I’ll be damned if my son is born to a dad who is a drug dealing addict and by the time he was born I was six months clean and I never looked back. I lost my son to a drunk driver killing him about two minutes from home on July 4th. He was 17 years old and his name was Braxton. I lost him to the thing I preached to him his whole life. You don’t need drugs or alcohol to have a good time. There’s nothing wrong with going to a party sober and having fun, but unfortunately I lost him to the thing I spent 17 years trying to protect him from. I’m proud of you Erica!

[@ericasedc]

Ok this is heart breaking. I am so sorry about that brother. What a tragedy. You are so strong❤

[@jasonmccomas7220]

@@ericasedc thank you Erica. ❤️

[@fireside9503]

Man, you just won my heart. 45yr old dad here. Your amazing, kid. Don’t change a thing. You’re smart, level headed, and driven. I cannot imagine having to deal with the shit you’ve had to deal with as a kid. Keep banging away at this channel. Make hoodies or something. I’ll be here to support you.

[@ericasedc]

Hoodies would be awesome! Thanks for the love!

[@nicoledodge7240]

I love you Erica!!!! You’re such a fighter, and so damn smart!!! We’re figuring it all out one step at a time, life is absolutely crazy and hard but it’s very brave of you to share your story and thoughts 💕 you worded it perfectly too, we can all relate with our own struggles! 😢

[@ericasedc]

I LOVE YOU BEST!!!!!!!!❤🎉

[@mikececconi2677]

You are rad, you make a lot of people's internet experience better. We can't really ever know you on a deeper level, which is probably for the best for all, para-social stuff is usually unhealthy, but know that even as strangers, you make our lives better on youtube and insta and that's something! I'm sure with your in-person friends and co-workers, you do so much more. I'm sorry your path has been so difficult but, you know, you're doing it well. Thank you for your vids.

[@ericasedc]

Thank you for your kindness and support! ❤

[@ericasedc]

Thank you so much! And I truly appreciate you sharing all that with me!!!! I love you. ❤

[@rognuald9007]

May you be blessed with a good change of fortune.

[@ericasedc]

Thank you so much

[@LisaMichaud-v1w]

Being vulnerable can be difficult. But you are stronger than you think. I will be praying for you every day. 🙏💜

[@ericasedc]

Thank you L❤

[@gregmerryman7939]

Much respect for everything you've overcome. You should be very proud of yourself. Don't ever give up. My thoughts are with you 👍

[@ericasedc]

Never giving up.

[@offroad4fun100]

Your great. I watch your videos from time to time. Looks like a lot of people support you. Press on and stay strong. Good things are around the corner. Thank you for sharing.

[@ericasedc]

@@offroad4fun100 thank you so much for the encouragement and kind words!!!

[@hanagreen1909]

Erica, this is my first time to your channel. I'm glad this video was recommended. First off, just a tip here, what you just experienced with your landlord and not being able to continue doing your leather-work on his premises, that is a very valuable life lesson. Move in silence as much as possible in life. In other words, share with people only what they need to know, and that goes for EVERYONE. This doesn't mean you should be cold and secretive. It means don't overshare. Believe me, if you get this lesson, it will save you a lot more grief in life. "Set backs" are often simply lessons. If you let go of your past hurts, and accept the challenges as just that, challenges, that can be overcome, life won't seem so heavy and burdensome. I can relate somewhat to your back story. Even though I received a good foundation as a child with my parents, the overall family dynamics was dysfunctional and I soon learned that they didn't like me. It took me a while to really accept that. I never created any problems for them, so it was hard to understand. But in truth, the signs of their rejection of me started from when I was born. I thank the Almighty Creator for any and all kindness and care I've received in this world. That is the key. You don't have to be religious to open your mind and heart to the Universal truths, wisdom and love that's out there. Even the one known to this world as "Jesus" taught people about the reality of what truly makes family. He said, "You (to his disciples) are my family. You are my mother, brothers and sisters. He saw his true parents as the Heavenly Father and Mother (yes, Mother also), that was taken out of the Bible by the patriarchal church. I spent most of my twenties trying to just gain my balance, stay in college and maintain a place of my own. When I look back I think when a young person repeatedly has the rug pulled out from under them, they will usually have a lot more problems adjusting to life, but it can be done. You just have to know that you are not alone, not matter how things may appear. This world is not what it seems. So much is dependent on our outlook, so if you hold onto hurt, anger, disappointments from the past, you risk attracting those same circumstances (and people) into your life again. I now understand what Einstein meant when he said imagination is more important than intelligence. We have to be able to imagine the life we want for ourselves, no matter how things started out, and then have the courage to pursue it. Many people spend their entire lives trying to make sense of the past, why their parents were the way they were. I believe in reincarnation (I've practically been given proof). Some things are connected to our Karma. Some things, though difficult, are meant to be that way to force us to reach higher. I know for myself, if things are too comfortable for me, I've had a tendency to become complacent, and that is the real enemy. I wish the best for you. Stay strong. Don't limit yourself, no matter what. And don't look to others for approval, acceptance, or permission. Your life, your hopes and your dreams are between you and the Almighty Creator. The All-Parent is the one you need to build the true and strong relationship with. This will give you the strength and confidence to know that anything is possible. Peace and Love ❤

[@ericasedc]

@@hanagreen1909 you are so right. I am listening. And taking that advice. I promise. Thank you!

[@hanagreen1909]

@@ericasedc You're welcome sweetie.

[@christopherbattles68]

Thank you for sharing. Just said a prayer for thee. We never know what others have gone through and overcome.

[@ericasedc]

I really appreciate the prayer❤

[@connorallison3628]

Thinking of you, Erica! Sending positive vibes and lots of love your way.

[@ericasedc]

Thanks brother. You’re the best❤

[@joex]

good luck to you!! u are a nice person! in the end u will win!

[@ericasedc]

Thanks so much Joe!!!!

[@WhatsthePOINT_EDC]

Well said. Keep your head up.👊 #NeverQuitQuitting #NeverGiveUp

[@ericasedc]

Never ever!

[@TheShurikenZone]

Man... God bless you, Erica. This calls Milton to mind... 'Long is the way and hard, that out of hell leads up to Light.' You're trudging in the right direction, sister; you'll make it. 🙏

[@ericasedc]

@@TheShurikenZone always do!!!! Thanks man!!!!

[@TheShurikenZone]

@@ericasedc 😄👍👍

[@b_shady_22]

Much Love & RESPECT Erica ! I’m 38 & just crossed 5 years CLEAN OFF OPIATES as of 8/30/24 .. The OXY’s & O.C’s were my downfall aswell .. 12 years on had a Mother that contributed no matter how close to death things got.. Sick, Sad, World. .. Most of those I ran with are no longer here which is a sad realization.. Glad to say I’m here after it all. 💙✊🏼💜

[@ericasedc]

All my love to you. We all need to have each others backs

[@b_shady_22]

@@ericasedc Very MUCH agree ! ☑️

[@truthseeker071]

Erica, you ARE and were a good person!! You had horrible parents in my opinion. You have overcome so much and are such a kind person. Keep moving forward and don't look back! Just overcoming addiction is extremely hard let alone surviving your childhood! You are a great person with a big heart! Don't forget that ever!❤Hugs to you and God bless!

[@ericasedc]

Thanks I really appreciate that

[@jamesduckett74]

At the age of 50, I am still dealing with a past of addiction as well as having to constantly try to adjust to the bending of reality. Not saying it's good or bad but you get tempered like steel and are able to withstand. Erica you are a humble soul and have life lessons that will enable you to the future you seek! Prayers girl❤

[@ericasedc]

Thanks so much- I need them!❤

[@colepotts2420]

Another detour can be super frustrating. It took me a long time but finally got a permanent workshop. Don't give up on your leather work. Find a way to keep making and eventually it will come together. Thanks for the knife videos.

[@ericasedc]

@@colepotts2420 Thanks for the encouragement ♥️♥️found a place!!!

[@terryanderson8075]

To live is to suffer. Rich or poor, mighty or low, dissatisfaction stalks us all. Try to accept and love your life as it is and try not to chase happiness. Pursue wellness and one day happiness will sneak up on you. I love your channel…not just for the information, but for you as well.

[@ericasedc]

@@terryanderson8075 that just made my whole day. Thank you

[@hinnomtx]

Tons of respect. Lots of people don't manage much out of turbulent childhood like yours, tons don't make it off the street, and tons never make it out of the camper. You've accomplished a lot!

[@ericasedc]

My entire family is a bunch of addicts. I am too- but so glad I escaped without dipping into H.

[@customknife1]

Godspeed. Soldier on.

[@ericasedc]

On it friend❤

[@carbonobsessed]

Thank you for sharing this part of you, your story, E. Not many will allow themselves to be vulnerable. Shows great courage to do so. You are a wonderful soul and deserve great things. Still lifting you up buddy. Keep on the path. We are walking beside you with love and here for you. Blessed be sis. 🙏🏼🤗🧡

[@ericasedc]

I appreciate you sis!

[@Circa1664]

I found happiness for the first time in my life shortly before my 41st birthday this past May. It came in the form of an incredible woman, seemingly dropped out of the sky. She was everything I ever wanted in a partner and so much more. And just like that, two days ago, the universe took her away as abruptly as it had dropped her off. I appreciate and admire your ability to keep your chin up. I've made the decision not to check out and for me that means being as positive an influence as I can be in this world. Otherwise, what's the point. Admittedly, I'm also afraid the next life could be worse.

[@ericasedc]

Wow… that is crazy. I’m so sorry… 😢❤

[@Circa1664]

@@ericasedc Thanks and thanks for sharing some of your story.

[@streettuff2623]

You have a lot of wonderful talents, one of them being tough as hell. Prayers sent

[@ericasedc]

I appreciate you!!! ❤

[@frankhoffman2962]

You're gonna be okay honey. I'm in my 70'.s and still have some really bad times sometimes. Much loneliness and hurtfulness from people lying and stealing from me. Just keep the faith in what is good. God loves you so much and so do I.❤

[@ericasedc]

Thanks for the love man

[@jojo2904]

You have shared with us lots of really great things. Sharing your pain is a sacred and very brave thing to do. It connects us all. I had the opposite upbringing… over-sheltered and raised in a cult… but pain is always the same. We see you and appreciate you. Close your eyes and crowd surf on our hands for a little bit… we got you :)

[@ericasedc]

Oh trust me I get the cult. My mom’s side is so insanely religious. I obviously was disowned for my sexuality haha

[@jojo2904]

Same lol. You decided to live authentically much sooner than i did… took me til i was 32. Much respect for your courage. Please remember to be so proud of yourself, and keep that beautiful head of yours held high 🧡 if you ever wanna talk, you got a friend in CT.

[@DanaBlanco-UFC]

Hi Erica, been a subscriber (this is my new account), since you spoke up about the Rick Hinderer situation (against Transparent Knives). I wish you luck, and stay strong. 💪🏽 🙏🏽✝️

[@ericasedc]

@@DanaBlanco-UFC thank you so much. You rock!!!!

[@DanaBlanco-UFC]

@@ericasedc ☺️

[@slipjointedc]

Thank you for sharing, I admire your strength and courage sharing your story with us, Godspeed Erica 👊

[@ericasedc]

Thanks so much ❤❤❤❤

[@rickrobinson8417]

Rooting for you

[@ericasedc]

Thanks I need it❤

[@BryansKnivesKy]

Thanks for sharing, Erica. I’ll certainly pray for you and hope some great things come your way soon!

[@ericasedc]

Thanks so much!!!

[@garirish8286]

Hugs.

[@ericasedc]

Thanks. I need them. ❤

[@hirokiide7750]

Wow, you are super courageous to share your personal side! I'm sure it's really helpful for many viewers to relate. I'm sure the life can get really tough, but keep plugging on with your good work! I really enjoy your knife reviews. Thank you.

[@ericasedc]

@@hirokiide7750 It was really hard to do- but so worth it!!!! Thank you for stopping in♥️

[@clavididk1236]

I got into pills and heroin fentynal from around 14 and quit when i was 27. But i had to go to the clinic and take meds everyday just to feel normal but it beats waiting for a dealer on the street smh 🤦

[@ericasedc]

Hey what ever you need to do right man

[@clavididk1236]

@@ericasedc exactly 💯 🙌 congrats btw

[@CamboTriton]

You’re a strong person. I enjoy your videos! I’ve been struggling with addiction for a few years now, I’m 56 years old.

[@ericasedc]

You can beat it. I promise. We all can!

[@mastermasonjoewillis3904]

You ARE a winner.

[@ericasedc]

Failure 😂 But maybe some day!

[@keithtincher7223]

Now that ive watched the rest of this video.congrats on what you've achieved considering what you've been thru...i think you're doing good!keep it up

[@ericasedc]

@@keithtincher7223 awh thank you!!!!!

[@Babymoonblades]

I don’t know what to say other than I’m sorry. This breaks my heart.

[@ericasedc]

All my love you both of you❤

[@RyanPennington87]

Tough life. I’ve had it easy by comparison. But we all have our struggles for sure. Thanks for opening up.

[@ericasedc]

Thanks for watching!

[@petermartinka9274]

basically, I don't care who went through what. we've all been through our shit that never ends. being clean is 100% good. but I will tell you one thing, my English is better from video to video. :)) Thank you for improving my English. There are not many channels that I enjoy and am willing to listen to.

[@ericasedc]

So glad you enjoy it❤

[@petermartinka9274]

@@ericasedc I wish you much success with your videos. It's already dark here +7 hours, so good night.

[@beastreal100]

My sympathy for your struggles. Your struggles through these continuous hardships are a testimony to your determination and strength. Keep pushing on and never give up. Never, never give up.

[@ericasedc]

@@beastreal100 I won’t♥️♥️♥️

[@jasonbeecher509]

I pray for you. Im very sorry your suffering

[@ericasedc]

Thanks J

[@mac9040]

Keep on keeping on, soldier. Sending all the good vibrations and prayers Erica🙏

[@ericasedc]

I really appreciate you

[@Red-vi2ez]

The USA seems to be such a unforgiving And hard society compared to sweden where i live. I really hope you’ll get a break in life you deserve that. Keep on fighting.

[@ericasedc]

It is getting pretty bad here.

[@crazyone5409]

You’re in New Hampshire? Awesome. Fellow New Englander Massachusetts here Now, you’ve just won my heart. I’ve had family deal with addiction. It’s not fun but they battled the demons and won just like you have. Thank you. Love your channel and love all your videos. Especially the ones with Spyderco. Keep up the awesome job and keep kicking ass.

[@ericasedc]

We are neighbors! ❤

[@crazyone5409]

@@ericasedc Yes we are. Awesome!

[@dannyhensley983]

I've been there but if you keep working at it every thing will be alright. Look towards Jesus if anyone knows what you're going through he does.

[@ericasedc]

Thank you

[@TheSummerallFamily]

You are doing great a job!! Your a bad ass! Things are not always peachy and we are not always good on the inside even if we look happy on the outside. You got this.

[@ericasedc]

@@TheSummerallFamily thank you for the kind words!!!! I appreciate you

[@DamienNeverwinter]

I know I don't comment much, but TBH you are one of my favourite youtubers. Before you give up, think of the reasons why you held on so long. Love you Erica, don't ever give up, you'll get the break you deserve in the end.

[@ericasedc]

You are amazing. Thank you for your love. I am sending it right back!❤🎉

[@desertborn7579]

In many cases just surviving is an accomplishment all its own. You are a trooper demonstrating great strength and resilience. I sure admire the person you are.

[@ericasedc]

There is nothing to admire trust me hahahaha

[@WickedKnivesandThings]

You don't need insurance for mental health here in TN it's free I had to sign up and I am going through the same thing as you but if you were willing to relocate me and my girlfriend need someone to go in with to get a house.

[@ericasedc]

@@WickedKnivesandThings wow awesome!!!

[@WickedKnivesandThings]

@@ericasedcyes

[@gruanger]

I had a bad childhood too. My dad was abusive. My mom went the opposite and went crazy religion and controlling. Both tried to outspend the others, both would destroy childhood dreams, both didn't let me have friends or exist. From around 8, my food and my clothing, I had to work for. My only escape was reading. I share this to say that parents and childhood trauma really can affect you for life in really bad ways. Although, I was always 99.99 percentile on testing and did well in school, I never went anywhere. I have no dreams or passions. I am only floating in life. I actually look up to you! I can watch all the average people in my school, the better than average, they are all doing super well in life. They had a passion, or good families and it meant they just lived life. Although I have never had addictions, or real struggles, I don't know what I want, people will say I can do anything, but there is nothing I want to do and that is depressing too. I know lots of people have hidden struggles, I just wish Parents and Families could understand what they do to a kid is permanent and will forever affect them.

[@ericasedc]

Ok that is disturbing. I’m so sorry. That’s messed up. All my love to you❤

[@ningayeti]

Erica, I am a 66 years old retired medical professional and I have known many very intelligent and successful people over the years. I would like you to know that I consider you to be one of the sweetest, considerate, intelligent, and well spoken people that I have ever known. I am going to send you some money to make your day a little brighter. I assume that you know of Jeff's channel "Cutlerylover". A couple of years ago when he needed extra money and I suggested that he set aside one month to personally sharpen and strop fans knives for money, but he said that the logistics of all the shipments were too much to deal with - and I understand that. Maybe you think differently. I, for one, would gladly pay $25 per knife to have "YOU" give my knives some love (and you wouldn't need to do any of the serrations). Anyway; it's just a thought, and maybe a bad one. Regardless; I'm sending some money today as soon as I am finished with some tasks here.

[@ericasedc]

I know him!!!! If I had somewhere to live it would be a great idea. ❤

[@NathanShines]

Props to you for what you've been through and where you're at. 2 years and some change free from alcohol after messing my life up on my own accord. Keep up the good work. Another day sober is an accomplishment within itself.

[@ericasedc]

Absolutely

[@donc5220]

Love Ya I know how tough that is I didnt finish school and was a young addict who fought with his dad alot Im still stuggle bussing daily but moving forward I had that not wanted feeling as a child Happy to say almost 5 yrs Sober.... Love you Erica! You Brighten alot of ppl for real.

[@ericasedc]

I LOVE YOU DON!

[@TheDoomWizard]

Life is tough af

[@ericasedc]

@@TheDoomWizard sure is

[@michaelsherman931]

Hey hey, so this is my first time coming across your channel. And I'm subbing, without even seeing the content. On the strength alone of you sharing your past struggles. I'm in recovery myself. Always share, even when you think others don't care. We do care, there's an epidemic in this country and few make it out the otherside. The majority of the population have been affected in some form or fashion, and it's important to know they're not alone. Too many struggle in silence unfortunately. Be a beacon and never be ashamed. As you know the journey was not easy. I'm rooting for you to keep building back better. To those struggling, reach out and ask for the help, there's a legit army of people that have battled these demons, and are ready to help at a moments notice. I sincerely hope you reach for it, before it's too late. You deserve it. Beyond that I'm assuming this is edc knife related channel. Getting into knife work was one thing I got into since cleaning up, and I don't think I'll ever stop. I never would have found the love for it, along with all the other new hobbies I've picked up, if I were still lost in addiction. So salute to you, thanks for sharing, and once again, if anyone needs help, even an ear to vent too, reach out. Even to me for what it's worth, the best version of you has yet to come ❤

[@ericasedc]

@@michaelsherman931 thank you for listening to my story!!!!! I am absolutely amazed at how many people this touched. This is the beauty in raw, real connection. I am so happy you are here and I love you!!!!!!

[@BalticBlades]

Oh wow, I am blown away, I found your channel nto so long ago, but its so much different then all the others, so much sincerity and no gimmics. I hope you'll do well, I am pulling for ya.

[@ericasedc]

Hey thanks so much brother❤

[@DrRWH]

Some days it’s just a bit much, and that’s OK. It’s OK to be NOT OK. It seems to me you’ve come along way from your start. That’s pretty good.

[@Trish-o2t]

My prayer is been said you'll find a way is that dude just being an asshole or is illegal in New hamp to make leather crafts the boy scout and girl scouts do it wet the hell

[@ericasedc]

He just hates me and is trying to ruin my life

[@snesleywipessqueegeeservices]

Look what you've created though.. this is a great knife channel and you've got a great well deserved following. Well done Erica Big ups! I relate and know that the struggle is real 🙏😎💪

[@ericasedc]

@@snesleywipessqueegeeservices hey thanks dude!!!!

[@hdrvman]

Leather work illegal ???? Come on.....get your butt out of there.... Sounds like he doesn't want you to get ahead so he can CONTROL you !!!!! Good luck kiddo !!!!

[@ericasedc]

Yes that’s definitely it…

[@just_nate_8694]

Exactly what I was thinking

[@ericasedc]

@@just_nate_8694 He’s claiming I’m running an illegal business when I’m actually an independent contractor. He won’t listen though. He just hates me and wants to ruin my life and that’s ok. Everyone is entitled to their opinion.

[@greengorilla8401]

Sending best wishes to you, Neighbor. You seem like a strong and genuine person. I've learned much from your channel. Not being afraid to try to sharpen my knives for example. Thank you. Take care.

[@ericasedc]

So glad you have learned. That’s what I’m here for!

[@Headhighinc]

I struggled most of my life with drugs and alcohol I lost my little brother when he was 15 to fentanyl that he got from my mom I’m coming up on 6yrs sober and life is good I’m praying for you Erica ❤

[@ericasedc]

@@Headhighinc thank you for the prayers! And I am so sorry for your loss♥️

[@ikeg.7931]

Strongest, most beautiful person I know!! Love you Erica. You are truly a success and a blessing to the community. You have a great head on your shoulders! Stay strong kid!! You’re a WINNER!!!! Thanks for sharing your story. 👊🏻❤

[@ericasedc]

All my love you YOU brother. You are amazing

[@Melkorify]

Hey, atleast you are not the guy from survive knives.

[@ericasedc]

Stop.

[@hillbillyridgeoutdoors]

Praying for you. You have done amazing. This community loves you!!!

[@ericasedc]

I love you guys so much

[@homeofinventions]

Do you have another job after quitting one?

[@ericasedc]

My job was the leather work

[@homeofinventions]

@@ericasedc I meant before that.

[@ericasedc]

@@homeofinventions yes before that I worked at a service dog non profit for 2 years

[@homeofinventions]

@@ericasedc OK - are you going to pursue something non-leather related now?

[@ericasedc]

@@homeofinventions no. I want to try to keep doing it. I have 30 days to get out. I will do it at my new place.

[@DM-sq3jm]

Your channel is a breath of fresh air in our community. Although I'm saddened to know about what you're going through, I encourage you to take heart in the knowledge that many of us have been through difficult times as well and we've made it out the other side. I also feel compelled to share the following: One of the biggest lessons I've had to learn is that the idea that God only gives us what we can handle simply isn't true. Life kept giving me so much more than I knew what to do with until I finally turned to God for help. It wasn't an overnight turnaround, but it did set my life on a different path. I'm praying for you. Much love from AR.

[@ericasedc]

@@DM-sq3jm you are so right!!!!

[@ClarksKentuckyKnives]

I know you’ve heard this but I’ve seen Jesus turn peoples lives completely around. Give him a chance, his grace is free! I’m praying for you!

[@thetschoni3813]

What an inadequate comment…

[@aetonshirdlu]

​@@thetschoni3813Now That's What I Call Edgy!!!!

[@thetschoni3813]

@@aetonshirdlu to make myself clear i did not mean to offend. I work as a deacon. I just found this comment to be so cold. Not because of the meaning but of the situation. Sometimes people use religious prases/platitudes to protect themselves and to keep themselves away from sorrow. I felt this way with this comment.

[@MountainAjar]

We’re here to uplift each other. Keep pushing forward! God bless us all . God bless you Erica .

[@ericasedc]

I appreciate you❤

[@iamgaryaustin]

Thanks for sharing !

[@ericasedc]

Thanks for watching!!!

[@marcusg503]

TAKE IT TO JESUS, HE CREATED EVERYTHING, HOLDS ALL POWER, AND LOVES HIS CHILDREN.

[@ericasedc]

@@marcusg503 thanks for watching!

[@KnifeWatch]

Agree only Jesus heals.

[@buckaroobanzai2551]

Im from New Hampshire and I also fell into opiate addiction. In 2013 I fell 45' off of some scaffolding, wasn't great obviously. After multiple surgeries and years of being fed pills I was hopelessly addicted and turned to heroin. Took awhile to shake it but you just keep fighting and eventually you get there. Thanks for sharing, your not alone!

[@ericasedc]

Wow congrats getting off it. It’s so much harder when you get hooked from escaping physical pain. That’s what got me on them.

[@buckaroobanzai2551]

@ericasedc Yea it was definitely tough and in retrospect way too easy to get hooked. Never dawned on me until it was way too late that I was now a junkie. Im still in pain but I just deal with it and eat weed gummies when it gets too bad.

[@DustyRhoades]

You are an amazing person with an incredible soul. Some of the young adults I see causing havoc at colleges these days should see your story and realize what a good life they have and have had. God bless you. 🙏🏻

[@ericasedc]

@@DustyRhoades Thank you so much for the kind words. They truly mean the world to me!

[@josephmartin1540]

Certainly praying. You have accomplished things I can’t do and you do the biggie of success. You keep doing the next step. Therefore, I see you as a success. PS - I like your mind. It is like the engineers I was raised by when young.

[@ericasedc]

Thank you man

[@LowriderSteve6921]

New sub here and a prayer, I’ve seen a few of your videos before from me becoming a new knife collector. But I totally understand the struggles of addiction. I’m praying for god to bless you richly and take away your worries and any struggles. 🙏🙏

[@ericasedc]

Thank you so much

[@_BLANK_BLANK]

I have a similar story in a lot of ways. I also got addicted to drugs as a teen. Pills at first, then that turned into heroin, and everything else. It went passed 18 for me though. I'm a similar age to you now actually. I just got 5 years sober. Have had a truly crazy life to get where I am now. Thankfully one thing that is good about going through this stuff, and making it out. Is you can use your experience to help people who are currenly going through a similar thing now, in a way people who haven't been through this stuff just can't. Because they just can''t understand what it''s like. Anyway. Just whatever you do, keep going. Sometimes plans we have don't work how we want them to, but at least for myself. I can't spend time worrying about if yesterday didn't go how I wanted, or last week, or the last hour. Since we really just have the moment we are in now. So tryingt to stay in the here, and now is the best thing to do. To have better things in the future.

[@ericasedc]

@@_BLANK_BLANK I hear ya. I am trying!!!

[@IronButterknife]

Your attitude is spectacular. You seem like you will end up blessed in a way that will make you comfortable. Bless you and good luck.

[@ericasedc]

Thank you❤❤❤❤

[@xkarlsonx]

It will never become easier, but you will become stronger! Keep going...

[@ericasedc]

I will!

[@pewpewbbqs]

I don't know how you appeared on my timeline but God bless you... I'm a recovering heroin addict , I know the struggles

[@ericasedc]

Blessings to you❤

[@EDCMECH]

As they say and I have witnessed many times in my life, "This too shall pass" and it will. You have a good head on your shoulders and your adversity will fuel you to greatness! Sending good vibes!

[@ericasedc]

I appreciate you so much S!

[@Victorn200632]

Hi Erica, you're in my thoughts and prayers. Keep doing what you do best! Thank you for sharing.

[@ericasedc]

Thank you so much

[@jhoodly]

Your sharing makes you stronger. Next right thing, one day at a time. Lifting you up and sending you love ❤!

[@ericasedc]

Thanks for the love!!!!!

[@the_knights_edge]

You are awesome! You are enough, you are loved and you are wanted. More than you know. You're one of the smartest people I've watched, and very talented. Its easy to say, but keep your head up. You haven't even known the best part of your life yet!

[@ericasedc]

Wow thank you. That made my day!!!!!

[@the_knights_edge]

@@ericasedc good! You deserve all the good days!🤘🤘

[@robertbarker5802]

I want to believe you will have a combo of strength, luck, determination, and whatever else to get where you need to be.

[@ericasedc]

One day it will end❤

[@Mr.Nemo-]

You are not alone in your experiences. You nailed it right in the head about parents not setting you up for success. Been battling homelessness since I was in High School. For people like us it does not get easier, I just learned to roll with the punches. The Military saved me for a few years. I wish I was still in, 3 meals a day, housing and good friends is what is needed sometimes. You will find your calling.

[@ericasedc]

Thank you man

[@EC88838]

The fact you are here, posting, and doing better than before is a testament to your will!

[@ericasedc]

@@EC88838 thank you man!