Evan Bartels - Shotgun | OurVinyl Sessions

[@crod-x5q]

The fact this song only has 58k views is a crime to music.

[@OurVinyl]

We don't disagree.

[@ZephyrPsalm]

it is criminal. I just found this artist and HOLY SHIT!!!!

[@mard9802]

The first time I heard your music was on Michael Palmisano's channel about 25 min's ago. And you're a wonderful artist.

[@gisz0]

Same here, came from Michael as well. All can I say is... what a great artist, and powerful song! It hits you real hard after a bunch of listens.

[@OurVinyl]

Glad you're here! You can see Evan's entire OurVinyl Session here: kzbin.info/www/bejne/nGishJ2Oectqoc0

[@mard9802]

@@OurVinyl CD ordered yesterday and looking forward to getting it!

[@alecbissey2227]

Same. Holy freaking crap. I owe so many songs to Michael.

[@flipmode155]

Also here thanks to Michael, what a amazing talent this guy is!!

[@jgmeals]

I'm 43 years old. there's only about a handful of songs that put tears in my eyes and now this one is one of them.

[@EvanBartelsMusic]

Thanks for listening Jason

[@Kickstart500]

I’m 59 and could say the exact same.. just damn man

[@neilklein1248]

Me too brother

[@danielweissel2366]

what are the others if you don't mind sharing? keen for some new songs on my rotation

[@SingleMaltBuckeye]

​@@danielweissel2366cant outrun what runs in the family

[@samuelfink4799]

“ might not be better but it can’t get worse”, I wished I didn’t understand the sentiment that line conveys but I do, painfully beautiful.

[@camodown]

There is a conundrum to songs like this. You want to live in it when you first hear it and play it on repeat but at the same time you don’t want to lose the feeling you had when you first heard it by over playing it.

[@hershelr.sullivaniii7139]

YES. There should be a one word name for this feeling.

[@mollyfox7174]

Dude holy shit. I don’t even know what to say anymore. I will never stop listening to this song. This story.

[@Picknjewels]

I have never in my life every seen a music video this powerful and authentic and heart wrenching with such genuine passion. ..speechless

[@samronan871]

I'm also here from Michael Palmisano's channel, and I have no words. I can't speak enough to how incredible a song and performance this is... It's a rare thing for an undoubtedly timeless piece of music to come along, but this is now one of those songs for me. Thank you for sharing this with the world.

[@erenunal9733]

tonights a night to cry because of this song

[@SaxtonEB]

I agree. This song keeps the tears rolling.

[@erenunal9733]

@@SaxtonEB yea the last song i cried my ass off to was pony bradshaw 10x10 and that was a while ago

[@SaxtonEB]

@@erenunal9733 oh yes, I know that one. This river by JJ Grey & Mofro had me crying like a baby a while back and still does. Adding Shotgun to the list now.

[@EvanBartelsMusic]

Been there 100%

[@nathansweeney5048]

Heart and soul poured into every. single. word.

[@EvanBartelsMusic]

No other way to live ✊🏻

[@jatin7361]

Absolutely. He didn't waste a single note in this tune. Scratch that. He didn't waste a single note in this piece of art.

[@ShadyOne9]

Damn you can tell this man lives this…. One of the most powerful things I’ve ever seen.

[@ellio1623]

Its annoying that this aint in the millions of views. Give me chills and feelings and not much does in life.

[@mikes.6751]

Beautiful song. I struggle with depression and anxiety. I have to admit it does cross my mind sometimes. But I’m still here.

[@OurVinyl]

Sending our love your way. We're on your side

[@pradleybee7828]

Stay strong brother! You’re not alone. The best highs come from the deepest lows. Much love…

[@ywaya5333]

I just wanted to say that your honesty in your songs is very uplifting. Which is ironic And When I heard the lyrics to the start of this song I thought “oh no man don’t tell her” or “oh man don’t tell them” them just instinctually. Maybe not cause I was a bad person but because the world seemed to go around much easier when no one knew the truth of how I really felt about something. Or how I thought they felt about me. And then I thought man.... this dude just bore his soul to the world with the first 30 seconds to this song and for the first time in the world I felt maybe that was possible for me. Feeling nuances from your other song “little floating lights” of staying out of the darkness. But honestly just the fact that there was another person in the world that felt all those feelings in the particular similar ways, things suddenly don’t feel so empty and alone knowing someone else has felt similarly. So thank you for your music. Hopefully one day I can be just as honest to myself and reach out and touch someone with my music.

[@charlesdillinger]

I discovered his music only in 2021, the only good thing about the past year, his lyrics and his beautiful music helped me a lot. Thank you Evan.

[@JR_406]

Damn... This is hauntingly beautiful.

[@EvanBartelsMusic]

Thanks for watching 🙏🏼

[@JR_406]

@@EvanBartelsMusic I'm gonna be checking more of your catalog out for sure. Great song!

[@dznutts2]

Holy crap man... felt that to my core. Amazing song.

[@IAmShamHearMeRoar]

One of my favorite parts of this performance is the double dead note strums that take place after the phrase at 4:15, emulating the sound of cocking a shotgun. "I'm gonna load, gonna load my--" chk-chk.

[@OurVinyl]

Glad you caught that. Even was very intentional about that coming across effectively. Thanks for watching so closely!

[@djpd2006]

amazing heart felt song by an amazing artist

[@tallonhildreth5055]

This is what Jason Isbell wanted to be when he was young......free...it’s killer man

[@charlesfantuzzo1885]

My father committed suicide via a shotgun 5 years ago leaving 8 kids (5 of his own)....I've labeled this Dads song for me n my siblings....thank you Evan for this beautiful song it helps me continue to forgive my father...everyday forgiveness is a choice and this puts it into perspective along with your other amazing song God, the Devil, and me. God Bless you brother please never stop being perfectly you.

[@suemontague3151]

God bless ya mate from Australia ❤

[@charlesfantuzzo1885]

@@suemontague3151 you as well sister!❤

[@EvanBartelsMusic]

Thanks for sharing this Charles. I was hoping this song would encourage people to speak up and share stories. Appreciate you man 🙏🏼

[@sarahcomardelle]

You aren’t alone. 💛 My dad did the same. It’s been 20 years and still hurts some days. Forgiveness is hard and understanding is even harder. Sending prayers for you and your family.

[@throngcleaver]

@@EvanBartelsMusic Best song I've heard in ages. Thanks, EB.

[@stevehenderson9299]

Powerful lyrics none I've ever heard before but so true. He speaks the truth. Depression sucks

[@benclark7365]

A needle or a shotgun. It was always the same. Beautiful song.

[@jeffreytackett3922]

There seems to be quite a few people, in this comments section, missing the point of this song. There is redemption, in this song. There is proof of not being forsaken. There is a life's trajectory that was changed dramatically. He says, "the only thing holding back the Great Hereafter, is bad primers, with good timing." This attempt failed, because of a one in tens or hundreds of a million chance. The primer in the shell failed, and a life was spared. A bad decision was avoided. Things changed.

[@bobbybeattie4738]

Well said brother

[@jaredjared1]

yo, the song didnt end with saying, im happy it failed. it ended with "im gonna load my shot gun." i dont know where you get redemption from this. the fact that the bullet failed is even more grievous. but whatevs, but also he talks about the first breath on this chasm, which means it wasnt his last so he probably is dead. so dk, could go either way i guess.

[@benjaminlucas8427]

@@jaredjared1 Chorus repeating, even after the 'redemption' verse, is standard writing trope, you sell the hook one last time. For a song like this, spinning a completely different chorus at the end of the song would break storytelling and undermine the power of the last verse. Regarding the third verse, it's: "I could tell you, but you can't imagine, that first breath on the edge of death's chasm. You aint cried like that since you come out your mother. The only thing holding back the great hear-after, Is bad primers, with good timing." - That first breath after you pulled the trigger & it failed, crying like a newborn baby, cause you're alive, & realizing that a 0.0003% chance is the only reason you're still here. Those kind of odds make you think about things.

[@jeffreytackett3922]

@@benjaminlucas8427 Perfectly said.

[@jaredprice9431]

That's the beautiful thing about music is the endless personal interpretation. Music is never wrong...ONELOVE

[@jcl7772]

Damn this is one of the best songs I’ve ever heard. Brought a tear to my eye. Wow.

[@kylesecrist1794]

This should have over 1M views. OurVinyl - PROMOTE THIS SONG!

[@mdav30]

This song is just the next level. I keep coming back to watch. Hits like a truck every time.

[@OurVinyl]

Evan is one of the best, thanks for checking us out!

[@trevorhackathorn6059]

the album version with that "shotgun" affect before the last chorus just slaps. Killer song.

[@OurVinyl]

Heck yeah- thanks for checking us out!

[@redpillbill1052]

One of the most beautifully painful song's I've ever heard. Wow

[@pettyeddie2000]

Evan man you are firing on all cylinders. This is so perfect, beautiful and hits close to home. Just simply amazing !! 👊🏻

[@EvanBartelsMusic]

Thanks Calvin, appreciate you taking the time to check it out

[@trophybowhunter1]

Definitely the words of someone who has hit rock bottom and doesn't care any more...

[@BlahblahBlahblah-i3u]

Whoever wrote this has been through the hell, and then some. Hauntingly beautiful. If this song resonates with you, like it does me, there is help out there and you’re not alone. Jesus. Who writes this? Has been on repeat and I need to stop. When I first watched this, I was mesmerized. Then I had to put my feet back on the ground. Takes me to VERY dark places.

[@morogers3318]

Jesus. I can’t listen to this without falling apart. Absolutely stunning performance.

[@jclark6895]

I miss my friend who took his life a week ago. Powerful song 🙏

[@bridgetashmore7063]

Such a beautiful and heart rending song. For all who have suffered so severely, may they have found their purpose-and realized that they hadn’t been forsaken-before it was too late.

[@ryanwilliams8195]

Man, soo I had a lump in my throat when that courus hit .. This is probably the most important song I've ever heard .. Incredible .. Thank you 🙏

[@austinholm-mcrae2777]

Hauntingly honest lyrics, and amazingly evocative vocals. What an eerily beautiful piece of work this is

[@bertone016]

This song and lyrics where the best to describe alcoholism.

[@coltonboatright647]

Holy shit this one hits different. Beautiful song.

[@Sadsicpoetry]

this is absolutley stunning .... every line feels like a punch in the face and i feel every single word!!! the mastering is beyond next level ... i hope there is an album coming followed by a tour (please come to EU) ... your are now officially on my list of the "things" i have to see before i die!

[@EvanBartelsMusic]

Amazing, thank you for listening and for your feedback, looking forward to seeing you at a show down the road

[@brittanyhahn8927]

So eerily good. The grit & emotion in your voice, the vibrato, the instrumentals all just phenomenal…

[@joshuacalebseldon2328]

This is one of the best songs I’ve ever heard. Not an exaggeration.

[@bsmith8943]

I'm seriously blown away. Phenomenal. Everything about this song is sadly brilliant.

[@Tmac327]

WOW!!!..... so incredibly powerful...

[@southernsondesignsllc2996]

Gawd damn dude… May God bless you and keep you

[@remx15]

This is my new favorite everything

[@EvanBartelsMusic]

Dope, thank you for listening 🙌🏻

[@mrredritehand]

What a voice, just beautiful brother. This song moved me and changed my whole outlook. Thank you for this song. Godbless you all.

[@wernerressle2811]

this song is more than the sum of the music and the words. what a masterpiece of songwriting. he is „diving“ into this song. just ordered the CD on his homepage. an mp3 download won‘t be enough. I must hold the case of the CD in my hands. it’s so real !!! thanks, Sir. keep it going !!

[@wg4652]

It will sound better than a mp3 download too. Thanks, I think that I will do the same.

[@DanielHeikalo]

Unbelievably powerful and good.

[@AFatRaccooon]

At 4:18 the way he strums sounds like he’s racking a shotgun which just adds so much to the performance. Incredibly talented as usual Even, keep it up!

[@EvanBartelsMusic]

Glad you caught that, that was the goal

[@BSMOOTH5]

What a talent

[@lisakelso1705]

What a gift never heard so many emotions so beautifully haunting and touches the soul deep !! I search youtube everyday no one compares to you Evan Barrels 🎵🎻🎵

[@jatin7361]

Yeah, man, I feel you. This song is transcendent. Bravo.

[@pradleybee7828]

Man this song will always hit so deep…

[@piotrrkoss]

Beautiful piece of art, thank you so much

[@bysonchesney4723]

I'm late to the party, but this absolutely took my breath away. Lyrically. Musically. How you delivered it. Holy shit. I just started into your catalog and am ashamed that I'm just now finding it. It's honestly all good. Unreal job, man.

[@OurVinyl]

So glad that you've found Evan's music! Here's a link to the full session since you dug this one: kzbin.info/www/bejne/nGishJ2Oectqoc0

[@RitaSaghen]

I'm speechless... Thank You so much ❤

[@TheLookingGlassAU]

I wanna say something about this song, as someone who has suffered depression and a breakdown. This is a very accurate depiction of anguish, pain the is unrelenting and pervasive. Its true ppl who feel this lie, because other's words or pity dont help. The crescendo of the song is true the words display the absence of hope, he doesnt want to do it - its a desperate attempt to escape to something different. yet notice he ruminates on the idea of loading the shotgun... BUT! At the end of the song, he hasnt done it yet. He might not feel hope, but up untill the last moment the song ends with hope that someone CAN enter the story and stop him going through with it. You may feel like there is no hope of a reprieve from anguish, but the singer leaves the possibility open for someone to come into his story to rescue him, my hope is that if your feeling like this you leave the end open as well.

[@OurVinyl]

So sorry for your loss.

[@orphanrecordcompany]

“Bad primers, with good timing.” No One is coming to ‘save’ you, but sometimes happenstance will intervene. A man still wants to load his shotgun...

[@michaelpair4144]

Holy cow. All power

[@somecallmetim1926]

Michael Palmisano sent me. New fan here for sure.

[@AZzackP]

This is so good…

[@OurVinyl]

Thanks for watching!

[@EvanBartelsMusic]

🤘🏻

[@cameronmallin3097]

@@EvanBartelsMusic Evan man this is an absolute exhibit of raw emotion in a song that I haven't seen or heard before. You murdered it. Keep on it sir!

[@spudnreno]

Absolutely beautiful... hooked from start to finish in such an intimate and powerful way. Well done and thank you!

[@OurVinyl]

Thanks for watching!

[@bzride]

so powerful

[@dropkickpherby6994]

You and Shawn did one hell of a job in the Twin Cities giving us a show

[@OurVinyl]

So glad you got to see Evan live!

[@suemontague3151]

Another absolute kickass song 👏❤

[@EvanBartelsMusic]

Thanks Sue 🙌🏻

[@Neilybob100]

Breath taking performance. My favourite version. Goosebumps for sure. Sounds similar to Phil Wickham.

[@OurVinyl]

Thanks for watching!

[@saddlesainta.k.a.scooterwi9686]

Man...I am absolutely loving the way this Kat does his thang...this is music that a fella can truly FEEL and that makes one feel...

[@bobby8576]

I ❤❤❤❤ THIS!!!!!

[@lindsmcdougall6351]

This is amazing❤

[@EvanBartelsMusic]

Thank you 🙌🏻

[@joerue7618]

Enjoying your music and style from Northern California. Keep em coming man!! It's Heartfelt ... "Can you make them feel what you feel?" ....Pain... I'd say you have part aced bro...

[@EvanBartelsMusic]

Means a lot to me Joe, thanks 🙏🏼

[@mitchellmfc]

So powerful. So good

[@Xeones3c]

goosebumps

[@billygoff8993]

This is a gem

[@anthonywerkmeister1047]

Thanks you made me cry on a plane

[@JoshuaOLake]

Thank you ❤❤❤❤

[@MusicIsLifeFM]

great song and great video guys

[@EvanBartelsMusic]

Glad I got to team up with OurVinyl on this session, they’re incredible

[@MusicIsLifeFM]

@@EvanBartelsMusic i can see they are and this is great for bands

[@SuperSladjo]

I'm lost for words. Beautiful.

[@kathysimonton516]

This is magic…. Brings all my pains to the surface.

[@physiciansassist1]

Wow!

[@Jesse-v8m2t]

Absolutely beautiful music and your voice is absolutely beautiful too powerful music thank you God bless you

[@chattanoogachop5154]

Very moving performance. Powerful.

[@bridgetashmore7063]

“Holding my breath in the great hereafter”

[@briancunningham4201]

This is the problem with people....seriously...857 likes for a soul spilled on the floor. Love all of you who understand.

[@christopherross2662]

You opened for Paul Cauthen last night and you killed it bro

[@jeffreyprevost5343]

Amazing song, amazing voice

[@mollyfox7174]

Once again, KZbin shorts brought me here! I’m officially subscribed to you guys. You guys rock!!! This is way better than anything that plays on the radio.

[@OurVinyl]

Welcome to OurVinyl, Molly!

[@BigdaddyvoodooFilms]

Just came across this thanks to Michael Palmisano. Wow. Just wow. The connection to and from you to the lyrics, the music, the everything is something I haven't felt in a little while but what makes music and artists like you so powerful and moving. Thank you for sharing. Edit... just realized this wasn't his channel. Doesn't change my statement but thanks to you as well.

[@OurVinyl]

We were honored to have collaborated with Evan on this project! Thanks for watching and listening

[@chestercobblepot7839]

Mad Respect to the artist and performance, wow. The line, “don’t know where I go after, may not be better but it can’t be worse.” Perhaps it’s artistic license, but you might end up in something much much worse. Please talk to someone, anyone. Your friends and family, a pastor, anyone, please. Hope is not lost.

[@jessethompson8374]

How's this only have 100k views?

[@Integritydefins]

If I'm being honest I'm gonna lie to you When you ask me how I'm doing Ill use all the words we both know You want me to If I'm being honest I've been thinking about the day Where I don't feel anything at all I don't fear anything at all Imma gonna go gonna load my shotgun Point that barrel right where it hurts Ain't no telling where ill go after Might not be better but it can't get worse I cried out In silent desperation I cried out I called your name My god my god Why have you forsaken me? I cried out, when my words have now abandoned me I'm gonna go gonna load my shotgun Point that barrel right where it hurts Ain't no telling where ill go after Might not be better but it can't get worse And I could tell you but you can't imagine That first breathe from the edge of deaths chasm You ain't cried like that since you come out your mother Only thing holding back the great here after Is bad primers with good timing I'm gonna go gonna load my shotgun Point that barrel right where it hurts Ain't no telling where ill go after Might not be better but it can't get worse

[@cameronmallin3097]

Holy shit

[@sunshineharris1142]

Oh my sweetness you are so REAL & I LOVE YOU love your fan sunshine

[@gainerthegopher]

Miss you Royce

[@jlander82]

At 11:45, "The only thing holding back the great hereafter... is bad primers with good timing." For anyone who doesn't know, a primer is what sets off the charge in a cartridge/shotgun shell.... The shell was a dud. So, even though the song is dark, to me this line seems to sound like he avoided going through with it... it brings hope back into it. But just after that, at 12:04, I think the guitar is intended to sound like a shotgun racking and firing (and in fact he replaces the word "shotgun" with the whole effect). So maybe the hope isn't there after all? Great instrumentation and an amazing voice though. No matter where you find yourself, please don't ever go through with suicide; there is always hope!

[@21lynnlee]

Absolutely incredible and poignant.

[@EvanBartelsMusic]

Thank you for watching 🙏🏼

[@eseer3587]

For those who love me, you are why I am still here.

[@bridgetashmore7063]

@Kris Thomas Thank you for the correction and the explanation re “Bad primers, good timing”-that because of mis-firing primer, Evan is still alive-life was not extinguished-and he remained to write, strum and sing this song for us all.

[@SlothyCrow]

😍😍😍

[@thomashathorn2036]

I don’t really know if this is singing... this is almost acting. I don’t know if he’s genuinely struggled with suicidal thoughts, but if he hasn’t, he should get an Oscar as well as a Grammy.