Fentanyl Addicted War Veteran-Holly

[@calypsossoul]

Thank you for hearing my Mom's story. She is the best mother in the world.

[@celinemccutcheon1988]

Awww. How sweet of time say❤❤❤

[@LittleWhoo]

I pray for you and your mother to be reunited soon. I know this video is 2 years old but I'm just now seeing it. God bless you and Holly

[@Isabel-qv8ph]

She seems like a great mom. I wish I could give her hugs ❤❤, sending healing prayers and love

[@CE-jl1lv]

Do you have an update by chance? I’m so curious how she’s doing now that it’s been 2 years

[@marthavennes3852]

​@@CE-jl1lv31:06 I'd like to know what happened after this. She deserves therapy, detox, her own safe place and a healthy future

[@Truthof.thestreets]

“I worked so hard to go the opposite direction and I feel like I’m exactly where my parents were” Her brief description of being sick from not having fentanyl and her expressions says a lot. Thank you for your service. Despite all you have endured you are stronger than most. Your story doesn’t end here!! Holly I wish you the best and sending lots of love and courage.

[@jaydkay30]

I came here to say exactly this. Well said 💛

[@heidij75]

I feel the same, huge respect for this woman.

[@marcelinoperez2926]

Thank you for being stupid enough to go to war. My God you are brainwashed idiots

[@pguedry6427]

@@marcelinoperez2926 You are an idiot...period

[@justinc6962]

@@marcelinoperez2926 she's lying about it anyways..typical junkie.

[@zoeritchie5115]

Anyone who has been prescribed OxyContin should be given support to get clean. Big pharma have a responsibility to be accountable for the addiction and devastation that’s came from that drug. To suddenly cut someone off after such a high dose without the right care to do so is shocking.

[@thematriarchy2075]

Sacklers paid $4.5 billion to settle opioid claims.

[@zoeritchie5115]

@@thematriarchy2075 can someone like Holly make a claim from this retribution payment.

[@thematriarchy2075]

@@zoeritchie5115 I have no idea. I am not American, i don't know how it works .

[@zoeritchie5115]

Me neither. Hopefully someone can shed light on how it is given back to those affected by it.

[@thematriarchy2075]

@@zoeritchie5115 I just searched for info. " In exchange for payment of $4.5 billion from Shackler family members, the settlement grants them, as well as Purdue, shields against all civil opioids claims"

[@connorscottcook]

your story doesn’t end here holly. i look at you and see lots of strength. wishing you the best

[@mnpd3]

Strength? If she had strength, she wouldn't be where she's at in the first place.

[@sharonlujan391]

Amen Holly 🙏 Your Amazing don't give up on yourself.

[@francoamerican4632]

@mnpd3 Considering what she's been through, I'd say she's stronger than most.

[@EM-ME-]

The fact that big pharma played a big part in Holly’s addiction disgusts me. Holly, you have something to offer this world. You have a fire in you that most of us lack. We need kickass people like you. Mark lets provide her with the help she deserves. This is clearly a woman with a good heart.

[@sandife4nandes365]

EM, checkout the Sackman family.

[@stephanieleighty3097]

Absolutely, yes. Mark, please help her access the right resources. She needs a different support than the average woman. She deserves to have access to a program that will effectively address her brokenness and help her heal.

[@elianazuniga6541]

It does for most of us. We don't just wake up and decide to do this. I was doing so well when it happened to me. Had graduated, was working in pediatrics, had my own apartment and was taking care of my two kids alone. Sometime in between that I got a toothache and was prescribed hydrocodone. It was downhill from there. At the time it wasn't as easy and just reaching in your pocket and googling side affects. I trusted my doctor and took them. 5 years I was able to stay on pills and not touch heroin. Then my state passed a law on the class of hydrocodone. Now it's harder to get. And just like that over night, they disappeared off the street and if they were there they were like 5x more than they usually are. I was SO SICK... It was a sickness I had never experienced before. I tried but I caved. Started snorting it then eventually shooting it. Now I'm on methadone and haven't done heroin in years. I'll say there's a lot of good things this path has led me to. I've spoken at a march of dimes event for addicted mothers, and in general I just like to help other addicts. But yes... Big Pharma plays a huge role. I forgot to mention at that time it was so easy to get hydrocodone. Like it's insane to look back now. I mean... Walk in to the ER, say you have a headache and that's it. That's all it took.

[@nicolebee3273]

@@sandife4nandes365 do u mean the Sackler family?

[@clicheguevara5282]

This is what big pharma does to people. ..and yet we're all supposed to be worshipping them right now.

[@megan7767]

“I thought about selling my body but I just can’t bring myself to do it.” She still knows her worth. Somewhere in there she knows her worth. ♥️

[@hwoods-kg1jf]

She's probably just saying she hasn't sold her body for dope when she probably has but is embarrassed to say she has. I know I did when I was in the worst of my heroin addiction. You will do and say ANYTHING to not be sick! Believe me! I'm not saying it's for sure a lie but I'm about 80% sure she's lying about that. When you're on the streets especially, you will do ANYTHING for your next hit. Nobody is above selling their bodies when you're a hardcore addict. I know that many girls and even guys do this to support their habits.

[@elianazuniga6541]

Women and men who sell their body also still know their worth. Lol. Addiction just has that hold on you. But yeah there's a lot of prostitutes or escorts who "who their worth" Also... I agree with the comment above me. I'm a recovering heroin addict and I say the same. Have never brought myself to admit it out loud besides, well, now. Although I was never out on the street & did it in a very different way.. there was still a couple times I did. I made a lot. But nevertheless it was prostitution. Opiates will 100 percent do that to you. And I wasn't even on the street. Had a house... A car... A job in pediatrics. So I can't even imagine having nothing. Having been a heroin addict to be honest I can't imagine any other homeless opiate addict NOT having to sell their body. Woman or man. But selling their body or not.... Most of us do know our worth. Trust me. Prostitution isnt like that ultimate low or something. There's way worse things in my opinion..robbing is worse. Hurting people is worse. Even still, deep down you know you deserve better. We all do.

[@greenmountainhellhound6835]

She is strong, she has fallen, even the most strong stumble and fall. She needs a boost up over the wall. I hope she gets the help she deserves.

[@megan7767]

@@elianazuniga6541 If that’s what you’d like to believe then ok.

[@justinc6962]

@@greenmountainhellhound6835 if she was, she wouldn't have to lie about military service. People like her make all the hard working people at the VA look bad with her lies.

[@EllicottCity1]

When talking about giving her son up, man her pain was palpable. Wished I could have given her a hug.😥 I hope that 2022 brings all the best♡

[@lucasolmos9214]

dont feel bad shes a liar so was i u would not believe how good of a liar i became shes just wants people to feel bad and for this guy help him set a go fund me so she can get money to get high if she wanted to get clean she could but she dont if she really a veteran she has more help than ur averege civilian im 2 years clean of heroin i did it on my own it wasnt easy but i did it cus i was done

[@karleet]

@@lucasolmos9214 this woman is not lying, do a simple google search and you can verify her story.

[@steph9561]

My thoughts exactly

[@maryreid3387]

And 2023

[@juanzamarripa3133]

The fact you can say out loud this isn’t the way your story ends speaks volumes. Wish you nothing but the best. Thanks mark

[@dusk6159]

It's something huge and impressive, as much as it's heart-breaking on the subsequent ''I just don't know how to get out of it'' There's always a chance

[@TRC-LSW]

When I see good in this world I have no choice but acknowledge it. HUGE respect for your work Mark Laita...

[@mailainathrone8241]

Goodness and genuine care and concern for someone are very rare. When you see it, hear it, and recognize it, you have to then acknowledge it, respect it, Goodnes its and genuine care and concern for someone are very rare. When you see it, hear it, and recognize it, you have to then acknowledge it, respect it, capture, and treasure it and treasure it

[@xoxoPinkVoltage]

As a former fentanyl/heroin addict myself, I completely relate to her story. Sometimes getting addicted isn't your fault. People want to talk so much shit about addiction when they know nothing about it. Fentanyl withdrawal is one of the absolute worst things to deal with. It feels like you are dying yet ur still alive.. It's hard to explain unless you've been through it. It is a never ending battle, a cycle you can't break away from.. It breaks my heart to hear her story and see the pain in her eyes.... I pray Holly finally gets help and lives a beautiful sober life. Sobriety is a battle but it's worth it in the end (I'm almost 3 years sober now). Based on the way she talks, she needs to be on suboxone 100%. I went through the same battle. Suboxone helps to regulate and heal your brain. Once you get balanced out, you ween down. It's a totally different ballpark then. No one deserves this, especially after risking their lives for the lives of those in our country. No one asks for addiction, no one deserves addiction. She deserves nothing but the best after everything she's gone through. 💜💜

[@kricketfountain8827]

Suboxone saved my life. I hate that some people abuse it and are making it harder for the people that are actually taking it for sobriety. Congrats on your sobriety and I wish you all the best in life🥰 I'm 12 years sober now and although it was SOOO hard, I'm stoked I turned that corner. I never want to be back there. I absolutely FEEL for these addicts. Breaks my heart😔. If I can do it, anyone can.

[@debtudor]

It is very often the medical professionals fault. To have her on Oxy for 2 years, then cold turkey. I don’t know anything about these drugs but I do know that can’t be good, and most likely awful.

[@twsbrl2xlldmoney355]

@@kricketfountain8827 it’s not hard to get at all it’s free basically

[@wandarask8444]

Really like your comment. Well done to you X

[@hwoods-kg1jf]

Suboxone saved my life twice! Back in 2008 when I was in the worst of my heroin addiction, I found out about subs and got on them but I wasn't 100% ready to get sober yet so I stopped taking my subs for a few days so I could get high and I dropped a dirty pee to my sub doctor and he immediately kicked me off the program INSTEAD OF GETTING ME THE HELP I CLEARLY NEEDED! (He was an ex pill head himself so it isn't like he doesn't understand addiction. I heard he passed away about 10 ish years ago. His manner of death, I don't know but I am assuming it was drug related. He was a HORRIBLE doctor. We had group therapy once a week and I was suicidal and I would cry in group and he would make me cry even MORE by how he treated me and talked to me and tried to "make an example" out of me in my group. This also lead to me relapsing.) I went back to using on and off for a few years and then I met my boyfriend (we've been together for going on 12 years this July) and we started using together on the weekends in hotel rooms and he nearly fatally ODed and I saved his life and almost went to prison for a LONG time for it. His family and the police BLAMED ME FOR HIS OWN OVERDOSE! Doesn't make any sense does it? I wound up going to an outpatient treatment that lasted almost 6 months and got a year of active probation (so I was being drug and alcohol tested CONSTANTLY between rehab and probation. I stayed clean but BARELY. I was hanging on by the skin of my teeth because I wasn't ready to get sober yet.) But I got back on subs 8 years ago and I've stayed clean ever since! They help my cravings and I don't even think about getting high anymore! Suboxone saves lives!!!

[@L8-APEX]

These doctors overprescribing their patients for years need to be held accountable. They knew damn well the kind of insane withdrawals she'd have after being on them for that long. It's disgusting. Stay strong Holly and please take care of yourself, whether you're using or not. Also thank you for your service.

[@amrita4468]

I was thinking that, too. Is she not eligible for funds from lawsuits regarding the opiods?

[@marlowp5234]

it's not the doctors, dont be so gullible. It's you. And me. Tolerating a system that has treated addicts like criminals and forcing them to obtain impure products off street level dealers then locking them up when they struggle to do so. Our laws and law makers are to blame. WE are to blame for putting up with this shit for too long. Not doctors

[@Jenny-uv4dl]

drs were pushed pushed to over prescribe rx its swinging the other way whr legit pain patients can't get thr rx

[@titan9263]

Physicians were also lied to by pharmaceutical companies; I wouldn’t put all the blame on doctors; but more on pharmaceutical manufacturers.

[@banalpedant41]

I really feel for this woman. I can easily see a place and time when she was a vibrant young lady with a future. She has pretty blue eyes and despite the addiction, she has common sense if that makes sense. , A prime example of how drugs literally take over. Sad because she could still turn it around with enough support. A veteran for god's sake.

[@pamelastates5600]

❤️🙏🏽🇨🇦

[@it_is_what_it_is269]

people who are on downers such as opioids have different high than upper drug addicts , downers slow heartbeat(most of them are opioids or other prescribed narcotics ) ,block pain receptors and bring euphoric feeling whilst uppers do opposite ,they make your heartbeat and body temperature rise (thats pretty much the braindead state in meth and crack abusers )

[@ginalapiana5015]

Out of all the people I have watched on your channel I feel like she can do it. I see a drive in her and a lot of strength. I hope she can see how strong she is and I wish her peace and sobriety ❤️

[@aerialabby]

ditto, she just needs a solid helping hand

[@pguedry6427]

I totally agree!!

[@DarkGMarine]

Im a Marine and all i want to do is give her the biggest hug.

[@incantationsbykaryn]

Thanks for your comment, it makes me want to give you the biggest hug too!

[@_greybones925]

Thank you for your service as well 🙏 ❤

[@Charlesstunts]

Mark your photography is so on point! It really showed Holliy's beautiful resilient spirit and a refusal to give up no matter what life has thrown at her. I hope she gets the help she deserves. This Veteran should NOT BE LEFT BEHIND!

[@wandarask8444]

Holly, I live in Australia, and dam Girl I felt your pain, that's how powerful your story is . Holly you deserve to be soft, gentle, and loving to who you are. You will be ok you can do it. Thankyou.for sharing. X

[@craigbeasley8614]

If she is in fact a veteran, there is help for her. If she is a combat injured veteran there’s even more. She can contact Disabled Veterans, Wounded Warrior, VFW or any number of agencies that can assist her with filing her claim through the Veterans Administration. Her medical care and medications will be free and she may be entitled to monthly compensation, depending upon her disabilities. There is help and there are many organizations who can assist her that are ready to do so.

[@incantationsbykaryn]

You are absolutely right about the services Craig, thank you for listing them for others to utilize. Speaking as a recovering addict, clean 7 years, this is my experience and this may not be what her issue is, however, I do see characteristics of it. What I mean is she is so beat down from the addiction, life on the street and all of the issues that made her run to addiction for comfort in the first place that she is literally "frozen" in depression. She probably knows about these resources, at least some of them, however, her disease is so strong that it's dragging her away from them mentally because she's afraid to speak about what's really at the core of this addiction. Yes, she told us some things in this interview but addicts will only tell you what they think you want to hear (the majority of them is doing this interview for the money to get high). She needs to get to a point where it's HER bottom and she can no longer walk another step, breathe another breath or shoot another syringe of dope because she is so tired of it before she actually utilizes these resources and gets help. Addiction truly does keep you prisoner in your mind and it is so strong that it kept me out there for 20 some years before I got sick and tired of this shit. I lost a six-figure a year income, my home, my car and over the years I ended up on the street at the end and that did it for me. A couple of times homeless and I literally could not live another day in addiction. It was only until then did I make actual changes because I had been to rehab plenty of times before that but it had to speak to me, it had to be gross enough and horrible enough for me and thank God I got there. Sorry for the long comment but I guess I just wanted to describe a little bit what it's like when you're stuck in addiction mentally. You may even be tired of it but you'll still continue to use because the alternative is the feeling of never using again and how naked and bare that leaves you and how scared and fearful you will become instantly and then give up, relent to this horrible way of life all because the addiction and it's pull is so much stronger than you think you are. I am not tip top today so I hope that makes sense to you but something told me to just make the comment. Have a great night.

[@stinkfist4205]

Thank you, my thoughts exactly. I am a combat veteran myself, I went to the VA for addiction treatment. From there, I was assigned a primary doc, therapists, compensation and pension, ect. The help is there. I give homeless veterans food and information. As a recovering addict, I choose not to hand out money even pocket change. I just don’t want to help fuel others addiction, but I’ll buy em some food and tell them where they can go and what they can do do have a life of freedom.

[@Jo3_Jo3]

Unless she has a Dishonorable Discharge for some reason...then NO veteran agency will help!

[@stinkfist4205]

@@Jo3_Jo3 a dishonorable discharge can be upgraded after 6 months to a general discharge. Then you get your benefits back.

[@craigbeasley8614]

@@Jo3_Jo3 medical retirement cannot be dishonorable.

[@DetroitFettyghost]

Things can turn around so fast with a little help Holly, you cant rewrite your past chapters but you can change the narrative and write the next chapters. Your not a lost cause girl there's hope for all of us. Thank you for your service, you obviously put in great effort to reach your rank quickly and I know you still have that warrior spirit within. Tap in to it and fight for what's yours sweetheart. Much love from Detroit Michigan.

[@marej0099]

I love and appreciate all of your comments. Been reading them for almost a year im sure. You deserve all the nice things you write as well don't ever forget that, T from Detroit. Mj from Canada

[@incantationsbykaryn]

How Are you Tim? Haven't seen you in awhile. I hope things are better for you these days but you've got such a great attitude that I'm certain you can help a lot of people. I love your comments as well. As recovering addicts, we know the struggle of dope addiction and a kind word is always welcome. Take care. -K

[@dantejaron23]

Since she's a Veteran, she should be able to be seen at a VA Hospital and be able get help with her addiction.

[@7betJesus]

Haha help how?

[@dantejaron23]

@@blacksilverchair3315 I’m a veteran myself, I understand the shortcomings of the VA. All I’m saying is it might not be much, but they can provide her with a lil assistance. I’m sure in the end, it’s her decision to make a change and to commit to it.

[@dantejaron23]

@@blacksilverchair3315 I agree with you 💯

[@prickhead]

You also need to jump through hoops to get that help & someone who rather risk their freedom they fought for everyday so that they won't be sick every couple hours needs TO WANT that help for themselves & fight for it.

[@Chevelle602]

@@blacksilverchair3315 The VA has come a long way in the last decade. I go to the Phoenix VA which was known as being notoriously bad but I always get the help I need when I need it.

[@adamweston4152]

What a horrible story of what she's been through and I really hope and wish she gets back to a regular life and I can understand her because I'm a recovering heroin addict who used for over twenty years and experienced my girlfriend dying from anorexia ten years ago which really sent me to a very dark place and it made my addiction so much worse but thankfully now I'm clean for two and a half years and I'm on a blocker injection which gives me extra security and it's really helpful in getting your brain balance back to normal and it's cured the depression that I suffered with too, I'm not going to sugar coat this and the first year was a big struggle but it was worth every second to be where I'm at today, I'm really doing well again. Hang in there Holly... You just have to turn that corner and get back on the right road.❤️

[@zabe428]

Congrats on 2 1/2 years!!!!

[@incantationsbykaryn]

Congratulations on your 2.5 years, you are a miracle! 7 yrs here from heroin addiction (well I was addicted to everything!). I'm so glad to hear another success story like yours. Keep up the good work. -K

[@VampirusX]

I wish her all the best getting out of drugs. She had a purpose in life. That is more than most people in her situation. She deserves a better life!

[@dannythompson1948]

Everybody on the street has a purpose.

[@thegoodthebadandtheugly9920]

We need to get our veterans the help they need.

[@onlyfacts7816]

We need to stop creating veterans ❤

[@johncaccioppo1142]

kzbin.info/www/bejne/hoqcdZZ_gqyrg9U We need to stop creating addicts.

[@morgenmachen2400]

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[@gazzabethyname]

@@morgenmachen2400 he isn't a bot but a subscriber leech, he is verified and is a human. I saw your comment there. They basically infest the comments of potentially popular videos, and that comment floats to the top of the comment section. Some not so clever people then actually subscribe to him when they see him everywhere. Bizarre how it works. But that is KZbin fault for verifying such pathetic people and their accounts. Lol

[@gazzabethyname]

Infact that dude is probably from a country that doesn't speak english, so they copy and paste comments. Then go find a new video to do it to all over again. And KZbin is fine with that type of crap.

[@Consequence]

Such a brave, honest, genuine, sensitive person who has endured it all. You have a bleeding heart for your friends and family. If you see this Holly, we love you!

[@maureenmartini5094]

I'm a third of the way in. She has SO MUCH strength. She would be an excellent victim advocate. I have the utmost respect for her. Thank you for your service. Your story does not end like this ❤

[@maureenmartini5094]

@@blacksilverchair3315 so her being a veteran and sharing her story doesn't show strength? If it weren't for her and many others, you would not be enjoying the freedom you have. Don't be an ungrateful shit.

[@tyonelove8323]

@Debra Castrinos Do You And Your Son Struggle with Mental illness from being in the military and did you both become addicted to drugs starting with pain meds the VA prescribed you also does alcohol and drug addiction run in your family?

[@jancrawford8460]

@@maureenmartini5094 Very well said!!

[@sir-richard4172]

@@tyonelove8323 I have a headache from reading this run on. Next time, don't add any spaces.

[@PaulH_1972]

I feel a real connection with Holly as I have had a very similar experience here in the UK. 20 + years ago I had my dream job - I was a police officer much to the amazement of many of my peers and family members. Unfortunately one evening I got injured whilst on duty and this was the beginning of the end for me. I got medically retired without a thought and with no back up from the police force, this lead to serious depression and I lost everything. To cut a long story short I am now disabled and suffer from PTSD from events that happened as a result of my injury. I am lucky that I have a roof over my head and 3 sons who are constantly looking out for me. All I can say is that you have to stay strong

[@brendaseals7739]

Thank you for your service to our country Holly! Prayers for healing Your a warrior you might have lost a battle but your gonna win the war! Keep up the fight

[@giovannicarosa8819]

Fighting through a addiction of this magnitude is horrific. Not only do you feel physically sick for about a month or two but after that you have no joy and are super depressed. That’s why so many people relapse, they can’t just push through for a year. I would suggest that she gets herself into treatment, like a methodone clinic. I know there’s a stigma but it’s better than doing street drugs any day.

[@N-of-One]

My brother (who passed 7 yrs ago of pancreatic cancer) struggled with addiction for many years. The way that Holly describes the way she feels must have been the way he felt too. I didn't understand addiction until I started to watch these videos. I feel so much compassion because I finally know that my brother had a story behind his addiction. They carry so much shame that doesnt belong to them. The shame should be on the shoulders of the people who hurt them. I'm praying for Holly and her son.

[@simonematthews5360]

Probably one of the best videos I have seen. I felt Holly’s pain.

[@cakepinky]

Recovering H/fentanyl addict. I related to *so* much of Holly’s story. Unless someone has been through fetty withdrawals, they will never understand! The actual feeling is not something that can *EVER* properly be put into words. Neither can addiction itself..& I wouldn’t wish either on a single soul! I had over a decade’s long habit, did things I never imagined myself doing..all to survive & stay outta being dopesick! My family thought I was a lost cause & that I would die out there using. My addiction stemmed from unresolved trauma in my late teens..mixed with an injury, plus prescribed opiates for said injury. Long story short, I got sick & tired of being sick & tired. Went to treatment June 16th, 2019..sought therapy for trauma, worked a program & still do. Been clean since June 17th, 2019 🤩🤩 We do recover Love from Detroit Xx

[@karliejaye8444]

Every word for word is so honestly told about addiction, Thank you Holly for your vulnerability and honest story, My heart hurts for yours, You truly seem like a beautiful soul, Just trapped in this cycle. Sending love and support to you girl x

[@sandife4nandes365]

This interview is so powerful. It demonstrates how Fentanyl is such a strong addiction. I hope we can find a way to keep it off of the streets.

[@MarileeSeidler]

Hearing you say you were 1st in your military class...WOW!! I am so proud of you, and so thankful for all your multi-tasking expertise during your deployment! You have a lot to work thru, get thru, but I pray that you will, and be reunited with your son. Sending you hugs!

[@jadeecarroll]

Holly 💔 You are heard, you are loved and you are going to heal. You don’t deserve any of this. I am so heartbroken for you

[@Matabang1]

My husband went through a similar struggle after deploying twice and seriously injured, took him 5 years and homeless to get his 100%. He’s better, but still struggling. There are advocates that can really help her out of her struggle. 🙏🏼

[@nicoeeek.7181]

Wow. Holy shit, this was very heavy and incredible. What a strong woman!! Very intense story. A total sweetheart that deserves help and support.

[@Tigergirljones420]

Her story brought me to tears. We need to do better for our vets. Thank you for your service.

[@chelsealee4246]

I found at 3 years sober from binge drinking for over 10 years my brain is starting to finally heal. I’m not so reactive. I was over medicalised, ignored. The break from my chaotic life lessened my anxieties. I thought that was it at a year. By hanging in for another 2 years I could never have imagined the peace I have found. And that’s only alcohol. Holly, you are worthy and your story is only beginning. If there is a go fund me I’d love to donate towards her

[@nikkib3113]

I'm six minutes in and I already cried hard. My heart's with her. She's been through so so much. That's already very evident. I pray for you. I hope you make it. Don't give up please ❤️ Why isn't there more help for our veterans😭😭 this is terrible.

[@hlwdreina]

This lady has so many layers of trauma. I barely got through this one. My heart breaks for her. No one should have to go through all that in one lifetime. My God….. I’m speechless 😮🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾

[@kizpaws]

Hey, Holly! We hear you and are proud of you for your service and for your will to survive. Thanks to this channel for allowing us to hear your story! Keep strong ♥

[@carolyngale861]

Breaks my heart that a veteran can’t get more help than Holly can.

[@i.hernandez7736]

If she is medically retired from the military she should be getting a check every month. I hope she’s get the help she needs. The military offer a lot of help but you have to go and demand what is yours.

[@TheHunterGracchus]

A friend of mine was in the Air Force in the 70's and 80's, went to grad school, and had a psychotic break. He's doing okay now, but without his veteran's benefits, he'd be dead.

[@shaylaster1607]

They do offer alot-

[@jrahn66]

Maybe she does not know how to get the help she needs like hundreds of other homeless vets.

[@Noted_by_yennu]

Yes. It sounds like she was medically separated. Given her injuries, she should have been 100% disabled. Thats 4k a month. Hopefully can get the help that she needs. Stay strong sis .

[@celesteschacht8996]

This has made me sooooooo grateful for my parents!!!

[@mremington8]

I hope the people at the VA Hospital see this impactful video,- irresponsible management and lack of compassion from those who got her addicted and cut her off cold turkey need to know how they effect people. how her life could have been so different

[@piperrose7461]

Sadly Mike they don’t care ! The more pills they prescribe the more money they get . They even mail the drugs to peoples homes or Post Office Box. They DO NOT keep a close eye on any of their veterans that’s why I question is she really a injured vet. They don’t even check to see how many Dr’s patients get pills from .

[@twsbrl2xlldmoney355]

Her story is b.s it’s so full of holes it’s not funny .. none the military part makes any sense

[@allykimes67]

@@twsbrl2xlldmoney355 I agree with you 100%.. my husband was in the USMC & he was actually deployed he even said her story doesn’t even add up.. then she said when she was in the hospital they gave her fentanyl then later on she said she had never done fentanyl before .. so idk her story just doesn’t add up. Also if she was medically retired she would be getting a check every month..

[@Nclumbee4]

Heart breaking. Such a vicious cycle, I know all too well, unfortunately. I'm one step away from being homeless because I chose to leave a dysfunctional situation, marriage, and I literally walked away from everything. I've been on Suboxone for over 6 years, my ex husband cancelled my insurance that I've been paying for,with no notice, and knowing this could potentially kill me, and that's his plan, to ensue as much malice and suffering as he possibly can, but I can't quit, or give up and die. So I'm self weaning because I cannot afford to pay for this daily. The clinic's only advice for me was to switch to methadone, which I've never taken in my life, but they cannot work with me financially, otherwise. I'm literally days from eviction, but I have to keep the focus on having gratitude because it could exponentially be so much worse. I have a full time job, clothes, a hot shower, food, and a mentality that I'm not a victim, faith believing everything happens for a reason. Theres no quit in me, period. And often times I do wallow in my current situation, and I've found that doing my best to help another struggling addict, or any human being, even if it's just a kind word, or prayer, makes life worth living. I hope I make just one person each day know they're important, and they're not alone. And I'm most thankful for the fact my adult children are selfless in giving to others, and when they think of me, they know that as long as you're breathing, there's hope, and holding themselves accountable for every decision they make because they're not victims. A lot of the suffering and hardships are self induced, personally speaking. I have a choice today to embrace all my blessings, my sobriety, and get busy living my best life. I actually give myself anxiety sometimes lol because my drive to LIVE is stronger than it's ever been, not just survive. I want to live today.

[@bbe3034]

I’m so very sorry. I read online that the government is issuing more money this month or maybe next . I hope you can receive it. 🙏✝️

[@brittaolson6550]

I really feel for you. I had to go off pain meds due to a missed appointment policy I was not informed of. I missed a gynecology appointment and the next time I went to the pain clinic, they told me they couldn’t see me. No taper, referrals, or nothing. Your situation is just as arbitrary. I don’t know how they can do people like that. Well, yes, I can. It’s profit over people. With you being in recovery and having such a wonderful attitude, I know you can do this. After getting cut off pain meds, I bought opiates off the street until I was court ordered to treatment and found out about Suboxone. When that clinic stopped providing Suboxone, I used Kratom to get off it. It helped so much. It costs too, but not as much. I could have done Methadone, but that’s increasing dependence…I didn’t want to do that either. Kratom is a big step down in dependency, but it does cost money. It helped me as a taper; but I couldn’t afford it long term. I’m sorry you’re going through that…it’s incredibly hard. Wishing you find help, support, and strength!

[@ToolFan68]

@@blacksilverchair3315 You NAILED it. All these “strong, independent” women who expect their ex to continue to support their ex. We truly live in a matriarchy now.

[@angelabarlow2012]

@@blacksilverchair3315 you've no idea what he'd done to her and put her thru. I always say it takes TWO!! He could have been mentally and physically abusing her we've no idea Her story! So think before you speak and be kind

[@lostfound8112]

Loved this story...you rock!

[@kristigraham]

So heartbreaking to watch her not be able to get through the story about having to leave her child with the dad’s parents. Oh, Holly. I pray for your happiness

[@ItsFreshItsAnne]

There's nothing that can compare to what that feels like. As close to literal soul crushing as one can get.

[@dumbdonny4824]

When she corrected herself and said "no I can" after saying she couldnt I felt the power in those words and in her

[@wendyh3297]

This was heart-wrenching for me. The minute she said she grew up in Gloucester, I knew how she could have grown up because I knew Gloucester in those years. Hard drinking fishermen are a breed alone. Then her voice...which still carries that accent and I wondered if I knew her. I don't. But I "feel" her. Maybe our paths crossed because I feel such a connection to her. It kills me that she is where she is and if were all about money, I would give greatly, but it isn't. It's about her debilitating sense of shame. The drugs are just a way to escape feeling that unbearable load for a while...and now she is an addict. Put the two together....shame and addiction...I cannot imagine the burden or the despair. HOWEVER...Holly, we both know how tough Gloucester women are...and I still hear that toughness in you...that vein of toughness that runs through you,,,and I know you can beat this. You were a great soldier. Treat yourself like a mission to save someone held by ISIS. YOU are the mission now. Put your army boots back on and get in there and Save Holly! I am serious.

[@Nicole-wq8rp]

Even when I was a kid and I was in the car, watching people walk on the sidewalk or looking at the people living In the tents on the side of the road, I’ve always wondered about how these people got there, or what they’ve been through. I found this channel when it first came about and it makes very thankful for all I have and open minded to what can happen in every day life. Thank you mark for treating these people like actual humans, because I know most don’t get the respect they deserve, even acts as simple as offering a tissue to trying to help them financially. Simply amazing.

[@craigbeasley8614]

If she is medically retired she has benefits just like I do as a 20 year retiree. She has TONS of resources and she is receiving a pension, again IF she is medically retired. She can receive her military retirement AND VA compensation. The resources are there if her story is true.

[@betsybabf748]

Her story seems 100% true. I'm from an area needs her hometown. Her friend's murder case was horrific, and accurate. She was named as witness who found her, just as she said. Her medical injuries from combat were head and spine, and she was even in a parade through Wounded Warriors.

[@craigbeasley8614]

@@betsybabf748 there’s plenty of help for her.

[@ItsFreshItsAnne]

It's the drug, the FEAR of not having it and wishing for death because withdraw is THAT bad...Giving birth with Pitocin and no Epidural was easier...

[@RandomPickles]

@@craigbeasley8614 Saying there is plenty of help for vterns is just like saying billionairs legally pay their fair share of taxes. Sure the books make it look like that. But in practice, it is much much different.

[@craigbeasley8614]

@@RandomPickles no, I’m saying it because I LIVE it and I’ve seen it in action. This is not theory for me, it’s fact. Does it take work - YES, but it’s there and there are trained professionals outside of the VA that are ready to help. But it takes WORK, not what I “think” it’s what I KNOW.

[@tinafields7139]

She should be getting help from the Veteran's Administration! As long as she was honorably discharged she can apply for disability money & healthcare. I pray she gets the help she deserves!

[@OQUINN83]

Spiritual warfare…any disability money she gets will go straight to dope. Healthcare will just diminish with dope use. She has oppressing demons from all the Trauma she has experienced. Needs deliverance ministry, and surrender to Christ Jesus

[@steveyates1136]

She said she was medically discharged, so she's getting paid tax free money and has free health care. Sorry, but I'm not sure about her veteran status.

[@twsbrl2xlldmoney355]

She probably isn’t even a vet her story makes zero sense

[@steveyates1136]

@@twsbrl2xlldmoney355 The MOS description was sketchy. Did anyone hear her talk about her education? She said she had her first child at 16 and left home. Hard to see her finishing school with the family history she gave. I feel sorry for her no matter what the truth is.

[@twsbrl2xlldmoney355]

@@steveyates1136 insanely unrealistic and full of lies … it makes me sick that age is using this platform to spread lies like this .

[@SAHMshorts]

Has she not applied for her medical pay through the army? She should definitely be getting paid something. She should also be able to get medical at the VA.

[@jessew5152]

I didn't understand this either. They can also put her in touch with programs intended to help veterans with addictions, some of them privately funded.

[@ItsFreshItsAnne]

This the part that's hard for people who havent experienced complex trauma life stories to grasp...The GETTING there, the standing up and getting put together to meet people, get to this place and that, needing ID, documents, faxing things....So much..The put being poor and homeless mixed in with a drug like Fent?! The withdraw you guys....It's literally unearthly...Lump all that together? There you can see how a neverending cycle can happen. Dedicated case workers and group friends (ZOOM NA MEETS ARE GOLD!!! They have Vet group within too that are incredible support). I believe getting her a phone and security things, tent? Start her getting a HEALTHY and consistent support through those meetings. Eventually, it will all roll together. If even you barely make it, fighting to stay consistent is the key!! Sorry for the novel...lol ❤️

[@lilaworley8935]

There's absolutely support available for her. There's many many programs offered to veterans. She has to WANT to make those programs work. She has to do the hard work to follow through with paperwork and therapy. If she was medically retired...there absolutely options. She needs the support to find them and apply them.

[@devonware1092]

The issue I see here is that when she signed up to die for her country certain thongs should be afforded to her off rip. Trillion dollar defence budget but we dope veterans up and dont even Ween them off the painkillers. Kinda like thank you for your service; now get to a place where you can ask for what you should have been given. The biggest disrespect to the troops was not kneeling, it has always been how this country treats its. Early retired/Medically discharged vets

[@cr1ptan46]

@@devonware1092 I am Medically discharged 100% disabled vet and the VA has shifted recently from prescribing pain pills. I was discharged in 2016 and live with severe pain. I am grateful that they do not prescribe these pills like I hear they used to. Most of the ones they give it too are old veterans that they know they got hooked on the junk. I know it isn't enough but at least it is a glimmer of hope that this can be prevented in the future.

[@gailsegal6843]

No, no, no, please don't be ashamed, you've accomplished so much Holly. No one is perfect, we ALL make mistakes, you're so smart....it is never too late, never! Sending love and prayers for your complete recovery & success for your future.....you have so much more life ahead!

[@plee6230]

Babe, sending love from Australia, non drinker for 2days. Sober 1 yr of substances. Have PTSD. My family is destroyed and I'm picking up to take em back. Hugs. Think of me when ur sick..if I can do it u can..xxoo

[@marksneddon3709]

Respect to you too love. X

[@DetroitFettyghost]

So proud of you! Keep winning sweetheart!

[@bradak9189]

Thats exactly how I felt when the US Army Retired me Medically after 18years 9months in Jan 2005. So sorry to see others having to deal with this.

[@twsbrl2xlldmoney355]

Gtfoh if you served 18 years you would be able to spot the complete b.s in her story

[@_greybones925]

Thank you for your service to our beloved country. 🙏 🇺🇲👐

[@philprosser8800]

She is completely honest with herself and the audience and that takes courage. I am a vet but have not felt the pain she has by a long shot. I wish all the best for her.

[@_greybones925]

Your service is still appreciated 🙏 🙌 Thank you!

[@kimberleascott9962]

Her story is amazing! Especially her experience and thoughts on the military. She seems like a cool person to talk with! I wish her all the well wishes and strength in the world!

[@betsybabf748]

From a fellow MA woman: You fought against people who tried to kill you. You followed the Captains and Generals who had the game plan, and they got you out alive. There iis something now trying to kill you which you are fighting. There are "generals and Captains" who know the game plan out. You know what to do as a trained soldier....work their plan and let them show you how to most successfully fight. The joy and reason for getting up comes through that, from winning and from helping others fight. Push through that, and your brain will start working right again and you find worth through helping others, and teaching by example, to your son that it's possible to be a soldier and fight anything to save himself.

[@marksneddon3709]

This poor lady 💔 She has one hell of a journey Seen some shit and survived I really hope that she can find some peace and build herself a real life (not just an existence) Respect to this LADY ❤️

[@alissanix5587]

Holly you can get clean!! You have to want to! It’s the hardest thing I’ve ever done but I’ve been clean from heroin since 10/31/2019!!! That first year is the hardest, if you can make it through that the drive to do things do get better. I promise it’s worth it

[@LuckyClovers]

Good job in recovery and thank you for sharing your struggle.

[@JoeKyser]

That brave of Holly to share her story. She seems to have been through s lot.

[@WileE.CoyoteSuperGenius]

My ritual daily crying for these victims of our world.Sincere ty to mark always for showing their stories.You've come to the right place Holly.if there's any hope for you this community and mark are your best friends.

[@ksteed1167]

She is my new hero. Stay strong Holly, we're so grateful for your service and you deserved better.

[@jbirish2144]

When you are ready Holly the Los Angeles VA is there to help. They have several different programs to choose from along with medication, a place to live, meals and jobs. Seventeen years ago my Vietnam Vet chose the Salvation Army program for 6 months because of its spiritual aspect and he put in the work of meetings, counselings etc.. He met so many wonderful people that for another 6 months he would drive from the San Fernando Valley to LA just to go to meetings with them. He is still in touch with many of the people including the folks that ran the program. Then we got the hell out of California where he thrived in welding and fabrication. Several of the guys wanted to come and work with him so he brought them out. There is a good future for you sweetheart you just need to take that first step. Everything else will fall into place. ❤️

[@atonenjr]

I'd love to see more episodes on Holly in the future. Surely she can get out if she gets help.

[@meganngeorge]

I grew up outside of Gloucester and it’s a beautiful town, but it is very small and everyone does know everyone, and everyone’s business. My heart aches for her and everything she’s been through.😢

[@bostonredii3584]

Yes it also doesn’t help they put every arrest in the GDT police notes no matter how minor

[@LilmanzTM]

"In order to survive it, you have to give up a part of yourself that you never get back." That line hits so fuckin hard.

[@cellanddanielle]

As a survivor of oxycontin addiction I hear you loud and clear. You can do this. -Survivors are rooting for you

[@a.wanderer5006]

I hate to say it but as much as she wants to avoid jail, it's the best place for her. As a harm reduction counselor, I saw how incarceration was how most of the community we served got clean. Of course treatment would be more gentle, but it often doesn't stick like getting clean in jail does -- too much temptation on the street. What about going to the VA and getting Suboxone? That would free her from the steal, score, get high cycle.

[@morgenmachen2400]

I'm not here to make excuses-these are valid and insightful suggestions. Id just like to point out that 1, there are plenty of drugs in jails and prisons and 2, because the opiod street drugs available today are so different than those used years and years ago to develop opiod agoniats, they're veritably ineffective. I'm sure there's an answer for Holly. She deserves hope. Just adding because I noticed some common misconceptions that I'd like to do my part to correct. Regardless, I loved reading your comment. Very encouraging. Sending my best to Holly, as well.

[@M3DU5A]

Holly, I'm an Aussie veteran. Served in 1990, old school. Thank you for sharing your story. I feel your pain. Be strong. Keep going. Never give up. Thank you for your service.

[@lisaindahouse1304]

The VA doped my dad up as well it was ridiculous. Can she go through the VA to get clean and make them pay for this addiction?

[@benjaminciotti3462]

An incredible and heartbreaking story. I also like the way she talks because it reminds me of friends I grew up with.

[@kirstyb27]

Please help this beautiful woman Mark…Holly is worth it & her storey definitely shouldn’t end here! ♥️

[@feltongailey8987]

This is as straight as you will ever hear it. Utter honesty. Crushing revalations. Thank you.

[@Eemoneybags]

I've watched 90% of these videos and alot of them make me so sad and wish I could help in some way. Mark has helped alot of these people in one way or another in the past few years and it's awesome. I've got over 4 years and the first year I had alot of mental struggles but with the drive I had and have it really helped. But it gets amazing

[@nicolebee3273]

You're right, Holly. Your story doesn't end here! You are loved!❤️

[@angrychileh308]

Girl when you said you did everything you could to go the opposite way of your parents, I felt /relate to that 100%. It's SO HARD to ...break family curses and it seems that deep seeded dysfunction and anger and hatred and addiction/bad habits are just ..it's seems like it's an never ending battle when you come from that . But one thing I've realized is that it's worth the fight. Keep fighting. Sending you love, prayers ,and the energy to keep going 🙏💗

[@karolanoble2858]

I hope Holly crosses paths with Hutch. To have an ear that truly hears about those horrors of war could be the ear that helps her move forward. 09 in Iraq was a nightmare. It was my son's 4th and final battle deployment since 01 ~

[@AARONANCE]

The government needs to take responsibility & help this person

[@sinane.y]

hahahahahah. welcome to america

[@JoyPaul-pe7ij]

Stories like hers just break my heart ❤️ 😢 Thank you for your service, hon. I salute you. I honor you. 🇺🇲. Not one military person out there should be struggling with addiction... let alone homeless. We owe these soldiers!!! Holly. I hope you have found your worth with the help of the government. You are so deserving. I wish I knew where you were now. 🫂

[@CanadianBorn72]

Keep trying Holly, don’t give up you are so STRONG. I believe in you! I am disgusted at how we DO NOT RESPECT our veterans. This is such a horrible representation of our society! Thank you so much for sharing your story. 🙏🏼❤️🙏🏼❤️🙏🏼

[@ellenconwayvietri7954]

I hope you see my message and the love I’m sending. It’s not at all pity, I see your incredible strength and compassion to let your in-laws raise your son. You’re intelligent, articulate and worthy of a content life. We all have trauma… you sharing this story with Mark shows you’ve got the goods to survive. Be well, sweet one!

[@Plumeria1]

If she spent 1.5 years in the hospital due to war wounds and was medically retired from the army, wouldn't she get disability?

[@janealivekickin5302]

You have more strength than you think Holly .... keep fighting x

[@irenperoomian2607]

Applauding you Mark for all that you do.

[@royceealmanza5689]

We have to do better by our Veterans. I don't have any answers but something. So much pain in her. I just lost my nephew to this stuff, I am praying for her 🙏 .

[@jaydkay30]

I’m so sorry to hear about your nephew. 🙏🏼🤍🕊

[@royceealmanza5689]

@@jaydkay30 ❤

[@danielledriffill-shelmidin2098]

I love about 20 minutes from Fort Drum; thank you for your service and God bless 💕

[@sassy_2437]

1st of all,,,, THANK YOU FOR YOUR SERVICE, ma’am!!! You’re totally correct you ARE a survivor in every sense of the word. And you have proven that. You have been a soldier long before you joined the military. The military gave you purpose and you still take pride in that and rightfully so….Btw, you talking about your service was the few times you held your head up and straightened you back a little. The only other time during this interview was when you were talking about your son. I totally understand your struggle, not to the same degree as yours but I understand. You know you have purpose,,,, and I think you even still have drive. But I also think you need direction and encouragement. You need to know there will be someone standing there for when the going gets tough. Reach down deep, soldier. Be your own savior. Bc you ARE a soldier,,,, you are a survivor. And on behalf of every layman American I solute you and I am SO sorry the military let you down. Much love and respect for you. I wish you well. ✌️💜✊

[@cathykelly5828]

One of the most honest interviews.I've watched I SOOOO much feel for her!! Been there and there really isnt any easy answers but I truly hope she gets the peace physically and mentaly she so obvisiouley deserves!!!! You can totally tell shes got a gentle good soul and shes a good person 🙏💯

[@pambeforethestorm9784]

Holly you just deserve so much more of what this life has to offer!! Your strength is absolutely amazing, and I'm comin to check on you because I didn't know you were downtown....I saw you last on Pico Blvd.....truly, truly amazing, Loving person!!! You're gonna get clean, you've already taken the 1st step by saying it aloud, in front of whew, millions! Love 💘 to you.....💕💕💕💕 Sidebar: For years in the past, Doctors had people accidentally getting addicted to pills because they prescribed them like candy then took the pills and left everyone out there, sick. My mom was one, may she rip, she didn't understand it and I yelled at her doctor to give her something else before I call the board. The doctors have medicine to counteract the accidental dependence, they never advertised that. Big Pharma strikes again

[@jennyloohoo]

God Bless you. I pray healing over you. I am a recovering addict, you got this.

[@jenniferhoaglin566]

Some people get help & they just don't want it. Shes sitting her saying it w/o saying it she needs the help.💖

[@porkpie3094]

I feel for this woman. I can feel her energy and that she's a good person

[@saintb33]

The ABSOLUTE worst part of this is .....that I know this person. Holly, I pray you see this. Some folks from the Rockport Crew (think benchies, Amber) have been looking for you for quite awhile. Though Amber's in MY now, I can confidently say she would be there for you. Please reach out. This is Mike...Amber's previous BF, think Red hair, Rob Zombie, and green army jacket.

[@flipflopsforever8440]

I so hope you find Holly, my goodness she deserves a break. You all seem really understanding & willing to help her. Just knowing she’s not alone would be huge for her.

[@secondthoughtplease1]

Incredible conversation between two persons, both so kind and caring and beautiful. I guess we all feel like: we got to help her. She deserrves it.

[@SemperFiParatio]

As a veteran myself it´s heart breaking to see comrades in that kind of situation.

[@ItsFreshItsAnne]

It just doesn't sit right...It should be garunteed housing, medical AND mental care. Period.

[@heathergallington7706]

You are NOT just another number. You are an amazingly strong woman who worked hard to achieve success. Your story is NOT over!!!

[@Mikey10Cooks]

Working for the military over the past 10 years in a civilian role has instilled in me an indescribable level of respect, love, and empathy for our country’s precious Veterans. I see so many Vets (some still serving in an active duty role, and others who have transitioned back to civilian life) who are carrying brutal emotional/mental scars from what they experienced in war. I think many of us are quick to forget that these brave men and women brought home the ugliness of war theater, along with all the personal trauma from life before the military that went to war with them. The stereotypical hero, to most of us, possesses characteristics that give us a sense of comfort, security, and positivity for the future. However, my experience over the past decade, has shown me that a great majority of the real life heroes who walk among us every day are carrying wounds, scars, insecurities, dark obsessions, and experiences that we allow to disqualify them from being recognized as heroes. I hope that this beautiful Veteran knows how much we owe her for her service, how indebted our Nation is to her for her bravery- before, during, and after life in the military. And most importantly how precious her life is to me. Thank you for sharing her story. Blessings and love to you both, and to the countless overlooked heroes across this land that I love. 🇺🇸♥️

[@kristinmclaughlin6207]

Wow she's so clear minded. She needs genuine help and deserves it SO much