finally feeling like myself again

SO SORRY ABOUT THE BACKGROUND NOISE! There is construction going on across the street from my house and they are currently drilling a huge hole into the ground. I did not realise how bad the noise was until I started editing.
Anyhow, this is another personal update, dealing with KZbin, weight-loss and workouts, anxiety, career choices and much more.
Hope you enjoy!

[@callyg54]

Self reflection isn't easy. I admire your resolve to understand the way you tick. At your age, I had very little self awareness. 😵‍💫

[@randomfemaleYT]

thank you!! it's a weird sensation realising at some point how far you can drift from who you actually are because of various factors like insecurities, negative experiences, outside pressures etc

[@katetucker1452]

I love your matter-of-fact vulnerability :) Congratulations on changing those habits to ones that serve you and your enjoyment of life better, RF!

[@randomfemaleYT]

thank you so much!!

[@acc426]

I came for H&M and I’ve stayed for your conversations 🙂 Watching your channel from Luxembourg as a former Eastern European national from the old block 😉 so I feel quite close and familiar to a lot of the other topics you have commented on especially the ones related to your life. Always a pleasure!

[@randomfemaleYT]

thank you so much for your very kind words!! wow, Luxembourg, lucky you! I've only been once and just for a day, but it was beautiful (although quite expensive coming from Estonia)

[@sammemrys8195]

Keeping the focus on how you can make your life work best for you, your little girl, your husband, and family rather than having a 'diagnosis' will serve you well. We all carry baggage, but how heavy or light it feels is entirely up to you. Wishing you well as you weigh your own.😊

[@randomfemaleYT]

thank you!! I agree on the mental health front, but I'm definitely still doing the sleep apnea test

[@Happinc]

🦘🦘🦘🇦🇺🙋🏻‍♀️great to see you back, even with the 27 year age difference ( yup I’m a 1963 baby, 😵‍💫strangely confronting a new decade: the 60’s with gusto 😅) and the cultural differences… I’m a 4th generation Australian born in Tasmania but living in Melbourne 🦘🇦🇺 & have been so happy to stumble across your KZbin channel where I’ve found so much commonality in values, attitudes & morality in all that you share. No more H & M is a welcome breath of fresh air. ADHD seems to be the new great solve all diagnosis but I have a great distrust of medical people seeking to put people into silo-like boxes..📦 I believe it’s a good sign that the medical people you saw did not try to do that in your case… it’s more frequently overly simplistic and can be quite limiting. I find exercise and daily 15 minute guided meditation really helps me focus 🧘‍♀️ & stay calm as does no main stream media!!Im definitely with you you in finding it’s better to become more self aware & recognising your inner voice & your own emotional triggers, & the weaker personality traits in order to maximise your strengths & limit anxiety, over reactions & hoping from unfinished task to unfinished task like a kangaroo with fleas! 😅🦘🦘🦘🦘🦘Looking forward to your next video!🤩🫶🏽❤

[@randomfemaleYT]

thank you for the encouragement and kind words!! I definitely agree that exercise seems to really help with anxiety and staying calm.. I've yet to try meditation, but 15 minutes actually sounds doable and I might try that too! thank you!! ..ps there are a lot of Estonians that fled to Australia during soviet times, including part of my family ..I have a few cherished koala bear toys from back in the day that they sent us - it is a lifelong dream to travel to Australia one day, but I'll wait until my daughter is a bit older so that we can enjoy that experience together and so that she also remembers it later on (of course, it also takes time to save up for such an expensive trip)

[@Happinc]

@@randomfemaleYT yes I really appreciated the friend who put me on to guided meditations some years ago… I do it as soon as I wake every morning, & have finally made it an unbreakable routine as the menopausal hormones plus covid sent the anxiety through the roof & I couldn’t bear to go back to that! Now I can’t do without it, it brings such great serenity and a real sense of groundedness. I would love to visit Estonia & the Baltic countries, growing up in Hobart, Tasmania my parents had lovely Estonian friends… I remember the cooking was delicious 😋😍💕💕💕🦘🦘🦘🦘🇦🇺

[@Happinc]

@@randomfemaleYT 🐨 they certainly are gorgeous creatures! 😍