8 Years On Testosterone - Astonishing Life Changes

[@Phishi]

Honestly.... being 34 before I finally let myself admit I was trans a year ago - there are so many great trans creators on KZbin, but so, so many of them are children or extremely young adults. While their experiences are valuable and should be heard, that wasn't what I was looking for. Being able to see your journey, and see someone who didn't start HRT until their thirties like me, who isn't a super skinny high school kid has been so incredibly reassuring and helped my own journey immensely. Thank you so much for sharing all these years!

[@FinnTheInfinncible]

Ah what a lovely lovely comment, thank you! YES! I was exactly the same when I came out, it was so hard when I saw so few people like me! So, I decided to just put myself out there, I am so glad I did because I love to inspire others to start their journey! Congrats on coming out !

[@cbot2423]

I relate so much to "too afraid to live, too afraid to die." Thanks Finn 💚💜💙❤💛

[@FinnTheInfinncible]

Im sorry you have experienced that I really am. Much love to you

[@francoribezzo3412]

I'm 21 y/o and I've had people ask me how i could get tattoo under the age of 18 and if i had gone to another country to get my tattoo's. And I can still get on the bus and pay for a child ticket without being questioned about it. So much fun.

[@FinnTheInfinncible]

Haha! Yep! Trans life is fun eh!

[@css1846]

An EXEMPLARY positive role model - yes you deserve that Diversity Award!

[@FinnTheInfinncible]

What a blooming lovely thing to say! Thank you so much!

[@Itz_codyjamie]

wishing you a very happy 8 years

[@FinnTheInfinncible]

Aw buddy thank you!

[@simonlarkin2263]

Congrats Finn you deserve all the happiness your now getting

[@FinnTheInfinncible]

Ah buddy thank you!

[@owl2368]

I'm (hopefully) finally getting my first T shot in the next couple of weeks after 7 years of waiting!! Your channel has been a source of hope and education for me so I wanted to share this with you :)

[@FinnTheInfinncible]

I am thrilled that you shared this with me! Congratulations my friend! Thank you for your incredibly kind words!

[@kavitadeva]

Hello Finn. Wow how did I miss this incredible video. You just blow me away all the time sir. When you talk about yourself pre-t drinking and self-harming Etc I am blown away by that. I really wish one day you would do a video on what your life was really like the truth before you started transitioning. I think that would be very helpful and enlightening so people like me and others can understand the journey of self destruction. And now like a phoenix you have risen From the Ashes and you are flying high. Thank you Finn for being Who You Are. you are an incredible human you have been truly blessed.

[@FinnTheInfinncible]

Bless you what a lovely comment! I have done a few videos like this, focuses mainly on drinking, so i think its a good idea to do a life before transition one, thank you! This video will explain some of it though kzbin.info/www/bejne/fIDQl4CMpKuEjtE

[@Wasp239]

I'm really glad that you've been nominated. You really ARE a positive role model! And I will show this video when I need to explain to people how we feel and how this medical treatment is important for us. It really is a life saving.

[@FinnTheInfinncible]

Bless your heart! That is so lovely, thank you! If you did want to add your vote (nominate) here is the link! nationaldiversityawards.co.uk/nominate/34112/

[@AmberEvans]

Yes, transition has been a saviour. But you're doing yourself an injustice. YOU put in the hard work to turn your life around. YOU put in the work to improve your mental health. YOU worked on loving yourself so that you could let love into your life. YOU studied and put in the hard work to become a published author. YOU did this. Give yourself credit, and never forget that. Inside that same person 10 years ago was the strength to do all of this. I'm proud to know you. Much love x

[@FinnTheInfinncible]

Bless you, thanks for those lovely reminders! Yes I did indeed out that hard work in! I knew from the very start that testosterone wsnt going to do that for me! What I meant in the video, is that transition gave me the WANT to put the hard work in. Transition gave me the first glimpse of a future that could be happy rather than painful, and it is that which then spurred me on to do that work. Had I not transitioned, I would likely eventally have drowned in all that pain and never had the will to put the ard work into life, because there was nothing to live for, if that makes sense? So yes I 100000% aknowledge that it is my heard work, but it is alos a demonstration of how gender transition can save lives by helping to eliminate the pain of gender dysphoroa. Much love to you too! Hope you are doing OK?

[@rebeccasharples77]

So well explained Finn. I think I might send this to family members who don’t fully understand my son! 💙

[@FinnTheInfinncible]

That is such fabulous feedback, thank you so much!!!

[@mauriziavilla3958]

my dear Finn, I love you! I have much much rispect and admire the courage that is necessary to expose this reality, and all the pain before and after. I can say be strong and love yourself! In your video you have put your heart as alwsys, and we feel it. much love my dear! 😘😘😘😘😘

[@FinnTheInfinncible]

Bless your heart, thank you so much! Sending you a ton of love!

[@Moosh207]

Happy Maniversary! 🎂 You are entering into being very distinguished Mr Finn 😍 but I can't imagine your youthfulness going anywhere soon. You have great genes! This video makes total sense. When we experience a life that is full of pain, darkness, internal noise, isolation, and then suddenly a sequence of events lead us to a crack in the wall where a knowing light appears, we grab it with both hands and don't look back, by choice. When it first happens, we don't know how this new life got here but we know it's suddenly something that feels right and is something we want to keep. I've had things happen in my life where I never want to go back there, and so I've worked on myself so that I have tools to make better choices and I understand that it is up to me to do the best I can to bring in a quality of life that I know I deserve. Having loving, respectful, encouraging, supportive people in our lives is a true blessing and we enhance each other's life experiences. You were so clever and wise to see what you saw reflected back at you that first day in AA and the days to follow. It was the beginning of an avenue for you to bring in all the beautiful gifts that you have and to experience what love is. The quality of love that you experience is the love that you deserve, you've cultivated such a wonderful life from a vision that you wanted for yourself. I love the positive and heartfelt conversations that ignite from the videos you create because your videos and the work you do, help abundantly to heal a space for trans people and also educate people to learn about the impact of gender dysphoria on someone's life. I see the importance of transition. It is a gift that you give to the core of who you are, because from there, from that space, you are able to feel the confidence of who you are and build upon your authentic self. I totally see when you say that you've always been the man you are, and for trans people it's a matter of it being a different path in order to arrive at unifying identity with having a body that reflects that, because gender dysphoria is a medical issue that needs to be addressed. Having gender dysphoria sounds hard enough, and it saddens me that the wait times for trans people to get their medical needs met are so long. Trans people should have far quicker access to medical treatment than what is currently available, and I hope it improves very soon. I believe in the philosophy that goes something like this... 5 + 4 = 9, but so does 6 + 3 = 9. Different journeys, that leading to the same goal and that is to be unified with who we are authenticly. And all pathways are valid and should be treated with dignity and respect always.

[@FinnTheInfinncible]

Oh I missed this! Thanks so much for this lovely comment! It has been such a joy ato share this journey with you!

[@melissal372]

Thank you for sharing your story! I’m so happy for you and grateful for you putting yourself out here to talk about your life. I’m a cis woman and had a fairly sheltered upbringing, so I didn’t know much about any lgbtq issues until fairly recently. Channels like yours have helped me learn and understand so much more! I look forward to reading your book. Congratulations on this amazing achievement!

[@FinnTheInfinncible]

What a lovely coment, thank you so very much! It makes my day to know that my videoa have such a positive impact on folks outside our community, we need allies like you! And....my book is out now! finlaygames.com/my-books/

[@feelthethunder119]

Will have my first shot of T hopefully in the next couple of weeks - love seeing your transition

[@FinnTheInfinncible]

That is wonderful news! Congratulations!!!

[@cecilbrews]

Hi Finn, I'm new in your channel, I'm 40 and started T 6 months ago and had my top surgery 2 years ago. Thank you very much for your channel, it helps a lot at those times when that damned inner voice tells me this is all for nothing and how I'm too late and I'll just stay like this... thanks again 💜

[@FinnTheInfinncible]

Bless your heart it's never too late to be who you were always meant to be! I'm glad my content helps you to remember that! Thank you for your lovely words, welcome to the FinnFam, l look forward to seeing you around the comments section!

[@djmccathran]

So proud of you and so admire your courage and honesty. Much love from “across the pond”!

[@FinnTheInfinncible]

You are so kind, thank you!

[@pmbluemoon]

Hello Finn! I waved to you after your intro even though this is a pre-recorded video lol... 😅🤪 I'm glad you're still here, you've contributed so much with your lovely candor, humor, and wonderful help over the years 🥰🌞😎😊💖🤗 You've enriched my life as well and I thank you for that! CONGRATS on the nomination Finn!!! 😃✨🎇🎊👏👏👏💯 I'm 44 and can agree with you, going from "younger" to middle aged while transitioning is really weird, second puberty at 40 wasn't what I thought it would be (and not in a bad way!). I never knew I could grow such a full coat of back hair while going gray and losing the hair off my head, but I'll never regret transitioning though! I feel like I finally have a body I can say I feel OK with (I have more work to do of course down the road). I can feel myself being happier when I look in the mirror now as well, and I can see the happiness in your expression and that gave me hope once I found your channel 👍💗 I feel like we "earned" our gray hair 😁 I think it looks distinguished on you and it's the nice "salt and pepper" color as well! Some people who transition later in life seem to get a double-whammy of "I'm almost old" to "Where did my hair go? Didn't I just get done with my second puberty?" Gender transition surgery saved my life as well. If I wouldn't have been able to get done what I have so far, I agree with you, I wouldn't be here either. Thankfully I started therapy and got my "permission" to get the surgeries I NEEDED to go on just with living, not just existing. I've lost a few friends who have had to wait a LONG time to get any help, or they were too embarrassed by the stigma of going to therapy to get the help they needed and referrals to get surgery here in the U.S. I wish there were better ways to help people as well when they need it before it's too late, or they're in total crisis before getting the help they need. I added the below paragraph just because I know there are people out there who are afraid to transition because they may be in a circumstance like I am, too many people around them who aren't accepting or acknowledging of their situation that really could use the help. I had (and still have to, in some cases) be careful who I let know I'm trans. To any of you out there like me, there IS still hope and please do not hesitate! Little steps can lead to a better life down the road, start small if you need to, like just calling a friend, or even a toll free number to see where to start for help. It's worth it, and so are you! I have learned that no matter what, no one can please everyone, there will always be someone with a negative comment or view of you, and they do not matter. What matters is your happiness and even your life! There are people out there who love you and you find them when you least expect it, and the support you need comes out of unexpected places and it can be a wonderful feeling to finally be who you really need to be! (Here's my short paragraph) I have to work on the alcohol thing... I have a few things that are holding me back from being my "whole" self, just because I'm holding back part of me for others, and I know I need to stop doing that (drinking AND holding back my true self) I wish I lived in a bigger community that was more accepting of trans people, I still get people telling me that I have to shave, that they don't like when I wear tank tops because I look terrible (senior communities like where I live can be bluntly honest about how they feel once they got used to me before my transition). It's a work in progress, and every step takes me closer to getting more courage to take that next step. This was a wonderful video Finn, chock full of information and great advice! I hope you have a good week until the next video! 🤗🥰👍👍👍👍👍

[@FinnTheInfinncible]

I love how you wave to me, I am waving back! Thank you for your kindness, I am really glad I am still here too. I am even more glad that my rocky and sad past, is now a powerful force for good as I can use it to reassure, support and encourage others to make changes to their lives to find the happiness they deserve! The nomination and recognition does mean the world. I forgot to put the link but if you would like to vote (nominate) you can do so here nationaldiversityawards.co.uk/nominate/34112/ You are right, transitioning at an older age is tough. There is more to regret and more to undo. But, I decided early on to not waste my energy on regratting, and instead put everything into making the most of this second chance in life. Its understandable the drive to numb the pain, and I know how hard it is to quit, but alcohol is a liar, far from numb the pain it just create more, as well as shame and low self esteem on top. You can do this buddy! Thank you for everything you share in these comments. I love getting to know you, and your couragous honesty Im sure helps others too. Much love to you! and see you next week! I am currently resting.....exhausted newly published author!

[@pmbluemoon]

@@FinnTheInfinncible Rest well my friend! You deserve it! Thank you for everything and for the link as well! 😁👍 Much love to you as well my nominated and understandably exhausted bloke! 🥰🤗😃💯

[@Sweet_TRT]

Congratulations 👏🏻

[@FinnTheInfinncible]

Thank you!

[@kriskabin]

Wonderful, heartfelt video. You're a COURAGEOUS Phoenix! Good luck with your book😘💕🙏

[@FinnTheInfinncible]

Ah l love that! Thank you so much!

[@sashalivesinengland]

That one person who put a dislike probably misclicked lol :D Amazing video Finn, I been watching and loved every second of it, great video to send to someone to justify supporting transitions for trans people, shame some people still dont get it...

[@FinnTheInfinncible]

Such a lovely comment my dear friend! Thank you!And I agree, I mean who could dislike this :P

[@chodpants]

P.s congratulations on your 8 years amazing!! N yes life definitely has beginning for me and I be 40 this year! 🥰😇😊 xx

[@FinnTheInfinncible]

Yes to the free at 40 club!

[@chodpants]

I have so much love and admiration for you and your content your so honest about your journey whether it be to do with mental health or addiction and your transgender stuff also. Your such a valuable insightful inspiration person in the lgbtq community. I love your video the old stuff really helped me I resonate with all the stuff you share, thank you sooo much! I love the new stuff also amazing!! Your book will help soooo many trams folk also! So much love for you!! Keep shinning you beautiful star! Xx

[@FinnTheInfinncible]

Aw buddy! Thank you so much! My content has changed a little in style and structure, but the main heart of my content I think is the same! HUUuuUUUuge love to you!

[@FinnTheInfinncible]

If you are enjoying my videos, I would love you to buy me a coffee! Every coffee helps to support the work I do and help me to keep making content! Plus, there are supporter perks! ko-fi.com/finlaygames

[@TransKameron]

Happy you're still consistently making content. I've not made videos recently, but going to try and hop back in. Do you have advice on how you come up with ideas for videos??? Thanks Finn! Have a good one :D

[@FinnTheInfinncible]

Hi my friend! I love making videos! I jot down ideas as they come to me. I use Evernote as an app on my phone and then just make a note of things that I think about so that when I sit down to script, I already have a ton of ideas. . Another way, is to look at old videos and refresh old content, or do an update on old content. Or do a search, see what other folks are talking about and see if you can add your views to that. Hope that helps!

[@PhnxMcCracken]

Thank you again for your videos! I’m ftm amd gay pre Everything but I go for my physical and blood work Tuesday and that’s when they will also send out my referrals for top surgery and a neurologist since I have a genetic disorder. It seems like it’s been so long since I decided to medical transition but really it hasn’t. Haha I’m hoping to be starting T in July. Ekkkkk :)

[@FinnTheInfinncible]

Hello my friend! It always feels like forever when we are waiting, I hope everything starts for you this month, good luck!

[@yas.s9036]

Thank you

[@FinnTheInfinncible]

Thanks for watching!

[@mariamachuca3993]

You're amazing. ☺️❤️✨

[@FinnTheInfinncible]

And you are very kind!

[@thoraneh7365]

Love the tshirt 😀

[@FinnTheInfinncible]

Thank you! One of my 'finnspirational designs' finnspirational-designs.creator-spring.com/listing/lgbt-community-inclusivity?product=389

[@emilys1255]

I could never tell that you used to be female (I know the wording is kind of weird but that's how I see trans guys, they look so much like male that they're not female any more). I've been thinking lately what I would have looked like if I transitioned. I'm 34 and I almost transitioned when I was 19. I don't think it'd work for me personally. But I still have gender identity issues. I still want a male-ish body instead of a female one. I admit I have been dabbling in the idea of transition again. But I have made peace with being a woman a long time ago. It's good enough for me to just wear guy clothes and throw people off sometimes about my gender. It's cool to see transition worked for you and other trans guys. I also find trans guys attractive. Wouldn't mind dating one. 😁

[@Elaias.11]

Like, if u stopped taking it what will happen?? Cause u already have done your surgeries

[@Nate-cn7xg]

Fat starts accumulating in curvier areas making the body look more feminine Some people say energy levels are lower Muscle mass starts to go down That's all I can think of from the top of my head

[@Nate-cn7xg]

And then there's obviously the mental health side of it

[@dan-ty4nf]

@@Nate-cn7xg a lot of this won't happen if you've had a hysterectomy as your body won't make estrogen any more!

[@FinnTheInfinncible]

Yes as people mention below, some of the changes would reverse but at this stage of my transition not a huge amount. Plus I've had a hysterectomy. We need a sex hormone so I wont be stopping taking it!

[@Wasp239]

As internal organs that produced hormones (even the wrong one mostly) were removed you're body doesn't produce enough amount of hormones that is necessary to keep you healthy anymore , so you need to be on hormones to keep your hormonal level stable and your body healthy. That's from what I know.

[@daltonbrown6417]

The only time i feel helpless is trying to find funds to finish my transition. Not easy if you are disabled, but i don't give up. Any ideas?

[@FinnTheInfinncible]

Oh my friend that does sound tricky. A lot of people use donation sites like go fund me. Or, if you have a talent, art etc, you could always create things for folks to raise funds?

[@shaneatkins6929]

They talk about caring about mental health while legislating psychological abuse for the most at risk of us all.