First Time Hearing Alone I Break by Korn | Suicide Survivor Reacts

[@davidgaps6589]

This was a song that came out at my lowest point. The voice that accompanied my pain. Kept me from being alone. Kept me from breaking. I still dive down the Korn rabbit hole now and then.

[@slap_A_flamingo]

This, Bottled Up Inside and Thoughtless are the three Korn songs that get me man. Remember sitting listening to this after an episode. The words are so strong.

[@USMC-ms1pb]

Those with Daddy(not personally relatable), Falling away and Fa@@et the last two mainly. Growing up with an extremely violent dad and gay twin brother make those hit hard!

[@AdityaKumar-hy6fo]

Guess you were bullied?

[@slap_A_flamingo]

@@AdityaKumar-hy6fo lol that obvious?

[@julienlenormand1983]

Korn and Jonathan Davis has saved me in my teenager ages and also during theses lasts years. This band help me about my mental health, my homosexuality, my depression.

[@morganshibby8941]

I see so many comments saying that this song or another helped them. English isn't my native language so I didn't have any interest into understand the lyrics, it was all about the music itself and the voice was and still like an instrument when I hear it. I'm 38 years old now and went through so much shit, even suicide last year. I'm only discovering the meaning of all these songs I used to listen to. Bands like Korn and Linkin Park are therapists for all of us.

[@danieldavis7434]

Korn's song daddy is really good to and the truth behind why it was written hits hard. I suggest Alice in chains nutshell and down in a hole live unplugged is great too.

[@markferridge7864]

for alice in chains i love rooster

[@TheMeJustMe75]

Untouchables is one of Korn's best albums. I haven't had a chance to listen to the newest album but heard it is awesome. Being along time Metalhead, makes me happy to see someone who isn't really into the genre give it a chance. If it hadn't been for Megadeth, Metallica, Testament and other bands then I would have been in a world of hurt. Even at 46, Metal helps me work out everyday frustrations.

[@dropkickmolotov]

Listen to Disconnect from Korn's new album.

[@kingykris]

Daddy by Korn is also another song worth the time to react to. Very powerful lyrics

[@leewesley1961]

beating me down by korn is a cool song and the video is shocking

[@slayingibis]

you should check out more korn! "kill you", "thoughtless", "oildale" and "insane"

[@dotslashsatan]

No no! Dead bodies everywhere! Children of the korn, all in the family!

[@djdj2231]

Stead of going onto someone else’s post and say no no no listen to this I was just make your own post not trying to start an argument or anything kill you in particular is an amazin song And I like the songs you were talking about you but Why come on somebody else’s post and act like their songs aren’t worth listening to just make a post of your own

[@dotslashsatan]

@@djdj2231 why not? Go listen to clown! 🤡

[@fuzzydude66]

JD has always been open and honest about his own struggles with mental health. KORN, as a whole, has always expressed the things we have all felt at one time or another. This song hits so hard, so deeply, so accurately.

[@supahfly2106]

I agree, this song and Linkin parks Given Up were how I felt back then. Now the songs that represent me are Here To Stay, and A Place For My Head Linkin Park. 🤘😎🤘

[@romm4516]

I highly recommend listening to the album The Nothing. Most of the lyrics tell the story of Davis dealing with grief following the loss of his wife. It's not an easy listen if you know the story behind it, but I feel that it's powerful, and it has helped me through losses I've had.

[@3ShotTGK]

Also JDs solo album Black Labyrinth

[@Meccarox]

I love Korn, and Jonathan Davis is always open with his emotions in his lyrics which is nice to see.

[@KornIover]

Faget and this were the songs that helped me trough so much i will forever love KoRn

[@franzwohlgemuth2002]

Yep, been there. Desperation to just make it all stop. Thoughts of homicide, chemical escape, using violence to just feel ANYTHING......

[@darindudash6651]

Definitely should do Daddy from Korn. Tough song but very powerful.

[@lipgallagher5200]

Hi Amanda I just watched your mudvayne falling down reaction in which you talked about dealing with people who pretend to give you advice, but their advice has nothing to do with you or your situation. THis is very common for me. I am an empath and I am completely different but would like to share. I am very reserved and keep to myself yet everyone I meet is completely comfortable with me and always tells me their life story. I just sit there and listen and let them know that I appreciate their story. Even if you dislike talking with people just give them the respect and listen to them as it will make their day

[@MattyIce42]

One of my favorite Korn songs! Gets me in my feels...

[@justsomeawesomeperson6396]

I love korn. Their music helped me a lot. The album this song is from has a lot of great songs. Thoughtless and here to stay are other song that’s more known from that album. But i think my personal favorite is blame. I learned to play bass guitar because of this band. And i often listen it for my workouts.

[@markwoodke6935]

The Bag pipes played in the beginning of Korn "Shoots and Ladders" is such a refreshing motivation.

[@viktorsilva4017]

Korn always goes deep in their lyrics

[@DocAnkh]

❤ Hi Amanda, I love that your covering Korn. I based my rythm from Korn. I'm a Rythm Guitarist. Korn went national and I bought their first album 'Shoots and Ladders'. It was also the last time I bought a cassette. The Drummer in my band introduced me to Korn. Before that it was Dream Theater. 1 particular song='Pull Me Under'. Today my #1 is Nightwish. I applaud you for dealing with your mental anguish and helping others to do the same.❤ "For someone so deep in the dark-keep yelling and you will be heard. Take your hands out of your pockets, wave out but, more importantly-reach out. There will be a hand to pull you back. Never give up as God won't, even if you can't see it at first) We all go there in one way or another. Some get trapped and can't move. YOUR NOT ALONE! ANYONE READING THIS POST!!! REMEMBER THIS ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@joshmiller3313]

You should read the book by Brian Head Welch one of the guitarists. It’s called save me from myself. It’s about his and the bands addictions

[@Heller103085]

While this is different from any korn songs they have done before, this is my absolute favorite korn song…its def depech mode influenced who davis has always idolized….but def one of his most emotional songs

[@JesusSanchez-j1r]

Tus comentarios a ciertas canciones me ayudan a sostenerme aunque estoy al borde del precipicio y siento que a nadie le importa... en tu empatia encuentro fuerzas al menos para un día a la vez en esta mentira que llamo vida... so thank you so much

[@MentalAmanda]

I can't fully express how much it means to know that my words can help you, even in a small way. You're not alone in feeling this way, and your strength in holding on, even when everything feels like a lie, is truly incredible. Ask yourself what would make your life feel more authentic. Please keep taking it one day at a time (I am right there with you sometimes!), and know that there are people out here who care, even if it doesn't always feel that way. I'm here with you, I believe in your resilience and I care if your light goes out. Stay strong, and thank you for allowing me to be a part of your journey.

[@JesusSanchez-j1r]

@@MentalAmanda estoy solo... videos son mi única compañía... estoy muerto pero aun respiro no quiero sentir esto que siento... quiero que pare, estoy cansado

[@MentalAmanda]

Entiendo. Tu mereces sentir paz. Tu mereces sentir feliz. Me gusta que tienes los videos pero necesitas apoyo. Puedes enviarme un mensaje (mi email esta en la descripcion). No hablo muy bien espanol pero voy a intentarlo!

[@JesusSanchez-j1r]

@@MentalAmanda no se que más hacer ya me da miedo pedir ayuda por que cada vez que lo hago la respuesta me deja peor y siento que, cuando se me acaben las opciones el sentimiento de no tener nada más que hacer me haga perder la cabeza... se que el problema soy yo y tal vez mi cabeza causa todo como me dijeron una vez... pero solo se lo que siento y vivo... por que nadie puede verme? Por que no ven que estoy perdiendo la pelea?

[@robertthompson5568]

I saw Korn tour for Follow the Leader at the beautiful Palace of Auburn Hills with Rob Zombie on the "Rock is Dead" tour. That was probably before this girl was born...lol. Anyway, I stumbled across this video and thought the message was important. I am borderline Agoraphobic, among other OCD related issues. Right now is a tough time for folks who were already dealing with some stuff! It's not a great time for germaphobes and people with social anxiety issues...I'm glad that someone is using their platform to try and help.

[@christopherstone9046]

Almost EVERY time I hear this song, I tear up because I've come so dangerously close three times, to 'ending' it all. Korn's music is therapeutic for me and one time I saw them in February 2020, it was almost religious.

[@StikPeopleComikz]

I remember seeing your Fade to Black reaction and was taken aback by how you reacted...and now seeing you react to "Alone I Break" I'm wondering if you somehow got access to my daily Playlist 🤔 kidding, hope all is well for you

[@roycewinters145]

The album 'Issues' by Korn is my favorite Edit: sorry forgot /hugs from me to you

[@lucasberhends1141]

Could you react to Tearjerker too? It's one of their best musics in my opinion

[@kurtmartin7215]

This music video concept was actually a fan's idea.

[@walter.mairena]

Take into account this was a fan-directed video, the winner of a contest that was announced in TRL by the way... Same thing with falling away from me, it was not a director behind it but Fred Durst.

[@beng1642]

Korn is amazing at addressing the topics of mental health, bullying, and making those that suffer feel not alone. Faget and Hater are two of my favorites as someone who was bullied a lot as a kid. A suggestion for the future, a couple of songs by Mushroomhead that I think you might enjoy: Graveyard Dujour and Solitaire/Unraveling. Shroom is an interesting band, especially the older stuff.

[@MentalAmanda]

I am so grateful to have this video sponsored by BetterHelp. To receive 10% off your first month of customized online therapy with a license counselor, visit www.betterhelp.com/amandawebster 💖Keep the mental health conversation going by sharing your story here in the comments. No matter where you are in your journey, you have a safe place here to share your struggles and accomplishments without judgment. This is how we break the mental health stigma. 💖

[@leewesley1961]

amanda you are the care warrior for the people!

[@KoRn_NuTT]

One of my all time favorite movies is Queen of the Damned, I love everything Jonathan Davis does he's a very big inspiration of mine

[@TheScorpio1999]

Oh yeah. Korn is awesome! This is from my favorite album from the band, "Untouchables." ("Follow the Leader" is a very, very close second). Music like this has always helped me through the bad times. Hearing other artists write, and perform stuff like this, always has and still makes me feel not so alone. Anyone else feel that way with this music? I think it helps.

[@MirrorXofXMadness]

I cry every time i hear this song. When i was young this was exactly how I felt. And I listen to the song a lot full album in fact

[@GrizzlyHillsRadio]

Pushing that lamp into the tub... made me think of what could happen if you really piss off your cat.

[@Max-ui7yf]

I consider this my theme song. I relate to so many of the things in it, especially since I've been struggling with my own shit for at least 20 years now and I just cant beat it. I'm not gonna say much more about it, because while I'm sure some can understand how I feel I don't really expect many people to understand why I feel that way. For any of you reading this that struggle for one reason or another, I wish you the best and wish you good luck in being able to overcome because I know first hand that it isn't easy and that not all of us will overcome it.

[@MentalAmanda]

I will tell you the same thing I tell my son. When you start a sentence with 'I can't' it should always end with 'yet.' I thought once upon a time I couldn't beat it either. Because it wants you to believe that. But you have SO much more power than you realize. There are SO many options. I DID beat it and I believe that you can too.

[@seanwhitford1537]

Korn had a drawing for a fan to create this vid. It was a fan that directed this vid!!! That was mind blowing to me back then. Shit like that just did not happen (it is rare today). Korn is, to this day, my favorite band on the planet because I feel Jonathan's pain. They aren't the most talented or always radio friendly, but his emotions are cathartic to me because it says to me that I am indeed not alone.

[@Sparkle648]

Would love to see you react to Poets of the Fall - Carnival of Rust (their most well known song and the music video got voted as the best Finnish music video ever back in 2006 when the song was released). Truly an underrated band from here in Finland. Also a band with many different sounds all the way from slow melodic songs to full on rock. Although if you want to immediately hear a song that showcases how crazy good the lead singer Marko Saaresto's voice can be (and while his vocal range might not be the most dynamic out there he is an amazing example of what you can achieve by having absolutely perfect control of your vocals especially the raw emotion that his voice is able to convey) then i recommend listening to their song Daze. His vocals on the chorus are something out of this world. I just think that so many more people would love their music if they just ever heard them but since their from Finland it rarely happens. Although many have heard their songs in Remedy's video games Max Payne 2, Alan Wake, Quantum Brake and Control (Also every single reactor i have seen reacting to them has been pretty much blown away by their music so i'm very confident you'll like it) also... also... lot's of deep and meaningful lyrics and wordplay in their songs sorry for the long rant i just really want more people to know about them :D

[@justinhowell8873]

This song helped me stay alive almost 15 years ago!!!

[@lenniebatterson4510]

Me too man.

[@dustinparker9456]

The whole album of Untouchable is mainly about battling depression. The best one is the last song No Ones There. It’s fitting to be the last song because it’s about finally dealing with it.

[@supahfly2106]

John Davis is an inspiration not only for his music, but he has survived through a life that if most people experienced a fraction of it would have departed long ago. He is proof that we have weak moments, but that's all they are... Moments. Therapy is not a bad word. This past October 3rd I celebrated 5 years clean and sober. It was also the 10 year anniversary of the day I swallowed a .40 caliber bullet, my depression won, but then I woke up 2 weeks later after being put in a medically induced coma. Lost, and still have no long term memory. Only reason I know any of it happened was a friend documented my changing, he just didn't know what to do. If he hadn't been watching, he wouldn't have been close by when I tried, if he wouldn't have kicked my door in, and lastly if not for him that day, I would have succeeded. I really like your channel, and your positive words. You are beautiful inside, and out.

[@MentalAmanda]

I'm very proud of you for your 5 years and happy you're still here!

[@supahfly2106]

@@MentalAmanda Thank you. I'm in a completely different place now, and to anyone who needs to hear it. You matter to someone out there even if you don't see it, and don't sweat the small stuff.

[@MichelleJames-s2r]

So thankful to be a young woman in the 90s when they they debuted. They helped me so much come to terms with my hurt. Things that had long been buried. Seeing them in a few weeks for the millionth time, forever my favorite bad! Nothing heals like it. #kornie4life #metoosurvivor

[@shunt5001]

Every Korn song has a strong mature meaning (for the most part). GREAT BAND (since my high school days) 🤘🤘🤘🤘 take care Amanda

[@trainkid1217]

all im gonna say is "daddy" from korn but please be aware it is VERY DARK,TWISTED AND SUPER EMOTIONAL!!!! YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!!!!!

[@Thomas-js5cs]

Almost forgot about this band. Loved their earlier stuff a lot back then. I also forgot to put "Silent Screams - The Way We Were" on the list of music for you to check out.

[@bradorem121]

To h this whole album was them on the verge of brraking up but they didnt and hetting ready to drop their 14th album still the GOATS.....LAST MAJOR MUSIC MOVEMENT IM HISTORY!!!!

[@DejectedOfficial]

Korn has been an amazing band while being depressed. Aka the name of my channel. Love yall. Much love.

[@jeffmachia53]

Useless information...the first video to be "retired" by TRL was "Got the Life" by Korn

[@ratnoize]

Would love to see you react on "Freak on a Leash (Unplugged Version with Amy Lee)", "Holding All These Lies" (but this is a tough one) and "What It Is" from Korn Singer/Frontman "Jonathan Davis".

[@kasphertangho3983]

Hi Amanda...try reacting THE WORLD I KNOW by Collective Soul

[@davidhuckel2620]

An immensely powerful song about suicide is called “By the Way” by Brian “Head” Welch and his band, Love and Death.

[@Mr.Event501]

Always been one of my favorite Korn songs ever

[@victorlojero8318]

Thank you for exploring this. Korn is one of my favorite bands and yes they have helped me get through some dark times in my life. I've seen them live several times and the energy they give is unreal. Music can be so therapeutic. I know this will sound horrible but one of the bands that helped me get by my darkest moments is a band called Suicidal Tendencies. If you wish to honestly explore a song examining a dark place I recommend Chris Cornell's "You Never Knew My Mind" which is a rendition of a Johnny Cash poem. It came out after Cornell's death. Absolutely haunting.

[@chrisbarrow4234]

Can I recommend Rose Of Sharyn by Killswitch Engage...

[@TheJatonEffect]

I'd be curious to hear your take on Hollow Life from this album. That one kind of went a bit under the radar and I feel it really captures a feeling of hopelessness.

[@jozefrevay4710]

Better check"Falling away from me, Good God, Swallow,Somebody someone, It's On-they are the hardest core songs🙂☺

[@jamjam1312]

Hi Amanda! Hope you react to Stromae on French news on TF1, 1st national channel! This guy is amazing, I'm sure you'll be moved!

[@Newtonsenigma]

Nobody describes mental health better than Jelly Roll. This guy has been through a lot... a lot. Check out the song Enemy. It's a duet with Struggle Jennings, grandson of the outlaw country artist Waylon Jennings. Even if you don't react to it, you need some Jelly Roll in your life.

[@williamkramer9731]

Rough song... Remember when this came out...I would suggest Daddy, but that one might be better left alone... Also the video game from a competition for a fan directed video.... They were pretty pissed when they found out the guy who they picked wasn't even a fan and was just trying to further his career

[@Rangerdanger07]

Definitely check out Ghost by Badflower. The song is a challenge for me, personally, as it hits a little close to home sometimes. But it's a beautiful song and 100% worth a listen.

[@ibfrobzilla]

I was a kid during the 90's too but my parents never sheltered me from my music choice or tv shows or movies. They would make sure that I understand that it's not real or that it's art or someone's opinion. Maybe that's why such I'm such a weirdo. (If I know I'm going crazy, then I must not be insane) Dave Mustaine

[@williammayfield828]

Hey.......its forever On the help lines I cant fight anymore All the good in my world Doesnt hold me anymore.I will remember you and my Girl you both share my Love.

[@innocentbystander1853]

Puscifer - “Grand Canyon” A Perfect Circle - “The Outsider”

[@leroyanderson2843]

The first time I heard this... Sorry about the crack in my voice. I'm reading out loud as I type. First time I heard this, even before listening to this one with reaction, I broke down!! This song got me in a place where I thought I was unreachable. I was at low point in my life in 2002. This one reached me, took hold of me and told me that I'm not that alone. My HSP side is showing when I cannot pin point one particular line or word when this Bakersfield band, where I'm from, knew how I was and was ready to do something, I didn't know what to do then there's three songs on this particular CD that shook me up, to wake me up. I think that crack in my voice is gone now but my existence is not.

[@ericminton6084]

Do you know Jonathan Davis' story? He was sexually abused as a child and a lot of their music deals with the depression and trauma from that. The song Daddy can be triggering if you have experienced sexual abuse of any kind, so be aware before you listen to the song.

[@Patheticblackpiggy]

Hey Amanda thank you for telling me to not give up on my mental health journey. I'm actually better now and I found a good psychiatrist that is amazing with medication and I have finally found the right combination and I actually am going to be ok.

[@carlosgallegos1265]

I know everyone's different, but be careful when listening to some Korn songs, their whole career is a trigger warning if you aren't in a good state of mind :(. Ranging from sexual abuse and rape to homicide, suicide, etc

[@johnclements5277]

Check out Question by the Moody blues, the slow part in the middle is beautiful and meaningful.

[@jonathangilley]

I've never actually thought of self-harm while listening to this song is always been keeping from harming other people

[@mikaeljacobsson1437]

Help is not help if the "help" comes from people who do not understand. You can have great and loving family members and still that would not be enough. If they dont understand, most of the things they say would be more desctructive than actually helpful.

[@benwilliams9073]

If you haven't already, you should react to Cold, Can You Hear Me, and Finally Free are really good. Actually the entire record is good. But Can You Hear Me would be a good one for a reaction Vid.

[@benwilliams9073]

Two other songs from KoRn you should listen/react to are Dirty and the other is Daddy. Didn't realize what Daddy was about until a few years ago.

[@OliveWhisperingEye]

ALLL KORN ARE SONGS TO COPE TOO…. JON BEEN HELPING US THE FEW THE PROUD THE EMOTIONAL SINCE THE BEGINNING. I GAINED MORE VALUABLE ADVICE AND EXPERIENCE FROM HIS LYRICS THAN ANY THERAPIST COULD HAVE EVER MADE AVAILABLE.

[@weylandcarlcop6284]

In spanish: Tmr... Lo último que faltaba: la opinión de Barbie jaaaaa

[@NJLIFEHACKER]

SO.....I could have helped a bunch of people with my 10 year old account by getting sponsored.....#youtube

[@MentalAmanda]

No, you can help people with your 10 year old KZbin account by sharing a message to people who need healing and comfort 💗

[@shawnsumerfelt4629]

I would like you to do a review of So Far Away by Staind. This song has helped me a lot in my mental health recovery

[@blueyed_gemini6420]

Have you done Linkin Park "Given Up" if you haven't please do.

[@aliciak5701]

I was a TRL girlie too and this song is how I found Korn and I didn't even know how depressed I was until I heard someone else say those things out loud. It made me feel so much less alone.

[@lelandyulaw7454]

Johnathan Davis had a cameo in Queen of the damned. He was the one trying to sell some tickets on the sidewalk to the librarian woman who was researching Lestat

[@zacharydaily2279]

I know the chances of you doing this song for a reaction but it was mean a lot if you did it is a bit of a trigger warning but its message is powerful the song is called: Depression by Nakuu

[@nikolasbridges866]

Should definitely look into the band called P.O.D. and a good song would be "Going in Blind"

[@Sechs13]

You should check out "did your best" by Nova Rockafeller.

[@charlesgreen8555]

Sweetie I love you and your videos you're not a burden to anybody you're very beautiful and everybody loves you the only thing is you talk too much can we please hear the song and then get your reaction please

[@pollycat1294]

check out. the dead south. ( in hell i'll be in good company) pay attention to lyrics!

[@neilfleck4178]

I'd say - Eldritch 'the Dark Inside', gets close.

[@3ShotTGK]

I'm actually planning to have the chorus line tatted on my wrist down.

[@Hicks-g1m]

I love Alone I break by Korn Amanda I can relate to this song a lot I try so hard in life but sometimes I just want to be gone

[@timcobb1752]

I will suggest for you personally more so than for a reaction a group called Icon for hire.

[@ChiefBones]

Glad I’m not the only one who thinks that about the movie.

[@jeffnbundick26]

The video was conceived and directed by a fan who won a contest. The house is the one in American Horror Story.

[@philliplyttle1005]

I wonder if you would do a reaction by these metallica songs: bleeding me and until it sleeps

[@jinjerman4903]

i have no words on u explained this song, me, everything...

[@seanmichael9354]

I think this video was actually made by a fan who was picked by the band

[@davidmcmahon4192]

Chicks NEVER follow though so don't take em seriously LOL. Honestly re_evaluate and diagnose the situation! Then get yourself into a fitness regime (LITERAL MEDICINE 4 body NO JOKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Super awesome juice). THEN and only then will you feel a calm and OK'ish sensation wash over you 4 the first time in forever, That's when you realise that you are taking control of your life :) DON'T STOP!

[@MentalAmanda]

I was working out almost every single day for months before my suicide attempt. While exercise can be a TOOL and can help, it doesn't cure someone of mental illness. And "chicks" very much follow through and are tragically successful at the rate of about 10,000 each year here in the US. Please don't spread misinformation.

[@eks5470]

Need to reclaim those memories and not allow your ex ruin them for you! Too good of a movie to be ruined!

[@HohnerCornell]

Other deep lyrics are in Tearjerker. So underrated Korn song.

[@lloydjamieson2143]

You ought to hear the band hatebreed first four songs off the perseverance album

[@NathanMalnaa]

This video idea was actually a fan's, they loved it so much they used it lol

[@dirtysmity]

I see a few requesting "Daddy"...enjoy Korn first before you traumatize yourself with the song Daddy. Daddy is the rawest emotions I have ever heard in a song and no one, I mean NO ONE ever forgets the first time they hear Daddy, and no one is EVER ready to hear Daddy. You will break down and you will need tissues.When you finally do listen to Daddy be ready to look up the true meaning behind the song, the lyrics can be misleading

[@scottlally4030]

next SONGs by citizen soldier hallelujah I'm not dead and stronger than my storm please