First Time Hearing Another Man's Grave by Amigo the Devil | Suicide Survivor Reacts

[@MentalAmanda]

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[@johnzacharias7928]

Im not a patreon ,but I really think you should consider this one. She wrote this about her friend, and an experience they had He got to hear the song and learn it was about him. kzbin.info/www/bejne/iIfXqIiuhpaHm6M

[@andruwxx]

I just wish I could sleep. Trying to come down from alcohol, but it’s like every time I wake up my BAC is higher. Somebody out there will understand.

[@MentalAmanda]

@@andruwxx I actually JUST started get my sleep truly back on track. Drinking doesn't help sleep, I learned that the hard way!

[@epicmage82]

I listen to this guy all the time. He has some dark songs, but his writing is amazing.

[@AutitsicDysexlia]

You should do Karaoke to his songs, and YES... they exist. If you're not a Baritone, just learn to transpose. 😂

[@actionjaxon5392]

Just found your channel today based on my love for Danny (Amigo the Devil) and I must say I really like the way you focus on songs relating to mental health. While I find this to have been a great suggestion by your community I would be remiss if I didn't suggest you listen to his song called The First Day of the End of My Life. It is a very heavy song that I feel hits on all the things you cover in your channel.

[@sarahsatyr7133]

And he has THE BEST SMILE. He smiles and you can't help but smile. (Even while also bawling my ass off)

[@hdervish2497]

When he mentions the man who said everything's gonna be fine, hes's referring back to what he says at the end of his song Cocaine and Abel

[@mikeobrien2440]

I cannot stress this enough, if you haven't seen Danny live, you absolutely must, and then try to meet him after the show. He, like his music, is amazingly genuine. The man gives the best hugs on the planet and absolutely loves his fans. We don't deserve such an amazing person.

[@Godless-Being]

I still have to

[@justinklink1588]

Danny does a great job of lighting up even the darkest of songs. Love Amigo the Devil!

[@88seanoftheded]

I like that she stops it to talk just as I’m breaking down and crying, and once I’m over it and good.. she hits play and breaks me again. 10/10 would cry again. Danny is the most amazing human, he’s a modern day bard. Welcome to the fellowship! 🖤

[@Noahsampeer]

I'm a bit late in seeing this but I wanted to say that I've heard this song dozens of times and I never understood the buying a vowel line fully until you explained it here. Makes so much more sense than 2 random unconnected lines.

[@Maddrabbit1930]

In my version of the buying a vowel meant something like this. Room is spinning..meaning woke up still drunk/stoned. Felt like buying a vowel..him saying, "how the hell am i supposed to fix the problem of the world spinning! Fuck it, I'll buy a vowel is him giving up on real life and giving in to the maddness of the spin. Ikr? Nothing like hers. I like hers better. Knowing a little about the artist, my guess is she is probably closer to the intent. But omg, what an artist, eh?

[@triyue]

Room is spinning and joke about buying a vowel is a wheel of fortune reference

[@thelocusst]

In high school I tried to hang myself with a belt. It was a strong leather belt and I trusted I wouldn’t be there in the morning. I mounted the belt, and let gravity take its toll. I hung there for a minute and a half. I lost consciousness. The belt snapped. I dropped and broke my tail bone. Literally. Broke my ass for trying to kill myself. There’s no way that belt should have broke. But it did. And I had this embarrassing injury from trying to end myself. So I ended up having to laugh it off. I shouldn’t be here. That belt should not have broke. But it did and I busted my ass. And I felt very different after that. The universe literally put me on my ass and made me think twice. Don’t think about anyone else. Love yourself.

[@blakeskinner3878]

If you get a chance you should check out his new single cannibal within it has a similar vibe and approach to depression and mental health as this song.

[@shadowfox2120]

Getting a lot of new bands to check out from this channel. Always happy to hear your interpretations on these songs.

[@uwumaster6787]

I agree. I discovered amigo almost a year ago and he is a musical genius, and I’ve been a metal head for 25 years. Have a great day :)

[@Teeezze]

The words that always had me screaming in my head, after my mom died, were: “Your mom would want you to be happy” or “your mom would want to see you happy.” I never said it, but in my head I was screaming “my mom wanted to LIVE! My mom wanted to LIVE to see me happy!”

[@inigo13m47]

I love how honest and open you are! I work as a mental health technician and suffer from depression myself. I've made a point of de-stigmatizing mental health and am very open about my struggles with my patients and friends and family. It really helps my patients to see how we aren't much different & I've had friends and family confide to me their struggles that they weren't comfortable talking about. Thank you for being awesome and using your experiences to make a positive change in the lives of others ❤

[@MatiasJaruf]

It's so sad that this genre is not really well known on the rest of the world, because we can't get to discover this artists with great songs. Great reaction.

[@winter9822]

Love Amigo The Devil so much. Went to see him live in July, and he truly is amazing. If theres one artist that has helped me the most; it is him. His new song 'My Body Is A Dive Bar' is amazing, along with his new-ish album, 'Yours Until The War Is Over' (may i suggest listening to The Mechanic, Cannibal Within and Once Upon A Time At Texaco') Love ur channel aswell

[@azrael_hypo]

i love Amigo the Devil. some of the songs are a lot of fun, with energy and great wordplay; others are dark murder ballads telling interesting stories from the point of fucked up people; and then there are songs like this, For a Few Good Men, the First Day of the End of My Life, Stronger than Dead, and Cocaine and Abel - songs so rich with feeling and meaning that they move me near to tears whenever i listen to them plus, Danny's lovely. my partner and i went to see him just before the UK went into lockdown for the first time and, after the show, he was stood by the merch tables to say hi to people. my partner wanted a hug from him and he was happy to oblige. he then insisted that i also get a hug

[@lostlothbrok7156]

i only tuned in because i wanted to hear your thoughts and i never listened to this artist before, i was very pleasantly surprised that i really liked this. i am a recovered addict and suicide survivor myself, im 30 years old now and when i was in and out of lock up i swore i wouldnt live past my 21st birthday. needless to say i made it and im still fighting against my demons, my nightmares and my failures, unlike my younger self i have hope. i hope youre having a good week Amanda and i hope you have an even better weekend ❤

[@MentalAmanda]

Proud that you made it this far and excited to see where your journey will take you! Hope is really all it takes to press on. You have a good weekend too!

[@sanguine7847]

Thank you for doing this. I live in a small farming town, and as someone firmly in the closet because of my community and family, the line Burried in another man's grave has such impact for me. I've had unspeakable things happen to me growing up, and everyone expects you to put on a smile, and act like nothing ever happened. So there are many reasons why I feel ill be buried in another man's grave. Being myself has never brought anything but pain, and loneliness. When he said I just want someone frome heaven above to explain this cold and f'ed up place, these are thoughts I had when I was 7. It's hard to stay religious when being tortured as a child. Saying I know I chose my addictions is true, but its not like there were a lot of options to escape the hell I was in. Of course I was young and didn't understand that coping this was is just kicking the can down the road, and compounding my problems.

[@MatiasJaruf]

I feel familiar with a lot of what you're saying by first and second hand experiences and when I read stories like yours I feel the urge to take a step forward. Is there something a stranger on the internet like me can do for you?

[@MentalAmanda]

It breaks my heart that a child so young would be tormented enough to have such thoughts. I hope you know now how much you didn't deserve it and that there are people (like me) who will love you for who you are.

[@MentalAmanda]

I hope you guys connect! "Strangers on the internet" can make all the difference!

[@sanguine7847]

@@MentalAmanda I do understand I didn't deserve it, but there will always be a part of me that agrees with every insult and abuse. The same part of me that freaks out in an angry panic that I have to stifle when someone gives me a compliment. It's like a rot in my head I can't get rid of that spoils everything for me. I've been trying to get rid of it, but it's been there for so long it's like I'm hard wired to hate myself.

[@MentalAmanda]

@@sanguine7847 I was abused by the only babysitter I ever had, raped at 16 and in back to back extremely emotionally abusive relationships for 15 years. It is hard when those tapes are so deep l, BUT I have made a lot of progress with overcoming them and you can too

[@ricoman980]

Thank you for the channel. You are a happy, bright face that made my day better. The world needs more people like you! If you like amigo I got tons more bands you might like

[@turvisae86]

I would recommend Stronger than dead by the same artist about depression. I would recommend the grotto version of the song. It has helped me in some dark times.

[@MikeTHFC]

In the UK we have an artist called Ginger Wildheart who is very open and honest about his mental health battles. He has a song called Paying It Forward, an amazing song with a beautiful video. It is one of the song's that has made me openly admit my problems and suicide attempts to my family and seek the necessary help i needed.

[@Maddrabbit1930]

Caught this on a search for the artist, so this is my first time seeing you. I know the song well, but for the first time, I cried. Not for the song (it meant something very different to me)but for how you reacted. If you want the reason for the smile at the end.. watch any of his live performances. He is a storyteller, and I think you might relate to many of his songs. Seems you have much in common despite having started in very different places. Take care.

[@johnzacharias7928]

I think you might listen to Cocaine and Abel, he said this song is his most from the heart song he had done. Must admit im a listener of his but had never heard this one or didnt remember it.

[@tonywiggins2453]

You should listen to stronger then dead by amigo the devil it’s also relates to mental health

[@mikeandersonwa]

This song cuts so damn deep 💚

[@davedlaw81]

Amigo has an album titled Everything is Fine

[@derekfish5868]

This is an artist that is so special

[@matthewlove6942]

Another powful song by amigo the devil is cocaine and Able it brings me to tears everytime

[@skullguitar666.]

Amigo my friend

[@arohk1579]

Powerful song for sure. First time I heard it. Some hit close to home for me, I have hid myself for so long I'm not even sure who the real me is.

[@kasher122]

It's not that I need love and support I just need my life to stop being the storm of chaos that constantly feels like it's destroying me. I get that there's been many a good times, but the first 18 years of my life were nuts and the 6 were a blur.

[@howleeeee]

Hi! I came here because of the Fade to Black reaction, which was a great and emotional video, it made me cry a bit ngl. I would like to watch your reaction to one of my favorite songs, which is called Down in a Hole from Alice in Chains, the unplugged version is the best one, if you liked Fade to Black u will love this one. Take care!

[@epicmage82]

Definitely a great song!

[@howleeeee]

@@epicmage82 And very deep too

[@thejake1453]

Love this song, but man can you not listen to it when you're feeling types of ways. Never knew someone could write a song that's perfectly designed to emotionally kick your ass every line.

[@MikeClark-wq8vr]

You should do more Amigo the devil reactions the Guy is A pure genius

[@sarahsatyr7133]

Amigo The Devil..to me.. always seems to sing the things I wish I had the courage to say out loud.

[@damienosullivan193]

Me again sorry, I just had an idea of iron maiden's tribute to Robin Williams, 'tears of a clown'. It's not one of their crazier songs, it has a middle of the road type of beat, hope you like it.

[@bookwermofthefandoms]

I've attempted suicide so many times I've lost track but I'm doing better today and i hope I'll do even better tomorrow

[@MentalAmanda]

I believe in you!

[@andruwxx]

I’m trying to stop drinking. I’ve never been in so much pain and so scared. Just want my BAC to be zero and I’ll be happy.

[@MentalAmanda]

Don't feel like you have to do it alone! Get support. Talk about your struggles. We've got your back and we believe in you!

[@Angry_Dinosaur]

This is the only video I go back to rewatch. I understand this song. I understand no longer wanting to be here. My late wife, now going on 16 months, was the only reason I lived. She kept the addiction away. I was drunk on love. I was drunk on her beauty, not just outward, mostly inward. Her simple request of me was a life directive. Some of it may think unhealthy but it wasn't that. Her wish was my desire. My wish was her desire. Other than her presence the thing I miss the most, was sitting on the back porch and touching her hand. Now I sit here without her wishing she would touch mine. I'm not going to do anything, I won't go into the afterlife feeling like a pussy because my feelings are hurt after what I see her go through to the end physically. I am waiting to die. I'll probably delete this. There is a suicide in different ways. Sitting and waiting. What a fucking pussy I became. I'll be buried in another man's grave.

[@MentalAmanda]

You're not a pussy at all. You are a human feeling very normal human emotions. I'm so sorry that you lost your wife. She sounds like such an amazing woman and I am honored to get to know her energy, if even just through you. Find ways to keep sharing her love with the world. It will keep her alive.

[@Angry_Dinosaur]

@@MentalAmanda I've watched alot of your videos. Trying to understand the mental state my wife was in. Your energy and hers were different but that doesn't change the source of pain, the reason for the pain, the expression of the pain. She died of the reasons her mind. It destroyed her physically leading her body to give up (not drugs or alcohol). I'll leave a link to another Amigo song. I always took it as a follow up to this song. It may not be worthy of a reaction but I do recommend watching it to understand the artist. I was raised differently than others. My late wife tempered me on day one. If your interested I'll post what I read at her eulogy. Anyone reading this can ask and I'll do it. The video is 4 minutes. A worthy 4 minutes. kzbin.info/www/bejne/kKvNpX-jZaxnb6c

[@ragman7266]

I shut it off part way through. Kept talking and talking. And then was laughing. And after a serious lyric, she wanted to tell some story. Felt like she was just waiting to react, instead of listening and reacting. Was too aggravating. Why can't some people just listen to a song and react with full attention. Instead of interrupting the song every 10 seconds with 3 minutes of talking? You're not listening to listen. You're listening to react. And yes, you were on the cliff. I swallowed a ton of pills and was life flighted. This song hits me hard.

[@MentalAmanda]

This channel is about using music to open up conversation about mental health. I am glad you're still here. I hope you find a channel that resonates with you more 😊

[@adamjohnson6432]

Amanda, I just subscribed to your channel after I saw your reaction video to Metallica's Fade to Black.

[@damienosullivan193]

I was the same Adam. It is an emotional song, but I was very taken aback by how it affected her.

[@bookwermofthefandoms]

a good one a lot like this also by Amigo The Devil is First Day of The End of My Life. subscribed for more

[@adamjohnson6432]

Oh I meant to add too that I am a suicide survivor too. I am 46 now and became suicidal at the age of 21. All I can say is God stopped me and pulled me out of it. I have never told anybody how close I was to taking my life and what I was planning and I never will. That person is gone now and is dead to me so I just don't tell people what actually happened. The incident that lead me to being suicidal still hurts me very much but I no longer want to kill myself. Thank you for what you are doing.

[@BilgeOnTheRocks]

It is astonishing how Many people obviously ok have such dark stories to tell. Uff! Basing on the thesis that the best Lyrics are inspirited by Life itself, I Look around and See sooo Many Destroyer lifes around me.... WE have a German Speech that says "Everyone has His dead bodies in the basement" concerning those people being very correctly and Clean and friendly to every one. But behind the Mask you find abuse, hitting wife or children etc... I Hope you come along Well. Keep going with this. I guess it helps you and your Community.

[@MentalAmanda]

You're not supposed to know about the dead bodies in my basement! Dang it!

[@izazoz9259]

Please turn your video volume up. I can’t hear anything

[@skullguitar666.]

Amigo the devil is the best love this guy

[@talencross]

Please please do Cocaine and Abel by him

[@uwumaster6787]

You’re awesome!

[@stephenremains]

Could you react to Dead Butterflies by Architects?

[@CristianVieraArevalo]

Please react no: Slacker - I have no memory

[@fabreg6636]

You have to do "Sia - Alive"

[@Dethian666]

please do a mystic prophecy song reaction

[@maxdeborde6772]

You should react to migraine by twenty one pilots very good song

[@york7201]

If this made you emotional, maybe don't listen to quiet as a rat from him. Unless you have, then sorry

[@numajoff]

Not sure why you've made the whole song about u

[@MentalAmanda]

This channel is about shattering the mental health stigma. I have chosen to do that by sharing my story through how music affects me. I'm very forthcoming and transparent about my intent and the approach has been beneficial for thousands of people, which you can see if you sift through the comments on the channel.

[@NathanATaves]

Okay I think she did it to show how much this is very relatable to her life--which was important. Yes she tries to find the surface thing that are spot on relatable. but his "Simplicity" has so many levels. Self deletion is very defining and her trying to help--sometime it takes making it about you to help others. BUT SHE PAUSED TO DAMN MUTCH to feel the SONG.

[@justahologram2230]

Just feeding the algorithm Why are you still reading this? I said what I was doing.