First Time Hearing À Tout le Monde by Megadeth | Suicide Survivor Reacts

[@MentalAmanda]

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[@MikeTHFC]

Good to see you back and smiling!

[@abrahamrodrigues1049]

I miss Chester Bennington . His death felt personal to me .

[@MikeTHFC]

@@jeremyjensen1491 My friend, I’ve learnt that even though life can be tough and overwhelming there still is happiness and beauty to be found, especially when least expected. The fact you have commented here today shows you are a fighter and I tip my hat to you, long may it continue.

[@chriskeyes713]

There’s a couple killer songs you would like by nofx… try out the video for The big drag and the video for I love you more than I hate me.

[@Bibvock]

Thank you for this vid! ❤️ Mental health awareness is so important and you are super compassionate! You seem like a great human! Thanks for that⭐ needed this vid🙂

[@cuiwis]

According to Mustaine you nailed your intepretation of those lyrics not being a suicide note. You are spot on!

[@petervargo1696]

Yup. I belive he said it's just a song about the last words of a person on their deathbed. Not suicide related.

[@_veikkomies]

The suicide interpretation is so weird to me, I never got that from the song.

[@eldiego68]

@@_veikkomies “so as you read this know my friend…” I’m gonna be that guy and say it’s not hard to see why ppl make the connection.

[@tylercady3985]

@@eldiego68 I think it's more what comes after those lines. "These are the last words, I'll ever speak. Now set me free." I think that's where the idea of a suicide note can maybe be pushed a little more, even if it's wrong

[@eldiego68]

@@tylercady3985 ellipses

[@dekeg.6795]

Mustaine is like a visionary. He seen alot of the issues today, 30 years ago. Holy Wars still rings true to this day.

[@JoCbreakdown]

Very true. Check out 'Washington is Next' (2006) he talked about seven years of famine, sabotage people health, keep public undisciplined, or 'Lying in State' (2016) he mention New Normal, about how will history portray us as country. Mustaine is half sorcerer. 😁😁🤘🏻🤘🏻

[@ThrillhoWiggum]

Or... those issues have always been around. Holy Wars is about religious conflict, so it will always ring true.

[@user-fh9vh6hr7w]

"monitoring. Our wages, new world order. Comes in stages"

[@user-fh9vh6hr7w]

@R. Tell me... Will world war 3 be generic as fuck?

[@careyglazener1536]

I'm mad that I can only like your comment once..

[@donaldlamendola1392]

Dave explained it in an interview that the song came from his sister telling him that their mother was sick in the hospital and had passed before he got there. But later found out that she was already passed before he was told she was sick. So he thought he was too late getting to her to tell her he loved her and carried that guilt for a long time.

[@d6678]

Growing up in the 80's, many of our churches considered this type of music "satanic". It is a shame that so many people back then hear the guitar and automatically consider it satanic. They really needed to hear the message.

[@ameliaward7429]

Well, Dave admitted that some songs in the early days were demonic. He stopped playing those songs live a long time ago.

[@RagingInsomniac]

@@ameliaward7429 well damn, dave bent over for the religious nuts. that’s great.

[@riphopfer5816]

@@ameliaward7429Then he started again, because as he learned more about his faith he understood that singing an entertaining story about demons and ghosts (“The Conjuring”, “Lucretia”) and made up types of magic (“thermatology”😆 from “Five Magics”), will not manifest true evil in the world. The only things that manifest evil in the world are evil intent, and complicity with those who exhibit evil intent. Dave singing ‘The Conjuring‘ just makes a bunch of lonely , dysfunctional kids (and older blokes, like yours, truly) happy. Keeps us from causing real trouble, like… I dunno…lighting possums on fire, or eating the neighbour’s dog-then next week eating the neighbour’s kid. And nasal sex. That’s the newest delinquent craze. Y’know-all the usual stuff naturally evil adolescents get up to.

[@PHILPOP2]

Dave Mustaine is a musical and lyrical genius.

[@yeahboiii6640]

Bravo.

[@jeroenstuer2248]

Indeed , a real guitar master!!!!

[@reardeltoit4644]

also dave mustaine in 80s: Imagine you were at my station And you brought your motor to me Your a burner yeah a real motor car Said you wanna get your order filled Made me shiver when I put it in Pumping just won't do ya know luckily for you Whoever thought you'd be better At turning a screw than me I do it for my life Made my drive shaft crank Made my pistons bulge Made my ball bearing melt from the heat Oh yeah yeah We were shifting hard when we took off Put tonight all four on the floor When we hit top end you know it feels to slow Said you wanna get your order filled Made me shiver when I put it in Pumping just won't do ya know luckily for you Whoever thought you'd be better At turning a screw than me I do it for my life Made my drive shaft crank Made my pistons bulge Made my ball bearing melt from the heat Oh yeah yeah Oh! ...

[@DJBubbleBoy]

*was

[@yeahboiii6640]

@@DJBubbleBoy Stay in your bubble.

[@lazyhominid]

Mustaine uses his music to tackle some really difficult issues we face in life. And he does it well. I don't always agree with him, but that is a good thing - echo chambers are boring. I like being challenged. But when it comes to this song, it's dead on.

[@wordzfailmebro]

True that.

[@6502-Coder]

Yep, “dead” on!

[@gandalf239]

Your interpretation is spot on; from what I understand, back in the 90s, MTV wouldn't play the video because they deemed it a suicide song. From the interview I watched, Mustaine talked about how his late mother came to him in a dream, wanting to tell him one more time that she loves him.

[@michael-johnbrown2881]

True they did not get the message this song was written with one message what do you say when a love one goes and how do you say goodbye that was the message

[@Eli76055]

This is actually a pretty interesting reaction. You should react to Megadeth's "In My Darkest Hour". Pretty good song by them. Also Megadeth is another one of those thrash bands, similar to Metallica and actually broken off from Metallica after singer and guitarist Dave Mustaine got kicked out of Metallica. After that, he formed Megadeth and this is from one of their later studio albums.

[@davidhabert]

One sad note about that song is that it was written during when Metallica's original bassist Cliff Burton was killed during a tour bus accident when Metallica were doing their *Master Of Puppets tour* in Europe. Dave Mustaine was good friends with Cliff at the time even when he got kicked out of Metallica.

[@Eli76055]

@@davidhabert Yea. It truly is a sad story and a rough time to see Cliff go so young. Another little sad factoid about the song is that when Dave first heard about Cliff's death, he immediately went to do some dope, proceeded to cry and compose the entire song.

[@91GT347]

One of my favorites.👍

[@exostell5653]

Bro Metallica is similar to Megadeth . Dave is more talented than James and Co . The truth is when Cliff died , ideas died with him and Metallica did worst and worst albums .

[@franfender]

Come on, better react to a song like Break it Down Again by Tears for Fears

[@reggiecanfield4294]

You're spot on with your interpretation. I love you reaction videos and emotional responses are so genuine. As a 44 year old man who has lived with depression and anxiety for most of my life I can relate to you on a deeper level and I can't tell you how much you actually help people like me. I love what you do with your channel here to bring awareness and understanding to those of who battle with mental illness. You shine a light in our darkness so to speak and I can't thank you enough. I've only recently discovered you videos here(about 6months ago) and I've wanted to leave you a comment to let you know that you are very appreciated in what you do. You're a beautiful lady inside and out and so much stronger than you will ever know you are. Please keep up your awesome work here and don't ever doubt your worth....🤘😁🤘

[@SylviusTheMad]

When my father was terminally ill, he had a nurse who explained that, when his final days came, he would know before anyone else did. The last time I saw him was 4 days before he died, and when I left I could tell he knew. No one else did. Until that moment, I thought I'd get another chance to see him, but he knew I wouldn't. So I said goodbye. I told him he did good. I think my ability to cope with his loss was much greater because I got that moment. We got to have closure on our own terms.

[@MentalAmanda]

I see now that my dad knew in his final days and especially his final minutes. He started getting together family pictures. And just before he passed, he told my mom "don't forget to come kiss me goodbye" before leaving for work. She was puzzled and assured him she would never forget that. He passed before she went back in to give him that kiss. You are lucky for that beautiful moment!

[@markcarpenter6020]

Yep. The day my grandfather died he chased us from the hospital. He used every excuse he could come up with to get us to leave. Finally he asked us to go get my cousin (me and her were the oldest grandkids) so my family said ok called my uncle and went to get her. By the time we got to her house grandpa was dead

[@MentalAmanda]

@@markcarpenter6020 He wanted it that way. I hope he went in peace.

[@markcarpenter6020]

@@MentalAmanda it was quick at least. He had a massive heart attack

[@MentalAmanda]

@@markcarpenter6020 My mom was heart attack too.

[@stevestevens336]

You're spot on, the song isn't about suicide, it's about saying goodbye to the ones you love before you pass away, and how death hurts and affects the ones you leave behind.

[@CrueHead18]

You're such a beautiful soul. By far my favorite reacter on here. So glad you are doing well now. Greetings from Finland!

[@shure81]

8:57 there's something so wonderful about that smile, considering the title is "Survivor Reacts". Cheers, Amanda! Long-time Megadeth fan, and your interpretation is spot on!

[@williamreed38]

You continue to be amazing. I have a couple recommendations as for some songs - no affiliate for sure but what helped me. Both from the band Crash Test Dummies - who's second album is fantastic, but I recommend from their first album (or I think it's their first) - two tracks "Superman Song" , cause I lived so long doing what the song covers. And "At my Funeral", which to this day I want it played when my days are done. Keep up the great work!! You inspire!

[@MustaLaatta]

Fine reaction, Amanda... And those of us who follow your and all of ours mental strengthening by sharing our stories to each others will be here 💜 💜

[@kingc3521]

I love this song. Megadeth always has real life messages on their songs.

[@timconrad5063]

Awesome You did one on this song Thank you This song saved my life many times When I am down and Hopeless Feeling cornered and Exhausted This song helps

[@jonnycarlson9555]

Today you accomplished to make me a bit happier. I really enjoyed to watch this videos and that made those minutes a bit happier for me. Thanks! 😊😍

[@MentalAmanda]

YAY!!!!!

[@gustavodiehl7975]

Thanks for the reaction!!! great song great channel nice job Amanda !!!keep going the work

[@oberon190848]

I really admire what you are doing Amanda.... A lot of songs are direct relations to things a lot of people experience every day and i think they are perfect mediums for working through and expressing these types of thoughts and emotions without anyone getting hurt. I really feel that you want nothing more than to assist others through the difficult things you yourself have experienced and that is such an admirable thing. Keep doing what you are doing girl! Big love

[@sue6307]

I love this reaction. And yes the hair!! Dave still actually has the hair. And incidentally..I've watched you a few times and read "Metal Amanda". Lol Mental. Now i get it ❤❤❤❤❤

[@12floz67]

This is probably the best breakdown of this song I’ve seen. Great job! Whatever you’re doing, keep it up! God bless.🍻

[@beezysbeatz4924]

Oh wow! I thought I didn't see this in your catalogue when I requested in the comments of the "Snuff" reaction. Great and thank you!!

[@cheenu711]

I don't know how he keeps doing it on every song but the first line into Marty's solo is magic. Perfectly captured the mood of the song.

[@starwarstimeline]

Beautiful reaction. Art and especially music can be very therapeutic. I'm glad you came across this song, helps you cope when you realize you aren't alone in your joys and struggles.

[@finishin.my.coffee8780]

The demo version of this song is even more melancholy. Actually, they rerecorded this song in 2007 and had Cristina Scabbia (an Italian metal vocalist) as a guest on the song, and it's a more upbeat version. Lisa Marie Presley was slated to be the guest vocalist but Dave thought Cristina was a better fit so they recorded the song with her and released it on United Abominations.

[@metalmaniac2798]

I am just running across your video... thank you for being such a kind and beautiful soul, providing a warm and welcoming place for those that need it. My arms, a hand, my heart... always here if you ever need it.

[@stephenmcgraw8871]

He wrote this when his mom was in the hospital on her death bed........He adamantly says it`s got nothing to do with offing yourself.

[@danjmcs]

Really great reaction Amanda, thanks for sharing yourself the way you do to help others. Dave wrote some of my favorite Megadeth songs on the album Youthanasia, that this song is off of. The prior album, Countdown to Extinction has a favorite, such as Symphony of Destruction. One of those bands I think that can be overlooked because of some of the metal band stigma.

[@jacksonhavis96]

Glad you react to megadeth. Saw them last week in Dallas TX. This is one of my favorite songs. Great reaction!!👍🏽👍🏽👍🏽🤘🤘🤘

[@hansvandenakker5185]

tonight i was feeling lonely. Dark thoughts were appearing in my mind. i decided to watch your channel again. watching your video lifted me up a bit, thanks for helping us (me) with your channel

[@MentalAmanda]

You're never alone! We're here!

[@Mr.Smoke218]

just found out you did a reaction on this song. Makes me happy, makes me smile

[@thetravenousgamer]

You nailed it! The meaning behind this song is, "if you knew you only had a few moments left in life, what would you say, and to whom?" For Dave, he'd simply say, "I love you" Check out the Megadeth track "Use the Man"

[@SirSkud]

Yes! Check that track!

[@oldkid8811]

Mega ditto on use the man! Powerful! Dewit!

[@squidly2112]

Fantastic reaction/review .. great job. Your interpretation is absolutely spot on. Dave has talked about this song repeatedly. So glad you picked up on this so easily, many people do not. This is one of my favorite Megadeth songs, it is my ring-tone.

[@danielrobertson7793]

I am struggling with my mental health and addictions and appreciate your videos Amanda! I love all these songs and bands! You are greatly appreciated! Thank you!

[@WykkedMofo]

J'ai bien aimé ta réaction pour cette chanson. Ton francais est excellent! On another note, I do enjoy your channel and your authentic reactions. Keep up the GREAT work! :)

[@JeremyMiller-sn6nh]

This song helped me through a very difficult time in my life after I lost my mother to cancer and I was the one who had to give the authorization to the doctor to terminate life support. The loss mixed with the guilt of being the one that gave the order to end her life tore me up.

[@MentalAmanda]

I can't even imagine the weight of making that decision and the pain you must have gone through. Losing your mother and having to make such a heart-wrenching choice must have been incredibly difficult. It's amazing that music could help you through that, offering some comfort during such a dark time. When my mom passed, I sang Leave Out All the Rest to Myself over and over and over for days. Thank you for sharing something so personal-your story might help others who are struggling with similar feelings. Feel free to share your favorite memories of your mom so we can help keep her spirit alive.

[@Zest81]

Dave overdosed on heroin many years ago. He wrote this song after surviving. He's been clean and sober over 20 something years. He also survived throat cancer last year.

[@absinthedream9668]

You nailed the songs meaning, sad but beautiful song imo. You exude a relaxed & friendly vibe Amanda :)

[@artforst7350]

Your such a beautiful soul! Your Mom and Dad are proud of you for doing these videos! God Bless You!

[@fabiannajera9888]

I remember the first time I saw you was on the reaction of Fade to black, and was surprised for your story and again for some reason i've endded again here and glad to see you one more time. Greetings from México 🇲🇽 (sorry if I wrote something wrong, my english is a little bit rusted)

[@MentalAmanda]

Your English is great and I hope to see you around again!

[@johnhorton1879]

I read that Dave the singer od'd and he wrote this for that. Cheers and greetings from Chicago. Love your channel.

[@madddawg1369]

Amanda, Your comments about what you went through is exactly what I was going through when my parents told me I made my mess and I needed to fix it. My wife and my parents deserted me. I tried to end it at that time. I woke up two days later in a very bad way and an old man that was the security guard at the place I was employed told me "Son you lived, you gotta take care of the one (child) you love." I've done my best to help others. I've hinted to my kid a few times that I lived because of her. Love to you and my Baby has my heart!

[@bullamarta]

Great reaction! Thanks for raising awareness for mental health. It’s such an important topic that doesn’t get talked about enough. Also, I love Megadeth!!! Xx

[@travelandwriting]

I am glad for you that you discovered this masterful, emotional song. It is quite striking to hear your impressions as a survivor. Very cute how you got giddy hearing him sings in French too!

[@bcarroll4532]

Thank you Amanda it's nice to hear your stories and opinions..I'm trying to sort out my own demons. I really get the part when you say you're trying so hard for everyone else there is nothing left for you...life is so hard. 💔

[@brentschmoeckel1420]

Thank you for educating us on mental health issues keep up the good work

[@Peron1-MC]

man i have to start listening to the lyrics of my favorite metal bands. this is a really positive message.

[@metalmark1214]

Great Megadeth song choice Amanda. This is one of their few ballads. Singer Dave Mustaine said is was about a dream he had where his dead mother visited and talked to him.

[@amp710252853]

This was a great reaction! I’m glad you’re doing well

[@mikel1804]

I love what you are doing here. keep it up!!!

[@BerishStarr]

Thank you Amanda for your mental health work ❤️🤙 This song has been in the background in my darkest hours, saving my life.

[@bobvondurfel4525]

Thank you for this video. I appreciate your interpretation of the lyrics. It's one of my favorite songs by Megadeth. Thank you for the story about your friend. I can tell you are beautiful through and through (mind, body and spirit). I wish there were more people like you in this world... I wish I were more like you.

[@jeffreyanderson1420]

Happy that you made it through.i lost my brother to suicide in 1993 and I've had some bouts of minor depression. I urge you and anyone else to listen to "the pass" by RUSH. Anytime I feel down this brings me right back up..

[@MentalAmanda]

I am so sorry about your brother. Keep sharing his love with the world!

[@jeffreyanderson1420]

@@MentalAmanda we do still tell all the funny stories about him..so sorry to hear you lost your parents at such a young age..but you're doing good stay at it..and please listen to that song or at least read the lyrics..neil peart was an amazing lyricist and he hit the nail on the head with this one...much love and hang in there.

[@smftv]

As someone that's suffered immeasurably in life and battled lifelong depression and so much more, you say a lot of the right things. The things only someone who knows, can say and I appreciate your heartfelt honesty.

[@BlackieNuff]

This whole album this song is from (Youthanasia) is really really good. I Thought I Knew It All is a good philosophical tune with some catchy refrains.

[@silvercloud1641]

This record was their Black Album, imho, song writing and production wise. With Countdown being Megadeths AJFA, my other favorite of theirs. Then things went a bit down hill for both bands after those, my opinion again. As Pantera and Meshuggah carried the torch for the heaviest of metal, short of death metal, keeping metal interesting and going. 🤘

[@BlackieNuff]

@@silvercloud1641 That's an accurate analogy/comparison (Countdown = AJFA ; Youthanasia = M5/BA), and I'm inclined to agree. The stuff after Youthansia (save for the Hidden Treasures EP) did not resonate with me quite as well, as Cryptic Writings seemed to lack whatever it was that pulled me into every Megadeth album prior, so I never got into it. Risk and everything else that followed, was probably better, but by then I was a bit too removed to really dive into the albums and get reacquainted with all the post-Youthanasia material. So I also concur with your "downhill" assessment. The only difference is, while I pretty much stopped buying Metallica albums (save for the Garage Inc compilation) once the disappointment that was Load happened, I would still buy every new Megadeth release, just to keep the ole collection up to date and complete ((Megadeth's "evolution" was not as much of a "transgression" as Metallica's was for me - at least Mustaine & Co did not cut their hair! LOL). However, with every new album, the idea of doing a "listening session" got more daunting, and my limited time did not make it any easier. I heard that Death Magnetic was some kind of "redemption" effort, but I was not particularly impressed. I guess my interest in Metallica has waned too much to really care about anything beyond the "classic" era of the first 3 albums, the EP, and the 2 "sellout" albums ; in short, I'm only interested in anything Metallica before 1992, with Garage Inc being the only exception to that cut-off point. As you say, that's all merely "imho", lol. :-) Cheers.

[@silvercloud1641]

@@BlackieNuff "was not as much of a "transgression" as Metallica's was for me - at least Mustaine & Co did not cut their hair! LOL" Lols. True. But there is one thing I have to hand to Metallica. No matter what all these years they still stuck together. More like a true band, a family. Not just hired musicians. 'Through The Never' was solid and spot on even after all these years, if you haven't seen it catch it on Netflix. With the exception of Cliff's death and two other long standing members on bass, it has been the original line up since their debut record. That's a very long time. Like what 40 years? Most bands don't last 40 months or even 40 days, let alone 40 years. The ultimate road dogs!

[@BlackieNuff]

@@silvercloud1641 Another good point! I've tried to think of another band with as many original member mainstays (departures-and-returns do not count) who endured anywhere near 4 decades, and I could not think of anyone. That's not to say there isn't any, only that I could not think of them. Despite my "vast" knowledge of bands and artists out there (whether I listen to them or not), it's still pretty limited. I think maybe the closest picks I could find only last as long as a decade or two at most with most if not all original members, and anyone with the same kind of consistent longevity has had a revolving door of session/touring musicians but no real official members. In the case of the latter category, I've completely lost track of who all has ever "served" in the ranks - and I used to be pretty good at memorizing the lineups of all the bands I listened to. Haha, eventually, with every new album by whatever band, I'd look through the little booklet and realize another lineup change, and I'd be like "Aww, jeez! ANOTHER new guy??" At some point you just throw your hands in the air and say "whatever... as long as they are tight and sound good". :-P

[@silvercloud1641]

@@BlackieNuff Megadeth had a good thing going with CDTE and Youthanasia. It should also be noted technical skill isn't the only thing that makes a great band, otherwise everyone would be playing classical or jazz based music. Megadeth could run circles around Metallica, with Dave singing on top it. But Metallica was just always bigger and more relateable. It's like smooth vs. chunky peanut butter. Both are good really, but that chunky and slower tempo Metallica had seemed a bit heavier and more pleasing over all. I also think many prefered James over Dave on vocals. Megadeth is still one of the greats, but Metallica is pretty legendary. Cheers. 🍻

[@wewsvideos6321]

Depression is a very personal experience that affects almost everyone the exact same way ...we all feel it's better for everyone else for us to be gone... it's amazing how 1 day at a time turns into moving past the negative emotions... stay strong and keep healing yourself and others.

[@moshahir5574]

Hi, cool review of one of my favorite song. You have a beaautiful smile. Take care of yourself.

[@Yamatsu7]

Just found your channel and i have to say what you are doing here is pretty nice. Keep it up.

[@thomaslazarek6835]

Great reaction Amanda. Keep fighting the good fight. I noticed In My Darkest Hour by Megadeth mentioned. Another Megadeth song would be Sweating Bullets but you have to watch the video. When dealing with death, I would recommend Cemetery Gates by Pantera. Lyrically and musically, the song captures the sorrow and anger that you feel when dealing with death. Keep up the great work.

[@Lucrei.]

I think the song can be interpreted in multiple ways and that's what makes it such a beautiful piece of art I love this interpretation though because it's such a positive outlook on death and moving on Also Megadeth is a unit of measurement of death, so it's a measurement used for atomic bombs... the band was very anti-nuclear war so that's why the name!

[@nigeldepledge3790]

Thank you, Amanda, for a reaction full of insight. Some of what you were saying made me reevaluate how I thought about this song. This song is definitely from before your time : if memory serves, it's from around 1990-1992. I'd like to share some of the best advice that I received in dealing with loss. First, know that the wounds will become scars. There's no point in trying to "get over" whatever the loss may be, because that's not going to deal with it. Second, the most important moment in anyone's life is right now. Because it's only in this moment that anyone has the power to change anything. So focus on the now.

[@JF1J]

Wow, strong song to hear! I really love the version featuring Cristina Scabbia. Hope you are doing great Amanda!

[@osez111]

Hum, i love Cristina but the original version is better.

[@Azereiah]

I feel like as long as I keep breaking down when I hear this song, I have more to do to help myself. I feel some... desperation when I hear it. Like the acceptance of and acknowledgment of imminent death is the most terrifying thing to me. I've stood at the edge of the void before, thought that was how I would pass. Didn't want to, but felt like it would eventually happen if things kept going how they were. Acknowledging that the path I was on would kill me was what prompted the biggest changes in my life. Sometimes I get a glimpse of that feeling I had back then in this song.

[@rocksparadox]

Thank you so much for sharing your story about the homeless person. That appreciation someone can have is so beautiful. Last year I lost my father to C19 and a few years earlier I lost my mother after she had been struggling with her health for decades. Grief is a difficult process and you need to give yourself time and full awareness to realize what you are feeling.

[@javiergalvez2379]

Your reactions to this videos are great, and you're a great person, keep going, wishing you all the best, greetings from Guatemala !!👋

[@Dzelde66]

I've listened to this song for years. Sometimes, I listen to a tune purely musically, and I don't pay much attention to the lyrics. I've always loved the musicality of this. I lost my wife a year ago. She was only 53. My life has been empty and difficult since. We met later in life, and I miss her deeply. I loved your analysis of the song, and your notes on grief are spot on. Thank you for sharing. Sometimes it's surprising how songs that you have listened to for ages, suddenly creep up with new meaning. Thank you. ..

[@MentalAmanda]

Please feel free to tell us about her so we can help keep her memory alive 💖

[@Dzelde66]

@@MentalAmanda that's so kind.

[@MIKEPGH]

When I was 19 I had a Pneumothorax on both lungs. Was In the hospital for over two weeks after surgery. Listened to this song and album constantly. I almost died. My mom visited every day. But my dad did too. Still in his paramedic uniform. He's gone now and it's been VERY tough.

[@mani1357mani]

Amanda, you have a heart of gold. ❤️

[@OggyFink]

It was great watching your reaction to this awesome song, thank you! And btw your French is awesome :)

[@MentalAmanda]

Merci beaucoup!

[@LeoIndie]

Es muy apreciable que compartas tu experiencias con canciones así porque hay mucha gente que lo nenecita. Salud bella!

[@MentalAmanda]

Espero que lo pueda ayudar a otros 💗

[@JDutton13]

This has been one of my favorite Megadeth songs since high school almost 25 years ago. As far as lack of accomplishment- I learned that setting deadlines for Life goals can be a double edged sword. Great if you achieve them, but if Life throws curve balls (and it WILL)... Not reaching those goals can be twice as detrimental to your self worth. Instead, set a goal that's attainable with steps defined. Leave the timeline open ended; as long as one is constantly working toward a goal... it'll happen. We as humans tend to forget we are on a timeline other than what we presume to be Ours. Whether it be God you believe in, a higher power, the Universe... we are on that timeline. We can only control choices we make and how we react to others.

[@michaelriddick7116]

Can confirm. I can remember sitting at my desk in 5th or 6th grade and thinking to myself "married at 20, kids by 30" ... ... Yeah :/ Well 11yo me isnt the first person I've let down in my now 40 years of life, and I'm sure he wont be the last. The key is just keep breathing, keep swimming. Just. Keep. Swimming. :)

[@GreyMatterStew]

@@michaelriddick7116 So true. I appreciate the Dory reference, but in not being a fish, I eventually just got tired. Now I float alot, going nowhere.

[@baustin1215]

I clicked on this video to see how a not necessarily “metal” looking person would react to this song and ended up teary eyed hearing about your encounter with the homeless person. As someone who is trying to become more emotionally available to my loved ones, this is inspiring. The best thing we can do is spread love to everyone we encounter. Thank you for your heartfelt video! 🤟😊

[@jonathanrogers1714]

You have accomplished a lot Amanda never let anyone tell you different

[@ConnbineHarvester]

Found your channel today and was shocked you've not reacted to Suicidal Tendencies - How Will I Laugh Tomorrow

[@AndDeathForAll82]

Amanda, you have survived. You have accomplished EVERYTHING. I’m proud of you.

[@siavfc5339]

Hi Amanda. Firstly, you're doing amazing. Depression is no joke and I've also had it for like 30 years. Just when I think I'm OK, I get hammered by something and I'm there again. I used to play soccer at semi pro level, tennis cricket and later I fronted a metal band but I've real bad osteoarthritis in the base of the spine and so I can't work, I can't walk, everything one after another has had to stop and at 52, I'm already preparing myself for my end. I'm not suicidal, I just know I won't be able to handle having everything done for me. I used to song write and record at home. That's come to a halt but this song I'm going to record an acoustic version for when my time comes. BTW, you're doing an amazing job on here. For alot of people. Si

[@MentalAmanda]

We never "get over" it. But we can decisions to make those hard times less intense and less frequent. It sounds like you're feeling understandably frustrated by your circumstances. My dad, a very proud man, was disabled because of a drunk driver. It was a hard pill for him to swallow. But he tended to lean into the areas that he still had independence in and strengthen those and work on being giving in any way he could so he felt that he was "balancing the scales" so to speak.

[@TheAcadianGuy]

Yup, I attempted suicide at 16 years old and got extremely traumatized(in a good way). It might sound cliché, but the moment I acted upon my delusional sorrow, the desire to live triumphed, and I felt like I was reborn. Life is worth living, regardless of the difficulty we might face.

[@mariapfeiffer7196]

I was 7 years old when my grandma passed away and I was very close with her and I’m still not over the grief that I’m going through and i still miss here to this day and she was my savior when I was having suicidal thoughts at a very young age because my dad left me when I was 5 years old and I thought he left because I thought he resented me and didn’t want me. Im still having some issues but megadeth was an outlet for me getting through the sad thoughts and made me want to create my own music.

[@MentalAmanda]

I'm sorry that you didn't get the love and support that you deserved as a child and that you lost your precious grandma. I believe that you will find your worth and find ways to share her love with the world 💖

[@hectorrenesegovia779]

Kix: "Don't Close Your Eyes" is an 80's ballad about suicide.

[@gregoryrincon1735]

I'm dealing with a lot especially losing a friend who passes a few days ago, and it's been hard on me, but Music is the only thing keeping me going, and I just stumbled upon your channel and I just wanted to say that I enjoy your content so much. Keep up the Good work and keep on Rocking on!!🤘🤘

[@MentalAmanda]

Keeping a memory journal helped me immensely because it gave me a way of keeping my memories with my parents. Here if you need to talk!

[@maxmorales3521]

You're so amazing, thanks for the positive fibs.

[@ericschaefer6769]

Thanks for continuing to sharing your story. More people need to hear it, especially with all the crap that's currently going on in the world. Keep it up and have a GREAT day!!!

[@ceaps81]

I’m a huge megadeth fan, I lost my brother to covid this November. Me being the oldest he was the second born my brother was my first best friend. He died alone in the hospital. Till this day it rips me apart. this song along with others that him and I used to listen to. Brings back wonderful memories of me learning to play guitar and him sitting in the room with me playing Xbox and dealing with my loud racket in the backyard. Lol. Music is my therapy for all my down days. Thankfully today is a up day.🙏 I love you brother, fly high and don’t ever stop. 💙

[@MentalAmanda]

I can't imagine those who lost loved ones during the pandemic. I am confident that he knew you loved him. I hope you find peace and feel his love.

[@thumperboyad1031]

Loved the reaction, Megadeth is one of my favorite bands and this song is among my favorites. I would like to recommend you check out former Flyleaf vocalist Lacey Sturm who went solo a few years back. Her songs Your Not Alone, Impossible, Soldier and Life Screams are really great songs and very inspirational. Another little tid bit about her is that she at one time had planned on committing suicide and well let's just say she has an amazing story about how she never went through with it. Very cool gal, check her out you won't regret it!

[@smitty3456]

Tomorrow will be 15 years since my dad passed. I still have days where I tear up, but I usually have a smile, while it’s still sad I have so many great memories. I honor his anniversary and birthday every year by having one of his favorite beers

[@MentalAmanda]

Cheers to your daddy today! I have a memory journal that I write in and I always take time specifically on those days and their birthdays to write in it. Maybe start one of your own!

[@wordzfailmebro]

Lucky you had a dad. Head up bro.

[@MentalAmanda]

@@wordzfailmebro It still hurts like hell when we lose them!

[@wordzfailmebro]

@@MentalAmanda I'm sorry. Head up big smile. I was a witness to Bali 2002 tragedy. My heart goes out to everyone who's lost a loved one. 😥

[@wordzfailmebro]

@@MentalAmanda I was lucky enough to see this band on my birthday... tears rolled down my face as I listened to this song.

[@kimhungrige8522]

Dave has French ancestry I think. Who would have thought Megadeth would write this beautiful song. Everything he writes is a lyrical masterpiece.

[@ashleygoehrung4984]

My stepmom passed away in April of last year and this was the song my dad dedicated to her and we played it at her service. I have been struggling with mental health a lot here lately and watching your video has helped me today.

[@joseseptien]

It is, a person that knows is leaving and knows the pain his love ones will feel. That's why "smile when you think about me" "my body is gone, that's all"...

[@wyledawg2]

You definitely got this song, and while it's kinda sad, it's also makes one feel good about leaving. Happens for everyone, just have to wait your turn.

[@ashiqurrohman7731]

Mustaine is something else tbh....His riffs..Words, his delivery of the lyrics are just flawless !

[@loixvfr]

Hi Amanda. Thanx for taking my suggestion (and a few others, I'm sure...) and listening to this great song. You nailed it! It's not about suicide, it's about acceptance, with comming to terms with your own mortality. A lot of people tend to confuse Acceptance with Conformity. If you have a way to deal with something, don't conform, fight and conquer, if you have absolutely no way of reverting an ending, then come to terms with the situation's inevitability and accept it, it will bring you peace of mind (and others around you - although it's not easy). My dad passed from cancer in 2012 and in his final week, when he was suffering, I wished for his departure because I rather suffer from his absence than from his presence in pain and suffering. Anyway, great reaction, loved it. Someone else in these comments suggested In my darkest hour - also from Megadeth. Good song, you should take a look into it. Luv ya and keep your spirits high. (By the way, these are just my two cents on this song, it doesn't mean that I'm right, it means that this is my interpretation of it - different people will have different views on the same subject...)

[@Skraeling1000]

My family were so lucky - depending on how you define "luck". My parents lived into their nineties, and both passed peacefully and quickly. The author Terry Pratchett was diagnosed with a terminal variant of Alzheimer's and before he died he was a great advocate of Dignitas in Switzerland, a clinic which basically allows a person with a terminal disease to choose their own time to pass. Still doesn't help those who remain - I was with my cat when he was euthanised, held him as he took that lonely final journey, and the emotions as the final syringe is connected to the catheter, knowing that I could tell the vet to stop, but if I did, the cat would take a slower, possibly more painful and certainly a more desperately unhappy journey to exactly the same place, were, and still are to an extent, overwhelming.

[@joneubanks7866]

I know this is the older video and you may not read it but to see you alive and breathing and trying to be cheerful it's a beautiful thing I've tried one time and failed it wasn't meant to be you're beautiful presence is meant to be here thank you for your videos love you

[@TrillaDilla410]

You nailed it and got a sub. Much love, stay with us.

[@justinsmyth3211]

No matter how bad things may seem to be, remember that world is always a better place with you in it. I believe this because of your compassion and care for others. I don't know you personally, but it's obvious, even through the noise of the internet.

[@americanthundergod9749]

This song makes me think of my dad every time I hear it. You and I are in the same boat regarding the loss of our fathers who have accepted their deaths.

[@lobotomizedjellyfish2171]

I don't want to share my story here, but I've been struggling for over a year now...

[@MentalAmanda]

If there's anything you need or if you ever want to talk more about what you're going through, you can message me on IG (mentalamanda).

[@yannisgouras4482]

FINALLY!! It is so nice to find a reaction to this and they get the meaning right!!

[@pv6505]

Just commented on the Fade to Black video. Didn't realize you had this already.