First Time Hearing In My Darkest Hour by Megadeth | Suicide Survivor Reacts

[@MentalAmanda]

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[@jamesdenson7616]

1MILLION VIEWS YEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSS OHHHHHHHHHHH FUCK YA, You'll be to 10M in no time :)

[@pekkanikki2348]

Just thank you for reading the comments✌️

[@chris.moonmantis9459]

I have so enjoyed watching you and your reactions- YOU ARE SO AMAZING, bless you and your message. I too have suffered the effects of my plumbing being different, its a mild form of asperges/terettes I make friends usually easy- but I dont have a filter xD it just sometimes comes out, and I sometimes find very difficult to read signals...I have tried to take my life a few times- wanted too many more...get dark depressions, where my need for perfection, procrastination, and defeatism means I just bury my head in the sand...means if I feel I cant do it perfectly I might not do it...well its always there in background- just a massive journey learning my triggers, and dealing with the fact I will never be perfect- and JUST DO IT- if I jump in and start its fine, I will get involved and be swept along and its done- but to often I am just sitting there look at and dont start...this is from studies (essays reports) to purpose, or relationships- I always end up feeling like if I dont ring/call/visit/plan an event gathering- then they never call me- its like I am the one always reaching out, never being reached for...anyways I am in a good space I think, but Thanks you for being so open and honest...I haven't watched a single reaction with tear jerking at some point....so emotional...love you and bless you

[@ishannaram5216]

One singer that helped me get out of an emotional depression is Dimash SOS kzbin.info/www/bejne/jWOcq3irj7uUrtU

[@BerishStarr]

I've said it before, and I will say it again. Your continued support of us is so amazing! To hear that I am lovable and valuable is rare, more common is my own hate for myself. So for you to remind me is very valuable. Thank you!

[@MIKEPGH]

This song has meant something to me since I was 16. I'm 44.

[@heavybrett-al4082]

Same👍🤘🎸🙏

[@ontarget7582]

My best friend wants it played at his funeral

[@jamesbennett5169]

Me too...45... I've seen megadeth a few times... SLAYER and nwa... body count

[@amas2441]

Wooow

[@amas2441]

That's crazy

[@tonysoto8949]

This song is absolute metal beauty. Dave wrote this song after Cliff Burton died and his girlfriend at the time was not there for him so he fell deeper into alcohol and heroin use. I understand what Dave is saying and all the references to dying not going to a perfect world are metaphors for life without that person and the pain that came with it. You are so dependent on that other person that you have to be reborn mentally and start a new life. I’ve been there, and it’s the hardest thing to do and that is like Megadeths other song “The Hardest Part Of Letting is saying goodbye “ that song is also deep and helped me get through. Dave is the best example of that very thing. He went through the Metalica drama, ex girlfriend dramas, addiction, and he came out a better person. I got mad respect and love for Dave, such an honest and wise soul. I grew up a Metalica fan who hated Dave cuz well he was Dave and wasn’t Metalica anymore. I refused to hear Megadeth songs, until one day at a house party when the dude who owned the house put on Five Magics followed by The Conjuring and I asked who the F is that? And my friend said dude that Megadeth Dave’s band. I was shocked and the rest is history

[@antoniocarlin5026]

Doro Pesch was the girlfriend of Dave on these years....

[@Logan_Williams_]

@@antoniocarlin5026 Nope. It was this woman named Diana and he has written a lot of songs about her like Wake Up Dead and Tornado of Souls

[@Stable_Genius]

@@Logan_Williams_ Yep, Diana. She is mentioned by name in Wake Up Dead. Edit: lol. You mentioned Wake Up Dead. I'm liquored up. My bad.

[@leadcounsel4869]

Correct, Mustaine has said it was written about Burton's death in interviews. It surely could also be about other losses too.

[@Logan_Williams_]

@@leadcounsel4869 You’re correct about that. The lyrics were about Diana and the instrumentals were in memory of Cliff Burton.

[@willcherry9029]

Dav Mustane saved my life a hundred times when I was a kid. This song showed me I wasn't alone.

[@kapilazaan6238]

Ahh yes. Dav Mustane

[@Steve-if8lz]

Stay strong bri!!!!

[@fatherdirt2866]

Dave is the man.,.

[@carlx7374]

Just seen Megadeth live last month. One of favorite songs Dave has wrote. So much pain he lets out!! God Bless!!

[@uptempo5318]

saw him in St. Louis! Best way to come back from lockdown!

[@martycarter3306]

The first time I saw megadeth was back in 1990. With slayer. Anthrax and Alice in chains...

[@keithholley546]

Dave is the the best metal songwriter of my generation growing up in the 80's even my mother who was a teacher enjoyed his lyrics. I feel very lucky to have grown up with his music in my life!

[@edwardponder66]

AgreeI love that he has a message a message that changed who I am

[@kalebseiler8577]

Your mom was a teacher and you listened to Megadeth? Did you end up going to college??

[@Lord_Raptor]

I don't know why but, the line "time has a way of taking time" has always hit me ever since first hearing this song some 20 odd years ago.

[@6stringsfanatics276]

Great song and great album So Far, So Good ... So What! One of the most forgotten of Megadeth, thanks for the review \m/

[@carlmclemore6104]

My first cousin passed away at 37 in 2012. Had this played at his funeral as his last eff you to his cold, absent, cruel father.

[@sithforhire]

This is another song that helped me along when I was younger. I appreciate you breaking down the lyrics, and I like watching you get surprised and enjoying the music! I'll suggest Cemetery Gates and Suicide Note Part 1, both by Pantera. Stay strong

[@anthonyscott9063]

Dave wrote this immediately after learning of the death of Cliff Burton. Amanda have you covered A Tout Le Monde? If I see ya in the front at a concert, I promise I'll be careful with my elbows! 🤘

[@antoniocarlin5026]

Shes react A Tout le Monde a few months ago....

[@MentalAmanda]

I sure did! kzbin.info/www/bejne/nKKbaYt4nsagqc0

[@b3fr1enderbetr4yer8]

The lyrics are about his fiance, the music was written after Cliff's death.

[@rediron44]

@@b3fr1enderbetr4yer8 no, its not. Dave said he wrote this after his mother died. And he always loved the Beatles song "Michelle" and he wanted to learn to speak some French. And the song grew from there. He said it's what he wanted to say to friends and family if he died, he wanted to tell everyone he loved them, so things wouldn't end badly

[@b3fr1enderbetr4yer8]

@@rediron44 I was talking about In My Darkest Hour not À Tout Le Monde.

[@srt8rocketship241]

Really was hoping you would get to this. Hey , next Megadeth you do , Tornado Of Souls would be fun to break down. Dave is a great songwriter.

[@Stable_Genius]

Especially live versions of it.

[@SirSkud]

Can confirm. I vote for the lyric vid, though.

[@SirSkud]

A Toute Le Monde

[@Stable_Genius]

@@SirSkud classic

[@carlmclemore6104]

That song... blows me away. Second favorite Megadeth song. First one is "My Last Words."

[@darthsteeler9]

I'm so glad you reviewed this song! One of my favorite Megadeth songs! According to the Behind the Music episode, Mustaine wrote the music once he heard of the passing of his former bandmate Cliff Burton. Keep up the good work and keep fighting the good fight! P.S. Sorry that I've been so distant!

[@cerridwencaverhill4139]

I have watched much of your content, as I stated I would. As a two time survivor, I really appreciate you for having the courage to share your story with the world in a way that sincere, loving, and healing. I recently turned 50, and we never had a platform like this. Content such as yours could have, in my humble opinion, changed, and perhaps even saved, many lives I saw fade away, including my own. I still struggle to this day, though I have a rather complete toolbox built at this point. Please don't stop. You make a difference. You are valuable, necessary, and loved. Thank you for your honesty and candor. They are refreshing. 👏👏👏

[@MentalAmanda]

I'm 36 and started this because I grew up in a small town before the Internet where there was NO help or support. Thanks for the love!!!!!

[@christopherjaskowiak9073]

You have a profound wisdom and I’m glad you are still with us!

[@Minamoto_Advan]

Love your reaction to Jeff Young's solo ! Metal music, heavy metal music was a savior to many in the 80s and into today. Glad you picked Life. Too gorgeous.

[@finsantos4630]

Thanks for giving time to this epic Megadeth song. Appreciate it much. This is a Megadeth classic. Have tried listening to their song "Tornado Of Souls?" Mustaine said it is about love turned sour. Greetings from Manila, Philippines. 😉

[@jamesm5883]

Love your channel, it's really helping me go through a dark period in my life, you're wonderful with all your wise words, I think a great song that you need to hear is Wallflower from Jinjer, the lyrics are absolutely beautiful as she talks about her troubles with being an introvert and how it's an everyday struggle for her mentally.

[@ArchieArpeggio]

This and 1000 times goodbye (by Megadeth) are great songs to process your feelings after break up or divorce. There sure are alots of this type of songs in metal music. Those have helped me to carry over some painfull times and getting my self back together mentaly. After every end of relationship is good to realy stop to think for your life for a moment and process all the grief before you can proceed your journey.

[@deaankoekemoer5471]

I hope your content reaches more and more people because this world needs it. Hope your coming week is awesome, keep up the good fight 🤘🏻

[@rodrigoacevedo1075]

Dave is not only one of the best metal riffs creator in history but also one of the greatest lyricists. He speaks the truth and his music (along with others) literally was my lifeline in my teen years.

[@mrcjc9298]

I’m loving your analysis of metal songs. Certainly some of the lyrics of the song struck a chord with me. Love that video, looked like an awesome night.

[@leadcounsel4869]

Love your viewpoints and journey. You nailed it, I'm surrounded by emotional vampires. Oh, and long time (decades) Megadeth fan. Keep up the great work! I could recommend so many amazing songs...

[@MentalAmanda]

Get out the emotional garlic!

[@jdssurf]

@@MentalAmanda lol

[@OU-tn4nt]

So glad that you did this song as Dave is an amazing song writer and his lyrics resonate with a lot of people. Great job Amanda 👏 sweating bullets is another great and deep song.

[@RAVENBROKENWINGS]

I was married for 8 years, and my ex wife was mentally abusive to me, but I put up with it because I had 4 daughters and I wanted to break the family cycle where the father takes off when the times got hard. I raised all 4 of my girls and got divorced after my youngest graduated high school and went on to college.

[@davidkilby1043]

Been there, brother. You are not alone. I got your back

[@RAVENBROKENWINGS]

@@davidkilby1043 Thanks Brother I appreciate it.

[@MentalAmanda]

I am so glad you got away and I hope you know now how amazing and worthy you are!

[@airfixx_8952]

@The King Booget420 - I have so much respect for you... People like you are the unsung legends in life. Your daughters are very lucky to have you and long may they be your greatest triumph.

[@ARCTHRASH]

This helps us live by giving us an outlet for our emotions and uniting us under one idea

[@jamesdenson7616]

Thank you for the shoutout beautiful! Great review, My ex wife i thought helped me threw all of my darkest hours until she divorced my ass, We had a great life together, i guess to make along story short, we grew apart,or had "PERSONALITY CONFLICTS" Oh well great song and a even greater Monerator, however you spell that. Thanks again and have a wonderful weekend

[@KaotikMotorsports]

Fun Fact: Dave Mustaine (lead singer) was originally the lead guitarist of Metallica back when they first started the band along with James Hetfield, Lars Ulrich, and Ron McGovney...... James and Dave couldn’t get along with each so Dave left the band and formed Megadeth..... Later on in the bands journey Cliff Burton would join the band on bass but was killed in tragic bus crash in Sweden when the bus hit a icy patch on the road and rolled over ejecting Cliff Burton out the window and the bus landing on top of him....... yes there’s been some very tragic accidents with all these guys.... Forgot to add that the bass players in the band was in this order......(Ron McGovney, Cliff Burton, Jason Newsted and now Rob Trujillo)

[@Vakaria-plays]

uhm no, Dave did not get along with Ron especially and often spilled beer over him and his equipment, and Lars and James didn't like how aggressive and violent Dave was when he was drunk, when the others were drunk they were happy and silly, but when Dave was drunk he assaulted people and disrespected everyone around him and so he got KICKED OUT he did not left

[@nonserviam751]

I think Dave was basically kicked out for being too violent and crazy when he was drunk.

[@tonysoto8949]

He was kicked out. The final incident that caused this to happen was that they guys were drinking and James Hetfield kicked Dave’s dog really hard and Dave confronted him about kicking his dog like that and punched him and dropped him to the floor, the other band members and friends jumped in and grabbed Dave. James met with Lars after that incident and they decided to kick Dave out. We should all thank thank James for kicking Dave’s dog.

[@KaotikMotorsports]

Yes thank you guys for clearing up my mistake for me……. Metalheads will always stick together like family, much love guys 🤘🤨🤘

[@nonserviam751]

@@tonysoto8949 That's what Dave said.

[@donaldstefanovich8124]

What you said at the end really struck a chord. When you open you’re heart and reach to the one person, you should and that person just brushes you off. That is hurt. That is a wound and that is a forever scar. You’ll be reminded forever. When I was younger, I wrote a lot. I’ve read these things recently ( wow what a thing to read from your younger self). One thing was this “ the bumps and bruises are to remind me the scars are so I never forever” and “There is so much that I am not and much more that I’ll never be but there is so much that I am” I was 15, coping with the loss of my father. I still hold these to be absolute truths all these years later.

[@I.O.M.]

Metallica went to therapy and Dave just kept writing tunes. This one is a classic.

[@MrApmech]

Oh Amanda, I love you so much!!❤

[@nerdymetaldude]

You are amazing. I've been there, where you were. I'm glad you're still here.

[@johnfairbairn9912]

Seen then live over 25 times.... This song still gives the feeling when I first heard it. Song is about cliff Burton and Metallica

[@insufferablethrashelitist9305]

This has been my favorite megadeth song for a very long time. He refers to afterlife, but it's important to know that this song was about 20 years before his conversion to Christianity. However he was young and may have just been making reference to a normal concept of our society. Wherever that part of the song comes from, it's a masterpeice and I've loved it for about 30 years now. Dave writes a lot about relationships. I would suggest more megadeth songs, but I have way too many. Just play more megadeth. -edited to correct all my misspellings

[@sSHAPZz]

Not too many people know this, but Dave Mustain was raised as one of Jehovah's Wittnesses, who believe the Bibles hope of resurrection after ones own death, to everlasting life on a Paradise Earth-after the final war of Armageddon, of course! Which he also talks about a LOT in quite a few songs. It's VERY likely that as a teenager his interests clashed quite a bit w/his parents lifestyle of living as Christians & most likely had an effect on his temperament & later excessive alcohol/drug abuse. There are MANY references in his albums that reflect his upbringing & his songs are thoroughly peppered with biblical language & innuendos. As one example, in Ashes In Your Mouth, he reverses the scripture from Isaiah 2:4 "... They will beat their swords into plowshares And their spears into pruning shears. Nation will not lift up sword against nation, Nor will they learn war anymore.", to... 'Melting down all metals, turning plows and shears to swords Shun words of the Bible, we need implements of war.' I think these lyrics in 'In My Darkest Hour', are good examples of him pulling from his childhood & his memories of what he had learned from studying the Bible as a child.

[@Spadez614]

lol most of my life. and people dont understand why im dead inside. keep fighting Amanda. much love TWIN haha :P

[@420MRNICEGUY818]

This song has touched since I was a teen 30+ years ago

[@chrismeadows4216]

I Won't See You Tonight Part 1 and I Won't See You Tonight Part 2 by Avenged Sevenfold form the song for you, without a doubt. I think you'll love both of them, and certainly have a lot to talk about with them. Keep up the excellent work, Amanda!!! You're very appreciated!!! 🥰💙

[@Fastmax13]

Damn 2nd time in a week you popped up on my video feed !! If this keeps up I may have to subscribe, megadeth I have been listening to since the late 80s , but may I add you look so much better In yourself then you did in the first video I seen you in and for that I am thankful 👊 please keep doing what your doing as you are helping people including yourself 💪 and if you do any more metal videos I may pop by 🤘🍻

[@MentalAmanda]

I will keep stalking you until you make sweet sweet love to.....my subscribe button. I definitely have more metal on the books!

[@anyversum]

This song is everything to me.

[@JuleThe]

Wow I love your feedback from this song, you seem so wise! Much love to you!

[@drjay9999]

This song still gives me chills 30+ years since I first heard it…my go-to song for many break-ups over the years! Thanks for your reaction

[@michaelb1761]

Awesome choice using the performance from the movie "Decline and Fall of Western Civilization Part 2: The Metal Years". Lot's of sad stuff in that movie. It could just be how it was shot and edited, but it seemed those marginal and even star rockers were hiding a lot of pain with drugs and alcohol.

[@LeoIndie]

Agradezco mucho que compartas tu experiencia con la depresión. Es una enfermedad que muchos pasamos y la mejor terapia es la música. Salud!

[@robertmckinney1999]

Tysvm love you Amanda! :)

[@jakobthonen9411]

A classic🤘 Just stumbled across your channel because I've been listening to a lot of Megadeth lately so I'm curious to see what you've done.

[@nigeldepledge3790]

Sending love and virtual hugs, Amanda.

[@shure81]

Amazing song! And you have an awesome take on it :) that's the wonderful thing about music, it means what it means to you. Such heavy subject matter, but notice how everyone in the crowd is so happy. The beauty of music!

[@MrJJr-lw9zq]

My fav Megadeth song whenever I’m sad or angry this song gets me thru the night and I went to a metal concert and every sad angry memory I remembered went away for the five hours in that sweaty paradise

[@BreadboiEVA01]

It’s awesome when they make the guitar laugh during the “HA ! HA !”

[@chrisharrison3305]

This is a slap in the face of depression and sadness. What you do with it is up to you. You can keep the toxic stuff with you or you can cut it loose and be rid of it. It’s gonna hurt to do that but, who knows in the end you’ll be better for it. Always an emotional gamble, it’s up to to you who’s the winner.

[@ditsiwt]

This is one I have been waiting for you to tackle.

[@alchemist1111]

Before this album came out my friends and I were into Megadeth and my friends sister was friends with Chuck, we heard he got the gig replacing Gar and we couldn’t believe it. Then we saw the promo poster for this album in a record store and there he was, this album was special to us.

[@YohananYGO]

What helped me feel much better is when I started learning how good I am, and believing that most people are below me in terms of value as an individual.

[@artforst7350]

I don't know who would ever brush you off! Great video

[@Nigel-Webb]

Thanks for a great reaction to one of THE most epic of metal ballads/Laments imho. The 18 year old me witnessed this tour & it was every bit as crazy as this and then some! 🤘🤘

[@AnthonyWalsh-d9x]

Cool song!!! It's a song about how he felt when one of his best mates passed away in a bus crash. Keep up the good work helping people that are doing it hard, Thank you 😊

[@chriscalvert4625]

Hey Amanda new to your channel. Just want to say your positive energy is what I needed. I’ve been struggling with depression for years. Love that I see some positive light from someone! You should react to Stone Sour- Bother! Thanks again!

[@scarlettfreedom3629]

This song always touches me deep❤️

[@paulknowles6433]

As someone who's suffered with depression my whole life I connect with your viewpoint. I recommend wither by dream theater as a very poignant view.

[@DWAYNE-PABLO]

Hey Amanda, I found your reaction videos a few weeks ago and I think it’s terrific what your doing and the awareness of your channel. I fought to help my father through his suicide attempts so I know the emotional toll it takes on someone and loved ones. So I just wanted to say thank you for what your doing! Plus I’d like to do a request you definitely should check out The Tragic Truth by Five Finger Death Punch. Again thank you for what your doing and your message your spreading.

[@jean-guyd4135]

Lovely reaction from a lovely soul...

[@TheCubicplanet]

My Darkest Hour has been lasting for years now. The harder I search for the light, the darker it gets.

[@thatsmybugsy]

I just found you channel because of your reaction to Metallica's "Fade to Black", and started watching more of your content. To me, you seem to be trying hard to be upbeat and I admire that. Have you listened to the band Suicidal Tendencies? I think they have a lot of good songs. One of my favorites is "You Can't Bring Me Down".

[@corywilliams3109]

Hey your reaction was very awesome I loved it and the fact that you said emotional vampires I've never heard that before that was amazing. Keep up the good reactions and I agreed with most of the stuff you said

[@irishfirefly12]

I've never been diagnosed with any mental illness, but I do see myself in some of the things you say, Amanda. Thanks for what you're doing.

[@cristianrysanek7669]

love your videos amanda, thank you for reacting to my favorite song of my favorite band MEGADETH

[@gregorybesson2341]

The song you can't bring me down by suicidal tendencies is very positive & powerfully expressive of a strong will, & I think you may have an interesting view of this songs message.

[@thomaslazarek6835]

Great reaction. Keep up the great work. I was waiting to see if you would do this song. It's very personal to me dating back to my late teens/early 20s. Dave Mustaine wrote the music after former band mate Cliff Burton from Metallica was killed in a bus accident while on tour. The lyrics are about a girlfriend of Dave Mustaine. Since it's the Halloween season, I recommend Back From The Dead by Halestorm. Although the video is in a morgue, the song is about the lead singer, Lzzy Hale, who dealt with depression. Pay close attention to the lyrics. You'll see the double meaning of the song. And yes, crowd surfing is so much fun. Keep fighting the good fight. What you do means alot to alot of people.

[@jamesdenson7616]

Yes he learned that Cliff had died from a 3rd party and not from James or lars, So he went and got some drugs, and assuming he needed some love from DIANA, But she told him to go EFF off and there was the birth of this song

[@thomaslazarek6835]

@@jamesdenson7616 Yeah, I know they didn't tell him. To say Dave could be difficult is an understatement but something like that happens, you step up and do the right thing. Lars or James should have told him. I know this from personal experience. I had a friend I grew up with, friends for 25 years. He changed and I had to sever ties with him. I found out he was in the hospital in bad shape. I had no contact with him for over a year but I visited him. He died 2 days later. And I think Diana was his ex-girlfriend at the time.

[@jamesdenson7616]

@@thomaslazarek6835 Yeah you got it, yeah the whole thing was just messed up, They should of stepped up and put asides there diffrence's for Cliff's sake, But at the time, They were still to busy fighting

[@thomaslazarek6835]

@@jamesdenson7616 And Cliff's 35th anniversary was last month. I was 15 when Cliff got killed and I still remember where I was when I found out and discussing the future of Metallica with my friends. It's crazy it's already 35 years.

[@derhampaul2182]

Amanda don't be sad ok it's only a song ok I have my own struggles with feelings of suicide but I overcome it I just think things will get better Derham xxoo

[@Death_Strong]

Dave Mustaine îs one of the most sarcastic metal musicians of all time. This song has some of the best quips. Often its in the tone of his voice as he sings. For example in the line "Everlasting life for me" I believe he is being sarcastic, mocking religion, mocking everyone telling him that things will get better. His suicidal thoughts have some sarcasm as well. Sort of a "welp I might as well just kill myself because that will relieve the pain right?" type of outlook. Truly a great review/reaction. Love the focus on mental health. Thank you!

[@mikehansen6807]

Glad you picked a favorite

[@andrewglazier8053]

I love this song. Glad to see you react to it.

[@srt8rocketship241]

Great job Gal. You Rock.

[@SteveCoronado2]

This song got me through a rough teenage part of my life and I still love this band 🤘🏻💥🔥🙏🏻

[@thegreatitudecoach]

Loneliness is NOT ONLY FELT BY FOOLS…

[@mattsabath]

You are a very exceptional young lady. Good luck in your journey.

[@chandlerscheekjr6028]

Good to know that people are catching up to old school music and finding thier own "truth" that we thought we were seeing it all.

[@BlackieNuff]

LOL, I've never seen conga-line stage diving before, haha.

[@AximandTheCursed]

What I love about Dave's work is that he channelled his own suffering into music, honestly and without reservations. It's a difficult thing to do well, but he kept at it, and there was no shortage of suffering along the way for him. If you're up for it, a few Megadeth gems include Trust, Dread and the Fugitive Mind and Youthanasia. You've clearly had your own share of suffering, but it's good that you are doing what you can to try and channel it to some positive effort. One song that might hit hard in a 'face your demons' sort of way would be Beyond the Realms of Death by Judas Priest, a deep and confronting song by the Metal Gods.

[@wadefinley3181]

You popped up on my KZbin because it was Megadeth. I love when people find metal! When you said mid song about interpreting daves lyrics as though he was thinking about keeping on, i always thought the same. Fuck suicide. I've been feeling like I'm better off dead for years. You have to keep going. You never know how your life will change with a little work.

[@MentalAmanda]

I'm now at a point that I will drop and rearrange everything in my life if that's what it takes to feel like my life is worth living. Start again from scratch. There is happiness and hope on the other side!

[@Brian-cu6ph]

One of the things I do to help others like me who struggle with depression and anxiety is show them certain song lyrics so they know they are not alone, they can get past the moment, etc

[@MentalAmanda]

That is why this channel exists! Because I've always done the same!

[@jakobthonen9411]

I'll scroll through your past videos but after seeing this I have to make some recommendations: Suicide Machine by the band Death, Suicidal Failure by Suicidal Tendencies (as well as a handful of others by them)

[@Powermad-bu4em]

Thank god you checked out the original mix.

[@chrisfairbairn8838]

My favourite megadeth song and was fortune to see them play it live in 93 goosebumps

[@kkech1]

About 4 years ago I nearly shot myself one psychotic night while I was manic. The only thing that saved me was the foresight of my sister. She was aware I was in a bad place and had hidden my gun. After I came to my senses a bit I rolled up, put on Stoned Jesus - I'm The Mountain and broke down crying for like an hour when the realization of what I was about to do hit me. That scene wasn't an isolated incident, more so it was the culmination of an avalanche that started with a depressive episode and a gut wrenching breakup. I felt completely abandoned, with my life in shambles, and living alone didn't help either, so this song hits some buttons for me. I've made my peace with how things went and I'm better now than I've ever been. And for anyone that's in a bad place right now I can only encourage you to grit your teeth and bite through. You may not see how everything happens for a reason now, but you surely will with time.

[@MentalAmanda]

I am so happy that you made it through the darkness and you are living the happy and thriving life that you deserve 💖

[@qzwxecrv0192837465]

You are on point with the “after a break up you have to deal with the death of yourself in some way” Recent ex was cheating on me with 3 men at the same time. I did die a bit, a 2 year relationship thrown away. Found out she had lied for a long time, I now believe that those 2 years may have been a lie all the time We went to about 20 concerts in 2 years. All the memories are painful but getting better as the days pass Pictures of her hurt less, the anger has subsided, but she will never be forgiven

[@MentalAmanda]

Forgiveness is never for the other person. It's always for us!

[@qzwxecrv0192837465]

I know this, thus why she will never be forgiven as I am past the hurt & anger and have come to terms with what it was. @@MentalAmanda

[@josephjl6617]

I was 14 in 88 and still love this!! Megadeth my fav metal band all time

[@tallguytrucker5956]

Love Megadeth. Enjoying your channel. 👍

[@mtlikelyausten5564]

8:40 The singer I know for a fact is either Christian or Catholic because I love this band and have seen enough interviews to know because a lot of people thought they were a satanic band and he had to clear that up. So he is in my mind talking about heaven.

[@not-so-great-oldone9780]

I’ve been a Megadeth fan for many years, Dave writes from the heart. I’ll suggest a couple of uplifting metal songs from Nemophila, a Japanese all female band: Adabana and Revive, songs about standing together and being who you are.

[@TheBroman59]

Another tune I used a lot in my personal music therapy to combat my gen x upbringing/ teen angst/ depression. It took me a few years before I figured out that Dave wrote this after Cliff Burton of Metallica died, as a way of processing his grief. It was another song I used to get that emotional charge up…

[@craiglahr9230]

As someone who has been listening to Megadeth since they first came out and many other metal bands the song has nothing to do with suicide it's a feeling like you mentioned. I was married to my wife of 26 years who took her own life and consumed my entire life working on helping her illness and never got the same in return of how much it affected my mental stability as someone who was an abused child that grew up in a poor environment and everyday still miss her and suicide is never the answer please talk to anybody if you do not feel good. Much love

[@MentalAmanda]

You have been through so much. I am sorry for your loss and for all of the pain you have endured. I hope you can find healing and peace. And I hope you know neither her death or your childhood abuse was your fault. You are a worthy and lovable person.

[@lewislee3392]

I enjoyed watching you facial expressions seeing people stage diving ( priceless ) 🤣. It’s very enjoyable 🤪

[@Sir_AlexxTv]

It's funny how people, with metal bands, usually stops at the sound without caring for the lyrics, good job Amanda .. :)

[@kimhungrige8522]

This song has been my ultimate favorite throughout time. Since I first heard the album when it came out. Dave Mustaine is the thinking man's metal. A consummate wordsmith and master shredder. ❤

[@autoharpmug6276]

This song instantly raises my blood pressure. 40 to 50 points every time.

[@damienthrash2202]

First of all …. 👍🏾 Second of all: How do we put in a request?

[@kevinschoenekase1934]

This song is badass live

[@charlesburger7973]

If this is legit, and you really ARE a suicide survivor, what a better person to review this. A church friend on Facebook once asked people to list a song that moved their soul, and she said she would listen to each one. She got hymns, contemporary Christian music, etc, and I gave her a Megadeth song (Holy Wars, the Punishment Due). I was being serious. Their music cuts to the soul and I love it. It is actually quite inspiring. Well, she must of thought I was being a jerk and joking around, but I wasn't. This song is powerful.

[@fsrsaa]

This was my anthem in my rebellious misfit teenage years. The angst is unparalleled.