First Time Hearing In My Darkest Hour by Megadeth | Suicide Survivor Reacts

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Another Megadeth request. I think we've ALL experienced one sided relationships or friendships with people who left when we needed them most. This is my first time hearing Megadeth In My Darkest Hour from the So Far, So Good... So What album.
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[@MentalAmanda]

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[@jamesdenson7616]

1MILLION VIEWS YEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSS OHHHHHHHHHHH FUCK YA, You'll be to 10M in no time :)

[@pekkanikki2348]

Just thank you for reading the comments✌️

[@chris.moonmantis9459]

I have so enjoyed watching you and your reactions- YOU ARE SO AMAZING, bless you and your message. I too have suffered the effects of my plumbing being different, its a mild form of asperges/terettes I make friends usually easy- but I dont have a filter xD it just sometimes comes out, and I sometimes find very difficult to read signals...I have tried to take my life a few times- wanted too many more...get dark depressions, where my need for perfection, procrastination, and defeatism means I just bury my head in the sand...means if I feel I cant do it perfectly I might not do it...well its always there in background- just a massive journey learning my triggers, and dealing with the fact I will never be perfect- and JUST DO IT- if I jump in and start its fine, I will get involved and be swept along and its done- but to often I am just sitting there look at and dont start...this is from studies (essays reports) to purpose, or relationships- I always end up feeling like if I dont ring/call/visit/plan an event gathering- then they never call me- its like I am the one always reaching out, never being reached for...anyways I am in a good space I think, but Thanks you for being so open and honest...I haven't watched a single reaction with tear jerking at some point....so emotional...love you and bless you

[@ishannaram5216]

One singer that helped me get out of an emotional depression is Dimash SOS kzbin.info/www/bejne/jWOcq3irj7uUrtU

[@BerishStarr]

I've said it before, and I will say it again. Your continued support of us is so amazing! To hear that I am lovable and valuable is rare, more common is my own hate for myself. So for you to remind me is very valuable. Thank you!

[@MIKEPGH]

This song has meant something to me since I was 16. I'm 44.

[@heavybrett-al4082]

Same👍🤘🎸🙏

[@ontarget7582]

My best friend wants it played at his funeral

[@jamesbennett5169]

Me too...45... I've seen megadeth a few times... SLAYER and nwa... body count

[@amas2441]

Wooow

[@amas2441]

That's crazy

[@tonysoto8949]

This song is absolute metal beauty. Dave wrote this song after Cliff Burton died and his girlfriend at the time was not there for him so he fell deeper into alcohol and heroin use. I understand what Dave is saying and all the references to dying not going to a perfect world are metaphors for life without that person and the pain that came with it. You are so dependent on that other person that you have to be reborn mentally and start a new life. I’ve been there, and it’s the hardest thing to do and that is like Megadeths other song “The Hardest Part Of Letting is saying goodbye “ that song is also deep and helped me get through. Dave is the best example of that very thing. He went through the Metalica drama, ex girlfriend dramas, addiction, and he came out a better person. I got mad respect and love for Dave, such an honest and wise soul. I grew up a Metalica fan who hated Dave cuz well he was Dave and wasn’t Metalica anymore. I refused to hear Megadeth songs, until one day at a house party when the dude who owned the house put on Five Magics followed by The Conjuring and I asked who the F is that? And my friend said dude that Megadeth Dave’s band. I was shocked and the rest is history

[@antoniocarlin5026]

Doro Pesch was the girlfriend of Dave on these years....

[@Logan_Williams_]

@@antoniocarlin5026 Nope. It was this woman named Diana and he has written a lot of songs about her like Wake Up Dead and Tornado of Souls

[@Stable_Genius]

@@Logan_Williams_ Yep, Diana. She is mentioned by name in Wake Up Dead. Edit: lol. You mentioned Wake Up Dead. I'm liquored up. My bad.

[@leadcounsel4869]

Correct, Mustaine has said it was written about Burton's death in interviews. It surely could also be about other losses too.

[@Logan_Williams_]

@@leadcounsel4869 You’re correct about that. The lyrics were about Diana and the instrumentals were in memory of Cliff Burton.

[@willcherry9029]

Dav Mustane saved my life a hundred times when I was a kid. This song showed me I wasn't alone.

[@kapilazaan6238]

Ahh yes. Dav Mustane

[@Steve-if8lz]

Stay strong bri!!!!

[@fatherdirt2866]

Dave is the man.,.

[@carlx7374]

Just seen Megadeth live last month. One of favorite songs Dave has wrote. So much pain he lets out!! God Bless!!

[@uptempo5318]

saw him in St. Louis! Best way to come back from lockdown!

[@martycarter3306]

The first time I saw megadeth was back in 1990. With slayer. Anthrax and Alice in chains...

[@anthonyscott9063]

Dave wrote this immediately after learning of the death of Cliff Burton. Amanda have you covered A Tout Le Monde? If I see ya in the front at a concert, I promise I'll be careful with my elbows! 🤘

[@antoniocarlin5026]

Shes react A Tout le Monde a few months ago....

[@MentalAmanda]

I sure did! kzbin.info/www/bejne/nKKbaYt4nsagqc0

[@b3fr1enderbetr4yer8]

The lyrics are about his fiance, the music was written after Cliff's death.

[@rediron44]

@@b3fr1enderbetr4yer8 no, its not. Dave said he wrote this after his mother died. And he always loved the Beatles song "Michelle" and he wanted to learn to speak some French. And the song grew from there. He said it's what he wanted to say to friends and family if he died, he wanted to tell everyone he loved them, so things wouldn't end badly

[@b3fr1enderbetr4yer8]

@@rediron44 I was talking about In My Darkest Hour not À Tout Le Monde.

[@srt8rocketship241]

Really was hoping you would get to this. Hey , next Megadeth you do , Tornado Of Souls would be fun to break down. Dave is a great songwriter.

[@Stable_Genius]

Especially live versions of it.

[@SirSkud]

Can confirm. I vote for the lyric vid, though.

[@SirSkud]

A Toute Le Monde

[@Stable_Genius]

@@SirSkud classic

[@carlmclemore6104]

That song... blows me away. Second favorite Megadeth song. First one is "My Last Words."

[@keithholley546]

Dave is the the best metal songwriter of my generation growing up in the 80's even my mother who was a teacher enjoyed his lyrics. I feel very lucky to have grown up with his music in my life!

[@edwardponder66]

AgreeI love that he has a message a message that changed who I am

[@Lord_Raptor]

I don't know why but, the line "time has a way of taking time" has always hit me ever since first hearing this song some 20 odd years ago.

[@Minamoto_Advan]

Love your reaction to Jeff Young's solo ! Metal music, heavy metal music was a savior to many in the 80s and into today. Glad you picked Life. Too gorgeous.

[@finsantos4630]

Thanks for giving time to this epic Megadeth song. Appreciate it much. This is a Megadeth classic. Have tried listening to their song "Tornado Of Souls?" Mustaine said it is about love turned sour. Greetings from Manila, Philippines. 😉

[@KaotikMotorsports]

Fun Fact: Dave Mustaine (lead singer) was originally the lead guitarist of Metallica back when they first started the band along with James Hetfield, Lars Ulrich, and Ron McGovney...... James and Dave couldn’t get along with each so Dave left the band and formed Megadeth..... Later on in the bands journey Cliff Burton would join the band on bass but was killed in tragic bus crash in Sweden when the bus hit a icy patch on the road and rolled over ejecting Cliff Burton out the window and the bus landing on top of him....... yes there’s been some very tragic accidents with all these guys.... Forgot to add that the bass players in the band was in this order......(Ron McGovney, Cliff Burton, Jason Newsted and now Rob Trujillo)

[@Vakaria-plays]

uhm no, Dave did not get along with Ron especially and often spilled beer over him and his equipment, and Lars and James didn't like how aggressive and violent Dave was when he was drunk, when the others were drunk they were happy and silly, but when Dave was drunk he assaulted people and disrespected everyone around him and so he got KICKED OUT he did not left

[@nonserviam751]

I think Dave was basically kicked out for being too violent and crazy when he was drunk.

[@tonysoto8949]

He was kicked out. The final incident that caused this to happen was that they guys were drinking and James Hetfield kicked Dave’s dog really hard and Dave confronted him about kicking his dog like that and punched him and dropped him to the floor, the other band members and friends jumped in and grabbed Dave. James met with Lars after that incident and they decided to kick Dave out. We should all thank thank James for kicking Dave’s dog.

[@KaotikMotorsports]

Yes thank you guys for clearing up my mistake for me……. Metalheads will always stick together like family, much love guys 🤘🤨🤘

[@nonserviam751]

@@tonysoto8949 That's what Dave said.

[@jamesm5883]

Love your channel, it's really helping me go through a dark period in my life, you're wonderful with all your wise words, I think a great song that you need to hear is Wallflower from Jinjer, the lyrics are absolutely beautiful as she talks about her troubles with being an introvert and how it's an everyday struggle for her mentally.

[@I.O.M.]

Metallica went to therapy and Dave just kept writing tunes. This one is a classic.

[@carlmclemore6104]

My first cousin passed away at 37 in 2012. Had this played at his funeral as his last eff you to his cold, absent, cruel father.

[@sithforhire]

This is another song that helped me along when I was younger. I appreciate you breaking down the lyrics, and I like watching you get surprised and enjoying the music! I'll suggest Cemetery Gates and Suicide Note Part 1, both by Pantera. Stay strong

[@RAVENBROKENWINGS]

I was married for 8 years, and my ex wife was mentally abusive to me, but I put up with it because I had 4 daughters and I wanted to break the family cycle where the father takes off when the times got hard. I raised all 4 of my girls and got divorced after my youngest graduated high school and went on to college.

[@davidkilby1043]

Been there, brother. You are not alone. I got your back

[@RAVENBROKENWINGS]

@@davidkilby1043 Thanks Brother I appreciate it.

[@MentalAmanda]

I am so glad you got away and I hope you know now how amazing and worthy you are!

[@airfixx_8952]

@The King Booget420 - I have so much respect for you... People like you are the unsung legends in life. Your daughters are very lucky to have you and long may they be your greatest triumph.

[@Spadez614]

lol most of my life. and people dont understand why im dead inside. keep fighting Amanda. much love TWIN haha :P

[@LeoIndie]

Agradezco mucho que compartas tu experiencia con la depresión. Es una enfermedad que muchos pasamos y la mejor terapia es la música. Salud!

[@insufferablethrashelitist9305]

This has been my favorite megadeth song for a very long time. He refers to afterlife, but it's important to know that this song was about 20 years before his conversion to Christianity. However he was young and may have just been making reference to a normal concept of our society. Wherever that part of the song comes from, it's a masterpeice and I've loved it for about 30 years now. Dave writes a lot about relationships. I would suggest more megadeth songs, but I have way too many. Just play more megadeth. -edited to correct all my misspellings

[@sSHAPZz]

Not too many people know this, but Dave Mustain was raised as one of Jehovah's Wittnesses, who believe the Bibles hope of resurrection after ones own death, to everlasting life on a Paradise Earth-after the final war of Armageddon, of course! Which he also talks about a LOT in quite a few songs. It's VERY likely that as a teenager his interests clashed quite a bit w/his parents lifestyle of living as Christians & most likely had an effect on his temperament & later excessive alcohol/drug abuse. There are MANY references in his albums that reflect his upbringing & his songs are thoroughly peppered with biblical language & innuendos. As one example, in Ashes In Your Mouth, he reverses the scripture from Isaiah 2:4 "... They will beat their swords into plowshares And their spears into pruning shears. Nation will not lift up sword against nation, Nor will they learn war anymore.", to... 'Melting down all metals, turning plows and shears to swords Shun words of the Bible, we need implements of war.' I think these lyrics in 'In My Darkest Hour', are good examples of him pulling from his childhood & his memories of what he had learned from studying the Bible as a child.

[@scarlettfreedom3629]

This song always touches me deep❤️

[@6stringsfanatics276]

Great song and great album So Far, So Good ... So What! One of the most forgotten of Megadeth, thanks for the review \m/

[@nerdymetaldude]

You are amazing. I've been there, where you were. I'm glad you're still here.

[@TheCubicplanet]

My Darkest Hour has been lasting for years now. The harder I search for the light, the darker it gets.

[@alchemist1111]

Before this album came out my friends and I were into Megadeth and my friends sister was friends with Chuck, we heard he got the gig replacing Gar and we couldn’t believe it. Then we saw the promo poster for this album in a record store and there he was, this album was special to us.

[@JuleThe]

Wow I love your feedback from this song, you seem so wise! Much love to you!

[@kkech1]

About 4 years ago I nearly shot myself one psychotic night while I was manic. The only thing that saved me was the foresight of my sister. She was aware I was in a bad place and had hidden my gun. After I came to my senses a bit I rolled up, put on Stoned Jesus - I'm The Mountain and broke down crying for like an hour when the realization of what I was about to do hit me. That scene wasn't an isolated incident, more so it was the culmination of an avalanche that started with a depressive episode and a gut wrenching breakup. I felt completely abandoned, with my life in shambles, and living alone didn't help either, so this song hits some buttons for me. I've made my peace with how things went and I'm better now than I've ever been. And for anyone that's in a bad place right now I can only encourage you to grit your teeth and bite through. You may not see how everything happens for a reason now, but you surely will with time.

[@MentalAmanda]

I am so happy that you made it through the darkness and you are living the happy and thriving life that you deserve 💖

[@AnthonyWalsh-d9x]

Cool song!!! It's a song about how he felt when one of his best mates passed away in a bus crash. Keep up the good work helping people that are doing it hard, Thank you 😊

[@darthsteeler9]

I'm so glad you reviewed this song! One of my favorite Megadeth songs! According to the Behind the Music episode, Mustaine wrote the music once he heard of the passing of his former bandmate Cliff Burton. Keep up the good work and keep fighting the good fight! P.S. Sorry that I've been so distant!

[@jamesdenson7616]

Thank you for the shoutout beautiful! Great review, My ex wife i thought helped me threw all of my darkest hours until she divorced my ass, We had a great life together, i guess to make along story short, we grew apart,or had "PERSONALITY CONFLICTS" Oh well great song and a even greater Monerator, however you spell that. Thanks again and have a wonderful weekend

[@chriscalvert4625]

Hey Amanda new to your channel. Just want to say your positive energy is what I needed. I’ve been struggling with depression for years. Love that I see some positive light from someone! You should react to Stone Sour- Bother! Thanks again!

[@nigeldepledge3790]

Sending love and virtual hugs, Amanda.

[@glenn9160]

Check out Anesthesia from Type O Negative. Then, if you’re ready for more songs, check out their World Coming Down album. Each album reflects a snapshot into their lives at the time, and World Coming Down was when they were going thru some very tough times. Songs like White Slavery (his cocaine addiction), Everyone I Love is Dead (many family members passed away), World Coming Down, and more.

[@YohananYGO]

What helped me feel much better is when I started learning how good I am, and believing that most people are below me in terms of value as an individual.

[@gregorybesson2341]

The song you can't bring me down by suicidal tendencies is very positive & powerfully expressive of a strong will, & I think you may have an interesting view of this songs message.

[@thegreatitudecoach]

Loneliness is NOT ONLY FELT BY FOOLS…

[@derhampaul2182]

Amanda don't be sad ok it's only a song ok I have my own struggles with feelings of suicide but I overcome it I just think things will get better Derham xxoo

[@paulknowles6433]

As someone who's suffered with depression my whole life I connect with your viewpoint. I recommend wither by dream theater as a very poignant view.

[@ArchieArpeggio]

This and 1000 times goodbye (by Megadeth) are great songs to process your feelings after break up or divorce. There sure are alots of this type of songs in metal music. Those have helped me to carry over some painfull times and getting my self back together mentaly. After every end of relationship is good to realy stop to think for your life for a moment and process all the grief before you can proceed your journey.

[@TotoOrlanski]

You should react to A tout le monde by them!!! Another awesome song by megadeth and also really deep lyrics! :)

[@MentalAmanda]

One step ahead of ya! kzbin.info/www/bejne/nKKbaYt4nsagqc0

[@mickluchsinger486]

This song and Black by Pearl Jam got me through my first divorce. Does anyone else miss the pits of the 80's and 90's?

[@airfixx_8952]

Amen brother...... A world without smart-phones. For all their uses, we were blessed to experience these times without them. Sadly younger generations will never experience such unbridled, collective energy.

[@thomaslazarek6835]

Great reaction. Keep up the great work. I was waiting to see if you would do this song. It's very personal to me dating back to my late teens/early 20s. Dave Mustaine wrote the music after former band mate Cliff Burton from Metallica was killed in a bus accident while on tour. The lyrics are about a girlfriend of Dave Mustaine. Since it's the Halloween season, I recommend Back From The Dead by Halestorm. Although the video is in a morgue, the song is about the lead singer, Lzzy Hale, who dealt with depression. Pay close attention to the lyrics. You'll see the double meaning of the song. And yes, crowd surfing is so much fun. Keep fighting the good fight. What you do means alot to alot of people.

[@jamesdenson7616]

Yes he learned that Cliff had died from a 3rd party and not from James or lars, So he went and got some drugs, and assuming he needed some love from DIANA, But she told him to go EFF off and there was the birth of this song

[@thomaslazarek6835]

@@jamesdenson7616 Yeah, I know they didn't tell him. To say Dave could be difficult is an understatement but something like that happens, you step up and do the right thing. Lars or James should have told him. I know this from personal experience. I had a friend I grew up with, friends for 25 years. He changed and I had to sever ties with him. I found out he was in the hospital in bad shape. I had no contact with him for over a year but I visited him. He died 2 days later. And I think Diana was his ex-girlfriend at the time.

[@jamesdenson7616]

@@thomaslazarek6835 Yeah you got it, yeah the whole thing was just messed up, They should of stepped up and put asides there diffrence's for Cliff's sake, But at the time, They were still to busy fighting

[@thomaslazarek6835]

@@jamesdenson7616 And Cliff's 35th anniversary was last month. I was 15 when Cliff got killed and I still remember where I was when I found out and discussing the future of Metallica with my friends. It's crazy it's already 35 years.

[@o.b.7217]

Maybe one should not forget that they too, had just lost a friend...and had probably seen his mortal remains lying under the bus. So, how about we cut them some slack?

[@DWAYNE-PABLO]

Hey Amanda, I found your reaction videos a few weeks ago and I think it’s terrific what your doing and the awareness of your channel. I fought to help my father through his suicide attempts so I know the emotional toll it takes on someone and loved ones. So I just wanted to say thank you for what your doing! Plus I’d like to do a request you definitely should check out The Tragic Truth by Five Finger Death Punch. Again thank you for what your doing and your message your spreading.

[@kimhungrige8522]

This song has been my ultimate favorite throughout time. Since I first heard the album when it came out. Dave Mustaine is the thinking man's metal. A consummate wordsmith and master shredder. ❤

[@charlesburger7973]

If this is legit, and you really ARE a suicide survivor, what a better person to review this. A church friend on Facebook once asked people to list a song that moved their soul, and she said she would listen to each one. She got hymns, contemporary Christian music, etc, and I gave her a Megadeth song (Holy Wars, the Punishment Due). I was being serious. Their music cuts to the soul and I love it. It is actually quite inspiring. Well, she must of thought I was being a jerk and joking around, but I wasn't. This song is powerful.

[@TheBroman59]

Another tune I used a lot in my personal music therapy to combat my gen x upbringing/ teen angst/ depression. It took me a few years before I figured out that Dave wrote this after Cliff Burton of Metallica died, as a way of processing his grief. It was another song I used to get that emotional charge up…

[@kevinlee92265]

Pretty cool you pick this song at this moment cause, I am truly in my darkest hours as I write this. There would seem not to be any relief from my depression and anxiety as our world turns to shit

[@nigeldepledge3790]

I hear you.

[@willcherry9029]

Hold fast this will pass. You are much stronger that you realize. Be brave we are giants.

[@MentalAmanda]

Depression is notorious for convincing you there is no relief or hope. While, yes, the world can be cold and shitty and humans can be selfish and cruel, there is a lot of good. It just doesn't sell newspapers. squirrel-news.net/ This is the only news I will read. Here if you need to talk.

[@kevinlee92265]

@@MentalAmanda Thanks, I will check this out and again, thanks for what you're doing on your channel. Your content is deep and means a lot

[@davidkilby1043]

You are wanted and valued. I got your back

[@damienosullivan193]

Skull in the video. No better time to see it than now.🎃🎃🎃 I have seen videos of him taking down a heckler at some of his concerts, it can be funny to watch. He can say some in appropriate things, but it's like a comedian sometimes.

[@thedevils5599]

I listened to this band WAAAAAAAAAAY BACK when i was maybe 14, now im 16 B) LET THERE BE ROCK!

[@dennisperin2989]

The Red Headed Step Child Who Went On To Rule The Metal world! That would be the title of his autobiography. deep song. Love me some MegaDave…🤘🏻

[@carlx7374]

Look into the band Suicidal Tendencies. How will I laugh tomorrow when I can't even smile today.

[@rodrigoacevedo1075]

Dave is not only one of the best metal riffs creator in history but also one of the greatest lyricists. He speaks the truth and his music (along with others) literally was my lifeline in my teen years.

[@not-so-great-oldone9780]

I’ve been a Megadeth fan for many years, Dave writes from the heart. I’ll suggest a couple of uplifting metal songs from Nemophila, a Japanese all female band: Adabana and Revive, songs about standing together and being who you are.

[@colinmackenzie6277]

DAMN!!! I needed to hear your voice of reason....had to take in my Foetal Alcoholic Sister with ADHD & DEMENTIA- Shes 50 going on 5 years old - literally bed covered in Flufdy Toys... while her older Brother with life-threatening Scleroderma and no Immune System gets to cook and clean for her and sleep on the Lounge floor like a dog 😴 Have the decency to slash my throat ad kill me instantly

[@MentalAmanda]

While helping our loved ones is important, we HAVE to set boundaries so that we don't empty our own bucket. Nobody wins then.

[@jamesyoung7560]

I think the lyric "But I gotta die first, please God send me on my way" reflects that he won't be taking his own life, asking God instead to make it end, but that's just my interpretation.

[@mikehansen6807]

Glad you picked a favorite

[@chefkdowg]

Sweating bullets was great! Its a split personality song about sober and drug fuelled

[@johnfairbairn9912]

Seen then live over 25 times.... This song still gives the feeling when I first heard it. Song is about cliff Burton and Metallica

[@tharrmas5450]

It only takes one comment or reaction, or non reaction, to change the 'still will die for them'. Being pushed, degraded, being demanded with things, mental torture and abuse, kills it all. Especially when it goes on for years. And after 5 years, it's still too much to process. The few that I have talked about that situation, they didn't help all that much. One day someone will. One day, maybe.

[@MentalAmanda]

I can understand how painful reactions or non reactions can be. What would someone helping look and feel like for you?

[@tharrmas5450]

@@MentalAmanda I think that there is only 1 person that can do that, and it's the person herself. Closer maybe, not knowing if we could have had a future together or not, tell her the truth of why. With each letter signed it says 'hate me if you must, forgive me if you can'. He'll, I don't know if she's still alive. And yes I've tried, trying to find her is a Spanish smith/Jones. God im gullible and talk too much.

[@MentalAmanda]

@@tharrmas5450 You don't believe anyone else can help you?

[@OU-tn4nt]

So glad that you did this song as Dave is an amazing song writer and his lyrics resonate with a lot of people. Great job Amanda 👏 sweating bullets is another great and deep song.

[@cerridwencaverhill4139]

I have watched much of your content, as I stated I would. As a two time survivor, I really appreciate you for having the courage to share your story with the world in a way that sincere, loving, and healing. I recently turned 50, and we never had a platform like this. Content such as yours could have, in my humble opinion, changed, and perhaps even saved, many lives I saw fade away, including my own. I still struggle to this day, though I have a rather complete toolbox built at this point. Please don't stop. You make a difference. You are valuable, necessary, and loved. Thank you for your honesty and candor. They are refreshing. 👏👏👏

[@MentalAmanda]

I'm 36 and started this because I grew up in a small town before the Internet where there was NO help or support. Thanks for the love!!!!!

[@legalalien9738]

Hours of wealth - Opeth Such a good song

[@jameskirkley7341]

For us to be with someone whom doesn't return the same amount of love and devotion,this is toxic to us.

[@donlengel4770]

Sorry beautiful you didn't live thought the 80s . back in the day .

[@scottnot9344]

You have to feel bad for kids today. This stuff was so smart, so deep. New sneakers, bitches, hoe's, weed and money is about as deep as it gets today. I am so grateful I grew up during this music.

[@luisomarsulbaraniglesias1214]

In fact Dave was suicidal when he wrote this, just surviving an overdose, si you can actually say that you are right in bitj visions

[@stuartturner3150]

Give “as bright as the darkness” by Devil You Know a try. Very strong message in there.

[@stevencalogero7758]

Your so VERY BEAUTIFUL ❤️ BREATHTAKINGLY 💕

[@Sir_Alex]

It's funny how people, with metal bands, usually stops at the sound without caring for the lyrics, good job Amanda .. :)

[@thissithlordisametalhead9972]

The band.. Life of Agony .... the song Bad Seed a must listen to and read the lyrics

[@kevinschoenekase1934]

This song is badass live

[@pete26167]

Fistfull of Steel, rage against the machine. Good one to review..🤯

[@mr.smithgnrsmith7808]

Why title every video with “suicide survivor “? I mean I’m glad you’re still with us but you seem to make it your identity…live life, don’t dwell in the past, and don’t be a victim constantly, no offense

[@MentalAmanda]

I'm not a victim. I'm a survivor. I title them so people know the perspective the reaction is from. Just like "vocal coach reacts."

[@leadcounsel4869]

Love your viewpoints and journey. You nailed it, I'm surrounded by emotional vampires. Oh, and long time (decades) Megadeth fan. Keep up the great work! I could recommend so many amazing songs...

[@MentalAmanda]

Get out the emotional garlic!

[@jdssurf]

@@MentalAmanda lol

[@arthurengland5301]

Surprised A Toute Le Monde hasn't made the cut. Unless I'm not that deep in yet

[@MentalAmanda]

You missed it! kzbin.info/www/bejne/nKKbaYt4nsagqc0

[@henryruizph.d7161]

Saw them live 3x…Sound better in the studio…Knew their first drummer, Gar Samuelson…He had a choice to play with either Lita Ford or Megadeth…Gar said he should’ve went with Lita…Dave was hard to work with & very immature, according to Gar…Check out Spiritbox, you won’t be sorry…I’m new here & appreciate this young ladies intelligence…She’s very articulate & apparently has a good mind…

[@oldkid8811]

Mustaine is godly thx for covering

[@chrismeadows4216]

I Won't See You Tonight Part 1 and I Won't See You Tonight Part 2 by Avenged Sevenfold form the song for you, without a doubt. I think you'll love both of them, and certainly have a lot to talk about with them. Keep up the excellent work, Amanda!!! You're very appreciated!!! 🥰💙

[@Nazman06]

drummers for megadeth must have some stamina

[@woodsgump]

I think this song was written after Metallica’s bassist Cliff Burton died in 1986 (and potentially Dave Mustaine’s girlfriend???). He never gives a clear answer. But yeah, this sounds like a venting song by him.

[@dole8001]

We need to destigmatize the social pressure for men to show no emotion or express no feelings.

[@Fastmax13]

Damn 2nd time in a week you popped up on my video feed !! If this keeps up I may have to subscribe, megadeth I have been listening to since the late 80s , but may I add you look so much better In yourself then you did in the first video I seen you in and for that I am thankful 👊 please keep doing what your doing as you are helping people including yourself 💪 and if you do any more metal videos I may pop by 🤘🍻

[@MentalAmanda]

I will keep stalking you until you make sweet sweet love to.....my subscribe button. I definitely have more metal on the books!

[@ronyoung3032]

Makes me want to quit working (for the day) and start playing guitar for the rest of the weekend.

[@jameskirkley7341]

I'm adult ADHD,metal is always unsurpassed in meaning and intensity. The heavy metal is a commitment to loose irrelevant dignity for a while.

[@benwebb4424]

Something that might change your opinion on this song's narrative a bit; According to Dave's memoir he wrote this song while on dope. That fact alone hints at the probable cause of the unhealthiness in the relationship.

[@sSHAPZz]

Ya, but he's SOO good at making it seem like the other persons fault... I kinda want to believe him! 🤙🏼

[@stanfordpittman1654]

Hmmm.... I have just recently been checking out your channel to see what it is about and it's vibe...even made a few commits. I have to say, between your passion and the great and deep explanations you give I had to subscribe to you. Yea, nice job describing imbalances in relation ships. Seems like more and more men consider themselves to be " Great Lovers" because of the high amount of different women they have been with. Me myself, I think they are fools and just don't get it at all. A great lover. Is Not one who can romance a different woman every night...no.... A great lover is one who can romance the same woman for life.

[@OriginalWhiteDevil]

You have the most beautiful eyes.

[@darthsteeler9]

P.S.S. Check out the live 1992 version! It rules!!

[@31flayvers]

bad ass Thanksgiving looking shirt

[@danickmailloux5489]

Damn I think she likes metal

[@Death_Strong]

Dave Mustaine îs one of the most sarcastic metal musicians of all time. This song has some of the best quips. Often its in the tone of his voice as he sings. For example in the line "Everlasting life for me" I believe he is being sarcastic, mocking religion, mocking everyone telling him that things will get better. His suicidal thoughts have some sarcasm as well. Sort of a "welp I might as well just kill myself because that will relieve the pain right?" type of outlook. Truly a great review/reaction. Love the focus on mental health. Thank you!

[@brianthiebold]

would love to see you react to "Skin O My Teeth" by megadeth. Dave Mustaine himself said the song is about "This song is about how many times I tried to kill myself and couldn't get the job done."

[@deaankoekemoer5471]

I hope your content reaches more and more people because this world needs it. Hope your coming week is awesome, keep up the good fight 🤘🏻

[@BlackieNuff]

Disappointing reveal ; this song was actually about Dave's "departure" (firing) from Metallica, or something like that. I personally prefer the idea (which the lyrics strongly suggest) that it's about a toxic relationship and/or romantic rejection/betrayal followed by suicide contemplation/attempt.

[@BorderGuardJaegerFinlandia]

Woman will ALWAYS try to change the man she met and became interested in... That's a lifetime of work for her... The irony is that when the man becomes what she made him to. Then she is going to say. We must divorce each other and our love is not what it used to be. You have changed from what you where when I met you.... 😮... Well, that was EXACTLY what she wanted all the time and now when she is done.... No more love and we have to split😂😂😂😂. Then she have to fins some other bad ass "bad boy" and help him out from his anger, with my precious love 😍. Yeah right. I have not changed anything and that's why I'm happily married since 1997....she is still attracted to me, because she see me as the "bad boy" that I gave always been... Women must have their work cut out for life in an relationship.... So brothers.... Do not change to what she "wants you to do😂"... That's a big mistake

[@jc8453]

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[@kipblass2131]

Wow...Hmph... gotta admit... I saw a couple of your channel's videos and thought, "OK, cheesy - pretty girl who had some issues. She's getting all teary-eyed over some sentimental music videos and now we're supposed to buy in to this "suicide survivor" title that she's giving herself" But I'm a little older and remember when this song came out (I'm not that old, I was a pre-teen LOL)- I was going through a rough patch in my life and was thinking of doing some stupid things and it hit hard and I related to it. Later, it holds some strange value to me as it is both a song that I connected with as well as a song by one of my favorite bands before they became one of my favorite bands (if you check out their discography, roster, and history, you'll find that they're one of the most... transitional... I guess, bands.) And now, when life is taking a turn back toward a darker path in the absolute most uncertain of times, seeing you, someone who also can connect to the song, keeping your composure as you describe how you can relate to it... that takes quite a level of strength... one that at least is more than I have. Initially had high doubts to your credibility and now feeling connected. Mentions of vids/reactions/experiences to Linkin Park- I have quite a bit of connection to them as well and will check those out. Definitely changing from doubter to relater. Not subbin' yet but we're gettin' there!

[@MentalAmanda]

I will consider the videos you've watched so far and your comments as subscription foreplay 😉😊

[@brianwright6445]

You should check out Testement... Return To Serenity.

[@BreadboiEVA01]

It’s awesome when they make the guitar laugh during the “HA ! HA !”

[@gregorybesson2341]

I suggested listening to "you can't bring me down" by the band suicidal tendencies (they are all about living btw) &have seen songs being recommended that are no way near as powerful as some I'll suggest, such as - the whole R.H.C.P. album blood sugar sex magic, the 1st 6 black sabbath albums, truly deep, inspirational, loving music & lyrics that people would never attribute to B.S. if they just read the lyrics. Also - judas priest "rock hard" James brown's get up off of that thing" Rudyc by the specials