VLOGMAS 2020: PART TWO! | Fleur De Force

[@kelleywilliams1216]

I totally understand the idea of being happy about friends pregnancies and births whilst also feeling sad that your not in that situation. It's perfectly normal to feel like that we're only human. ❤️

[@michellecuthbert7972]

Makes me sad that you are worried about sharing if you have an “off day” because you “got so much” You are human and everyone has off days, sending you lots of love and positive vibes through these crazy times from Switzerland 🌟

[@notesfrommybookshelf]

@Charlotte Lot does going to Dubai stop you from having off days forever then? Wow, must try it.

[@luckyducky280]

I fell the same way about everyone being pregnant right now and totally feel the same way. I've had a miscarriage and everytime I see an announcement its like a punch in the heart. Doesnt mean you aren't happy for them. You can be happy for them and sad for your situation at the same time.

[@thesagetraveler7649]

I had a miscarriage last month ( my first pregnancy). It's hard because it does seem like literally everyone is pregnant right now. Definitely feel the same way.

[@fatemafatima1233]

See this advice i can use for my situation too. Thanks

[@MisssJessicaaa]

I've had a miscarriage back in May.. It was my first pregnancy and I didn't told anyone except my husband for a little while and then I got a message from my mom who went to visit my cousin because she just had a baby literally a few days after my miscarriage so my mom was sending me photo's of her and my dad holding their newborn and I just broke.. I called my husband while sobbing and even though I was super happy for my cousin ofcourse, I also felt extremely sad and emotional at the same time and that's ok.. I am now 23 weeks pregnant with a healthy, active little girl so don't worry dear.. I am sure you will be able to carry another baby soon. Sending lots of love and strength to you and all other mommas in similar situations ❤❤❤❤

[@francessingleton1555]

It's a rubbish club to be in.

[@HelloBombshell21]

this is how I feel about engagements, marriage, weddings, babies, all of it... I’m 26 i engaged and completely alone.. happy for them but sad for me

[@musume11]

I feel like no matter how many times you show us your house, there is still a new space or area come up once in a while that we have never seen before !

[@palominodream]

“Get ready for the jingle” gets me going 🤣

[@alleycats1274]

If Fleur has designed jewellery with Monica Vinader then RIP my bank balance

[@alexandrafingleton7407]

I hope she does. It’s beautiful and not too expensive. I hate the cheap stuff passed out by KZbinrs. This is quality.

[@barbaravyse660]

😂

[@laurad6037]

Yes! I would actually buy it all haha

[@PiaffePiaffe]

Ditto! Fleur has such beautiful taste in jewellery 💕

[@jinanh2712]

Would definitely buy them as well. Might as well start saving 😂

[@LilyHeartsCosmetics]

River is such a little ray of sunshine, it's so lovely to hear her chat away and get a little cheeky in vlogs!

[@Beckyh921]

river saying buy mike haha made me giggle 🤣 xx

[@sharonmarie91]

I feel like everyone I know is either pregnant or just had a baby. Even a lot celebrities are pregnant or just had a baby. I imagine it’s hard to constantly get bombarded with baby news. ❤️❤️ fingers crossed for a happy thyroid for you in 2021

[@jaimiedavies4415]

That’s lovely that River loves her new “school”. I found my little one was much better going to nursery after lockdown. Pre lockdown he used to cry everyday when we left him, now he practically runs in! It’s like he’s fed up of us 😂

[@Theoptimisticbeach]

Thank you for sharing a little bit of your life with us: I have been following your channel for nearly 10 years (which makes me feel so old, I was still at uni when I discovered your channel, back in the days when you lived in your old-old house, with mike and woofey 😊) and your vlogmas videos have always been amongst the ones I loved the most. I always like, but rarely comment on your videos but thank you so much for continuing to put out such amazing content. I don’t know you personally but feel in a way that we have grown up together, since we have been trough pretty much the same stages of life at the same time (I am also 32... 😅) Sending lots of love to you and your family ❤️

[@rakwil]

When you were talking about trying to have another baby and being saddened by what you see/hear in social media...this is exactly why you have been the only KZbinr I’ve been following from the very beginning...a little over 10 years now...because you have been and still are a very genuine person and that makes you so relatable. Thank you for that 🤗

[@elainehoward8822]

Hi Fleur, please don’t loose hope sweetheart, I’m sure everything will be fine. Sending you love and prayers xxxxx

[@thesagetraveler7649]

River reminds me of the little girls in The Holiday. She's such a doll! And that curly hair!

[@jennifererb8565]

Many of my girlfriends are struggling the same as you and it's okay to feel sad about it ❤️ Thinking and praying for your family especially through this season 🎄☃️

[@tuulicamilla]

Mute the accounts that trigger you, you can easily unmute them when you’re in a better place! I’m currently in the middle of my first IVF cycle and know exactly how you feel, sending you love! ❤️

[@JustineeeTorp]

My mind went straight to 50 Shades of Grey when I saw the "Red Room" 🤣😂

[@marupashepakhan8563]

Definitely can relate with the sad feeling when you see announcements. Even if you have a child or children already doesn't make it easier at all. Fingers crossed for both of us ❤️

[@ellieboa]

we're here whenever you want to share any struggles! we're all just doing our best, love you x

[@jenmiller2208]

My husband and I had fertility issues as well. I totally get where you’re at mentally. You are gut punched every time you see a pregnancy announcement but then guilty for feeling that way. I just encourage you to let yourself feel the way you feel and keep talking it out with people who love and support you. Allow yourself the down days; you have earned the right. Here’s to a better 2021!!! ❤️❤️❤️

[@daisykrygowski2735]

I agree with you. It's hard when you are trying to have a baby to way h everyone tell you that they are pregnant. I completely understand you!

[@hemaliashani7266]

I relate 100% to you on the baby thing, trying to have one too and everyone around me is announcing babys even though I am happy for them it’s frustrating.

[@CLR10251]

I completely understand how you are feeling and it is totally normal! So many women feel the same at some point in their life. Maybe mute the social media accounts you don't want to see all the time. They won't know. I have had to do that with a few people to protect my mental health.

[@lesliethiel428]

You know you're a full on mom when a Costco haul is the excitement of the day. LOL And never apologize for feeling. It's ok to have a bad day. Big hugs and stay safe.

[@adhaincroi]

I have been fighting uphill on a fertility journey for years now. I feel your pain. You are happy for those that have managed to get pregnant or have their babe but there are a lot of extra emotions around that due to what you have and are going through. Its perfectly normal and those of us who are fighting this battle understand you. The experts say it is a type of grief that is similar to the grief of loss. Just allow for your emotions and don't feel guilty you are already dealing with enough.

[@Mokiecon]

What I have been loving the last 9 months is watching Costco trips and hauls so to see a UK version makes me super excited. I love that you did the math comparison on the sausage and burgers, makes me like you even more. You can totally feel ok about muting people on IG even if only temporarily. They won't know but will make you feel better and we all need that now.

[@JulieM-bx1ou]

Yay get ready for the jingle 😍 your vlogs have been such a huge help during this difficult year, thank you 🙏 Sending you a lot of love, and thanks for sharing- so many of us are having bad days and it’s ok. I appreciate your honesty and understand exactly what you’re saying.

[@jlongino51823]

It’s important to hold space for the things that hurt us and to recognize that we can be thankful happy and sad at the same time. Thinking of you.

[@Mariemgt123]

Beautifully put!

[@Meaganttv]

Love your vlogs, Fleur. Its lovely seeing you grow into the woman you are today. I 100% feel you on the IG stories. As a single woman without kids, sometimes I feel slightly sad when I see that other people have what I don't. But you're a lovely person, things will all work out as planned. Lots of love.

[@katelivingit9766]

Completely understand the negative feelings about other pregnancies - I (unexpectedly) spent 7 years trying to have my second & every pregnancy announcement was like a knife in the heart, no matter how happy you may also be for them. It’s so tough & you’re allowed to feel how you feel. But don’t lose heart as I’m now back from the school run & trapped on the sofa under my five month old! Wishing you the very best of luck xx

[@phoebe261]

Fleur’s channel always feels like a warm hug from a friend; good day or bad day, you’re such a genuinely lovely human, and your audience appreciate you 💕

[@kirstenrubberducky]

It just isn't Christmas until Mike tells us to get ready for the jingle! Also, thank you for sharing about having a down day. Feel like that's something most of us can relate to right now and it's refreshing to hear people talking honestly about it. I've found a lot of comfort in your videos this year, so I hope you're able to find comfort in us too. xx

[@Helloitsme_Alex]

River is so sweet! You have every right to feel how you feel, your feelings are valid and it’s typical when you’re feeling a type of way you see the things that feed the feelings. Big love ❤️

[@leamayfrench]

Thank you for your honesty! My gorgeous boy has just turned 1, and I always wanted to have a few kids! But my pregnancy with him was very complicated and due to my health (I had heart failure!) I was sterililised during my c section. I haven't quite fully mourned the fact I'll never be pregnant again or be able to give him and siblings (I know there are other ways). Seeing everyone else have their second and third pregnancies is definitely a punch in the stomach, and I feel so guilty for not just being grateful to have him in the first place (which I am more than anything!) It's just a shitty situation, but it helps so much when we all talk about the loss and the highs I think! Sending you all the best for the future of your family xx

[@YourDadElle]

We adore you every day, even on the off-days. Especially the really off-days when you need to share to feel better.🖤

[@katfire4]

Thank you for being real Fleur, it's one of the reasons that your content and vlogs are my favorite!

[@annlanta]

Appreciate you discussing the more difficult parts of life. Very relatable.

[@gracelovestoffee]

i’m sure it must feel very strange to be so open and vulnerable but i really appreciate hearing that i’m not the only one feeling the way i do. we’re three years into unsuccessful rounds of ivf (though not much progress this year with covid) and like you i feel like EVERYONE is pregnant. it’s so hard because you are simultaneously so happy for people and want to share in their joy but it just highlights everything missing in your own life. i think coming to the end of the year it’s natural to reflect and it just highlights for me that it’s another year without a baby. trying to be kind to myself. i hope you’re going easy on yourself. enjoy the gin while you can, you will get your happy ending ♥️ wishing you, mike and river a very happy christmas

[@clove4240]

Awww omg my grandfather bought me the entire Beatrix Potter box book set for my first birthday .....several decades ago 😉. I still have them, they are gorgeous!

[@eliemai12]

Really enjoying watching your old Vlogmasses in the runup to Christmas 2021!🎄❄⛄

[@vanessanewbold7574]

I don’t know how many years I follow you now years and years and years... and I’m always so super excited for Vlogmas! My favorite!!

[@bklewin]

Your vlogs are so great and so fun! Thank you for your honesty about how rubish this year has been and how rubish it is to be going through health issues that cause issues with fertility. I had health issues last year and then a miscarriage and following the miscarriage I felt as though everyone else was announcing pregnancies and I totally understand that you aren't necessarily jealous but don't want to see it. Basically I "snoozed" them on instagram so that I wouldn't see them but it wasn't an unfollow or anything like that. For my mental health it really helped. I hope that your health issues are resolved soon! Merry Christmas! Thanks for vlogmas!

[@aliciarichards7941]

Omg the Magic Sketch is so nostalgic!! I used to have the "analogue" version as a child that were essentially post-it note pages where you scratch off the black layer with a wooden stick to reveal the rainbow paper below. So cool to see they've updated it and it still exists!

[@katemoran3138]

11:50-13:00 was the most amazing series of events that i’ve ever witnessed 😂 River + your attempts to shush her + mike joining in had me ROLLING 🤣 so grateful for your vlogmas, especially this year❤️

[@alisonsundstrom7411]

I appreciate your candor. It’s nice to watch happy and uplifting content. But it’s also nice to know that I’m not the only one struggling through this period. I think a balance is good. I appreciate content that is real and down to earth.

[@sarahg2022]

Fleur, really LOVE your jumper, looks super cosy. Where is it from please? Lovely festive blog btw 😊

[@jessicahobin]

Also want to know, so pretty!

[@charliestjohn8342]

Fleur, thank you 😘 your talking about your down days when trying for a baby is actually really brave and important. We’ve been trying for 7 years, and I’ve had 3 miscarriages. The pain of seeing other pregnancies when you are struggling yourself is a valid and normal emotion; but not one that it ever talked about. Of COURSE we are delighted when others succeed and have babies! But other people’s joy also holds a mirror up to your own life and shows you what you are lacking. But because this type of loss and struggle is so personal, we keep it to ourselves, and then couples think they are strange for feeling the envy and sadness when society says ‘you must feel ONLY joy, do you hear!?’ One day, I also hope that, through it being shared more, people making pregnancy announcements on social media will take just a few moments to consider that their amazing, wonderful news also reminds some of their private pain - I’ve seen so many people announce pregnancies in such a kind, sensitive and thoughtful way recently. Wouldn’t it be an amazing world if we all supported each other though our joys and sorrows Xxx

[@Heather11134]

It seems like EVERYONE is pregnant at the moment, im in a similar position to you and its so so difficult! Sending love to you both x

[@aamymx]

Thankyou for talking about your feelings. I’ve had two miscarriages this year and it can be difficult when it feels like you’re not getting anywhere. I also completely understand how you feel about seeing other people’s pregnancies/babies- I found it helpful to mute those I followed who were pregnant and just went on their accounts to ‘Like’ things on my terms, when I felt ready. I couldn’t deal with feeling emotionally winded by a picture when clicking on Instagram and it felt like I could control it more. Wishing you and your family all the best and a happy Christmas xxx

[@nandas6035]

Thank you for sharing your thyroid issues, I suffer from thyroid myself, I was diagnosed not long ago, and, tbh it helps to hear people going throught the same and talk openly about their experience.

[@kendalkohler2636]

The ornament with the gold coin for advent is amazing and I’m going to try it with my daughter next year! ❤️

[@coolchlo]

I totally understand how you're feeling - we've been trying for a long time now and totally understand how it feels each and every time there's an announcement. Chin up, girl x

[@GirlMeetsNeverland]

I’ve struggled with infertility for a total 7 years and have one child to show for it - I always dreamed of having a big family but I don’t see that happening now. Know that you aren’t alone and there’s a huge community of women going through it with you. There’s nothing I can say to make you feel better but I’m sending all my love and good vibes your way. 💛

[@donnanancekivell9430]

Love all the critters on the tree so sweet,,perfect for River..........you don’t need to feel bad Fleur....you can be happy for your friends and they will be happy for you when it happens.........the house is looking lovely with all the trees, will be so different this year for everyone....stay well.........Donna in toronto

[@jennifershakespeare9705]

Your feelings about seeing other peoples pregnancy announcements are so valid. I’m in a similar position and completely understand. Just look after yourself x

[@loulabellakb]

Everyone has off days whether you have "so much" or have nothing. Never feel like you cant share both good and bad. Iv watched you for so so long and and you are amazing. It's understandable to get upset over those things. You are human after all xx

[@Anniloves21]

Loves this vlogmas video. Show us your grocery hauls. We love it. Sending you a heavenly hug

[@moondoggiesbaby]

Thanks for being so real, Fleur, I hope all of these issues will be able to be fixed very soon. River is absolutely adorable. Thank you for sharing real life with us!

[@Makeupjunkie09]

Nothings beats a Fleur vlogmas (or videos in general) ☺️

[@alienmissy4836]

I'm really glad you're doing vlogmas, no matter how many vlogs you're posting. This year has been absolutely awful - even without covid it'd be awful (my grandma died in april and then her dog, who was also my dog, died recently) and everything just feels strange and weird, but then vlogmas makes life feel a tiny bit more normal❤

[@julianapinnell3569]

I enjoy watching you and your family, it has become part of my Christmas tradition. Lots of hugs for you xoxoxo 💚♥️💚♥️

[@morganblalock873]

This made me smile soooo much, Fleur. Loving vlogmas so far. Riv saying "Byeee Mike" cracked me up! PS I now really want a cheeky little cocktail!

[@CRG_]

Something about Mike saying River when cooking gave me all the feels. It felt so sweet for some reason..

[@misshaack]

I understand the sentiment of "why should I complain others have it worse" but it's essentially a scale... some days will be better than others no matter how much or how little you have. Yes, it's good to step back and reflect on positives during hard times, however that doesn't negate the fact you're allowed to be sad or stressed or frustrated. This would be true anytime, but is especially true in 2020. Be kind to yourself and that's a good place to start. ❤️

[@aliciafrederick6914]

Can completely relate to health issues and trying for a baby. I lost a baby over a year ago and haven’t been able to get pregnant again. Trying to stay positive and do what I can to get healthy. Sending lots of hugs your way. Love your Channel ❤️❤️

[@kerryharrison3806]

Lovely real video. Had to laugh at the spinning candle ornament. I’m 53 and I remember my mum buying a version of this (with angels) from Avon when I was about 8!

[@buda2049]

I love you and I love your work, you always do your best and you never fake anything this is so beautiful and noble. Some makes their vlog very sad that it brings you down or fake a very happy vlog which also brings you down. Thank you Fleur , wish you joy and happiness ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@debwebster7172]

I love your chunky jumper who is it by ? Could you tag it .

[@vaidehij1]

River's voice is so adorable! ❤️

[@terezapredna2506]

Please,does anyone know where the matching jumpers Fleur got for her and River are from? I missed the information and cannot find the relating video anymore. Thank you! 💋

[@jonieanthony3991]

Are you designing jewelry with vinader? 😃

[@mrshally454]

Last Christmas made me cry so dang much..... just thinking about it and I’m tearing up!

[@PerfumedByTheSea]

Every time I watched it I’ve cried - praying for time is the perfect song when Kate works out the twist!!!

[@harrietpatchett1561]

I like it when you keep it real and say if you have a bad day! It’s more relatable and helps more than you know! Lovely cosy vlog thanks! X

[@h2oelephant]

Favourite videos to watch are yours, Fleur. All the way around the world (and majority of the giveaways and brands aren’t available to me) but I wouldn’t ever want to miss your videos. I understand the yearning for that celebratory news to be yours, I feel that way too. Hope things start to look up but in the mean time, cut yourself some slack. Bad days make the good days so much better. We all go through it xoxo

[@samviv5541]

Where are the sweet animals from ur Xmas tree from?

[@helenbruce7084]

Aw I really enjoyed this content , your decorations and house are just absolutely stunning ! Don’t be hard on yourself you’re only human and we all have off days . Your time will come . I love seeing your dogs but it always makes me feel sad as 2 years ago on 23rd December we lost our beagle who was almost 15 and I miss her every day but I get comfort from seeing your dogs they are too cute ! Love your mums gift too !! Wow !! Xx

[@emilycomerford9045]

I really appreciate you talking about your off day, or at least pre-kids wonky thyroid me would have really appreciated knowing I wasn’t alone. I’m sorry you’re going through this and wish you all the best...

[@dawcra]

River has to be the most darling little girl I have ever seen. She’s so like Mike but she’s also your mini me. I hope your health issues get better because I suffer from thyroid issue as well so I know the frustration of trying to get your medication right. I hope you and your family have a very blessed and merry Christmas

[@HelenMason463]

I'll never get over how beautiful that kitchen is! Lovely vlog Fleur x

[@RC-zm2xm]

I totally understand what you mean about seeing people around you pregnant and having mixed feelings. I realised that today was supposed to be my due date, but I miscarried in May. Now I decided to draw a line under 2020 and write the year off completely. Let's start fresh in Jan.

[@reshma6821]

I remember finding you through Elle Fowler’s videos back in the day and it’s crazy to me how is similar your lives are. I know she is also going through some fertility issues and it pains me to see both of you going through this. You are such a positive person Fleur! I’m hoping next year will bring you so much happiness

[@lauram8952]

Hi Fleur, sometimes when I feel down I think of you and your content, it takes me to a happy place, I’m always thrilled when your videos are coming out. Don’t feel guilty feeling what you feel, you are totally allowed to have some bad days too when you let it all go. It’s probably healthier than always pretending to be ok. I hope you find “happy places” to make you feel a tad better, even virtual ones. With love from a follower, xx

[@winebuff100]

Girl you are amazing. I had no idea and I have been watching you for years. Prayers for you and your beautiful family.

[@kiarimarie]

Bad days happen, no matter where you are on life. I can’t imagine how frustrating fertility issues are when you want another baby for such a long. You feel sad because you want your baby #2 so badly and 2020 has been extra rough for you and Mike on that front. I’m wishing you guys the best of luck getting there. ❤️

[@terryfischer1070]

I was wondering who was in your bed and realized it was River. I didn't expect to her look so big. Where has the time gone? I love seeing her being happy and silly. And that wild hair just makes me smile!

[@racheljay6314]

That little wave by River at the end killed me, so adorable!

[@Ambers_Team]

Does anyone know the name of the color for the kitchen cabinets? It’s gorgeous I want to up cycle my cabinets and I’m in love with that color.

[@rubinasrecipes7105]

Love a good Costco haul, we were there at the weekend too! Sending you all the positive vibes Fleur and prayers for a healthy pregnancy very soon Xx

[@hellonidhi6053]

I agree, it seems that everyone is either getting married or pregnant. It's hard for me as well. My wedding was supposed to be in July but we had to cancel because of COVID. Now we're not sure when the wedding will be because we're in different countries and haven't seen each other in almost 1.5 years. It's definitely hard...

[@raleeot7]

Thank you so much for this fun, Chrismassy vlog!! You never have to apologize for having a bad day. We're all humans after all. Your family is so precious. Thank you for sharing a snippet of your life with us.❤️

[@Makeupjunkie09]

Where is that chunky knit jumper from your wearing near the end? 😍

[@mayra85]

H&M

[@Makeupjunkie09]

Mayra Meijer thank you!

[@missindie9204]

Please can someone help me, where can i purchase the gorgeous roll neck sweater at 18:55 Thanks in advance!

[@hannahella6563]

Thank youu, this was lovely. I'm on my period and I get really bad cramps and this was the ideal relaxing distraction until the pain killer kicked in. Kind of like a psychological pain killer

[@ahoward3503]

My aunt bought my mom the Beatrix Potter collection for me when I was born. I loved that collection growing up and they are some of the most darling children's stories out there. It was fun to see it in your video! Your friend will love it!

[@rtongcn]

Costco haul! I still love wandering through Costco. Definitely picking up a roku gin now. Have been wondering if it’s any good.

[@sassystevens]

Do you still have your flat in London Fleur? Really enjoying your blog as as ever, thanks for sharing with us xx

[@marikok3801]

Where is your grey sweater from? It's gorgeous 🤩

[@ginaprasad7695]

I know how you feel ❤️ we have a daughter which I had through IVF. Love her so much that I want to give her a sibling ❤️ But 5 years later after a lot of money and 2020 being the year that it is...having 3 embryo transfers this year. Having friends telling me about pregnancy. It's hard... So hard🙁😢

[@elainemcgran8828]

The year has just gone. Totally understandab the way u feel. Wish u all the luck and hopefully better things are on the way 🙏

[@-ParisTexas-]

You are still entitled to have a bad day and to feel sad even though you have a lot. Hope that you'll get some good news soon. Sending you all the good vibes. Love your vlogs as always.