Food Paralysis 2: Supermarkets & choosing nail colour

The last video was about food paralysis in food decisions and getting a takeaway. This one is about paralysis in supermarkets, general indecision, and obsession with using up leftovers • Food Paralysis 1: Free...
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[@amysafko8817]

For those newer to Meg's channel...I highly recommend you go back to see how she has evolved in things like this. I remember her mayo struggles early on and to see how much that has changed for her really gives me hope. But as she said, it takes a lot of hard, hard work.

[@eilidhh408]

Yeah and the challenging cheese !! So so helpful as these were all of my steadfast fear foods too

[@chiafairy7091]

absolutely!! In her earlier videos I remember her adressing one of the most essential things for me to recover when she adressed thag it's crazy to her that some people would look at her and think well it's okay for "her" to do it, because she is still skinny recovered, and how she thinks the exact same about other people, and that just made me realize how subjective that is and how the ED would just tell you that exact lie no matter how you look physically.

[@reinerselbstschuss3820]

Thanks, I'll go have a look!

[@hannahmills6764]

This channel is one of the most helpful resources out there for eating disorder recovery! Thanks Megsy, bless you 💛

[@megsyrecovery191]

So glad it's been helpful for you hun xxxx

[@harmonyhope1709]

So true

[@chiafairy7091]

Agreeeee 100% encouraged me to take recovery to a completely new level and ACTUALLY recover without leaving my toes dipped in.

[@harmonyhope1709]

@@chiafairy7091 definitely!

[@nak223]

"HUNGER EATS BRAIN ", as we say here. A starved brain (and body) CAN NOT function propperly. It is almost impossible to make healthy, subjective decisions by yourself. That is why therapy (if malnourished/ udereweight) is mostly focused on (forced) WEIGHT GAIN, in the beginning!!! There is no other way out of the desaster. Once weight is stabilized your brain will start to function again. Slowly but surely you will be able TO DO opposite actions. Only then the therapeutic work, on unerlining problems, can begin. Lots of love from Germany Meg ;O). Your videos are immensely helpful.

[@maddiejaneec]

Megsy, there is so much I want to say in letting you know how much of an inspiration you have been to me. I recently started my own ED RECOVERY channel, and you have consistently remained a huge role model for me. You are incredibly strong, caring and beautiful inside and out. I completely understand the feeling of food paralysis and the anxiety associated with choosing certain things. ED's are touch mother-fu**ers to fight, but you are doing so well. Keep going, you are amazing ❤️❤️❤️

[@h_2503]

This spoke to me on so many levels - Not wanting to get things wrong really hit home. It is something that taints everything and drains so much energy. Even when you said making the wrong decision about a nail colour - yup, been there. Obsession with not wanting to make the wrong decision is something I have struggled with for as I can remember. I hadn't considered it in the way you describe in relation to control and how food deprivation means you want to make the 'right' decision about the 'perfect' apple. I too used to spend ages choosing a bag of apples from a selection of the same type of apple, walk up and down the same aisles, picking up the same packets, reading obsessively. But it makes so much sense that these are due to infrequency. Having my nails painted for example was something I saw as a luxury and something I didn't deserve. Only on special occasions, but then I even placed rules around that i.e. not if it is while I am working. Then painting my nails, just as eating something different became a change to my norm, which induced further fear. Not doing it often means for that one time it needs to be the right decision or it would be a waste. So thank you Meg. Thank you for making me feel less alone and realising when the food behaviours you spoke of are tell-tale signs and something I need to me more mindful of to prevent going back to that place. Gorgeous nails btw

[@megsyrecovery191]

I definitely find the more restricted something is (even nail colour), the more pressure and importance is placed on it when you do allow it! And I can so so relate to the bag of apples. So sad isn't it!

[@h_2503]

Absolutely@@megsyrecovery191! The only way I moved past it was challenging myself to put in my basket the first from the selection that I picked up. I even did it with boxes, as any perceived imperfection made my skin prickle.

[@borninprovidence2965]

The decision paralysis, yes. My eating disorder, hyper-self protection and life-starvation has always been mixed in with growing up in poverty and experiencing complex trauma in childhood. It’s taken twenty plus years to undo. Love to all the warriors. ❤️

[@megsyrecovery191]

Oh bless you, I hope you've had some good help and love to heal xxxx

[@harmonyhope1709]

Omg I can totally relate to this comment. Childhood neglect and other trauma has created CPTSD symptoms. 27 yrs later of different anorexia treatment I have finally found out that the best therapy for me at the moment is trauma therapy xx sending love to you xxx 💕💕💕 alongside still challenging the Ed symptoms!

[@harmonyhope1709]

I'm so glad you're back. My recovery came to a bit of a stuck place when Covid hit and I lost my way a bit.... I seem to have been watching your videos for so long now that I feel like I should be totally recovered by now!! I'm soooo nearly there mentally I think, however still hanging on to some rules and obsessions but seeing your recent videos again has really helped me to remember what I'm supposed to be doing!!! I am back on it now doing the final parts of the process hopefully!!!! ❤️

[@harmonyhope1709]

I always find that Minnesota starvation study so interesting and how they started developing the weird obsessions around food. It's good to remember that some of the shit in our heads really will be better when we are out of the starvation state (or if we feel like they are starting up again, it's a warning of relapse, for me anyway)

[@sherriw7673]

No matter what you post...I relate to everything...I'm just SO grateful that you are able to verbalize the struggles and reflections you have realized. I have these thoughts rummaging around in my mind but couldn't summarize them as beautifully as you consistently do. Thank you SO much for posting. You're channel is just SOOO beneficial and helpful. God bless you😘

[@reinerselbstschuss3820]

Thank you so much for this video Meg! Your explanation of all the indecisiveness, obsession with rules, perfectionism and numbers and the resulting paralysis is so on point. A real eye-opener for me! I've been struggling with this for forever, but I thought I was the only one. It's a relief that I'm not just bat shit crazy spending hours spacing out in supermarket aisles, but on the other hand it hits me hard because it obviously means that YES I have an eating disorder and no excuses I cannot go on with my whole belief system anymore. Glad I found you!! (via a recommendation by What Mia Did Next)

[@harmonyhope1709]

I remember you challenging mayo so it's so amazing to hear that it literally holds no emotions or anxiety for you anymore. ❤️ And cheese toasties for that matter!! So inspirational and reassuring that change is possible

[@deyaniraramos1396]

Omg not only do I find you content very supportive and relevant but I love your real, honest, positive, funny, light hearted vibes. You put things in perspective for me, what matters more in life basically. Your talks remind me that recoverying will bring things like being in the moment, being calmer with food or the thought of food, being around love ones, doing fun enjoyable activities, and so much more. I trust what you say because you are living proof of that. I admire you so much because of all this. You still have your own struggles yes but you try to manage now, not by using your eating disorder anymore...I really do want to be happier and be in life more not just surviving of trying to survive. It's not the way I want to live. I may glorify and miss my ED loads of times or all the time but it's been years already and it's given me nothing but...going to the hospital, fighting for my life, hooked on IVs and what more, in tears, in fears, panic attacks, anxiety to the max, hiding food, restrictions, avoidance, loneliness, losing people, health issues now, etc...yup. so, I know I will not stop trying but yea...what you talked about sent me on a long talk sry but I def understand and relate. Thank you for the share, always love them. Your inspirational. 💜🖤🆓🌄🥊🕊️💕☺️

[@leslihouseman1021]

I have been following you for a few years now, and this video is so spot on for me. I relate to so much of what you share and talk about. I struggle so much with trying to control everything, and worrying about getting everything right. I have also been so obsessed with every little thing about what foods i have and when they might get used, and stressing that they wont. Spending hours in the grocery store, coming out with way too much, or nothing I went to pick up. And then feeling like shit, and guilty with anxiety. For many years my husband had to do our shopping for the week (on his day off) because I could not. And the part about planning even your showers, and all the lists, it's all very relative to myself. Thank you for sharing, and making me feel a little less like a total, bat shit crazy person! Much love

[@kittyoppliger5309]

I was stuck for an hour in the bread aisle the other day... picked things up, walked away, walked back to put them back... people started looking at me oddly. so awful. Didn't get my heart rate back to normal until three hours later.

[@natashaj4113]

So relatable. Why is there so many types of bread 🍞 😅 and yoghurts!

[@harmonyhope1709]

This is my biggest problem right now!!!! I literally can't make a decision about anything and so supermarket shopping is sooo anxiety provoking.... There's just so much choice and variety. I want everything but I also want nothing!!!! The situation you described about staring supermarket shelves for hours and also the story of the perfect apple is so relatable!! Even packets of mixed veg has to have the right ratio of broccoli to carrots to green beans and baby corn. I drive myself mad, honestly!!!! 🙈🙈🙈 Also my days are like a military operation, so planned out in detail !!! I control my whole day and have to know exactly what is going to be happening. Then I get so stressed if/when it doesn't go to plan 🙈 even though it actually doesn't really matter a lot of the time!!! The food waste thing is also relatable to the point where I have eaten really out of date stuff because I don't want to waste it. I hadn't realised how bonkers it all was until this video, so thank you so much for bringing it to the forefront of my mind to start working on!!! 💕Love how you always make me understand that I am irrational but explaining why and what is going on in my head through you sharing your experiences and knowledge. You're such a gem!!!

[@rebellioussimmie8029]

The food waste goes the other way round with me, if I eat stuff that went out of date say today or yesterday, i get so much anxiety that I have gotten sick or ruined my health in some way, when let's say you can use your senses(sight, smell) with something like milk to see if its gone or still usable and tbh day-old milk is still drinkable most times, so it is JUST my stupid orthorexic thoughts and mindset that are so so so hard to break... So then i would feel super-guilty to have 'wasted my food' when i wasn't able to eat it within the bb-date or whatever. Argh the cycle:c

[@harmonyhope1709]

@@rebellioussimmie8029 both extremes are unhelpful. We both have to find that middle ground. Swing the pendulum to the opposite side and let it come back to the middle as Meg described!💓

[@rebellioussimmie8029]

@@harmonyhope1709 yes to that! We WILL find the middle ground xxo

[@harmonyhope1709]

@@rebellioussimmie8029 most definitely 💯💪❤️

[@natashaj4113]

I related to so much of what you said. You’re not bonkers and if you’re then I am bonkers with you ☺️💛 I am not going to send advice as I think we both know it. But sending lots of love and hugs - I know how tough it is ❣️ xxx

[@kmoy]

I share the same feeling about not wanting to choose the wrong nail color, wrong dish on the menu, wrong flavor of cereal. You try to plan and then if something doesn’t go as planned you get stressed out. Not sure how to fix this but I’ve become more aware of it. You’re right. There’s a lot more to life then food, nails or anything else small. What’s important is family and health. It seems so small. Why do we focus on things that don’t always matter? Thanks for your video Meg

[@megsyrecovery191]

Yep, because EDs tend to be detailed focused and intolerant to discomfort! I certainly have to make sure I keep looking at the bigger picture to keep perspective over things! xx

[@jennale7712]

Lolol I used to be the EXACT same way at the nail salon!!!! And i have noticed it’s gotten a lot better as I’ve progressed in my recovery! It really is so interesting how that works!

[@megsyrecovery191]

Incredible how the body responds to restriction isn't it!

[@christina7561]

Really appreciate how open you are in relating your content to personal experiences. Your genuine and authentic energy is beautiful and appreciated, love!

[@jennhankle4521]

Thank you so so much for your videos- I can’t tell you how much they have helped me! Your tone is so open and honest and genuine. I think you’re an amazing, lovely person!! I can totally relate to the paralysis issue! However wrt the leftovers- I am/was the opposite- any chance to get rid of food once it was made and in the house so I wouldn’t have to eat it felt like a relief - like you obsess over the food and choosing it and then once it’s home it’s like how did I ever think I can safely eat this! My husband is an incredible cook, though, and can repurpose leftovers so creatively- it’s a huge help bc I don’t have to figure out or do it myself!! Love to you and your husband and your sweet furry loveys!! 🥰💕

[@goosegirl3424]

Completely relate!!! Indecision occupies so much time. Fear of 'getting it wrong' is so disabling. I've found that deliberately doing things I'm not great at and exposing myself to being average or rubbish at stuff has helped me lighten up and agonise less. Still really hard but mindfully giving oneself permission to make mistakes can help can't it?! Thank you so so much for your words of experience, for sharing uplifting and heartwarming videos of your furry trio and Bren! And for being your incredible self and giving hope. Love to you darling megsy xxxx

[@goosegirl3424]

Oh, and asking myself "what's the worst that can happen " helps, too, because I realise most of the time I either realise the fear of the 'worst' completely opposes my values and aims. Or the worst was something I can deal with. Xxx

[@fizzyizzy1281]

Thank you so much! Your words always resonate with me and it amazes me how much of my indecisiveness and need for doing the "right" thing is rooted in that scarcity mindset. Hearing you talk about letting go of those rules helps so much with the pressure. Also from other people in my family, who have "healthy" reasons for restricting certain foods, then having moved out by myself now and figuring out my own values food shopping usually entails some crying meltdown. Just too much choice and so many opportunities for making the "wrong" decisions. Your insight ist truly appreciated! Sending you lots of love :)

[@louisesargent5006]

Megsy YESSSSS you are my absolute hero. It was your part 1 video that got me subscribed to your channel a couple of weeks ago and since then I've been working my way through your library, with every single one hitting home in some way. This one in particular though, it's almost scary but also at the same time deeply comforting to hear someone else describing the EXACT same experiences I've had, whether that be to do with the supermarket, wasting food, tracking what other people in my family eat; it's the first time I've ever heard anyone else talk about going through this and now I don't feel so alone, and I don't feel like I'm going mad. I lost a huge amount of weight in my teens due to bowel disease and subsequent multiple surgeries but similar to the Minessota experiment cohort even when I was eating a lot (or thought I was) I was controlled by all kinds of strange behaviours and obsessions, and looking back now (although it seems hazy), I becoming increasingly aware that I have been suffering from some degree of ED. I clearly have physical impediments affecting how well I deal with and absorb nutrients from food but in terms of just where these effects end and the psychological influence starts, it's very difficult to distinguish. I thought I was getting over it as I've been challenging all my worst fears and gaining considerable weight but my period is nowhere to be seen so listening to you has really made me realise that I've still got a way to go. But you are the reason I'm persevering, and I can't thank you enough. And I watched this eating goats cheese and copious honey on crusty bread and drinking full fat milk :)

[@jenb682]

I just love your videos. They are so inspirational and talk to my soul 💛 You’re literally better than any therapist I’ve ever had!

[@nusabygrace]

Wow I relate to this so much, it’s crazy. Thank you so much for being here.💙

[@sarahfretwell557]

Loving everything about this - you’re putting so many of my thoughts into words and making me smile! 😍 Thank you for all you do Meg. Wishing you the very best as always 🥰 xx

[@lauraramosdelgado]

Even when I feel I’m pretty recovered by now, your channel is still appealing to me and this video kind of suggested why... There are still bits of the perfectionist and control freak that I am that could be worked out of using the same techniques I used for ED recovery (feel shit and do it anyway). Thank you for being such a light in this path. ❤️ Also, your fur babies are SO CUTE!

[@harmonyhope1709]

Love Stevie, Beyonce and Bertie, they are all so cute and I love that they feature in your vlogs! ❤️

[@jule5745]

I loved this video. I have so much life paralysis. Even though I'm much better with food, life decisions can totally overwhelm me sometimes. Another thing that I find really helpful is to let someone else to choose for me. Sometimes when I get too hungry I still have that food paralysis but when it's possible I tell someone else to make the decisions around food.

[@francescoleman-williams911]

Recovering from rules is the best thing ever!

[@yogybat]

I started today with really bad body image after challenging myself with takeout last night, and although I know going back to old behaviours will just reinforce the ed thoughts, I found it really hard to calm myself down from the body image (and food related) panic. So I sat myself down as usual, and watched your videos (this upload was just the perfect timing 😂) and I just wanted to say thankyou Meg ❤️ Listening to your advice immediately calms me down and brings me back to reality

[@cammyknight5745]

thank you SO MUCH megsy. i was so flipping excited when i saw this! ive been counting down the days until i could watch a new release from you. im still in hospital and rewatching all your videos over and over just to help me get through. you are a life saver and always make me feel less alone. thank your SO SO much for this and cant wait for your next one. if you have anything you want to talk about around maintaing motivation and about wanting the “best of both worlds” sending all my love

[@genius2655]

1:45 My eating disorder definitely accelerated this for me. All my birthdays had to be ‘perfect’, every Christmas had to be ‘perfect’, every dinner had to be at 6 and I would turn into the devil if it wasn’t. I also have autism, and a part of my individual manifestation as rigidity surrounding routine. I am a perfectionist, diagnosed with OCD, and that made this strict idea surrounding every day having to be ‘perfect’ even worse. Prior to my recovery I was such a horrible person to be around. I couldn’t wake up a minute too late, because it would ruin my day and my routine would be ruined - all because my morning wasn’t ‘perfect’. At school it was embarrassing, if someone sat in my spot I would practically have a tantrum. I’m nearing 18 and in have always been in advanced classes. I got some incredibly judgemental looks. Though I am not yet completely recovered, feeding myself more and taking adequate care of my health removed a lot of that rigidity surrounding perfection, despite still catching myself planning larger events, i.e my graduation, it has to be ‘perfect’. But, I’m not weighing apple down to the gram anymore and analysing them for bruises or imperfections 😉

[@liverbirdxoxo1984]

Is that Bren singing? That song is lovely... he should start a KZbin channel for music if it’s him x

[@rebellioussimmie8029]

This came about the right time as I head to do the weekly shopping

[@RafalSB]

You're such a lovely person and I am happy to see your husband is as lovely and kind-hearted as you. All the best to you both!

[@diegobriemstamm1034]

You are such an inspiration megg!!!thank you for this amazing video,so helpful💕💕😘lots of love and makes me happy see you bright again after years and years of fighting to live the life you always wanted to life,out of and eating disorder,free and happy.

[@liverbirdxoxo1984]

Your right it’s not just about the eating disorder... it seeps into everything.... I’m awful when I’m in shops... I always get followed by security because I must look so suspicious ... can be in there for hours n not end up buying anything after putting things in n out my basket! It’s exhausting

[@helenburgess9577]

Thank you for the video and I really relate. I used to use calories and price to help me choose food not preferences at all. I would eat something I didn't really like but it was cheap and low calorie. Although I would sometimes buy very expensive stuff but it was justified as it was low calories/sugar which fitted in my food rules. I would buy new snacks every time I was in the supermarket because i wanted to eat them.but then get too scared to eat them so have a whole cupboard full of chocolate bars/cereal bars. To be honest this still happens sometimes 🙈 With the leftovers thing I used to always not eat them as I didn't know if it was a lunch thing or dinner thing and I was scared that it would be more calories than my normal lunch but now I do eat them more often as try to keep varying what I have for lunch. Eating disorder rules are so weird and different for different people. Also i am so impressed you can go to a supermarket and buy ONE thing. I literally know no one that can do that ED or not. My husband always comes out with extra bleach, toilet roll and tea bags. WTF 😂😂

[@harmonyhope1709]

The ending of this video is like me trying to exit and escape a zoom call!! 🤣🤣🤣💕💕💕

[@megsyrecovery191]

Hahahaha me too!

[@harmonyhope1709]

@@megsyrecovery191 🤣💓

[@amandasmith3306]

Yes!!! Choosing a nail color at the salon and every other decision feels like it’s the end all be all in anorexia!

[@lucygray3146]

What a perfect video, thank you Meg!💛

[@yeneliagu6811]

You are Amazing!! Always happy when I have a notification about one New video! So much love to you! Each video is so much useful!! :) :)

[@atc35012]

I felt unworthy of happiness during anorexia. Anything that made me happy I wanted gone at that time. Goodbye anorexia, I don't miss you!

[@sabrinasabi4177]

You Were just on my mind ;(right now!!!) thinking abt u and here you are whoooooa😍😍😍😍unbelievable 😍😍😍😍

[@megsyrecovery191]

ahhhh fate!! xxxx

[@sabrinasabi4177]

@@megsyrecovery191 😁😘😘😘😘

[@blewblupop68]

Could you do a video about control and how it effected yourself, others and how you deal with it in more detail? Your videos are amazing btw! Love your channel!

[@college271]

You sound like me.I can spend forever at the store to get a few things just wondering around to see something new they have or wanting to get something but then looking at the ingredients and changing my mind. Also with leftovers I cannot let anything go to waste.Someone has to eat it. I will give my food aways to family members.Exhausting.Sometimes when I cannot make decisions i want to cry.

[@katierough3284]

Totally relate to everything you say and also to the people commenting saying they get excited when you post!

[@Stephanie-hp3nt]

Your vlogs are so valuable! Every. Single. Time. ❤️ You explain everything so well, encouraging and inspiring. A lot of things you mention are always very recognizable which makes it easier to feel not being alone in these unlogical, weird feelings and thoughts. And btw, you look sparkling! ❤️☺️

[@megsyrecovery191]

Ahhh thanks hun. Yes I'm the same, it's nice to realise many of these things are actually a pure symptom of restriction, and can be reversed!

[@Stephanie-hp3nt]

@@megsyrecovery191 ❤️❤️

[@cazlovescakes]

The number of times I’ve been in the supermarket and wondered if they think I’m a shoplifter because I go up and down the aisles, staring at things... 😖 x

[@katieb5707]

Happened to me twice. It was very embarrassing.

[@ileneeo]

Yes to everything you said!

[@kew9726]

Absolutely brilliant 🌹❤️💕🔑

[@maxik.1551]

This video really cheered me up today! Thanks! 😊♥️

[@BloomingLisa]

Don’t think I’ve ever related to something so much in my life.

[@meganomalley3215]

Same. Oh my gosh.

[@harmonyhope1709]

Same

[@stefaniaperego1602]

Same here!

[@soniaperez9269]

Yep agreed!!!!

[@reinerselbstschuss3820]

Late to the party but also same! This video actually made me cry. I could never explain this paralysis thing to anyone and felt so crazy and ashamed because of it

[@samanthadwyer4131]

hello, I feel like this applies, I am currently getting over a cold and always have this insane fear of going out before I'm 100% better and making the sickness worse and longer. I am in a wedding next week and have been working from home/resting since Sunday night, but it is also my sister's birthday tomorrow. I literally can't make the decision of what to do because I'm scared I'll become more sick. I never related these thoughts to my ED

[@animo8828]

Always do nice yo see your videos. I Also went and still go through that indecision with the most stupid things, like deciding where to go for a coffee, what to eat, or Even where as if it was the last time I could do it, as if there was no tomorrow. Now I don't feel such a wierd perdón knowing that ir happens yo more people. Thank You so much. Really love your videos and posts. Incredibly helpful. Love ❤️😽❤️

[@megsyrecovery191]

Yeh it's such a symptom of restriction, and can definitely get better!!!!

[@animo8828]

@@megsyrecovery191 thanks 😘❤️

[@ali-zv1ye]

Would you ever making a video on how to deal with obsessing over nutrients and having veggies with every meal? I've noticed in myself and a lot of others recovering that we often go from anorexia to just orthorexia.

[@katieb5707]

You know what to do. Break the cycle. Challenge yourself to have meals without veggies or side salad and meals where you don't know the ingredients etc. Good luck

[@charstar4652]

You have helped me so much. Thank you for posting for us ❤️

[@abibethtam]

I loved Bren singing an OCS song :)

[@harmonyhope1709]

Meg do you use mayo on the outside of the bread as an alternative to butter or oil?!! Does it work in the same way to make a toastie?! Never seen it done before but it is maybe something new to try?! 🤔

[@neyisek6928]

What about when someone has people who can handle the decision , the prep of food etc but they can't/ won't let you? They say they are in recovery but really they only have a toe in. The aren't giving up control at all. How can others be most helpful & supportive?

[@ileneeo]

Yes, I find it really helpful to let my husband make food decisions; especially in the grocery, store otherwise I would just stand there stuck. If we’re eating together I will ask him to make the sandwiches or whatever so I don’t have get into a lather about all the details that are ridiculous but still linger in my brain. The things I say out loud are I’m neutral, it’s fine and it’s only food and I need the fuel. So hard but onward I go so, 🐌💪🏼🐢💛

[@TheTaylan1993]

Great video. God bless.

[@marialange9509]

When ortorexic I would use all my money on foods,amd only eat healthy,and organic..and being obsessed with nutrients,protein,heathy fats,drinking a lot of water reading articles about health,and studies,and apply those,,exercise,and supplements and I still got a LOT of supplements......when anorexic its about low calorie,or whats on sale,and also nostalgia plays a big role in it...even the cheapest junk..just tiny portions,and I had a competition with myself to make one food last for as long as possible,and also imagine weird things like in living in a movie,or in a third world country,and how to survive on as little as possible honestly it feels like my body,and mind are preparing for a disaster yet to happen over,and over again everytime I relapsed,and I always get high in the beginning from it..................

[@oscarricher]

I have too spent far too long choosing the most red ist apples in the supermarket... Walking back and forth.... I laugh now but i still do it... :/

[@anagabriela1290]

Hi, I'm new to your channel, and I was wondering.. What are your opinions on exercising in recovery?? I'm currently really struggling with that😅😅

[@natashaj4113]

Check out Tabitha Farrar she speaks about this a lot. I highly recommend 😊

[@white6733]

Can you share your cat's breed?)))) I'm in love with fluffiness 🐈

[@maitepassow8106]

Sooo f*ing important words🙏💛

[@eleonoreconstant]

lol Studying apples... i wonder how many hours/days i have spent trying to decide which apple to get at the grocery store. What is weird though is that I ve been sick for 20 years, I am still severely underweight yet I dont care much about food anymore. I never go grocery shopping, my dad does that for me so i cant choose anything and I actually prefer it that way. I am not as obsessed with food. What is strange is that I used to be SOOOOO obsessed even when I was at a higher weight. Not sure why I am writing this as you probably dont know why things have changed for me but not my weight. Life is more enjoyable when we're not obsessed with food but life still sucks when our weight is so low that our body just cant function normally (bones keep breaking and other other crazy shit like this, constant physical pain but mental pain is better ;) ).

[@harmonyhope1709]

If food and eating is easier would you be able to increase your diet to also improve your weight now so that you feel physically better too?!

[@eleonoreconstant]

@@harmonyhope1709 I eat a lot better than I used to and I eat a lot more during the day which is probably why I am no longer so obsessed with food. I ve gained a little but still super underweight. I am sure I will gain more and feel better if i keep going in the right direction! :) Not sure that the physical pain will even go away as my bones are completely ruined and keep breaking, with a lot of arthritis and other old people problems... Thanks for your comment!

[@harmonyhope1709]

@@eleonoreconstant bless you I know. The long term effects are awful. I have been "unwell" for 27/28 yrs and also have osteoporosis and other long term health problems associated with long term (at times chronic) anorexia and bulimia.... I'm glad you are managing to gain a bit of weight though. Keep working on it.... I'm doing much better these days.... Just silly things like the routines and decision making as expressed in this video still bother me!

[@eleonoreconstant]

@@harmonyhope1709 Do you think you will ever recover fully? Do you suffer from physical pain every day and if so how do you cope? Mine are so bad it often makes me want to cry and make sleeping very difficult.... I knew that i'd ruin my bones but didnt care when I was younger. Now it's too late. My T score is -3.7.

[@harmonyhope1709]

@@eleonoreconstant I was the same, people tried to warn me of long term effects but I thought they were exaggerating/trying to just scare me!(so stupid looking back) I do experience aches and pains, plus have crappy teeth and a dodgy heart, bowel and immune system.... As for recovery I try to remain hopeful but it does seem impossible sometimes after so many years... How about you?

[@makayladay7938]

Try cut with scissors ✂️ with 🍞.it’s just suggestion. 😉

[@megsyrecovery191]

WOW, great idea!!!

[@laurencelussierlocas]

How much do you spend on food in a week for you 2 and including restaurants ?