Free At Last

Verse 1:
An affair of the mind, truly one of a kind
She’s captured your thoughts, you can’t think clearly so you
Deny yourself, like you’ve been taught all along
Draw her some sketches, and sing her a psalm
Pre-Chorus:
And there you are - stuck, frozen with fear
She might reject you, or forget you like your parents did
God forbid it, didn’t He? Homosexuality, forget it
Chorus:
Energy cannot be destroyed, and there was energy between us
Since the energy transformed, everything got heated
A new focus is what I needed, and that new focus is me
Verse 2:
Oh shit, again it's happening, shaking
I gasp for fresh air, can’t breathe, I’m panicking
And dissociating, fueled by illogical thinking
Flashbacks of your pastor's preaching
Pre-Chorus:
Just call out His name and you’ll be saved
But He never saved you, He never changed you, still gay
You try to keep yourself sane, needed some attention
Just to ease all that pain, like a non-prescription pill
Chorus:
She killed what was left of you, you missed her and for what?
Wasn’t in the headspace where you could just let her go
Man, you really needed to get that shit under control
So you beat on the drum until you made your own rhythm
Dancing to the sound of your own goddamn decisions
Not this fucking hallelujah, Lord of all prison
No more hoping and wishing on faith-based fan fiction
No more people-pleasing, and pleading, or bleeding
Outro:
From the heartstrings, for an ounce of self-love
I don’t care if she read it, I don’t care if she hears
The only tears I’ll shed are for all those wasted years
Yeah, that’s grief, and there’s a time to heal and a time to feel
Final Chorus:
A time to weep and a time to laugh
A time to be present and let go of the past
Fuck, I’m free at last
Fuck, I’m free at last
To Dorothy.
Lyrics by Jack Bailey. Music and singing by SUNO.AI