God Saved Me

Hi, it’s me, Rachael Rose.
Welcome to my channel.
Thank you for following along.
In this video I speak about God and Jesus.
My belief in God saved me from following in the same footsteps as Ashley. God saved my soul from darkness.
I am a living testimony that God heals.
I did not grow up being a practicing Christian, I grew up not believing in God.
But to God be the glory for without Him, I would be crushed with the weight of this. Without God I would not have survived this first year.
I am grateful to God every single day for not giving up on me. For showing me His power and His glory.
Thank you for watching.
I’ll continue to share my journey through grief, with God by my side.
Asé
Love to you. 🌹

[@girlypanache7095]

My GOD. WTF IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE???? She could have been dressed head-to-toe in Gucci and recorded the video on her private jet and it wouldn't change a single thing about the trauma of losing a child and pain that she lives with every day. People are so SICK. Her beautiful angel baby would never want her Mum to suffer. I know in my heart that every day that she looks down over her Mum and if she sees her having a moment of peace it puts a smile on her little face. She'll be waiting with open arms to give her mother a hug when they eventually meet again, but until then I know that every loving daughter wants their loving Mums to seek and find joy and happiness on the journey to reunion. Rachael has helped so many people by sharing her story and grief, and I guarantee that she will be helping many more in the future. I hope that she continues to keep moving, growing, living, healing, and eventually prospering. She deserves it.

[@RachaelRoseLeader]

Very very kind. Thank you 🙏🏼 ❤

[@wdfx6030]

I am stunned that this poor women has grief that runs so deep that it took my breath away and others had the nerve to comment on her appearance rather than listen to her story with compassion. Humanity is sick!

[@katwest57]

I am sorry people criticized you for your beauty and the fact that you are actually keeping up your appearance. I am glad you are able to take care of yourself in the midst of grief. Who are these cruel people with no empathy?! I pray you find a new church family--a good supportive circle of friends to spiritually grow with. 💜💜💜

[@beeticket]

Miss Rachael was being more gracious than I by praying they find God, meanwhile I was praying I find my patience!!! 😮‍💨 The audacity of low-empathy people. May they please sort themselves out.

[@marloespeters8404]

Well said ❤

[@jillsteynberg1675]

When you have Jesus, you have EVERYTHING.

[@10meme11]

❤❤❤❤❤

[@curbyi76]

Nope daughter was everything.

[@pattymarchionno8594]

@@curbyi76for now , Jesus is everything. Her daughter she will always be connected with.

[@carriesmith-rodriguez4817]

AMEN !!

[@faithclay1626]

AMEN!!!!

[@charleneanderson6992]

In your brokenness, you are probably saving many people. You are a beautiful brave girl. Your heavenly Father knows your heart. 🌺

[@Rivkah_of_the_Remnant]

I don't know how people survive this kind of trauma without God. ❤

[@aisatsblake]

I was thinking the same thing!!!

[@Jesusisthetruth2]

Amen to that! I wish people would get the 'religious' aspect out of having faith in christ. It breaks my heart :'(

[@h8ercules126]

God does not exist, I'm sorry. You don't believe in god, you just want you and your loved ones to live forever. And you call this "god".

[@Rivkah_of_the_Remnant]

@@h8ercules126 You will figure it out one day. I prayed for you. It's never too late to turn to Him. Praise Yah! ♥️

[@h8ercules126]

@@Rivkah_of_the_Remnant ok, thank you! I will talk to my cat, we will get the same result ♥️😆

[@OutInTheBuyah]

You may not have "had God" as you say, but He HAD YOU, your whole life long. 🙏🏼 ✨

[@nicole320071]

It is insane to me that someone would find anything ugly to say about you. Not for one second did any of that stuff cross my mind. I saw a beautiful mom, pouring her heart out, sharing the story of her sweet angel baby.

[@Rhiannan_Bee]

This

[@jennlogan]

Exactly! I was THERE with her, in her grief as if it were my own. In fact I sat the phone down by my ear and just listened as I laid on my bed…. tears just flowing. I was HEARING her sorrow- not looking at her face! Oof. Some peeps, man 😂

[@BoundariesNOW]

Exactly. Not one bad thing went through my mind either except my heart breaking for a beautiful mom who lost her beautiful daughter and wanting to hug her and cry with her. I do not know why this world has so many cruel people in it... Just sad. I'm glad so many are praying for her including myself.

[@gloriaramos6443]

Exactly! ❤🙏🏼🕊️

[@sharonshim5046]

Exactly ❤❤❤🙏🙏🙏

[@toliveischrist950]

You have your brothers and sisters in Christ here loving you and praying for you. “The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit” Psalm 34:18. Jesus saved me too.

[@yarning4asmile]

❤ 🙏🏻❤️

[@SometimeAgo65]

Amen ❤ I've asked the Lord Jesus to comfort Racheal and help her to have joy and peace in her heart again.

[@elizabethdelacruz6876]

Amen!

[@Annekee8]

Yes the Lord is with the brokenhearted....I pray God will surround you with His overwelming Love every second of every day. And He will walk with you from moment to the next moment. And that the Lord carries you when you are in a moment that you feel you don't know how to go on. And He will always pick you up. And that you may know that your beautifull little girl is in a perfect place with Jesus and you will see her again. Thank you for your testimony. Its powerfull. God can and will turn any pain and trauma and turn it into something good. Thats something about God thats a mysterie. You are a beautifull person with a beautifull heart. Big hug and blessings for you from a sister in Christ ❤❤

[@ruthnorman5021]

There is no time limit for grief. Where there is much love, there is much sorrow.

[@candidarodriguez7235]

❤

[@BernieNguyen]

This is beautiful! Thank you!!! I’ve lost both my parents in the past 2 years. Your comment comforts me so much! Bless u.

[@victoriapepper5041]

I lost my precious son 3 years ago. It is only God... in Jesus Christ... that I am here. I know some pull away from God when they loose a child, I found myself drawing closer to God. I suddenly knew my son was with God and if I knew this then everything I do should be centered around God. I still cry just as hard as you, but not for as long each day. Some days...yes I am a mess... but I am doing the best that I can. Praying for you and your precious Oria!❤

[@nancyalford8056]

When God is for you, NOTHING can be against you.🤠

[@carriesmith-rodriguez4817]

Thank you Almighty LORD JESUS CHRIST !! AMEN !!

[@twingytwango6971]

He sure was for her when he allowed her children to be killed!!!

[@margarethutton5285]

So, i am a little blown away how I even came across the video about your loss earlier tonight. It popped up in my youtube feed. While you were sharing, I kept saying, "God, please touch her and help her to find you in all of this." I watched the whole thing and this one from less than an hour ago popped up immediately afterwards. Just the title touched my heart because that's exactly what I kept praying through tears. I will continue to pray for your heart to heal through the grief and deep pain. God bless you. ❤🙏🏼

[@audreykelly8758]

The same here Margaret. Lovely Rachel, showed up for me tonight too. I felt deep deep compassion. My son died at birth…neglect from my midwife. Deep anguish flooded me hearing you Rachel. Then I prayed for you to be saved by God. And now before bed I see you’re saved. Joy of all Joys ❤❤❤❤Praise the Lord ✝️✝️✝️✝️

[@JML542]

Yes, same here. 🙏💝

[@pippasweeney8868]

Same here. ❤ Your grief and raw emotion has obviously touched a chord with so many. I kept thinking of you after watching your first video and then this came up a few hours later. You speak so well considering all that you've been through and to be able to collect yourself and carry on in front of the camera is so admirable and brave. Thank you sharing your heartbreaking story and your testimony you have given someone out there maybe the courage they needed to go on today. I hope you yourself continue to heal and find peace. God Bless you and mind yourself ❤

[@chasethecat3839]

Margarethutton5285 my name is Barbara Hutton. I didn't catch your name at first when I went to respond to say - I Soo relate to your thoughts/comment and now, relate to your name

[@markvincent8148]

I too saw it pop up on my you tube feed and felt as I listened the need to ask for Jesus to be with you and then I see 1 day ago you have a faith. You are an incredibly brave woman and like a pebble being dropped into a pond, the ripple effect of what you have bravely shared has and is helping so many people. I pray God's comfort and his love surround you so close.

[@KatieDidsThirstForThrifting]

My faith has saved me my whole life from being crushed. Faith over Fear!

[@shannacarlan1674]

Amen

[@carriesmith-rodriguez4817]

AMEN !!

[@tonyaburroughs3349]

There is a young Christian woman named Lily from America living in Ko Samui Thailand who is a KZbinr & attends a wonderful Christian church there. Possibly you could look her up & reach out to her. Get involved in a local Christian community there in Thailand & figure out a way to stay a while longer. You are so beautiful & I am praying for you. I can not imagine the pain.

[@loveoracle8797]

Yes lilly is going through grief ATM concerning her mum. Her mother is struggling with brain cancer ATM. She would be great for you to reach out to once she's over this.

[@shelleireland4080]

Yes, I totally agree that God has moved you to Thailand for this reason also. You both should meet. I will pray for you. God bless you sister-in-Christ! You will be with your Oria Rose soon. She is still a child in Heaven. Father will reward you with so much soon. Our rapture is just ahead. Our strength comes from our Lord! It is His power and might truly. Your faith pleases Him so very much Rachael. ❤

[@tlhop8374]

Yes, I was just thinking of Lilly too, whom I’ve followed for several years. She’s a wonderful, godly woman. Sadly, her mother Susan (Gigi) just passed from the glioblastoma a few days ago. Rachael, her channel is Lilly’s Life.

[@crystallongar529]

Sweet girl - you don’t owe anyone an explanation!!! You are doing your absolute best to survive an unimaginable situation. Please ignore the social media trolls. I’m proud of you for this journey you are taking towards healing. Praying for your continued wellbeing and peace of mind. 💕

[@WildWildWestTaurus1]

Amen ❤

[@melissamccool8953]

This is the way I feel too for Rachel. My heart definitely goes out to her.

[@kimcarlile877]

Rachel, I pray that you find a home church where you are at for fellowship and support. I pray that the Lord will bring a Godly friend to love and support you.

[@daybreakdawn228]

You have such a beautiful soul. Please turn a deaf ear to the people who are so cruel to question you and what you do for yourself. I can't imagine going through what you have been through. God would be the only one to help me through it. Love and prayers❤stay strong❤

[@christamarie9981]

Amen!!! Praise God for bringing you through this travesty, for saving your soul, and for helping you to do some things that are helping you feel good in the midst of the unimaginable pain you face on a daily basis. Keeping you in my prayers, sweet lady!!!!!

[@n.b7780]

I went to get my nails done the day after my mother died because she loved to see me look my best , she was my best friend and I took care of her while she slowly suffered and died from cancer all over her body. I still cleaned up and looked my best for my mommy’s funeral even though I was dying inside . Anyone who even commented that must be ugly inside and out so they reflected it on you … it’s sad. I am so glad that KZbin put your video in my feed today . You are beautiful and strong. Don’t give up please 🙏🏼 ❤God will never leave you alone sweet girl

[@cindykeithley433]

I'm amazed this beautiful girls soul is so pure with all her trauma she is unselfishly concerned about others n how this tragic loss is affecting them like the policewomen guarding little orias body that night this young women is a very special soul n I think she has alot to offer n teach this world of lost n troubled souls god bless this angelic lady

[@christybrown6122]

Wow! Jesus is going to use your testimony worldwide sweet lady to reach the crushed in Spirit. I myself have suffered immeasurable loss of my daughter's life. 4 years later he blessed with another and she will turn 23 in 3 days. I pray God restore everything Satan has stolen from you. You are a mighty warrior and you have touched my soul. God Bless.

[@jeannetaylor7062]

AMEN! Rachel Jesus is your anchor, your hope,your refuge!! I'll be praying for you dear sister in Christ!!

[@AlexejSvirid]

Here is Christ's question, Mathew 15: 3: "But he answered and said unto them, Why do ye also transgress the commandment of God by your tradition?" Malachi 2: 1-4: "And now, O ye priests, this commandment is for you. If ye will not hear, and if ye will not lay it to heart, to give glory unto my name, saith Jehovah of hosts, then will I send the curse upon you, and I will curse your blessings; yea, I have cursed them already, because ye do not lay it to heart. Behold, I will rebuke your seed, and will spread dung upon your faces, even the dung of your feasts; and ye shall be taken away with it. And ye shall know that I have sent this commandment unto you, that my covenant may be with Levi, saith Jehovah of hosts." (ASV) A women say "the Husband has no name". Another ones say "the Husband has many names". Some of women "love the Husband in all his manifestations" like: neighbour, taxi driver, coworker, and so forth. Some women in a Husband-fearing way call him "H-D"... But, all of those prostitutes say "the Husband is the only". Their prostitution has created another women saying "there is no Husband at all". Then they even talk about "trinity of the Husband" and they are not against "the Son taking the Husband's place". In the same way religious prostitutes try to hide their disgusting fornication with different gods. Furthermore, a correct pronunciation of the Name is unknown now. This is the “loyalty” of traitors! Here is the God's word spoken through Moses, Deuteronomy 11: 16-17: "Take heed to yourselves, that your heart be not deceived, and ye turn aside, and serve other gods, and worship them; And then the LORD's wrath be kindled against you, and he shut up the heaven, that there be no rain, and that the land yield not her fruit; and lest ye perish quickly from off the good land which the LORD giveth you." So, the God says there are other gods, but blind leaders of blind lead people into trap. "Jesus" means "Jehovah is salvation". This is the name of Christ real christians are hated for. "HalleluJah" means "Praze Jah" (Jehovah). Psalm 83: 18: "That men may know that thou, whose name alone is JEHOVAH, art the most high over all the earth." The problem is Devil runs the world. He is lier and murderer. This is the reason why liers feel so good while righteous people are persecuted. That's why we've got the Gospel about the God's kingdom. Jehovah would put everything in order. He has anointed the king, Jesus Christ. The dead will be resurected and we'll meet our beloved ones again! :-)

[@meemawdiana5102]

AMEN!

[@carriesmith-rodriguez4817]

The absolute TRUTH !! AMEN !!

[@joanedwards9380]

My Dad was a bad man,, that is most of my memory of him. He became ill ,then Jesus saved him one week before he died. We had one good week, I was 15. I am now 60 yrs old. And it has taken me over 50 years to forgive him for all he did,but about 10 yrs ago Jesus saved me and then I was able to truly forgive him and it set me free.

[@dianabenoit6772]

❤

[@LatifaKhrrazi]

أي يسوع 😮😮

[@sally-victoriaallen8804]

Hi I watched your original video. I have no words. So so sorry for your loss. Personally, I don't know you, obviously, but I admire you. I can't imagine what you went through that night or infact are still going through on a daily. I actually think it's admirable that you bother with yourself. Leave this lady alone. Smart nails, a touch of make up, what's the bother?? Take care Sally. England. X

[@cherylnelson3554]

Who cares what you wear. If they do they are petty. They are bullies. Your video was so heart moving. I am so sorry. ❤

[@CathyPetrillo-h8b]

@@cherylnelson3554 amen to that

[@stephaniep2706]

I watched the video about your family tragedy last night and I was crushed. Your feelings were so real and raw…it took so much courage to show yourself like that. I hope you feel the love from all over the world and know that we hear you. I wish you the very best. 🙏

[@FaytheInGod]

You dont owe those idiots an explanation. I thought you were beautiful and more put together than I would have been! You have a truly beautiful soul!

[@joyloney6899]

I came across your clip in losing your daughter and couldn’t stop watching and was weeping for someone I don’t even know. Don’t apologize to unkind people. For those who have felt your pain, you bring a message of hope. I cannot imagine life without Jesus.

[@rafaelcolon5109]

As a father of three children, I can’t imagine the pain you are going through. However, as you mentioned in your video, Jesus is the only one who will help you get through this. He can turn ashes into beauty. Praying for you

[@dreamor20]

Im a therapist, and many of the people I see come into my office dressed very nicely and that does nottake away the fact that they are suffering. Talking through yourtraumaa can be very healing. You have incredible strength. Thank you for sharing your story and journey.

[@willowluna5618]

Screw the critics! Pettiness abounds on social media. Why is it a crime to want to make yourself look and feel good despite your deep loss?!? Just saw your video about your daughter and I was filled with such profound sadness for you. I subscribed immediately because I want to follow your journey as you live, grieve, heal and everything in-between. It won't be a linear path to healing and the hole in your heart will always be there. However, that hole represents your profound loss as well as a space to receive love, blessings and abundance. Keep being you with your pretty face, lashes and manicure.❤

[@susannexox]

❤

[@candicemorrison304]

Agreed!

[@sparklegirl7544]

What BEAUTIFUL words for a BEAUTIFUL human being!!

[@alycran]

Agreed, why would people care that she has her lashes and nails done?! Makes no sense

[@leisahammonds4479]

I had a good father. But crappy relationships with men so i guess it can work either way.

[@Elemenohpea440]

How could anyone criticize your appearance?!?! Honestly, one of the best things a person in grief can do is self care. Exercise, good sleep (not always possible) hygiene, good food and doing hair and makeup. It’s a commitment you make to yourself. You are so loved. God loves you so much as do all of the Christian’s watching this video. I’m going to pray for you!

[@JustaMom-o6f]

Oh my Dear Rachel Rose, Jesus loves you and you are my sister in Christ even though we will never meet on this earth. I am a 55 year old woman in the U.S. who will be praying for you and praying for God's healing love to be all over you and for you to feel Jesus' presence in a very real way. Thank you for encouraging my faith as you heal. Your sweet Oria is with Jesus and you will see her again when you meet Jesus.

[@carriesmith-rodriguez4817]

AMEN !!

[@PBJ22525]

Beautiful lady, I don’t care if you spend $1,000 a day of spa treatments, and no one should. You’re beautiful inside and out! I heard the most beautiful eulogy ever spoken, and it was out of your mouth! 💙

[@RachaelRoseLeader]

😭❤️ thank you. I pray God answers your prayers

[@cjcurrell1416]

I'm one of those that the algorithm randomly threw your video yesterday, and I'm not going to lie, I was crying with you. Your grief was so palpable. Thank you for sharing her story so raw, and sharing Jesus with the world. You'll see your little Oria again.

[@norlavine]

Same here. You spoke my very words♥

[@tinatimthompson3115]

Me too❤ im so proud she ran to God indtead of away from Him... so many ppl do! Shes gonna make it... Blessings ❤

[@lisamarie5223]

@@norlavinemine too

[@valeriehayward5947]

Isn’t there a church on the Island anywhere? X❤

[@carriesmith-rodriguez4817]

AMEN !!

[@sabrenas7895]

I can’t imagine how anyone could have watched that video and pay any attention to how you looked! I’m praying for you for your healing and a peaceful future ❤️

[@carriesmith-rodriguez4817]

AMEN !!

[@sabinel3376]

Dear Rachel, I am so happy to hear that you find God and Jesus. Its true without Jesus our lifes are nothing, he is the rock we can stand on in the hard yes very hard times of Life.❤

[@carriesmith-rodriguez4817]

AMEN !!

[@kaoshi_kutie]

Amen ❤

[@cmaried87]

Amen! My heart was so filled with joy that she received Jesus. He will carry her through this incredibly hard journey ✝️❤️

[@beabrennan]

Please don’t let unsympathetic people change or cease your grief. I’m so very sorry for your loss and prayer for you for your healing.

[@nicolcacola]

Non-Christians tend to misunderstand that being a Christian means we try to side step lifes problems. We all share common grace yet we all share lifes difficulties. The difference is WHO we turn to when we have lifes problems. For us, its Jesus Christ. ❤

[@vlastabarac]

For us, the others are good people good friends and love❤

[@nicolcacola]

@vlastabarac Good people, good friends and love fall under "common grace", as both Christians and non-christians share such blessings. On the other side, not everyone, Christian or not, has good people or love in their life. Regardless of religion, everyone deserves a life with love ❤️

[@vlastabarac]

@@nicolcacola that is it🥰

[@laurelwilson8076]

AMEN !!!

[@nothanks1239]

I'm an atheist and I fully know that you guys turn to God in your moments of difficulty. In no way, shape or form, would I ever tell you guys to do otherwise. I have always respected peoples religions, regardless of what I believe in. All that matters to me is that everyone finds strength, happiness and love in their life. Keep doing what is right for you x

[@crystalwinn7123]

“…this time I have JESUS and I can’t explain to you enough how POWERFUL that is.” Amen! Thank you for sharing with others who are hurting that there is no way to have peace that passes understanding while walking through this world other than by walking with Jesus. Praying for you. ❤

[@carriesmith-rodriguez4817]

AMEN !!

[@TarotTea]

You’re absolutely allowed to do what you need to get by the next day, heck the next second of your day. There’s no real proper or not proper way to grieve the loss of a young child, any child, let alone compiled with the circumstances of it. No woman should have to be as strong as you have. I wish I could just hug you.

[@lindamaldonado6807]

I agree. I could just pull you into a hug and hold you close to my heart.❤️ 😊

[@dimitrarizos5741]

I came across your channel randomly and I cried with you. Please know that God has a plan for your life. Just trust him with all your heart. May he straighten you every day❤ and give you peace. 🕊️ God bless you

[@annechen7282]

Come, Lord Jesus, Come!! In the meantime, Be with this sister, your precious daughter, till you come to rescue your bride out of this dark world. Jesus is coming Soon! 🙏💕

[@carriesmith-rodriguez4817]

AMEN !!

[@bethmiller5347]

I found your channel today. I'm a new subscriber. My heart aches for the loss of your daughter. May God hold you in His arms and continue to help you heal. As far as the negative comments, ignore them. You do for yourself what you need to do. You are a beautiful person and haters will always be out there. God bless you sweet girl.

[@RachaelRoseLeader]

Thank you and welcome ❤️

[@bethmiller5347]

@@RachaelRoseLeader 🥰

[@darlenenisley-vv6jr]

I lost my sweet daughter from a drug overdose. My world forever faded . My love and prayers are with you.

[@RachaelRoseLeader]

I am so sorry to learn this. I hope you are supported and coping ❤

[@donstewart396]

I'm so sorry to hear that you lost your daughter.

[@chantelleedwards3889]

I am praying for you Racheal ❤️🕊️

[@leisahammonds4479]

@@darlenenisley-vv6jr my prayers go out to all of those who have lost children. We should not have to bury our babies. My brother is at the hospital now with his grown son who was involved in a boating accident last night. They hit a stump in the water and the motor flew up and hit my nephew in the back of the head. Causing several skull fractures and a brain bleed. He will be having surgery to stop the bleed please pray for my nephew. His name is Christopher. God bless you all.

[@julieoconnor2011]

I am so sorry for your loss 😔

[@siobhanredhead6550]

Rachael it’s not a crime to be a good looking woman! I watched your video, I saw RAW emotional and physical pain which was both frightening and real! What you went through, unimaginable pain, I can’t even believe you made it! But you did! Keep going for Oria.

[@albertcuturic8666]

I can't imagine of the pain of losing a child!

[@tommyshears6529]

You got this thing called life my friend!!

[@sandrastrzelczyk8647]

I was really devastated after my boyfriend of 3years dumped me suddenly one day. I cried a lot. Few months later i couldnt sleep and was crying again. I said loud:" please God, i dont want to cry anymore". After i said this i looked in the window and saw flash of light- just like lightnight but there was no storm. No car was passing or parking. I was very surprised. It worked though- it distracted me from crying and i thought it was response from God, which made me feel very peaceful and i was able to go to sleep.

[@carriesmith-rodriguez4817]

AMEN !!

[@colleenbogart8776]

Sweetheart don't apologize to anyone don't read any of those comments stay positive you are a strong wonderful godly woman who's going through a tragic loss you are a child of God remember that

[@dianabenoit6772]

I had to stop watching your video because my heart goes there too deeply. I'm so sorry for your pain. I lost my sister and almost died from the pain. But God rescued me from death and broke the pneumonia. There's some ugly people on social media. Good for you for praying over them. Your baby is with Jesus, she's safe and in complete love and peace of Jesus. You're a beautiful soul. Give it all to Jesus. I'm praying for you. ❤

[@THXx1138]

Thank you for your words. I am just heart broken for this woman. It's too much.

[@Anniebananies]

Bless your dear heart. God has a very special purpose for you ❤

[@michelleh.188]

I’m so sorry people judged you! I’m so grateful that you have Jesus. You are a bright light for Gods kingdom. You will have Oria for eternity in heaven 🙏🏼🔥💕🕊💕🕊🌈🌈

[@tmp1111]

Rachel whoever made comments about your self care please ignore the hateful trolls. Self care is a healthy and positive coping mechanism especially when you have been through the tremendous pain you have. God has you, we are here for you ❤

[@boglarkakato295]

Many people don’t know how much easier is to let yourself down when you are beyond heartbroken. How difficult is to go to a hairdresser when all you think about is your daughters, when you get your nails done, when you do anything good for yourself…to even dress up some days…most of the days to be fair. So anyone judging that’s one strong woman who lost part of herself that can never be recovered…that’s one STRONG WOMAN who’s able to carry something many people couldn’t.

[@mrsjuanitafinley]

i just want to share that when i suffered from deep depression over the loss of my baby , i turned to JESUS as well. And i learned that just as your spirit grows here on earth , the spirit continues to grow and thrive in heaven. It has been comforting to me to know my daughter is waking daily to the sound of Angels singing. She has grown into a young lady now because its been 17 years since we've lost her. I believe she knows me and her Daddy and will be there when GOD allows. Keep your eyes on GOD , show him your face. He sees you. ❤

[@dianelaliberte1878]

😢🙏

[@heyjude5513]

God bless you and I send true love your way for continued healing. I’m so sorry ❤

[@tink040370]

I’m so very sorry for you and your husband’s loss. Find comfort in knowing you will be together again some day. ❤🙏

[@visual_honey]

I believe your video reached millions for the Glory of God! Thank you Jesus ❤ May God bless you and give you strength, may He give you Godly discernment. I hope that you will walk the narrow path, for Jesus is the only way, truth and life!

[@Jojoyou628]

You beautiful soul! I am sure your daughter is sooo so proud of you and your progress throughout this immense pain… 🤍

[@littleBit469]

God had always been with you. There isn’t a person on Earth who has not gone through some kind of pain, addiction, abuse, or loss. I want to say Thank You for your total honesty!!! You may not know it but there are people that you are helping right now at this very moment!!! God Loves You and I Love You and know that God is Always Around You! ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@dana5757]

Господи, Помилуй! Аминь.

[@prudencelay6067]

Praise Jesus that you found Him in the midst of your crushing grief. I pray you stay strong. This horror you are experiencing was definitely not God’s plan BUT you are right that God will bring you through this and you will do amazing work for Him and honor Oria’s memory in the process. Sending you a huge hug and many prayers.

[@rachaelgriffiths5747]

Loads of love to you❤❤❤

[@mabelmiller9740]

I'm so glad you found Jesus!!❤ He loves you beyond comprehension and he will carry you through! 🙏❤️

[@teresaintexas]

I randomly came across your video about losing your daughter & her father. I decided to watch & my heart was instantly hurting for you. I’m so very sorry. It makes me happy that you now know Jesus & have a personal relationship with Him. He will never leave you, nor forsake you. He will comfort you in your time of grieving. I pray that He will restore to you joy & peace, as you continue to walk with Him. 🙏🏽 🫶🏼 Take care of yourself. God bless.

[@MartitaDahesh]

Our souls cry out to God maker of heaven and earth. 🙏 You will see your beloved sweet daughter again. 💖May God bless and protect you always my sister in Christ. ❤

[@mickidraven5117]

Rachael please feel me. I lost my sweet child at the hands of another 14 years ago. I promise promise you it will get easier. I know your pain my friend and as you say IT’S CRUSHING. I live in the US on the eastern coast. Come here!! I don’t have a lot, 3 Teens I’ve adopted though WHO are AMAZING but you can start over. I as well had a church “ Pentecostal “ that I miss so much but I had to leave the small mountain town I lived in. I am STRAIGHT so know that but I feel you need a friend who feels you. Just come for a brake and spend time healing. Reach out to me Sister we’ll bust this thing called life after loss together.

[@revampmyself6669]

That's genuinely kind of you.

[@deborahdownie8039]

You are doing the best that you can do right now. You are so brave. Please do whatever you need to do to feel better. Please, please don’t dwell on those negative comments. I’m so incredibly sorry for your loss. I pray that God gives you the strength to fulfill the life that he wants for you. You absolutely deserve it. Much love sweetheart. 😢❤

[@cdavis2204]

I can relate. Within a year's time I lost my mom suddenly, 4 months later my 35 year old son was murdered, then my dad went into Hospice, I lost a best friend right before my dad finally went to Heaven. I also can not wear mascara because the tears come all the time without warning. I call it a tsunami of grief. In our brokenness, it's difficult to take care of ourselves. I, too, get my nails done on a regular basis. It's almost like I'm trying to do my best to hold the broken pieces together through small acts of self care. The only way I get through every day is that Jesus and my son carry me. I could not carry on otherwise. God bless you and carry you as we await the everlasting reunion with our children.

[@jenjacuzzi]

Prayers for you too, dear.

[@carriesmith-rodriguez4817]

AMEN !!

[@trishahusome9618]

"What are you judging about yourself?" Precisely.

[@styphlynne8253]

Cause those who dismiss their own strengths and ability to "god saved me" tend to have too many expectations and judgments of themselves. But then again its UK

[@scottie1009]

Absolutely!!

[@pattituron8510]

Hi, Rachael, my heart is so moved by your grief journey because I lost my child 12 years ago and I know all too well what you are going through. One day at a time...with God holding you close. I pray you find the Lord to comfort you as he has comforted me since day one. Know that your precious daughter is with Jesus, just as I know my son is. There is no greater sadness than trying to cope without our child and I could not get through this without my relationship with God. There are no words that can convey the overwhelming sorrow some days. You mentioned crying a lot and for me, crying has been a true gift from God to help me cope. I am so thankful that God is making himself so real to you, sweet lady. Nothing is better than having a relationship with Jesus. I have been a Christian for almost 60 years and he has always been the one I can count on. We don't understand why this happened to us but God understands and that is what matters most. Your faith is precious and God is holding you closer than you can imagine. Thank you for sharing your story and sharing how through your grief journey you have found Jesus Christ. My son was a grown man when he went to heaven but he was my baby and my faith in God has given me the strength to go on. Sending you prayers and hugs.

[@susieque933]

Precious girl you are braver than I could ever dream to be. I can’t imagine your pain. As you already know, our Savior meets us where we are and while he’s is everything we can possibly need I’ll will be praying that He provides you with the community that you long for. I will pray everyday for your healing.

[@TeresaDobney-ud7xu]

I so hope you see this comment! I remember hearing of Oria’s passing and then I came across your channel. You are beautiful you are amazing and ANYONE who thinks otherwise is indeed messed up! Remember that many of us think you are an incredible Mother and indeed person! You sharing your story so selflessly is incredible in its own right! I wish for you to continue to heal everyday. Remember so many of us are here listening, empathising and sending so much love and warmth xxxx

[@bornwithbsguards]

You are so right about the fathers role. My father was very damaged up until he took his life in 2020. I have struggled my whole life to be in a relationship. But i have failed. So I stay single now. I had one son who also broke my heart massively. God bless you. Jesus is my guiding light and Savior and hes the reason that im still here. My first love was murdered and that's when i really came to know Jesus. 💔❤️🙌🙏🏼 Your testimony is powerful. Thank you 😘

[@svenjabussler7366]

Finding Lord Jesus is the most precious gift in life. Nothing makes sense without Him. Rachel just lay down in the father's love! Your daughter is at perfect peace with no pain snd she is waiting for her mom. She will definately be with you in eternal life. Stay on the holy lifestyle and keep on reading Gods word, no matter what lie may cross ur path. Devil was and is and will always be a liar. Jesus Christ is all we need to be saved from eternal death! Stay blessed and highly favoured! May God continue to comfort your broken heart. He is ur father and He loves you like no1 could ever love you!!! Much love and greetings from germany ❤

[@nikkicapricornleahy4058]

Rachael, I have never been so moved and felt a pain so deeply by a stranger . You do not owe anyone an explanation. I hope you treat yourself to every kind act you can possibly do for yourself. God has his hand on you, he will use you as a tool for good. Gods love and powerful healing will lead you through this darkness step by step day by day. Keep leaning into his love and keep the faith darling girl. I wish gods arms around you when you feel lonely and heavy. I’ll be praying for you.

[@sarahparker8412]

My sweet Sister-in-Christ, I am so incredibly happy to hear you found God. I suffered a devastating loss of my twin brother 5 days before our 36th birthday. It destroyed me. When I first found out my twin had melanoma, I had pain in different places in my body for 2 straight months. It was awful. I could not see a path forward but I had to for the sake of my 2 young children & my husband. I worked so HARD & for so long to try to heal. Truthfully you never heal. However God helped me with the pain. Without God, I would not have been able to return to living life & not barely surviving. Stay close to God & allow Him to carry your pain. ❤. Many blessings. I will add you to my prayers.

[@mbiss1991]

Your faith is strong and God will always be with you, Rachel. He does have a plan for you and out of great suffering will come a purpose that you don’t even realize yet. I will pray for you and the soul of your daughter and your family. God bless you. 🙏

[@carriesmith-rodriguez4817]

The absolute TRUTH !! AMEN !!

[@MS-tf9ly]

Oh beautiful mama. Thank you for your vulnerability. May the God of all comfort bring you comfort. He is an everpresent help in times of trouble. He is near to the broken-hearted. 💚

[@MsGarcia79]

I go to a pentecostal church...and I mentioned your story to my mom and so you've got people praying for you Rachel. You keep holding onto Jesus...everyday. He has you in all this. I pray he'll lead you to a good church family while on your journey. His ways are so much better than our own. As Paul writes keep up the good fight....much love and prayers to you. You're an overcomer!!

[@TamaraT375]

dear Rachel! ❤ I was on a cancer journey in the past years.... I learnt that crying makes room for more strength! I truly believe that... tears cleanse the heart. ❤ don't feel too pressured to address the nay sayers... we gotta use our energy for the ones that uplift and carry us... the poem, One Set of Footprints is so encouraging to me.... I know the times I just cudnt go on was when my best friend, Jesus carried me! I'm so grateful to know Him.... that you have that friend too! ❤ I'm so inspired by your videos.... I'm gonna pray for you often! Sending love and many hugs.... ❣️ your friend in Canada 🇨🇦

[@fancyfeast4610]

What a lovely person you are ❤

[@jennselsing8543]

I came across your video today and watched the entire story. I watched you cry, trying to retell the worst day of your life. I thought about losing one of my children the entire time you spoke of losing yours. I do not know if I could survive it and I do not know how you are managing. I am grateful you are! ❤ It lead me to subscribe to you and watch your other videos. The tribute video was so wonderful and heartbreaking. I want to point out that IN THAT VIDEO, you promised Oria that you would get your nails done and do girly things still and she would be there with you! 💅💇‍♀️💄💋

[@stephaniebumgarner3361]

I literally just wrote this earlier today and your video popped up in my feed this evening. Sending up prayers and so much love your way ❤❤ "True healing, comes through Jesus Christ. No therapy healed my childhood traumas, no relationship mended my heart or brought me validation, no self medicating gave me joy, no prescription took away my anxiety and depression, no wordly meditation sobered my mind, no new age spiritualism or amount of "finding myself" filled the void. Complete healing, being made whole; in mind, heart, body and soul. Jesus Christ alone did that for me, and He can and wants to do it for you too."

[@minaminata5108]

You are such amazing and kind person you deserve to be happy

[@vanessamartinez7021]

Your video found its way to me today! I was profoundly touched by your journey. I’m a new subscriber. I’m sending good vibes, love, and prayers for healing! ❤ God bless you!

[@shawnlimberg4220]

Rachael, I came across your channel late last night and watched your video in closed caption (hubby was sleeping) and I was so touched, saddened and gutted by what you have had to face. Thank GOD you found Jesus and the Holy Spirit to guide you through unimaginable pain and grief. No one has any right to stand in judgment of any of your decisions about how you take care of yourself. You are your number one priority right now. Please take care of yourself physically, mentally and spiritually. I’m praying for you my dear. God bless you and may the Holy Spirit give you peace that passes all understanding.

[@LizsGardens]

I'm 34 as well. That hit so hard. 😢 I have 5 kids and I take them for granted way too often. I can't imagine going through what you went through. I appreciate your honesty and also how you pray for those who persecute you. ❤

[@revampmyself6669]

You said it Liz, I take my 2 girls for granted way too often as well.

[@MoonInVirgo]

Same! I have five also ranging in age from 22 to 3. After listening to her tell the story of losing her daughter, I laid here and cried while holding mine.

[@LizsGardens]

@@MoonInVirgo 💔

[@lukestyles1257]

In Christ our lord and saviour Thanks

[@RachaelRoseLeader]

Wow, thank you for being very generous 🙏🏼❤️ I am so grateful

[@uncutjems]

Just subscribing and watching to support you because it sucks being so down and broken. Sending you love and healing.

[@24471lola]

You don’t have to look the way someone else thinks grief should look! People need to go and pray they never have to endure this type of pain and find out what it takes to cope. Prayers for you beautiful Sister ❤

[@wandaparsons2204]

Ive also lost a child. You do you and let others do them. You will make it . One day at a time.

[@Mamarita3333]

Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior loves you so much. He will heal your brokenness ❤ Walk with Him and don’t let go of him for one single second.

[@faithinhisbloodministry8600]

1 Corinthians 15:1-4 (KJV) Moreover, brethren, I declare unto you the gospel which I preached unto you, which also ye have received, and wherein ye stand; By which also ye are saved, if ye keep in memory what I preached unto you, unless ye have believed in vain. For I delivered unto you first of all that which I also received, how that Christ died for our sins according to the scriptures; And that he was buried, and that he rose again the third day according to the scriptures:

[@FiaTheForeigner]

Me and my best friend @shelbyhurd were deeply touched by your story. Jesus will protect you during this suffering and beyond, you are blessed by Our Father In Heaven. His love will anoint you. 🩷 Prayers for you, always. 🪻

[@RachaelRoseLeader]

🙏🏼❤️ thank you so much for your generosity

[@ClaireWillatt]

I am with you Rachel, God is with you and with me and with all of us when we let him in. I too have suffered loss and although not the same as you I have been in the depths of despair . And God was there. Sending love x

[@ClaireWillatt]

And you look beautiful and those that judge and make comments, they need to find God to heal them.

[@DanaQuinn88]

For some reason, your video of your story kept coming up in my feed and I wouldn't watch it for days. I finally did and 30 minutes after I watched , you posted this. I'm going through something now and I just wanted to thank you. ❤ I'm going to keep on

[@naomiaki2962]

Rachael Rose I am praying for you. It was extremely difficult to wrap my heart around the loss of your precious baby girl. Your story and honest transparency broke me. Your continued relationship with Abba Father will replace the lack that you have experienced because His love is like none other. While being away from church cling to the Lord. When you are broken and worship He will show up in His manifest presence and embrace you with His LOVE!!! May God bless and keep you, as you take each step. ♥️❤️

[@breezeh1127]

Your video about your daughter randomly came in my feed and made me sob from my toes. We lost our Alice 8 months ago at the hands of a caregiver. She had just turned 2. I cried with you for your Oria and for our Alice. I needed to hear your words and I'm thankful for your bravery. ❤please delete and block the rude ppl. Just automatically delete and block and never look back. You do not need any negativity in your world. Don't give them the stage they obviously crave. Much love to you, beautiful strong mama. 💜

[@THXx1138]

My heart goes out to you

[@jamezstewart]

I hope god helps you Rachel through this very hard time you are a strong person please take care rachel you are a lovely human being ❤❤

[@dianagarza3009]

Rachel God is the answer through this pain❤

[@tammyoverton2518]

ONLY by God could your heart find peace. I, too, am Pentecostal. I truly do not know how people make it through without God in their lives. He will continue to heal you. I will continue to pray for your heart. 💕

[@carriesmith-rodriguez4817]

AMEN !!

[@AnalyzeThisVideo]

Have you ever wondered what it takes to find light in the darkest of times? Meet Rachel Rose, whose journey from the depths of despair to finding solace in faith is a compelling tale of transformation and resilience. Rachel's life took a tragic turn when she lost her daughter Ora and her ex-partner Ashley in a horrifying car accident orchestrated by Ashley himself. Yet, amidst this unimaginable pain, Rachel found an unexpected savior: God. Rachel's relationship with faith is a revelation, especially considering her past skepticism. She used to turn her nose up at believers, but now, she's a walking testament to the power of divine intervention. Imagine being so engulfed in grief that even mascara isn't an option because the tears are just too frequent. That's Rachel's reality. Instead, she opts for lash extensions, because, as she humorously points out, "I cry so much that I can't wear mascara." But let's delve deeper. Rachel's newfound faith didn't just help her cope; it transformed her entire outlook on life. Before God entered the picture, Rachel's coping mechanisms were far from healthy-addiction, depression, and anxiety were her companions. This time, however, her lifeline was God and Jesus. Her testimony is a shining example of how faith can pull someone from the brink of utter despair. Rachel speaks candidly about her struggles, making her journey all the more relatable. Her faith didn't magically erase her pain, but it gave her the strength to navigate it. She moved to Thailand, seeking the healing power of sunlight and an affordable cost of living-because let's face it, the UK's weather is as gloomy as a Monday morning without coffee. Her journey is a vivid illustration of how faith can provide not just spiritual, but also practical guidance. Moving to a sunny island in Thailand isn't just a geographical change; it's a physical manifestation of her desire for healing and a fresh start. Rachel's story encourages us to think critically about how faith and environment can intersect to foster mental and emotional well-being. Throughout her narrative, Rachel's faith remains the cornerstone. She talks about how God’s plan is not always clear but emphasizes the importance of trust. Even when faced with crushing grief, Rachel found solace in prayer, worship music, and reading the Bible. She reflects on how she misses her church community and the strength she drew from collective worship, highlighting the role of community in sustaining faith. Rachel's story is not just about personal tragedy; it's a testament to the transformative power of faith. It's about how turning to God in the darkest times can illuminate a path forward, even when it seems impossible. Her journey invites us to consider how faith can be a source of strength and hope, offering a lifeline when we need it most. In wrapping up, let's take a moment to reflect on Rachel's incredible journey of faith and transformation. Her story is a powerful reminder that even in our darkest hours, there is potential for light and healing through faith. So, whether you're grappling with your own challenges or simply seeking inspiration, Rachel's story encourages us to embrace faith as a source of resilience and hope. Continue to explore, learn, and engage in meaningful dialogue about how faith can guide us through life's most challenging moments.

[@barbarajackson7488]

❤❤❤❤❤💐💐💐💐💐

[@peggydietz6148]

Amen ! 🙏 read Psalm 88. Know that she is with other little ones waiting for you to come and embrace her . Use your pain to help others , not bitter but better for His Glory . We must be His hands and feet to so many shattered lives. I wish I could hug you and cry with you as I too am in a very shattered season of my life and ready to step into His will for this very need for others .❤🙏🌼🦋🌸💕🇨🇦

[@rebeccawaldner3700]

Rachael I’m so glad to hear your testimony. Jesus be with you ❤️❤️❤️🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

[@little.heathen]

That video is why I'm here. I'm a mom and I am ugly crying 😭 parents can feel your pain and I can imagine that it's earth shattering. I just wanted to tell you how much i admire you for still being here, especially because I think you are stronger than I am. I don't know if I could still be here, earthside, if my kids were gone. That's exactly what Oria would want though - for you to thrive and survive even if she isn't physically here with you. I truly believe there is nothing more powerful in this world than the love between a mother and her child. Sending you love and healing from Maine ❤

[@ozgal6929]

I discovered your video last night and it was the saddest thing I've ever watched in my entire life. Rachael , my heart was breaking for yóu and I was howling and ugly crying . I admire your courage and strength through these excruciating tímes. Much love from Australia ❤

[@TammyBrothers-oz4eb]

I watched yesterday’s video. I was profoundly moved by your emotions. I felt the sincere pain and love for your daughter. I marveled at the compassion you showed for your ex-Ashley. I’ve had friends who have lost children, I personally have only suffered miscarriages. Although, a loss, no memories with my babies. Listening to you allowed me to feel the profound sadness and grief that they are experiencing also. It has given me a whole new level of compassion for parents who lose their children. Thank you for posting your video. I can not imagine how hard that was to record and edit. Whatever you do, DO NOT listen to the rude judgy. Remember no weapon formed against us shall prosper in the name of Jesus!!

[@tracyfalconer478]

No weapon shall prosper that is correct. But words can hurt. Evil is out there and if we let go to the hand of Him that created us, we too will be the next victim to a very very dangerous world with a very real ruler. So, absolutely, 100% we need Jesus so that we can live victorious lives. Repent, confess, and live. Jesus will do all the rest. Amen! Tracy BC, Canada.

[@beverleysteele1106]

Babe dont even read the negative comments dont give it energy,i found from my trauma to try to take any speck of joy anywhere i can get it ,ie nails done etc what ever you want xxx praying for peace and love for you

[@lindajohannacruz1405]

I totally understand you and I really appreciate your testimony of life. Don't stop looking for God's presence, you just talk to Him all the time, at good and bad moments that He always listens to you. He always shows you the way, don't worry that Jesus is the safe way, trust me ❤

[@angelahoyle9136]

Yes ma'am. God is near to the brokenhearted! He saves those who are crushed in Spirit! He saved me and my children from domestic violence. Your going to be ok. Your so right that God didn't cause Ashley to do what he did but God will use it for good... THRU YOU!!! I am so glad He has reached into your spirit and is helping you heal. Stick with Him and you can't lose!! We're all rooting for you!!!! Your in my prayers!! ❤🙏🙌 I was raised Pentecostal and I feel a kinship with you. God bless you.