God saved my life on the day I was going take it...my full testimony | tw self harm

[@jocelynnbrooks5789]

Thank you Alana, maybe that’s the piece I’m missing. I keep having these cycles of highs and extreme lows to where I have those suicidal thoughts. I have no idea where to start developing my relationship with God, but I will get a bible first and try to acknowledge the meaning behind his word to apply it to my life. What type of bible should I start with?

[@imbrigita]

I recommend NIV version. ❤

[@Sara-sz5cd]

KJV

[@morganpriscilla6032]

Hi Jocelynn, I would strongly encourage you to try that and to pray (basically talking to God, sharing your thoughts and struggles). Reading the Bible is a good start to get to know Jesus, I'd say the ESV translation is a good one, but there is also the Bible App where you have all translations, some are easier to understand so it's good to compare with that one. I pray that the Lord may bless you and keep you in this journey!

[@morganpriscilla6032]

And of course, Jesus loves you so much, He can't wait to get to know you personally!

[@mrscool03]

This is so beautiful! Talk with God, in spirit and truth and He will reveal himself to you. A relationship is a personal experience, everyone is a different part of the body of the messiah (christ) and the church, so remember your walk may look different than others. God promises to never forsake those that seek Him, to never forsake his children, speak to him the way you speak to someone you love and trust, and he will guide your way. Always remember, if people can see the good in you, if someone could love you here when that person isn't perfect, imagine how much more God loves you and gives you grace.🤍

[@ChrisVang93]

I was a lukewarm christian my whole life and didn't know who Jesus was nor had a relationship with him. It wasn't until just recently that I started truly believing in him, started reading the bible, and started walking in the spirit and bettering myself that I felt his presence and he came to me! Glad you found Jesus, God bless 🙏 (Jeremiah 29:13) You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.

[@tetrapak4300]

What do you mean by him coming to you?

[@tetrapak4300]

@@ChrisVang93 Very interesting, thanks for writing it down

[@moodsofkiwi9285]

Love this! Similar testimony to mine and such applicable scripture. If we seek Jesus with ALL our heart, we sacrifice many priorities and worldly idols we hold for ourselves.

[@ChrisVang93]

@@tetrapak4300 **Update in regards to my last comment about how I had “two vision/dreams that were similar or the same” that I believe was an answer to one of my prayers from God (which KZbin deleted for some reason, but it’s not gonna stop me from sharing anyways). So I was reading Genesis and I read a story about an Egyptian pharaoh who had two similar dreams in one night, and he wanted to know what those dreams meant so he had Joseph, a man of God who could interpret dreams, interpret the dreams for him. In it, Joseph tells pharaoh that the reason for the “repeating of the dreams meant that the matter is confirmed by God.” I literally had two dreams/visions like pharaoh did. Also, they were both similar or the same. And, when pharaoh had his first dream, he awoke and then fell back asleep and then had the second dream after (Genesis 41:4-5). That’s exactly what happened to me also! Idk why but I remembered that small detail that night for some reason. It’s almost like God wanted me to remember it.. This was literally God speaking to me through the Bible. Now as for the repeating of the dream to Pharaoh twice, it means that the matter is confirmed by God, and God will quickly bring it about. (Genesis 41:32)

[@ChrisVang93]

@@moodsofkiwi9285 Read my update.

[@baylenealvarez3911]

I saw the "Major Depression" video and decided to see what more she has posted. I am also in the journey to find meaning and happiness. This inspired me so much. Thank you, Alana!

[@awildkiru]

I’m sooo happy for you! So many revivals had been happening from the end of last year and beginning of 2023. You cannot tell me that’s not God, baby. I clicked so fast when I saw this video popped up because I got called by God in February. And I haven’t been more happy in my life than now!

[@eva-mariaradl1143]

Dear Alana, i saw your raw and honest video about your depression and wanted to reach out and tell you how I found reason in life through Jesus. Then I decided to check your account and found this video. I am crying tears of joy. THIS IS IT!! The Saviour found you! God bless you richly. What a beautiful testimony. Thank you so much for sharing with us!

[@JCH17]

I’d love for you to do a video on the research you did beforehand and how you got to this moment you’re at now! Thanks for this video ❤

[@x.Kristen.x]

So would I! I have so many questions that I haven’t had answers to yet.

[@Mariahjezel]

@@x.Kristen.x so sweet to see a community who isn’t rejecting Christ. If you do have any questions come to Jesus Christ with your heart open and ask. i did that and for the first time ever i experienced a hope and a Joy like none other❤️

[@proartiz]

⁠@@x.Kristen.x did you ever get answers to any of your questions? I’d love to help out if you’re still working through stuff. Highly recommend a book called I Don’t Have Enough Faith To Be An Atheist. It covers basically every evidence/argument for God, from truth and logic, to science and history/archaeology, and is actually really easy to read

[@sonneyputh6503]

I clicked the like button right away. Because I love testimony of how Jesus makes life worth living and dying for…. I love you all.

[@jamestheredd]

I just came here from your video about Major Depressive Disorder and I prayed for you as I was watching it. I prayed that you would follow Christ and that he would help you in your struggles. Imagine my surprise when I found this video haha. This warms my heart and I'm so blessed to see you following Christ and studying God's word. By the way, what a beautiful blue ESV! Anyway, thank you for sharing this! God bless! 💛

[@brigittesnelson2354]

I have a girl who went to school with me and she was one of the only Christians in my school, and I have to say she is always kind to everyone and she always does really well for herself.

[@rachhhnicole]

I was so looking forward to this video Alana. I can’t tell you how beautiful it is to hear your journey. I never knew you struggled so deeply and I am so glad that the Lord touched your heart in your darkest moments. Knowing Him truly transforms everything. Walking with Him changes how you view & interpret the world. He sees us all as valuable and worthy of unconditional love. No matter our circumstances we can find hope & joy in the Lord. I am so so happy for you. The peace & freedom is so evident in you & I pray that you continue to learn & grow as you pursue this personal relationship with Christ. It’s an indescribable feeling to know Him ♥️♥️ thanks for sharing

[@victoriamaya7306]

Wow I feel like I really needed to see this. I’ve been dealing with lots of anxiety and depression lately and surrendering to Jesus has been the thing that has given me peace. Thanks for this video, I am really looking forward to growing my relationship with Jesus and also seeing your journey. ❤❤

[@kimberlycarranza9307]

This is so beautiful Alana. Yes!!! Jesus is our savior and wants us to live a beautiful life. I love you!!! Thank you for sharing your testimony. ❤️

[@ivyevers8713]

Alana I was saved when I was 16 and relate so much to your words. Thank you SO MUCH for being vulnerable with us. I pray your platform would be used to spread the good news

[@ninaraj]

Hey girl, I haven't watched your videos in a minute and I'm so happy you've come home to Christ! All of heaven rejoices over even 1 repentant soul

[@larissakent4219]

Dearest Alana, words cannot express how happy I am for you! My soul rejoices knowing that you have found Christ and know the peace of God and that you are loved by him unconditionally. I remember watching your ‘Living with depression (Major Depressive Disorder)’ video back in 2021 and I felt for you so deeply. I desperately wanted to help you in some way.. so I prayed for you. I prayed that one day you might come to know Jesus Christ as your saviour and accept him into your life and that you would be filled with his peace and love. God has truly answered that prayer in the most beautiful way. Hearing your testimony I burst into tears (joyous tears) knowing that you are saved, you have peace and you will one day rejoice in heaven with all those who believe praising and worshipping Christ our saviour ❤️ My prayer now is that others who are searching for peace and purpose in their life will be encouraged by your testimony and feel compelled to do their own research into what it means to have a relationship with God. Much love and God bless xx “For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, so that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have everlasting life.” ‭‭John‬ ‭3‬:‭16‬ ‭

[@emmanielsen1753]

I am going through my own personal switch in my relationship with God and hearing your testimony after following you for years feels like I am taking the right steps in my own path. Thank you for being honest with us and speaking your truth in a world where religion feels like a taboo topic on social media ♥️♥️

[@MoniceJeslene]

LITERALLY same here... it's bone chilling the timing this is hitting, and I've been watching her videos for so long! Hearing her testimony absolutely feels like confirmation for me.

[@averymackler]

Also been following you for years! I am a believer, and I've been praying for you ever since I found your channel. Love you so much, so proud of you !! Surround yourself with lovely hearts 🤍😇

[@alysiam3559]

This brings me joy Alana! You finding the Lord and giving him your whole heart ❤️ I would pray for you when you spoke of your depression and anxiety. I love you sister in Christ! You have a beautiful soul and way of speaking I’m sure you’ll reach thousands and fulfill your purpose 🌸☺️

[@savannahraefager]

The more you share this, the more people will dislike it. But I am so inspired by you. It’s so hard to be brave enough to openly show Jesus and god in your life. I’m so proud

[@MiriLOVESmakeup1]

I am so happy she finally found the lord... I didn’t see it coming...I just prayed she would, and accepted her for who she was...I am so happy she is happy ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@peregrina5208]

I am soooo happy for you Alana!!! We love you deeply, it is my wish that everyone in your channel comes to Jesus Christ just like you did because “What good is it for someone to gain the whole world, and yet lose or forfeit their very self?”

[@BrittanyJheanelle]

AMEN SISSSS

[@anamariae]

not sure why but the sound is very low, even with headphones I can barely hear it, it's the same for all recent videos from Alana. Is anyone getting the same?

[@rebecajaelperez8228]

I’m so happy for your encounter with God, you’ve been one of my favorite influencers, and now I’m so happy and joyful that you’ve come close to God.

[@paulanoun9356]

This is absolutely beautiful! Your testimony is beautiful and I can truly see the peace in you! God is so so good!!

[@loladeopeyemi9754]

I'm so impressed by your conviction! Keep going strong girl. Your willingness to share your experience with your channel will not go unrewarded. But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. - Matthew 6:33

[@MisforMorgan]

Your transformation has been such a beautiful thing to watch! So thankful for you and your courage to share everything! ❤️

[@JuliaShalomJordan]

Thank you for sharing all you’ve been through. It is such a powerful witness. 🦋 I grew up in the church and was turned off by the hypocrisy I saw. I ran from God and became a Playboy model and then began dabbling with the Ouija board. All hell broke loose. I’m so grateful for my mother’s prayers because my life got so bad, all I could do was turn to God. That brokenness was my beginning.🤍

[@therealsubaekhyang]

whenever i'm going through tough moments this song really helps me: *i'll praise you in this storm - casting crowns*

[@darlenemckinney567]

There is a “God shaped hole” in humans that nothing else can fill. Thank you for sharing your story. It matters. ❤

[@princessxo9658]

So happy and proud of you I started crying. Been watching you for so long and it’s so beautiful to see you evolve in this way.

[@alyfink]

THANK YOU for being open about your faith. It is a difference maker 🤍 Whoever is reading this - you are strong. Keep pushing. 🙏

[@esraaomar2227]

l remember two years ago, when I watched your depression video,and it did hit me that I remember me Praying for God to save you and guide you to the right path,and Its amazing seeing my prayers get answered ,I'm so so happy for you and I hope you the best,and I'm btw a Muslim but I do believe that whet we get told by our parents or our society about religion and what we should do to be more religious has nothing to do with the real religion,and I believe that the real religion is having a truly and deeply relationship with God and listening to his own words not no one else ❤❤❤

[@Nolacarsillo]

God will take your heart and give you a new one, I know this not just because it is written, but because he has done just that with me too. I’m so happy you are walking with Jesus now! ❤

[@itskate2991]

Your journal is so cute! I love it. Thank you for speaking about God with your platform as well! We need the word spread! Im so happy to see more and more influencers being saved. Im so happy for you! You have been glowing.❤❤❤❤❤

[@txdaisy]

God saved my life too. I struggled with depression on/off for a long time which eventually got worse, combined with anxiety and disordered eating. May 2022, I decided I was done & exhausted and just didn’t want to do life anymore. I also wrote a note and I was 21 at the time. When there was nothing else to try, I felt it in my soul to give God one last chance. Since then, I’m no longer struggling with the things that used to make everyday feel hopeless & miserable. I found a kind of peace that sometimes makes no sense. Cut to today, I was baptized 2 weeks ago and feel more joyful that I ever have despite still dealing with the stressors life throws at you sometimes. I feel so happy for you & the journey that brought you to the moment of healing. God bless ❤

[@EliseEcklund]

thanks you for sharing this!❤️ Such a powerful testimony. It really encouraged me!

[@moodsofkiwi9285]

Elise!! Uke Queen!

[@juliaz9843]

this might be my favourite video of yours & it came at a time when i personally needed it, too

[@babypipess7227]

I also surrendered my life to God about a month and a half ago. I’ve always been Christian but I was lukewarm and recently he poured out his spirit on me and changed me overnight. Now every day my heart is just filled with joy for God.

[@emilylabatt5297]

Thank you so much for sharing your testimony! It is so encouraging and the joy and peace of God is evident in you. I am so glad that you are using your platform to share your experiences and His love. ❤

[@mr-cn6uc]

Girl I remember praying for you in your depression. Just another prayer for a lost unbeliever. Look at God 😭🫶🏼

[@NurseMaddyW]

Proud of you! Been watching your channel a long time and it seemed like you were missing something. So glad you fully accepted Christ in your life and allowed him to see you through those awful days. Praying for you every time I watch your videos! You’re such a beautiful person ❤

[@Hermesluverj]

Hi Alana I love this video I am Muslim but I can really resonate with you as I also believe in god

[@kateblackworld3767]

Im not religious but I love that so many ppl find a reason to live and stay strong through believing in something so strong. Even when I look back in my life sometimes I wish we would be religious just so when something bad happens or when someone passes that there is something to believe in like heaven or some kind of god. So happy for you and that you can be happy and healthy ❤

[@dearlolly2293]

its called delusion babe

[@bethanyhutchings793]

Thank you for sharing!! What a blessing Alana! So many people need to hear this. I’m so thankful you came to the Lord. Welcome to the family sister in Christ 😊❤

[@Appleswut]

I love this. I love that you’ve been adopted into His family. I’ve watched your channel throughout the years and enjoyed it but genuinely wished you knew our Father. Man. How awesome. Our Father is so merciful and I am so joyful over this. Knowing not only that you will never be alone but that you are fully understood and loved is so significant. No matter the sun we can be forgiven and molded daily to be more and more like Christ.

[@bella6689]

Why would you have to be adopted in if everyone is supposed to be His Child

[@Appleswut]

@@bella6689 not everyone is. We are either children of God or children of Satan. So. It depends.

[@LuvTheGlam23]

You look great since the surgery. Would love to know how the rest of your recovery went!

[@mrlellol1626]

I just saw your video on depression. You posted it 2 years ago and I wanted to see how things have changed for you ever since you posted that video. As I was watching I thought "I wonder if she ever gave god a chance". Very happy for you!

[@knarikarutyunyan662]

I’m so happy for you, Alana! May God bless you and keep you and shine His beautiful face on you. You are His precious daughter, and He loves you very much.

[@Babyy_girl]

As an atheist it's very interesting to listen to your experience. Eventhough I don't believe in god himself, i deeply resonate with your thoughts and feelings

[@marinadenenberg2660]

2 Timothy 1:10 "He has saved us and called us to a holy life - not because of anything we have done but because of his own purpose and grace." Praise God for His grace and your salvation!!! May God bless you and keep you.

[@ssallass]

I was weeping this whole video. Your journey has touched me so much. I have been a christian for sometime but struggled with depression and anxiety. The past year God has really changed me and taken all of the lies that I have believed in. I walk in freedom and truth now. I'm so happy you have found Christ Alana❤

[@morganpriscilla6032]

Reading the comments, you seem to touch many people with your light Alana! May the Lord use you to spread the Good News and fight the Good Fight!

[@katrina9905]

Thank you for sharing your testimony! I recently found my way back to God. I always knew he was real but I got lost in this world for so long & my depression and anxiety ate away at me. I recently have began focusing on my relationship with him again and it has been truly so incredible. I feel so much peace & I am just so grateful for all that he has done for me and my family. God really loves us all and it definitely is more about a relationship with him than religion. I’m excited to see how your life is changing on this journey, thank you for be transparent and sharing ❤

[@dianahamister8175]

May 17th 2020 was the day I got saved. I ended up backsliding into the old relationship I was in. I didn’t get free till late 2022. I’m so happy you’ve found Christ too. The peace is incredible. 🙏🏻

[@albusaidianna]

Having a personal relationship with God is the most amazing thing in my life. I’m happy for you!

[@iJosiLoren]

Im just seeing this now!!! God is so good!! I grew up going to Catholic school and when I was saved in January 2021 when He gave me revelation that I was decieved when cried out for The Truth. I started pursuing a relationship with Him. I did similar to you started reading the bible to learn more about Him and felt betrayal when I read the 10 commandments in the bible vs the catholic 10 commandment. Not by the church but by the institution. When i looked back on going to school (i had 1st communion and was an alter server) I learned out of religion books and only ever held a bible for the priest. At the more i reflected the more I could see how man is flawed in the church but that doesnt mean that God is. Its like everything in your life makes sense when you first meet Him face to face. Every terrible thing that happened to you, you can see where He was in all of it, and how you were always in His hands and all you needed to do was seek Him for Him to show you the way and the why. I havent watch your videos in a minute, and i can tell based off this video alone that there isnt chaos in youre presence. I can see His peace glowing in you and that makes me so happy for you. Praise the Lord❤ God bless!

[@jimenamelendez8251]

I used to watch your video a few years ago. Then, when it got very heavy in the "altering your appearance" kind of content, I stepped away. Now, I am so glad to be back. It's so refreshing to see someone in the public eye admit to their mistakes AND involve God in the conversation. In today's world, very few people recognize their sins; many less repent and feel real pain knowing their mistakes hurt the one and only God; fewer admit these things to other, specially not to the world. Thank you, I hope to see more content like this

[@ashleyb4984]

Thank you so much for being so vulnerable and sharing your story. I had goosebumps nearly the entire time. Our journeys are all so strange, and they somehow make sense in time. I grew up catholic, but was agnostic for about 5 years, became more spiritual and into trusting the universe, but there’s part of me that is still struggling, I’m not quite at peace. I’ve felt a pull to look into christianity more, but like you touched on, I feel resistance from other people in my life who make fun of it and because of some of the bad narratives it has around homophobia and the shame it can put on people. I also question so much of is this even real, it’s just a story. But there is a part of me that’s very curious and I have no idea where to start.

[@lilacghostie]

You just ask God, whether in your heart, or out loud: “Lord, I want to know you. I don’t know where to start or how to do this. Please guide me to learn about you, your Word, and what my purpose in this life is through your Holy Spirit. From this day forward please direct my steps.” He will intervene immediately my friend.

[@ericaetaylor]

I want to say thank you for this video. I grew up in church (Protestant), then became Mormon in my teen years, and left now in adulthood. I have been SO incredibly jaded by religion but I know my heart still yearns for God. But I still feel so incredibly hurt by the trauma and pain and hypocrisy I witnessed and experienced while in church (both). I am truly impressed by your conviction and fearlessness in sharing your journey. I want to grow close to God, but often feel scared. Where do I go? What do I follow? A lot of the questions you asked yourself are the same ones I'm asking myself now. How do I know? Thank you for your encouragement and testimony.

[@jessica57438a]

So grateful you’re still with us❤️

[@maymaylovesyou15]

Happy tears throughout the whole video! It’s beautiful to see someone naturally and authentically turn towards Christ. ❤

[@bigchungus1924]

Beautiful. He’s gonna change your life around girl.

[@breannalynn1038]

so happy for you, been following you a LONG time. I knew you'd get here. love it, love you. just so happy.

[@therealsubaekhyang]

when you get saved you become a child of God.

[@msiarajesus]

I used to follow you on youtube and ig, always loved your videos and personality but as a Christian I had a time where I unfollowed a lot of people because I was becoming really vain and wanted to look like an ''ig baddie'' and it wasn't good. Today I was watching another youtuber confessing about their surgery and I remembered of you and was like ''hey let me check her page'' GIRL I WAS GRINNING FROM EAR TO EAR when I saw you found God. It felt like an old friend had found salvation and my heart was so full for you!!! I pray God will keep blessing you and guiding you all your life. Congratulations 😁

[@krista9384]

Alana, I am soo happy you found Him! So many things you shared in your video, we have in common (doing DBT, and I'm sure you know what else). I actually used to watch your videos for years. In 2020, I reached a huge low- that was when God revealed the truth to me in a BIG way. That was it for me, the search was over, the missing thing in my life was Jesus and always was. I realised living for myself never made me happy- and I was not really living properly because I was missing out on a relationship with our Creator. I'm so glad you came to Christ girl and so excited to see your walk with God. Thank you for sharing such an open, honest, and intimate video. Big love girl!!!

[@BrittanyJheanelle]

WELCOME TO THE FAMILY SIS!!!👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾

[@anniemccarthyxoxo]

So happy you found Jesus💕 and beautiful testimony. can’t wait to see what He continues to do in your life. I’ve seen a visible change in your appearance and it made sense when I realised you are a Christian now.

[@stjjnr980]

Congratulations, haven't watched your content in about 2 years so this is a good video to come back to. May you grow in the Lord and be used by Him!

[@emilysutton5777]

Hey Alana, so glad you found God. I picked up the Bible one day and like you I just knew so deeply it was real and the answer to everything. I hope that you will continue making videos and share your journey ❤

[@kail1263]

Are there any videos about ppl coming to god who aren’t on their last leg? Like how come I never hear about unbelievers who don’t were already happy? Or people who weren’t originally raised Christian and doing fine coming to Christianity? Not trying to discredit her experience but Im genuinely curious. Answers please anyone?

[@bethventuresx8283]

Hi, I don't have any video recommendations for you but wanted to share my story..I hope others do the same? My family were pagan, for generations. I was raised pagan, and I found great peace within my practice. As I got older, life did what it does, and to cope I began writing. Just for myself in a journal, all the darkest thoughts and insecurities. I have kept a journal since I was 13, and I'm 25 now. Last year, I felt a very overwhelming urge to burn all my journals. There were over 50 of them. 50 books of sad stories. As I watched them all burn, I felt refreshed and happy. Light. I cried as I realised I had been trying so hard over the years, and I gratefully was passing my writings on to the universe. I started slipping from paganism after that, my family would hold rituals and I stopped attending. I just...didn't feel the pull. I found one journal I guess. It had fallen out of the bunch I intended to burn, and it was the saddest journal of all. I decided to stick with that journal, and I continued writing. Soon enough, my pain started resolving, and my entries became letters that I would address to God, and not the universe. One day, my journal was stolen by some guests I had in the house and read, all my traumas and secrets, all my letters addressed to God of my worries and hopes.. and then passed around a large group. Even photos were taken. Which is how I found out. I felt so exposed, and I didn't write for two months. I used to write for hours a day, so to go from that to nothing was huge. I turned to my home, I started cleaning and tending to it, I felt I could feel settled in the grounding feeling of the present and I was okay. I wasn't on my last leg. One day, I was in the living room and I tried to get my woodfire going..I guess I had chosen some bad wood because my fire was sizzling and smoking, no flames at all..and I guess I snapped? I was cold and frustrated and I said out loud "God, I just want to write again!! I feel so upset that I have no place for myself, I cant even write to you!", and in that moment, in an instant, the flames just erupted in the fire, i couldnt believe the timing or the fact the fire started, and I realised...I could burn the pages. I wrote to God again, I wrote for four hours by the fire which no longer struggled, and I thanked him for allowing me a path to connect again. He told me that all I had to do was reach for him, I apologised for all my past arrogance. I mean, the way I conduct my mind is through writing, it is what I consider my passion and gift..I feel like God knew and he is the reason I write. Now I speak to him, or write to him, and our relationship has begun to evolve. I hear what is needed, and I love so fully. Ever since that day, my life has started to transform, I respect my family and they respect me, but I believe Christianity is the way I must go. This is all very new to me, so I am sorry that I am of not a great help in finding other stories..but maybe this comment section here can start a line of shared stories. I would love to hear yours!

[@nidafatima3266]

Because life is never truly fulfilling and hearts are not really at rest without the belief in God. We suffer without belief and suffering drives change faster, hence why it’s typically when you’re at your last leg that you look for what’s wrong. I had the same experience as this with Islam.

[@kaitlynbyrd13]

In my experience as a Christian, when God called me this time my life was not necessarily in shambles, I thought I was content until I formed an intimate relationship with Christ and now looking back I realize just how temporary my happiness has always been. It has always came and went with every new thing I tried, I was never fulfilled. There is no other way to describe being in a relationship with God other than being completely content, happy, and loved. If you’re not a believer and maybe want to become one or want to learn about Jesus, let me know. ❤️❤️

[@jasminemariedarling]

I was an athiest my entire life until I turned 40 years old. I was happy. I was kinda new agey-yoga-doing "spiritual" athiest who just went with the flow and thought there may be a higher power like aliens or just "the universe" but never the God of the Bible. When I turned 40 I had some major realizations and experiences that led me to believe that Jesus Christ is Lord. Nothing bad, just deep thought processes, dreams and "coincidences". Never thought I'd be a Christian, and i still have major questions, but I know one thing: Jesus is who He said He is.

[@7Pxndx7]

I started my Christian journey when I felt like I wanted to give up and realized and I realy have nobody else and I group in church but decided one day to pray to him because i wanted to be saved. I was listening to too many KZbin people and got confused and stressed and gave up then went into listening to subliminals and binaural beats that ruined my life and now I’m back where i left off and have been trying to figure out how to get to God becaus idk if the experience i had praying and thinking I was saved was legit or not so now I’m panicking and scared because I want to be saved but idk how beause i belief but I feel like i don’t belief enough

[@jayrenn6637]

I got saved in January too. I really needed this video as a reminder from God and I know he sent me this video to remind me of this journey I’m on. Thank you

[@princesaa__]

Awww!!! 🥹❤️ You’re making me cry sis! This is beautiful! Thank you for sharing your beautiful words and your faith with us!!! ❤ I can’t wait to continue to see you grow!! I can’t wait to continue to see your journey with God and with Jesus! 🙏🏽❤️

[@Abigail_Halsey]

Praise God! I am SO happy for you keeping your life but also gaining eternal life 🤍 May the Lord bless you and keep you, all the days of your life.

[@savelakeclifton]

amen! welcome to the family sister!! so glad he saved your life and will be bringing you more and more peace and guidance in your life! thanks for making this video, i hope it wimm help many many more people!:)

[@toriusmc1]

I love how I can already see Jesus in you. I’m so proud of you, sister. 🙏

[@a_rose_foralestra]

Thank you for sharing. This is so beautiful it made me cry!I’m excited to see your growth as I’m also growing through Christ. I’m praying for you sister 🩷

[@mrsme4941]

A beautiful and powerful testimony to the power of Christ. Thank you for sharing. I look forward to sharing in your journey. God bless.

[@That-Wanderer]

I'm so happy to see this change in your life. I hadn't really watched much of your stuff in a awhile as I hadn't related or agreed with some of things you did/said in your vids. God bless you, my sister in Christ.

[@anastasiasouth9607]

I love this he has transformed you like he did me, amazing. Not about religion it’s about a relationship. Yessss 👏🏼

[@deborasol7175]

I am so glad of what u have become. I used to see your videos but I stopped because it was too much for me. Too much exposed to my taste. I'm 45 it used to make me 😢 to see u like this. Today I checked to see what's new and I was 😮 so glad 4 u. Now I'm back for sure. So proud of u. U r beautiful in and out. ❤😊

[@SaraBaird]

I’m so proud of you Alana. Keep talking about this, it’s helping me & more people than you know 🤍 can’t wait to see more into your daily life🤍

[@RedSunEclipse]

You are incredibly beautiful and very smart. It is very good you overcame your problems and now live a truly happy life. You deserve to live a very long and happy life and I think if there is God he would truly want that for you as well.

[@andreavillalobos5479]

To God be all the glory!!!!! I’m so happy for you!!! Heaven is celebrating you, watching over you, and waiting for you!!! You are a precious woman in God’s eyes. Jesus is ALWAYS with you, he promised to be with you, He is not a man that lies, and He is not the son of a man to regret what He says. So He will ALWAYS BE WITH YOU ❤

[@hannahsanford4168]

So incredibly happy for you and will be praying for you! Thankful to have another sister in Christ🥰

[@OhoudAlamri]

Girl I feel you, I'm going through the same experience with Islam.

[@nicolepeterson_238]

Thank you for sharing your testimony it's really beautiful! ❤ I had been praying for you for a long time and I'm so happy you met God where He's always been. I praise God for you and where He wants to take you. I was an atheist before coming to God and my life has been so great since starting a relationship with Him I'm 8 years into living for God and I cant wait to spend eternity with Him and to see you there as well. ❤ Btw Happy Pentecost Sunday 🙌

[@pecanpietea]

Hello! I randomly stumbled upon your videos after a long time (since the IPL videos) and the difference in your energy is so beautiful I’ m so proud. i am muslim, and i have had the a similar experience of finding such incredible fulfilment in God after realising truly his existence. We also believe in Jesus (as a prophet though) and we have so many similaires that I wish people were more open to understand us truly. Anyways, I pray for your journey 🙏

[@ayj8890]

Wow, you’re such a beautiful human being. Christ definitely shines within you🤍

[@angelacartiglia]

Your peace is SO evident ❤

[@pinknotebook]

Awww THANK YOU for sharing. So so happy JESUS Saved you queen. He LOVES you SOOOO MUCH

[@aparker884]

Alana You are so amazing. GOD gave me a dream when I had surgery. I told GOD I missed my Memere so bad and I needed a miracle because I didn't know if I wanted to make it through the surgery and GOD gave me a dream about a little girl who would one day be my niece. Alana I never knew how bad I needed GOD. GOD knew I would need my niece. I don't know how to explain it but GOD knew I would need a niece.

[@Sofia-js4xp]

I mean believe what you want but I personally still think it’s fucked up that God, if he exists, makes life painful enough that people take their own lives - and then punishes you for eternity for it. That’s not a God I’d call merciful or just, or one I’d want to follow. Life’s been incredibly painful for me too, but I still preffer living with what I know is real, what I can touch and see, and making and finding happiness for myself in that, in good food, and people, and music and books. Every religion believes with utmost certainty that their Gods or God is real, and not everyone can be right; and besides, studies have shown that people experience the same ”high” as during religious ceremonies in other life scenarios as well, especially the kind that brings people together, even if it’s just a game of football. But you believe what you want, it’s not as if I can stop you. It just makes me sad when people turn to religion instead of real life and introspective questions bc honestly, does it matter whether God is real or not? Just live life to the absolute best of your ability and you’ll find out when you die if he was real or not. If he wasn’t then at least you haven’t spent your one life obsessed with a ghost.

[@zebrasbean2385]

And if he is real , then you’ve wasted not just your life but your eternity, if life is painful we are quick to blame God and not ourselves

[@user-hz1hr7ck4f]

Clearly God has given her peace. And if you don’t believe in God, you can at least see that at the very least the idea of God has given her peace and taken away her pain. Why does this make you so upset? She’s no longer hurting and is not hurting anyone else in the process. She was not able to get to this point without her faith, would you rather her still be hurting but choose to follow your belief system? A disbelief is still a belief system, which you are attempting to enforce onto a stranger. Interesting how throughout this video she hasn’t urged anyone watching to subscribe to her belief system, while that is the function of your entire comment.

[@user-hz1hr7ck4f]

And who says she can't live a real life and be introspective while believing in God? I was in a similar place as Alana (depressed, suicidal, lost) and was baptized at the end of 2021 and have witnessed this change in myself as well - my belief in God has actually given me a greater capacity to be present and engage with real life

[@Sofia-js4xp]

@@user-hz1hr7ck4f non-belief isn’t a belief, it’s the opposite. I leave room for the possibility of God being real but I don’t base my whole life on or around an idea of something that can’t be proven. Of course I wouldn’t rather her be in pain, but it worries me when people seek refuge in religion instead of in real life, and I’m expressing that worry in the hopes of making her realise that this is probably just another form of escapism, AND also bc she IS hurting people by expressing these views. Telling a suicidal person that they’re going to burn in hell if they can’t cope with life anymore IS hurtful. Some people have imbalances in their brains that make it so that they’re never able to truly feel happy, or suffer daily bc or terrible forms of chronic pain, and hearing that ”well God made you, he’s definitely real, and if you decide to un-make yourself bc life has been too fucking mean to you then you’ll burn in hell for all eternity” is pretty darn incensitive.

[@user-hz1hr7ck4f]

I also want to address your comment about God “making life painful” - what has come to be true for me is that this world is not of God, and the pain we experience is not from God. Here’s some quotes that I really enjoy to sum up this idea for Gentle and Lowly: "Jürgen Moltmann points out that miracles are not an interruption of the natural order but the restoration of the natural order. We are so used to a fallen world that sickness, disease, pain, and death seem natural. In fact, they are the interruption. ‘When Jesus expels demons and heals the sick, he is driving out of creation the powers of destruction, and is healing and restoring created beings who are hurt and sick. The lordship of God to which the healings witness, restores creation to health. Jesus' healings are not supernatural miracles in a natural world. They are the only truly "natural" thing in a world that is unnatural, demonized and wounded.’” "Our trouble is that we do not take the Scripture seriously when it speaks of us as Christ's body. Christ is the head; we are his own body parts. How does a head feel about his own flesh? The apostle Paul tells us: "He nourishes and cherishes it" (Eph. 5:29)... How do we care for a wounded body part? We nurse it, bandage it, protect it, give it time to heal. For that body part isn't just a close friend; it is part of us. So with Christ and believers. We are part of him." "This is why the Old Testament speaks of God being "provoked to anger" by his people dozens of times (especially in Deuteronomy; 1-2 Kings; and Jeremiah). But not once are we told that God is "provoked to love" or "provoked to mercy." His anger requires provocation; his mercy is pent up, ready to gush forth. We tend to think: divine anger is pent up, spring-loaded; divine mercy is slow to build. It's just the opposite. Divine mercy is ready to burst forth at the slightest prick."

[@ghaida333]

THIS !!!! As a Muslim I relate to this SO MUCH. I have battled with depression since I was 15 and I thought of ending it a lot of times. The only things that stopped me was 1. It is cardinal sin in Islam “And do not kill yourselves,” declares Quran (nor kill one another). “Allah is, without a doubt, most merciful to you” (Surah al‐Nisa, 4-29) and “So, verily with hardship, there is ease” [94:5]. 2. I could not bear the thought of causing my family such pain. It will literally break them apart. It pains me to think that if I was not a muslim/ religious, I 100% would have done it. People nowadays look down on religion, but they don’t realize how many people are saved by their faith. Religion and faith can provide a sense of purpose, meaning, hope, and strength. In the past few months, I have grown closer to my faith, and the peace I have felt as a result has been immense. I'm glad to hear about your journey and the positive impact your faith has had on your life. Honestly you deserve to be happy and at peace. I also hope that those who are struggling with similar challenges can find healing and strength to overcome their struggles and never fall back. 🤍🙏🏼

[@qaiababy7]

So beautiful sharing your testimony, been a follower when you had just a few hundred followers. Love the IG then & now so happy for you🥹🥹🫶🏽 New Life ✝️

[@beefmeatball4370]

I AM SO PROUD OF YOUUUUU i love you so much alana

[@miramuhammed4316]

everyone has a meaningful life journey my friend.. no one is born in vain .. find your purpose and just enjoy your life.. you are too young to carry all these issues in your heart .. be strong dear❤

[@Lovergirl88]

What an amazing & beautiful testimony! Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your story ❤

[@lexibrowning7447]

I don't know if you've followed Deion Sanders's story about how he came to find a relationship with Christ, but it's shockingly similar to yours. I've been following his coaching journey for about 2 years now and I was never even into football, but it is so easy to see that this man is walking with someone. And it's evident not particularly by his accolades and possessions, but by who he is and how he handles EVERY situation-be it minute or major. As a person walking with Christ myself, I highly recommend watching some of his videos. His sons vlog everything and you can tell that they're still very young in the acknowledgement of the spirit through some of the things they say and the worldly ignorance that they still abide in, but as soon as their father gets on camera, you can feel the spirit moving. It's one of the most beautiful displays of God's control over one's life that I've ever seen and it's been a blessing that has hugely benefitted the growth of my life in Christ.

[@chelsiezahn5940]

Keep going girl!! You have a calling that is so important! ❤ thank you Jesus for this woman!!