growing up pretty AND ugly

[@xeya3500]

i am so in love with the topics you're giving us these days

[@notangelschannel]

this means the absolute world to me 🥹🥹🥹

[@isangsegundo]

girlhood is so painful. congrats for embracing it truthfully and also, for making me cry on this one. this is a successful message. thank you for your service

[@littleleah310]

fr 😢

[@justemmalyn7934]

Kind of sort of related, but I'm autistic (diagnosed at age 10) and I was always so self-conscious of my looks. I was bullied and ostracized for being autistic and I just remember thinking all the time, "if I were pretty, people would treat me better." I gradually was able to afford more clothes and makeup and changed my hair and it started happening. Then I got so angry because I had changed nothing about my personality and I couldn't stand how shallow people were! I still love being feminine and doing self-care and feeling beautiful, but the fact that that happened always bothers me. Why can't people just be respectful? Great video as always Angel!

[@dinosaurely]

we love angel’s active era!! 🫶 will binge watch your latest posts bc my acad week is OVER! ❤️

[@notangelschannel]

YAYYY

[@jooshi_]

"i hope you did not watch this podcast bc it will/might be boring for you..." no really, I like the topics that you discuss on the internet Angel !! and it helps me to understand your point more when I watch you talking!! So we love to see you continue doing this ++I like to see and hear people's opinions and stances like you!! You're so outspoken and vocal, thank you!!

[@shanniacabuello1306]

ive been feeling insecure for a long time because of my acne and dark circles. thank u for this :((

[@notangelschannel]

❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

[@RochelleDeVelonza-Riego]

i am saddened how i used to love putting on makeup before, doing that feels like an exhausting task i have to do if i wanna look more presentable when going out. I have been teaching my mind to love nd accept how I look coz ill never be this young and free again! good thing i came across your vids again, Ms. Angel! the message of this podcast might be a stepping stone for me to fully love and embrace myself thank u for this!

[@maryammalik7176]

I relate with this SO much as someone who also has pcos, got my period late, and had the worst acne ever, I needed this sm

[@chiyoox]

I LOVE IT ALREADY !!!! ur spoiling us so much with so much stories omg i LOVE YOU SM FOR THIS !!!

[@Bambell15]

I am now just fully understanding how having muses and escorts-especially that early on at a child’s life, where they’re still developing and still very confused about themselves, and is done in a school environment-is a recipe for disaster. That’s how you make a room full of kids have body image issues.

[@melissacarreno6475]

I felt seen in this Video. Thank you so much for talking about this topic. I’m currently on self love journey and it’s really hard coming from a person who was bullied a lot in middle school that AFFECTED me a lot. This means a lot to me❤❤

[@abcd-kn3xu]

The background and lightning is peak girlhood ✨💖

[@shannyniganns]

You're LITERALLY SPOILING US WITH ALL THESE VIDS YOU'RE POSTING OMG

[@notangelschannel]

HEHEHHEHEHHE

[@amritachowdhury5227]

Screaming crying sobbing throwing up hyperventilating pulling my hairs out...coz angel is spoiling us with back to back vids 😭😭😭😭

[@thcsme_8944]

ANGEEEEL! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH❤ i kinda miss ur old contents tho like those yt videos nung pandemic pa. I MISSED THE VIBE AND THE WAY U EDIT BEFORE PERO IM STILL SO INLOVE WITH UR CONTENTS❤

[@marccolomayt82094]

yayyy new angel’s beautiful podcast + long weekend = absolutely cozy ❤❤❤

[@notangelschannel]

YAYYY

[@ilovemikasuarez]

listening to this while sleeping is so relaxing

[@hmyt_]

my constant yt girly

[@danahoran3402]

Been watching your videos for a while now and this video made me decide na you are now my favorite comfort vlogger

[@jennierubyjane5011]

I love getting contents like this from you lately, as this year will be last year of my teenage I'm learning alot and especially thanks to you I'm learning alot about self acceptance and confidence thanks angel love to see you become an inspirational woman.

[@yuliamary6308]

Damn, this topic is interesting to me as a nonbinary queer filipino, I've always treated beauty as like a neutral thing which if I'm being honest helped me a lot, even to this day. Perhaps because my relationship with my gender identity and sexuality played a part into it, and growing up in a lower middle class family there is this underlying attitude of like "yeah your pretty and?" Since being pretty didnt have much of a good advantage in the enviroment that I was in. Hopefully I'm making sense.

[@louvreblvd]

thank you angel, your podcast is like a big pat on my back

[@hannafromatlanta]

just found this podcast and LOVE IT! Happy Holidays Angel!

[@notangelschannel]

YAYY THANK YOUU happy holidays!! 💌

[@alexeltubelleza538]

this is so comforting, omg 😭

[@WhoCaresAlisha]

I remember my best friend in middle school asking a guy if he liked me. She told me he said "Yeah, but her nose is too big, I could never go out with her." My friend gave him my number sometime later when he asked for it. My cell phone got stolen. Anyway, he got a group of his friends to leave a message on my parent's answer machine with insults about my nose. I still remember this in my late 20s!

[@gentlekisserswifey]

He's stupid. Periodtttt

[@spacehajji]

OMG OMG DESERVE TALAGA LAHAT NG AYUDA VIDS NI ANGEL AAAAHHHHH

[@Ginny630]

ANGEL!! U r such an Angel, I wish all ur dreams come true.. ILYSM..

[@corry9]

Yo. As for holding onto things and not moving on, I can totally relate. A lot of the insecurities I do have were because someone pointed it out at some point of my life. As young as 6 or 7 even. It's not so much holding the grudge against someone, but rather how they made you feel in that moment.

[@denzhellemenor5074]

I HAD TO RUN HERE AFTER I FINISHED NISA NUGGETS' VLOG HUHUHU LOVE U BOTH

[@peanut8986]

OMG SAME

[@erika.434]

everything u said in this vid is so relatable for me

[@hithere-vc2lz]

I never had that confidence about my looks since I was a kid because it's my family mismo who constantly criticize the way I look haha like my peers would say that “your're so pretty” but I would have a hard time believing their complements because all my effin life my fam had cemented into my mind that I'm not good looking. Just recently, our barangay is finding a representative for a pageant in our municipality, and some said that I would be a good one, yet my fam just responded them like “yeah Kaye has the brains, but the body? the face? nah”. That hurts me deeply because they said that knowing that I'm there, part of the conversation.

[@jjuliananavarez]

loved this, literally watching this on break from reviewing for finals hehe :))

[@kweenofdsaster]

activee eraa im so heree thnxx for blessing us

[@yveslewver]

new content I CHEERED

[@notangelschannel]

CHEERED 😭

[@mikskay]

im watching on yt, and its not boring tho HAHAHA just simultaneously watching u miss angel as i chibog the food HAHAHA luv lots

[@notangelschannel]

Happy eating !!

[@niniiii07]

30 seconds into this and it's already hitting so hard 😭😭😭 ilysmm angel

[@taomalamang2246]

the "bilangin natin pimples mo angel 1 2 3 4 5 infinity" CRACKS ME UP CUZ I HAD THE SAME EXP 😭 men always spit bs

[@luna_mov]

ugh! finally a podcast that i can listen to at 4am during finals weeks T^T SJHAJSH

[@ianparilla7103]

I never clicked this fast my whole lyf!! Thnxx 4 this angel!! Luv listening to u as always.

[@notangelschannel]

💌💌💌💌💌 i appreciate it !!

[@rie9251]

i really enjoy your podcasts, girl. keep doing what youre doing!!! 😍🤘

[@pixiedust6347]

everything about your experience i relate to ☹️💖 i feel so seen and youre so funny and engaging you js earned a subscriber, im obsessed w ur vibe

[@shreashetty6998]

dude the whole muse and escort thing seems so toxic, especially your mom asking you whether you have that position, why is that a thing in the first place?? im sorry you went through that, I went through something similar so I related to this vid way more than I expected, thank you for making this

[@0TIE25]

i will grab the opportunity and rant over this guy who claimed that he "liked" me in hs!! i also dont want to sound like im humble bragging but im one of those known girl in school because im friendly and "maganda" 😭 but this guy, everyone knows he has a crush on me and i know too because he confessed to me. i can remember it so vividly because just like u I CAN'T MOVE ON 😭 i remember him telling me "alam mo ang perfect sana ng mukha mo kung mataas lang nose bridge mo, pango ka kasi" LIKE ???? i love everything about my face but ever since he said that back in 10th grade I can't help but to think about it everytime i feel insecure about my face and i hate it because i love my features growing up and there's nothing wrong w not having a tall nose bridge because I'm a filipino !? what fumes me even more is the fact that he is UGLY and I'm too nice to call him ugly because I'm not the kind of person that would shame u for how u look 😭😭 and people had the audacity to ask me why i didn't date him lol we accept the love we think we deserve and I KNOW I DON'T DESERVE SOMEONE WHO POINTS OUT OTHER PEOPLE'S INSECURITY 😩😩

[@karyllechris8646]

YT ACTIVE ERA?!!! Love your vidssss

[@LaraMariellaAgua]

U give me another life mwaa luvv u queen!!!

[@xiaomao7427]

wow!!! Ty so much angel u r like a big sister

[@sabs2176]

ik this is gonna be the best 26 minutes today

[@notangelschannel]

🥹🥹🥹

[@kkekkkee]

ANOTHER UPLOAD?????? YESSSSS!!!

[@prerza]

I love these

[@hellu217]

YAYYY!! IM SO HAPPY IM THIS EARLY GIRLL🤪

[@bbyjasmiiine]

I remember I subscribed when I saw your 'trying to adhere to ideal filipino beauty standards' video, and your snow white comment really took me back. I grew up getting called ugly, aeta, indigenous and the evil queen (because my sister was pale and was snow white) in the Philippines. Strangers used to ask if I was the maid's daughter, because my mother, brother and sister looked "chinito and chinitas". I don't think I've ever been called "maganda", just "beautiful" because I moved to Australia. You talked about vanity and getting upset when people called you ugly, and that was the one thing I couldn't relate to. I don't think I ever had the privilege to feel that, because at a very young age, I was forced to figure out that no matter how beautiful I am, there will always be someone that will find me ugly. Maybe even an entire country 😂😂

[@lenaramoon4617]

same girl, i was called negra and ugly. one time a boy called me king kong lmfao. but in the US people find me hot. I hate somethings about our country.

[@saint.chenaniah]

OMG HELLO ??? THE UNIVERSE HEARD MY CRIES EME

[@alyberryn]

I LOVE YOUU ATE

[@rie._.8637]

U HAVE NO IDEA HOW HAPPY THIS VID NOTIF MADE ME

[@notangelschannel]

U HAVE NO IDEA HOW HAPPY COMMENTS LIKE THIS MAKE ME

[@JulieGraceArandia]

I love your videos ❤. More upload pls 😙

[@snsndiary]

I LOVE UUUU I LOVE UUU ANGEL💗🍓🌷

[@kikskiks-jv6ks]

I love you, Queen! 🧎‍♀️💗💗💗

[@jurisiann8349]

I LOVE THIS

[@AlaizaF]

OMG YES GIRL SHE'S ACTIVE!????

[@claireyagami453]

I got bullied because of my acne, I really had a hard time acknowledging it all through out those years

[@ga16b]

currently suffering through it 😢

[@errthingworxoutforme]

i'm reviewing for boards and your channel is my rest😭❤️

[@gyuldaengiee]

Earlyyy bcz saw your ig story 😎

[@belu5771]

Omg, your videos are ✨ The best part of my day Te amo 💕

[@notangelschannel]

AWWW THANK YOUUU

[@spacehajji]

just a quick skl moment HAHAHAHAHA I got bullied when I was in elem school for having big eyeballs and they would call me "laki mata" or "kwago" which is owl in tagalog (ikr so petty LMAO), and for also being too mabalbon LIKE my legs and armpits were super hairy SOOOOO whenever I get a chance to share this kwento to my friends (or kahit kaklase), they always don't believe me and say that "weh? ikaw? nabully? sa ganyang mukha?" and I would just awkwardly laugh it off because in my mind I always think na hindi naman ako ganoon kaganda para maexperience ang "pretty priviledge" or maybe it's also because I got bullied dahil sa physical apperance ko kaya medyo off na ako sa ganong idea BUT now that I've grown up, tinatawanan ko na lang talaga lahat HAHAHAHA like hindi naman ako doon nakafocus (at the time) kahit na pinaguidance ko yung bully LOL OMG pero ayon, my whole elem life naman was super saya with friends-even if anyone will see the photos of me (or us) na kahit jeje HAHAHA or pangit ang pose idk pero proud ako because I WAS AT MY HAPPIEST I still sometime feel insecure tho, I always overthink about what other people think about me or how they interpret me when they first meet me BUT FUCK IT whatever idgaf HAHAHAHA tnx angel for being a good ate to us (luh naglabas ng sweet side HAYS NAMAN ANGEL KASI) grabe one of my fav yt content creator kita!! wag ka muna sana mamatay kimi labyu

[@notangelschannel]

AWWWW im sure youre a beaut 💌 knock on wood dun sa mamatai tnx HAHAHSHS

[@ckbeu]

I LOVE YOU ANGEL

[@notangelschannel]

LOVE YOUUU

[@jamesaaronmanarang]

Don't forget to love and forgive❤

[@linoswater]

for the longest time, i felt like i wasn't the conventionally pretty type because i don't get much attention from my batch. but, i do always get compliments from adults or family like angel's experience, tho i never personally believed it bc i thought they were just obligated to say that since they're friends/family with my mom or smth. growing up tho, i gained confidence and even jokingly am narcissistic. and for the longest time, i've never thought anything of my nose..........until one faithful day my tita decided to tell me i'm alr so pretty, *but i just need a nose job*... bro i was so appalled, like the audacity hello???? filipino titas r ruthless and they js will never understand that "if you can't change it in 5s, don't point it out" thing...

[@trishaisabellal.pedria1821]

you deserve what you tolerate

[@junsjulywonpilsyonpilchany5241]

I love you, Angel.

[@boorenjii]

pls don't stop making videosss ;(( you helped me a lot po especially nung pandemic. I was having a huge HUGE identitiy crisis and I was scared to embrace my feminine side (or accept the fact that I am a woman) Growing up I was fed with misogyny, super nahirapan ako intindihin yung sarili ko kasi I'm also a queer person (I only like girls) but at the same time I hate being a girl, so it was 💩 I also effing hate men bcs I was so jealous kasi grabe yung privilege na mayroon sila and I just hate the fact that they're so stupid. (I don't want to be a GUY but I want the privilege that they have) BECAUSE OF UR VIDEOS po, I realized that society is 💩 and that I should stop contributing to it or follow it just because I want to be "NORMAL", HAYS Ate Angel para ka talagang ate ko, kapag may hindi ako maintindihan lagi kitang winawatch so I can clear my mind. SUPER DUPER GRATEFUL AKO SA EXISTENCE MO, I wouldn't be this proud sa gender ko if it wasn't for u :(( I was 12 po or 13 when I first came across sa channel mo po and I'm turning 17 na po next yearrr :)) Thank you po for being the person na nag open ng eyes ko, biggest contributor ka po sa girlhood ko huhu

[@lorelockey2319]

ILOVEYOUU

[@realdrummerd0w00n5]

yeah people are just so insensitive like that. like yes, blackheads po yang nasa ilong ko and yes po i know andami po nila ano

[@mr.whiskers403]

SLAY ANG ANTEH KO NA YAN OH

[@roboxxx645]

This is so relatable

[@justinecalleja13]

i should be studying rn for finals but heyy luvv!!!!!

[@niahmusic]

i want to be pretty

[@ivylinmoon7211]

Can you talk about pcos i also have it

[@taomalamang2246]

NEW VID YAY ACTIVE AH

[@reguuuuu]

on topic but you are so pretty

[@sebong_cheol]

PLS UR SO UNDERRATED!!!🥹🫶🏻

[@watershan_11]

You look like QuarterJade aka Jodi and you talk like her

[@Rhain-dk2pk]

am ungrateful for not wanting to be attractive? i think all those compliments given to me are getting to my head, and i don't like it ToT. the first thing people notice about me is always my appearance. it makes me think that it's all that i have to offer. i'm not as witty and humorous as others are; i'm actually a pretty boring person bc i don't like showing my "true self." i keep thinking that what if others don't perceive me as the person they thought i was? what if i fall short on their expectations? don't get me wrong, but i do have my own fair share of insecurities. but ig my mom also contributed on me being too conscious of my looks (ofc, im still accountable for taking things what she says to heart :

[@janessathao7299]

omg pcos twinsies 😭✊🏼

[@kaynah]

youtube's algorithm's crazy who knew i'll get this video from someone from my old school

[@justinecalleja13]

aw ate gill 🫶

[@notangelschannel]

love haaaa

[@hann2733]

ang saya na uli mabuhay ily

[@saint.chenaniah]

btw your set up makes it look like your aura is pink

[@notangelschannel]

or gay

[@saint.chenaniah]

@@notangelschannel ganyan yan siya, halata,,, HAHAHAHHAHAHHA

[@ahnrahel]

Alam mo Angel dahil sa video na ito naalala lahat ng bagay na never ako nag move on. Pakingshert. HAHAHA. Labyu!

[@notangelschannel]

HAHHSHSHSHS XENXIA

[@deinnelebasas3242]

palong palo sa update si mhiema ko ah, 3 years kaming i ghoghost nito

[@notangelschannel]

Boang !!! HAHAHSHSH

[@xie4809]

NOTANGEL ACTIVE ERA OMG

[@ilovemikasuarez]

Yeppy yey! 💖

[@justinecalleja13]

25:56 dw i have you on split screen with my reviewer😎🫶

[@notangelschannel]

an honor

[@eggiemybaby]

growing up my mother and father just wants me to listen listen and listen and take their word as is though I get their point sumasagot ako to prove a point na they misunderstood how I perceive things and it's different from how they think I think and for them you know it is the typical "sumasagot ka pa". Like duh I listened that's ehy I'm answering coz' some of the things you thought of me are wrooooooong and you made conclusions na mali mali about meeeee.

[@beary5055]

Okay haha But before rin puro acne and pimple ang mukha and dahil nga sa mga tao na iba ang pananaw kapag ganun yung nakikita nila, yun ang naging biggest insecurities ko, to the point that I would put my hair sa mga pisnge ko to cover it, kahit sobrang init titiisin ko because it hurts when someone pointed it out. Like what you said yun din ng naging rason ko sa kanila na may salamin din naman kami sa bahay kaya I can see everything sa mukha ko no need na ipamukha sa akin HAHA and then another incident when my auntie come to our home, since nasa bahay naman ako I’m confident to show my skin kase they’re my family and they will understand that I’m having a skin problem but no HAHA lumapit sa akin yung tita ko to ask if may tigdas daw ba ako! AHAHAHA that time hindi na ako makasagot, tumakbo nalang ako sa cr to cry. But gladly I’m accepting it na there will be times na hindi talaga magiging perfect yung skin ko and its normal and its okay. That’s why watching your video makes me reminisce the day and it somehow help me na hindi lang ako yung nakakaramdam ng na feel ko before. So, thank you!

[@cristinequintana5406]

EARLYYY!!!

[@Denbbb]

yay! another upload i'm not used to this T_T

[@aletheiaaa7909]

himala ate active kaaaaa

[@notangelschannel]

Ikr LEL

[@aprilmaglalang92]

Hi, Ms Angel! 🧡

[@notangelschannel]

Hi!!!

[@aprilmaglalang92]

😳 loveyouuu!! AAAAAAA

[@santah0345]

omg heyy bae

[@notangelschannel]

Hey bae 😗

[@kathdordas5074]

❤❤❤❤