GUILTY - starring Amanda Lehan-Canto 🏆 a Dramatic Short Film

[@carsonshockley6546]

Amandas crying felt so real if im honest im used to her being silly goofy but girl deserves an applause i cried a little when the tears started coming i was omg its a spiral felt that on a whole other level

[@moyaxoxo5923]

She’s an actual actress

[@Silly4567]

Rightt

[@Chrisadams789]

That first “I’m sorry” as she slid down the door of the fridge, gutted me. Gave me chills and made my eyes well up.

[@LocoCocoa22]

That is so real

[@madysonluvs]

lowkey… spoilers

[@Chrisadams789]

@ sorry 😢

[@devancanipe1978]

@@madysonluvs why were you in the comments before the video was over 😂

[@Beatlelover21]

this really captured what it's like to lose someone to suicide. Its never the person you love blaming you, its only yourself.

[@kelleypritchard]

Yes!! Your words are so very true! My son took his life 6 years ago and the pain Amanda had in her eyes is the same pain I carry with me every day! The guilt is real! The grief is real! The power and control is so hard to let go of! Damn I felt this!

[@remihart4731]

So true, with my mom I still blame myself for not seeing it coming, and feel like it’s my fault. Damn this broke me

[@Upper_echelon_exotics]

Losing someone to suicide is the worst. I'm so sorry 😢 I only understand a little bit. I lost a friend who I never even met in person. We met online through our mutual love of hognose snakes. The day I found out she killed herself was heartbreaking. I went Christmas shopping anyway (I was in the parking lot of the store I was going to) and was crying in the store. I live outside of town so I don't get out very often so I didn't want to go back home. I still miss her. It's been a little bit over a year. I can't even imagine how much it hurts if it's a family member. I mean just because we only talked online doesn't mean we weren't real friends but I'm sure it's still different. Man I still miss her and I do feel guilty even though I know I couldn't have done anything but I wish I could have. So I understand that feeling 😢

[@ChronicallyCanto]

It felt as though I had watched an hour long film in just 8 minutes, I was fully engaged. Amanda is incredible. Love her. 💛 Amazing work.

[@TheNoWayOut85]

Amanda's range is insane, she's so effortlessly expressive, I'm fully convinced that there's not a single role she coudn't pull off with enough preparation.

[@MelinaDimaria-xk4ww]

The way the people on the tv were talking about someone talking to themselves. When that’s literally what Amanda does.

[@mattkaneuk]

Love that you noticed! Also, fun fact, that sound is actually from a feature film we made called AUGGIE a few years earlier! - kzbin.info/www/bejne/pnq7iHZvlrGGiqc 🎥🫶🏼

[@rory_pond1701]

@@mattkaneuk I recognized Amanda's voice as the woman on the tv, but now I know to watch AUGGIE. This is a great film.

[@dothedo3667]

​@@rory_pond1701 It's not Amanda's voice on the TV so I don't know what you think you recognize lmao

[@lknapp235]

For those that don't know, as of July 16, 2022, the NSPH is now just *988* which is way easier to remember and share with those you care about. The old number still works; this is just another option.

[@mattkaneuk]

🙏🏼♥️

[@tyraoqvist350]

Honestly driving me kinda insane to read through the comments after this masterpiece. I'm a simple bitch, I see Amanda Lehan-Canto in a thumbnail, I click it and somehow it always changes my mindset just so slightly. I'm not super smart or articulate, and most of what I could say has already been put into words by other commenters, so I'll just say this; Thank fuck for artists like you who work to put out amazing pieces of art on platforms like this. I cannot express properly how wonderful it is to see something like this in your feed, experiencing it fully, and then being able to read through so many different perspectives of it just a scroll away.

[@graceb.5040]

😂

[@norawin]

As someone who has been through this firsthand, this broke my heart again but also healed something a little bit. Just knowing I'm not the only one to experience it. Im glad this person's friends in the film were there to support. Mine at the time said it was too sad to talk about and they couldn't deal with me.

[@pflanzi4876]

I am so sorry, you didnt have the support you needed. ❤ its so hard to go through this alone

[@CocoLicious]

I went through this as well, over a decade ago. You are not alone with this. While I was glad I had friends there for me, there were others I never talked to again. Guess we didn't know how.

[@apollovansciver9356]

The same thing happened to me when my mom died. I'm so sorry for your loss

[@Val-r7p]

I had an ex girlfriend that left in this way. We weren't together anymore but I tried my best to be there for her. My family didn't want to even hear about it. It was a hard couple of years before I forgave myself.

[@hannahcallirgos]

i’m so used to seeing her being silly and lighthearted. watching her fall apart and sob felt so real. she’s so phenomenal.

[@batmansworshipper8522]

I know Amanda from Smosh, whose content I binge every day. She's such a great actress! In Smosh they don't have chances to show her dramatic side, so I was pleasantly shocked watching her acting so believably.

[@youngsheldonfan_001]

This was heart wrenchingly beautiful. Amanda and James captured their characters’s emotions so well; Amanda is able to shift between numbness and pure guttural sobs and James brings so much depth to his character. Not only does James play this vengeful version of his character in his ex-partner’s guilt-ridden mind but he plays it in such a way that the audience realizes the isn’t the same man from the flashbacks-he’s a manifestation of guilt. The flashback scenes are so wonderfully acted, the somber and happy that can coexist despite depression are well represented. This was not just the work of the actors, but everyone in the crew. This was so well-written and so much trust was put into the actors to make the script a visual reality. The writing and directing were so carefully thought out! I’m not well-versed in film-making but I could appreciate the lighting and how the different shots impacted mood. The close-up shots of Amanda and James during the confrontation highlight the intimacy of the scene but also how ‘off’ this moment is compared to others. As James walks towards Amanda, the slightly angled shot adds to the feeling of instability, that something isn’t quite right, and alludes to the fact that this man is not the same one from the flashbacks. Lastly, the shift from bright lighting in the past to dark in the present sets the tone for this piece so well. It reflects how we often view the past through rose-colored lenses or try to focus solely on the good and the present is plagued by bad memories. When you’re in a depressive episode, everything feels dull and monotone. The last scene where Amanda and Sam are snuggling hits so hard with the dark but slightly blue shading. Life is still dark and painful, but at least she is able to feel the pain rather than suppress it. Color is starting to come back and healing can start with the simple act of not being alone. It’s also such an intimate but real scene. All this to say I loved this short film! There’s so much to appreciate-the thoughtfulness that went into every shot, setting, character choice, etc. There’s so much more I could say-all positive!-but I simply do not have the words to express my thoughts (especially in regards to more behind-the-scenes work)! Thank you for making this available for the public! ♥️

[@mattkaneuk]

Appreciate all these kind words and so glad you enjoyed 🫶🏼

[@odgykins]

an important reminder that it’s incredibly important to check in with your loved ones who have lost someone to suicide - especially on an anniversary of losing them. people who have lost someone to suicide are at a higher risk of dying by suicide themselves. i worked for the 988 crisis line for a while and i’ve heard it all. please take care of yourselves, there is always a reason to stay.

[@TarrienBlack]

I absolutely love Amanda and was snooping for more of her work when I found this on a different site. Let me tell you what.. I have to hand it to everyone involved in the process of this short film. I'm plagued by survivor's guilt for the last 18 years when my best friend committed suicide in front of me. After watching this film I had to take a moment. Being haunted figuratively feels so so real. So plaguing and it was conveyed so well (too well) through writing and acting. Had me a good ugly cry. Well done, all.

[@anishagunsasek16]

I’m so sorry that happened to you.

[@PåstäSãuce92]

1:02 the way Amanda looked at the phone when she was interrupted got me. The apathy, the anger, the sadness, the loathing for anyone who does not feel the pain you feel.

[@ophi_doki]

"you'll never be alone though" and she sees him??? OH IM SICK. this is so beautiful. amanda is so talented i felt shivers!

[@SinJiin]

This is gonna get buried, but for anyone who's going through or has gone through a loss like this, it's truly not your fault. There's always gonna be a "well I could've been around more" or "I should've noticed" but never forget that we are all conscious human beings; they could've asked for help, expressed that they were in pain. You aren't psychic, you (probably) aren't trained to read body language, you can't hold it against yourself that someone expected you to be. Life is hard, some people need an extra hand; be that hand when they ask for it. But don't feel guilty when you couldn't have known what someone was hiding behind a smile.

[@summerskull9379]

Another banger! Another banger featuring Amandla Lehan-Canto!

[@Zer0Zuchinni]

I'M ACTUALLY BAWLING?? THIS WAS SO WELL WRITTEN AND EVERYONE IS SO GOOD AT ACTING

[@marvelfan281]

I didn't realize 8 minutes could feel so fast - I wanted more, but in a good way. My heart broke, my eyes flooded. Shout out to the cast and crew for perfectly encapsulating this specific feeling of loss and grief.

[@starrynyny]

Shout out to the whole team because this was absolutely beautiful and tragic. You absolutely made me cry. Switching out James with Amanda yelling at herself broke me.

[@anam-w4812]

AMAZING job to the whole creative team who put this together!! MEXICAN SALSA YES

[@vikki-333]

Amanda is just phenomenal

[@SmileFromGlasgow]

Came here from Smosh and just wanted to say, A+ all around, this was a beautiful piece.

[@TheBenevolent]

AMANDA ACTUALLY ATE THAT UP 😭

[@filldumbpea]

oh my god i never cry when i see other people cry but that scene at the fridge when she started crying made me cry so much this is so good

[@boomgirlbucko]

"Never be alone" probably aint the best advice at the moment....

[@imaginaseanable]

Amanda out here killing it

[@a.m.1714]

This is incredible Amanda! You work so hard on smosh and you worked so hard on this! You are incredible! I could watch you for seasons darling! Thank you so much for being so amazing! This is profound and impactful! Definitely sharing this around sushiside awareness time. Thank you for this beautiful perspective. No doubt we all have blamed ourselves for big things in life. This hits home for me. 😢

[@codeE25]

This should have way more traction than it's gotten so far. Won't be surprised if the algorithm catches and it blows up. Well done everyone involved. Amanda is always stunning.

[@catsfiddle952]

oof. i relate to this one. i lost my mom to suicide 6 years ago. her ghost, the guilt, is still with me. grief is a heavy burden, thanks for making this film, it makes me feel less alone

[@LovinU2b]

This subject is tough to talk about but it’s so necessary. Well. Done.

[@megndylz22]

i lost my father to suicide this past year, wow this is amazing. thank you Amanda and team involved in the making of this. this video gives me some sort of solace that i’m not alone in what i’ve experienced with my dad. i miss you ever day Justin, i miss your big hugs and your advice. you would’ve loved this short film. sometimes i feel like i can see you standing there when i look up from whatever im doing, just like at the end of this film. i want to be a director myself one day, thank you for this. it is so hard to work through these harder feelings, so to see it in cinema is beautiful and tragic and healing all at the same time. thank you thank you again. this has done something for me, thank you

[@MaddyzRad]

I am in tears!!! This was so well written and my goodness Amanda is INCREDIBLE!!!

[@georgezacharywoods8291]

I knew Amanda was talented, I just didn't know how much.

[@RomanDaySaverTM]

Amanda served with her performance here. Hoping for her to get on a big screen very soon🙏

[@elagumdzic]

I've lost a few friends to suicide and it sucks. Sometimes it makes you wonder and question yourself at times if you have done enough as a friend. I also have lost a dad who was murdered two years ago and still deal with survivors guilt. The day my dad was assaulted at a store, I made a choice at the last minute to stay home thinking it's no big deal he will be fine and he'll be back home. My dad suffered a traumatic brain bleed and swelling of his brain along with other injuries. He died 5 months later in hospice from sepsis that went to his blood and bones. One out of two people involved were arrested and sentenced. Losing a loved one whether through suicide or murder/homicide makes you question things in life and gives you a whole new perspective of life as a whole.

[@raginggamer1984]

When Amandas "sister" came in and Amanda started crying, I lost it. She's a great actress.

[@oivi3iv635]

Having a family member who took their own life, I have to say I appreciate the care given here. The guilt you feel in the aftermath is real it's hard to not feel like you failed that person and I loved that you showed the survivor being supported by family in the aftermath. All around very well made, thank you.

[@cass9075]

Goodness I got chills and started tearing up! Amanda you’re absolutely amazing!

[@trucvivianpham9919]

The other Smosh members always applauded and complimented on how talented Amanda is and now I see why

[@scottsmith3804]

as someone who has been very close to being in the position of the late partner, im glad for these short films.... it helps me think about the void i might leave and the trauma that might ensue. Very well done sir.

[@kkdancer09]

Seeing Amanda act in this emotional role was so eye opening, the “i’m sorry”s were so genuine and when the end credits came up i was like begging for more. amazing work ❤️❤️❤️

[@ElsieMJoseph]

This made me cry, everything from the writing to the acting is absolutely amazing, incredible job

[@stephanyemidio8797]

I'm always amazed about how much one can convey in such a short time in short movies. This is a great example of it. Everyone was great in it and the writing was truly on point. Hope this gets more views! ❤️

[@MoonMoonTM]

Friendly reminder that in cases of suicide, it is never your fault that it happened. Sometimes someone's life gets to such a low that they feel taking it is the only way to stop the pain. While trying to get them help is always a good thing, it's never a guarantee that help will work. And you can't blame yourself if it doesn't. Edit: this is not directed at abusers. The fact that I even have to clarify this due to people not using logical thinking is incredibly sad.

[@jaspirita]

This is a bad take. What about someone in an abusive situation? A teenager that kills themselves because their parent emotionally and physically abuses them, that parent has no fault? What about a married couple where one partner is abusive, it's not that person's fault? What about a kid getting bullied at school and online, it's not the bully's fault at all? Accountability for how people treat others needs to exist. To say it's NEVER someone's fault that someone commits suicide is not a good take, and it's victim blaming to say it's only the person who commits suicide's fault that they killed themselves. Sometimes the low they feel IS caused by someone else, and that person that caused the low ABSOLUTELY SHOULD be blamed.

[@MoonMoonTM]

@jaspirita You know damn well that I'm not talking about situations of abuse. Use your brain. This is directed at the people who blame themselves for not being able to do more. The ones who think "if I'd done something more they'd still be here". Like what this video is portraying.

[@MoonMoonTM]

@@jaspirita I'm guessing you didn't even read my full comment honestly. Because abusers don't try to get their victims help.

[@jaspirita]

@MoonMoonTM I did read it completely. I still stand by what I say. You can't make a blanket statement of "it is never your fault". I'm guessing you don't like anybody contradicting you and you feel like you always have to be right, but you are wrong here.

[@MoonMoonTM]

@@jaspirita No, I'm not wrong. Abusers don't seek help for their victims. Full stop. This is a situation that is not about abuse that led to suicide. Keep letting innocent people think it's their fault though I guess. All you have to do is use logical thinking and understand important context clues. It's not hard to understand that I'm not referring to abusers.

[@godsangel1644]

I'm gonna go in a corner and finish crying my eyes out... This was beautifully done, i felt every bit of it in my core.

[@navyavy_9]

You’ll never be alone as the guilt stands right there is so deep. This is a masterpiece.

[@deannabowie9951]

This was so heartbreaking and raw. Amanda's performance gave me chills.

[@chloeeolhc1]

WOW AMANDA LEHAN CANTO SHOULD BE ON THE VIEW

[@warriorqueen9792]

Wow. I've watched Amanda for ages on Smosh and this was great. But also very sobering. Having lost three(!!!!) people in my life this way it's made me tear up slightly. I think lots of people will always question themselves if they could have done anything differently. It's how we try to take back control after feeling so helpless and distraught over what happened. I wish I could have done more to prevent it (with all three people). But maybe I'd have never changed the outcome. After the first loss I learned that you have to let go of the 'whys' and the 'if onlys' as these thoughts won't bring them back and only cause more misery.

[@jacqal292]

Amanda is such an incredible actress 👏

[@sweetiguess]

Beautiful, impactful, and important. Great work to everyone. Amanda is incredible 😭

[@DarkLordShadaou]

This deserves so much more attention. I love the cinematography and Amanda is amazing as always, as was the rest of the cast. I really feel this having lost my mom to drug addiction, it's the guilt of it all that maybe you could have done something about it. Beautifully done 💯📽🖤

[@mattkaneuk]

Thank you for sharing your story and for the kind words 🙏🏼🖤

[@Smoshluver24]

This is Amazing. Amanda's acting is phenomenal

[@ahh6067]

this has got me tearing up. great short.

[@ComfyLilith]

As much as this is so short it speaks to me on a deep level being a survivor of suicide, on the day I did it I saw how much my mum cried and knew she would never forgive herself... now I'm better and she's still the best mum I could ever ask for. Now to be less sappy and sad this is wonderfully filmed and written, the colouring and mellow shots really make this feel intense and Amanda's acting is just spot on, those tears were so wonderfully captured. This is so beautiful and I cannot express how much I love seeing things like this

[@richardosilly]

I met Amanda on the street near my house a couple months back and she is so silly in person as well as on Smosh. Though she can be so so good and being dramatic and stressed in some of the short films I’ve seen. Truly so talented!😁

[@lesbiaint]

god this is incredible. i made the mistake of watching this in class and im tearing up. excellent work to everyone involved

[@DanisDurkin]

There is rarely silence in my house. You could hear a pin drop the whole time we watched this. So well done. I felt it.

[@boxhead5632]

such an underrated short film the actors were amazing!!

[@raychie27]

This film is amazing! I'm glad it's on KZbin now! I've watched it so many times on Vimeo. Makes me cry every time. 😭❤

[@cesrelawrence-towner9453]

🙌🙌🙌 Amanda is the real deal.

[@jenniferhina3103]

Amanda is awesome in comedy and drama and even the news

[@cspahn3221]

i’m glad to know i won’t have anyone to make feel this way

[@cassiex23]

that was devastating. unbelievable job guys.

[@wolf.alliance]

I'm sobbing, Amanda. Well done everyone involved

[@Atticus516]

As a smosh fan I wasn’t ready for this but god it was a beautiful and artistic representation of guilt and grief. 👏

[@oohgs_0h]

"you'll never be alone" carries so much meaning here damn

[@jazzicalgate]

I love Amanda being in all these creative projects!!

[@han-wi1do]

This really moved me and the production and acting quality was great ❤ would love to see more of ur work

[@Star-hd7wk]

Amanda did an amazing job. I love this

[@valerie7600]

Crying my eyes out Amanda is such a great actress

[@madelyn1480]

I’m just waiting for Amanda to get her own series or something she is so good

[@colleenmcentee6944]

Great writing, great acting.

[@hannobonanoart]

Amanda is in this??? Absolutely I will watch it ❤️

[@RayFors2]

What an amazing story. Amanda is incredible!

[@unicorn420puke]

Man, I love her 😭 she's such an amazing actress

[@gracemcleod4961]

This was so beautifully done. I’ve lost a close friend this way and it’s really true that you get lost in the guilt and what ifs. Like Amanda’s character tho I have two friends who made me not feel alone.

[@Joyfullychelle]

Oh my God I’m crying so hard. Amanda crying complete gutted me. 😭 Incredible

[@LunaWitcherArt]

oooh this hits all the right spots. The way she asks for help, receives support immediately, but the guilt is just there, looking at her. a few more scenes of her not asking about it, or asking without really paying attention to what he was saying, would have been even nicer to save on the dialogue and really make us understand why she felt so guilty. But I really liked how he yanked her phone away from her in the memory - sets it up nicely for the discussion with the guilt.

[@jamesonhiggins]

This was an incredible piece! Congratulations to all on the great work, and thank you for sharing!

[@tray20447]

I'm here to support Amanda's rise to getting her own talk show.

[@JimiCloud]

Tragic, raw and beautiful. Thank you for this.

[@JazzTen-]

Watching mommy-Amanda cry made me cry 😢

[@owenw5643]

It's incredible how deep the emotions can go and what can be conveyed in such a short amount of time. Then again when you go through something like this those feelings are so raw for such a long period of time. You feel like you're an exposed nerve walking around at all times. Being the one who is left behind to process it all is complex and devastating. This really captured that. Thank you for sharing your story and art through this, I hope it was healing. Never stop checking in.

[@dilloncrace1640]

Amanda is so perfect in these films that use silence and sorrow or fear, idk she just does it perfectly

[@chiavanwhite5098]

This short film is absolutely incredible

[@loodlebop]

Beautiful, well done everyone

[@MLGF_MKE]

I'm ugly crying because this is just so damn real. 😭😭 This is grief & guilt portrayed perfectly. I wish I could hug her & also my heart needs a hug too. I'm going to go watch Amanda on Smosh for some balance - what an amazingly talented actor.

[@Autogirl83]

As I am writing this there are 346 comments, so I'm sure someone said this already. But before James said, "Killed myself." I knew what he was talking about and immediately started tearing up. Because at one point his words were my words. A lot of times people who commit suicide don't convey it until it's too late and more so in men and BPOC. So as much as some might say, "Don't have survivors' guilt." A true loved one will always wonder, "Could I have done more?" But give yourself enough grace and mercy to heal so that you can love again. ❤✌🏾 I love the work Amanda does in these shorts; she is such a great actress.

[@RockTB2022]

Jesus... as someone with that ideation... this was powerful. To say nothing of Amanda's acting chops, holy crap. This is an amazing short film.

[@littlelagoons]

Amanda is incredible in dramatic roles, she's such a good comedian I forget what a range she has. Beautiful

[@potatokinishes7479]

OMGG i absolutely loved this!!! amanda has such an amazing presence on screen❤ same goes for everyone else involved on this project, amazing work!!

[@kellycaaws]

So good and so painful. I knew Amanda was amazing I didn't know she could make me cry in 8 minutes. Great writing. I've never lost someone so close to me to suicide but I imagine that war inside of you lasts forever and ever. So gutting.

[@Picklegurl420]

Cried!!! “Wasn’t his fault” 😭😭😭😭

[@BUTTERCUPJones]

that was amazing. the acting. the dialog and cinematography. perfect!

[@dilfpickler]

This is phenomenal. Excellent work from everyone involved. 🖤🖤🖤

[@rayannesheahan7908]

This is fantastic… ❤💔❤

[@moyaxoxo5923]

Amanda’s everything. Wanna see her in movies