WORST TIMES IN MY LIFE - Happy Console Gamer

[@RobManWorld]

I love you John. So glad you're a part of my life.

[@TheGamerNerd025]

You guys have awesome Bromance!! You both are awesome :D

[@artistsunitedfront]

I am hyped I get an occasional honorable mention!

[@HappyConsoleGamer]

You too!!! Life is so short! I am glad we remembered!

[@canadianturtle7240]

I would kill to have a friend like Robman :( Consider yourself lucky Johnny.

[@NefariousDreary]

You guys are so badass, man. I legit got a little teary eyed seeing this comment from you to Johnny's video. I hope that my closest friendships last like yours has.

[@HappyConsoleGamer]

I want to say thank you for all the amazing comments! To be honest I have sat on this video for 2 months, I was nervous about putting it out there, I had my wife watch it and friends watch it first..but i still was unsure.. But thank you for all the great responses especially about your own lives...I made this video as a way of understanding my own life experiences and making sense of them, we are all on the same journey!

[@knowwon3658]

This is great work Johnny, more stories like this will be a wonderful service. My father also died when I was 23, but with brain cancer, it was a slow 6 month decline..just me and him. This video very much reminded me of that time.

[@RetroHellspawn]

Johnny, dude, when you finally write that book, you've GOTTA make a video about it so we know it's out!!! I will pick that up in a heart-beat! Seriously, your stories have helped me... immeasurably. Be it the video about you turning 21 way back when, or just videos like this, I love hearing about your experiences! I'm sure there's loads of us fans who want to see it! ^_^ Keep up the great work boss, always love seeing you in my feed. o7

[@ElComanche]

Please read my comment I posted under this video. Thank you for sharing everything. God bless Johnny.

[@Seburo77]

People not always gets into comics, Role playing or Videogames (AKA evasion) out of curiosity. A lot of us sought shelter in those fantasies. Shelter from life adversities. We are victims, but fighters too!! Never give up! ;) We are not alone.

[@kaycee310toysandcollectibl9]

HappyConsoleGamer I appreciate you sharing your personal experiences your a great wonderful person. I too was a victim Of bullying in the 80 -90s. I use to play games and toys my great parents got me to stay sane. One eye opening experience was my father enrolled me in martial arts to learn discipline and defense. One day the bully tried to slap me as always. I use my new found skills to finally have the respect I earned. To This day I will never submit to bullying and will stand up to those being mistreated.

[@zanychelly]

Thumbs up: Write that book Johnny

[@TastyAbbyJamz]

The reconciliation with Rob really got to me. Great friends are so important. Life's too short to not cherish them.

[@HappyConsoleGamer]

Exactly! Work hard with your friends and relationships!! It is never easy! But the payoff is!

[@YoraeLES]

Hello i hope this finds you well. I've been watching your channel consistently for nearly 10 years. Never commented, and never so much had made a comment. I recall signing your petition to open up Pier Solar many years ago and that's about it lol. Just want to say that one of the worse times in my life (high school sweetheart broke my heart) was about 10 years ago, and i went on KZbin as a form of escapism. Your videos and enthusiasm helped me cope for a couple hours but at that exact moment in time you helped me. Thank you for everything that you do, and i guess this video title compelled me to share. Keep up the great content!!!

[@simonmann8132]

Right there with you man, been watching since the beginning and rarely comment, had my life turned around about 5 years ago and Johnny plus a hand full of other youtubers kept me from struggling more than I had to, thanks John!

[@MichaelButlerC]

Thanks for commenting/sharing. KZbin and the world would be much better if people shared positive thoughts like this!

[@HappyConsoleGamer]

This show is about life, People and tough times, but I have camouflaged games around it. I will be honest here, it is a show about video games but it is a show about people first!

[@supernova9930]

I can relate, and i used to think poorly about gaming until I went thru a divorce and terrible times in the mid 2000s. I started playing Skyrim, Bioware games, etc. and I have to say it was a major escape for me and kept me away from other negative things I could have been doing.

[@dizzyboy352]

god blesses those with righteousness. caring about other people is the most important thing in the world so go on...

[@Oatmeal_Ghost]

I know this is an old video, but I just want you to know it was helpful to me. Your positivity and overall energy is very inspiring.

[@drycell183]

I often come back to this video. I’m going through some hard times in my life right now and this video provides a ton of comfort to me. We need to understand that hard times do come in life but if we believe and persevere we can get through it and come out better than before. So I want to say thank you for your videos and perspective on life. I truly cherish this channel as I’m a long time gamer like you. And it’s awesome to tune in each week for new episodes. God bless.

[@wojiaobill]

Johnny, thanks for sharing more personal experiences! These are by far my favorite videos to watch. I still remember you talking about quitting smoking, and when you talked about hiding in the closet to play games!

[@theresistance2025]

I just lost my mother a week ago and I'm 30yrs old I related so much on your story somehow it lightened me up thanks sir.

[@TeysindsGamingSpot]

My absolute deepest condolences for your mothers passing and my best wishes to you and your family!

[@theresistance2025]

@@TeysindsGamingSpot thanks sir

[@iftycent8]

Your positivity is why I love your channel John! Too much negativity in the gaming community these days. I love how your channel celebrates games and not the drama/fanboy nonsense. I can definitely relate to a lot of what you went through, thank you for sharing!

[@noxferum8204]

Positive Things I got from the video : 1) Sometimes a lof sh*t happens but we still got to move on and move forward. 2) Video games are good for coping up with stress 3) You need to experience the world in order to grow as a person 4) We overreact sometimes, and sometimes this might have long lasting effects with our friendship. 5) Don't do drugs Negative Things I got from the video : None. anyways thanks for sharing john. always love your short stories, because most of them i can relate to.

[@nathanhohman7825]

I'm so happy to watch someone who gets it that when you don't have alot of friends and videogame being that drugs that takes you away from reality into almost whatever you want. You get it. You really. So glad I randomly stumbled upon one of your vids.

[@ElComanche]

John. My father died from lunch cancer when I was 28. He was 54. He was my best friend. He was my only parent. He taught me everything. And although that was in 2009, I let feels like yesterday. Still devastates me. He never got to meet my 2 girls. So sad. Thinking of you brother. Your story was rough to hear. And the rest of your stories were heart breaking too. You are right though. You have to fight. You have to always push forward. Love you man.

[@brianf2293]

I know this is two years later but i am very sorry about your father. I lost mine a few days ago and your story sounds a lot like mine and i feel the same way you did when you commented here

[@ElComanche]

@@brianf2293 thanks brother. I pray that you find the strength to help you as well. Just remember you are never alone. There are always other going through similar things. We are closer than you think sometimes. ❤️❤️

[@brianf2293]

@@ElComanche I surely appreciate those kind words bro. And I apologize if I brought up old feelings for you by commenting on your post. I just felt I had to say something because you sounded just like I do now. Almost same situation.

[@ElComanche]

@@brianf2293 yeah brother. Stay strong. 💪 much love

[@alonsoquijano6749]

John you are so inspiring. You have a fan from Ecuador who watches your videos every day, the new and the old.

[@alonsoquijano6749]

Just subscribed to your patron page. You are my favorite youtuber :)

[@jacksondiol9074]

Wow, such an amazing story teller

[@pelida77]

He is ! Uncle John

[@MrTuco40]

Yes, he is a very entertaining speaker. He is actually a very talented speaker and ultimately thats the secret behind the success of this channel.

[@bouncingbluesoul5270]

The cat story at the end makes you realise how many evil people there are in our world.

[@demolitionFM]

The way a human treats an animal that does nothing to them truly speaks on that person’s character and morality.

[@agedinthesun6689]

The realization of evil dawned on me when I became a sales manager in a manufacturing. I had to deal with many people I would only describe as evil ... I had to get out.

[@Armed2Ninja]

Cats are the most beautiful and awesome animals and they don't deserve the abuse they get. I loved my cat so much that we put down in October 2018 due to a tumor in her kidney. Her name was Ruby and she was 13 1/2. She was adorable and so affectionate she also had the personality of a dog (affectionate wise). I still miss her to this day.

[@xtrachrispy7750]

With so much bad, there's also so much good ❤️

[@koba2348]

@@xtrachrispy7750 no there isn't

[@pilouuuu]

Hey thanks for sharing this. I've also lost my dad to leukemia 20 years ago when I was 22, so your experience is especially touching to me. It's something that changes you forever, but it's part of life. I remember back then videogames helped me get through all that, as was the case my whole life. I remember having played Grim Fandango and it helped me accept death and see it with hope and optimism. Videogames are the best escapism and one of the most amazing sources of positivity.

[@swissrollrpg3412]

Johnny, you're the only KZbinr I know who I can consider more of an actual friend than just someone whose show I watch. There's so much we may not know about you, but it's been such a pleasure getting to know and experience the gaming world with you. Honestly, you're way of positivity has played a huge role in me being more willing to better myself nowadays. Throughout all your ups and downs, each and every experience you've lived has made you into the wonderful person you are today. Thank you so much for everything you do. Much love. ❤

[@paulo4034]

This video means a lot to me. I always come here when I feel down. My father just passed away yesterday and I cant cope well with it, but your videos help more than you think they do. A big thank you John, life is not easy but we'll be here to spread positivity and joy in this world.

[@Strife72]

I was a complete loner throughout high school. I became afraid of opening up and forming close friendships because of the constant verbal abuse, ostracism from classmates throughout elementary and junior high. Now at 28 I don’t have a ton of friends but I have a close group of friends I hang out with on a regular basis and a loving wife. I came to an important realization awhile back that those who get bullied and segregated most lack the basic socialization skills most people develop in their early formative years. “There’s something off about that person in comparison to everyone else” The great news is it’s exactly that, a skill. Like any other skill it can be developed with practice, but you have to overcome your own mental blocks and fear to practice communicating with others. I’ve seen people that are not the most physically attractive nor were they the most intellegent but they had friends and close connections simply because they knew how to speak to people. I believe as you develop better social skills the incidence of harassment and bullying will decrease. While not an absolute guarantee, I think it’s a great deal in the right direction.👍

[@RobManWorld]

I relate to this in every way.

[@pauldragun9165]

Hi Johnny. After watching this video I just wanted to write this. Can't honestly explain why, but anyway. John, I am 29 years old now. My parents got divorced when I was 13 (they love me to this day of course but still... That was a huge blow). I started living with my grandparents afterwards. I got into drugs at the age of 15. My grandmother died (due to suicide) and I was the one who found her and tried to save her (I was 23) and failed in doing so. My grandfather died of lung cancer... It lasted 3 months and I was till the very end. After my grandfather died I realized that I have to go to therapy and I did. I got a higher education, I am an English teacher and you know what... I totally understand what you want to say through this video. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. People, just go through it and surround yourselves by people who care about you. Don't lose faith. Keep your head up. :)

[@solarwinds5114]

One of the most Down to Earth, honest, and humble KZbinrs on here. I love how you are open to sharing these personal stories in detail, it takes confidence!

[@MrArghnightmare]

Been watching since the days of your Dead Space/early Ys reviews and just want to say how much I appreciate your show. You’re a humane down to earth guy and despite this last decade being the worst experience I thought was possible through family and personal tragedy you’ve been a warm beacon of light. Can be easily taken for granted but thank you Johnny. All the best to you from London

[@HappyConsoleGamer]

Thank you!!

[@patrickhein6986]

Johnny I know exactly what you and your Family went thru with your Dad. Same here: My Father also was diagnosed with Lung Cancer. Three months after that he had to move to the hospital and after 2 weeks he died. Was a tough time but like with your Dad, we were glad that he did not have to suffer for long. Cancer sucks!

[@brianf2293]

I lost my father this past Friday, October 29th. I have watched this video several times before and knew I needed to watch this again. I finally understand the pain you felt. I became close with mine as well in last year of his life. But I wish this on no one. I will never get over it but hope one day i can be like you and accept it.

[@99boardwalk]

My deep condolences, stay strong, its a long road that i’ve been going for 4 years now. All the best my friend

[@paulo4034]

I lost my father that adopted me and treated me the best way possible yesterday, 25th. Im really emotional right now but his videos help a lot. All the best to you and know that your pain is well understood among many. As John said, surround yourself with people you love, good people and spread positivity wherever and whenever you can. All the best.

[@lankylemon8555]

Like you said Johnny it's not a competition, it's nice to hear your own personal experience

[@HelvecioGomes]

Life has it's ups and downs. Thanks for sharing your story. Your channel is the best. Love from Brazil.

[@SeafoamSmiles]

In the spirit of this video, I'm going to share something about my life I haven't told even my closest friends. And don't worry, it has a positive ending as well. When I was in elementary school my grandfather was killed in a boating accident, and my mother (who was already suffering from depression) really struggled to cope with the sudden loss of her father. Then one day my mother never came home from work. We had no idea where she was, or what might have happened to her. After a few days my Dad got a call from this suicide watch/halfway house she had checked herself into. It wasn't for another day or so that I was allowed to go see her. And man, visiting her in that place was one of the most bizarre/surreal experiences of my life. Eventually she left the halfway house and called my Dad and I down to a Robin's coffee shop to meet her. That's when she told us she wasn't going to be coming home. The marriage was over. It was really hard for my Dad and I, both emotionally and financially, for a long time after that. Thankfully my mother is still alive and has remained part of my life since (albeit in a much reduced capacity). And as luck would have it, I will be seeing her later today (along with the rest of the family) to celebrate Mother's Day.

[@ZaaZoJo]

I was in high school from 2004-2008- I looked forward to getting home and playing WoW - That was my escape

[@lankylemon8555]

I was the same but for RuneScape

[@MrBrodernafluff]

Yup, I did the same. But Runescape, could play for hours and hours. Easy 13-14hours in a row on weekends

[@texroy4288]

ZaaZoJo team 1990 baby

[@catatonic165]

Me too. WoW consumed me all through out high school. Had to force myself to quit when i went to college. It was tough.

[@ZaaZoJo]

@@texroy4288 1989 ;-)

[@kiriyama83]

Johnny que te llevo siguiendo desde hace 10 años en KZbin y aparte de divertirme cuántos vídeos también he aprendido mucho, me alegro de que afrontaras todos esos problemas y que tu positividad te haya llevado hasta dónde estás ahora, un abrazo enorme desde España concretamente desde un pueblo cerca de Barcelona, espero que sigas por aquí muchos años más y podamos disfrutar de tu compañía te deseo lo mejor en la vida.

[@rshapiro6]

Johnny, thanks for sharing, i get so engaged with these types of videos, i'm crying along with your stories, I graduated HS in 92, so we're probably same age.

[@SmashJT]

I know it can't be easy to give a look into your own life challenges, Johnny. I really respect that and enjoy these discussions. Scary hearing about your father like that. It's insane how fast life can just disappear. A good reminder to cherish every moment.

[@SAMR33]

Johnny, Thank you so much for this video, recently i'm having the thought that my mom will leave me, since i'm stepping into 40 and she is 74, i know it is natural for a person to go on to the next journey, and there is nothing i can do about it, but i just cant help but keeps on thinking the worst thing in my head, i'm not sure if i can deal with it when it actually happen..........i really dont .........but as you said in the video, people keep taking punches and move on, i hope that i will be able to take that, anyway after watching your video, it makes me relief a little. thank you.

[@joshuaekstedt1810]

I discovered your channel just a couple months ago and I really love your content, your attitude and approach. Youre channel has become one of my favorites. We are close in age so to hear you reminisce about childhood gaming memories really brings me back. I think one thing I and I'm sure many others appreciate is that you are genuine, honest, natural and share your personal experiences and you tie them all into gaming. I've been binging all of your content and look forward to future posts. Thank you for sharing your life with us!

[@KraigTheMan]

That story of that guy and the cat...wow. That’s insane. Anyway, this was a great video Johnny. I always love watching your channel, especially when you make videos talking about your personal experiences. I love how you’ll talk about these rough times and give a positive outlook on them in the end. Definitely one of my favorite KZbin channels.

[@GameFreak4Ever]

Johnny you are the man 100 grand. You have all my respect in the world. I know about the darkness that lies and waits in the world. Waiting on the book and t-shirts. Thanks for opening up.

[@demonv-1]

Thanks for sharing your stories! I actually went through some similar things so I can totally relate. I hated school too and was bullyied. I also lost my father to cancer when I was a teen. But I always had video games to escape from it all.

[@trentboyd1259]

Bewildering how at our lowest points in life is when we most appreciate art Can't experience the highest of highs without the lowest of lows

[@dizzyboy352]

all art is political or has a purpose as orwell said. when you suffer god blesses you with knowledge.

[@TheEternalElir]

Yeah. I don't think I would've liked Tool if I didn't experience all the stuff their music conveys. It helped/helps a lot

[@jondamon1808]

Johnny, you are the greatest KZbinr ever. Thank you so much for this video. I just want you to know that your love, enthusiasm, and positivity have helped me so much in life. Last year, I lost my cat of 13 years, and your videos were the only thing that kept me sane and gave me comfort when nothing else did. Please know that we love you and hope you never stop doing what you're doing.

[@tobikenobi9942]

John I've been watching your videos for a few years now and I love every single one. Having said that today I found this video and it helps me in so many ways that I could never explain. I've been suffering as of late with losing my father. I have 3 awesome children and a amazing wife that I love but I'm overwhelmed with sadness and grief daily. I look to video games and old anime to help me find some sort of happiness in life. I seen this video and it helps me see that life is a journey and you never know what a person can become. Latly I turn on any video you put out just to relax and hangout. Thank you for all the great content I'm happy to be a Happy console gamer fan!

[@lancinater]

We love you Johnny! Thank you for your positive energy in every video! Been watching your show for 8 years! Love every minute of it!

[@RubyMVmistress]

Sorry to hear about your dad. I don't know what I will do when my parents go since I still haven't done anything career wise.

[@agentm83]

I think we have similar backgrounds. I didn't go to school properly, was a social outcast pretty much (aside from a small clique of friends) and had to deal with some bullying; I ended up getting my GED before going to college/university. When I was younger I lost myself in video games a lot too. I lost my Mom to cancer, and have had to go through bankruptcy.

[@tannerbrodt8419]

Damn Johnny, even when I’m hesitant to watch a video first thing in the morning, your story telling is so welcoming that I can’t help but stay ‘til the end to hear more. Thanks so much for sharing! It helps me reflect on my own life and look forward to whatever comes next.

[@nracicot]

I relate very much about your experiences. It's always fascinating how people live the same kinds of things sometimes. Very interesting! I hope you let us know if this book gets done!

[@BuildEraseReplace]

ACG sent me to this channel and I'm super glad he did. Subbed and can't wait to binge your content - cheers!

[@Triggermappy]

Since the first time I subscribed(I think around 2015 or early 2016), I clicked because of the games, but I stayed because of the stories. More power to you Mr. Millenium! I always look forward to your videos especially the life stories related ones like these.

[@_JPlays_]

That was a very raw video. Thank you for sharing this with us. Hearing about your experiences in early high school was like listening to myself talk. I was bullied heavily in high school for a LONG time, and video games was my only escape. I'd played video games before that, but this was on another level. Video games were the ONLY thing that got me through that dark period of my life. I don't think, one ever really fully recovers from bullying. To this day (20+ years later) I get severe anxiety in aggressive confrontational situations. Hearing of your experiences, reminds us that we were not alone in going through times like that. Thank you.

[@JC-jg7nx]

Thanks for sharing Johnny, this is one of the reasons why I subscribed years ago. I lost my mother to cancer and many friends to drugs at a very young age, so I can relate to all that. Years and miles apart, we share a very similar background, and the will to keep things positive no matter what.

[@beyonddaylight5556]

Hey Johnny, your story about your dad really hit home with me, lost my mum when I was 21 (i'm now 29) and always felt like I was only just getting to know the real her because I was only just old enough to talk to her as an equal. You hit the nail on the head with a turn of phase that sums up losing a parent perfectly, you never get over it but you come to terms with it. Thanks for sharing your story, I'm sure your dad would be proud that you're turning all these moments of hardship into positivity and good advice. Cheers dude.

[@syardley1]

I have the same story exactly minus our age at the time of his death. I lost my dad 3 years ago to lung cancer. He was hurting in his legs and 2 weeks later after diagnosis he died at just 60 years old. I was also bullied incessantly (Rob) starting highschool. This video touched me

[@syardley1]

That music in the background sounds like RE save room music

[@BlueMilkJedi]

Thank you Johnny your videos over the years help me get though the hard times in my life at the same time getting to remember the amazing time in our lives though our/ your memories of the great video games we have had the privilege to experience over your life time. Thank you.

[@DopeSick82]

I am really glad you shared this John. A lot of this really hit home for me, my stepdad is currently battling lung cancer. I have to thank you because watching your videos has renewed my love for gaming and in particular retro games and that has been a great outlet for me to deal with things. Because of you I discovered the Phantasy Star series which is now one of my favorites and I’m really grateful for that!

[@QueenWaspGo]

Thanks for doing this Johnny. My mom has terminal lung cancer and right now her health is pretty good despite the circumstances, she has good and bad days, the bad days can be really heart wrenching. The anticipatory grief is pretty hard and I completely understand what you mean about your father's illness being sudden. What I am most thankful for from this video is your message to surround yourself with the things and the people that you love, even on days when you are feeling terrible. It was something I really needed to hear this Mother's Day.

[@connorstephens7467]

Johnny I say this without hesitation. Your channel is like therapy for me and it’s easily one of the best channels on KZbin. You’re such a genuine soul. Thank you for opening up and sharing your life with us.

[@yeti9254]

Man, these are my absolute FAVOURITE kind of videos you do. As an older guy with a freaking WEALTH of wisdom, hearing you speak about your journey is so inspiring and comforting. I wish you'd do more of these, but I understand that if they were more frequently uploaded, they'd lose what makes them so special. I appreciate you, John!

[@jimkirk2527]

Thank you very much for sharing Johnny. I actually didn`t expect such dark periods in your life. But thats how we do it right - we all have our masks on. As we are game-nerds, they all look a bit like one from majoras mask. I watched your videos while watching my father slowly die over a time of some years. Your channel was my escape, funny, isn`t it? :)

[@michaelcoffey1991]

I think these videos help to make people understand that their own issues are shared by more then they will ever know, and pain, loss, and hurt are shared experiences from everyone at some point. We are glad I watched it and wife and I are even more glad you got past all the times like this as well :)

[@flyingplantwhale545]

Getting to listen to a genuine guy like you describe your life's experiences can teach a lot to younger groups of people about how to lead theirs. Very interesting bit nontheless. Thanks a lot man.

[@samuraiequanimity7245]

Thats was such a good video!!! Thank you!!! Im 30 yrs old now, but my parents died before i was 21 and i kinda just threw my life away but i havent touched any drugs in 4-5 yrs and i have a 2 yr old daughter that keeps me going everyday. I draw and play games to escape, ive done it my whole life and forever all i've wanted to do was be a concept artist or anything. Just want to be apart of the gaming industry. And sometimes i lose hope for awhile and get depressed but like your message you just have to have faith in yourself and keep going, keep trying, and dont give up on yourself! :)

[@MaxCloud91]

Thank you Johnny for sharing your plights, pleasures, and playthroughs. This was an emotional one. Love from the island. Hearing your stories and watching your content has become not only been entertaining and insightful, but educational as well. As someone who is combatting my own addiction from tobacco abuse (quit for almost three months now) and is seeing too many friends hospitalized and losing their life from drugs and alcohol usage, I have to say that I very much appreciate your words and commitment. Happiness can be an easy thing to overlook and take for granted, but over time it can be difficult to get to when it's not there. I just want to say thank you man.. All the best.

[@CyberCafebr]

I cried watching this. Could hug you right now.

[@fattiger6957]

I don't know if you watched it, but you have a cameo in that 2 hour God of War documentary Sony just released.

[@Chazza534]

wtff i need to watch that now, time stamp for HCG appearance?

[@Xyos212]

link and timestamp?

[@drhenrykillinger9639]

@@Chazza534 Yeah seriously, I loved that game but honestly more interested in HCG getting recognition, especially with the ProJared stuff coming out lately, I've realized Johnny is easily my favorite youtuber, he's just so genuine.

[@fattiger6957]

@@Chazza534 I don't have a timestamp, but it's at the end where they are showing the reception at release. Yong Yeah is also shown.

[@XxRAND0MxG4M3RzZ]

Xyos212 1:51:50 - 1:51:52

[@darrelllewis5798]

I loved how you opened this video, because I have a pretty f'ed up stuff happen to me, but also, literally this exact same day, my neighbor opened up and told me about his upbringing that was way worse than my own. So basically there is someone who has always had ot worse, and you placed it that way. Love you Johnny. Thank you for being open and inviting.

[@RetroRaider]

I've been watching the Happy Console Gamer show for over 10 years. For me it has always been about the stories and this is the beauty of KZbin. It is real and we can relate to the creators. This show was a huge inspiration for me to finally start my own and try to bring a little positivity to the gaming community also, and share my own stories. Hands down this is the best gaming channel on KZbin. A big hug from Portugal Johnny Millenium.

[@Evil_Chronic]

My school was a Middle school and High School into one, so 7th to 12th. I was in 7th grade at the time, and we had a pep rally. Afterward I was in the middle school restroom, a senior came in while I was finishing up. He came behind me, and gave me a bear hug. One so big that he squeezed all the air out of my lungs. He held it for 30+ seconds while I was gasping for air telling him I couldn’t breathe. Until I passed out. I woke up in the office an hour later. This was in 1998-99 not sure exactly when, but yeah it still happens most likely.

[@ketchakik]

I know a big part of why I follow you is how you tell stories and how you relate games to events in your life. Great video man, we’ve all had a bunch of stupid junk in our past.

[@FrostWight]

You’re brave for sharing these stories. It’s so important to have this strength and vulnerability. Thank you for being an example for us all

[@VladisKalpakidis]

Johnny is such a genuine guy,gotta love him,a true gift to this platform,i wanna be like him as i grow up!

[@babyjoker997]

I’ve only discovered you within the last year or so, but i feel incredibly greatful of your sharing of your life experiences, and your lessons on friendship.

[@latetothegame4059]

You are so right about positivity, you really can't let yourself stay negative or it just eats you up. Thanks for the video, could listen to your stories forever I swear lol

[@JiggaMashida]

Really like the content you're putting in your channel. Thanks for sharing your life stories and lessons.

[@aarquen2]

Thank you for sharing your experiences with us. I'm passing through a really bad moment in my life right now, and it's funny that this same day your video appeared to me. You usually don't talk about sad stuff in your channel, but, even when you do, you make it in a positive way. Seeing that other people also deals with bad stuff in their lifes and sharing your experience made me feel stronger about my own situation. Thank you.

[@GeekHero_Bubba]

Honestly Man I've also had a falling out with my best friend. Now he did indeed hurt me and my family and other friends in an irrevocable ways, but I'm glad you and Rob fixed things.

[@andrewbaghai6455]

Hey man this is a great video. I'm sure this resonates with SO many people across the country. We're lucky to have you!

[@adilson_assis]

For some reason this video popped up in my timeline today. I'm going through tough times and this video made me rethink my whole situation. Life's hard sometimes, too hard some other times, but everything passes. We gotta hold onto the things that makes us happy and keep going. Thanks for the video, my friend!

[@kyled1983]

I stopped playing video games a while back. Life has gotten in the way of it. Some of my passion for video games has died over the past few years. I continue to watch your channel for videos like this. You're videos make me feel better. I've definitely been going through a rough time and hearing someone else talk about these things has seriously helped. Thank you.

[@lactobacillusprime]

I can so relate to your story. My dad died of lung cancer too - took 2.5 years for him to die. Luckily it was 5 years ago and we got to spend a lot more time than you and your dad had. We're pretty much the same age but gosh being 22 years old to have him die so quickly is quite traumatic. The missing him never goes away.

[@RossardJames]

Johnny, you are an incredible storyteller. Could honestly listen to you wax poetic on just about everything. I can say that your channel has really been a refuge for me in the past during troubling times, so I’m thankful for all you do.

[@gunnar5636]

Suffered a tremendous loss this year, I think I waited too long to surround myself with friends again. Didn't want them to see me broken perhaps. This is a great message to all, love your work brother.

[@patrickdelaurentiis6752]

I'm a few days shy of 33, and I'm starting to go to therapy again to help me through all that trauma. My grandmother died back in '99. My mom died in '05, and my dad in '08. I think about it and reflect on it everyday. What has helped me recently is looking at photo albums of me and my family before all the nonsense began. From like '88-'95, when I was just a little boo-boo. Though I hardly have those particular memories anymore, I can still look at my grade school class photos and recall names and such. As far as periods of our lives that are regrettable, we were all once dumb kids.

[@PeteOliva]

Johnny, you’re a gift man. Thank you for sharing. You’ve earned your subscriber base with this kind of sincerity and pure ability to tell a tale. I don’t even know if that exists anymore in the modern, monetized KZbin era, but as long as you keep making videos I’ll be here watching them, and I’m sure many feel the same way.

[@AGChannel14]

I listen to your videos at work. im so glad i have over a decade of videos to go through. your enthusiasm keeps me positive at work when i feel alone and trapped. i feel inspired at times to make a channel like yours.

[@kpoz12]

Thank you again for sharing! As I've written to you before, your video on HYPNOTHERAPY for your smoking helped CHANGE MY LIFE with quitting drinking! I was a desperate alcoholic for years, and after watching your video I gave hypnotherapy a try, and it REALLY worked for it (note: hypnotherapy ALONE did NOT "fix" my problem, rather it was a valuable TOOL in helping me finally quit and stay sober along with all the other therapies I was doing). I still appreciate your honesty and courage in sharing these kinds of experiences!

[@kurtnovells]

Thanks for sharing Johnny. I lost one of my best friends age 22, car crash just like that. And I lost my father to lungcancer a year ago at the age of 30. He died 10 weeks after he was diagnosed. So I can relate with coming to terms with the darker side of life. But your happy console gamer persona always cheers me up. So I want to thank you again for sharing your content and life stories. - Jay, a fellow console gamer from Amsterdam

[@RickxDogg]

We love you Johnny. Thank you for sharing personal stories from your past. Means a lot more to us than you think. Again, thank you.

[@estebangonzalez6068]

Very transparent man. Love it. I was the kind of kid that bullied the bullies. I didn’t stand for that kind of shit.

[@billaqua1]

Johhny, I've been a fan of yours since the allgengamer days. I've never reached out to you in all these years but just have to say this. My dad died when I was 19 of cancer after watching this and hearing your story I feel more in common with you than all these years of listening to you talk about games. Thanks for sharing that.

[@TheBestDayEver3]

From the guy who always makes quality content (every bit of which I consume btw) this is by far one of my favorite. Perspective is everything in life and it's something only getting older can provide. Thanks for opening up and sharing with us. Great work and I look forward to whatever you have in store for us next!

[@Tasuke]

Those stories sounded like very difficult things to deal with. I'm sorry you had to go through all that, especially all the passings in your family. My grandfather passed away a couple of years ago, which was then followed by my grandmother on my dad's side passing six months later, so I understand a little of what you went through, but losing a parent is something I fear and losing a pet after all that would have destroyed me emotionally for sure, I can't imagine how difficult that was to endure. The message at the end about positivity is very true and I do my best to stay by that. Thank you for sharing your stories.

[@dcrediah]

Thanks so much for sharing these stories Johnny. School was a tough time for me as well, but it turned me into the guy I am now. How anyone could dislike a video like this where someone is pouring their heart out is disappointing to say the least. Keep being you my man. Stay strong

[@robbiestroud2858]

Your introspective stories in my personal opinion are the best content you post. The stories and reflections of your life are at times profound and have helped me see other perspectives as well. Your sharing helps others. YOU help others. Life really is wild and you never know what's going to be thrown at you next. Never be afraid to open up to us. You''ll always be received well. You've been through a lot. We all have. Talking about it helps us all. Video games are out passion but our lives need to be talked about to for the complete story.

[@nintendad8168]

I love hearing your stories man I’m 39 I grew up in same era and everything you say is spot on . I’m in south jersey and your in Canada and it was exactly the same I relate to all your stuff . I was always at arcades when they sold cigarettes in the arcade lol I’d walk up to street fighter 2 cabinet and there would be a crowd everyone smoking and stuff . The next person would have there quarters up on the lip of the screen to claim there spot man it was so different . They used to have American ninja nunchucks and Chinese stars as prizes lol so funny 😆 I love the video , your a good dude and I’m happy for your success

[@luminayre6227]

I can't agree more about moving forward. Life is the biggest obstacle anyone can ever face. These videos help connect everyone together, so thank you for sharing.

[@kevinharding4176]

Thank you for sharing your stories with us john, these types of videos really help connect us viewers to your show and really makes it feel more personable. Watching your Content over the last 10 years has really felt like i was tuning in and listening to a long lost friend, very few entertainers have that effect.

[@mimboofsweden]

Your videos are really good you always make me feel better when i have had a really bad day.. You are like The big brother i never had haha keep it up man

[@brandonfobbs2871]

Always an inspiration Johnny. I’m glad we have people like you to always keep hope alive. It’s not always easy, but the right ones always find a way. And you are definitely one of them.

[@davidloggia5803]

Great heartfelt video John. I can definitely relate as I am dealing with the passing of my own dad to lung cancer.

[@figureitoutpunk]

Just found your channel during the lock down here in Canada (I'm in Waterloo, ON, near Toronto) and the positivity comments and to keep on forward still ring true. I've always used humour as well and try to crack jokes all day with people make them and myself laugh even during bad times. Your living up to your message of positivity as before this video you've brought a smile to my face with gaming memories. Be safe on the west coast of Canada, we will make it through this time too!

[@browngamer4]

I wanna say that I found this channel about a month ago and you're already my favorite KZbinr. I had a rough childhood too but what doesn't kill us only makes us stronger, here's to you brutha