He Cheated But I Love Him | Hot Mess with Alix Earle

[@kaylabruner1045]

Honestly the fact that the story ended with Chad crying is kind of a slay

[@katwinchesterxo]

This podcast always pops up when I need it most and I’m obsessed

[@mmmggg111]

Ikr

[@ryleeriddle567]

the “she’s just is in a bad place and I can’t not respond” is such a go to line it’s insane

[@kaeleenboggs6647]

Please never stop doing this podcast i am obsessed with it!! Us girlies have literally all been through the same bs only if we would have known back then we weren’t so alone❤️

[@veraz6235]

“My eyes were so puffy they looked like vaginas” had me dead

[@angelinanava9010]

SAME 💀

[@eniyacoleyana9742]

me too😂

[@jaymebattaglia8392]

Girl, most of us have been through this. It’s so sad! I can completely empathize with you. I even know the wierd anxiety you feel when you re-tell the story. Ugh!!!

[@madeleinedufty9497]

you explain the toxic relationship situation so well, literally took the words straight out of my head!! x

[@Caitlyningy571]

I literally love hot mess best podcast to watch while getting ready!!!!

[@megan139]

omggg right

[@CleoWolf]

That’s what I do too! I’m literally starting my nighttime routine!!

[@camillewf]

imagine fumbling alix earle, his loss, you're hilarious and charismatic

[@MyBrazIcanBundyFam]

This brings up my high school years. This is why you have so many followers and are so successful. I relate to this so freaking much and I am remembering the exact moments . Darnn, you're a good speaker too and communicate those experiences so well. You're awesome.keep it up girl.

[@MyBrazIcanBundyFam]

I was Chad back then, Unfortunately !

[@ourhumblehomediy]

Thank you on behalf of all of the mums out there🌸sometimes our girls need to hear these things from someone else or it’s not going to sink in😊it’s the advice many a mum has given to their daughters but has probably just gone in one ear and out the other💕

[@lillymurray8408]

16:08 baby, that’s your subconscious and your intuition. A woman’s intuition is NEVER wrong. Every woman here knows it’s not witchcraft. I can’t tell you how many dreams I’ve had like that and it ends up being accurate, especially with guys. Every woman here has had that happen in one way or another.

[@mmmggg111]

Thank you Alix this podcast came at the right time for me I got out of a relationship similar to yours few months back this definitely gave me clarity that I made the right decision to end the relationship

[@elleisme8565]

DO NOT TALK TO HIM AGAIN> Be strong! Fuck him and block him Girl! You deserve a good man :)

[@alexiavargas7487]

It’s sad that so many of us have had this exact experience but I loved your take on this, it was so comforting to hear 💞 Thank you Alixxxxxx

[@oliviaginger1870]

I could tell this was a big deal for you to post girl ❤❤ thank you for sharing such a vulnerable time of your life with us. You are much more put together than I would be about my stories. This genuinely made me feel seen on a whole new level 💜

[@arianamarie444]

The dream you were describing-you were connecting with your intuition and the truth is always presented to us in dreams. It is a psychic gift and you discovering it was in alignment with real life is a clear indication to always trust your gut, you are gifted and deserve the best!!!

[@georgetteshere6858]

THE DREAMS ARE FUCKING REAL! Omg the way I arose from the dead when my ex boyfriend cheated on me was insane! I completely believe Alix, that’s that woman intuition right there girl 😜

[@bellacorteseitaliano]

GUYS IVE BEEN HAVING SOOOO MANY DREAMS OF MY BF BEING WITH OTHER GIRLS IVE HAd at LEAST 5

[@lillymurray8408]

@@bellacorteseitaliano that’s your subconscious. If you can’t shake the feeling something is off, that means something is off.

[@lillymurray8408]

@@bellacorteseitaliano I wouldn’t ignore them especially if they’re consistent. Sometimes it’s just your fears, but when the dreams are real and happening in real time you will just know.

[@acp1504]

so many things you said I could relate to... the intuition, the finding it through his phone, the fact that it was an ex... I am so sad so many of us have suffered because of it

[@kyliestewart539]

Your intuition is always right , always trust your gut ladies.

[@christinaperez100]

Alix I adore you. You’re so relatable and sweet. Love your podcast so much!

[@crystalpyszkowski108]

NFL MAN is so smitten with you, you can tell by all the little things, it’s so sweet ❤

[@courtneysawyer8407]

One foot in and one foot out with a guard up is SO relatable and I’ve never been able to describe that feeling till she said it.

[@pinkfeet518]

the shorter hair was the move it looks incredible on you

[@kate-ec4pj]

yesssss

[@danielaguevara6544]

The waiting outside his house so wholesome, he did not deserve you the second he did not answer you! The dreams!! That was the sweet Lord Jesus Christ not wanting you to be in the toxic relationship and you needed the sign! a boy who cheats is the most immature form of a man.

[@crystalpyszkowski108]

At 16yrs old you handled all these things, amazing. I’m Old enough to be your mom, and I can’t stand to think someone would hurt my girls! Men are mean lol

[@jessest3602]

Girl was so delulu I could neverrrr keep quiet about snooping and finding THATTT…!! Omg

[@alanahasil462]

Alix, you are literally describing my relationship!! He went off to college while I was a junior in high school and pulled the same things with me and I felt the same way you did. The only difference is that our relationship wasn’t open and he would try to say that those rumors weren’t him and that wasn’t him making out with another girl in a certain picture and my dumb little junior self wanted to believe it wasn’t him 😢 worst relationship of my life

[@alanahasil462]

I was also so close with his family and friends. The break up was tough 💔

[@jaymebattaglia8392]

Please don’t let anyone do this to you ever again!!!!

[@jadealexafoster]

I hope Chad cries everyday seeing what he could’ve had

[@casey5683]

It’s so hard we all go through it.

[@katiekarkellie03]

Thank u so much Alex! It’s so relatable we need more stories!

[@jessicabranda4964]

I wish I had seen this video 6 years ago. I hope some girl who needs it like I did sees this and is able to reflect ❤

[@Kyshalise]

This makes me feel so much better. I’m having trouble getting over my first boyfriend. I’ve never felt having a comfortable place like a boyfriend before. he treats me bad I have to leave me alone

[@jazojeda7983]

Alix I love you and admire you so much for showing yourself so real! Your anxiety and now this 💖 what a role model!!

[@hayleecarlson3384]

I’ve never related to any other video ever. I found out my ex boyfriend was cheating on me bc I kept having dreams about it, still got back together with him after the fact. ( i was 17, he was my first love)thought I’d end up with him and he was the loml, absolutely loved his family to death and thought I’d marry into it, even throughout all of it. Thank you for posting this❤️

[@NikkiOliveira]

Me too

[@Lazarojailene]

I never had influences like this when I was in high school. I wonder how my life would have shifted if I had heard advice like this years ago…like I wonder how my perspective on relationships would have changed.

[@elliviademoe]

Hearing This helped so much.❤

[@sherman8330]

You are so right, after the Chads, we all close off. I feel you! Being young and having your first love and them being someone that ends up manipulating and lying to you changes you

[@giannabedel5953]

This is scary how similar of an experience I had to this

[@nmc4871]

I feel like Alix nailed this podcast so well that if I ever go through something with bad vibes, I can hear Alix’s voice in the back of my head (conscience) going, “Mm Mm… Don't do that.” 😅 Lmao.

[@mmmggg111]

I’m looking forward to the next couple episodes Halloween and the surprise trip for Braxton

[@carmenraad23]

This shit happened to me this past summer and I’m still wrecked from it. Really makes u question ur worth

[@morganfaddis807]

I loved the little intro/ recap of your life!! I think you should do that at the beginning of your episodes more... Give us a rundown of your day/week!

[@denarendall]

Yeah I’m sooooo obsessed with this hair😍 you’re literally made to pod - such fun and engaging energy

[@rachellewis7729]

This was a hard watch bc it was toooooo relatable 😭🤣

[@mahya7827]

My comfort podcast 🥰

[@laurensullivan4329]

Love your podcast alix ❤️❤️❤️

[@avanardo4761]

you just told the story of my life, i love you alix❤

[@nicollerodriguezz]

I love watching these at work, I be angry when it ends 😂

[@kaitlingutierrez2761]

This podcast is EVERYTHING

[@rachelnoel323]

Seriously so valuable for young girls! We have all been there

[@zeanahaboush7101]

beautiful thank you for this

[@dayzaudio]

You get 97,000 views in 21 hrs. because you are so good at just being so articulate and clear with your feelings and sharing in an honest way vs. you did this all or went viral out of simply trying to. Could you share about what it was you maybe discovered in therapy from your past or how or why you viewed yourself needing to be with that guy (a story that really isn't that unique), but your touchpoint with it is and it isn't just youth to have that kind of relationship/learning experience. Maybe in a follow on episode...

[@dayzaudio]

ps - definitely make a hit song out of the song at the end lol #chadyoudumbf***

[@brinichole9536]

17:57 i deadass would’ve convinced him i was a psychic and say i had multiple horrible nightmares about it

[@user-np8yf8fj2w]

love you alix so happy you made a podcast ❤

[@laetitiahoppe4742]

You’re coming to Germany😍😍 I hope you enjoy it!

[@Thicfila]

Now I understand how you became so cold towards boys and relationships after your first ‘love’. It wasn’t love you experienced, he took complete advantage of you!! I went through something similar when I was a teenager and became cold as well. Ugh makes me sad thinking about how I let my younger self go thru what I did with boys and my first ‘love’. And the fact you weren’t the only high school girl he was going after. He’s a predator idc how you put it

[@kaysdaydreams]

yes it really comes down to intuition and trust. once you feel the need to go through someone's phone, you already have your answer. we girls have all been there ):

[@ryliehope6273]

best podcast ever

[@gabrielamichele9595]

My first love rarely used social media and I never had a reason to not trust him, until one morning I got into his camera roll to send me some photos and the first 7 pics were of a half naked girl telling him things on Snapchat… conveniently enough the only social media he kept… I took his phone to the bathroom (he was sleeping) went through it (bad idea) and MULTIPLE conversations with other girls..MULTIPLE.. I remember falling to the ground and scream crying and shaking in disbelief .. one of the girls Lana, that he was messaging that day was who he cheated on me with and married her a few years later :’) ; I didn’t date anyone again for 3.5 years after that and it messed with me so badly that it truly affected my life and my future encounters. They’re still married … Thanks Brandon .. anyways , I never got closure but I’m thankful to have never seen him again because I think If I do ever see him in person, idk what I’ll do.

[@mariel9661]

Thank you for this lysm ❤️

[@samigillian435]

I hope chad is with someone he derives and is wishing he didn’t cheat on alix bc now she got nfl man we love you

[@maricszb03]

Alix the same thing happened to me during my ex’s college!!! He would put such a hard time when I wanted to visit him!!!!

[@aleksandraacka4786]

Cant wait for next episode ❤❤❤

[@mantomanpod]

Thanks for being vulnerable!

[@cin81090]

Your little song at the end. 😂 love your podcast!

[@jorytalal6265]

omg alix love u and love this podcastttt 🩷

[@jordynmarie972]

Obsessed w the pod alix❤️❤️

[@lindapacheco813]

Girllll I was laughing the entire timeee, I'm so sorry but you make the story so funny 😭😭😭 I feel so bad

[@jordengrace]

Uhg needed this episode thank u

[@ginamariedemeo]

I needed this 10 years ago

[@kristatorres1475]

You’re so real for the meds on the nightstand

[@LaurenNikki11]

Happy you made a podcast 💜 I love getting to know more about you!

[@sarahespinosa937]

Imagine being chad😂

[@kyleesofranko1380]

Chad is kicking the air rn looking at u now 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

[@mollymeshenky4483]

i hope chad watches this video

[@erinkiely9841]

Why are guys so nasty. It’s really not amazing or hard to just not hook up with hella people

[@LexxiLuna]

Girls are too 🫡

[@AlexReppucci]

Great pod Alix

[@Nora-cl9qf]

Put your hand up if you too feel personally victimised by regi… I mean chad 😅🙋🏽‍♀️ I genuinly am feeling like I have ptsd from Chad and I don’t even know him or his real name 😳

[@LaurenNikki11]

✋️ We must have been with the same Chad! 🤦‍♀️😅 I'm guessing since you never found out his real name, he also just stopped talking to you, and you never got any type of closure?!? Like, in at least my case, no reason as to WHY he(?) wanted this seemingly romantic/ emotional, LDR because that's all the boy/guy/man(?)... girl using a guy's identity(?) EVER got from me?!?! My heart was on my sleeve, but I didn't (thankfully, but no shame to others) keep my brain there, too. I was as naive as Alix describes herself being "in love" in her story and in hindsight, laugh at myself even though it hurt and sucked and I tried to get closure and can't but could try messaging the person, whose identity he used, on FB because of course I remember that name- yeah, we were never FB friends because he "didn't use it" 🙄😬🤦‍♀️- but like I almost want to stay delulu about that part and keep that chapter closed 😂 For story purposes, we'll stick with this person being a guy, as that's how the person presented themselves... lol Him and I literally messaged each other ALL night, EVERY night, then sometimes in the AM before we went to HS/ work, AND all weekend, most weekend nights ... even when one of us was on vacation and had spotty cell service. ********** This was in like March 2010 - June(?) 2011.Theres a story behind the end date; it wasn't out of my control either, but kinda was? I made an ultimatum move thanks for my mom lol So, we started like summer prior to beginning of my senior year, after casual "talking" on like AIM and email the year prior because, of course, we met online 💁‍♀️🤦‍♀️ ...this makes me want to write a story or podcast because it's crazy lol Sorry for all the extra- I still need to go to therapy / get this out and my fiancé definitely doesn't want to hear the disrespect another "guy" I was "in a relationship with" treated me/ it's definitely girl talk 🤣 ********** BUT. LIKE. WHAT. THE. FUUUUCK?!

[@jaydenrobertson5271]

we want a pod with NFL man

[@brookewalker1858]

Love this podcast Alix you’re so relatable

[@bbaby4646]

Alix, you are such a sweetheart. I appreciate you.

[@andreamancuso5655]

We need hot mess merch!!

[@mantomanpod]

Once a cheater will most likely be a cheater again 😭👎

[@amylilanae3590]

I have never been through a guys phone but I do have really good intuition and visions so I have seen them in my dreams cheating and I once confronted my ex making it seem like I did go through his phone and he ended up confessing to cheating with a girl whenever he’s in Mexico with family. Til this day he doesn’t know I found out through a dream LMFAOO woman’s intuition is so reL

[@beckysilver-aunes825]

He gave you an anxious attachment style... Explore that with your therapist!

[@yxngtxrk]

i went through this LAST year i’m not mad abt it anymore im just still hurt he never apologized to me for treating me like shi and sleeping w everyone while i sat and waited for a text back going in and out of the app apparently he didn’t want beef w her so he apologized but he ONLY loved me…

[@mmjj7535]

I’m currently in a very toxic cycle he just never change and I know he won’t I have like 1000 chances but still, it breaks my heart I wanna leave but I feel like my mind makes this very difficult scenario and it’s just so triggering…

[@yolandarangel2381]

Leave ! For your future daughter ( if u have kids)

[@lizcatherine9795]

Feels like I am living through your story.. it happened to me but not exactly. It was my 1st love/ bf ever and mf was very secretive and I had those psychic dreams too. Never looked through his phone till one day and yeahhhh.. crazy how the universe tells you somehow.

[@keeshwilson6430]

The authentic room!! Messy sheets, pill bottles, and chip bags😅

[@tiffanyhill9182]

they guy that fumbled big al sliding down the wall crying

[@nmc4871]

I died when she said her eyes looked like vaginas being so swollen after crying. 😂 Like, I understand what she’s saying but 😭🤣🤣.

[@deidradilworth9419]

This makes me never want to be in a relationship, I feel sick

[@peytoncauley]

Best podcast ever.

[@mmmggg111]

My favorite one so far because it was just Alix one on one with us felt like I was just sitting there with her

[@briiannamartiinez]

Girl, I have that pit before looking. The worst anxiety ever just thinking about it LMAO

[@AlyssaCirasuolo]

ALIX i feel you on this

[@trinitypaulsen9054]

i’m going to miami in december and NEED to know if you’ll be in town😭

[@AliRobillard-pk8fx]

The dream thing is so real!

[@Morgan-nt4vl]

can we have the story when meeting john summit lol

[@alexandramihailopol6757]

Why do we all have this canon experience with a man at the beginning of college