Heartaches but it shifts to It's Just a Burning Memory

A little edit i made of Heartaches by Al Bowlly and I'ts Just a burning memory from Everywhere At The End of Time by The Caretaker :), the first song being the one that inspired the latter. The images are from Ivan Seal's paintings.
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[@WesterLundWorld]

New & related video "Mental Illness Portrayed Through Art" up now: kzbin.info/www/bejne/eHzIZ5yjbt1rjpo&ab_channel=WesterLund :)

[@Aron2O2013]

First :troll:

[@oliverkoch8211]

Dansk?

[@losthesporething355]

I might be 29 years old with dementia, but I might be 29 years old with dementia

[@Voidi-Void]

Please, @@losthesporething355, It's been 20 years. Come back to us. This isn't the person I met at the docks 50 years ago.

[@losthesporething355]

@@Voidi-Void I might be 29 years old with dementia, but I might be 29 years old with dementia but i might be 29 years old with dementia, but I might be 29 years old with dementia

[@becketclark9942]

Me: hey mom can we get Everywhere at the end of time? Mom: who are you?

[@ashhshsh]

oh no

[@LiterallyScarecrow]

Don't cry it's just a funny comment, don't cry it's just a funny comment...

[@hvboovuhhucb6128]

Oh mom don't you remember. You know before the incident.

[@hyperminty4771]

"the accident was 2 years ago. It wasn't your fault. Let me go"

[@ryx10]

*October 7, 2020. The "Forgotten" incident.*

[@marrakesh_3589]

Stage 0.5 your just having a bad day

[@WesterLundWorld]

Genius😂

[@marrakesh_3589]

@@WesterLundWorld thank you

[@whatthehell7859]

Then it switches to stage 1

[@awesome3mpire405]

Ohno

[@mac6na6na26]

End of stage 0

[@bubblsi]

The theatre is packed tonight. You smile a little ways to your lover, who smiles back assuringly. Suddenly the lights dim, spotlights drifting to the lead singer of tonight, Al Bowlly, while the melody of his newest song plays. Closing your eyes, you bask in the presence of the lyrics washing over you, accompanied by the trumpets singing their tunes. All of a sudden you hear someone calling your name. You crack your eye open slyly, as if expecting your partner to greet you back, but you are only met with a record player. Playing a song. The song. Heartaches? Weren’t you just at the theatre? But where was Al Bowlly? Your head hurts, it felt so real. Too real. It couldn’t have just been a memory, could it have? Was it all just a burning memory?

[@potatoguy5428]

Wow

[@act1veee]

Damn, nice writing

[@BigBebOb7274]

Thanks for the goosebumps

[@GumballAstronaut7206]

This Gave me chills…

[@marie_laaaae7142]

👁️💧👄💧👁️

[@KungeNelson]

The transition from heartaches to burning memory really shows the diffrence between the two and the amazing job caretaker did with portraying dementia

[@KungeNelson]

The transition from heartaches to burning memory really shows the diffrence between the two and the amazing job caretaker did with portraying dementia

[@KungeNelson]

The transition from heartaches to burning memory really shows the diffrence between the two and the amazing job caretaker did with portraying dementia

[@KungeNelson]

The transition from heartaches to burning memory really shows the diffrence between the two and the amazing job caretaker did with portraying dementia

[@KungeNelson]

The transition from heartaches to burning memory really shows the diffrence between the two and the amazing job caretaker did with portraying dementia

[@KungeNelson]

The transition from heartaches to burning memory really shows the diffrence between the two and the amazing job caretaker did with portraying dementia

[@Griff00]

why the fuck did youtube think it was okay to slip this into an al bowlly mix i was listening to

[@shannontan2553]

it forgot.

[@denseslide366]

It wants to prepare you

[@mfbloc9549]

Maybe it didn't. You did.

[@schmoogledoink2738]

A warning.

[@unironicdoomer614]

That must’ve been fucking terrifying before you noticed what was happening

[@awesome3mpire405]

"I forget why i came to the kitchen..."

[@jenncel]

cmon man.

[@jasperanimates5673]

OH THAT'S RIGHT I WAS RUNNING AWAY FROM A SERIAL KILLER

[@ianplace9977]

@@jasperanimates5673 AAAAAAAAAAH

[@boenana-3054]

@@jasperanimates5673 oh, I forgot what they look like

[@heeseunglee6605]

“Who are you people, why are you in my kitchen.”

[@grandomrye3873]

Heartaches is about how painful it is to hold onto memories. Everywhere At The End of Time is about how painful it is to lose them.

[@mauriciodanielmartinezreye5130]

wow... never tought of it that way but it actually makes sense

[@TeraChad23]

I know exactly what i feel reading this but i can't put it into words, like a memory i barely remember but can't forget.

[@panguskhan2825]

Thank you for this tonal whiplash

[@infinitypgg9902]

I don't think people realize how truly terrifying Everywhere at The End of Time is

[@nilixstar830]

Some people really don't realize it.

[@xxpromlggamerproxx]

I forgor

[@that1toad64]

Due to it's influence on internet horror, Backrooms, among other stuff, it's the only thing most people know it by. This song alone. Which is sad.

[@dankerbell]

i listened to it so i know all too well

[@Thejigholeman]

we are so used to the horror of fear; the lurking creature, the monster in the dark, the angry mob, etc Everywhere at the end of time is a different kind of fear that very few (yet too many) people experience. the horror of nothingness. first you can't remember where your wife is, and it scares you then you can't remember her name, and it frustrates you in the end, there was never even a wife to remember, and you are at "peace" "Peace" in the sense that silence is music. after all, why fear losing your memories when there is nothing to even remember. "a fog so thick you forget forgetting"

[@dan-ho1zz]

Al Bowlly never knew how much his song was gonna fuck with our heads

[@Vintage_Andrew99]

Neither did Ted Weems who also performed this song first in the 30s and then it became a hit in 1947

[@elPatoChannel]

dan

[@EpicMinecraftFail]

@@Vintage_Andrew99 kill stealers

[@IMP_ROM]

Fun Fact: Al Bowlly was killed by a German parachute mine that detonated outside his house at around 3 in the morning on the 17th of April, 1941. The explosion outside blew the door in, and the door smashed into him, killing him.

[@hogski5049]

@@IMP_ROM the worst part is that it was just the door, not even the bomb killed him.

[@TalkingSoup]

me realizing that it's just a burning memory was already that distorted and that there were lyrics the entire time

[@Emmerron]

Yeah, I'm shook quite honestly. That was so surprising

[@TalkingSoup]

@@bakedbeansman oh, no, speech tends to be one of the last things to go. before that, a person's ability to remember what they've said, or what other people have said, is greatly affected. when it gets to the point that the person is slurring their words, using the wrong words, or forgetting basic grammar or sentence structure, that's when things are very dire. i think the metaphor here is that the person can remember certain parts of the music and faint words, but can't remember specifics like the actual lyrics or the order of notes. they're trying to recall how the song went, but all they can remember is some of the horn sequences and parts of words.

[@uhhhscizo6531]

In the actual album? Bullshit. I don’t believe you

[@lucastoelcastovastopastone1709]

@@uhhhscizo6531 yes

[@nopeejanuaryisveryserious6540]

That were

[@lewislabuff8862]

I like how Heartaches gets played for a good amount of time, almost to make you forget what's coming and when it hits it's so shocking, that you feel like you forgot what song you put on.

[@pinkmark4047]

I had KZbin on autoplay once in the background and when this started I simply thought "Oh, nice. Some Al Bowlly," You can imagine my surprise when It's Just A Burning Memory started creeping in. Quite spooked.

[@greentoesbstatus4325]

​@@pinkmark4047what are the odds?

[@andrewcruz1931]

Oh come on . Everyone knows what they clicked on. No one forgot .

[@user-fr4zn5fn7c]

this makes me cry every time I hear it, because I had a grandfather that I was pretty close to but his dementia got worse so fast until he couldn’t remember who I was and I remember the day he asked “who are you again?” It broke my heart, and I just went to a room crying :(

[@user-fr4zn5fn7c]

he was a great grandfather, he never said anything bad, he was gentle, he was very funny, and he took me to go places even if he didn’t want to go there, it hurt me so much that he was going through that much pain and it made me absolutely break when he lies in bed and only remembered one person, which was my brother. after that he passed away and it still really bothers me that I couldn’t say anything to him because I couldn’t bare to see him like that it made me more upset than I ever have been beforw

[@RileyVoices]

@@user-fr4zn5fn7c incredibly strong, sorry for what you had to go through 💙

[@user-fr4zn5fn7c]

@@RileyVoices thank you so much :)

[@m_lrt]

Your comment made me cry :( sorry for you❤️

[@MoonLmao]

fuck man. thats some sad ass shit. hope your're doing better now my guy.

[@cormorantcolors6791]

The saddest part is how you can feel Heartaches trying to come back in, but it’s too late.

[@huh5909]

Mhm

[@klaus7312]

mhm

[@Nobody-907]

By god, my heart.

[@griffinh.966]

@@Nobody-907 let me guess, your heart aches?

[@itsokitsnotyoufoult8850]

Then again.... Yeah.

[@employee4272]

When you don't have dementia but your adhd messes with your memory

[@bonkboi5820]

Adhd is like being drunk, hyper, and high all at the same time.

[@KonnaroTaro]

I have ADHD and I kinda felt this...

[@bnuuy]

tally hall pfp? in a caretaker comments section? it's more likely than you think!

[@mac6na6na26]

adhd mood

[@yungpm]

Felt that

[@momega7189]

This song is peak psychological horror oh my god man, the way it subtly changes is like your memory is corroding trying to picture the littlest details until it all finally crumbles.

[@joewilliams-un8vu]

This edit is genius. The first half of the song, I was scared of It’s Just A Burning Memory kicking in because it is creepy but then the second half, I was scared of Heartaches creeping in because it was reminding me about what it originally was.

[@comradecockatoo3558]

Heartaches but the disease is slowly starting to set in

[@PapaMeat-sj3ri]

lol

[@lavque]

lol

[@PapaMeat-sj3ri]

Lol

[@Arvonnat_22]

lol

[@comradecockatoo3558]

@Nicholas Negosian Have one from me, friend :)

[@hibiscusbuds6414]

this is when im dissociating in public

[@anrylstudios]

Hi

[@MythSpeed]

@@anrylstudios henlo

[@anrylstudios]

why is this so accurate like wth

[@MythSpeed]

@@anrylstudios yeah everyone felt it even me i forgot why i am even here aswell

[@eddiegavidia134]

What?

[@SammySamSams]

this whole videos is : i rember 💡 i forgor 💀 i rember 💡 i forgor 💀 i forgor 💀 i rember 💡 i forgor 💀

[@hasangaming673]

And Dementia kills them.

[@alittlebitofme07]

Wow, I love how at 3:33 you can hear his voice very faintly in the background but the only thing you can hear clearly is ''it's just a burning memory'' that's such a nice touch. Love both the songs, they're kinda creepy but also kind of jams? Idk, love Everywhere at the End of Time and it's music.

[@hasangaming673]

Dementia is horrible.

[@AlyPatsy]

I love how “A Burning Memory” was named after a single verse in the song. As though the patient can’t remember the name of the song.

[@gameboy3d943]

The titles of the other music in “Everywhere at the End of Time” also reference “Heartaches”

[@KassKuri]

@@gameboy3d943 "What does it matter how my heart breaks" is another verse, and I'm pretty sure that "and heart breaks" references this too. Is there another one?

[@batman-gu3ce]

Im not the only one to notice... Not a song name I'm just not the only person to notice this.

[@Souly550]

@@KassKuri "Burning despair does ache" references to the name of the song. "Heartaches"

[@TatsTopsVideos]

But what about Mournful Cameraderie? It’s the same as Burning Despair Does Ache

[@darkofalltraits9149]

I love how Al Bowlly looks dead inside while this is all happening

[@LePogger]

He looking stoned

[@gambe96]

You can see a look of sadness and desperation in his eyes...

[@EpicMinecraftFail]

@@gambe96 what

[@metalbane9861]

Was "dead inside" even a thing back then

[@CaptainResident]

@@metalbane9861 it's always been a thing, it just wasn't a joke until recently

[@CometMedalChavez]

This gives me uncontrollable chills every time I listen to it. It’s the fact that Heartaches does its’ absolute best to come back in, but it’s can’t. It’s actually symbolic of a dementia patient trying to remember their best memories and their loved ones, but no matter how hard they try, they just… can’t. Creepy stuff.

[@andreavasquez4355]

This is a piece of art all by itself. I know it's mostly a joke, but the shifts happen in a beautiful way to me. It's like how you hear some new notes or parts of a song you've listened to for years, as if it changes each time you play it.

[@coreybates9367]

The transition is godly and it deserves all the praise

[@zaneort]

Al Bowlly’s story is pretty sad, at the beginning of World War II the place he was staying at was bombed and he died

[@someguy9893]

Poor guy

[@CaptainResident]

Not only bombed, even, a bomb went off outside his door and blew it in. Door hit him, it was purely bad luck that got him... And a door.

[@user-qe8go6ur8w]

if not for the nazis, he would have probably still been alive during the 70s

[@FiorelloEAzura]

@@user-qe8go6ur8w Yes.

[@icantthinkofaname8139]

Be thankful guys, that door might’ve saved him from Alzheimers

[@tacolord8810]

The scariest part is how the paintings just slip in without you noticing until it's too late

[@justwoosh]

the time you said it i saw that the paintings have appeared and triggered my fight or flight senses

[@chaos_turnip]

HOLY SHIT HOW THE FUCK DID I NOT NOTICE THAT

[@quill..]

I didn’t either- they just suddenly started appearing-

[@tlyke]

@@justwoosh same

[@33rdswifty82]

Everytime they are about to appear you are going to hear a loud distorted Static TV-like noises

[@CallMeCamuran]

3:40 is chilling. It feels like he's trying to fight against it. Damn. Good work.

[@johnnyboi5003]

Fuck me. Listening to this with headphones at night is goddamn terrifying.

[@zoosmell_egbert]

This sounds like when you're hanging out with friends and try to suppress your depression

[@oeurves_d-oriel]

I've had this exact same sensation before. It sucks when I'm enjoying talking to my friends but I can't get my mind off all the shit I worry about

[@Caseyy04]

for me its me trying to convince myself why not to strangle someone

[@bobhydro913]

Well in the album this first stage represents how "we" or "the person" suffering with dimentia is trying pass of the slowly deteriorating memory off as just a part of age. The songs title fits this too as it's called "A burning memory" as if it's just starting to fade away. The similarities between these things are how we put our feelings down a lot of the time and sometimes ignore the problems we have as a whole. But the longer we do it the worst they become as those feelings keep piling up and over. The reality is that we all feel like shit and feel even more helpless. But even if the source of depression or in this case dimentia is not clearly defined it's still not worth it to ignore it. In the long run it evolves and continues to eat at us. Meeting your needs is the best possible thing a person can do for themselves.

[@hel2727]

you a fellow depressed bi? haha

[@bobhydro913]

@@hel2727 yea man sucks when you gotta to see it. Sometimes you just wish you could be there to help.

[@abuzzbonehead9306]

Imagine if he's not saying heartaches and he's singing about hard eggs

[@d1ego963]

Now I can’t un-hear it lmao

[@dumbdannia6326]

Take my like and leave

[@Feetlcker123]

Take my like

[@JasmineFlowery]

HAAAAAA

[@loganetaer6288]

Yes

[@aburnoutfailurewithsomemem3085]

When I heard burning memory kicked in replacing Heartaches I thought “No not yet, stay with me.” Christ the way this song has effected the internet

[@evergaming7960]

*affected

[@LewisGingerman]

​@@evergaming7960*bffected

[@Emshii_]

This nearly scares me more than the original, the dread I feel as I wait anxiously for its a burning a memory to appear was so incredibly intense I don’t even know how to explain it

[@moomoo2193]

This is what intense PTSD/traumatic flashbacks feels like.

[@ambera9862]

I lost my dog that I’ve had my entire life earlier today and somehow, I can’t remember him anymore, I just feel that he was here and that brings me so much pain.

[@ambera9862]

When someone brought him up in conversation I would hyperventilate and I know it sounds like and overreaction to the loss of a pet, but he’s been the one constant thing my whole life, ever since I was an infant.

[@remus9249]

@@ambera9862 My condolences. I know how it feels, it hurts like hell but you don't ever have to feel like the way you react to this is an overreaction. losing your pet hurts as much as losing any other loved one and it's okay to feel sad and shook about it. dealing with death is never easy. we just learn to cope with it over time because it's a part of life and all we can really do is deal with the emotions we experience in a healthy way and accept that it hurts. I trust that you'll feel better over time, we're often stronger than we might think but there's also no shame in talking to people about it if you feel you can't handle it alone. either way I hope that you have a good christmas and I sincerely wish you all the best in giving this a place.

[@sgurdmeal662]

No joke

[@fugostrawberries]

can confirm, it does

[@Cpt.Sailor]

the quiet vocals at the end really fucked with me like i couldn't tell if i was just thinking the lyrics in my head or if it was actually playing them

[@officialsubway7707]

Ok

[@theghostofsmokeyjoe8792]

There are no vocals at the end

[@heshiram1188]

There are no vocals at the end

[@theghostofsmokeyjoe8792]

@@heshiram1188 plot twist: there are no vocals in this whole song

[@eel_grrrl]

What vocals

[@isaaciktaile1118]

1:01 just breaks my heart. The somber tone of it's just a burning memory behind those two "heartaches" just sounds so somber.

[@Lucas264]

when you realize that the lyrics at 1:07 “what does it matter how my heart breaks” is exactly the title of a track in stage 2, where this is even more distorted

[@0fflineMycelium]

I noticed that too, nice knowing I'm not delusional

[@caponuts]

This made me realize how soulless just a burning memory is

[@sazvanali1371]

you are right

[@miguelcunhakowalski1099]

Your listening to a dead person, all he’s memories and experience died with him.

[@Ascertivus]

Jeez, it really is. You can hear all joviality and pep removed from the song in mere seconds. It's unnerving.

[@ChrisPoindexter98]

Well...yes and also no, it's more like...hollowing out?

[@izzieisdizzy1376]

This

[@GhostDanTBG]

Use headphones for a better experience. *Dude, you'll never know how scared I am everytime The Caretaker version creeped in.*

[@animotiondesign]

I had to turn the light on lol. Felt like something was in the corner observing me.

[@polyblank2]

I cant with this at night, im in vrchat listening to this and everyone is asleep so lt was me, alone, listening to this, i had to take off my headset to check, due to fear of being watched from my windows

[@maxinator7604]

It sounds like a the light from a light house is going by and you know that if the light hits you you’ll die, so you have to hide behind boxes as you wait for the horrors to pass.

[@samurod4335]

Damn bois, i`m just vibing to it like to some **normal** song. There is nothing scary actually...

[@Wes.10]

@@maxinator7604 Sounds like a lord of the rings reference. Is it?

[@TheUnhingedRobot]

Stage 0.5: Your mind starts to forget a couple of things, but mostly you don't care about it..... How innocent....

[@alejandrinasandoval7291]

I love how you can hear heartaches in the back round as its just a burning memory plays like its trying to take control again

[@maryfreegirl2029]

the fact that this song is so catchy makes it even harder for me to forget about the rest... it causes me distress but i can't stop listening to it, wtf is wrong with me

[@MrPies32]

For two weeks after I finished EATEOT, this song and a song from a different stage were stuck in my head. almost constantly

[@thatbitchnoemie]

@@MrPies32 For me I think it's the last song, "Place in the world fades away", that is going to loop in my head when I try to sleep.

[@owentatham-brown8056]

@@MrPies32 me too.

[@urikimaais4459]

moe

[@maryfreegirl2029]

@@urikimaais4459 moe.

[@tamsa9073]

This sounds like the beginning of the end for the poor patient. Amazing work

[@WesterLundWorld]

Thanks

[@lowreslireas]

Everywhere At The Beginning of The End of Time

[@joratto2833]

Now how did it go again?

[@pouncelygrin6699]

It started with an heartache

[@solario27]

@@pouncelygrin6699 u cant just do that... wait what am i doing again?

[@ishnu7988]

I really like the flanger effect you added at 2:30. That eerie sound really shows the transition well and in a way that that can’t really be explained, only heard.

[@StormieGage]

i swear i could write a whole essay about how this video makes me feel, it’s so chilling

[@chaospacemarine8330]

3:20 I love how the lyrics are so buried beneath the distortions they're almost indistinguishable from the noise. Kind of like having the lyrics at the tip of your tongue, and only being able to follow the melody.

[@delbeto982]

Oh shizzle, you're right

[@strangeonexd4776]

And how the phrase "Burning Memory" is heard clear as day. God that's fucking creepy.

[@nuketown_money]

@@strangeonexd4776 no😟

[@Jam._.]

OH F**K I ACTUALLY *FORGOT THE LYRICS OH NO*

[@aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa2776]

@@Jam._. sh*t

[@greatestevah5300]

I love how about halfway through you can hear the lyrics trying to play against the grain and distortion, like someone is trying to remember the words and can hear them in their head, but just can't seem to recall what they actually were. I've never seen such an effect demonstrated so eerily well in audio form, seriously great work.

[@WesterLundWorld]

Thank you!!

[@victorrandall5088]

Holy shit, youre right

[@fleeg3064]

You sure you've never seen that before? Or do you just not remember seeing that before?

[@greatestevah5300]

@@fleeg3064 i mean ive never seen it done so well and accurately, at least in my opinion

[@fleeg3064]

@@greatestevah5300 You didn't get what I mean, it's a reference to how the song is normally related to memory loss.

[@X_kaye_X]

DUDE THE COLORED PARTS COMING IN THAT'S THE REASON I WANTED THIS VERSION

[@Saint_Terra]

phycological horror hit different

[@feather314]

This is so cool but in the worst possible way!

[@MonsieurSwag]

yEa

[@tradingforsouls]

uh hUH

[@chippy4032]

Alzheimer's in a nutshell

[@flamu9183]

Most people with Alzheimer’s don’t actually die of Alzheimer’s. They end up dying of a different disease because many dementia patients are old and vulnerable.

[@dongle5397]

@@flamu9183 well what about the one 4 year old patient?

[@gogogogogoh]

It was just 5 minutes, but still felt like an eternity

[@ColonelBogey]

It took until The end of time

[@probablycheese]

@@ColonelBogey ba dum tss

[@jgmenelik111]

same

[@4gh0st_thng34]

I didn't even saw that it was only 5 minutes, man it really felt like 10 Which it's kind of accurate, because people with it never notice how fast it's consuming them until well.. To late to go back

[@THEREEKING]

agreed

[@v1c-was-her3]

Damnn the way how Burning Memory so violently 'fights' for its place with the original song in this inspiration, there's something very off putting about it, eventually with the latter caving in and only briefly popping in every now and then Very cool edit!!

[@aurelioperez3419]

I love how well orchestrated this is. From the coming and the going of different soundtracks, to the distortions, I enjoyed every second of it.

[@astro6412]

The vocals trying to linger on but slowly fading away gives me a sense of dread, as the former beautiful song slowly turn into nothing but a shadow of it's former self, still beautiful but, not quite complete, and listening to it be more and more faded and forgotten in the full album makes this even sadder. I consider this to be stage 0.5, very well done.

[@WesterLundWorld]

Thanks! That’s a nice description. Ivan Seal’s paintings are like the visual representation of exactly that about something looking ghostly familiar, not only the EATEOT covers as probably everyone knows but the rest of his paintings as well, I strongly recommend checking those out :)

[@cnnamon]

o comentário mó sério aí eu leio o teu nome

[@chickensandwichenjoyer0]

for the people wondering its at 3:21

[@andreavoigtlander1087]

no vocals is better

[@mikylaviloria1141]

@@geezy8689 listen to Everywhere at the end of time by The Caretaker.

[@spooks2327]

this feels like when you dissociate so hard you stop seeing and everything starts melting, and the bad intrusive thoughts start coming through

[@jaidendeprez1842]

Try living with the shit 34/7 365 like me.

[@spooks2327]

@@jaidendeprez1842 to be fair, I do have pretty bad issues with dissasociation myself. I've found that taking photos of things, having someone to check in with, and navigation apps all help tremendously with day to day symptoms. You probably didn't comment for advice or anything, but I hope you know that it can get easier, and you're not doomed to suffer alone!

[@jaidendeprez1842]

@@spooks2327 Thank you!!! :) My bad

[@spooks2327]

@@jaidendeprez1842 you're good!! I understand the frusteration living with this shit, sometimes you just get fed up 😅 I hope you find something to reduce your symptoms soon!

[@sipherys1961]

Shit you just described my daily life

[@grubskies4221]

It's so sad that by the end you can hear him trying to come back in with "what does it matter how my heart breaks" and you can tell the original is fighting to make it's way back in but it can't. It's terrifying

[@mariocraft1203]

Why tf when i listen to this music i instantly feel a chill down my spines 💀

[@MR.AKAARIK]

Because you heard her... It doesn 't matter where or when ...

[@buttergorl987]

It’s sounds like someone trying to get through their daily life but flashbacks of their traumatic past prevents them from it until it becomes too much and when the music stopped, it feels like they ended their life

[@FriedFreya]

Oh I hope the music never stops for me, in spite of the horrors that get replayed repeatedly... Those thoughts are a struggle for anyone who suffers from PTSD, unfortunately.

[@fugostrawberries]

haha I do that

[@pertmang197]

The album is about the descent into dementia

[@buttergorl987]

@@pertmang197 I know

[@hibiscusbuds6414]

Didn't need to be called out but thanks 😔

[@WALTJOY]

"Hey, this is pretty good and Al Bowlly is a pretty good artist" *shift to It's Just a Burnjng Memory* "Oh no"

[@thebluecactusstudiosmemory1483]

lol the typo just makes this better

[@clixis]

@@thebluecactusstudiosmemory1483 ikr, it is like the i forgor💀

[@AverageDudelol]

al bowlly is good but idk why i feel like hes a computer genarated voice

[@jesuscondom15]

@@AverageDudelol Because it's an old song?

[@CTGReviews]

“I feel like it’s gonna transition back again, my memories are coming back, I can remember his voice again!” *shifts back* *”AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH”*

[@yourlemons4271]

Heartaches by the number, forgotten by the storm. Everyday you love me less, Each I lose more Heartache by the number, Memories I can't recall. But the day that i stop tryin, Thats the day I lose it all.

[@hugonh6643]

youtube, why you putting this on my pop playlist?💀

[@Quotethe]

You put it there

[@DostoyevskyTolstoy]

Right, of course. Silly me. How could I have forgotten?

[@javivaki]

I sang along to melody, but as it progressed, it became a bit tricky to keep up.

[@WesterLundWorld]

You can easily sing along....till you can’t

[@BigNerdLandon]

@@WesterLundWorld bro...

[@RF-Ataraxia]

@@WesterLundWorld Oh man...

[@Memerath]

@@WesterLundWorld OH

[@Zenith-Novem_TC619]

@@WesterLundWorld That hits hard

[@bigboss4178]

People always crying and having panic attacks to this and I'm like: _you're listening to Fallout Music but your Pip-Boy is broken_

[@SomeD00D01]

Damn gotta go to vault 81 again

[@eraseLove1212]

Bruh am i the only one who vibes to this shit

[@afreakingcommenterorsmth2708]

@@eraseLove1212 no, i also vibe

[@TheAzureNightmare]

Well maybe that shot to the head is gonna get you eventually. Especially with other Head Crippling!

[@stevepalpatine2828]

Sounds like we're picking up a lot of rads...

[@GauntZero69]

this is like life, when you start youre probably happy and excited and when u grow a little u start to have friends but when u are 5 you start realizing that you live and it becomes sadder and sadder each day as you will never find what u want and further from ur family and in the old age all u have left is a burning memory of what u had....

[@I_AreGreg]

Did you know that dementia once diagnosed has already been in the body for up to nine years and once symptoms are shown it’s too late

[@chromiumex2384]

Oh. Oh so it’s ‘try not to collapse into existential terror’ o’clock. L-lovely.

[@E4439Qv5]

_first time?_

[@Memerath]

love your pfp

[@Memerath]

@GD Magic Gaming apologies

[@maximusrodriguez7187]

I can't make it past the first song, it terrifies me in a way I never felt before. I've always been a paranoid person but that first song gave my paranoia a boost.

[@Tharmin.124]

Nice, 666 likes

[@danibrent3068]

I thought this was just gonna slowly transition into the caretaker version- i was seriously not mentally prepared for the fades abruptly popping in and out until it fully corrupts the song. Made my heart freeze.

[@Indy-the-soup]

It is literally like heartbreaking

[@KeaneJ123]

@@Indy-the-soup it is heartaching

[@iv689]

@@KeaneJ123 It's... just a burning memory

[@jetstreamsam4689]

That was on purpose. It's supposed to simulate what it's like to have alzheimers and to have your memories being take from you at irregular intervals and then to have them ripped from you in a moment and then try to remember what you forgotten before you forget why you need to remember.

[@arthyyyr8401]

Fuck i just got spoiled lmao

[@Yamaguchi_Tadashi]

The worst thing about this is the fact I listened to this last year about June and then I started having terrible memory (or realized I have horrid memory)- I couldn't remember what I ate a minute ago I couldn't remember my eye color or my favorite foods- Of course I still forget even now some important aspects of my life. I couldn't remember how many aunts I have or when something was due.

[@turtlefan3971]

Perhaps it's an infohazard?(or a placebo)

[@Yamaguchi_Tadashi]

@@turtlefan3971 Uhhhh maybe- Maybe I just have really bad memory and only recently realized it? A lot of things could factor tbh

[@turtlefan3971]

@@Yamaguchi_Tadashi probably

[@wrrrryyyy12]

@@Yamaguchi_Tadashi i also realized but this year not last year that i have horrible memory i dont think its dementia or anything but i also recall realizing this around after hearing this song for the first time like a week or 2 after but still

[@historynerd8699]

@@wrrrryyyy12 same here... this song is like an scp, convince me it is not (also im willing to bet you forgot you wrote this comment)

[@KirboYT]

This isn't even horror, but it might as well be. This is one of the scariest videos I have ever watched

[@houghwhite411]

Oh boy, I didn't even finish the original. Just too scary

[@CG00001]

it’s in a fnaf fan game haha

[@xKeville]

I think it's so scary because of how real it is. Most of us will experience this at sometimes in the distant future. That's what makes it so terrifying for me.

[@HanzCastroyearsago]

Its horror. Psychological horror at that.

[@unibunnii5520]

Same

[@redd.rabbit]

For anyone who hasn’t listened to Everywhere at the End of Time or doesn’t know what it is, it’s a 6ish hour artistic piece about the stages of dementia. I highly recommend listening to it if you have a free six hours (it’s best to do it in one sitting so you can immerse yourself in it)

[@lukassheridan5271]

Just don't listen to it at night

[@thatbitchnoemie]

@@lukassheridan5271 Or even when the sun starts to set

[@thehylian6984]

@@lukassheridan5271 can confirm, am still fucked up in the head from it

[@spark6401]

Or when you are going through tough time in your life

[@whatisthis8650]

I recommend taking breaks in between

[@combie7482]

stage 0.1 Little gaps of memory stage 0.2 Unnoticeable memory loss stage 0.3 The memory loss becomes noticeable stage 0.4 Larger gaps in memory stage 0.5 Growing memory gaps stage 0.6 Post-dementia stage 0.7 It all starts stage 0.8 The memory starts to burn stage 0.9 The gaps grow and continue stage 1.0 It’s just a burning memory

[@WereComingHomeBoyes]

stage 0.9 I can’t believe

[@liminalman2189]

Making this your alarm is so amazing :D

[@pertmang197]

The title should be " Heartaches but it's just a burning memory"

[@loganadolfson]

its just a burning heartache

[@deimaramo2853]

@@loganadolfson that's called heart burn

[@bob-xb3nh]

Bob

[@deimaramo2853]

@@bob-xb3nh bob

[@raisin589]

Bob

[@somenerd710]

Sure, the caretaker’s existence makes this sad, but what makes this truly scary for me is the fact they your listening to a dead person singing, that always fucks with me

[@kiddosneakybeaky3934]

how dare you /nm

[@faggotgirl2659]

70, 80, early 90, and some 00 rock fans-first time?

[@therealvbw]

engineer gaming

[@engineergaming3]

engineer gaming

[@Ssoulseek1]

@@engineergaming3 engineer gaming

[@lunawithsol1342]

Listening to this… then immediately jumping into the album is just… absolutely haunting. The pre-existentialism you’ll experience hearing the original fade into distortion.. then continue. Is unreal.

[@FleshPanopticon.]

I like how at first, small things change. It makes you think you didn’t notice it before even though it changed. It’s like you forgot, like it’s a burning memory…

[@skybuprofen9834]

The beginnings: The patient forgets the lyrics to their favorite song from their childhood

[@broookville]

Isn't your favorite song the last thing you remember though? Not positive about it but i've heard it is

[@jahbama6202]

@@broookville yeah, it’s one of the last things you forget. I remember reading somewhere, that when a patient forgets their favourite song, they’re getting near the end of their life.

[@detectivepayne3773]

that's actually the last thing most patents forget, that's why most of them are told to whistle their favourite song so that they know the end is near when they suddenly can't remember the melody

[@Zaher74]

I forgor 💀

[@jre2h3qegr]

I hate but love how when your getting closer to the end of the video you can hear the faint sounds of the original song in the background, clinging on. It really depicts how dementia is so terrifying, you struggle to remember the greatest moments in your life as each and every one of them slowly slip away.

[@jimmyneutron3986]

Nice heart-ache

[@SackboyLBP]

You're*

[@Haven_city_civilian]

Don't worry, you'll eventually forget about it.

[@randomguy2023]

Did AI have dementia? What’s the context cause I have no idea

[@baron_nemo5792]

@@randomguy2023 this song was sampled in an album called ‘everywhere at the end of time’ about the stages of dementia.

[@laurabartlett8033]

you did an excellent job with this video, you even went as far as with the graphics! i'm a personal support worker for seniors in need of care. i'm currently studying it's just a burning memory in hopes of understanding what a patient with dementia may feel, improving my care in the long run. this means a lot to me. thank you

[@thebirdsarentreal0]

dude. this is terrifying.

[@___nttien]

Man when the “It’s just a burning memory” hit, I legit just froze. I wasn’t thinking and moving but just lay there, horrified.

[@jimmyneutron3986]

Nice heart-ache

[@Ismael-kc3ry]

Same, it’s physically effecting me

[@kieranhouliston3065]

@@Ismael-kc3ry how

[@militor_207]

@@jimmyneutron3986 more like heart attack

[@koranda2161]

Scared the shit out of me

[@KemonoKonpeito]

The fact that at 1:01 I out loud said "No! Not yet!" shows me that this album has effected my mind in terrifying ways. Knowing that my family has a long history of dementia, and I will eventually get it too is horrific. It almost makes me wish that I'll die before I get old enough to experience it.

[@leonelperezsuarezz3855]

Keep your brain active.

[@Ritton.]

@@leonelperezsuarezz3855 Please explain what you’re trying to say

[@leonelperezsuarezz3855]

@@Ritton. First of all, sorry if you didn't understand, my English is not very good. What I mean by Keep your brain active is that you do things in your old age (do crosswords, Learn new things, etc.) this helps to avoid dementia

[@Ritton.]

@@leonelperezsuarezz3855 I thought that was things to do while young but thanks anyway!

[@leonelperezsuarezz3855]

@@Ritton. In the same way you can do them in your youth

[@pumfeethermodynamics3286]

I like how towards the end the word heartache memory is the loudest, which would make sense because it would be the most rememberable words.

[@ThatsSimon4u]

This genuinely gave me chills at like the 2:34 mark, terrifyingly beautiful. Good work with blending these two songs together! Also made me tear up a bit, incredible work just in general with capturing the essence of just how scary Dementia is.

[@novalight7228]

What a wonderful song! I sure do hope it doesn’t get remixed into a depressing 6 hour album associated with the gradual take over of the mental illness that is dementia!

[@DevanK-rg3td]

Bot

[@EPICGAMER1337WOOW]

What a nice comment I hope they don’t have an anime profile picture

[@nilixstar830]

@@DevanK-rg3td I don't think that is a bot.

[@octo1818]

Stolen

[@thebrownbanana7863]

@@octo1818 actually it's a spam bot

[@ririrose1462]

This is an accurate description of a triggering deep painful memory or a childhood trauma

[@MeevinEdge]

How

[@imakedookie]

oh my lord. what if dementia is really just a fight between your painful conciousness and the persons compartmentalizing coping mechanism, and the coping mechanism is winning and taking a nefarious grip?

[@HxloDreamer]

u-um.. well- I mean- I guess.. *oh..*

[@Diamonddubbed]

oh my god, i couldn't even realize that the paintings were appearing and when i saw one of them on the guitar, i finally realized and i noticed that the more i looked into the video, there were paintings already in spots i didn't even notice. also, the saddest part of this is that when its just a burning memory slips in, you can hear that heartaches is trying to stay in, but its too late.

[@tailsdollcomunica2356]

I like how every time it shifts a part of the old photo turns into a thumbnail of a stage

[@VinMann]

Is this is what its like to slowly lose your mind?

[@moomoo2193]

yessir

[@kessagh]

yes but to be more specific, your memory...

[@JamesMuceHecz666]

Nah , this is how depersonalization feels like

[@Jane_8319]

You should go listen to the original six hour album

[@meretricious2977]

Takes about 6 hours for that

[@valentine5491]

I like to think that "It's just a burning memory" represents the patients lover who's probably dead. As the song goes on, the sample still pops up, even in stage 4. To me, this is the patient trying their hardest to remember this lover.

[@detectivepayne3773]

i think it's the patient trying to remember the actual song but they can't quite put a finger on it, they only remember the beat and one verse "it's just a burning memory"

[@anthonybernero9720]

It's both. They're trying desperately to remember the song because it's that song that helps them remember their lost lover, whom will be lost forever if they lose the memory of the song.

[@lawofseven1465]

@@detectivepayne3773 the sad thing is I sent "a burning memory" to my grandmother not knowing there was an actual song for its instrumental, and though she did know, she couldn't remember the lyrics, only the beat and one verse

[@sonyabladesbooty3890]

You're taking it too literally. The song is just about dementia, not any specific stage that it's representative of.

[@morshulinton4112]

@@detectivepayne3773 The song name "What does it matter how my heart breaks" could mean they also remember that verse.

[@pagancourier4604]

Near the end, the man trying to sing through ,”It’s just a burning memory,” sounds sad...

[@a_lbymccool1478]

The cycle of breaking down a person. Start with a high, then a subtle low, then keep the subtle low going through the high, then put them down for a longer while, shorter high, low undertone, and then low with no high. Repeat.

[@leshifty9252]

there's something so upsetting about hearing Al's voice disappear under burning memory at around 4:00 ish. like you're forgetting what his voice sounds like.

[@itsjustaburningmemory3025]

I can hear Al's voice when I listen to it's just a burning memory 😳

[@AlmondChocolateMilk]

4:09 here

[@Kahedron17]

So it's 2:00 in the morning, and I'm listening to this while I'm going to the restroom. The moment I open my door to reveal the darkness, the song flares up and I slam the door shut. I take off my headphones and back into the corner. I have not felt that much genuine fear and panic in a LONG time.

[@drenn.]

are you alright bud?

[@thegoldenplague-mask5438]

@@drenn. I hope so

[@axagorax]

Omg same but I was afraid of everything well probably because it was like 3am and theres a chair facing right at me Nightmare fuel right there

[@Prizrak131]

Did you make it out?

[@potentia16]

I Do not know how scary that would be

[@GunnarGuyVA]

Thank you for putting this in my Mix youtube, I really needed an existential crisis while doing an overnight shift.

[@ChillkittzGT]

At the 3 minute mark, this is basically what I experienced when I'm trying to find a song that I really want to hear but I can't even recognize its tone anymore. And then you get to remember its chrous, only to not find it again.

[@Vlad-ni3ju]

The "But now it's just a Burning Memory" slowly rising and slowly fading away around 3:43 is so clever. The editing not only in the audio (mashup, even?) but the image slowly mixing in with Seal's paintings is the cherry on the top. I love this video so much

[@weakw1ll]

Gang shit

[@klaus7312]

gang

[@tomemeornottomeme1864]

Sort of leads to how the song gets turned into "It's just a burning memory" - the person forgets the title of the song, but that one lyric sticks through, so that lyric is now the title in their mind.

[@PLAG6411]

HOLY SHIT I NEVER NOTICED THAT THE BACKGROUNDS ALSO CHANGE

[@fajarkocak122]

Not just that, someone hearing this has died

[@Neko.091]

The transition is perfect. Along with audio, the use of images from the album slowly replacing and “filling in” for the slow memory loss is amazing representation of what’s to come/happened.

[@_pawzl]

lol we have the same pfp

[@Neko.091]

@@_pawzl Oh wow we do

[@TheRealHemlok]

@@Neko.091 puro got me like

[@TheRealHemlok]

@@_pawzl puro got me like

[@pudimshogun]

I like changed :} *Lol am a furry and you can't defeat 🍪*

[@RetrOHeaD5805]

This version is so uneasing, disturbing and unsettling Truly the best thing with these two songs !

[@wingz1595]

This makes want to cry for some reason