His Brother Was Forced to Shoot Their Father - His Story.

[@spectrumspectre]

Hey look! it's me! the person in the video. I'm willing to answer any questions yall have for me :)

[@Azeal]

thanks so much for sharing your story with the world, I'm so glad I met you

[@Maverickoffical2023]

I don't have any questions I just want to say I'm sorry you had to go through all that, hope your doing better and in a better place ❤. I also hope you family is doing better and Im sorry all of you had to go through that, all of you deserve everything you have now.

[@vampirekiittii]

im so sorry u had to go through that and i hope u r doing a lot better

[@meatman8867]

I hope your doing better

[@Rouge-Angel8]

no questions, just hope your family doing better

[@timefragment5387]

I hope all of these people you interview are doing okay because everyone deserves a peaceful life.

[@Azeal]

agreed.

[@Maxikxng]

agreed x2

[@wars30real]

agreed x 3

[@ethanakers3922]

agreed x 4

[@kiyu3229]

Agreed x5

[@vaniellys]

Every person who has the courage to share their trauma with you remind us that our default stance towards people should be kindness. We don't know what some people might go through, and any little act can make a difference.

[@Azeal]

so true

[@white_mage]

i don't get why people is usually mean to others. my default is to always be kind and try to help. i don't understand why this is so difficult for most of the people i know.

[@redgreen2453]

@@white_mage Idk I’ll always be cordial to people I don’t know, sure, but I’ve had enough people take advantage of my kindness that suspicion will always be my default

[@white_mage]

@@redgreen2453 i don't trust people at all ._.

[@ianmkgaming4522]

yeah tho for some like me i cant help but to judge others by the cover as well trust issues

[@30035XD]

This describes exactly what my family was like. My dad is also a retired military and did ALL those things she talks about. Must be a pattern. He also have brain issues due to injuries and was retired as a disabled person. I had to physically fight him to save both my mum and my brother and I came very very close to having to kill him a couple of times and I prepared for it in my head. I feel deeply for this people and I am sorry to hear my life story repeats itself elsewhere. This world is full of tragedy and almost all involved are victims.

[@whispersguppies]

I believe this person uses He/Him pronouns

[@30035XD]

​@@whispersguppies oh fuck all the way off please.

[@spectrumspectre]

@@whispersguppies yepyep! thanks :)

[@robno1033]

Sorry that you had to go through all of that. And sorry if this may sound insensitive, but I'm curious, did it feel good to beat up your dad? Like, after everything he's down you finally got to get some punches in while keeping your family safe. Sorry if this is insensitive, but its just this part of the human condition that I'm trying to come to understand. I've always been a revenge guy and I always imagine the idea of the victim fighting back or even getting to get the kill on their abuser *should* in theory feel cathartic, but unfortunately there doesn't seem to be much data on victims actually succeeding in their revenge. So I'm curious, did it feel good to fight back? If you had to kill him, do you think it would feel good or bad?

[@nathanperoandrei3841]

@@robno1033 If the dude was a no-redemption asshole black heart type of dude, most people would probably relish it, but if its a dad with a mental handicap, it would probably confusing, angering, real sad, and less satisfying. Then again, I'm never really the type to do revenge seriously type of dude (although I do jokingly but never too far) so meh idk.

[@kubakornijenko1927]

I'd call it a self defense killing. His brother realy saved them all that day. And it's so nice to hear a story where police understood that the kiling was in sealth defence.

[@kubakornijenko1927]

@@hamburgerjones695 oops! I'm Polish and I'm not the best in English.

[@redgreen2453]

I’ve dealt with many (American) policemen and I can say the devastating truth is that they got insanely lucky to get an understanding officer like that. 9 out of 10 times this story would have ended with the brother getting life in prison and the mother getting harassed and fined into bankruptcy by the state. Just your daily reminder that while there are good individuals in the police department, cops as an institution are NOT on your side.

[@joeyberg5765]

@@kubakornijenko1927 It's alright! Your English is actually pretty good! I could still easily understand what you meant to say, keep practicing! :)

[@kubakornijenko1927]

@@joeyberg5765 thank's!

[@cakeeatingpirate]

@@redgreen2453 again, like what the other person said, police don't have the legal power to give them life sentences, that is something decided in court. this isn't the medieval times when crime was handled on the street

[@nothankyou36]

I can hear in their voice, the shakiness and the nerves and how hard it was to share the story. Everyone who shares stories here they’re amazing, these things can be hard to share and these people are so brave (I know people sometimes don’t like that word for some reason) Thank you for reading my somewhat ramble.

[@JamCham]

There are 2 symbols most seen in Dishonored the one that I think it is, is called the outsider symbol. The other is the plague sign. The first one is extremely beautiful it's what I've wanted as a tattoo. The symbol is a sort of way to say that you have over come an immense amount of doubt. If it is the tattoo he got, he choose the right tattoo. You and your siblings are remarkable people.

[@Azeal]

Remarkable indeed.

[@spectrumspectre]

you're right, it was the mark of the outsider

[@spectrumspectre]

@@Azeal was that was fucking PUN

[@spencergarza3750]

The Mark of the Outsider dose fit as it is based of the Triskal which is used both as a calendar or as a symbol for the circle of life. The Mark also has three possible tiers of power. The Three Tiers being Defensive, Offensive, and Intuition. It was most definitely the right choice to go for.

[@aussieassassin6398]

i plan on getting a mark of the outsider as a tattoo because someone bought me the game not long before they passed as a way to honor them

[@SaiichiBloodbane]

Another strong person, Azeal you really are blessed and a beacon for people like us.

[@Azeal]

thank you for the kind words Grim, always nice to hear from you man

[@Skylikesavation]

I read beacon as raccoon that was certainly interesting

[@Cloverkitty]

@@Skylikesavation We need more raccoons like Azeal.

[@RealSpookyGuy]

@@Skylikesavation lel, i feel like a piece of shit for laughing in this situation.

[@pepperonipikachu5414]

I relate to the CPTSD a lot. My family is going through something like that right now although it is less severe. Thank you for sharing, it helps bc I feel a little bit less alone :)

[@spectrumspectre]

that was the intention. hope everything turns out alright for u 🫂

[@yaanno]

Seek help if possible. Early intervention could prevent later issues. You are definitely not alone, take care!

[@Azeal]

I'm so glad you felt heard through this video! You certainly are not alone in your experiences or your feelings :)

[@pepperonipikachu5414]

@@yaanno I’ve been in group counseling for months, I’ll be fine 😌

[@yaanno]

@@pepperonipikachu5414 Great :)

[@zemilkman5450]

This is a horrible situation, sad to see people go through this. I want to give a hug this person now

[@Vincychs]

They aint sad about it tho.

[@exdianas]

@@Vincychs ???????????

[@Vincychs]

@@exdianas what.

[@Vincychs]

@@exdianas learn english if you cant understand.

[@MrMoon-hy6pn]

@@Vincychs Everyone can use a hug

[@unknown20005]

every story makes me want to give them a hug if they are ok with it that is and give some support and comforting word’s i was glad you gave the one person a hug in the one video cause they definitely needed it and i hope you give those hugs who need them

[@spectrumspectre]

🫂

[@fluffywolfo3663]

I have a friend whose life story is easily worthy of one of these videos. I'm not giving specifics cause it's nowt my story to tell. But so often, you give a story that just makes me think "I need to go hug this person right now."

[@HA11EYS_COM3T]

You can really hear the pain in his voice. What a truly tragic situation. Hope you have a good life - a better one, at least. That's what you deserve, especially after all that.

[@ethanakers3922]

Azeal doing gods work helping these people and listening to their stories. I hope the person in the videos family has a long happy life.

[@Oosjhteuikmm]

My dad is so incredibly similar to yours I literally felt every word about abuse, gaslighting, total control, accusations.. my brother is also being raised fully in his "men don't cry"-policy and I'm his "favourite daughter" that's being pressured into almost everything he believes is right. And my mother being worn-out with constant fighting... And older sister being the one to stood up (even though she's a half-sister and doesn't really keep in touch with us anymore)... It's like I'm listening about my family. And my brother being suicidal, and Twitch helping me to pull through, and family divorce that still hadn't happened... I had thought of my dad dying (like choking or crashing) and me just being apathetic about it felt so surreal. I also felt I was wrong thinking like that. Now I'm certain that I have all the right to feel that way. I've been phycologicly tortured. My whole family was. By that despotic authoritarian asshole

[@syrupdoesstuff1568]

This is amazing. I'm glad people are able to share what they've gone through. I have a friend who was taken to a mental hospital for 4 years. I think it would be phenomenal if they could tell you about it!

[@syrupdoesstuff1568]

@@Azeal Hey, Man! Sorry for the late response. I'll talk to her and see if she wants to. Thanks for the opportunity!

[@shasneed2]

I hope these live a great life. The title alone is just heavily depressing...

[@Azeal]

same, thank you for the support toward them!

[@RusticYT123]

I wish the best for everyone out there that has gone through anything

[@TheDesperFamily]

Me as well

[@chillcannongames5758]

Keep being a crutch for those who would never be able to tell their story without you. Keep doing the good.

[@Azeal]

thank you

[@jimvenanzio6561]

Azeal is championing them and their stories in ways we haven't even realized could be done. As such, i'm not fully sure the right word to use would be "Crutch", but something of a voicebox instead--because of him, their voices and stories are being heard.

[@chillcannongames5758]

@@jimvenanzio6561 why you here. Your criticism isn't needed especially after he's seen and liked it. He knows what I mean, I know what I mean. That's all that matters.

[@wahooman4348]

he’s saying crutch is usually connected to something that if kept around to long becomes a problem

[@chillcannongames5758]

@@wahooman4348 people use crutches tell they get better. Do you know what they do with those crutches usually? They pass them to some one who needs them. Think literal crutch.

[@Madlaph]

Hey Azeal, I want to say thank you, I didn’t get the chance to comment on your latest community thread. I really enjoy what your doing. Your giving a safe place for people to talk about their life without being judged. But it’s also important to consider your own mental health. I know you said you lacked motivation and that’s completely alright. Take care of yourself, your an amazing pearl. Not a lot of people do what you do and it baffles me how kind and amazing you are as a person. I’m rambling but I wanted to say it’s ok to take a break due to lack of motivation especially because a project didn’t get the attention you thought it would, but I’m pretty sure that whatever happens, I’m still gonna be here to watch you make people feel loved and listened

[@jarlofpropane5368]

I want to give you a hug so bad omg these videos really show the reality people go through that you don't really think about

[@spectrumspectre]

🫂

[@carton5235]

Honestly, when they got to talking about the little things in life that kept them alive I teared up quite a bit

[@dusksnothere2690]

all of your videos are masterfully made and engaging it’s the some of the best content on the platform and is so important and so important to hear stories and empathize with people

[@thelostvlogsgaming3101]

keep trucking on as a severe cptsd survivor i can trulu say i truly reapect all of you im so sorry this happenes to you i can littreally hear the tears in your voice you and your family are angles who just deserve peace i pray that you get one that peace one day and it lasts forever.

[@BubblySudz]

I hope they’re in a better environment now. Much love to them and their family 💕

[@SuussyBakka]

28:10 - 28:43 I understand this from experience… I try not to think about the trauma… but as you said, there will still be remanence/pieces of what happened… sometimes, I get the feelings of my memories and that in itself seems to be a stronger trigger for me… I hope you heal from your trauma

[@Mxi_5]

I'm really glad that they survived, and, I'm really sorry for what happened to you. I believe it was Spectrum, right? I'm sorry that you had to go through that horrible thing for 15 years, and I'm glad it's over. I just came across this channel today, also. Anyway, I hope you're doing well, and I hope that you can eventually forget that experience. Lots of love, from me. Glitch.

[@DrBolt-hw6hy]

These stories can be very intense at times but, while I really feel for these people you talk to and sometimes I want to shed a tear for them but for some reason I just can't, I want to help people who have been through so much pain overcome their trauma. Many of these stories have made me have a different outlook on the world around me. And my heart goes out to everyone who has been in similar situations to the person in this video and everyone else you have talked to. Stories like this will show people in similar situations that there is a way out.

[@Quirary]

Azeal, you are an amazing person for giving people a chance to talk about stuff like this, I don't know how to describe it beyond "your helping people better then I could begin to imagine to", and for that alone I am grateful.

[@Azeal]

Thank you so much for the kind words :)

[@Quirary]

@@Azeal the truth costs nothing

[@Quirary]

@@Azeal But I've gone through something I find traumatic that I'm not yet ready to talk about, but seeing that other people have somebody to talk to helps a lot, so please, don't forget that your a great person

[@hungrymusicwolf]

Their brother was very brave for not just for being willing to stand up for his family, but for knowing that he would have to do so for such a long time and holding on to his will in such a situation.

[@leejohnson3270]

14:44 that is a horrifying feeling. I only feel like that way one time back when I was a kid, I think I only started crying because I forced myself to just so that my brothers would stop looking at me with their tear filled eyes and stop their judgement and the horror you feel when you try to figure out why it's so num, what is wrong with me why can't I just be like everyone else, why can't I feel what they feel, how can they love me after they know I never felt anything like they did. it took me around 8-10 years to get over that and I still won't forget it

[@littlemoth4956]

Get over what? It’s not clear what you’re referring to at all

[@SettingSunAlt]

I felt that same numbness when my grandma died. I just.. didnt really feel that much, which is still mindboggling to me, because she WAS sweet. she WAS a kind woman who we helped a lot. And... i just felt nothing when she died. It hurts.

[@supersupersomething]

Their brother saved his family's lives.

[@A_mouse_that_is_pink]

this person and his family have been through a lot and my heart goes out to him and his family for having to deal with it. godspeed...

[@bowendodson1873]

The dishonored tattoo says a whole lot about how he feels about the situation

[@SoloKyoto]

I understand he might not feel this way and it's really hard to see it this way but your brother is a hero.

[@magnoliasilcox904]

Poor guy. I don't blame him or his brother for anything. May his dad rest in peace in a place where his mind is at peace.

[@alexanderleonardi3625]

his dad deserves to burn and failure to wish that on such an abuser is to confess to committing the same abuse yourself, monster

[@simpledj509chromo7]

God damn. My dad, my sister, and me all lost my mom to suicide in 2003. It was hard for us and it still haunts us, but I can't even imagine this. I wish only the best and I hope you can continue to grow and prosper. Keep up the fight and please stay well.

[@Hope-Truth-Light]

R.I.P.

[@kieranstephenson3187]

That is such a sad story... It's good to hear that things are going better now, and I hope they stay that way because nobody should have to go through something as horrific as that.

[@noura.4766]

this is all heartbreaking to hear. Hope everything is okay now and they're all alright

[@user-fb6sg3uy2z]

Wow, this story hits different. I feel so infinitely sorry for you and your family. If you even see this, I really hope you're doing good

[@spdcherry4478]

I hope whatever your going through is good and I'm saying this to every person on this earth and especially you Azeal.

[@Azeal]

[@spdcherry4478]

@@Azeal oh and btw the reason i put the comment is because I think everyone deserves peace

[@bin458]

What a truly inspirational story we will all support you. Thankyou for sharing such an uplifting story with us all!!!

[@TGCPhilip]

"A normal person should be crying in this situation" my situation was extremely toned down and mundane but when my grandfather died, I was in the same house and the whole day was basically building up to it, I just sat there, dry eyes, I just accepted it. My mam did go up to me when she was crying and hugged me, I did start crying as a result of that, but I still think about it, how.. accepting I was of it. If I should have been more emotional. I can usually be expressive when I want to be but also not be expressive as well, this isn't cool, this isn't something to brag about. I sometimes believe I'm insane. But hey! What do I know? I'm just some random kid on the place with Deviantart!

[@ntfoperative9432]

People grieve in different ways. Some will bawl their eyes out like you'd expect, but some grieve by accepting that it happened. Hell, I use the Dia de Los Muertos method, celebrating what they did in life, instead of grieving that they're dead

[@djsaidez271]

I had a very similar experience to you with my own grandpa's death. I don't think I've ever really cried because of him. But I mostly have to serve as a shoulder for my mom since it hit much more deeply to her. If it helps, I'm autistic, and I seem to process emotions quite weirdly. I still don't understand what's going on in my head sometimes.

[@BusterAnimations]

This story really showed me that I am not the only one going through stuff like this. I was well, abused and neglected by my father for most of my life. I have 2 younger siblings, a brother and a sister. We had gone through foster care, domestic abuse, isolation, and a lot of stuff you shared in your experience. Me and my siblings are living happily with our grandparents. But I do get flashbacks and I too disassociate. I have just never been diagnosed with anything because of a bad experience in the foster care system and a lack of money. I hope you are doing alright. I'm glad your brother did what he did and that he is still alive. I'm glad you stayed too. I wish your family the best. Let there be more happiness in the world, because you guys deserve it.

[@tracyeshelman1796]

🫂

[@sunnex474]

Hey Azeal, I think that it should become a thing where after these people's stories, if they are clearly traumatic, then you should virtually hug them like the person did in the Father Murderer video

[@Azeal]

This is a very old recording, nowadays I usually do and I appreciate the input :)

[@En_The_S1LLY]

Its sad how you can hear kinda the sadness in the person's voice, I wish I could hug them :

[@gatetm]

him*

[@jaketufford936]

Your brother is no outsider. He's the chosen one. Go with peace and love.

[@evanlamartiniere1838]

The medical paperwork getting lost thing is standard when dealing with government/Military. Chances are, you won't get what you want quickly

[@Azeal]

Yep...

[@wraithripper2365]

Typically because they know they could be the root of the problem. From what I hear and what I've seen of ex-military members is that most of the mental health issues they encounter are linked to their service and they almost never get help leading to horrible stories like this. While I cannot speak for all of his issues I can see where the major factors are and its quite awful that if proper care were taken in, 1: his medical discharge for ptsd and 2: his MAJOR concussion that the hospital brushed off, this whole story could have been avoided.

[@starshifter4]

I'm sorry that you all had to go through that and deal with all of it after. But I'm glad that you all are doing better. Thank you for sharing your story.

[@v4n1ty92]

Hey wake up, Azeal dropped a new vid.

[@Azeal]

:)

[@hizumizaigo4219]

This makes sad, I can't imagine what it's like for people telling their story on here.. it makes me want to hug every single one of them

[@spectrumspectre]

🫂

[@motokokoto]

What a crazy story. Honestly this was the ultimate recipe for disaster. Alot of the times, it turns out alot worse when these events happen. I feel so sorry for the brother, I hope he lives a fullfilling life

[@jaycr0ss292]

For anyone that needs to hear/read this: Please be there for yourself without any judgement.

[@Azeal]

Aww, this actually made me feel a bit better today! I hope it does the same for others :)

[@turqussy]

(,:

[@supersupersomething]

How you described Complex PTSD, that it effects every waking moment. Thank you for saying that. I have that too. I was abused for 8 years as a little kid by the person who was supposed to be my dad (he will never be called dad by me, that piece of s--- should be in prison). The judge and local court system completely f---ed over my mom and me, but 8 years later I wrote letters documenting what had happened to me, and Child Protective Services got me out of there (that it took 8 years for anything to be done is madness). I had to live in a foster home for some months, but my foster family was kind. Then I got to live with my mom, who's a good mom. You wish like hell for the after effects to just go away. I basically describe CPTSD as being unmoored, like the ground is always 1 inch thick and you could fall through at any moment. I've gone on to actually do a fair amount of cool and like, helpful to other people things in my life. But I still feel, I guess the word is fragmented. I still feel fragmented. Thank you for sharing your story. It was helpful to me. I'm so very, very sorry that s--- happened to you, and I'm so very glad you made it through, and honestly, that that a---ole is dead.

[@Rouge-Angel8]

Stuff like this is so messy, I had a situation which almost turned out like this too, but we all catch it before it all crashed down. I know why people hate talking about this stuff and why some place will blacklist list you. No one did anything wrong, not even your father. which is the sad part. He shouldn't have gone into that situation in the first place or he needed to cry to someone to let out all the pain that he had. yep it was very wrong to treat your family like that. I feel sorry for your lose about not having a father figure in the early stages of your life and I pray that your family are doing better now and keeps on doing better. Your brother did a job that no one wants to do, and he did it right. Hope anyone that is struggling with anything like this or anything near to this is able to get out and be happy afterwards.

[@martinbat1164]

Man, I feel like you would never know this type of conversation would ever happen in real life. Seriously thanks for sharing the story and hope he is doing many times better now.

[@warscar9400]

Hey azeal, glad to see another video out so soon, I’m not sure if you deleted your post from yesterday or not but I hope you keep making videos and that you keep your motivation to make videos, have a blessed one brother!

[@zacharytaylor190]

I can't help but think about the parallels to Phineas Gauge as with the brain damage sustained after the motorcycle accident. Albeit, I doubt his frontal lobe was entirely pulverized as it was with Phineas, the symptoms seem somewhat similar. In both cases, personality shifts occurred towards aggression and anger management issues. Very unfortunate.

[@honeyspice8989]

Damn, a seemingly good man turned into a bad person because of things outside of his control and some within his own control. I’m so sorry you had to go through that.

[@alexanderleonardi3625]

he was merely allowed to become what he, no, IT, always was

[@smooth-operator.7522]

Holy hell... This is almost exactly like my stepfather, who had PTSD from many of his combat experiences. He deteriorated rapidly when his PTSD got worse and all that fun jazz. Though we never had to physically hurt him.

[@lililililililili8667]

I bet they lost and redacted all the medical records because they feared some sort of repercussions from prescribing him an insane amount of opiates

[@marektayon6750]

I'm sorry for everything you had to go through. But I'm very glad you made it through all of that with your family

[@mebatz47]

Tip from personal experience: when your mother divorces an abusive dad it doesn't solve any issues, you still have to see him because of custody. always seems to be the fathers that were in the army.

[@wellidontknow1941]

It's always the cutest 3d avatar users that have the saddest and most horrifying experiences to share

[@kai_alex]

when he was talking about coming out as trans and changing his name to his real name and cutting his hair that made me smile because i am also a trans man and i was so happy when i finally submitted the papers back in april (i get my id back soon)

[@Pan_Highlighter]

These stories are always so crazy, I hope that this person is able to get over this.

[@paranormalplanet5336]

god, i went through such a similar thing with how my father treated me and my mother. i also am trans masc, autistic, and now have complex ptsd. i only got out of that situation a few months ago, and this gives me hope that things will be better. thank you

[@tracyeshelman1796]

🫂

[@supermariowafer749]

I don't usually cry at sad videos, but this one got me right in the feels

[@grimdevotee9432]

This reminds me of my childhood some what, but this....this is on a whole worse level. I'm so sorry this individual's family had to go through this.

[@J4hjhh]

i hope nobody else has to deal with all the problems that the people you interviewed and are interviewing in the future, i just wish this world was better and your interviews really help epread awareness about whats happening in the world. I hope you and the people you interview(ed) the best! Keep doing you thing, i really love you for all you do :)

[@Sickyears]

I'm so sorry, I look up to you for what you've gone through. I hope you're doing okay now, whoever you are, you're very strong for being able to come out of that, and tell your story. ❤

[@MrTurkey2138]

Furry

[@func_e]

I love how he moves on from the trauma. he always finds things to look forward to. I love it

[@LuckyHeartStudios]

Just looking at the title makes me afraid of what this person has gone through, holy shit.

[@just_typical]

Nobody deserves to go through what you went through. You are a really strong person mentally to be able to go through that.

[@andrepalomaro353]

Those kids are heroes, not in a good happy story way, but they saved themselves. It sounds like it really would have been the other way around eventually with his problems.

[@redleaf6560]

“Peace in broken homes is never an option…but you can still find calm,find YOUR calm”

[@benji-menji]

My life could have been like yours if it weren't for my mom. She was able to run away early and was able to get me and all my siblings away from my father who seems to be doing a lot better now a days with a person. I do really wish I could understand my dad though. He might not have been as bad as the one in the story but from what I have heard, he displayed similar characteristics. I just want to know if it's because reality would slip away if everything isn't neatly placed or what ever else it may be. Not being able to understand him is still one of my biggest regrets. I am suspicious about the redacted medical records though. It could be your dad's work but with what we know about this condition, I feel as though we might still be missing something. After all, he's not sociopath that's for sure.

[@Pre.C_King]

It's horrible to have PTSD and have the anger come to the surface when you're around your family.. Never have my anger been about them or actually directed towards them... But I still feel like the worst kind of human being whenever..

[@Changingtesting]

The outro song fits so well for the ending, I hope that Ivy posts it on their channel

[@Azeal]

Ivy is such an amazing musician yeah :)

[@cirol847]

i hardly feel sadness or empathy but this completely broke me. the amount of trauma this has possibly inflicted on ALL their lives makes my heart ache.

[@otakumangastudios3617]

When I was 13, in terms of miracles happening all around me, I sensed the same thing. Especially when it came to the suicide thing, I remember I felt suicidal when I was 13 because I had frequent intrusive thoughts that I was a dangerous person, and I believe them, to the point that I completely isolated myself from friends and family, and I would just lock myself in my room all day long and never eat or drink. I remember the few times that I would go out, for example I remember one Friday night going out to a neighbors house for dinner in honor of the Sabbath, our host started talking about some sort of spiritual concept of thinking, that many of our thoughts are fleeting, and he compared them to clouds passing over the peak of a mountain. They come and go, but they are fleeting, and have no meaning. They have no real association with the mountain, except for it was near the mountain at a certain time at some point. That’s what intrusive thoughts are like, and then I remember one of the few times I allowed myself to hang out with my father, because I was even worried to be around my parents, because I was afraid I was a threat to them at the time, I remember a past time he and I would do together often, was watching KZbin videos. I remember there was an ad that came before one particular KZbin video, and it was an ad for nothing at all in particular, except for reminding its audiences that, just because a violent train of thought went through your mind, doesn’t mean that represents you or who you are. It gave the example of you being on a plane and you hear a baby crying, and you have a passing thought of enduring the baby to get them to stop. It said that just because that thought happened across your mind, doesn’t mean that that’s something you would sincerely actually ponder or even do. I remember also hearing this one religious leader give a sermon exactly on this topic, to remember that a thought is just a piece of electricity, and so if you have a thought that does not align with who you are, it’s basically in other words just a glitch in your brain, and does not represent who you are at all by any means.If that’s not miracles, I don’t know what is. If that’s not enough proof that there is a loving God, then I don’t know what is.

[@imnotmeimabisexualpanda.1122]

When I was a kid, I was worried my dad would kill us. He was physically and mentally abusive. I remember calling my mom when I was 10-12, terrified that my dad was going to kill me, because he always screamed and hit me extremely hard, even though I was a literally a child. I’m extremely happy this never happened to me. Ive almost killed myself because I didn’t think I could escape.

[@tracyeshelman1796]

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[@NikoJr.]

I wonder how Dan and Phil would react knowing one of their videos saved someone from suicide

[@SpeedSeekerMoto]

I always wonder what happens to people involved in this kind of insane situation. They sound like a real survivor who though heavily damaged is pushing through with vigor. Congratulations on the resilience. I went through some messed up shit around the same age and it’s the worst god damn period of life to go through trauma. It damages you for life as you got hit with it right in the prime of your development. Stay strong homie.

[@BlackReshiram]

holy fuck im so sorry he had to go through this shit.

[@nothark]

I smiled surprisingly a lot in this video. I'm so glad you and your family are doing better, you really deserve it.

[@robno1033]

Amazing story, and you and your family are strong for surviving through that. Especially since you all actually achieved something that many victims don't get to experience, revenge and justice. Like if Cinderella didn't have the Prince as an option so she does what she needs to do and takes out her evil stepmother directly. And its so hard to find actually accounts like this since it seems the actual revenge part is (unfortunately) not a common occurence, and so far this current instance yields surprising results. It seems like at least in this specific situation, the tale of revenge itself not receiving immediate catharsis is quite intriguing. Even after the point the abusive manipulation from the father should have "worn off" enough to allow any sort of pride in the defensive kill, there wasn't any catharsis. Though I suppose in this specific instance, the frontal lobe damage does garner some sympathy, I don't know how much of that cause an unchangeable nature compared to him just being a bad person already before the accident, but I suppose that could be a part of the sympathy. I may need to search for a story that doesn't have the frontal lobe damage as a value, but still no less a tragic situation. Once again, you and your family are strong and I hope this stories inspires people in that situation to fight back and do what needs to be done to protect those oneself and loved ones.

[@Omnywrench]

Is it bad that I laughed when the dad said "you're gonna shoot me with my own gun"? Just because it reminded me of that "what are you gonna do stab me" meme

[@davidmartinez2407]

My God I'm addicted to these videos

[@justalpha9138]

I'm super glad that this person is around despite everything and that they now have a genuinely nice father figure in their lives now! That's something that can make me cry. 😿:)

[@Lynx-tj5ip]

I'm autistic to and hope that things get better.

[@northamerica5142]

Theres a certain button being pressed because the person sounds like their constantly on the verge of crying. They require a hug, and I aim to provide. I'm not good with empathy but sorry about your trauma. No human being deserves such distressing circumstances. If you need a talk, you got a friend in me.

[@captainAlex258]

I was depressed and almost ended it but my angels stopped me and here I am today in love with ships, vrchat and roleplay military

[@Azeal]

I'm so glad you made it out ok :)

[@captainAlex258]

@@Azeal I'm glad too which is why when I get everything set I'm bro shaking u and who knows maybe u and I can be battle buddies in vrchat coast guard

[@A_Wüten]

I'm an Army brat, too. Luckily, my dad's situation wasn't nearly as severe, but I've heard too many horror stories, and I wish we had better support systems for vets. I know my dad means well, but his temper can be super short. Nothing violent, thankfully, just an attitude. Thanks for sharing the story and I wish more people talked about things like this because it can potentially help people through their struggles and hopefully lead to changes in our social support programs here in the US.

[@EvanCops]

this is part of why i love making videos. 27:17 Its my hope that i can give back to someone what was given to me in my times of stress Although I never went through anything close to this.

[@oldmanlover]

Oh my. that's horrible D: i hope their family and the person themself is doing better now! i'm so sorry for them :(

[@finnthecheese2846]

Words cannot express just how awful this must've been for him. On another note it legit sounds like his father was doing some shady nonsense for the government, may still have been.

[@yikaii]

I noticed he mentioned content creators a lot in the video, crediting them for him getting through a tough time. I want to remind you to not discount your own hard work and determination. The content creators were used as a form of distraction and anything else could have done that. It was from your own efforts that you managed to get through this horrible situation. I'm glad your life is going better now. You deserve it man.

[@torib796]

It's really spooky how similar his dad and my stepdad were, and how similar our situations are. I don't know what the conversation was like when my mom finally kicked the asshole out because I had been living at college at that point, but it must have been scary. I'm glad my older younger brother was there. He used to threaten all the time that if we called the cops, he'd shoot the cops and then himself, so we never did. We would have rather him hurt and terrorize us than kill innocent strangers or have my youngest brother have to watch his dad die because the cops beat him to it. After the divorce my stepdad attempted suicide. It messed me up at the time, I remember the part of me that loved him hoping he'd live, but there's some fucked up part of me that wishes he'd succeeded. I'm terrified I'm going to run into him someday. Your brother was very brave. You were very brave to deal with that man. I'm glad your family made it out alive and you guys are thriving. Us, too.

[@tracyeshelman1796]

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[@Gatorade_Man]

omg, imagine going through this, im so sorry that this had happened to you bro.