HOLY 40 Christian Challenge Day 1: Become Unrecognizable in 40 Days | Holy Girl Diaries, Ep. 2

[@ashleyhetherington_]

JOIN HOLY 40 HERE ✨ ashleyhetherington.myflodesk.com/holy40 Make sure you pre-order my new book to get your free bonus & join the launch team with 2k+ other girls also wanting to grow in their walk w/ God! 🤍 thehoneyscoop.com/launch

[@Elevator1976]

Sister,link is not working holy40 One

[@starry.shadow.92]

Im gonna join the holy 40! Who is with me?

[@refqaaitlaachir5767]

I'll be with you!

[@Juliac09]

I’ll be with you too!💗

[@kaitelynn_morgan]

me girl!!!

[@Anamika_lamgu17]

I'll do this...🌸 May Jesus gives me his strength to work on this ✝️

[@kathym322]

@@Anamika_lamgu17amen God bless you.❤

[@AlyssaJordan252]

Don't we all love seeing christian youtubers like Ashley ! I definetly do. I started watching ur Channel 3 years ago when i was 13 now i am 16 and i have learned so much through the bibel, the word of God and through KZbinrs like u Ashley who encourage us Gods children to grow our relationship with God (Jesus Christ). I love God so much for what he is and has doing in many new believers lifes as well as my life. May God bless u sister and everyone else.

[@JosephineJullie]

Amen sister ❤️ I am also 16 yo

[@AlyssaJordan252]

YAY that makes me so happy@@JosephineJullie

[@shaylenkylie]

Love this ❤ I’m 16 too

[@__.Miaa.__]

I’ll pray for you :)

[@llwl]

I love how cheery her videos are - even in the authentic emotional moments, God is central in them and it is so uplifting

[@SweetPea112]

Bible Reading tip: The book of Proverbs (aka the book of knowledge) has 31 chapters. Most months of the year have 31 days. Read a chapter a day, and journal about what the Lord taught you! In a month you have read an entire book of the 66 books in the Bible! 🥰

[@riri7009]

Please everyone remember: To read your bible or do anything with Jesus ✝️ To drink enough water 💧 To eat something healthy 🍉 To treat yourself with some of your favorite sweets 🍫🍦 To rest and relax 💤 To do your favorite hobbies 🎨 To try to move your body 🏄🏻‍♀️ To be nice and caring 🫱🏼‍🫲🏻 To spread Jesus's love ❤

[@RachelBlack97]

Amen! I love this! ❤

[@PrincessKakwanzi]

I'm a 10 Yr old girl really looking up to Ashley ❤❤and I really believe that even though I'm young I can still have a good relationship with Jesus ❤ Thank u Ashley and BTW I have done these things for a week and still praying to God that I can still keep up the work 😊thanks so much sis ❤❤😁💗

[@Kaiacalvin]

I pray your relationship with Jesus continues to grow ❤❤

[@__.Miaa.__]

Never give up I’m a teenager and Jesus has saved my life so many times God bless u and I’ll pray for you :)

[@ZenaCristiana]

This is amazing God bless you girlie ❤❤❤❤

[@victorianpoet]

Love knows no bounds with Jesus! Proud of you!!

[@societyvs.fantasy3475]

Yes, yes you can. Do not let anyone tell you that just because you are ten you can not do great things, that you can’t have a real relationship with God.

[@victorianpoet]

Revert Catholic here celebrating Lent, on this holy mission with you all. May God’s peace be with you. ❣️

[@xokelseyxo9238]

Hi Ashley, I am in love with this series! I am 31 years old and I was raised Catholic. My uncle is a priest. I am in a season of wanting to grow deeper and closer in my relationship with Jesus. I recently just bought myself my very first Bible. I have been reading it everyday since it came home with me. I am currently reading Matthew. I love to listen to worship music as well. I want to start becoming a little more disciplined. I want to start waking up early, before 8:00 AM, even on my days off. I want to spend a half hour to an hour with Jesus in the morning before I go to work. This video was so inspiring and pushed me to really do it. I adore your endless fire and love for Jesus. I also love how close you are with your brother. I am very close with my brother as well. We are 2 years apart. I truly believe that Jesus helped guide me in finding your beautiful, inspiring channel. You truly have such a beautiful heart and soul, Ashley. Thank you so much for just being you. I am so grateful to have found you. Sending you so much appreciation and love from Long Island, NY. 🤍✝

[@victorianpoet]

Hi Kelsey! I hope all is well. I just wanted to say that your comment really resonates with me. I, too, was raised Catholic and am on the same spiritual wavelength as you. I’m currently reading Matthew as well, and I love it so much! Keep up the awesome work! Take care. ❤️

[@xokelseyxo9238]

@@victorianpoet Wow! That is awesome.

[@yg3646vie]

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[@UnavailableOffline]

I was born into a Catholic family, my uncle is a priest also and my grand uncle is a bishop, aunts are servers.. etc. I’m right now trying to grow my passion for Christ, after reading Jesus’s message to the Ephesians in Revelation. The study commentary said this which shook me: “They persisted as disciples of Jesus. Yet their love for truth is stronger than their passion for Jesus. The concept of not staying true to their “first love” may mean not only their love for Jesus but also their love for each-other.” Layman’s commentary

[@emmier6038]

Ashley, I can't tell you how much you have made an impact on my life. I went from knowing about Jesus to truly knowing him. Your content inspires me so much❤ thank you!

[@JmenChristpas]

Praise the Lord :)!!

[@TheSacred_Necklace]

❤️✝️

[@AngelikaCooper]

Hey Ashley🤍 I turn 25 this month and I’m in a really busy season of life. I watch my niece full time and then work a job 20 hours a week on my feet(in the evenings) it’s been really hard to find a routine where I can discipline myself to wake up earlier, read the Bible, and take care of myself in general. I tend to eat the free food from work(cfa) because it’s so much easier at 10/11pm to eat that then come home and make something. Pray for my discipline to become stronger🤍

[@teabubbles4ever]

aw I’m 99’ as well! hope u have good community around you + praying for you sis! 💓

[@Sunnyforlife1234]

Praying that God helps you to make space .The best thing you can do is TELL HIM . Tell him you want to make more time for him and discipline for your spiritual life and once your heart is pure and you’re speaking the truth ,have expectancy he will make room in your life ..pay attention so you don’t miss it .God bless you

[@Sunnyforlife1234]

Praying that God helps you to make space .The best thing you can do is TELL HIM . Tell him you want to make more time for him and discipline for your spiritual life and once your heart is pure and you’re speaking the truth ,have expectancy he will make room in your life ..pay attention so you don’t miss it .God bless you

[@ikliz8797]

who else gets excited when ash posts a video? 💕

[@Melissa-jx6cy]

Ash thank you so much for making the Holy40 challenge available at no cost! 🥺💌🫂May it bring so many of us girlies including myself closer to Jesus in this season and honestly help us build habits that grow us closer to Him everyday from now untill He comes back or calls us home🤍💌🫂your relationship with Him and ministry is so beautiful Ash! Keep going 💪🏿praying for you!🤍

[@ashleyhetherington_]

Thanks for being here sis!💛

[@hananhray1401]

I love your energy. You just seem so humble and full of the spirit. I’ve been struggling to wake up early for my whole last semester in college. I’ve been wanting to spend an hour with God early in the morning but waking up is so hard. I’m def gonna try this 40 days challenge and see how it changes my life. Keep posting!! You’re impacting a lot more people than you realize!❤

[@ashlynhopes]

Hi Ashley! I'm so encouraged by your experience with the Holy 40 that I'm going to try it out too. I even am getting out of my comfort zone and started a KZbin in order to hold myself accountable for it!

[@Ghabl3]

Ashley you have made me more disabled to wake up early, read my bible consistently, workout, and I watch Love church every sunday

[@MelanieM-l9v]

I was very active and would exercise normally 1 hour a day ,even easy days. After the flu I get so tired doing easy little stuff😢. I never really thought to pray about exercise, as in what He thinks I should be doing, and just seeking His guidance so specifically 😅. Game changer!!! I really see that I need to patient with myself and kind because I need to recover. Thanks Ash❤

[@mallarieevans5392]

Girly I know this was 7 months ago and you have a new 90 day Winter Arc. That I’m following 💁🏻‍♀️ ❄️ Day 7! But I love this video! And I want to check out your “Reading the Bible for beginners” I’m not a beginner, but I’m interested 😅😂

[@belleheartbeat5885]

God is really so good, when He uses someone like you to get back on track to God and be more closer to Him. I'm grateful.. I'm still in a working progress because i still struggle to sleep early cause of insomnia, but Glory to Jesus, There is a changes already to some area of my life and my mom is happy about it.

[@lene572]

I love how real you are, so much you show is so relatable, but not often shown on the internet. Thank you so much for your inspiration on going through life with Jesus 🤍🪽

[@Heavenandearth33]

I recently became Christian and found you and I just love your videos and everything you are doing! I ordered your book today too. Wishing you many blessings !

[@-holygirls-]

26:18 THIS SHOT LOOKED LIKE YOU WERE A DISNEY PRINCESS!! love you sm Ash!!

[@honeyitsjohn]

First and foremost I’d like to thank you for leaning into your discernment and calling from the Lord. Reason I say this Ashley is because you may believe girls only watch your content but that is far from the truth; I am a 22 year old male who has become invested in your content severely I will play these videos over and over throughout my day because I too have been feeling a calling to renew my mind and grow my relationship with the Lord. I started watching girls gone bible back in July of 2023 and have watched consistently every Friday since, amazing podcast! Only issue for me was that I wanted more details of the walk and not just the word itself( the word is amazing and comes first always most definitely but when you live in the world and for the world scripture and the word can be very scary.) when I tell you Ashley that I have found so much understanding and every question I had was answered within your videos I truly mean that. You said things I felt as I was feeling them and gave amazing advice!you said to begin with a Christian book if it’s hard to read your Bible and to highlight and make notes and oh my when I tell you that I finished the book: The Love Everybody Wants by Madison Prewett Troutt in 2 days and practically highlighted a point or scripture every page Ashley let me just thank you again girl cause the Lord truly blessed you and your walk to bring others back home to him. Your advice truly gave me the strength and confidence to begin reading the Bible now 😭❤️. I won’t be stopping there I am going to pray for Gods help to begin this Christian challenge as well 🙌.Thank you for being so real and thank you for allowing the Lord to use you to spread his word of peace and love 🥹❤️✝️ I can’t wait to see Gods plan unfold for your life and I can’t wait to get your devotional The Joy of The In-between once it comes out March 26th ❤️✝️

[@teabubbles4ever]

wow that's awesome ! thanks for sharing brother!! :)

[@brooklynbickings]

Thank you you have helped me in my spiritual journey so much!

[@brooklynbickings]

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[@toriaj3572]

When I first started reading the Bible I started with the gospel of John. Found it the best way to understand who Jesus is !

[@Jingthemum]

I desire to do this again and thank God i bumped to this channel and I know this is confirmation from the Lord . I watched the Proverbs 31 yesterday. Thank God for using your channel, I started journaling again today❤❤❤

[@ashleyhetherington_]

Thanks for being a part of this community

[@annabanana2583]

another thing about reading the bible is, once you start say you’re just highlighting and underlining as you continue you’ll begin to do more . research, journal, make notes, etc .

[@RhyanSkinner-ws6kl]

I am 14 and I wake up at 2:30 am with my parents to go to the gym and i can’t even imagine not living like that anymore, it makes you feel so good! All of the tricks she said are so helpful!!!

[@JennaK-y6o]

Wish there was more woman of god like you! Ashley you are my inspiration for growing closer to Jesus 💕🌺😊love you so much 😊🌺🌸🌼

[@dani_vonne]

Getting up early has been the hardest!! I have a disability and if I don't get all my sleep I feel it.. BUT I have been more encouraged to read my Bible FIRST THING in the morning. Life changing & game changer ❤ Thanks for being motivational 🎉

[@NOVA_GODSBIBLE_LOVES224]

I'm new 😊 I'm reading Matthew ❤ I found u few weeks ago, I wakeup early before the husband children.. I'm justloving my time with Jesus I did nothing for 2 days being sick I've felt empty.. I wish ur group thing was free I can't buy it wish I could I need more girly friends that love Jesus 💗 thank u for helping anewbie so grateful to God sending me to u

[@clarawaldenvik2225]

Hi Ashley! I’m really glad you are on KZbin! Tho something I’ve thought about a little, is that ofcourse these habits are really good, it will help many of us to become the best version of ourself,, but I think it’s just important that we don’t think that these habits make me a better christian ,, more like, these habits is something I want to do now that I know Jesus loves me and want to use me. Our main goal is to love Jesus and love others and spreading the message of him to others, be seeing miracles and get to fill us with what He Wants to give us, joy, love, peace and more! He will do the work he wants to do when we come closer to him,, not that we have our goals to be better to get closer to him. I know you know this, but I just want give that reminder so these good habits doesn’t turn to be a performance to feel like a better christian. God bless sister!❤️

[@clarawaldenvik2225]

But also, don’t take this point as something that go against these habits, they are really good! And your videos definitely motivates me!! And its a really good way to keep up good routines in our relationship with Jesus! But just wanted to say an important point in all of this🤍

[@kathym322]

Happy Lent! Im orthodox so my lent starts in 2 weeks! God i ask you to guve me the strength to be the best I can be this coming lent ❤

[@ameliaelliott8885]

Ash yes I need help waking up early to go to school And to get closer to the lord Spend time with God I want to do that in the morning Starting for today/tonight I am consistent to wake up at 5:30 or 5 o’clock in the morning just to pray and read my Bible and head to school I really want to do that so tonight I’m gonna ask God for strength in my body so I can wake up in the morning early❤😊

[@Caitlinabcdefg]

I’ve downloaded your Bible study help and the 40 day challenge! thank you for your inspiration, motivation, knowledge, and help 🙏🏻❤️

[@keysuniverse]

✝ I'm so grateful that I found you about a year or two ago and have been blessed ever since. I have pre-ordered your book & joined the launch team.

[@vikkinech]

I've been thinking recently to plan out not just my school schedule (I'm homeschooled, I have too 😅), but also other parts like picking up new habits and planning out workout days. this video really encouraged me to make a planner on notion or smth and really discipline myself ✝️✝️

[@whois_arielle]

✝ Love you Ash!!

[@chandrimamajhi5776]

Thank you Ash for your inspiring words and lifestyle. You always motivate me big Sis whenever I am upset and feel very low and then next moment your videos notification popped and again I became joyful and happy girl 😊and your unlimited youtbe shots are always there too.I adore you Jesus Christ thank you so much because you I found a friend and sister Ashley ❤ who always talks about you and helping me to get out off my lukewarm era and to be a actual Christian girl who I am. Praise the Lord ✝️

[@desirae809]

The Moody commentary is so good. When I'm reading my bible then read The Moody commentary, most of the time it answers all of my questions. It also clears up books from the bible. I remember when I was reading Hebrews,it was so difficult to understand. The Moody commentary helped with Hebrews amazingly.

[@agamemnondti2]

Yay it's here THE HOLY GIRL DIARYS

[@Virtuous1Queen]

Just came across your video and I love your content. New subbie and I shared with my girls. Thank you looking forward to doing better in my walk with God. Especially getting up earlier intentionally spending uninterrupted time with God. ❤

[@sushovitanelson]

✝️ loved your day and so motivated to add a few things I haven't been doing for years into my routine. Thanks Ashley❤❤❤

[@coutlo]

wow, ashley! This is incredible, thank you so much for exuding Jesus in your life with lots of discipline and love! Thank you because you allow yourself to be used through the Holy Spirit to revive the lives of those who watch you, because when I watch your videos, I don't see Ashley, I see Jesus acting on her life! I thank you for your life inspiring me and helping me to be more like Christ, and to strive to do my obligations and have a close relationship with Jesus because He loved us first! 🤍✨️💐🙏🏼

[@BadrianaM]

✝Love you, Ashley! I'm 13 and you have inspired me to make the most of my life so far and overall just improve my relationship with God, love you!

[@saragardiner3976]

I can’t wait to send your book to my younger cousin. She is in her early 20s and is struggling in her waiting period. She has always lived her life in Christ and I hope your book will help her. Thank you for what you do. Even though I’m older than you, you inspire me.❤

[@camenelson5373]

This isn’t a coincidence that I found your video! But this is a blessing from God because I start my 40 days today! I love watching your videos. May God continue to bless you abundantly! ❤

[@s0ophi]

Ashley!! As I’m on Day 1 of 75 Hard you inspired me to also take on Holy 40!! I felt God speaking to me through you, all the glory to God 💕💞💓

[@Its_Angie22]

Ur vlogs are super uplifting and encouraging for me as teen! God is soo good!!

[@GodisWithUs83]

Love the video💖✝️. I’ve been reading the Bible constantly now and it’s helping so much. And I knew some of these stories growing up but now most of the books I never read before so reading the Gospel and Psalms etc it’s everything.

[@jessicasmith1417]

✝️ thank you for being led by the Lord, sister! Keep living out His calling!!!

[@taylord43]

There is just something so beautiful of not knowing what's next.♡

[@Rissa220]

I just want to say, Ashley, you're like the big sister I never had. Thank you.

[@Dariaxx07]

✝️amazing video as usual

[@watermelonlove121]

I am definitely going to try this challenge! I am trying to get up a little earlier so I can read my bible, and I am really enjoying it! Watching Ashley inspired me to read it.✝

[@OlenaKhmelnytska-h2d]

Thank you Ash it really help to see how to do it and what to do in it ✝️

[@doriaenamorado6797]

You can be more disciplined by knowing that is not your time but that God has given a certain amount of time to use it wisely and he one day will ask us in how we use our time

[@Amilprz]

I love that KZbin has been recommending more Christian KZbinrs on my main page. I'm a new subbie. if possible, and if you dont mind, can you share a link to your journaling bible. Or direct me to where purchased yours🙏 thank in advance. GOD BLESS

[@Glowupmoon]

Ashley can you pls do bible studies on youtube that would be amazing😊❤

[@prayersquad3391]

Try the chocolate strawberries and then roll em (wet) in crushed soft peppermint candies. Yummy.

[@victoriadrivinska2599]

✝️ thank you so much, Ashley, for doing what you do! you help so many people get closer to the Lord. and you've also helped me! may God bless you and your work🙏💗

[@erobilio26]

You are such an inspiration and always show me such healthy conviction to get back into my healthy habits with the Lord! I'm so grateful for you and all the work you do!! ✝💖

[@AngelikaCooper]

Good morning, I was just on the B&N app top 100 books that are selling. Your devotional is on there!! I’m going to preorder it this week.

[@lisaa9361]

Ashley, you are such an inspiration! I am 6o years old and you teach me so much about Jesus and my relationship with Him. Joyce Myers, Terri Savelle Foy and Ashley Hetherington - my Christian coaches! ❤❤❤

[@Shilpikujur4]

Ashley, Im 12 and you inspire me so so so much! Im planning and willing to spend time with God and become a better Christian ❤

[@ashleyhetherington_]

Thanks for being here, sis!

[@amanda22]

Ash you have no idea how you help us to grow closer to God! I love u and your videos soo much❤

[@jingumouse]

You're an inspiration Ashley! I'm learning a lot from you & I'm so grateful that one day God led me to your channel. Starting Holy 40 Challenge tomorrow!

[@ambertownshend7367]

Thank you so much sister ash u are so amazing and u have helped me so much 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰

[@LovingthelordwithLilly]

Hi ash! I love your videos and think I’m going to try and start the holy forty challenge! Thank you for what a big I’m impact you have on my life and many others!✝️

[@dudahv.]

Almost 40min?! Omg what a treat💗💗💗💞

[@monikalaoritan8556]

please do not use omg its blaspheming God's name but yes 40 mins is amazing👍

[@dudahv.]

@@monikalaoritan8556 i dont believe it is, I'm just saying his name, why shouldnt I? If I was using his name as a curse word than it would be blasfemic, but im not. But thanks anyways and may He bless you😊

[@savannahgee4153]

✝Thank you so much for this! I can't wait to implement these habits into my everyday life! I started going on prayer walks whenever I can thanks to your videos and how you show them and truly it has been so peaceful and I feel like a weight just lifts. Your videos have helped me so much and I even was able to make a prayer board! You're doing amazing Ashley, keep up the amazing work!❤

[@JaelynnLusk-rw2it]

You are probably one of the best aesthetic Christian content creator. Thank you for letting me get closer to his word

[@samsianturijkt]

Ashley, I really love and admire how faithful you are to God! You really inspire me!! God bless you always Ashley❤✝🙏

[@shesfearless_shesgodfearing]

The intro is giving "My Scene" vibes. Yay, Holy Girl Diaries is back!💓

[@Berna081190]

Dear Ashley, thanks for your Videos! I am from Austria and I already have pre-ordered your New book ♡

[@beautyfashionaddict1]

Love this I’m joining this challenge.

[@sunselire]

✝️Thank You, Ashley! God bless you, sister 🩷

[@Bev_loves_Jesus]

I love these holy girl diaries! ✝️✝️✝️

[@speechbubbletruth]

Girl, you are so encouraging! I always have fun watching your video.✝

[@alaniavila819]

DOING THIS 💕✝️

[@bethpot]

Would love tips on how to do this challenge as a working girl. Can’t wait to start tomorrow!

[@krystalalgier8897]

Love the pjs, chunky blanket,and loungewear. Would you have sources to share?

[@nicolenelson8426]

I'm going to try to do this challenge. I have insomnia often, so that really makes it such a challenge to wake up earlier. I feel it all day long. I will pray that God will help me through this, because I need it! ❤

[@KishoriSchimp-hp5sq]

✝️ I love your videos Ashley!! Thank you for being such an amazing woman of God. As a teenage Christian girl, I am so so grateful for your videos 🤍

[@Zoeyolivia777]

Thank you Ash for your inspiring words and lifestyle! I’m going to take on this challenge with my friend!! ✝️

[@amysiebert4752]

This was definitely motivational! ✝ Love you, Ashley!❤

[@Carmel520]

Thanks I believe you will meet an amazing that loves Jesus thanks Ashley I really love it I can't wait to learn more from you there and wow you have actually taught me some habits I really relate too but I will not read the Bible on my bed thanks Ashley I appreciate you so much please make another one I will do them ❤❤❤

[@noelthomas20]

I get so excited when I see you posted a video. Thank you for being such a good influence in my life💕

[@lianne4256]

✝️ thank you so so so much for al this inspiration and motivation!! Without reading the bible in the morning I have to wake up at 7.15 when school starts the first hour. Reading my bible takes most of the time around half an hour or more. How can i ever do all the things I want to do in the morning without must going to bed at 21 o clock haha?

[@AddictedtoSobriety_]

I love seeing that you posted a new video! Your channel is goals! And so inspiring to my own humble channel🫶🏼✨✝️

[@dunsinelaturoti1858]

✝️... Hi Ashley! This video is so timely. I recently concluded year 2 of Pharmacy school and it was so draining, I lost track of my healthy Godly habits. So during this break, I plan to rebuild these habits and I've started by taking time off social media. Your video has given me some sort of structure to how I can go about my journey. And it also left me longing for an awesome God-fearing circle like yours. Into my prayer list it is.😂 Thank you for the inspiring videos! 🤍 xoxo.

[@cziegle3794]

Yay top 134 and top 13 likes and comments. Love this channel. Best to you and your family. Thanks for making this video.

[@jesusiskingofmyheart]

your spotify playlist is SO good! i listen to it during my workout sessions. worship music is the best :) thank u for sharing ❤

[@kelleydenise7819]

Can you help me find it? The link she gave isn’t working for me for some reason 🫶

[@AaliyahNicoleGalan]

As an 14 yo teen, this is gonna be my best decision in my lifeeee

[@jesusiskingofmyheart]

these video are so helpful & encouraging. thank u sis ❤

[@hannahheart1254]

I have to be at work by 7 every day except the weekends. I get up at 5 am in the mornings to get ready and when I get home, I read my bible for 20 minutes because I don’t get home til 5 in the evening after I get off work at 3 pm and wait for my bus to downtown Spokane and catch my second bus home. And I’m on my feet all day long

[@rachelwaite8394]

Hey, Ashley. Thanks so much for your videos, I absolutely love them! I was wondering if you could please pray for me. Ive been saved for as long as I can remember (I'm 35), but I've been struggling with alcohol abuse for years. It all started to deal with my severe chronic insomnia then to cope with my abusive ex-husband. Then God released me from that bad marriage, I just enjoyed wine like a normal person, but went back to it out of desperation for sleep. Then I turned to it to deal with my anxiety and panic attacks. It became my way to relax and enjoy myself and what I would run to whenever I felt stressed or depressed and I'm so easily triggered. I've stopped off and on, but eventually go right back. I get the most terrifying physical symptoms in by body because of all the damage I've done, so sometimes I'll drink to make it go away for a little bit or just mask it to stop being scared for a little bit. and everytime I think I can just drink my wine like a normal person, before I know it, I've had one and a half to two bottles. I'm so scared. I do this like 4 or 5 times a week. it's like I hate it, but I love it at the same time. I don't wanna do it, but I can't stop. I've been praying about it everyday. I repent everyday and beg Jesus to help me everyday. And I keep saying that I'm not gonna do it anymore and I go right back. I hate it so much. I feel like I'm drowning. I can't tell my family how bad it because I know they'll treat me different. I don't have any close friends. I feel so alone. I know I have Jesus, but it's so hard when I can't hear Him. I've been trying to speak scripture over this, but I feel so defeated. I feel so trapped. I don't wanna die like this. I know its getting in the way of my relationship with Jesus. I need to be close to Him so bad and I keep screwing it up. I've been begging Him to give me a fresh revelation of His love for me and of who I am and who He is because I know that if I understood how much He loves me, that would fix everything. I know He loves me, but I only know how to believe it with my head and not my heart and I can believe it for literally everyone, but not for me. everyday is the same. I hate my job (looking for another one), I'm tired all the time, I haven't felt good or healthy in years. I toss and turn all day (I work graveyard shift) only to not get any sleep and feel like crap, I dread going to work, I go to work, go home, take care of my puppy (who I love so much and I'm so grateful for ❤) and help with my neices, rush through my chores, make my dinner, usually drink too much and go to bed and do it all over again. I feel like I'm just trying to make it through the day so I can get to the next one and just get through til I'm with Jesus. it's no way to live, but I don't know how to get out. i know i have a lot to be grateful for, but I'm mostly trapped. Sorry, I know that was a lot. Thank you so much, sister, I love you 🤍

[@kaitelynn_morgan]

Hey! I struggle with addiction too, but it's not with alcohol. Anyways girl, I will definitely pray for you! It can be so hard to listen to God's voice when all we hear are voices of doubt, and defeat, and self-condemn. But have you ever tried talking back to those voices? They are , straight from the pit of hell. You are a princess, a jewel, a gem, a strong, confident woman, who's been through so much....but you got through, right? Jesus made you like that. He is always talking, but you have to be listening! Telling those voices that they are wrong, calling them out for what they are, standing on the father of lies and letting him know who's boss, and whose team you are on . . . that does a lot, girl. Whenever you want to go drink, grab your Bible and drink that instead! And that one glass of wine with some friends won't tempt you to another one, and another one, and another, don't drink. The Bible talks about how Jesus struggled with temptation too, in the FACE of the devil, and yet He resisted. And you may go like "Well, He was Jesus. He can do anything." Yes, He was Jesus. But He was man, too. fully man, and fully God. And you wonderful, strong, confident, beautiful woman, have the power to say no to the devil, too. Through Jesus ❤ I love you, and I'll be here for you ❤ you are NEVER, EVER, EVER alone. That's another really tricky, sneaky lie from Satan. I read this comment, and now I'm with you in the fight! Also, and I hope this doesn't change what I just told you, but I am one small teenage girl with the calling from God to be a comforter to the broken. My whole heart prays for you. I will never know (hopefully) how much pain you've endured, but I know my own share, and it does suck. I'm sorry you can't tell your family for fear of different treatment, and that you feel alone. Here are some verses for you: 1 Peter 5:10 Psalms 34:18 Philippians 4:5-7 Romans 8:18 Psalms 2:34 James 1:12 Matthew 28:20 .....and there are so many more! I will be with you, too. I love you so much❤ YOU ARE WORTH SO MUCH MORE THAN WHAT YOU STRUGGLE WITH. And I know exactly how you feel when you say, "I'm so scared. I do this like 4 or 5 times a week. it's like I hate it, but I love it at the same time. I don't wanna do it, but I can't stop. I've been praying about it everyday. I repent everyday and beg Jesus to help me everyday. And I keep saying that I'm not gonna do it anymore and I go right back. I hate it so much. I feel like I'm drowning. I can't tell my family how bad it because I know they'll treat me different. I don't have any close friends. I feel so alone. I know I have Jesus, but it's so hard when I can't hear Him. I've been trying to speak scripture over this, but I feel so defeated. I feel so trapped." I've been dealing with sexual self-pleasure and pornography for over 3 years, and it's been worse the last part of last year and this year. I can relate to that so much. I am still struggling, but I know that Jesus overpowers all sin, temptation, fear, addiction, depression, loneliness, etc. etc. Its so easy to fall into that hole again, to dig myself deeper. But you know what? Jesus is right there with us, in the mud and mire, and He gets us more than we get ourselves. You won't stay this way. Let me know if this helps!! ❤❤❤ Love so much, from Abby, Salem Oregon 🤍

[@rachelwaite8394]

@kaitelynn_morgan Hey, Katielynn!! Thank you so so much for replying to me and for praying for me ❤️ You have no idea how much that encouraged me and helped me feel less alone. That's such good advice to. I do have a hard time listening for His voice. I'm working on learning to speak scripture over everything to the enemy's ugly voice. I am so thankful for you, beautiful sister. I appreciate you so much!! I am praying for you too for the Lord to bless you and that He'll help you in every way and pour Himself out on you so abundantly!! Thank you so much, sister!! I love you too and am here for you too!!! Thank you so so so much!! 🤍

[@kaitelynn_morgan]

@@rachelwaite8394 Oh my goodness, sis you just made my entire year!! You are of course so welcome, I hate when broken people hit walls around around them and I love helping them find a door, lol, if you know what I mean :). I have been that broken person sooo many times and it truly sucks. It does get better, though, and the person you can truly count on to be there with you all of the time is Jesus. I am happy and glad beyond explanation that you don't feel so alone! It's a terrible feeling 💔. I am glad to be the person with you while you fight this major spiritual---and physical--- battle. 💗

[@mariaeugenia8826]

Sis it sounds like you can benefit from deliverance. I used to abuse many things but the Lord delivered me from it all. Check out Isaiah Saldivar. He speaks on this and has a deliverance map where you can find someone local to deliver you from these demons of addiction.

[@87josselin]

Thanks for making longer content❤

[@er4327]

Thank you. This inspired me so much. I had a routine set up since the beginning of the year, but somehow I needed a boost lately. You gave me that. Thanks, sis.

[@gobrodsky933]

Thank you, Ashley.

[@Thereadingcalico]

These vlogs are so good and helpful and I feel I have someone to walk with, and I enjoy your company in particular! I would however also really appreciate a Christian single mom to follow along with too. Anyone know of a creator fitting that mold?? 🙏