This video was so comforting ♥️ The barometer is mental health and well being. If your life has improved, that’s a sign it was toxic and not for your long term good 🌸
@TherapistTamaraHill3 жыл бұрын
That is really good.😊 Very glad this was helpful to you.
@goodgrief8882 жыл бұрын
Oh totally. The best holidays I ever had in my teens and 20s were the ones where I was working retail and working at catering jobs, or too sick to come down to dinner. Or the Christmas my parents went overseas and I just hung out with friends at a karaoke place on Christmas Day. No drama, no tears, nobody leaving in a huff. It was so awesome and fun! Then, how much my life improved when my older sister decided to shun me from our family of origin, pitting my mother against me. It’s amazing how much my “chemical imbalance” improved and went away, and then came back when my family decided to start inviting me to things again! Weird! And how this same “chemical imbalance” went away and then kept coming back whenever my toxic family rejected me, and then brought me back into the fold. It’s a MASSIVE sign that there’s something wrong when your depression and anxiety go away when your family is snubbing you!! That’s something that took me way too long to figure out. Now I’m finally free of them, forever, and I’m waking up dancing and smiling every single day!
@keh-dalia809 Жыл бұрын
That was so perfectly SAID!!!!
@keh-dalia809 Жыл бұрын
@@goodgrief888 This is so true!
@samlikesfruit Жыл бұрын
i wake up after nightmares with heart pains and racing heart...i loved my family was very close to them even tho it was unhealthy....i cant believe what they've done to me...i'm not better after not seeing them...my health has deteriorated but then that was half the problem...they told me i was lazy when i was unwell....they blamed me for being raped and impregnated by a 21 year old at 14 and made me have an abortion....they tell me everyone gets hit when my sister hits me and tells me to kill myself and they think its ok to trick me off mortgage paperwork and give my home to a police officer who gets me corners smashes up the house and screams in my face get out this is my house now......i've got in other abusive relationships since and i still feel like i'm having heart attack every day....i cant trust anyone....i cant work...i cant eat...i cant sleep i dont think my life has really improved but at least i dont have their abuse everyday its in my head still tho...their words and actions everyday and in dreams i have no control over dreams so it's never ending.....so does that mean it was all me then because my mental health and wellbeing is not better?
@jamaican07213 жыл бұрын
I get judged for the distance I put between me & my family. They can judge me until their eyes pop out of their socket. My peace & sanity will not allow me to care nor will it compromise.
@tamikawahl75403 жыл бұрын
Only God can judge me; he judges the heart whereas man judges by actions/appearances
@amybullard11913 жыл бұрын
I feel the same way
@SARA-xh9zr3 жыл бұрын
@@tamikawahl7540 true
@kellywalker62783 жыл бұрын
I APPLAUD YOU!! I can’t wait until I get where you are!! 🙏🏽
@aryeh37013 жыл бұрын
Same here, when you tell them why they don't listen at all, it goes out the other ear.
@user-pt3uu4wq3i3 жыл бұрын
The loneliness is debilitating at times. Knowing you don't have family to rely on. It gets rough but overall you will feel lighter.
@TherapistTamaraHill3 жыл бұрын
Very true. I agree.
@remix2die43 жыл бұрын
I agree. I have no one, but at least I am not around those demons anymore. i go to meetups.
@amandatarkington68773 жыл бұрын
@@remix2die4 Me too! Phoenix Singles has 20,000 members!
@purplelilac10443 жыл бұрын
I feel That Too . It’s sad not having a family :(
@valeriewalkerwhite95252 жыл бұрын
Thank you...
@ladennayoung29393 жыл бұрын
It is only difficult because the world try to teach you that it is supposed to be family over everything.
@TherapistTamaraHill3 жыл бұрын
Yes! Agree. It's fantasized for sure. Nothing balanced about this statement.
@ladennayoung29393 жыл бұрын
@@TherapistTamaraHill True.
@Hey_Adanna3 жыл бұрын
I just referenced this on my video channel and how the Bible says to honour thy mother and father - but you can from a distance I explained.
@mmxw22943 жыл бұрын
That’s so annoying my family is super toxic. I literally help so much and on my bday I couldn’t even get a happy bday nope I got drama and I’m not allowing anyone to treat me however stay strong
@luc1d3563 жыл бұрын
This statement is true only if you had healthy family dynamics and grew out of it as a balanced adult.
@ForeverAutumn772 жыл бұрын
I've distanced myself from my family and it is the best thing that I could've done. I am at peace, no stress, no regrets.
@shekinahrabanes72222 жыл бұрын
How did you do it? Did you run away?
@TiaEphesians429 Жыл бұрын
@@shekinahrabanes7222 I know I'm not who you were asking, but I have distanced myself a bit from family, and all that means is that I have come to terms with understanding they cannot supply me with the love and care that they should. It is a sad realization but it is necessary. And knowing that I realized that I cannot be close "friends" with them. This is a heart level of closeness. Because a friend has your best interest at heart. And my family had proven in multiple ways they do not wish me well. They are friendly and kind in the surface but they hurt me in little ways over time. And the reason is because I trust them like a friend and they act outside of that behavior. So I distance myself by keeping them at arms reach. I still speak to them, I'm still friendly, I still visit on holidays, and spend happy times with them. But I don't divulge too much information about myself to them. I don't tell them my plans or dreams. And I don't tell them my feelings. I talk about events get together and possibly hanging out. But I always avoid deeper conversations. The reason for this is because if I trust them to have access to my deep emotions or my dreams, or even my personal drama, they will not treat it with respect or care. And it will hurt my heart. So I just don't give my open heart to them to break. And I keep the relationship very surface level. Now I will talk about THIER personal life, dreams, and issues. Because I do have their best interest at heart and I'm not looking for ways to sabotage them or break their heart with it. This has been very helpful to keep my relationship with my family whom I love, and also avoid a lot of pain. Just by being smart and careful. But the hardest part is coming to terms with the fact that they don't treat you the way they should. It hurts because I always wanted to believe the best in my family and I honestly thought for the longest time that some part of me was making it up because it just didn't make sense. But learning about the scape goat experience through a scientific lens, had helped me to much better understand the dynamic I grew up in. And their behavior is subconscious in a lot of ways and so I just try to walk around the pit falls, to preserve the relationship.
Sociopaths and narcissists are bad for your help. Some of them can be your mother, father, brother, sister, aunt or uncle. Stay away from such people. Be honest, if you weren't related to them, you'd never associate with them based on how they mistreat you...
@mercedesharrison555010 ай бұрын
So true, if my dad and sister were people I seen in passing and we weren’t family I would never befriend them, like them. I’d actually be more adverse to their energy.
@preciousone93779 ай бұрын
Exactly!
@VJ-zw7xz9 ай бұрын
Very true
@KM-oy5yh9 ай бұрын
AMEN AMEN AMEN AMEN AMEN AMEN, Sooooooo #TRUE 🎉
@eileenmcchrystal84718 ай бұрын
Spot on! Absolutely.X
@giao2380 Жыл бұрын
It’s hard especially when they don’t realize they are toxic.
@MBT3722 ай бұрын
Lol they... we're all toxic, all humans are but you just don't notice it in yourself
@awsambdaman19 күн бұрын
MBT372 Yes we are all toxic the only difference is there are some people who are self aware and do their best to regulate their emotions and not be toxic to others and there are some people who lack all self awareness and just vent/yell/cry/manipulate as much as they want
@yourfriendlyneighbourhoodvue8 ай бұрын
I learned that sometimes it’s the people closest to you that often times hinder you
@TherapistTamaraHill8 ай бұрын
Well said.
@annejurado89493 жыл бұрын
I'm so over the 'we're family' line. I don't love all of my family members, regardless if 'we're family.' Saying that aloud makes me feel terrible but if I met these folks on the street I wouldn't even be friends with them.
@43cassy3 жыл бұрын
The truth shall set you free! Same here!! So much peace on the other side of crazy! Lol. Much peace on your healing journey! 🦋
@Godlywoman882 жыл бұрын
I feel the same
@KandyKoatedKrafts2 жыл бұрын
“We are family”is just the title of a sister sledge song now….
@paynedeidra222 жыл бұрын
Omg, yes girl this is so true!!!!
@cantkeepmedown1002 жыл бұрын
Amen
@jedicrush14973 жыл бұрын
Be Free. Don’t let no one put you on a guilt trip. Stay healthy. Leave. Don’t look back. 🦋
@TherapistTamaraHill3 жыл бұрын
Yes. Very true!
@johnjennings9693 Жыл бұрын
Bob, Dylan was right,
@purpleviolet2058 Жыл бұрын
@@TherapistTamaraHill It was a tough decision for me to make. I made the decision to leave indifferent and toxic family members many years ago and now, I am so glad I did that. When I made this decision it wasn't taken lightly and when I made up my mind to be done with them, I was done with them. Period. No turning back.
@25447carepear Жыл бұрын
Remember Lots wife 🫤
@lustforlife77923 жыл бұрын
I'm moving out tomorrow without them knowing, wish me luck
@SARA-xh9zr3 жыл бұрын
any update?
@annejurado89493 жыл бұрын
Hope it all worked out!
@blackgoat98193 жыл бұрын
Good luck
@MmMm-dy1jb Жыл бұрын
God bless you and keep you safe 💕
@ANNWELLS-fc9un9 ай бұрын
GOD BLESS YOUR EFFORT< I SO DO UNDERSTAND!!!!
@setapart2serveministries2 жыл бұрын
To all my Narc survivors stay at peace with your selves.
@KM-oy5yh9 ай бұрын
#THANKS, AMEN AMEN AMEN AMEN, SISTER 🎉
@loriguercio43748 ай бұрын
Thanks, u too
@GodsChosenMekAmoRАй бұрын
God bless you ❤. This is such a profound statement 🙏
@carolegyptienne3 жыл бұрын
The “good” thing is there were no ‘good times’ to regret
@tamikawahl75403 жыл бұрын
It’s like the bad out ways the good...if there was any good and if there really was any good it was for selfishness
@threefreaksonaleash66192 жыл бұрын
There are for some of us...but it certainly doesn’t cancel out the awful times.
@sybilblake-zd8gl9 ай бұрын
I get quiet and avoid everyone connected to the toxic person. I do not want to hear or say anything negative from anyone. This gives me joy.
@lifeasnicolew3 жыл бұрын
The gaslighting my family does just makes me feel like I’m going crazy 😭 I’m so ready to move and go on with my life
@sonr.w34943 жыл бұрын
Before you do anything...plan on leaving privately and get yourself sorted until you know you good to leave ...then you tell them...
@Homoclite2 жыл бұрын
I agree with the spirit if your suggestion. However, one’s folks don’t need one’s permission to “kick them to the curb”. One has to arrive at the decision to leave their asses alone and actually do it and being ok with it. In the world of evolution, a leopard RARELY ever changes its spots.
@Valkyriepedersen2 жыл бұрын
Sorry, God bless you.
@LADYDIVAful2 жыл бұрын
DO IT secretly and privately. I left my family and returned 15 years later. It's the same mess, just a different toliet. I wish you the best.
@jaundekoker21412 жыл бұрын
I understand friend gaslighting is also by me tofay i must let them go my family it hurts but time wil fix it also
@aryeh37013 жыл бұрын
Envy, competition, disrespectful, childish is the majority I've been dealing with the pass 35 yrs dealing with my oldest brother, sister and nephews.. sometimes you wonder what planet they come from you know . We all grew up together but some how they become toxic.
@TherapistTamaraHill3 жыл бұрын
That's really sad. I've been there! It drains you and changes you in many ways. And I agree. It is like they are from another world. Who are you? How are we kin? Once you realize the toxicity...move away.
@mrsmdub2592 жыл бұрын
I agree. I have been on the same boat my entire life. I am the eldest niece. So I grew up with my aunts and uncles as brothers/sisters. Most of them have envied from the life I’ve worked hard for to the close and respectful relationship I have with my now adult kids. I finally came to the realization that my uncles and especially my aunts are just envious and because of their feelings on inadequacy they never make me feel loved. With that being said I decided to sell my home in my home town and will be moving out of state next week. I haven’t told 1 family member (except my two kids). My husband and I are ready for a new life away from all that envy so that we can continue to grow.
@pinkrose43222 жыл бұрын
@@mrsmdub259 That's very brave.
@ninotchraclarke408 Жыл бұрын
I can attest to that, I was always abused and bullied by a older sibling. I older I got I tried to put the past aside then I realized that I was living in a fantasy that these ppl are real, the biggest narcissist of them all is the maternal person. The hypocrisy, the gossiping and the pretending lol I’ve gotten so use to it to the point I can tell who the discussion about.
@louisaa.4614 Жыл бұрын
@@TherapistTamaraHill I have always felt like I did not belong in my family and they have always put me down and used hateful words and gossip, so sad 🤥
@tamikawahl75403 жыл бұрын
I grew up in a very toxic home. Everyday there was degrading, belittling, put downs.... it was like a nightmare. It didn’t take me until I was in my mid twenties to realize I was in a very toxic environment. The sad part was that the family was my adopted family.
@victoriaallen80203 жыл бұрын
So sorry you went through this! 😔 I experienced something very similar, but healing is possible! ❤️
@anitaharris92433 жыл бұрын
I'm so sorry. :( I can relate. And I have two adopted siblings although I myself was not adopted.
@tamikawahl75403 жыл бұрын
@@victoriaallen8020 I have found healing in Christ 😌.
@tamikawahl75403 жыл бұрын
@@anitaharris9243 don’t feel sorry bc it only made me stronger 😉 as I wish for a lot of people who’ve been through similar situations
@ic958252 жыл бұрын
Some backround on your story? I have toxic people /family I dont have anything I'f not much is it better to be homeless I dont feel strong enough to get away they hurt me my whole life and beleive mom wanted me in bad situation even as kid via documents I have.
@Tamisha7103 жыл бұрын
It's a process. I had so many trials of distancing and reconnecting out of shame, guilt ., but now I feel confident in my decision and look forward to my new life. I can only take one day at a time.
@ladennayoung29393 жыл бұрын
Amen. You are right. Thanks for sharing your comment. I praise and thank God for you. God bless. Know that you are loved, favored, blessed, and highly favored by God. God love and cares for you always, and so do I. 💜💜😘😘😘💜💜💜😘😘😘
@shakurwonders52162 жыл бұрын
❤💪🏾wow that's amazing. I'm planning on moving out soon
@LADYDIVAful2 жыл бұрын
I went through each phase Tamara listed, but I made it! I just remained busy doing constructive things, especially during the holidays. Big ups to you!
@marlenaeva38132 жыл бұрын
Same here. Going back and forth. It's tough.
@jennayyyjen7236 Жыл бұрын
Needed this comment! It’s been a battle. We have to take our power back and look within our heart and feed our gut the health we finally deserve ❤️
@teresafraser3049 Жыл бұрын
When I walked away from my entire family I actually was able to breath with ease for the first time in my life. My family NEVER tried to hoover me back in because they knew they went too far and that I was onto their abusive nature which I demonstrated ZERO tolerance for.
@truth4utoda3 жыл бұрын
Whoever did a thumbs down has to be jealous or the person a family member walked out on. 🙄
@katostaxx62253 жыл бұрын
COULD VERY WELL BE THE TRUTH ......
@sweetsable8953 жыл бұрын
☺exactly
@briellevanderfin79743 жыл бұрын
I just told my sister's last night that I can no longer be in contact with them bc of how they are. One sister was like okay. The other freaked out! She and her husband sent me a ton of horrible and awful texts. So I blocked them. I feel sick to my stomach, but I'm trying.
@openlybookish3 жыл бұрын
Huge hugs. I'm sorry they reacted so nasty towards you. Not easy to block, but you did it and are doing your best. 😔🙏🏻
@skyesage8813 жыл бұрын
Ugh I feel your pain in this.
@annejurado89493 жыл бұрын
You got this. Take a deep breath and move on from that negativity.
@OddJaxx9003 жыл бұрын
Wow!!!, that's the same exact thing that I went through with both of my brothers. Almost identical!!
@xrc74453 жыл бұрын
They're so delusional, she didn't even realize her harassing texts were the confirmation you needed.
@sarahphipps61442 жыл бұрын
I just told my family my last goodbye. Your video really helped me. I just lost my younger sister and found her dead. I was not allowed to go to her funeral nor was I included in the obituary. I tried so many years to help them and all I was to them was a scapegoat. My heart hurts so bad, and am trying so hard to keep the faith and stay strong. 🙏 Thank you for your video, because no matter the abuse I always returned because I want to be loved. It has taken along time to realize that, im gurting myself and wasting my time.
@dlxinfinite8012 жыл бұрын
I understand your story. A (I now know) jealous, hateful sister excluded me from my parents will, stole/gave away everything they owned and moved to Arizona. To make her self look as the angel, she proceeded to gossip, lie and rumor about me. Simply because I questioned her actions, which included abuse and toxic responses. Now no one talks to me, or even wants to hear my side. Yes, its time to move on. Other compassionate family members will take their place.
@beyondher2 жыл бұрын
If you can find like-minded people in a group or community, like volunteer work etc, it can replace the love that you didn't get from your biological family. We are one human family.
@tigerbunny6778 Жыл бұрын
It is human nature to want to be loved and accepted. Sociopaths KNOW this. They cannot help themselves. They will hurt you no matter what you do. You cannot win except by walking away. They will find another scapegoat within their sphere instead of you. If you go back the cycle of abuse will start all over again. The other target may turn on you as well. Anything to get them off themselves and onto you. Watch your six at all times. Especially during the holidays.
@rebeccabriggs2982 Жыл бұрын
Hi, I'm sad to read this. I to was so mistreated by my family when my Dad was dying and after. Then my sister got married and didn't invite me, which I understand but she excluded my young adult children to. She lit a candle to remember my Dad who was very violent, distant and abusive in multiple ways. It's so tough. I'm so sorry what's been done to you
@chitasworld7391 Жыл бұрын
WOW!!😮
@limitedtime5471 Жыл бұрын
It's hard because you should have your family in your life, to lean on in hard times, to share success and good times. But you can't, you'll be abandoned or abused when in need, and your success will only trigger their worthiness issues and jealousy.
@happydays199 Жыл бұрын
I completely agree and deal with this too.
@joeschmoe5231 Жыл бұрын
Fa Sho
@GoddessK3333 жыл бұрын
Going through this now...sick of being bothered with their nasty ass behaviors
@beyondher2 жыл бұрын
Thank so much for this video. Whenever I put up boundaries with my family members I am labelled as 'mentally ill' or 'too sensitive' by them, and yet they don't realise that they are causing this so-called 'illness'. They are toxic because they constantly make projections, gaslight, invalidate and lack true empathy. I've finally realised that I will end up insane if I keep interacting with them. And I've gained strength in my decision by realising that they will also be better off without me, because I will no longer be enabling their bullshit. I am doing them a favour by walking away.
@juliehwang8482 Жыл бұрын
omg me too!!
@greendragon4058 Жыл бұрын
You are not the only one. For my own sanity I try to stay away from them as much as possible if I have to go to dinner with them then I have to go. My situation as that I have seen many cultures I'm have many friends from around the world and of course I don't go to church I have other things that I study these things do not come out of my mouth. These things come out of my family's mouth. I have a best friend who is trans, I have a best friend who's gay I do not like when they start talking about stereotypes of different people around the world I get upset my best bet is just to stay away from my family push and push and push till I can't take it anymore and then they start yelling at me they can't understand what I'm am so weak and I can't understand I'm like this save yourself unscramble get yourself a hotel room that way you have a place to run to
@louisaa.4614 Жыл бұрын
me too, I felt like I was enabling their bad behaviour, so it is best that I am not in their lives
@ladennayoung29393 жыл бұрын
I know my toxic aunt pulled away from me a couple of months ago, and I'm sure that she told people that I was a problem. She pulled a stunt that I didn't care for. And I know she probably ran around acting like I was the issue. It is for the best that she moved around. I know the Lord was advising me to pull away from her. Because she will get things started by lying and gossiping. Smh.
@TherapistTamaraHill3 жыл бұрын
I'm sorry to hear this!! Family like this...who needs enemies? What you speak of is called triangulation. It's terrible in families.
@ladennayoung29393 жыл бұрын
@@TherapistTamaraHill Yes it is. Thanks for responding. Have a blessed day.
@terrygichira Жыл бұрын
Exactly what happened to me a week ago I hope I will get over it
@nahariyanit Жыл бұрын
What is harder than the loneliness & isolation I feel, is it breaks my heart that my kids didn't grow up with extended family and don't have family they can turn to.
@melliecrann-gaoth478910 ай бұрын
This is the hardest- the impact for my kids also
@Iamsam-jl5fnАй бұрын
The most important thing you’ve done for your children it to BREAK THE CYCLE. you did the right thing - it is sad that you break them off as well, but imagine that some day your children and grandchildren are exposed to this abuse. You did the right thing.
@rosalynrainey95703 жыл бұрын
I felt great relief leaving my toxic adopted family. I dont like being forced into relationships, but when you do distance, you learn to listen to God and the universe will send the right people to help you. It's ok to not like people, to cut cords, and walk alone. We dont have the power to walk away but the SEASON for certain relationships has passed. Get ready for the next season and be grateful for whatever comes.
@josephsworldoftaekwondo50593 жыл бұрын
Beautifully said, Rosalyn. I also went no contact with my adopted family.
@budogacha Жыл бұрын
I needed to see THIS comment tonight.Thx y
@victoriamd90782 жыл бұрын
If anyone does not understand your situation? That is ok. You will find a friend who does.
@ANNWELLS-fc9un9 ай бұрын
AMEN!!!
@Lala-bobloblaw Жыл бұрын
I have family I am no contact with because they are provoking, and victim playing. They tried to break down my boundaries and attack my mental health. My aunt unmasked herself as mentally abusive and manipulative. However the loneliness is easier than the anxiety I used to feel.
@Astrologcomedy Жыл бұрын
I distanced myself no one cared no one reached out. So I don’t understand the pressure I’m just free!
@gukyou52233 жыл бұрын
*Cutting a person off is real* Especially when its family. It hurts the most. But u cannot keep anybody in your circle that makes you feel like crap. The thing is, situations will come. You will run into somebody that treats u like crap...BUt u got the option to interact with them. Keep it moving. Find peace 1st...happiness will come after. I promise u💯
@TheRetroWoman802 жыл бұрын
Thank you for this!
@anianaomicorner3022 жыл бұрын
Amen 🙏🏽
@earlymorninggray86462 жыл бұрын
I just want to move to another country and change my name. I don’t want to deal with their complicated drama and abuse, I never asked for any of this.
@karllieck9064 Жыл бұрын
My husband and I moved 1,400 miles away from my toxic family, relatives and their friends. It was the best thing we ever did. We're living our own lives again and not being scrutinized anymore.
@TherapistTamaraHill Жыл бұрын
There you go! Once you make that decision and finally move away, you look back and realize it was worth it. Good for you both.
@georgevavoulis47589 ай бұрын
I find best thing to do with TOXIC people (anybody causes you grief ,anger ,sabotage you) is to treat them like they're not there . There are plenty of people I thought were my friends and years later turned out they were my worst enemies . I haven't talked to any of them since 1980 and have never lost any sleep over it . I only regret I didn't ditch them sooner to pursue more real worthwhile people
@TherapistTamaraHill9 ай бұрын
Well said. 100% agree!
@same_ol_g8795 Жыл бұрын
Reading the comments helps to let me know that I'm not alone.
@melliecrann-gaoth478910 ай бұрын
I spend ages going through comments. Yes it is helpful
@HolisticDramaFree2 жыл бұрын
GIRL THIS CHAMELON EFFECT REALLY JUST HAPPENED TO ME with my family. Exactly like you said. So creepy. I praise God that I was led to watch your videos, this is confirmation. Sociopathic narcissistic family members are just too common because they hide behind smiles.
@stevenconnolly283 жыл бұрын
I let my mother back into my life after she destroyed my relationship with my siblings and Grandmother and 4 weeks ago she got upto her old tricks and now I'm back to square one. I'm never falling for it again. Now she's ignoring my daughters who have done nothing wrong. Absolutely shameless
@mzwisdom75042 жыл бұрын
I don't know what it is but I could always keep a distance. My mental health, and peace means so much to me.
@RudyTheInternetGod10 ай бұрын
I come to realize that family is love not blood🙏🏾
@sawdustadikt979 Жыл бұрын
I’m nearly 20 years in on separating from my family. I’ve been doing the work this whole time. Weather it was books, coaches or therapy. The first ten years I had moments of double guessing my decisions. All of the therapists I saw constantly nagged me to rejoin but I resisted, I had an inkling that it was good for business. About seven years ago I discovered narcissistic family systems, it was like seeing the script that the alarming majority of people in my life were reading from. In this process that I am still deeply in, I have learned my experience was far worse than I could have ever realized had I not separated from them. I learned this type of abuse is the very definition of brainwashing, done to an infant into adulthood. There is no mystery to me to know hearing my mother or fathers voice could trip all those deeply grooved neuro pathways in my primal or subconscious mind. Who can fight that? How long does it take for someone to come back to baseline after one family event, it took me weeks. People need to be vindicated by seeing others do, say and think like they do. They will fixate on anyone stepping out of that arbitrary value. It’s all a bit easier when you expect to be manipulated to conform and to expect to be shunned when you don’t conform. I’ve been twisting in the wind by myself for a long time. But now I see all these people saying”no more” and calling all of this for what it is. My life is not perfect, I have many difficult struggles right now but one struggle I don’t have is with my wife and son. I wouldn’t have this if I stayed. For that I’m deeply greatful every day that I wake up.
@setapartaay92511 ай бұрын
Wow. I never heard of a therapist encouraging you to go back to the toxic environment. So glad you didn’t go back.
@davidbrown67082 жыл бұрын
Not even a wedding holiday or funeral will I allow myself to go back.I’ve been told Me and my kids are dead to them and they’ve already been to our funeral! And yet STALKING my every move on social media. But there’s absolutely nothing left there for me … 8 years happier and free
@Cindi6448 ай бұрын
Those evil words they said over you will call me back on them.. Continue to guard your peace.
@mystic_tii2 жыл бұрын
The relatives I have are all of these things. What makes it worse is they think they can get to my son a minor and I refuse to allow him to be subjected to that environment. Cutting off access and living your life away from these people is freeing.
@2006Florroja Жыл бұрын
I’m going to be just fine distancing myself from a toxic family member. Thank you for the information.😊❤
@TherapistTamaraHill Жыл бұрын
You're welcome!! Hope you find peace along the way.
@RoselleJROTC3 жыл бұрын
Amen! This was perfect. A toxic family member completely stopped talking to me last year and now they are back, emailing, trying to go through other people but I don't respond. I felt such a relief and a peace when they left my life and sometimes I do get confused and think that I should reach out to them, but my insides won't let me. So I'm grateful for this video. Many Blessings 🌹
@TherapistTamaraHill3 жыл бұрын
😊💖 I'm glad to hear that. Amen. Blessings to you too. These family members are truly tiring. They are also quite blind. Our best route is out of their lives once they are found out.
@andrea2423 жыл бұрын
It took me many years of trying to distance myself from both of my parents & sister. The love I had for them kept me going back. I would feel so much guilt for staying away. Then, I had children of my own. I knew I didn't want them dealing with toxic grandparents. It was hard, but I cut them off completely. My mother still sends text messages & ask to speak to my children on their birthdays & holidays. Just seeing her phone number on my caller ID ruins the day. Its a huge trigger, just seeing it. After almost 12 yrs, I need to block her. I never respond. I'm afraid if I send back a simple "no" that opens a conversation & I do not want that at all. I still feel guilt, but I'm done.
@MBT3722 ай бұрын
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@mvbigmagic4048Ай бұрын
My eyes were opened when I had kids too. It was tolerable when I was still childless. But having kids to protect is a whole other paradigm. I cannot allow anyone to interfere with my ability to care for my children. Adults can protect themselves. Kids cannot. :(
@makaylahollywood36772 жыл бұрын
I feel guilty for feeling good about being by myself. I just need to feel safe.
@IndigoDaffodil1112 жыл бұрын
Same here went no contact only one day in, it hurts but I just can't do this anymore. I hope soon you will heal you're not alone.
@makaylahollywood36772 жыл бұрын
@@IndigoDaffodil111 Thank you. I was doing okay- but, the holidays are difficult. I say to myself, "keep going, think of the people who truly love you, even if they are no longer here". Merry Christmas.
@IndigoDaffodil1112 жыл бұрын
@@makaylahollywood3677 yes it is especially hard now over the holidays, but what would be harder is going back and doing the same thing over again. I hope you have a Wonderful Christmas and try and enjoy the little things about your new life. Be kind to yourself. I'm finding it difficult to do that if I'm honest also finding the guilt hard to cope with. I'm sure they are doing just fine though living life without a care in the world. I didn't even tell my family I'm going no contact. Nobody has even tried to look for me, anything could have happened to me as I'm still under as a vulnerable adult. I hope the guilt stops and I hope you can now feel good about you. You deserve that, you had to walk away from people you know were not giving you what you needed. In time you will become stronger and that sense of safety will build. 💚
@makaylahollywood36772 жыл бұрын
@@IndigoDaffodil111 Hi Bella, this was good to hear. I walked away from them. But, recently contacted a sister- she seems to be just fine and don'ts seem t miss me at all. I don't feel better- i feel confused. I do have strong boundaries- and, I love my sister, but she doesn't always treat me right. We will be okay! Stay strong;-)
@thebeliever783 жыл бұрын
I have finally decided to separate from my siblings, mother, son, and cousins. I'm drained mentally, spiritually, and physically. I've prayed continually for my mother yet she is battling many demons. She has changed, unfortunately for the worst!! My son has been the author of confusion for years. He actually was the mastermind in turning the family against me all because I would not accept his lifestyle. I'm walking away for my own peace. My family is so toxic, they go above and beyond to break me. I'll continue to pray, however, I will love them from a distance. This video has described everything that my family is currently doing as well as my feelings. Thanks so much for teaching us how to deal with this situation. God bless.🙏🏽
@skyesage8813 жыл бұрын
I've tried this a couple of times, I have a forgiving heart. It's torture sometimes I also have poor boundaries 😞
@mmxw22943 жыл бұрын
I learn after two decades to have strong boundaries if I feel stress I disappear they’re not worth all the drama they cause
@shakurwonders52162 жыл бұрын
@@mmxw2294 ikr
@ANNWELLS-fc9un9 ай бұрын
ME TOO!!!
@MBT3722 ай бұрын
Keep forgiving! It's worth it, who's perfect?
@BBFCCO7333 жыл бұрын
I feel punished for living a life I choose. For having dignity and a loving family. My father wants to just waltz in wherever he pleases and treats everyone how he chooses, which is usually using us and abusing us with his nastiness. Since no contact I have felt love and self-control I never had when they were around, but also realize how they damaged me and how angry I am at them. I also feel sad that nothing good came out of all of this in terms of salvaging the relationship. You are spot on in what you are saying.
@CC-rd7wi9 ай бұрын
I stumble across this video. I needed to hear this. The fake love and betrayal run deeps. You get tired of the underhanded and sneaky behaviors. As you mentioned the jealousy and manipulation. My piece of mind and self-love means so much more to me.
@TherapistTamaraHill9 ай бұрын
I'm glad this was helpful to you. I completely understand the fatigue associated with this. So many families have to deal with this but never speak out. So more of these videos are coming on this channel.
@CC-rd7wi9 ай бұрын
@@TherapistTamaraHill Thank you 😊
@daniellalyngdoh6211 Жыл бұрын
I have a toxic emotional distance mother who dosent have empathy for me , understand me or support me . The only thing that this monster likes to do is to paint a bad picture of me so that i can get the criticisms from the rest of the family and society
@charlenabolden Жыл бұрын
I am dealing with the same issues with my mom.
@lj0819902 жыл бұрын
I distanced myself from my family in January of this year. I haven’t been on Facebook a lot this year in which I had it deactivated, well I recently got back on and usually I share things on my platform that I agree with or think it’s informative. Well I posted something as what you are stating in the video via tiktok and my brother replied to it and just called me all types of names. Made up things that he said I’m mad at and it was just ugly and nasty. Although that hurt, that was the confirmation I needed that I did the right thing!
@missdesireindependance51948 ай бұрын
A hit dog will holler.
@user-cl6uj5bn2f2 жыл бұрын
Omg the "Chameleon Effect" hit the nail on the HEAD 🙌 I have actually used that exact term myself, when referring to certain narcissists in my life, "chameleons" lol
@wateroverock55973 ай бұрын
"I do not want to hear it" is the family quote I tend to hear the most meaning that they don't care what happens to me.
@J3nnycat2 жыл бұрын
This just validated everything I’m feeling and couldn’t put into words. Something that’s also eating me is knowing that i may never see my father again. Being okay with the possibility that he may pass away in the meantime...😞
@TherapistTamaraHill2 жыл бұрын
I'm sorry for this loss. It's a healing process in so many ways. Praying for your strength.🙏
@blackweavesmatted62412 жыл бұрын
Exactly the same here. Both Mother and Father . My sister , I don't know if it will affect me so much ......I could be wrong . When sexual , physical and emotional trauma is involved why and how can you stay around these people ? Even if they are old and claim or really don't remember their past actions . I still do and suffer CPSD from it . Sometimes all we can do is try and forgive and walk away .
@dymonddeonna4303 жыл бұрын
I’m 19 and came a long way with dysfunctional family/emotional abuse. It caused me severe anxiety and I trip when I’m overwhelmed. I got pregnant at 17 and my life has been hell every since. I got kicked out and punished to suffer abuse, no one helped or gave me advice. I’m now in community college, graduating short term to transfer to an university which will be smart to find new people and I’m hoping to become an entrepreneur and move to another state to find myself by traveling. It’s hard to move on from family who tries to stop your every move and relationships with others.. but I’ve been getting money from school and a summer job program so I’m hoping I’ll be able to support myself financially on my own.
@shereses.32989 ай бұрын
I made the stand a few years ago.....i am still so deeply saddened by it. Its God that gives me strength, my daughter, and a really supportive group of friends💯
@SusanaXpeace2u3 жыл бұрын
So, I've gone very very low contact and I know it's for the best but I still feel like a lonely pathetic bratty little orphan. I want to get rid of this feeling of existential discomfort! When will it pass?!
@mazaocc80652 жыл бұрын
Make it NO contact. That will sort you out. Youre still clinging on to something that is destroying you.
@laurencenatasha55582 жыл бұрын
You have done step one, which is going away from them... Now you got to work on the trauma....
@chamomiletea54249 ай бұрын
The existential discomfort is so real. Coming through it though. Time alone, reflecting, praying. Faith and psychology channels like yours help. Peace & blessings to you!
@TherapistTamaraHill9 ай бұрын
This is key! So glad you are doing all of these things. God bless you!
@GETYOBAGMONIQUE8 ай бұрын
A lot of my family members who judge me don't even have the right to do so. They be thinking they are better then me.but forget where they came from. And the crazy thing is they have done way worse then me. I have had to cut of my mother, sister, and distance myself from my oldest son.
@millieperez53678 ай бұрын
Thank you so much for this. Being at peace is definitely better than anyone who's toxic. It may be lonely at times, but I have peace of mind.
@TherapistTamaraHill8 ай бұрын
You're welcome and well said. Agree!
@fionam37352 жыл бұрын
Years later and I have suffered as a single parent of two children at the hands of my toxic ex and his close allies my parents. They even got involved in the ex court case that had nothing to do with them. All this and no contact for four years 🤷♀️ staying would have killed me but leaving isn’t a bed of roses unless you are single with no dependents and a good job. Good luck P. S. You get to see the family dynamics and characters very clearly when you go no contact. I didn’t mean much to any of them and I don’t want to waste my time with those sorts of people that couldn’t care less
@TherapistTamaraHill2 жыл бұрын
I'm sorry to hear this. This is very hard to live through. But I do agree that you see the dynamics better in a family once you put up healthy boundaries or you separate. The way they behave should determine your course of action in the end.
@Maria-it2qy2 жыл бұрын
"An existential discomfort" wow!!! That is exactly where i am right now, 2 years after no contact.
@stellasole37203 жыл бұрын
I just accepted the guilt and continued anyway. It does pass. In those times you have to practice loving self talk and behaviours.
@priyabriggs6593 жыл бұрын
The existential discomfort is hard.
@TherapistTamaraHill3 жыл бұрын
Yes, very much agree. Will talk about this soon.
@bethsimm31443 жыл бұрын
I'm so glad I watched this I just needed to to hear how going back would just be giving in and for me giving in to them would mean giving up on me. I know I made the right choice but they are trying to get into my head. Thanks Tamara great video as always.
@TherapistTamaraHill3 жыл бұрын
This is good Beth! I'm glad this was helpful. Sometimes you may find yourself going back and forth and that's something you will experience a lot. That's ok. It's apart of the process.
@bethsimm31443 жыл бұрын
@@TherapistTamaraHill I don't think I can afford to go back because I'm to aware of the way I've been wronged, but back and forth was always the way it went until this time and I know im better off out of the drama so I'm not looking back anymore. Theres point digging up the past to see if there a pulse.
@sonr.w34943 жыл бұрын
I know how you feel...im going through that at this moment...my sister keeps on looking for help and when I come back for her she acts like im the one that looks for help by to verbally abuse me and always try to fight and gossip about me ...specially when she is drunk...I need to move on and find myself ..I feel lost and confused going back and forth for her...
@dcc-randomstorieswithmel74243 жыл бұрын
Thank you,my dad completely abandoned us and would torture me emotionally with silence and not being there even while I was dealing with illness and my mother would support him and call me names,I would go back thinking she had change,bt then the hurt would start again,I needed to see this,I am not going back
@TherapistTamaraHill3 жыл бұрын
You're welcome! And I'm very sorry to hear this. Never easy to cope with the reality of this. It sounds like you had two very unstable parents. And I hope you are not beating yourself up because you went back hoping she had changed. So many adult children do this out of a deep need for that maternal love. It's sad she couldn't reciprocate or show you what you were hoping for.
@dcc-randomstorieswithmel74243 жыл бұрын
@@TherapistTamaraHill its so sad to just wrap myself around this,like I can remember just starving for 3days straight,begging for help and she would mock me,I was losing my biz,pple calling me a scam nt bcos I was one bt bcos my biz was in trouble and I needed help and my mum would laff at me,she even forced me to apologize to my dad,I did bcos I really needed the money,he completely ignored me,tried to kill myself and non of them even cared or called for days,i don't know how I will ever be able to forgive her,I know i have to forgive her for myself and for God but I just don't understand the explanation she's going to have when she comes back to beg,if she does anyways,how do you choose a man over your kids,how do you let a narcissist turn u into one?
@dcc-randomstorieswithmel74243 жыл бұрын
@@TherapistTamaraHill bt you are right about 1 thing,d peace is indescribable,I no longer have someone making me hate myself,telling me I'm never good enough,lying,betraying me,forcing me to apologize to someone who abandoned me,the sad thing is,she doesn't realize that he has no love in his heart,you can't hurt pple like that if you have love,I am at peace with it,it hurts having to mourn your family while they are still alive bt I think I'm just okay with it,I come first
@pleasesayhi40093 жыл бұрын
My birth family is all shattered to pieces, it wasn't hard to leave. My mom was the only one I talked to anymore and once I started to remember that cord was severed for good. They don't see me as a real human being, and that will never change.
@jojosimmer24442 жыл бұрын
I left home at 14 because my family were toxic. I went to my grandparents. I'm 55 now. My grandmother past away 2 weeks ago and I've been the closest person to her, and cared for her for 10 years or more. She was disabled and bowel and water incontinant. My uncle and I were the only people in her life all that time. Soon as she past my uncle pushed me out the funeral arrangements and his wives nephew started taking over. It's really hurt me. It's made me feel really used because now they don't need me to care for my gran they've abandoned me. I offer to help and I'm constantly told that other person unrelated to my gran is doing it. I'm very capible. I used to manage a pharmacy! But my uncle's slowing this even though my uncle and I are the executors of the will. I am so hurt by my family because I lost my gran my job and my daily social life and they've not once asked an I ok? I have to chase them to find out what's going on and I find I'm the last to know. then they had to go to see the vicar and took that person instead of me!! They then realised they didn't have the information they needed for the funeral service because I knew her better than them. Then they called me because they wanted something. I ignored the call. I decided to walk away from all of it, even the funeral. If I speak up in the bad guy, if I don't I'm the bad guy. I chose my self esteem and peace of mind and won't go back.
@Chaseniceness2 жыл бұрын
Bless your heart. I have found that people want you when you are healthy and doing everything. Plus I have had so many cling ons in my life. In my childhood all I would have wanted is a brother who loved me and he is a narc. All I got was physical and verbal abuse.
@josephpalmer83923 жыл бұрын
When it comes from family all I have is my wife and my daughter my mom and brother act like I don't exist but you what I gave it to God .
@skyesage8813 жыл бұрын
That's all you need joseph. I'm dealing with the same from certain family member's.
@lovelyjo012 жыл бұрын
I slowly distanced myself from my family about 4 years ago but officially cut the off about 2 years ago. I’ve been feeling bored, depressed, and unloved. This pandemic is not helping.
@TherapistTamaraHill2 жыл бұрын
I'm so sorry. That's apart of the journey once you make that decision. Perhaps some reinforcement can help? Have you seen my video on existential decision making with toxic family? kzbin.info/www/bejne/eIucfnV7ZdiriKc. This might be helpful :)
@OAlchemAzyl Жыл бұрын
I did this when I was finally got fed up with my mom using my siblings against me, going on for years…the gossiping, the bullying, the gaslighting just horrible! My father left when I was 12, irresponsible unavailable father, left it to my mom to raise us but she has been so toxic it’s so sad! Shoot, they don’t even try to call me or visit(in the same town) they think I’m the crazy one and my mom says I make such a big deal and she shows no interest whatsoever about my feelings never has never will.
@bevviebyrom54719 ай бұрын
I re- watched this tonight. Because this is exactly where I am with my family. I give till I’m beyond empty and it’s still not good enough. I’m so beyond done with every last one of them. This is the third Christmas in a row that they have ruined. Just their using me, verbal abuse. Childish behavior. And wanted to be treated like kings and queens. Yet having the accountability of a toddler. You spoke right to my heart and I appreciate it. Very much. Merry Christmas miss Tamara. You have been a voice of reason for me for the last almost 4 yrs. Thanks so much.
@TherapistTamaraHill9 ай бұрын
🤗Very glad to hear this video is still helpful to you! I'm sure you are doing great/better. Keep going if this is the healthiest thing you have done to maintain your stability within your family. Nothing is worth a loss of stability within yourself. Glad to still have you on the channel!
@chamomiletea54249 ай бұрын
I really feel this. Peace & blessings to you 🙏🕊
@Bibleinformationandhelp Жыл бұрын
I truly dislike it when a family member minimizes the abuse you received from another family member. In a way, I think it is a form of being gas-lit or something. Hearing nonsense like, "No matter what they have done, they are still your family member. You need to get back in their life." So, someone should get back with an abusive family member because they share the same bloodline? So the victim is wrong for distancing themselves from that abusive family member when they are tired of getting abused? It's like we are living in upside-down world or something. Very toxic advice.
@princessjackeywesley Жыл бұрын
i just came across this channel... am battling with toxicity from an elder sister and will be separating with her after my graduation. i am now leaving with her and its been hard to the point that my mental health is at stake.... am just fed up with her and this video will definately help....subscribed.
@TherapistTamaraHill Жыл бұрын
Welcome to the channel! I welcome you to my life chats on Friday at 7pm est nights. I read and answer questions/comments and teach you new ways to think through these things. And the lively chat box is the best part! I'm sorry you have had to experience this. No one wants a family like this.
@princessjackeywesley Жыл бұрын
@@TherapistTamaraHill thank you so much...will definately show up.This should be 12pm for me in Kenya.x
@chitasworld7391 Жыл бұрын
As Joel Osteen sais, "My family puts the "FUNK" in dysfunctional👋
@TherapistTamaraHill Жыл бұрын
🤭 he does say that.
@LeslieJacobson2 жыл бұрын
This is one of the best videos I have watched on this topic. It perfectly described the aftermath of my decision to separate myself from my siblings. I’d get sucked back in repeatedly only to be hurt again. I’m standing firm this time and because of that they reach out to other family members and I’ve had to go through similar conversations as you described. Each time that happens it’s like reliving the original trauma.
@JKDVIPER3 күн бұрын
They seem to take advantage of EMPATHY. They’re looking for that deep inner caring, to exploit, dramatize, and guilt trip.” 😎💯
@anewcraft53369 ай бұрын
When family members compromised my salvation, I heard the voice of the Lord saying, come out from among them and be separated said the Lord and touch not the unclean thing and I will receive you, 2 Corinthians 6:17 and now I have inner peace and it feels wonderful.😇
@TherapistTamaraHill9 ай бұрын
2 Corinthians 6:17 New International Version 17 Therefore, “Come out from them and be separate, says the Lord...."
@lovefaith62856 ай бұрын
Your description of your family dynamic sounded like you were describing mine. Whenever there is a family crisis we all "come together as a family" but as soon as it's over everyone goes back to toxic mode. I've already distanced myself from my siblings and have made the decision to distance/stop contact with my mom and this video describes what I'm experiencing. Thank you for this.
@ellakennickell58422 жыл бұрын
Glad im watching this now instead of when first posted, because im going through the very things described right now. Had been distanced from toxic family for some time, but temporarily found it necessary to broach contact. Thought we could all be adults and move past the past, but it seems they put their whole spiel on pause for those years and resumed right where left off upon seeing me again. It is unfathomable how tightly they hold onto abusive patterns. So boundaries have to go back up, sadly.
@TherapistTamaraHill2 жыл бұрын
Some people say the most beneficial part of the videos from last year and earlier are the comments, the responses to those comments, and time. Some people feel certain videos click more now than when it first was posted. So I totally get that! I know you have to be shocked by these family members! The dynamic never really changes, even if you don't see them often or at all.
@keh-dalia809 Жыл бұрын
That thing about death, man.... When my brother passed, everyone was toxic still around it, pretty heartless, and my sister was even cruel and trash talking my brother days after he passed. Even tho he had never been mean of toxic back in his life, and he was my only family member I really felt cared for me and I loved him.... after seeing the utter disregard and disrepectfullness, and abusiveness, and no remorse for how they treated him, no reflection of life and death and living a life worthy to be proud of, that was it for me, I could finally see just how dark and cold their hearts were. It was unfathomable to me!! Life is sacred and it matters how you live it and how you treat others along your way, and if someone doesn't even feel regret or bad for how they treated someone so cruel who was so kind, even after they tragically die, what is that if not evil?
@melliecrann-gaoth478910 ай бұрын
Tragic death of siblings. Changed nothing. It’s shocking in an educational “ functioning” bunch of adults. The loss of my brother to suicide. Is less than the loss of what’s followed. Such a tragedy. Compassion to you in your suffering.
@tomikoeaton97862 жыл бұрын
I walked away 5 years ago thank God my mother is a narcissist my dad is a borderline personality disorder my entire family have high narcissistic traits
@TherapistTamaraHill2 жыл бұрын
I'm so sorry. Parents like this are horrific and can inflict a lot of pain and sorrow that leads to trauma. Glad you found some peace.
@melliecrann-gaoth478910 ай бұрын
I understand the chaos you describe. Years and years of therapy without it named. Both parents disordered- big time and the family the siblings highly narcissistic
@Wooddweller Жыл бұрын
I am trying to push my mental illness to the side so that I can manage a work schedule that helps me to get enough money to relocate. Thank you for this video. I really needed this.
@Wooddweller Жыл бұрын
i regret not leaving this city when i was 19 years old and childless with so much ahead of me in life.
@renztaylor5904 Жыл бұрын
Yeah, I no longer want to push my MH aside! For a job that wouldn’t be able to commit too and do a stellar job no matter what it is, until I get my MH in line and feeling more balanced! I’ve spent my life pushing it aside, self medicating and it’s gotten me no where!!! I’m welcoming clarity, balance, self compassion
@maribelsuarez-roman45323 жыл бұрын
Having heard your video series, it has opened my eyes and helped immensely with the inner struggle of simply letting go and know that is okay, and healthy to cut ties. Above all, forgiving...not so much for them, but for you as a way to move forward...Blessings to you and yours, Tamara.
@TherapistTamaraHill3 жыл бұрын
Maribel, this is great! Thank you and you're welcome. I agree that forgiveness is not so much about them but you. It lifts the burden you hold just being angry and defensive. God bless you too!♥
@KelseyMarieReina3 жыл бұрын
Very helpful video! I recently distanced from toxic family members and beginning to see some of these aftermath affects. Thank you, Tamara!
@TherapistTamaraHill3 жыл бұрын
You're welcome and Thank you!! Glad it was helpful!
@christineluna25522 жыл бұрын
I have struggled about what to do with my daughter's actions for quite some time. Thank you for giving me the knowledge and understanding that what she is doing is abusive, and that it is ok to just let her go. Distancing from her is where we are for half a year at a time, when she causes drama where there need not to be any, and then stops talking to me. But now you have empowered me to make it permanent and not to go back to the see-saw. Thank you for the education process that you provide.
@TherapistTamaraHill2 жыл бұрын
Hi Christine, you're welcome!! And thank you for watching. You have to do what is best for you in your situation.
@sirisongbird2 жыл бұрын
I needed this. Thank you so much! Particularly from a Dr. from our own community. The toxicity began when I was 8yo. I had a toe amputated, at Christmas time no less. Ironically, I also won a scholarship to college just before I lost my toe and they hated that my parents were proud of me. My siblings immediately made fun of me, called me "invalid", made songs up, etc. That never ceased. I am 50yo & FINALLY cut them off completely last year. It caused decades of suicidal thoughts, majordepression, isolation, etc. I felt INvalid. I became disabled during my pregnancy 22yrs ago. This completely destroyed my confidence and justified their impression that I indeed was an INVALID. Now I feel my son has joined them. He blamed me today for the life I couldn't give him and told me he hates me. I fear for my own eventual inevitable emotional "fallout"...
@imalwaysme43322 жыл бұрын
I just cut my mother out of my life. She was pretending to have memory issues despite me telling her I spoke to her doctor and she passed all the cognitive test with flying colors . Then when she thought I was recording her, she changed her tune once again. (She want me to live with her to take care of her.
@melliecrann-gaoth478910 ай бұрын
They all have a book of tricks- it’s hilarious- not! Something similar happens with intimate partner abuse and their book of tricks. And workplace bullies.
@tinoush12395 ай бұрын
Thank you very much, you are right the only thing is to distance yourself from the peoples that make you feel bad.
@TherapistTamaraHill5 ай бұрын
You're welcome! Sometimes that's the only way to peace.
@nicoleserenalauer3027 Жыл бұрын
Go, run, make your life a peaceful place, and don't look back! They will not change in a thousand years! If they are interested to understand why, they would ask you! They know exactly what they did to you.... and don't want to look in their mirror!
@kellyjackson49738 ай бұрын
Facts!!! I am finally 6 yrs later done with he be at the complete expense of my grandchildren …… don’t these young adults realize how short life is… when you gaslight your family and LIE causing trauma within your family. You’re ruining your family!!! Why!??????
@kinetics19842 жыл бұрын
You are amazing. I really needed to hear this today. I’m definitely going thru existential discomfort. Knowing that it’s normal, gave me great comfort. Thank you :)
@TherapistTamaraHill2 жыл бұрын
Thank you!! You are so welcome!! :) I'm very glad this was helpful to you. It's amazing how comforting understanding and validation is.
@neenee18632 жыл бұрын
Growing up as an only child made me long for familial relationships. As I hit 30, spent 2 years as a caregiver for my grandmother, and got to know cousins/fam drama, the generational toxic traits became so apparent. I hit the end of my rope quickly and hard. This left me with huge trust issues regarding anyone who seems to only be around for intel. Ultimately, letting go of the constant exhaustion faced with trying to make things work and putting my feelings to the side was the best decision I could have made for my overall health.
@ברכהה2 жыл бұрын
Thank you for talking openly and truthfully about a painful and complex subject.
@TherapistTamaraHill2 жыл бұрын
You're welcome! And I agree it is a very challenging topic with tons of complex dynamics. Thanks for watching.
@tallchicknvegas2 жыл бұрын
All family ain't good family has been a life I had to live. Do it! Leave them, or forever have drama from them. Then you have to work on YOU. Yeah, not easy. Especially, after living as a zombie through life.
@TherapistTamaraHill2 жыл бұрын
Agree 100%
@chubbyhippy2 жыл бұрын
You're tired for my #1 most helpful / informative youtube therapist while on a wait list for a trauma therapist in my area.
@TherapistTamaraHill2 жыл бұрын
Glad to help!😊 Thank you!
@garyrandall3059 Жыл бұрын
I had hope that my family members would change from age 15 to 49. I cut off relationships with at least 90% of my maternal family, including my mother and grandmother, last year, at age 50. I'm now 51 and I'm so glad I did that. I've decided that I will not attend any extended family events going forward in my life; No weddings, funerals, graduations, etc. I've seen a therapist since June 2020 and she has guided me to change my life for the better. Thank you so much for creating this channel to help others who have suffered like you. Continued success and blessings.
@valeriewalkerwhite95252 жыл бұрын
Thanks to everyone for your posts...I'm working on the trauma bonds created with this family and it is not easy but it is necessary...xoxo