How I Broke Free From the Ego. How Long Did It Take?

Something that happened through the various stages of spiritual awakening is that, there is now more space between the ego and me, meaning, I’m not as attached to the ego, and a lot of times, I’m observing rather than being intertwined with the drama of it. In the video, I talk about how it happened (started with an ego death), and how long it took.
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#spirituality #darknightofthesoul #egodeath

[@JaiKaalika]

it's been 3 years into my awakening, I am in my second (intense) dark night.

[@seesone8035]

Seek Light with the Violet Flame Mantra. It helped me expel some past life energy that turned into healing that part of myself. The day after I started the Violet Flame Mantra, I cried uncontrollably but didn’t know why. I wasn’t having a good day but it was nothing to cry about. My body was releasing that low energy that was holding me back. To this day I still practice the Mantra. Some of what we are going through may be from a previous life that needs to heal. Our issue surface to be resolved. I hope this helps you seriously. Stay positive ✨

[@smashingtwoscoops4999]

Just keep going! ❤️👊 (As if you even have a choice, at this point.) 😉👉

[@olivergrah4629]

Same, intensest phase yet

[@sangeetakumari1468]

ego death hasn't happened yet! just overly sensitive mode is going on,crying for very small reasons,the body feeling the intense emotions(sadness,anger etc),10 times overthinking.thank u for the video!

[@RegardsRei]

Hang in there!

[@sonya9478]

Trust it shall pass. I came out of 3 months of continous dark night of the soul. I am feeling much better. There is certainly light at the end of the tunnel. 🌸🌸🌸

[@sangeetakumari1468]

​@@sonya9478​ thank you for ur consolation, I am going through it since 2020 and it became intense in 2021. And day by day it's going crazy, my dark night of the soul is so slow!🥲

[@sonya9478]

@@sangeetakumari1468 i feel u. I have been on this journey since 2021. I have gone through few dark night of the soul since then but not loosing hope as my soul has chosen this path for a reason. Although pain is unbearable at times.

[@catherine2709]

@@sangeetakumari1468 If it can help you, I share with you what has been very helpful for me and at last accelerated the things and helps me now a lot : an intensive practice for the reconnection with the body : feet massages (as soon as I wake up), body massages, Qi Gong, walk and/or sit in the nature, exercises for grounding and deep rooting, moving the body regularly during the day, deep breathing, etc... It helps a lot for the transmutation, for integration of high frequencies and for unification 💖

[@12567NoYouCannot]

I never had an Ego; but Humans Are giving me ONE.

[@jerry3790]

I feel like the ego is important and necessary for normal functioning. It’s good to have the experience of an ego death to know what it is like but one cannot live their life in that mindset, in the same way someone can’t live their life while constantly high, which coincidentally (or not?) is how most people achieve ego death, at least most I know that have gone through the experience

[@joaovitorcesardesouza120]

I was on that state too, getting high all the time

[@thevirgohermit8838]

I am so happy I found your channel! This is exactly what I need to hear! I’ve been going through what I believe is a massive transformation, and I think I’m on my third wave (?) of the dark night of my soul. But thanks to youtube videos like yours, I’m learning a lot. They’re really helpful. Thank you! 🙏✨❤️

[@kimhodgson1748]

This my third year of the dark night of the soul, very numb and hyper sensitive to anything at present. All I can do is ride it out and accept that is a process that I have to go through. Thank you for your video content they are really helpful

[@RegardsRei]

Oh, sounds like you’re in the thick of it. Hang in there, and yes, it’s a process that’ll pass one day.

[@cosmicGiGGles]

You're doing it! Better than I did. Hang in there Kim. Always remember in your darkest moments that your fellow star family is here.. supporting you, loving you, even when you feel the most alone. Some of us are even going through it with you. ❤

[@kimhodgson1748]

@@RegardsRei Thank you .xx

[@kimhodgson1748]

@@cosmicGiGGles Thank you ❤.x

[@iuinshine5213]

I just discovered what I had been trough may be an awaking ... and like for many here in the comment sector it's my third year. 🙇‍♀️ Can you please share your experiences! What kind of journey have you been, what has helped you so far ? How are you feeling at the moment? 🌻🌻🌻 and wanted to tell you, you can be proud of yourself!!! Please know, especially during those dark times that you are not your mind! 💕 😅 don't know why, but I wanted to share those words to you.

[@jasminet3419]

I never considered not having an identity and feeling confused about why people around me care so much - was an ego death thing... Because that's how I felt like my entire life since I was young. I used to feel quite down about it because I really wished that I cared about SOMETHING so I could work towards it, it would've made my life so much easier. It also made me feel quite self conscious about having "no personality" as my sister had pointed out a long time ago. But now after my spiritual awakening, it all finally made sense. It's because I innately knew none of it was permanent, so holding onto any identity or conviction is somewhat silly and yes, feels just like "pretending". Thank you Rei once again for making me feel not so alone. And thank you for pointing out that I could still find enjoyment in discovering my "authentic self" born out of my ego programming. That's exactly where I am at at the moment and exactly what I need to hear. Thank you !!

[@ChristopheOrtiz]

Thank you for sharing your experience. This is already 2 years that I am into the awakening and I lost the interest for everything. I am like empty, nothing motivates me. I am a scientist and my job was everything to me...and now, I go to the office because I must earn a salary, nothing else. I loved playing guitar...not anymore. I started experiencing this separation from what you call the ego some months ago. Weird. Sometimes I live like this for several days and I feel peace. Then I go back to the ego for some time, with all its suffering, and so on...

[@BuenaventuraFeliz]

What happened

[@mayo45671]

How are we expected to financially survive this? I feel stuck. SO STUCK. SO UNHAPPY

[@jerry3790]

Personally I am not particularly religious, and for that reason I tend to look at ego death through a secular lens. I’ve achieved partial separation through the use of psychedelics but I haven’t had the time/energy to commit to learn how to take it the rest of the way, although I hope to one day with both psychedelics and mediation. From what I have heard from friends who have undertaken it, it seems terrifying, and I have great sympathy for anyone who had to live with that for an extended period, but at the same time I can see that it has great value in helping one deal with the stress of everyday life and achieve a more stable inner peace.

[@RegardsRei]

That's so interesting that people achieve ego death through psychedelics. I wonder how that works... Is it a pleasant experience? Are you lucid through it? I'm not religious either, but I've never taken psychedelics, so it's interesting hearing your perspective.

[@jerry3790]

@@RegardsRei From what I have heard and experienced it is scary if ill-prepared but otherwise is neither pleasant nor unpleasant as you are separated from those emotions. Drug-induced ego deaths tend to be more “complete” compared to, for example, your own experience, with the person being so dissociated from their body that they have no more reason to believe it comprises “them” than a tree or a chair. This is why people tend to describe this experience as “becoming one with the universe”. As you can imagine, this state could be unsafe, as there would be zero urgency. The person, not recognising their body as their own wouldn’t care to get out of the way of a car, for example.

[@RegardsRei]

@@jerry3790 Very interesting! Thank you for that. Yes, having no ego is similar. But I'm assuming it only lasts as long as the psychedelic is in effect...? But the experience must be mindblowing all the same.

[@supremevegetable9452]

@@RegardsRei I believe it works by silencing the mind by chemically interfering with the mental chatter (ego/thought requires neurotransmitters i guess). Lucid, yes, unless taking an ill advised megadose. It can be terrifying or beautiful or both at once. It only lasts until the drug is metabolized, and yes it is mindblowing. :) I'm new to your channel, how did you achieve ego death?

[@brynawaldman5790]

@@RegardsRei Your assumption doesn't apply to someone who is already on a spiritual path. Such a person is prepared to take full advantage of the experience.

[@mysticwildflower]

Profound insight and information. I’m so glad I’ve willed your channel into my journey as I’m putting the pieces back together also. Your experiences knowledge and the way you explain your journey resonates deeply and is instantly helping on me to understand what I’m experiencing. Wow ♥️ oh by the way I love your sketched out visuals with your voice over that really dope.

[@RegardsRei]

Thank you! I'm so happy to hear that you're resonating with my journey. I began this KZbin channel feeling like I'm alone in this, so I'm so grateful to hear that you resonate.

[@alexlupanow]

It is not about the ego death but about its integration - because disowning a part of you would mean to separate and not be united or one. A lot of spiritual teachers say that the ego death must happen to be enlightened. I myself thought for a long time that the ego is something I need to let go of. This way, spirituality becomes an escapism of the physical reality. So the goal is to be aware of the ego and see it as an integral part of your being, like the non-duality of no right or wrong. It's about the balance between the ego and the higher self. However, I agree that the pre-conditioned ego, which fears the present moment and loves to dwell in the past or project into the future through fear, is mostly a pain in the ass. But still, it is part of being here as a human - so experience it and embrace it, the shadow and the light.

[@iuinshine5213]

Rei thank you so much for your videos 🌻 I was having identity crisis few days ago, your videos are helping finding answers for myself, how and why I react and what should I do. Now I feel heard and not as alone on this journey 😊 Thank you a lot for sharing!!! 🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻

[@cameronburnett9679]

I think my whole adult life has been a process of "ego death". My experience has been the same and from what I see the reason it's not blissful is that there is still an ego that sees that it's nothing. It's kind of a miserable thing tbh. The bhaktic traditions that emphasise love and joy show a path that is much less depressing so I'm now holding a minimal identity which encourages those things.

[@barnowl5774]

How long does it take to break free from control by the ego? Many reincarnations! Also, the Soul overshadows the personality, leads and directs the personality, expressing through it. (Souls vary in the degree of evolution of consciousness.) Also regarding your quote of, 'I want to be happy'....the Ageless Wisdom Teachings state that happiness is of the personality, joy is of the Soul, and Bliss is of the Spirit.

[@annieesther8405]

I have gone thru a few ego deaths over the last 2 decades and a half. It's usually quite painful for me for most of the process except the end of it. I don't think about detaching myself from my ego because it's a necessary part of us. From what I've learned from the book The Master and the Emissary by Iain McgilChrist, the ego is the Emissary. Our unconscious (and intuitive) part is the Master. If you get that under control, you're in a good place.

[@sonya9478]

Again great video ❤❤❤ Totally resonating with it 🙂🙂 I am currenlty going through phase where I can see as an observer when ego is at play. Certainly feeling dettached frm 80% things in my life. I wonder if we come to a stage where reacting to Ego takes a back seat and we do not react at all to triggers?

[@edgarnunez123]

That part. fascinating! Love your videos. Thanks for message and motivation. Still in the void between my ego and new self but slowly ego is dying and seeing this new point of view through my authentic self is beautiful. Mediation and doing things all myself with no interference from anyone or anything to help find my identity

[@sharmilakhanal7849]

Which meditation do you practice?

[@sharmilakhanal7849]

Im scared of this😢. Im slowly losing my self identity, i don't know who i am, i cant get socialise easily because i know everyone is faking. Its mKing my job in risk. I feel like im losing me. I just cant fit in anywhere, i feel so lonely 🥺

[@Dingolia]

I suspect I've seperated from my ego tonight. There was an overwhelming, unfamiliar sense that something was different in my mind. I found this video trying to figure out what was going on. I want to put my phone down and keep off of it as long as I can in the coming week. I think it might be easy to get sucked back in, if you get me.

[@LonnieHuggins-f4u]

Bruh I lost myself idk wtf goin on I got no personality/lost my old personality don't know who I am or what I want to do I'm completely idle I lost all my friends I have no motivation God if u watching this rite now please help a nigga ...I'ma enjoy the video now

[@lanitana100]

I'm going through the same thing. No motivation, totally idle, no interested in my hobbies etc. I'm sure if we wait a little while longer, that version of ourselves will come back naturally. If not, an upgraded version. I think i might need a good cry and dont even realize it.

[@moonshadow2756]

Idk I'm a bit confused but I feel I'm going through the same thing (?)

[@TheDjfish7]

Fantastic content and great editing! Very engaging! Thank you!! 🙏

[@RegardsRei]

Glad you enjoyed it!

[@googleaccountuser3116]

❤ the playfully childlike cartoonishness and the innocense in your voice 😊

[@khaossmith1257]

👁🙌🏾👌🏾💚❤️💚❤️💚❤️♾️🦋🌞🔑🌎🧲💪🏾💯🤗✨️✨️✨️✨️✨️✨️🎶🎵🎶🎵🎶🎵 infinite gratitude, appreciation, and love for you and your message 🙏😌 Ase'

[@Fazs1144]

I just want happiness and peace too This is my 3rd year after a spiritual awkening and going through a dark night of the soul

[@lovemonster7283]

Enjoy the kingdom that the rabbouni was talking about!

[@EarthSeed1111]

I'm straight tripping on these messages. I'm going to comment on each video just to help the algorithm. Everyone needs to see this. Love!

[@ATMAN.YOGINI]

Thank you for sharing your perspective! I have been expecting a complete ego death for years and it’s not the death and bliss as I expected either… thank to the universe your video is sent through for guidance! 🙏

[@ayukir11]

I cant tell you how much I relate to this!! Tysm for giving me insights like this! I feel so understood just by listening to someone with a very similar experience.

[@Moe-j2t]

I'm dead inside. A lot. What does that mean. As you call it "pair of eyes"

[@Heykay34]

Mine happened through meditation one morning at 4am after being unable to sleep for more than a few hours for like a week 😅

[@deadloxfox1278]

inner peace is a state of mind but to achieve bliss you must be present in the here and just be happy your an eternal spirit living as a human during a great metaphysical age

[@ParlorMan_Acoustic_Guitar]

I’m so happy to have found you Rei. Personally, I my ego death wasn’t a death as much as it was that my ego became irrelevant when I understood that everything in the universe is connected, right down to the atomic level. My ego lost its power almost completely and what little power remains is waning every day. I’m part of the Tao. If any ego-driven emotions or feelings occur, they are just something to be observed and learned from.

[@etsudiribssa784]

Glad i found your channel today😊... all your videos are resonating with me.

[@yucuklusumurta5144]

i want to break my ego soo much but i feel like i cant and i feel so bad... i just want to understand everyone but i feel intense anger and jealousy i feel like im a really bad person 😭😭

[@iPayElite]

Really bad people dont feel like really bad people and certainly don’t care about it. It can take time and patience. Silence, deep breathing, and choosing kindness and love until it’s sickening. Find some who needs a kind listener. Breathe deeply, and listen. Things might not change overnight but they will get better. And you may be surprised how much changes overnight when the time is right.

[@Dummyman7]

Amen, in jesus name amen

[@sonya9478]

Also I would like to ask after Dark night of Soul - did u go through a period of months or days when u were numb like u were not sad or happy ? If yes how long did that last for ? And what was next phase after it. Tx heaps ❤❤❤

[@RegardsRei]

Awesome questions, I'll make sure to put the answer in the next vid 🙂

[@sonya9478]

@@RegardsRei ❤️❤️❤️thnk u

[@supremevegetable9452]

i'm going thru this right now, has been going on for over a year :( sometimes i wonder if i broke something inside me, like short circuited my emotions. but i don't think so, feels like part of the process somehow, just gotta trust god to put everything back together in his own sweet time.

[@sonya9478]

@@supremevegetable9452 true. I think universe is teaching us patience and unconditional love as I am in spiritual journey through my twin flame.

[@MaxEgo666]

Lol

[@santiagocampos5863]

This is an amazing material, thanks! ♥

[@KDreamer1111]

It was the book "The Power of Now" by Eckhart Tolle, I read it back in 2018 im think and everything changed after that... 😅

[@Crazyrichazn]

can you talk about food change? Why does your body reject certain food during Dark night. I cannot handle anything that I liked before, like pop and cake! I would throw up or go into an panic mode after having them. I’m not on a diet.😂

[@Sealalah]

I wanna break my ego and get my spiritual awakening to be more calm, and free, also take care of my inner child and do things my authentic self did... But I also wanna live up to my dreams of travelling, studying, being an artist, which is a part of my ego, is that gonna interfere?

[@mauricealeph3750]

It's a kind of detachment...non-identfy yourself with things and situations who "owns you" in the past...at The same time you find yourself "floating" in the Space...,something much bigger and stronger comes out of those Ego masks ...(excuse my poor english..😅

[@phun1901]

Im new here, but not having a sense of identity sounds like CPTSD. You become so shaken that you no longer trust your own view of the world or of yourself. I have cptsd, or developmental trauma disorder.

[@tinkachu8743]

This confuses me. If I'm too relaxed at my job, I will get fired. It's very fast paced. Then the company will stop paying for my college. How is that fake?

[@mauricealeph3750]

Did you read Gurdjieff or Ouspensky? And The "Tool" of Self-observation? Try It...

[@j.t.r1976]

I'm dealing with dissolution some pretty rough mental health struggle.

[@olyasorokina3780]

Hi Rei, have you thought about being interviewed on Buddha at the Gas Pump? You have such practical wisdom to share.

[@rahelehghasabzadeh9844]

Hi Rei, Thanks for your beautiful content. I’ve been on this journey myself and when I found your channel, I was fascinated with the fact that such people exist. Anyway, I really like to share my experience with others too as I feel like it’s selfish not to do so. If you don’t mind, I wanted to ask about the software you use for creating these animations, and how you learned to create these. Let me know if you don’t mind me asking. Thanks, Rachel

[@torpedohost]

everything from spiritual biological psychology all talking about the same thing even though you can read books on just one topics forever. but to break it down this is just the vocabulary that im using but basically indigenous/ancient people all new about it. its the ying and yang principal doesn't matter what religion , philosophy health psychology etc ying and yang exist lets me break it down to higher self: people can call it holy spirit ,prana ether, source energy quantum field the flow state etc. depending this is a place where you feel bliss love joy gratitude compassion. and all your intuition creative states problem solving skills wisdom common sense psychic abilities its an energy field that you heal heals too also including luck. now to the lower self: way at the bottom energy of shame and guilt apathy anxiety worry anger. unlike higher self has been scientifically proven your cells get weak and sick you lose your common sense wisdom perspective intuition your bodies in survival. this is where the ego is. but ying and yang hot and cold one doesnt exist without the other. and ego is necessary its there to protect you from jumping off buildings and stress and agitation is needed to take action finding the balance is the game of life. the more you love someone to more it hurts to lose that person. but the more love you feel the more higher self feelings you feel they all exist together under current exist with tsunami so dont judge the ego and let it go

[@mauricealeph3750]

...And The stars and planets arround makes a huge influence... in the expression of our Ego too..

[@barthode4037]

It´s been about 4weeks before my awakening. Actualy i don´t know where i should start :D I´m 25 and never feeling this good in my entire life. A funny fact, i NEVER played musik in my life, now i feel musik like i´m in it. I also played a bit online piano, nearly good xD

[@domsob92]

Ego (personality) is completely transcended at the 4th initiation (see Ageless Wisdom Teachings). A well known person to have reached this level was J. Krishnamurti. If you pay close attention to his talks, he never refered to himself as I or me. At such a high level of consciousness, the concept of a separate self does not exist.

[@chrisrosado1507]

I really didn't know that you just start pushing away bad situations so easily. Like now I'm completely getting away from anything negative and I'm just completely honest with everyone. I care if I hurt people but I also can't be fake anymore

[@craigspada1676]

I really enjoyed your video, I learned more about myself. I will be watching more! Thank you, God Bless

[@MalissiaCreates]

Love your conclusion!! All aspects of God ITSelf - thank you thank you thank you 🙏🏼🫶🏼✨💕🧘🏼‍♀️

[@itsaly3764]

Could you recommend any yt channels on this topic that you find insightful ?

[@philsadventures2022]

When you were in the beginning stages of your ego death. Was it hard to learn or understand anything?? I feel this being a really big struggle, and I'm just finished my first year at college. I did really bad(borderline failed) last semester because of this emptiness and meaninglessness, let alone being able to get by with normal life. Btw your videos are amazing and I found some grounding in them.

[@elizaveta2407]

Agree. I've learned to respect and appreciate my ego and its reactions but not to be driven by them. I think of my ego as a bodyguard and a soulguard so to speak. :)))

[@enrique_villegas_111]

Wow your videos are so good, I love the playful funny energy you put behind them, as well as all of these drawings. Thank you 🪄✨🫶🏽

[@4luv215]

I think all of us have a little bit different experience. ❤ love to hear your story. 🙏 My ego needs to support spirit… however am a work in progress too

[@kevinbryan8036]

I'm grateful to have found your channel. Thank you.

[@PaganSkye]

I still don’t understand how to go through an ego death

[@NUZZIE.]

Your channel found me in my embryonic stages of awakening. Thank you for having a feeling of warmth about you. I'm learning so much❤

[@rizwana7256]

same here-- sometimes I cry for no reason

[@txm.9021]

I love this channel 😭💕

[@Gabrielsylvain]

Thanks once again

[@Naughty-jq2gg]

Thank you🙏💕

[@kaurh0818]

Thank you 🙏🙏

[@pumpkinmonster5104]

What’s the difference between Identity and authentic self?

[@phun1901]

I suggest you look into Gabor Mate. In a nutshell the authentic self is what really think and feel, and want to respond. But it is often squashed by survival/social needs. Like when a child is trying to keep their primary care giver happy. Identity is the way you see yourself in relationship with the world. I am a father/scientist/I have these qualities/came from these origins. It is possible to be divorced from your authentic self without even knowing it. Many abusive relationships persist because the victim doesn't even realise what they are feeling.

[@Alice-vw2wy]

thank you.

[@darkandlight1252]

Beautiful 💙

[@jack-sawyer]

👁💟👁

[@sonya9478]

Thank u really appreciate you taking my request on board ❤

[@RegardsRei]

Thank you for the great question!😊 I made it into a two part vid. I’m not sure if this video sufficiently answers your question, though. Let me know after watching this if you have any more questions, and I’ll incorporate it in the next vid. ❤️❤️

[@sonya9478]

@@RegardsRei ❤️❤️❤️

[@angelicaramirez5385]

♥️

[@paulopinheiro7095]

😘

[@CptEtgar]

in my experience there are benevolent forces that are against human ascension.

[@swensandor]

And what can I do to get rid of this ego? I wish I got rid of it.