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[@RebekahParkhurst]

You’re maybe the first person I’ve seen starting a journey like this who I fully believe and expect to reach your goals. You’re doing all the right things and have the right mindset. I’m cheering for you!

[@breereilly7112]

100% agree

[@soilgrasswaterair]

sahtification it’s not about staying positive, but to actually sort out what the drive is behnd the eating disorder. Food and weight is just the symptom, but the root of the mental health is the reason! Which is why it’s so dangerous when people within the healthcare system will only focus on the weight and shame the overweight/obese person for not working hard enough to lose weight. When majority of people who will get therapy for at least 1 year that can help them with their trauma (which is usually the root), and gherefor get to a place where their body wants to be naturally biologically. Moving and not having a consistant place you call home can be a trauma for a child, military mentality is not within your norm home etc etc, and then add the bullying. In the same way an anorexic person can’t be told to just try harder to eat more (it will not remove the mental disorder to change the weight). Relapse in the eating disorder usually happens when not enough mental health support has been there. A person can’t think their way out of mental health issues, it takes lots of time and effort with the help of the healthcare with people who specialize in eating disorders. Eating disorders is NOT about willpower. Saying it is, is the same as saying that people choose to have an eating disorder, when an eating disorder is a servere mental disorder that is so complex you need specialists within the field ro help those who suffer from them. You wouldn’t say the same to someone who is struggling with Bipolar disorder. The reason people gain weight or lose weight again after having some camp staff or medical people focus on the weight is because nothing changed about the mental health, but instead the ”help” came in the form of food and workout. People know how to eat and workout, they need help to figure out the drive/lack of drive and why they get comfort from food what they try to comfort themselves from. Just like an alcoholic isn’t drinking because they like it, it’s escapism from emotions that the reward brain chemicals offers when it’s taken in. 18:56 She gets it, and hopefully she has the ability to see a psychologist once a week consistantly for a year minimum. I truly believe she can beat this disorder and hope she can find inner calm💕🙂

[@franceskennedy2938]

soilgrasswaterair : Very thought provoking. You hit some very important points. Thank you.

[@jarrellidk]

I understand you were trying to compliment but that sounds very cynical.

[@sma4030]

@@jarrellidk honestly like what kinda fucking complement is that?

[@lauramorgan27]

Any person trying to improve their health and get fit should be praised and encouraged.

[@CelalcanG]

and anyone does the opposite must be punished?

[@lauramorgan27]

Celal Can Gezer where did I say that?

[@kathy-leew3989]

I agree! Especially when I see them in the gym! I want them to feel so good!

[@ArmyWorld16]

Yup👍

[@bfreemanf3443]

@lauraM well said !

[@nattcattt]

Her stopping in the middle of her story to say "Let me do my set" was honestly so badass.

[@shayestewart5981]

Omg yes I love that about her 🥰, she's doing her life right.

[@gelflingfay]

Totally my favorite part of all of it. It showed commitment. Dedication is am amazing attribute.

[@highergroundfitnessfst]

Right!?! 💪👊👍😀💯

[@maryellenputnam-reinhardt3305]

Agreed

[@BreaB15]

Literally made me want to hit the weights.

[@dakishimete-_-]

OK but why are you one of the most adorable heartwarming people I’ve ever watched? 🥺

[@sanmarlyns]

Yes she is. I enjoy watching her speak. She has a soothing voice

[@OldWizard-tt5lt]

Agree so much !

[@rosenides6418]

Omg I know right!?? Where do people like this come from??? Crafted by angels and rainbows - yeah that's it 👌❤️

[@jazminearceneaux7452]

I was thinking the very same thing!!

[@Minor2aMajors]

Right she is so sweet, glad she popped up recommend for me☺️

[@SaeraPhina]

This is proof of the harm that a catcall can do to a woman's mental health and body image. Guys think that women are supposed to feel grateful when they do this, but don't realize that the unwarranted sexualization of your body by a stranger is hardly ever a good feeling.

[@_Cassia_]

SaeraPhina This is so true :(

[@Shannon_Vlogs]

I couldn’t agree more - How do you even respond to them? It feels like they’re designed to objectify women. Terrible

[@user-uh3qj2tb4z]

Don't forget family

[@SaeraPhina]

@@user-uh3qj2tb4z oof especially family. They're the ones that come at you the hardest and it's everytime they see you.

[@Giraffe27]

You’re speaking the truth!! I started getting catcalled when I was 9 and it made me feel so ashamed of my body.

[@kaseyc1350]

"When you don't love yourself, you're not very lovable." That hit home. I feel that.

[@moonflower6607]

What if people love you no matter your size?

[@aya123444]

@@moonflower6607 I do not think it is about size, tbh! Being loveable is about showing you.. without all the walls.

[@JulieHiltbrunner]

Why do we call it “weight loss” instead of “healthy gain” maybe there’s a psychological boost to gaining something good instead of losing something.

[@sophia8796]

this comment is so mind-opening!! love that perspective

[@sanelisiweshabalala653]

Okay, YES!!!!

[@itsokay2606]

Loosing something can be a very positive thing. Aka cleansing

[@roxyhaze6955]

life style change

[@haileymac9040]

Healthy Gain feels so much more secure and empowering. Wow

[@ameliatorres6162]

My girl! Don’t jump rope just yet. It can be dangerous to jump rope because of the stress placed on the knees and ankles. I’ve injured myself a couple of times from jumping the wrong way throughout my dancing career. Those injuries do take you out of exercising for a while since recovery can take a while. There are other exercises that can raise your heartbeat and keep you active without the stress that jumping brings. It’s really important to not only know when to jump but also how to properly jump in order to reduce any injury risks and for being able to stay active 24/7.

[@sailorarwen6101]

Agree. Age affects this too. I went ham when I first lost weight, but I was in my early 20’s. Now I’m 30, I’ve gained all the weight, I previously lost, back, and decided to make a change. I went to a class at a gym and the instructor wanted us to sprint. I couldn’t sprint so I gently jogged. Gave myself IT band syndrome. It hurt SO bad. Took a little over a month before I could really do anything again

[@christineboyce4076]

Maybe you could just jump on a rebounder? Maybe that would be easier on your joints. Swimming is the best tho

[@Wild.cottagegarden]

Amelia Torres she knows her body more than you do! She’s also been working out for years! She’s amazing and smart!

[@mimipicard9879]

@@Wild.cottagegarden so many overweight people who knows their body too injure themself buy doing explosiv exercises.. jumping while being overweight or obese is dangerous for you articulations.. that doesnt mean in anyway than she calls her not smart or not amazing.. you comment is full of anger and rude .. wath up you #%%?🤣🤣🤣

[@NextLevelOnlineCoaching]

@@Wild.cottagegarden 50/50 though. tendons and ligaments are unforgivable and our subconscious is very tricky . I thought I knew my body when I attempted to do a kartwheel too, I paid the price. I'm still learning more about my body n mind everyday. I think she should put her self in the least riskiest environment, so changing the surfaces would be ideal. Now she is jumping with two feet and a few inchest off the ground, so maybe this can be could a good dosage of impact for her joints? Well It's not jump squats..so it's worth investigating but it is amazing to see her perform that ability.

[@k.rebuilding]

My mama once told me that depression is rage, turned inwards.

[@mingmangmung3051]

This is so accurate

[@ThisIsKassia]

It can also just be a chemical imbalance. Like, I'm very pro therapy, but sometimes it's just a brain thing and needs drugs to fix it.

[@KoreaMojo]

@@ThisIsKassia Did you know serotonin is produced in the gastrointestinal system? This is a recent discovery. There is more we don't know than we do.

[@vickiereiss1597]

And rage turned inward is you hurting the hurt. Everyone has a right to feel good about themselves. We're all on the human treadmill of life.

[@mmc1086]

Sounds like your mama was kind of blaming those suffering from depression for just having too much rage. Actually it doesn’t kinda sound like it, she flat out was. People who have depression have a mental illness. Be careful what you say.

[@br1ttbritt]

To be honest, I clicked on this video expecting a dramatic sob story, but was immediately surprised and touched by how positive and genuine you seem, even while explaining your struggles. You truly seem like such a sweet person and I wish you the best!

[@sarahdoanpeace3623]

Same

[@highlyopinionated]

This is probably one of the most responsible videos I have seen in such a long time. This is what body positivity should be about, you are looking into the why's and figuring out how to change your actions to get to where you need to be. You seem like such a kind and sweet woman and I wish you the best! Get the mind right and the rest will follow. I would strongly suggest seeing a councilor to deal with your negative thoughts about yourself, show yourself some more compassion girl! Wishing you all the best on your journey xx

[@Hope-si1kb]

Yes. Some people are turning body positivity into "health at every size" or "it's okay to be morally obese" when that's not what it is and not what it should be.

[@MrFusselig]

I totally agree! Take responsibilty, admit to have a problem, and then take action to solve it. Very honest and mature behaviour. High quality personality.

[@blammela]

Amen!

[@voceangelo]

I lost 90 lbs and gained all of it back after a big and unsuccessful move and serious depression. Once we moved back, I felt motivated after a change of work and a visit to my doctor moved me to re-start the journey. Quarantine has been a really big set back, and gained back 20 of the 40 lbs I managed to lose being sad, scared, and sedentary. Your honesty is so motivating to me. Thank you so much for sharing this. It puts my own weight journey into perspective. You're so positive. Again, thank you for sharing this is stuff. It's humbling and vulnerable and beautiful.

[@alexuspeavy1440]

Gaining after you’ve lost a significant amount of weight is so. hard. It’s like your mind is constantly comparing your “now” self to your “old” self and it’s incredibly discouraging. I lost 60 pounds last year, but after a traumatic experience & struggling with PTSD, I gained it all back. It’s the worst because I know I can do it because I did it before, but now my mindset is totally different. I’m praying for you, intentionally & sincerely! ❤️

[@LadyBeaz]

I lost 70 pounds between 2017-2018, and gained the majority of it back after a year and half of just one thing after another. It's hard to look back at those pictures now.

[@merarisepulveda2990]

This is so true... I've lost and gained 40 pounds, but I'm happy to say I've lost 41 pounds again during this quarantine and going to do everything in my power to keep it off and continue getting stronger. You can do it! 💪😊

[@mydailyreward2090]

I am in the same exact situation. I lost 60 lbs and after delivering my stillborn son and the PTSD from all of it, I have gained it all back plus more. You are so right. Your mind is just....different. But I am fighting. I am fighting to get my mind back and my body back. We just have to FIGHT

[@AprilLauren]

That is so true comparing your now self to your old self... I am so mean to myself using the now v old self struggle. I am so sorry to hear you gained your wait back, but I believe in you and when you are ready and your body is ready, you are going to be successful!! Thank you so much for your encouragement and support! 🥰❤️🥰❤️🥰❤️🥰❤️

[@megans580]

I so relate. I’m in the same place. I lost 80 lbs and gained it all back. I had to have a few surgeries and I allowed those situations to let me fall back into old habits. One of which was of a hysterectomy that messed with my metabolism and body chemistry. It’s definitely about getting back into that mindset of being able to do it again. This channel is a godsend. April is just the sweetest. I’m cheering for her and she’s inspiring me to get moving and do this again!

[@princesspeach4168]

Before people criticise others’ bodies, they need to stop and think about the factors that play into being over weight. The reality is, no one wakes up and wishes to be overweight, but mental health plays a huge part in weight gain. I myself suffer with binge eating disorder. And it’s not as easy as just “stop eating and exercise”. I wish people understood. Thank you so much for sharing ❤️

[@Doors_of_janua]

Sorry but it is. I feel for you. But if you can’t take responsibility over what your own hand puts in your own mouth you will never change. Blatant truth. Many people were where you are and did it. You can too.......... if you want.

[@tomashorst9544]

At the end of the day it still is a choice. Most people blame it on other factors because they don't want to accept that their weight is a result of their own choices. It will always be calories in vs calories out. If you're in a caloric deficit you will lose weight. And this is coming from someone who's been dealing with anorexic-like skinniness for almost his entire life

[@someoneawesome578]

Yeah! I also have a binge eating thing and its not the eating thing u need to fix, an I agree, mental healt plays a huge roal It got a bit beter for me when I realized I binge bcuz I was starving alot during my childhood (divorced parents, shared custody, dad did not really fix food and when I got food from him it was often fast food so now my brain is extra mega happy fo McD) Edit: and even though I know I have access to some kind of food almost everywhere, my brain and body still seem to think I need to eat for a week in one sitting

[@MagoosShoe]

To the first two repliers, honest question, do you guys know what the word factor means? In the context of making a choice a factor is a circumstance, fact, or influence that contributes to the result of an outcome. A factor is generally not something that completely robs a person of their autonomy, as you both seem to have suggested. For example, factors that may have contributed to the replies that both of you wrote may include having limited knowledge and limited experience with weight gain issues. Please understand, when wehaven't experienced something personally, we tend to compensate for our lack of experience by using common and anecdotal knowledge, and by creating assumptions. We also have a tendency to want to simplify things, because the easier something is to understand, the more competent we feel. So while it is true that weight gain caused excessive calorie intake, it is also true that a variety of factors that can also contribute to weight gain. I am not an expert so I'd recommend you speak to healthcare professional for authoritative information, but for know I will list some factors that are fairly common knowledge and/or that plenty easily accessible information: - Medication - Thyroid disorders - Genetics - Hormones (eg. Insulin, Leptin, cortisol, etc.) - Stress - Mental illness - Metabolism - Polycystic ovary syndrome - The Cerebellum And moreeeeeee.

[@tomashorst9544]

@@tianna5353 I hate this type of virtue signalling. Just because what I said isn't what you like to hear doesn't make it untrue. Your weight is a result of your choices, period. Of course there are tons of things that can affect it (pregnancy, mental problems, financial issues) but none of them make it impossible. I just find it annoying when people hide behind these things. If there's something that's holding you back from reaching your goals tackle that first. But some people just use that as an excuse to give up. Telling people that that's fine won't help. Sometimes people need to hear things they don't want to that's all. No hate

[@CobaltDragonfly]

I started off with a similar goal - over 200 lbs. Now down 115, and still going. Your approach is commendable and I wish you the very best.

[@kyleeverhoff9571]

YOU MADE A CHART AND WROTE OUT THE ACCOUNTABILITY STEPS YOU NEED TO TAKE. I’m so obsessed with this. This is incredible. This alone shows me you’re going to find success, whatever that looks like for you. Rooting for you. ♥️

[@olivia6432]

She's one of the cutest looking people I've ever seen I'm not gonna lie, her eyes just look so happy and genuine 💖

[@lisamir9937]

so are you for giving a comment like this :)

[@olivia6432]

@@lisamir9937 Goodness you're so wholesome that made me smile really big, thank you :")) 💖 😌

[@reckonerwheel5336]

She tends to smile as she talks too, gives even more positive vibes!

[@olivia6432]

@@reckonerwheel5336 I know right! Not only is she showing that she has drive but she doesn't make it seem like it's a burden or something, I really like her energy, it's very motivational :")

[@tinycrimester]

As someone who's been depressed, taking care of the basics like sleep, food, social life, is super important and counts for a lot, but also when you're actually depressed, you don't care enough to make the effort. I'm glad to hear you've identified these things in your life and hopefully if you ever fall into that pit again your husband or someone else you trust can tell you what's going on if you don't see it.

[@Sophie27987]

You’re so self aware, you’re taking responsibility, and taking a holistic approach, you deserve all the success in the world. Remember to be kind to yourself as well ❤️

[@1982bored]

Obese to beast sent me here.... You've got this girl❤️

[@lfitty6414]

Same here!

[@1982bored]

@Christina Williams why???

[@oritsela]

@Christina Williams oh my gosh, the first person I have seen who doesn't like him either!

[@delphinedjomo]

oritsela Why don’t you like him? I’m not a fan or anything just curious lol

[@oritsela]

@@delphinedjomo like... I am not even clear as to the point of his channel. So he lost weight n now he just talks about fat acceptance n body positivity having gone too far? Plus he came for my girl Sierra. I didn't like that.

[@baroozles]

Thank you for this. I’m 5’5- After getting sober I went from 100 pounds to almost 160. I’m down to 150 but I still don’t recognize myself. The intense self hatred is debilitating. Thank you for reminding me that making healthy changes can be fun, positive and a happy experience. You’re doing great!

[@terrisserose]

Be easy with your sobber body! It's been through a lot

[@dearinsomniadontletthebedb9237]

I mean, you already kicked one addiction. I know you can conquer the other- you got this! ☺️

[@DACETAVAR]

Your amazing. You motivate a guy like me to lose my 300 pounds. We got this we will be Victorious. I'm commenting while I'm watching the video. Thank you for your transparency.

[@soulwhisperer101]

Misspelling in # ...”#thereasoniamfat”...//...You’re a sweetie ...well done & keep going! & If you care to share- btw - what is your age? And do u plan on having any kids? - Blessings!! 🤍🤍🤍🌈🌈

[@AprilLauren]

Thank you for continuing to support and encourage me with your comments! You are awesome! And, you've got this!! :) We've got this!!!

[@danithefiend6167]

WOO goo! Yes you guys will be!

[@lauren3596]

Praying for you journey @DACETAVAR

[@DACETAVAR]

@@lauren3596 thank you!

[@Mommy_Irene]

I lost 80 pounds then I got pregnant and now that my son is 19 months I’ve gained 120 pounds it’s been a roller coaster. I’ve been diagnosed with Schizoaffective Disorder (schizophrenia and major depression) I’m on a journey to lose the 120 pounds I’ve gained and you are inspiring to me.

[@ShayMarieDiary]

Good for you honey! ❤️🥰

[@Chillingcomfy]

That's awesome! Let's do this! I'm proud of you.

[@RC-gd7nt]

You can do this. You honestly can.

[@Lexthebasedgod]

You can do this! I believe in you :)

[@SavingSoulsMinistries]

Believe and pray to our Lord and savior Jesus Christ for remission of all demonic strongholds!! God is so good! I'm praying for you my sister . Ephesians 6-12 We wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities and spiritual wickedness in high places

[@demonsandlords]

Girl I’m so proud of you. You have a terrific attitude about everything. I’ll pray for your mental health because depression just doesn’t go away but the fact that you’re changing that is a very good thing. You can do this!

[@AprilLauren]

Thanks for the support and encouragement! ❤️

[@risengrind6268]

girlllll, noooo don't jump ropes. you're ruin your knees. as long as you're carrying that much weight , no jumping or running sports...

[@stassitokra3774]

Yes please do but jump or run. Do a long fast walk! Lift weights more.

[@tanial8171]

I second this. I used to walk 8km 5 days a week back in my twenties, I was having a lot of success in loosing weight that I got excited and started to run without training just because I felt good enough to do it. Worst thing I have done, ruin my right knee and now in my late 30's I sarted to walk again and this time I am not going to make the same mistake. Lesson learned.

[@bellasmom3895]

Agreed. You may not feel it now but it will damage your knee cartilage.

[@1houndgal]

I agree. Jumping rope is horrible for joints. Knees, ankles, hips, lower back. Stick to walking, swimming. Maybe later as you get smaller you can try some easy short hikes with trekking poles.

[@schneeroseful]

When I was 312 (and lost 160lbs) I loved the elliptical. Running without crushing your joints

[@mascara1777]

My trigger was a miscarriage and medication changes. I went from 112 lbs and a size 00 to 226. I had never been heavy before and it blew my mind how quickly weight can be gained - it can happen to absolutely anyone.

[@AprilLauren]

Thank you so much for sharing part of your story with me. I am sending all of the positive vibes your way! ❤️

[@novasummer7976]

it seems a lot of these issues are because of new medication,( like in the video she mentioned it started because of a new birth control) i find that kind of interesting and scary at the same time

[@philliey]

@@novasummer7976 starting birthcontrol made me gain a ridiculous amount of weight. It might not be the birth control directly but like the birthcontrol I was on made me extremely emotional and made me bleed for an entire month straight. This obviously contributed to my weight gain.

[@iamfree5376]

My envega and prozac made me gain about 50 pounds without binging. I am 170 now but i was 120 3 years ago i havnt gained in 2 years but im hopeful that i will lose 50-60 pounds.

[@LDrosophila]

Miscarriages can just mentally destroy you and those around you aren't always as sympathetic.

[@noelstar1456]

Lmao, how tf did you have jobs, move across the country, get married, have years and years on your life, and yet you look like you're in your late teens to early twenties? How tf?

[@snoopyhotsauce8801]

What? Isn’t she like 23?

[@noelstar1456]

@@snoopyhotsauce8801 Idk, she looks super young but the amount of details in her story about her journey imply to me that she would be in her 30s, because (I think she mentioned) she graduated uni (23-24 probably) she had a job and moved around and stuff (24-maybe 27) she got married, NOW she's starting this (possibly early 30s) but idk, if she's said she's 23 somewhere else then I guess she is.

[@silkegehtyoutubegarnichtsa892]

I have to say, this is what strikes me about her story, I totally admire your energy and enthusiasm picking up up new things, jobs, circumstances, on the other hand, your life does seem to lack consistency. :o

[@AprilLauren]

Haha, well, people always think I am older or younger than I am... but definitely passed late teens and early twenties a minute ago! :)

[@maximilian9295]

Uh, theres nothing impressive there at all. Complete honesty. She even had a family that liked her.

[@stephaniereyortiz]

I can relate to when your home is disorganized it is a key indicator that your mind is also disorganized. This!!! Yes girl, this is something that I know when I finally clean the house I can finally take care of everything else mentally. Its one of those: when you don't know what to do to find the motivation to mentally be happy, clean your home first!

[@shiekahtribe3846]

Same here - I'm tidying up just now. It's like: I keep looking at it and annoys me and makes me stressed out but somehow I can't get myself to do it most of the time. I've been furloughed and then been made redundant and weigh more than I feel comfortable with (I'm not even overweight). But with being unemployed and the job market being very difficult, you start feeling useless. It's easy to fall into the "bad eating habits" trap again. I had a good talk with myself, have taken up (light) weight exercise and indoor cycling in the morning and also ditched the bad eating habits. In the evenings I try to go for a walk. I found this video to be inspirational and I like the willingness to change and the analysis of your triggers. Good luck on your weight loss journey. :)

[@NaNaNa856]

I'm literally tidying my house right now for this exact reason! (With KZbin in the background obvs) Cluttered house = cluttered mind

[@drewcobarrubias2093]

Clean Room = Clean Mind. Clean Car = Clean Mind 😃

[@michellerod3309]

I have been so depressed and yes my house is dirty and messy and me too. I am overweight and I don’t even want to take a shower. 😖

[@stephaniereyortiz]

@@michellerod3309 I'm sorry you feel this way 😔 You should try picking a section in your home (living room, bathroom, kitchen, etc) to clean and then go from there to slowly build that motivation. I'm sure you can do this! 💪🏽

[@anneginting2062]

Ok but can we take a second to admire how she tries to stand up during the entire video? Just show how committed she is to her weight loss journey. I’m cheering for you baby gurl! Lets go!

[@pamelaron9800]

You can still go to therapy if you’re not depressed. Everyone should go to therapy at least once. Even therapist go to therapy!!!! Being proactive of your mental health is very rewarding and is an excellent form of self care.

[@lennybennyy]

I think it might be good to have at least three therapy sessions a year one at the start one in the middle of the year and then one at the end

[@dreamwishergirl]

I am a counselor for children and I have my own demons lol I go to therapy and highly recommend it

[@KoreaMojo]

Exactly! It's just like the body, you don't cultivate it then it doesn't maintain itself.

[@emilytrinidad6869]

Depression is the worst. Literally going through the most major weight gain experience I’ve ever been through in my life gaining 45 lbs due to I think stress, depression and hormonal birth control. I’m at 160 lbs when I was 125 only 5 months ago. I got so unhealthy so fast not to mention I’m Vegan! So if that doesn’t tell you what kind of shit depressions does to your body idk what will.

[@Niinidoll]

I can relate soo much!! I suffer from depression and I take hormonal birth control and I literally gain over 20 pounds the last couple of months 🥺🥺

[@Tpeaks]

I feel ya on this. Depression and hormones and moving to new places as a military affiliated person takes its toll. It was easier to manage back home although I was still obese at 145 but I jumped up to 177 at my worst this year. Slowly crawling back down with exercise and dieting and cutting portions. But the depression is still there and its hard to feel good about weight loss when you still feel like sht about so many other things.

[@ravenesqueone3033]

Emily Trinidad - Veganism isn’t healthy for everyone.

[@kyliejones8827]

I don't blame my mental ill health or hormones for my weight gain. I blame my coping strategies - eating too many calories and not moving enough.

[@CFLavertu]

You’d be less depressive if you could eat a delicious steak 😂 lol just kidding

[@englishcloud6299]

I've never heard someone else feel insecure about having their boobs pointed out in school before... i relate to that so much... i remember when someone first pointed out I had boobs, I felt SO unconfortable and even now 8+ years later I still remember it perfectly :(

[@Sam-bl5sy]

Same! My friends pointed it out in 5th grade. Made me start my habit of wearing big sweaters no matter how hot it was! 😅

[@lividp0ser]

I was doing jumping jacks in gym and my friend said "OooOoo they're going up and down" and ever since that day I felt so uncomfortable going jumping excercises. I pinch the middle of my shirt and pull out so nobody could tell I had boobs.

[@englishcloud6299]

@@lividp0ser honestly it's so uncomfortable, even when they don't mean it to be an insult or anything. Why do people feel the need to comment on people's bodies??

[@lividp0ser]

@@englishcloud6299 Exactly! She was joking around but it damaged me. I feel like it needs to be taught in school not to point out things. Scars, acne, body shape, etc.

[@johannao2834]

I remember I had breast growth very early and I had classmates pointing out I had boobs in elementary school..

[@thisisashley4584]

I love how you went about doing a timeline to figure out what has triggered your weight gain in the past. I have never thought to do that before but I think it would be so helpful. The self awareness and emotional aspect of weight loss is so important to making sure your same cycles do not repeat themselves. Way to set yourself up to succeed! 👍

[@kerrys1881]

Oh girl.. The not doing well mentally, not reaching out to friends, not cleaning, making the bed, etc. hit me hard. That's when I know I'm struggling all over which impacts my food and exercise habits. Thanks for sharing your journey from such a genuine standpoint. Can't wait to see your progress and success!

[@GlutenlessSinCity]

I just stumbled across this channel. I used to be morbidly obese too. I have managed to lose weight and maintain a size 10. Good luck to you.

[@deendrew36]

How do did you do it?

[@jillianm214]

“Heavenly Father loves you.” Oh sister. I needed those words today😖💕

[@explanential2715]

"Safeguarding me from the worst version of myself" is such a powerful message, and it really struck a chord with me! You're an amazing speaker and I love the way that you approach things.

[@GypsyWolfGina]

That line hit me too. Very articulate.

[@alexsahernandez16]

I don't know how I came to this channel, but so far I've binge watched all your videos, and I love them. I also struggle with weight loss.

[@AprilLauren]

Aww, well I am so glad you found my little channel Alexsa!! Thanks for the support and encouragement!! I am sorry to hear you struggle with weight loss, it is no fun! :( But, we've got this! ♡

[@GabysHappyLife]

I know right? 😀

[@joyneville7246]

I just found her too😊like her❤ ive lost 135 lbs struggled my whole life being morbidly obese i share my journey too on yt joy neville😘

[@jeanieyork2013]

same here and i've lost and gained over 400 pounds! I am 60 years old and have gained 50 pounds since all this stay at home... so glad I found your channel.. I too am binge watching.. I agree with almost everything you have said to why you want to lose weight and how hard everything is.. you are very motivating.. Keep up the good work and keep the videos coming..

[@a-nicole-3200]

Me to ❤️a blessing her channel popped up ✔️

[@makaylasilvey6216]

I saw the preview of this video on mobile and I clicked on it because of your intro. I loved that "I" was in the fridge.

[@labethwantstoknow]

"What is the state of mind I am in when I start eating poorly?" Great reflection! 🙏💜

[@meghanpfeiffer]

Your memory for your childhood is amazing! Anyone else barely remember anything (much less what I wore) before 12 years old?

[@TaeminnieLee]

Hearing this story, even though you did it with a smile on yourself, I want to hug you and tell you not to be so harsh on yourself. It sounds like you are punishing yourself for not being some ideal of the person you want to be, and you punish yourself by eating unhealthy things, which leads you to feel either embarrassed or not good enough to do all the things you WANT to do. I'm glad you are pushing to be a better version of yourself, and it's AMAZING that you want to regain your health both physically and mentally. Applause for that, but you said it yourself, regardless of the weight, you deserve to do and live the life you want to live. Have fun, laugh, and enjoy the yoga whether modified or not. I'll be cheering for you on this journey :)

[@ninak16]

It's incredible how difficult it is to just take a shower, clean the house or do the things you have to do daily when you have depression. Sending you lots of love ❤️❤️ You can do it, girl!!! You are beautiful (Sorry for my bad English, it's not my native language)

[@abbyferrari]

I love it when people say "sorry for my bad English" and LITERALLY there are no mistakes whatsoever

[@ninak16]

@@abbyferrari I'm always paranoid of writing something, thinking "yeah, that's it, people will understand what I'm trying to say" and have everyone else, reading, going like wtf 🤔 lol I'm glad that the comment was correct 🙌💕

[@lillykitty6790]

It’s sad that many people have it these days :(

[@loridontcaretotellu6497]

Nicole, you write very well and your message is very clear!

[@ninak16]

@@loridontcaretotellu6497 thank you ❤️

[@lahovey]

You're such a beautiful and engaging young woman. I'm 59 years old and I see my young self in you, but you have so much more self insight than I did at that age. I too struggled with weight for my entire life. I too moved around a lot as a young child, and my husband is a 20 year retired Army veteran. We moved a lot, he was gone a lot, and he deployed to two wars. I'm so happy for you that at your young age, you are mindfully addressing the why's for your weight gain and addressing them. I failed so many times with so many diets, medications, and even bariatric surgery and nothing "took" until 2019. I'm finally having success and feeling wonderful, but I mourn losing my 20's, 30's, 40's and into my late 50's. Be proud of yourself everyday and we who are watching your journey are all happy for you.

[@AprilLauren]

Thank you so much for sharing part of your story with me! Lina, your comment means so much to me. I am sooo happy that you are finally having success, that is amazing and I am so happy for you. I am grateful for your support and encouragement!

[@sghaua]

So based on your KZbin name, can I assume that Keto has been your secret to your weight loss? Im premenopausal and I have gained 25lbs & have been unable to lose it, no matter what.

[@lahovey]

@@sghaua Good morning. Yes, I started Keto in June of 2019. I'm menopausal and I have Hashimoto's thyroiditis and I've managed to lose 50 pounds. It's been very slow, but the weight has come off and stayed off (still working on 25 more) and my health has greatly improved. I watched the Dr. Eric Westman white coat youtube video and that is the route I took. I have to be very strict to stay at minimum carbs, but I didn't watch calories at all and I make sure to never get too hungry. A year later, I have found that being more protein based with minimal veggies works better for me, but that was a year long process to get there. It really works if you stick to it. Good luck!

[@itsjustmoss1281]

I'm so proud of you. Idk why youtube starts recommending weight loss journeys to me when im in recovery from a restrictive eating disorder, but this was so nice. I'm so happy that you're approaching things in such a healthy way, I grew up in a household where family members would go the crash diet wrote and I got a bunch of sumblimenal messaging of fat phobia and was taught nutrition only from the view of unhealthy weight loss tactic. So seeing someone working on their health in a genuinely healthy approach and facing the situations and mindset that got you here is so powerful and hopeful to me. Thank you for being so positive and showing your journey and I hope you love yourself more and more and find the balance in life that everyone deserves.

[@RebT87]

I was going to go to bed without working out & just “do it tomorrow”, but you popped into my head from your video saying “just do it anyway”... so I did! Finished a workout & know I’m going to sleep even better for it. Just thought I’d share how you helped a random person 😊 Thank you for sharing your journey!!!

[@MoniqueCarmack]

I know what you mean. I usually work out in the mornings and this morning I didn’t feel like it. I said I will do it after work but I know that after work the last time I want to do is exercise ( finish at 10pm) so I did my workout and felt great! Sometimes it’s e mental aspect that’s the hardest to beat ~~

[@RebT87]

Monique Carmack Yes! The mental aspect is so important, but also so difficult. I believe in us, though - we can do it !

[@AprilLauren]

Aww, Rebecca, this comment amazed me! I am so glad that my experience and my story encouraged you. Your comments certainly encourage me. Thank you so much for your support, for the comment and for motivating me right back to "just do it anyway!"

[@MSchipper]

Mel Robbins talks about the 5-second rule. The moment you think you should do something, you've got 5 seconds to start, before your mind comes up with a load of excuses. I've learned to count down: 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 DO IT!. It works :) After a while, you don't even need to count anymore.

[@RebT87]

MSc I love that! Thank you for sharing this tip! Will def try it 😊

[@laurentracy6282]

Sis you are killing it💜losing weight is so hard especially when you have depression and anxiety

[@AprilLauren]

Aww, thank you so much for the encouragement!! ❤️❤️

[@carleywoods8065]

I've gotten so much clarity from watching this, a lot of my self deprecating behavior is the same as yours including my triggers. I have two diseases that are hormone driven and I always knew they affected my weight but I never thought about them bringing me down mentally. I've struggled with depression for the last several years and I isolate myself, and it's such an internal struggle, I get so angry with myself for being so down but this makes sooo much sense!! I thank you for this revelation.

[@NextLevelOnlineCoaching]

KZbinr: ::Goes in depth on past journey:: April Lauren: ::Goes in depth on past journey:: >"LEt 🙂me do my set" >Proceeds to do BB Overhead Squat DOPE transition 3:50

[@weese03]

i loved that part

[@Mellyouttaphase]

I want to see “let me do my set” take off, so good 👌

[@NextLevelOnlineCoaching]

@@Mellyouttaphase This needs to be merch

[@blammela]

Cedric Zebaze this is SO great!

[@helterskelter4every1]

I was going to say that “the workouts weren’t necessary to your storyline” but then I noticed just how many people that they seemed to truly help in the comments, so it’s really cool that you did that, and it also shows that what doesn’t help one person can really motivate another. I’ll make a second, longer post that’s a bit more personal because I do find your story motivational, but in a unique way.

[@annabanana6965]

I’m rooting for you.. I’m currently on my own journey with losing 50 pounds and getting healthy again. I’m in recovery from addiction and gained so much in the beginning. I’m working with a trainer and tracking my calories through my fitness pal app and so far so good. 🥰I believe sustainable weight loss takes a lot of patience! Thank you for sharing- I am now subscribed ☀️

[@joypenniless6853]

It makes perfect sense - the love hate ... the knowing that you love yourself - but the depression making you feel like you are horrible. I've lived your testimony - but my addiction was not food.

[@niraisatsana]

glad it’s “was” and not “is”

[@joypenniless6853]

@@niraisatsana Yes!!! I did the work, learned my lessons, and learned to love ALL of me!!🥰

[@michelemartincoaching]

You have a level of self-awareness that is amazing. I will be cheering you on in your journey.

[@aiswaryanair188]

You're so good at jump roping, I can't even do three in a row.. Also, love the pigtails, super cute!

[@letmereintroducemyself1800]

The honesty and vulnerability you share is beautiful! Thank you for having the courage to share your journey!!!! Today was my day 1 with 68 pounds to go!!!

[@bear6253]

Good luck!

[@AprilLauren]

Yas girl! That is amazing!! I am so excited for your day 1!!!

[@TheSusieChannel]

"safeguarding me.. from the worst version of myself" this makes so much sense... thank you for that

[@AprilLauren]

❤️

[@fearfullycreated]

I think you’re seriously the sweetest person I have ever come across. Wow! You have a wonderful personality! My prayers are with you during this journey! This video motivates me to be a better version of myself.

[@jonaebaskin675]

I haven’t finished the vid yet but had to comment bc I love when she said ‘let me do my set” 👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽

[@brebitzer2066]

You’re a gorgeous gal with a wonderful personality. You got my support the whole way ups and downs included

[@AprilLauren]

Thanks so much Bre for taking the time to leave me such a sweet and kind comment! I appreciate the encouragement and support!! 🥰❤️

[@sarahdoanpeace3623]

April, I’ve never struggled with weight but I’ve struggled a lot with depression. A lot. I’ve had 35 surgeries and have PTSD and depression is so difficult. Your self awareness is absolutely inspiring and refreshing. I really wish more people were like you; color coded graphs, triggers, routine, cleaning, etc….knowing your triggers, living spaces, etc. So so very true! I love what you said about choosing to be angry or bitter or sad while not necessarily choosing to be depressed. That’s major! Telling others is when we’re struggling with depression is absolute crucial. Isolation and sedentary activity is awful for depression but we’ve all done it. Your sheer courage to tell your story and be so incredibly honest, genuine and real. Your so calming and I loved hearing your whys, goals, patterns, indicators, etc. You are simply spectacular! I wish there were more people like you! You are an incredible human and you deserve happiness and grace and blessings!!! I’m a Christian and I’ll be praying for you.

[@booqoo]

THIS IS WHAT I STAN! BABE I LOVE THIS💕💕💕💕

[@AprilLauren]

Aww, thank you so much!!

[@coam2]

Listening to your story was wild. It was like looking into a mirror. I’m the same weight as you, I treat myself the same way, act the same way..my depression gets the best of me. I was hoping watching this video would inspire me to also go on this journey, and it definitely has. I can’t wait to start. Thank you so much❤️

[@carolnewey6452]

Despite your depression, you seem to be a rather positive person. Your channel popped up on my feed this morning and you are inspiring. My older daughter and I are on our own weight loss journey and we both struggle with depression. Thank you for your positivity and inspiration!

[@egosumnemo]

It is so refreshing to see someone being so open, honest and self-accountable. You have the right mindset and I have no doubt that you will reach your goals. I'm cheering for ya!

[@imadeyoureadthis1]

The fact that you can do those exercises at that weight is super impressive. Good luck on your journey.

[@AprilLauren]

Thank you so much for the encouragement and support!! ♥️💪🏼

[@RawYogaNurse]

Dude, I’m a yoga teacher and I couldn’t do these exercises 😂 I honestly feel like I’m going to die when I attempt cardio.

[@crazyth1ngs600]

@@AprilLauren Hello :) I randomly discovered this video and by no means do I want to discourage you - I think you are doing an amazing job! 💜 I just wanted to point out that maybe you might want to think about exchanging the rope skipping with another cardio exercise? It's great if you enjoy doing it, it's just that jumping is always hard on your joints and makes you more prone to injuries. (Don't get me wrong: unlike me you are very good at it^^) I just wanted to mention this, because I always get worried people might underestimate how quickly it could lead to joint problems or injuries, especially if you have a higher weight. All the love and keep up the great work! 💪💜

[@Bambi78286]

I was very impressed by how you can move as well . I started with weight loss at 305 pounds and back then I was hard pressed to walk for half an hour

[@teresahowick5197]

It’s interesting how flexibility etc has little to do with weight sometimes. I did a yoga class a few years ago. I’m not thin by any means but this woman who was much larger than me was so good!! She was so flexible. Made me realize that my weight didn’t mean I don’t have ability.

[@ChristyTheBaker]

Found you through Obese to Beast! I can relate. I am bipolar 2 and went through a severe depression and gained weight. Thankfully therapy, my spiritual life, meditation, and great support pulled me out after a hypomanic episode that occurred after my depression. I went about a year not having therapy and unmedicated because I thought I didn’t need it. That caused the depression and later hypomania. I now have a good system and understand myself more. I have lost some weight healthily. It’s still a struggle at times but my communication has improved so I can help the people around me understand. I have slowly learned to love myself as well. That was the hardest part. Keep up the good work!

[@jovk2372]

Our stories are very similar. Birth control, depression, not moving enough, eating poorly got me to where I am too! Thank you for sharing your story. 💕

[@AprilLauren]

Thanks for sharing and for your support! We've got this!! ♡♡♡

[@priestesslucy]

Idk if birth control had anything to do with it but I slowly gained 40 pounds over the course of about ten years after reaching adulthood despite having a lot of mild activity every day. The solution that worked for me was snake diet, but everyone has to find their own path.

[@TheeMademoiselle]

You go girl‼️‼️♥️💪🏽

[@a.b.2405]

Omggggg a queen supporting another queen!

[@kibummmm]

Your story is so touching! I struggle with anxiety and occasionally depression. You are not alone and I'm so excited for you to become healthier both in mind and body.

[@helterskelter4every1]

So, I don’t tell this story often (because as was said, weight issues can be embarrassing), but I’ve struggled with weight issues pretty much my entire adult life. I had a serious injury and during recovery I gained massive amounts of weight (I mean I weighed around 200 lbs at 5’2”) and combine that with having large (F size) breasts, I was embarrassed about my body for a really long time. Even though I turn 22 every year, it wasn’t until my 9th or 10th 22nd year that I became anorexic. Anorexia as an adult is extremely rare. Usually by that point you might relapse, but hardly ever do grown adults just “become” anorexic. But I did. At my lowest, I weighed 75 pounds. So believe me when I say that I fully understand complicated issues when it comes to food. That said, I can’t even begin to tell you how cruel women can be towards other women when you are that thin. The comments I would hear on a regular basis were simply uncalled for. “You’re too skinny, you need to eat more”, “it’s not like one hamburger is going to kill you” or, most commonly “I wish I had your issues with food”. That last one was always the worst one for me, because I simply wouldn’t wish starvation upon anyone! We live in a first world country for crying out loud! Starvation just shouldn’t be an issue, yet, here I was just wishing I never had to eat again (and to be honest, I still wish for that because I truly hate everything about eating). It was so embarrassing for me because of that. People in the world are literally dying because they can’t get enough food, and here I am making a choice not to eat. I hated that entire period of my life and the person I became. Believe me when I say that: being skinny isn’t all it’s advertised as. Then there were the men of the world (I call them “the Richards”). Their comments were just as nasty- just in different ways. Yes, I would get “hit on”, but they didn’t give 2 craps that I would be out with my boyfriend, and “Richards” would come right up to me at a restaurant (where I’m not ordering anything except a drink) and say things like “you can do better, here’s my number”. I mean....eew, and ugh! I don’t want any of that to come across as “bragging” because it’s not, it made my skin crawl. Did I really need to starve myself in order to get attention from guys? Is that really “the look” most guys are into? I never got hit on like that when I weighed 200 lbs. I used to internalize these things (wrong perhaps, but a hard thing not to do) and blame myself for all of it. My point in this little story is that I fully understand what weight struggles look like and even though I’m “basically” happy with my weight at this point, I’ve learned over the years not to judge *anyone* for their weight or struggles in life. You simply don’t know what someone has been through. I’ve seen both sides of the spectrum, and in order for me to stop my bad habits and to lose the weight, I literally starved myself. I used to look in the mirror once I did get “skinny” and all I could see were the stretch marks from being fat. People, all people, deserve caring, kindness, and respect in this world. It’s a mantra I repeat to myself regularly throughout the day. It doesn’t matter to me what you look like, it matters who you are. Thanks to all who have read this far and hopefully I can have inspired you at least a little- as April is in this video. If you have your own mantras in life is love to hear them and make sure to repeat them to yourself regularly, you never know, you might change someone’s life for the better.

[@shamayinvanderwesthuizen7588]

Thank you so much for sharing this inspiring story, you are a phenomenal human being and I know you have the strength to continue to overcome every obstacle love all the way from South Africa 💙💙💙🌍

[@afrprincess07]

Hugssss❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@mdanam]

Thanks for being brave enough to share this.

[@helterskelter4every1]

I am overwhelmed by how truly amazing and positive the comments are and just how many of you actually took the time to read my little story. Just remember, the word “diet” is Latin for “way of life”, so anytime you start “a new diet”, you’re actually beginning a new “way of life”, and in that sense, every diet you begin is simply a new “journey” you take till you find the path you’re meant to be on. I wish you all so well, and thank you so very much again ❤️❤️🥰🥰🤗🤗

[@user-fs2zv2lb2i]

Thank you for sharing your story it really moved me❤️ I'm anorexic and I understand the guilt of knowing people are starving because they simply don't have the means or access to food yet here I am throwing away my dinners. A mantra I repeat is basically a whole song haha. It's Holy War by Alicia Keys❤️

[@discoveringthenewnormal799]

Sometimes the youtube algorithm gets it right! I’m so glad I just found your channel. Like you my weight issues have progressed over years and like you I’m on a weight loss journey also. You however are so brave sharing it with the world!!! I sit here worried about going to the gym (pre-covid) or walking outside for fear of being judged......and here you are sharing your journey with the world opening yourself up to all the potential judgement that comes with that. That’s bravery. Doing what you need to do regardless of caring what people might say....even though no one should judge someone trying to better themselves. Thank you for being brave for all of us out here trying to take it one step at a time.

[@meaghaneppenauer7244]

I absolutely loved listening to your journey and am SO proud of you. I love hearing how you are in touch with how your mental health affects you. I’ve struggled with an array of eating disorders for about 13-14 years.. and I’m only 24. I’m finally learning that keeping my mental health at an optimum state allows me in every other aspect of health. It takes hard work!! It is a daily struggle with severe major depression and generalized anxiety; I find that having a routine helps so much!! I started this ‘turn around’ about two years ago, and my weight hasn’t changed much, but my body and mind have. Every day I have to do yoga, read my Bible, and eat a nutritious breakfast or my day will turn completely upside down. Thank you so much for sharing; and thank you for being a positive little light when the world feels so chaotic, your are so appreciated!!

[@CentsibleLivingWithMoneyMom]

Hi. My heaviest was 305. Right now, I weigh 185.

[@AprilLauren]

(This might be a double comment... I just responded, but I don't see it!) That is fantastic!! Wow! 120 lbs, just wow! Your success is so motivating to me and I am so happy for you! ♡♡

[@CentsibleLivingWithMoneyMom]

@@AprilLauren Thank you. I know we will get there together

[@teresahowick5197]

My issue is consistency. How do I stay consistent? Because I’ll start but then two weeks in, something stops me. Every time. Then I don’t go back for awhile. It’s so bad!

[@CentsibleLivingWithMoneyMom]

@@teresahowick5197 I do one very small goal at a time

[@juliepack3459]

Centsible Living With Money Mom You are so inspiring!

[@Crabbwoman]

I really enjoy the way you edited this. I love the combination of story telling with the working out. Keep it up girl!

[@AprilLauren]

Thank you so much!! ❤️

[@taylore6677]

Totally agree! Fun formatting for a video 😊

[@1houndgal]

It is a good way to keep accountable and to see progress when you look back at the earlier entries.

[@relishlifeinhd757]

Following your story while on my own journey after a severe injury and steroids for two years that made me balloon and then I became depressed and gained even more. Thank you for your honesty and your much needed inspiration.

[@lizardstew]

Girl that depression talk though. When I don't feel my best, I do my absolute best. That's like a mantra for me. Sometimes I look in the mirror and don't feel like getting the oil out of my hair or washing my face or putting on pants. So I do it anyway and put a little more effort into my outfit or makeup and that alone feels like running an emotional marathon and it only helps me feel a LITTLE better (and a little fatigue). But as long as I'm not feeling worse or stuck, it means I did a good job taking care of myself for the day.

[@zabethpratt7842]

I'm so use to seeing weightloss videos where the person already lost all the weight and THEN talks about her/his journey. I thought it was gonna be one of those videos again, but it's actually the other way around and it's honestly so refreshing! It also reminded me that it is actually about the journey and that you can be at your absolute happiest whilst on your journey and don't have to be happy only once you reached your goals. Absolutely love your energy!

[@sarahdoanpeace3623]

THIS!!! Can so relate!!

[@sgtpeppers338]

You popped you in my recommendations and I’m so happy you did! I’m absolutely in awe of you- your vulnerability and awareness is inspirational and I’m so honored to be a part of your life journey.

[@AprilLauren]

Aww, Melissa, thanks so much for taking the time time to leave me such a sweet and thoughtful comment. I appreciate the encouragement so much!! ❤️

[@evilmonkei86]

I just came across your channel and love your beautiful personality! Not only that, but your outlook and approach for your journey, and recognition of what brought you to your current state, your triggers, and your plan going forward are brilliant. Most people can't get to that level of self actualization. I'm so happy for you that you are getting healthy and are doing it in a rational and sustainable way. I'm cheering for you April and will be following you along your journey!

[@shay8269]

Girl, the military life is hard on folks like us that have a hard time losing weight. I am 51 years old, my husband is in the Air Force and we currently live in Italy. I am on a weight loss journey as well and have distanced myself from everyone so have no one but myself to hold me accountable. WE can do this and we will. You are amazing for realizing what is holding you back and you just keep moving forward. Be proud of yourself - you are beautiful inside and out!!!! You made me cry because 210% of everything you said is the things I tell myself and it is self destructive and I need to stop it. You got this!!!!

[@AislingRosa]

Where do you live?

[@reneechristie9989]

I really want to be your friend. You're such a beautiful soul.

[@samizokouhei6899]

I never saw a most sincere video. I never have weight issues, I barely took one kg (5 or 6 for 20 years), but my heart is both warming and breaking about dépression issues

[@sarahdoanpeace3623]

Same here

[@themaggattack]

I'm just gonna go ahead and pretend that you are my BFF. We're both in this together, sis.

[@shantellefoster]

I think you do love yourself. I think you just hate the body that you're in but I believe in you and I know that you can do it!

[@AprilLauren]

When I was editing I started to take that out and I got distracted, because you are right. I do not hate myself, but I hate some of my weaknesses! Thanks for your sweet comment Shantelle!! ♡♡♡

[@munka214]

Just found your channel! I love how straight forward you are. I'm on a journey to lose 100 lbs. I have 1.4 lbs to lose to be 10lbs down and have kept it off. I look forward to seeing your tips/advice/working out with you. Keep up the great work!

[@mattmatical2235]

At first I was concerned that this was another ALR situation (I’m sure a lot of you know about Amberlynn Reid and her “weight loss” journey) but this woman is not only telling her story, but exercising at the same time. She’s not making excuses. She’s working on her physical and mental health in tandem. (ALR always says that she has to fix her mental health BEFORE her physical health, but is now tipping the scales at 600lbs). I have all the faith in the world that she’s gonna make it!🥰🥰😘

[@syds8752]

Why shit on someone else to uplift another?

[@allisong1551]

Not to mention, she edits!

[@niraisatsana]

Dawg Nasty that’s not shitting on alr that’s just the truth

[@LongHairCarolyn]

“The right opinion” has a good video on the Amber situation and why she’s set herself up so she really can’t lose the weight

[@kwenacierra4950]

I’ve never related to a KZbin video more in my life. You’re so inspiring and I want to start my journey with you! I was a skinny kid until I hit puberty. I stopped being as active and my diet became horrible. I was slowly continuously gaining weight since then. I’m currently 190. I’m only 19 and 5’2 so thats way too big for my frame. I used to be 220 and then I lost until I was at 163 at 17. However I then found out I was pregnant and gained 30 pounds throughout my pregnancy. I quickly lost that weight a month after having my son. And then once my son was 6 months and started eating baby food, my diet got worse and worse and I wasn’t burning as many calories since he was nursing less, and kept gaining until I reached 190. I’m now trying to lose weight again. My triggers are stressful situations, boredom, and my depression. Which is hard because with Covid 19 I’m usually always bored to some degree, my depression is pretty bad, and my living situation is pretty stressful right now. Your video opened my eyes a lot by how much I relate to you and what causes you to eat more and gain more weight. My go to is also sugary foods/snacks. And I tend to boredom snack throughout the day. You seem like an amazing person and I’m now inspired to get back on that horse and lose weight with you. So thank you

[@valeriag9443]

Omg whenever you’re out of breath from doing your workout I feel out of breath and I’m literally doing nothing😂😂

[@AprilLauren]

🤣haha, I loved reading your comment!

[@glutesandgunsfitness245]

Omg! I don’t even know you and I love you! You’ve got this girl! I’m so excited to watch your transformation. You’re going to find so much empowerment in this journey! The fitness community is the best. They love to see a person succeed.

[@hannahelizabeth1322]

April. I believe the universe lead me to you. You randomly popped up in my recommended and I am forever thankful. I have never related to someone so much in my life. You explaining at the end about loving yourself and not being the nicest to yourself sometimes is me right now. I almost started to cry and literally just want to give you a hug because I know exactly how you feel and it's such a struggle. But I too have decided enough is enough and I deserve more than this and I deserve love as well. You are such an inspiration and absolutely beautiful! I love your content and honestly. Subscribed and excited to follow your journey!

[@snikrdoodls14]

Your determination is contagious! Body image was something I was never focused on until, like many, puberty started. I wasn’t overweight at all, but coming from being really skinny as a kid and depression starting from years of health issues coming to an ultimate final boss. Thankfully, those days of suffering are over for me and I’m the healthiest I’ve ever been in my life. I’m not quite where I want to be to say I’m truly happy. However, if my years of pain have taught me anything, life is a struggle worth fighting for. Becoming a better person not just for yourself but those you love is an important thing.

[@grimeeeeey]

I'm on a weight loss journey myself. After having my son almost 2 years ago, life had been tough on my husband and I. He lost his job, we lived with his parents (and you know how awkward that is), and we were both depressed because of how bad things were going for us (In my case, I had reached my heaviest weight in my life!). At my heaviest I was 179. I worked my ass off at the gym. In my case, I was fortunate enough to know about healthy eating because my mom is all about fitness and eating healthy so she raised me that way, so I knew what to do, I just needed to do it! Finally, I decided to just DO IT. I was tired of feeling miserably and unhappy with myself. I needed to act for myself. So far, I went from 179 lbs to 156. I'm so happy. Super proud of myself. It has taken a lot of work but now I like working out. I feel good afterwards. It's not a chore anymore. I feel prettier, sexier and most importantly, I AM HAPPY! Anyone can do it. We just gotta put in the hard work, the first 2 weeks are the toughest because of the soreness, but once you get passed that, it gets a lot easier. If you are reading this, you can do it! And I wish you the best. Remember, we gotta work towards becoming our best selfs. Especially in my case, I'm 27 years old, this is the PRIME of my life. I need to become my best self for myself and for my family. Good luck guys!

[@lynncrf]

What sort of workout did you follow? Cardio/weights? Every day or only some days?

[@teresahowick5197]

Why am I crying reading this. I don’t know. I’m so bad. I do start but I never keep up past 2 weeks. Not because of pain but always something. Whether my excitement wears off, you know that initial beginning where you’re revved up. I’m so inconsistent. I was gonna start again. Then Covid. Then o started walking. Then stopped again. I just want to be consistent. I want to end up proud of myself. I want to be healthy. I get too hot too fast. I get winded too easily. I hate this. How does one stay consistent? Ugh! It’s so frustrating!

[@annawarner4329]

i can see the light of Christ so strong in you!! literally brought me to tears, you are freaking amazing!!

[@monty5162]

"Holiness to the lord" I'm always saying I want to find more LDS people to follow and this video randomly popped up. Whether you're active or not I'm here for it :D

[@KetoChaos]

I'm also LDS :)

[@kassandrachavez7378]

"feed my sorrows with lots and lots of oreos" pregnant me: stares at oreos on bed side table.. well

[@AprilLauren]

I am literally laughing out loud. Hahaha, congratulations on your pregnancy!! I am sending all of the love and positive vibes your way! And, enjoy your Oreos girl!! ❤️

[@kassandrachavez7378]

@@AprilLauren thank you so much! ❤ and I just found your channel today! your so amazing!

[@holidayholly7446]

Bad for the baby

[@bigchicken5243]

@@holidayholly7446 only if consumed to much.. the pregnant women have so much to go through that one or two cookies are the least of their problems ❤️ and congratulations on the pregnancy ❤️

[@holidayholly7446]

@@bigchicken5243 Watch 'Fast Food Genocide' or 'Processed People'. None of that crap is ok for good health.

[@letmereintroducemyself1800]

I loved that you did a timeline of struggles and the Triggers chart! Eye opening to me! I am going to do this too!

[@AprilLauren]

I'm so glad it was helpful!! 🥰

[@Tammissa]

I understand when you say when you don’t love yourself you can’t love others. So very true.

[@AprilLauren]

❤

[@kristinehaley6548]

I love the edit of this video! How you did the workout throughout :) it just shows how easy it is to implement workouts into your life if you do a little planning! I can’t wait to see your channel grow! :) 💜

[@AprilLauren]

I appreciate your encouragement and support! I do wish I didn't put any make up on! I never wear make up for a workout, but I was like... well... I'm filming it so... just a little... that sweat said "No girl, you shouldn't have! " Hahah. Thanks again Kristine!! :)

[@kristinehaley6548]

April Lauren of course, and nah makeup was fine! I would’ve been a clown by the end😂😭

[@mmw55122]

Hmmm...I disagree, I do not think that such exercises are "easy"."

[@kristinehaley6548]

mmw55122 lol Hmmmm funny. I said easy to implement. Not eASy 😂

[@mobloko294]

I like how you're working out while explaining. You go, April!

[@AprilLauren]

I am so glad! Thanks for the encouragement!! 🥰

[@loveinautumn3978]

Yes me too! The alternating is so neat!!

[@heathersmith9027]

Oh my!!! You are such an inspiration! I started my journey last week. I weighed 357 lbs. I am so excited to follow your journey. We will be going on this journey together!!!! Thank you so much for being honest on here. All the things you have talked about are everything I go through too. From worrying about booths at restaurants to putting shoes on...I am there with you. It is more of a mental challenge that I ever thought of. I have always felt so self conscious because I have always been heavy. I have tried and failed diets so many times it is embarrassing. But I long to feel good again a dm not hurt so much. Thank you from the depths of my heart for sharing your journey. I plan to take the journey with you. Pound by pound. ❤️

[@lechugsrevenge]

I lost 16 kg when I was 14 and the biggest thing I learned from this is that being skinny doesn't make you happy. If you wanna lose weight, go for it but only do it for your physical health and because you LOVE your body - not because you hate it. The only thing that will make you happy is accepting yourself and your body no matter how it looks and which number is on the scale. First, learn to love and accept yourself at every stage of your life, then start loosing weight if you still want to.

[@LoyaFrostwind]

I want to lose more weight so my knees and ankles don't hurt as much when I exercise. I need my exercise for my mental health. I've lost about 8-10lbs from swimming, but I'd like to lose more. I need to work more on my diet too, and cutting out unnecessary sugars and fats.