HOW I RECOVERED & WHAT I EAT IN A WEEK (VEGANUARY EDITION)

[@sofiairias6319]

Elzani you have no idea how many lives you've saved including mine. Always be proud of how far you've become and know that you are making a big difference in this world💕

[@MayimHastings]

Your Dad was telling the truth when he said that you are the bravest person he knows. When i think of what you put on the line in order to tell your story and to recover, and how hard you fought for your life, how much emotional and physical pain you endured, and how many lives you've saved... Elzani, i hope and pray that you have the best life ever, because no one deserves it more than you. You are beautiful inside and out. I hope someday you'll come back to us but only if it brings you joy to do so. Love you, and thank you ❤️🎄🤶🕊

[@andreamccully9035]

I wish I deserved anything

[@__therealrapunzel]

you have saved a lot of lives... and helped more people than you'll ever know, thank you

[@nxtje]

Because of you i started believing in myself and believes that i could recover as well. I ate every meal while watching a video from you because you have been my greatest inspiration. I couldn’t eat without your video’s for a long time but now i can! Thank you for making me realize recovery isn’t as impossible as i always thought.

[@corathomson]

Thank you so, so much ! i am a 14 year old girl who has been suffering for a year now, and only two weeks into recovery i had a relapse. but seeing this video really brought me back and gave me the strength to keep fighting this disgusting illness that I needed. You are a wonderful role model and these vlogs are so inspiring and helpful! You've really helped someone out over here, and I'm sure many other people, too 💚

[@georginalord9128]

I remember end of 2020 when I was at my most ill with anorexia and I had just starting trying to recover, I would sit on the sofa and watch your recovery videos every evening whilst having my night snack. You showing your strength and fight to be free of anorexia and live the life you want has helped me immeasurably. You have been the most incredible inspiration for me and so many others with eating disorders and I can’t thank you enough 💕

[@mii-chin143]

Hi Elzani! I discovered your account when I was very, very ill and watching your content helped me fight it every single day. Now I'm recovered after a few months as an in-patient and many months in therapy and I can whole-heartedly agree with everything you said in this video

[@deborahshore-robinson5800]

You have helped so many people but remember you still count as well. I wish I could be as happy as you and your family.

[@Emily-cb5ut]

You are the reason I committed to recovery and am where I am today. please never underestimate how comforting and inspiring you are to people like me, you have changed lives❤

[@katharinaschneiderr]

Still here watching. And I’ve been watching for many years. You’re such an inspiration to me and you’ve genuinely saved my life. Thank you ❤️

[@ttdfanforlife]

I've been watching you since you started and have waited for this type of video from you not knowing if it would even happen. I am so so proud of you. You have done a fantastic job and you have your life back. Congratulations, much love Lisa

[@haydenfightsthis]

"You are more ill than you think you are"... oof that hit. Thank you - I needed that. I have relapsed once again and argh it's so hard. I really want to get better but recently have just felt so hopeless and feel like it's so much harder to reach out being a guy. Watching your videos has been so helpful and given me some hope. Thank you so much!

[@meganw4223]

Been in recovery 5 weeks, your earlier vlogs brought me so much comfort over Christmas. Thank you for showing me its possible, I got a recovery puppy called muffin too!! Love always 💖 ❤ 💕

[@deborahshore-robinson5800]

You are amazing. Your voice has even changed. Great to see you enjoying life. Wow he has grown.

[@tylerjay156]

I’ve been watching from the start and I have to say, you are glowing girl!!! I hope your so proud of yourself and how far you’ve come because you absolutely deserve it! Onwards and upwards from here! You go girly❤️❤️

[@gingergamer3270]

"comparison is the thief of joy" this quote is resonating more and more with me in my early-mid twenties

[@chloewolf9201]

I watched your old channel a couple of years ago now and I often wonder how your doing now ? . I hope you are well and happy 😃. You sure have come sooooo far . It’s soo good to see you thriving . Mental health disorders don’t get cured overnight however when you have support your happy you have a loving family it makes everything so much better and happier . Congratulations 🥳beautiful pups .

[@PomsNTomsMom92]

Elzani, the girl who helped me, for I was blind, but now I see. Thank you. You and your family.

[@peppermint5227]

I came across your channel at least 8 months ago, when i was trying super hard to recover and i thought everything was bad. Lately, its been a lot worse so my mind has turned to food restriction to feel in control. I came back here to try to make myself feel better, and to give me the little boost, and over the last few days it has. Thank you for sharing this journey and helping so many others :)

[@breannthorne-stanzell5990]

You are an inspiration. I’ve struggled with bulimia off and on since I was 14… I’m now almost 31. I hope I can get back into recovery some day and be as positive as you. I want my kids to be as wonderful as you as well. That mindset that I’ve yet to accomplish.

[@onewomansparty7761]

I've been watching your content for almost three years now, happy to see how well you're doing

[@rhodact1231]

Hello Elzani, I hope you are well.. I hope your family are well.. you haven't updated us in 6 months. I hope your grandparents are well. Please include them in the next video if you are able. It is August 5, 2022 and in Alaska I can feel the air changing.. it is just starting to get nippy. A lil colder.. reminding us that winter is knocking on the door. I want summer forever tho. I love the 24 hour sun. It never gets dark for awhile.

[@elliec2816]

ELAZANI!!!! I’ve not watched you in well must be well over a year and you’ve changed so much !!! I’m so proud of you. Not only appearance wise but the way you speak about yourself and your life now in such a high manner. What an incredible person you are and it’s only going to get better from here xxx

[@bethpearsall8451]

I'm truly so happy for you, Elzani. I haven't been caught up with youtube for a while but I do check up on you sometimes. I've been rooting for you from the start and I'm so happy to see you thriving with your beautiful family and your dogs. Please eat well and continue taking care of yourself because you are doing so good, lots of love

[@weepingwillows21]

Hope things are continuing to go so incredibly well for you, Elzani, because you deserve all the best. Keep breathing and remember that even if there is a wobble, you deserve to be happy and live your life to the fullest. Sending you lots of love and hugs.

[@kristin9931]

My gosh, Elzani! I can’t believe how far you’ve come when I look back at your entire journey. If you recall in your very very first video, you said “I can, and I will recover.” Even though you were quite obviously close to death at that time, you still had hope and some small part of you knew you could do it. To look at you, and more importantly HEAR you now, you’re a completely changed version of yourself! I’ve followed you for years, and although I rarely comment; I’ve been cheering you on and watched your struggles turn into victories. It has been, and continues to be, an honor and a privilege to bear witness to such a miraculous recovery. Clearly, if you can recover anyone can. Much love to you and your amazing family from your spirit sister in Chicago, love Kristin 💕❤️

[@antoniae.7421]

you’re honestly amazing - I have no words …

[@Juwlz]

You are amazing and I am so happy to see you thriving in recovery. Channels like yours are so important to show that not only is recovery possible, being HAPPY in recovery is possible. I think a lot of people who are considering getting help, realize they are miserable now but also fear they will be miserable if they get help, as it can be so hard to picture yourself mentally thriving when you are in such a dark place. You are a shining example and I hope that you continue to thrive💜

[@iamvasia]

Hi Elzani! Im from Russia and i showed your videos to my sister when she was dealing with «things ». I believe you really helped her and also helped me. Im here on your channel from the start. And I’ve never given up on you. I had a strong feeling that you will be all right !!! And that’s freaking cool to see you so happy and healthy today!!! Sending love from Russia❤️ (there are girls who supports you)

[@AmandaCuet0]

Hi elzani! You are the reason of my recovery. You inspired me to recover, cause you showed me that recovery was possible and ill never be able to thank you enough 💜

[@isabellafahey3923]

beautiful video elzani

[@gemmacarter8860]

You will always be my biggest inspiration in life. I owe my recovery to you 🤍 thank you. I’m so unbelievably happy to see you living the life you deserve to live xxxx

[@elzanisingleton]

Oh my 🥺❤️ you did that!!! I’m so proud of you, it’s so so hard!! I’m so happy too!!! xxxxxx

[@amyodonnell1757]

Youve helped me more than you'll ever know! I have bipolar which isn't the same but im also in the process of recovery! Your my comfort channel when I'm feeling overwhelmed ❤Its so heart warming to see how far you've come! You should be extremely proud of yourself and I hope I can be where you are soon! 🙏❤❤❤

[@angelas9836]

Five months ago, I was at the verge of losing my life and somehow I was gifted enough to stumble upon your videos. Five months after I’m listening to this and crying because you saved my life. You became my inspiration and one of my strengths. I can never thank you enough. I don’t know you Elzani but you changed and keep on changing my life for the better. ❤️

[@HollywoodHRA]

You inspire me so much to never give up on myself because I’ve watched you at your worst and now seen you at your greatest and it gives me hope that anything is possible! So glad you are really happy now! X

[@rosiemariee1341]

Elzani you and your family have got me through dark times I’m struggling a lot at the moment and been binge watching your videos and it’s helping me get through it and try my hardest to get better it’s so hard and scary but if you can do it so can I. I’m so damn proud of you!!!!

[@shreyasinha4112]

Elzani, I had anorexia in 2019 and you lead me to recover. I am now back on track, fully recovered and living life to the fullest. I will be forever grateful to you

[@charlottetaylor4471]

What does living life to the fullest mean?

[@itsmonso]

i’m meant to be studying for exams right now, but once Elzani uploads it’s kind of obligatory to drop everything immediately and watch the video lol

[@elzanisingleton]

Awww 🥰 thank you for watching it and good luck with the studying and exams!! ❤️

[@itsmonso]

@@elzanisingleton thank you so much❤️ i’ll try my best !!

[@alexhackett8023]

I'm a vegan and your food looks so much more exciting than what I eat in a week! I will definitely take some inspiration from this! Also, I used to have an eating disorder when I was a young teenager. Ever since then I was always underweight and didn't enjoy food, I got over the disordered thoughts for the most part and the obsession with losing weight constantly but I just didn't like or care about food. I was often too anxious to eat and I had friends who were obsessed with being thin and what they ate which probably subconsciously put me off food without me even realising. Looking back it was so unhealthy because we were all underweight or lower end of healthy but they would constantly compare themselves to each other or compare themselves to me and say I was skinnier than them (reminds me of the start of my eating disorder and where it stemmed from) and it distorted how I saw myself again. Anyway, after being really ill with my mental health and reaching the lowest weight I had been in years because of my anxiety, I had to start getting better. After I began my recovery, I got into a relationship and my partner taught me to love food. She has had very fluctuating weight over the years but been happy at every size, she was shocked when we first met at how bad my relationship with my body and with food was. I thought it was normal to be like this. I started cooking for her and realised I'm actually a pretty good cook. I started trying out different recipes and experimenting while actually nourishing my body with proper home cooked food. I put on weight, more weight than I ever thought I would put on. My clothes didn't fit and I didn't recognise myself in the mirror. I definitely didn't look like my friends anymore. But I bought new clothes, I carried on cooking, I started yoga and walking everyday. I had more energy than I have ever had before, more motivation to enjoy things (partly because my mental health was improving but I think a lot more of it was down to not nourishing my body properly than I even realised) . I still struggle with my new body but this video reminded me that I need to remember how little energy I had before, I feel strong and healthy now. I love my new hobby of cooking and I love sharing it with my family. I love exercising and don't do it to try and lose weight but to get stronger and to feel better mentally. I've cut out toxic friendships and know the people in my life don't care at all about my weight and just like seeing me happy. Thank you for reminding me to remind myself of all this!

[@pianophase7060]

Elzani-you helped save my health and life-ahh I’m so thankful for you. I used to think I had to fit in one mold-but I was inspired by your joy. I thought eating food meant I was worthless-but you showed me it’s about FAMILY!! And JOY!!

[@nesspumpkin2417]

sorry , i meant you have come so far- well done , so much positivity and encouragement to be well

[@anacarolinasayao6968]

Watching you makes me so happy that I was able to recover. Thank you so much for this video. I really like your family and your dogs!

[@rosieposie6981]

You are really inspiring me to keep pushing myself to get better. I have committed to recovery but it's easier said than done. You remind me to never give up on recovery.

[@Lilcharlie78]

the voiceover is really good. i dont know but its nice to hear you say about reading on lables all the time for vegan foods. when i was sick. thats a good reminder how far you have come♥️

[@kaylacapper7515]

I love that you did Veganuary! Being vegan in recovery is possible if you do it for the right reasons- for the animals, for the environment, and not as a way to cut back on foods. It's important not to eliminate foods but rather replace them with non-animal alternatives, of which there are so many these days. Keep up the great work!

[@violetlefae7902]

I've been in the best recovery I ever have lately and I'm so glad you're there too! 💜

[@mellyayble]

i am soo glad ur recovery is going so well. i found u when u postde those videos abotu beingn really sick and in the hospital

[@mailumint]

Omg your Voiceover was so cute and fun but also really calming at the same time

[@girlsurfingtheinternet8195]

Elzani you are a light of hope, shining bright and showing way, your journey has been a beautiful story, and your family is divine, like your mother says. You are a beautiful person. Keep on keeping on beautiful!

[@jordanreina5890]

you have such a beautiful perspective on life❤️ I love watching your videos, they truly make me, and so many others, so happy!

[@sarahtaylor7737]

The world is a better place with you in it.

[@maddiejaneec]

Thank you so much for this video Elzani! I have also been documenting my ED journey and cannot tell you how much you have helped. You are such an inspiration. Keep going! You are doing great! ❤️

[@katespalding2134]

You 2 are so brilliant xxxx

[@lorienrhiannonmorganpaulson]

I used to watch all your videos when I was in ED recovery and they helped me immensely. Now I am vegan, so I’m really happy that you made a vegan food video with a beautiful voice over!

[@deyanira008]

Hey Elzani I appreciated and adored thus video. I'm so glad I got to watch it today...had a busy day out thanx to getting a lot stronger...you truly helped me along the way of me getting sooo strong and doing the things I've been waiting to since I don't know when...still working ahead toward a better version of me. I'm so proud of how well you are doing, for choosing recovery, for choosing you. Yes, all the things you've mentioned I too can relate in so many ways....the time spent on thinking about food, affecting others, ruining the day, doing or saying something wrong, worrying about things that I did not need to worry about, having less, doing more, not being present, being sooo forgetful(still do), catastrophising, and on and on....but hearing you...give me so much hope, since the beginning of your recovery. I always know you mean well because you are such a caring person. I truly am so glad and happy you can go out for drives at time (I just did with my sister which is funny), go out to eat meals together and not have a complete melt down, not worry so much about effecting others if you felt like you messed up, being able to go on walks, and that one where you said about going up stairs too..hit me hard because even the smaller things in life matter so much. I have been in that position where I could not do anything for myself and now being able to even go up stairs with no support had me ecstatic. I do wish people can just know that Ed are not beautiful, they are not life...life is more about what you have shown and said in this video and all the others you have shared when getting better and stronger(and of course in our own ways)...it's hard work, but it's better. From what I have seen in you and even parts of my journey, it's better. I still have things I struggle with now other than recovery from my Ed but being much stronger is and should be better than being in the lows and scary points in my life, can't lie about that....no matter when I have those moments when I miss it. But you did it, you are doing it, you are you...and I and others appreciate and love Elzani. Arlo has come into your life at the best time possible...seeing you thrive, being there for him, cuddle, walk, play, carry and feed him. I couldn't be more grateful for you. And doing veganuary this year, Wooop woop flipping awesome. Its variety, it's yummy, it's compassionate, it's growth, it's also filling, just are nurishing with sweets and salty and nutty things... All the food you've had looks and sounded so lovely...it did give me inspiration to make them, I've have made foods you've shared as well in your previous videos... haha thank you very much for that. I'm glad to know that you will be having them again. Thank you for sharing the sparkles and the truths about how recovering from an Ed has been for you and the magic and strength it has made you now. I always appreciate you responses, the support and encouragement you have give me(and others) because you do matter, you do and have made a difference and you are heard. Wishing you well and to the wonderful birthday 👏 🎉 you had. Love you loads Elzani, here to you and the amazing family. 🖤💜💙🥊 🗣️ 🤗 🎁 🐾✨🎥🥺🍎🌰🍞🥞🥪🍕🥙🌯🍝🥣🍛🍨🍪🍫🍬🚗🏡🌆🌃🛋️💌🆓☮️📺🎸🌱🌿🚶🏃🤸👊🧠😜🎶😎

[@deyanira008]

Thanx Elzani, it means so much that you do appreciate what I say. 🖤

[@julieg-b8910]

My face is wet with tears of joy. I am so pleased you are living in recovery. 💜🙏 I think you should start a cooking channel…your meals always look so amazing!

[@gemmavernon7350]

This video made me cry but it the best way. I’ve recovered alongside you and watched your videos from the start. Everything you say is so true ❤️

[@judynichols9189]

I would like to see some new, updated videos. You and your family have helped and impacted so many people I am certain! Thank you.

[@millieharris2123]

Elzani, you have given me a reason to carry on. I hope you can see how wonderful you are and so beautiful inside and out. Thankyou. Honestly thankyou Elzani.

[@danielaearl3893]

So proud of you! Your an amazing human doing amazing things and you deserve so much love ❤️ following your journey has been so amazing

[@emmamcphearson9942]

This made me bawl thank you so much. I don't know how you're happy but I'm so so glad you are

[@jellyrolls6232]

I’m so happy for you and your lovely family. You’re an amazing person and your strength is an inspiration to many. Best wishes to you and your loved ones always

[@leithgc6994]

oh elzani i’m so proud of you and am so happy you can finally live the life you deserve! xxx

[@mcj1448]

Yaaas. The queen is back again😍 allready know it's gonna be amaaaz before even watching the video!!

[@elzanisingleton]

Hahaha 🤣

[@modernearthwellness8678]

Thinking of you. Miss your presence and delicious recipes. Hope you’re well and look forward to more wonderful videos from you, if it brings you joy.

[@nuria9333]

Oh, I didn't know you had a new channel 🙈 I was sat here thinking you had stopped KZbin/not uploaded in a long time. Then I saw your story of your new upload only to realize you've been uploading all along! 🥺♥️ glad to see you so happy ♥️

[@oliviafindlay1747]

I've been watching you for a while now and I just wanted to let you know how proud I am of you

[@emiliamazur4241]

this is super important as people with eating disorders use veganism as another form to restrict in a socially acceptable way, so thank you for pointing this out as it isn't talked about enough and often glamourized!

[@Angel-mv5gi]

I'm so happy I've found your new channel.❤️ I've watched your videos for so long and It's great to see how far we've both come lol.

[@Berethnet]

I am so happy to see a video like this! I'm so proud of you, where you've come from and where you are right now. Enjoy life to the fullest, gib some kisses to that adorable dog from me & eat a brownie for me 🥴✨ Lots of love from Belgium

[@melistansel1831]

You don't know how proud of you I am ♡♡♡ I've been watching you from the beginning and you are such an inspiration to everyone especially people with ED's and people in recovery or who want to recover/you inspire them to recover 💖 I'm so happy you're finally free and I hope everyone who is struggling can be free too

[@niamhhudson8117]

I remember when you started doing these vlogs and I’m sooooo happy you are doing them still. Cooking meals helps you explore foods and it is amazing to see all the vegan food goodness ahhh. Much love ❤️

[@iris1547]

i will be coming back to this video. sending you lots of love, thank you so much!

[@anyssawalth2484]

Elzani, you have helped me so much in my own journey to recovery. Thank you for being such an inspiration and keep fighting ❤️❤️

[@nkita7363]

Aw, I’ve loved to see your journey, love your videos! Amazing doggies and food

[@aristahenriot7450]

Thanks for your honesty and so proud of how far you have come , just so amazing 😉 xxxxx

[@jazz-4255]

Watching this while having my first bacon roll in over a year 👍 thank you for everything elzani

[@cyntmacz]

Thank you once again. Some of us need to be reminded.

[@annaplld8950]

ELZANI we love u never forget that ❤

[@elzanisingleton]

🥺❤️ love u too

[@SJanaS]

Hey Elzani, I think you are one of the most inspirational people I've ever seen!!!! You have helped so many people. Do you think you might ever post another video and let us know how everything's going with you and your family:))))

[@hula62]

I am so happy for you, Elzani. I can see the joy in your eyes! ❤️🥰❤️🥰 I want you to know that you are not only pretty, but beautiful! Believe it. ❤️🥰❤️🥰

[@nurselora681]

Elzani, I’ve battled with ED for 20 years. Please be careful. When we begin to exclude certain foods or food groups we can easily spiral back into our old ways of restricting. Please ensure you are working with a dietitian. Take care.

[@elzanisingleton]

Hey! Yeah I completely understand, I was only doing it for January so I’m not vegan anymore! I hope you are doing well ❤️

[@its_msk]

@@elzanisingleton but the battle with food is the symptom of a much bigger issue..Trauma, control, family dysfunction or struggles, wing the oldest girl /perfectionism or not wanting to grow up and mature and wanting to stay dependent on family or mom. I hope you have sought treatment, proper treatment.

[@lorenericksen5075]

I did veganuary in December last year too and have stayed with it. I love roasted veggies in a tortilla shell! I have lost weight, now underweight, so veganism does not seem a good choice if one has food issues.

[@georgieroberts8697]

Congratulations on veganuary!!! All these meals looked incredible xxx

[@lw9849]

Elzani, will you ever post again?

[@Themarianeshow]

YAY you posted! You inspired me to push myself in recovery!

[@Remy4300]

You have no idea how many people you have helped in recovery :) including myself xx keep being amazing

[@nesspumpkin2417]

you are amazing , you had come so far and are so inspiring

[@gibz1313]

i elzani, ive been watching you for a while now, i wanted to know if you could post a story of how you became ill. and when it started. i love watching your recovery because it gives me hope everyday, i use to have disorded eating and still struggle mentally. love u!

[@Elena-pq8yp]

So proud of how far you’ve come 💕 btw you have to try the Linda McCartney sausages 👌🏼

[@Ali-ct3xc]

I did veganuary with my kids for the first time this year. Some great alternatives around but we missed cheese too much so we're veggie now. You're doing amazing Elzani 🙌

[@zoelopez3993]

i cant believe i never saw that you uploaded this!! and for veganuary!!!!!! i’m so happy that you uploaded this and did veganuary 😊😊😊

[@sarahwass6249]

And by the way you are looking really great and healthy 🥰 congratulations on your recovery well done 👏💜

[@lucianamanzano4008]

I needed this so much. Thank you Elzani

[@avaryan256]

I just want to watch a new video from Elzani , I miss you and please come back if u are reading this xx

[@ellatrolio2330]

This is exactly what I needed this morning... thankyou as always

[@Madgirlwithatumblr]

This is so real though and this is what I tell people so often. I have healed my relationship with food and I'm happy and content. I am vegetarian and I often get asked if I'd go vegan and the truth is, I wanted to for a while, like I could see that being the journey, but now when I'm very self aware, I know that going vegan wouldn't be the healthiest option for me and the restriction might hurt me in the long run. Not to mention, I have so much anxiety around eating things I shouldn't eat (think gelatine, rennet, animal fats), I can't imagine having the same about eggs, milk powder or honey. So thank you so much for addressing this! I love animals and I try to eat plant based as much as I can, but I can only stay vegetarian for now. And I need to learn to be more relaxed about mistakes :)

[@Nicolacurran1]

I had eating disorders for 15+ years, had been in-patient, had been on medication, had been to so many counsellors and doctors and the only thing that actually worked for me was gaining weight. When I was so thin my body and brain was so starved that I was obsessed with food, either starving or bingeing and purging as a result of starving. I know it won't be the same for everyone but just explaining my story. I now have two beautiful children who I know I would never have had if I hadn't gained weight so if ever I have a little wobble or am down about my body I just have to look at them and know that they would not be here if I hadn't gained the weight. Plus my husband thinks I'm hot ha! Sorry just joking but in all honesty, as soon as my body was nourished the obsession with food & calories etc reduced hugely.

[@georgiabb]

I hope you continue making videos❤️

[@Iamsenag]

U inspire me every single day so thank you xx

[@elzanisingleton]

That is so kind!! Thank you for being here xx

[@Iamsenag]

@@elzanisingleton thank u for everything x

[@shalibakes8440]

I am so pleased to see this video… what a gal! 💕

[@Alyssav90]

I've also recovered and relate to this a lot. I love to hear from you and see you're doing well. 💕 It's very beautiful there btw.