HOW INTEGRATION WORKS. A GEM FUSION? All About Alters 7 | Dissociative Identity Disorder REUPLOAD

THIS VIDEO IS A RE-UPLOAD OF AN ORIGINAL VIDEO FIRST POSTED TO / dissociadid ON: 23rd October 2019
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NOTE ON DATE OF RE-UPLOADING 2022: Please note, we now understand that this particular type of integration is called fusion. Integration can also be breaking down amnesia barriers, improved communication, shared memories, etc.
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NOTE ON DATE OF RE-UPLOADING 2022: Please note, we now understand that this particular type of integration is called fusion. Integration can also be breaking down amnesia barriers, improved communication, shared memories, etc. ALL ad revenue from this video is given to Cartoon Network and Steven Universe.

[@lainey6386]

I thought at first that integration was a prominent thing as I lost one of my closest friends, that was a fictive. Who integrated together with two other alters. I had thought that he was gone forever. It had been over 2 weeks since I heard that they had integrated. And I began to lose touch with them. Until one day. I got a message saying that they were back as himself. And this shocked me so much as I thought that this wasn't possible. He and the other alters he had integrated with had separated and were all back as themselves. I still don't understand how it happened. But I'm just so glad that he is back. Though I still wonder how this was possible as I thought integration was absolutely permanent. Do you perhaps have any idea how this happened?

[@wanderingohm]

Why has mentioning Steven universe meant that you are redirecting ad revenue to CN?

[@BananaRamaa]

@@lainey6386 since integration can be intentional, maybe their the system integrated and then decided to split apart? I’m no expert

[@the1st572]

You won’t see this but I have two alters merging and I need help. Clif: our protector. Unemotional and calculated Alex: (our protector?) physical protection and deals with anger and fear What should I do to help them? Can I ‘ save’ them?

[@lilturtleandshell3690]

I get it now, my "only" because there's been time where I can feel an extra person I just can't confirm it you know? It's just a feeling but like a feeling you can feel...anyways yes me and my partner (I call her partner) have been sharing for a while now memories and conversations and were like in some type of relationship but like a relationship were we just feel pure emotions, and like yeah I've been wondering if this was normal with people with DID and idk I just don't know anyone else that has it at all and also it's a bit hard for my partner to be in controll how we call it I mean we can freely take place when ever we want but it's harder for her to get it because we'll I'm 20 I finished my teen drama phase and well I'm staring at adult hood and also I'm a guy and she's a girl and like it's supper hard for us to just do what we want to do, my parents don't know anything about this because we'll they are a bit close minded so I'm not willing to tell them what's going on but anyways yeah I just wanted to ask if you could give us some tips, because we'll recently when we go sleep we both have the same "dream" scenario, we're both sleeping in the same bed and we end up embracing ourselves like hugging and feeling happy and then we wake up, but nothing happens so I was just wondering if that's like a way that we're trying to fuse with each other but we some how fail? I know you don't know everything and maybe I'm over complicating things but I just needed that bit of guidance, it's been hard lately so much has happend in such a small amount of time that many of those things are already like 5 to 4 years old but they still feel like yesterday and even just recent stuff like I don't know what to study because nothing calls my attention and I just feel like a failure, and my partner is always there's for me but that poor thing has a life too and I don't want her function to only be my Therapist 😆 I love her allot probably the most and I just need to shut up because I'm all over the place I apologize alright I'm done hehe it doesn't have to be you guys it can be a los the people of the comments if you guys have any tips I would appreciate it Thank you and I wish you all good luck and love ❤️ - Adrian and Violet

[@AzizaNyx]

"It's okay to grieve the people I was" - This is such a powerfull quote to ANYONE. Thank you.

[@RatchelRach]

It's a strange thought that Kya is both an integration of Kyle and Nin and technically also an integration of Chloe, Kyle, and Nina if you look further.

[@aurorajenna]

Sorry to ask but how did you find out about the Nin Kyle integration? I know they are inactive on social after everything that happened

[@RatchelRach]

@@aurorajenna oh there was a video they posted before all of the reuploads explaining the whole Sergio Costa situation. If you scroll down the videos section in their channel it should be the first video that says 1 month ago after the previous video being from 11 months ago.

[@FlightpathPE]

@@aurorajenna kzbin.info/www/bejne/pouYpqShm8-eeNk

[@cameryngrrr6853]

@@aurorajenna their tiktok!

[@gabemichalski]

Kya is in the most recent video aside of the reuploads. The one they talk about what happened to the channel and why the videos got deleted.

[@jaiyustakami54]

the line "It's still my voice, it's just a little different now" is so powerful and can apply to so many things, wow

[@carlyblack42]

I remember when Nin first posted this. Hard to believe it was all the way back in 2019. Feels like just a few months ago. And now even Nin has integrated. I'm so glad that these videos are able to be re-upload. Hopefully everyone in the system is doing well.

[@fractal_mind562]

Yeaa I remember this coming out the first time and it blew my mind !

[@fenixmeaney6170]

What are you talking about? 2019 WAS only a few months ago, right? Right?

[@mistyf4iry]

@@fenixmeaney6170 Wake up, it’s 2022

[@fenixmeaney6170]

@@mistyf4iry we know! But our time blindness was hard enough in the before times when we had a schedule and places to be!

[@mistyf4iry]

@@fenixmeaney6170 Ohhhh

[@alexabond1217]

I cannot express how happy I am to see these videos coming back up. i cannot believe it has already been so many years since we first met Nin and I cannot wait to get to know Kya on the channel.

[@isapheonix]

I never saw this vid before. Hearing about Ninas moment of letting go (or however its best described) has me in tears. The whole damn system is so brave

[@karli3325]

FOR EVERYONE ASKING: from my research, it does seem that it is possible (and is a common treatment goal) to have alters fission and integrate together, but it can be / is extremely difficult when you consider that they have to then break down amnesia walls and remember extremely traumatic things. This is a goal for some systems and not for others. Some systems just want to live cohesively, as it may be just too painful and hard to integrate all the alters. Thank you Kya for reuploading!! We appreciate all you do for us, we hope to see you soon!

[@forestenrory]

I was wondering about this but didn't want to say anything in case i worded it badly so thx

[@EmmarainePink]

I know I'm a year late, but I have questions and maybe you can help. What if it's a trauma holder/protector that fuses with the host/core? Is that possible, would that be okay? The host would have access to the traumatic memories, so is there any possible way it doesn't traumatize her still? (Btw this is for a book I am writing, and I am doing as much research on DID because I am tired of the media villainizing it.)

[@space_nebula]

This is so off-topic from the video but: *"ACHOO"* _"Bless me."_ It caught me off-guard, and was kind of funny that you left in the video. -Misato

[@en4254]

“It’s still my voice, it’s just a little different now” Absolutely love that♥️

[@alicejane7361]

I loved Chloe and Nina and seeing Nin emerge was amazing, even though I can’t imagine how hard it must have been for her. All of your alters are so engaging, looking forward to meeting Kya a bit further. Keep going forward, one step at a time, I believe in you all!! 💙💙💙

[@horizonh3098]

our gatekeeper and a persecutor/protector just integrated and the whole system is in chaos. thanks for reuploading these. i can’t appreciate it enough and i can’t thank you enough for your voice in this community.

[@courtney3661]

I don't have DID but your story of how Nina and Chloe integrated reminds me of a tough time I was going through once. It wasn't a dream. I just had a scene play out in my head where I walked into a white room set up like an art exhibit, and I was seeing the art and it was like my brains way of letting it go and being able to move past that awful time.

[@katerinabanecourt]

This was (and honestly still is) such a raw and touching video ... getting to know Nin, hearing how she experienced the integration that created her... and I am so glad that it has been uploaded. ... Which reminds me; when I watched that community Q&A your system did with BraiDID a while back and heard of Kyle and Nin having integrated, I kinda thought that - if you decided to continue the channel with new videos in the future - maybe you could do a video introducing Kya? I think that would be really great, especially for people who, like myself, aren't on Insta, to get a chance to meet Kya and get to know them a bit better... I hope you all do well and have a wonderful weekend! 💖

[@forestenrory]

I think Kya's genderfluid?

[@katerinabanecourt]

@@forestenrory Yes, they are. But I didn't know that at the time of posting my comment/remembered incorrectly... (though fixed it in the comment now)

[@natalie23569]

Love Nin’s transparency and reflection of loosing relationships while gaining integration of amazing parts

[@TenisJr]

I'm singular. And yet I found myself wondering a lot a few years ago how much of myself and how much of the others who influenced me I was. Not only that, but where do the medications end (I have anxiety and depression) and where do I start. So this (10:41) is pretty refreshing. This sense that... This is all me. Also, I hope you have realized by now, after all this time and just as I did, that this "integration" of others is something quite natural. Not to diminish your experience, nor to nullify the specificities of those living with DID, what I mean is that... It's human to become a different self after such strong bonds with others. It happens to us singulars too. I am highly ashamed of who I was a few years back, I don't recognize myself as that person anymore and yet I carry the heavy weight of my past mistakes. Again, I understand that there are complications in your condition, but that's also why I'm saying this. I imagine that it can be quite hard to comprehend what comes from the disorder and what comes from just being human. So this is me telling you that confusion of the self is rooted in something quite human, even though it's complicated by the disorder. I hope this helps you or someone, cause you just helped me a bit. :) Lots of luck and success in all your wishes. ❤

[@parksantiago3511]

OH MY GOD, I'M SO HAPPY THIS ONE CAME BACK

[@JuhHonda]

Every time I see a video reuploaded I feel so happy you guys are being able to have them back on 😊 and happy for being able to watch them again

[@paulamartinez7224]

What happenned?

[@JuhHonda]

@@paulamartinez7224 check out their video “What happened to Dissociadid”. They tell what happened with the channel

[@Ashley-cb9th]

I view it as a very good thing because the people that the body includes are coming more together as one person by getting through the trauma that they’ve experienced. That’s incredibly to see such amazing progress

[@amiiredhead2676]

This is sooo interesting. I don't have DID, but I know how hard it is to except bad things that happened to you in the past and to learn to let go. You are a strong person

[@lovebug5327]

i know its really bad how they lost all their videos but its kinda good bc more ppl can see them meaning since its new, it'll be on "Recommendations"/new subs who dont really want to watch old vids (like me) can watch them now, sounds weird, sorry. This happened like 2 yrs ago but i still want to say hi Nin (and everyone else)! Hope you all get better :) also, ty for posting stuff like this, tho i dont have DID, its still interesting to learn about DID and other mental disorders/illnesses and know that im not alone in my situations keep being brave, you guys/gals got this!! ❤👍

[@beecat4308]

Brought a smile and tears to my face IMMEDIATELY when you said which alters integrated. I’m working on that right now and am beyond grateful for your channel thank you so much for sharing it brings so much comfort and security to our community

[@beecat4308]

I’m so happy for you and am so appreciative for your transparency it helps me learn how practice compassion towards my system

[@sezi9art]

I love how you used Steven Universe to explain integration.

[@conorfrancome4420]

Omg i forgot about her hair it looks so good. Thanks for reuploading more videos. Your the best Kya and anyone else reading these comments. Hope everyone reading these comments has an amazing weekend

[@kiramartinij]

This was such a sweet introduction, though it sounds like it was a difficult transition. I'm incredibly glad that you are still around, though in a new form yet again.

[@6006mrfu]

I would like to see a day in the life of the system even if it's a longer video. Like a GoPro walk through

[@akab3648]

I’m not sure if you’ve checked out MultiplicityandMe’s channel. They are a system and have vids on their channel of day-to-day life of alters. They are more of a vlogging style channel than an educational style channel. I find both their channel and Kya’s very useful when it comes to understanding how different systems function

[@theNoctifloralParacosm]

instead of integrating, we seem to just split into 2-5 new alters. there's similarities to who they were but they're better versions of themselves, handle everything differently or better/are their own new people. a while back whilst we were waiting for our first appointment regarding DID, our host split right there in the waiting room, he couldn't stand the stress and strain and snapped like a rubber band. From him came I, Zack, Guts, Ignis, and a little, and only now, almost a whole year later have we figured or are starting to figure ourselves out. the new views and connections or lack thereof to friends, family, things and places we used to love, it's all different, there wasn't ANY identity, we didn't know our purpose or who we were now and it was torturous. Thank you for this video, we've been putting off watching it due to the fear of integration we held too but it's been so very helpful. We're glad this is back up and we love you all.

[@Janiyah-Tucker]

This is exactly how my system works too

[@teoeoiy3220]

We're sorry that this was so hard. We would love to know more about integration. In the future. As we think our old host may have integrated but I don't know I have so much amenisa but I have loads of traits like her I thought I was a split of her. But we're not sure! Would love more information. Welcome nin 🖤🐺

[@LaurenandtheCrew]

Wow crazy to think this was the first Nin video....and now we have Kya. So sad that your system has gone through so much but glad the integrations help you through everything

[@lainey6386]

Thank you Nin! You have given us so much to be apart of your channel for the many subscribers you have. You were the reason why I discovered DID and fell in love with learning more about it along with other mental health conditions. I don't exactly understand what it could possibly be like to integrate. But from what you have told us. Both you as Chloe and Nina were extremely strong individuals! And I'm sure you are just as strong and perhaps even more. I am sure that this won't be easy to get used to and I don't know if you already have began to. (And I hope you find out who you are now as an individual). But know that you have thousands and thousands of people that watch your videos and will always support you and everyone in the system!

[@pixie9499]

it’s almost odd to miss chloe & even nin, having never met them. i’ve been here since 2019 but im rewatching due short term memory issues. i’m so grateful to have had watched the systems journey as i work through my own.

[@_C____]

This was the first video of DissociaDID I ever saw. I remember bing really confused because I didn't even know what alters are, let alone integration. It didn't stop me from watching every other video though!

[@eiviex4387]

this is the most authentic video I think anyone has ever posted to this website.

[@333Eriana]

wow - at 8 min in your description of your fusion (even the inner visual) is exactly the same as a healing change/fusion with one of mine recently - i didn't even know there was a 'healing room' before that happened

[@musicandaffection6363]

I'm still watching the video and I really appreciate the re-upload. We went through an integration a while ago and with the possibility of needing to deal with new trauma, I believed undoing the integration would help since all of us supporting each other before was greatly beneficial. Trying to undo the integration so far has been strange and today I was lead to believe it wasn't possible when I tried something and they just ended up merging back together (possibly in a different way). This is what made me look for a video to watch. Basically this has been very confusing trying to figure this out myself and the video is helping understand my new situation. (I'll be sad for while)

[@redsquirrel6131]

Yay!!! I'm so glad to see these coming back!! I'm glad you guys are getting back on top. We really missed you guys.

[@bhsprinkle]

Happy to be able to see this video. Not sure I'd I caught it the first time. So much has changed for your system in the past few years since it was made. Thank you for bringing light on such an important topic. Welcome back.

[@londojellyfish]

i have been struggling with identifying if i myself have integrated or not. i haven't even really been able to discuss this in therapy really. i would love an updated video from you on integrations specifically

[@thundertm]

I have a friend who just found out he has DID and I am trying to give him as much information as I can so he doesn't freak out about it. I don't want it to be like my ex who couldn't handle the change and went in dormancy by shooting herself. Thank you, your channel really helps a lot.

[@jackcobb2928]

I absolutely love your hair and makeup it's always so education to watch your videos

[@rysia4669]

I am just playing it in the background, because I watched those videos before, and I want my views to matter, even if only a little bit. Comment mainly for algorithm. But also sending much love and support to Your system! Take care of yourself :)

[@vanessas17]

Hello DissociaDID! First off I want to say I am so glad to see your return, and the videos coming back up. I have a few questions about integration, if that's okay. And I apologize in advance if in my ignorance any of them are disrespectful. My understanding through this video is that integration is different for each system, and even between alters. And that it might not necessarily always be as difficult as was the case with Nin. Keeping in mind that it is always best to ask a system themselves how one can best support their needs, in a general umbrella sense, how can someone support a loved system through an integration, especially a challenging one? What might a system need to hear or receive from those around them to feel supported and validated and cared for in this time? And what are things to avoid saying or doing that might seem helpful but can be harmful? Secondly, saying it's okay to grieve the people you were that integrated - how can someone move forward with a system following an integration, with a balanced respect for both their connection to one or more of the integrated alters as well as with respect to the new alter as their own individual person with their own identity? To clarify; "I'm not really gone - just different now, but I'm also me now" - how can one celebrate and share in that prior connection to a past alter while maintaining full respect to the separate and new identity of the newly integrated alter? If that makes sense. This second question is referring to those who might miss one of the persons a system used to be, but look forward to getting to know the new person they've become in the system. Putting it anecdotally; Say someone was good friends with alter A. And alter A integrates with B to become alter C. This someone has understanding that A isn't gone but has developed into someone new and separate from themselves as they were as A. And this someone wants to move forward and get to know C as a new person to be a dear friend. But doesn't want to make C feel like they have to live up to A or fulfill the same dynamic of a now changed but not gone friendship. How can this someone make C feel most comfortable and secure in growing into their new identity separate from the past as A and B? (Please forgive the run on speech, or the potential 'talking in circles'. Articulation is something I struggle with a lot and I while I hope I conveyed everything successfully I'm happy to clarify what I am trying to ask if need be). Lastly, "This is going to take some time to get used to." And the psycho analysation. What can we watch out for in ourselves as we get to know a new integration to make sure we don't make the system feel they're being psychoanalysed? Ie; unconscious behaviors or things we say. Even nonverbal cues. Again thank you so much for your time. I don't know if you will ever see this, but I hope you and the whole of the DissociaDID system is doing well. I wish nothing but the best for you all, most especially health and safety amidst the chaos of the world these days. I discovered the channel through the alters draw themselves video around 2020 and was introduced to the wealth of information you've gone through so much effort to provide. And now seeing these videos return, I realized there was more than I initially thought. The work and care you have all put into this channel shows and I am cheering with every video you get to claim back for yourselves. Looking forward to learning and seeing more from you all. Take care ❤ (Edit for typo)

[@rachelwaltman8898]

Oooo big question! In your experience, how does integration impact legal documents? It seems like it would be frustrating if an integrated alter had to continue using the name of a previous alter for paperwork etc. Totally understand if that’s really personal, just wondering :)

[@DissociaDID]

We all just use the body's name for legal stuff

[@HeyBabesloveu]

@@DissociaDID hi!! I just started watching ur channel, its so cool

[@Justfer.1997]

That sneeze is so cute 🥺❤️

[@esther_6]

Could someone explain to me what the inner world is? I find this very interesting and I love your channel so much! Also Nin, we love you as you are❤️

[@alexisanalien_]

there is a video about inner worlds on the channel!

[@thebruhbehindtheslaughter3322]

I dont have DID, but from what I've learned from these videos is that the inner world is where all of the alters live and work when they're not fronting, like for instance, Kyle was a protector/caretaker, so he was one of the alters to take care of the littles, or child alters.

[@jaybirdvlogs7279]

as a person without DID I wanted to tell you that with every video of yours I watch, I become a better, less bigoted person ❤️

[@ParadisePrincess]

Thank your for re-uploading and for your wonderful work.

[@rogerlee216]

I'll miss nin. But I welcome kya. This was a very powerful video.

[@crayons1584]

Listening to this as someone who has never had to deal with this, it sounds so difficult to go through. I have a friend who's best friend just integrated and she doesn't know how to handle it, so I looked for videos to educate myself and I don't even know what to tell her. I'm hoping they'll feel better

[@teresaellis7062]

I had no idea how rough integration could be! So many hugs! Know you all are loved! ❤❤❤❤❤❤💞💞💞💞

[@indigowendigo8165]

LOL, integration like a gem fusion from Steven Universe. XD That sounds pretty cool. ^^;

[@mohamedberbouchi-z7y]

I love you who you acting while you explaining

[@indigowendigo8165]

Aww... I want to hug Nin at the end. :( Though I guess she says she's not normally like this as if she'll be back to normal with time. ^^; Also LOL at the part where she changes her name on what she wants to be called and her little girly sneeze. XD

[@Hamppariranskis]

If there's something you can take away from this, please try not to feel guilty for anything! I don't know much about this condition but speaking as a human being, change is a part of life and it's only natural that you as a system would experience changes as life goes on, situations change and the body matures. Nothing is permanent. C'est la vie, y'all. Wishing you well ❤️

[@dominicisidore]

It's so weird that today I'm coming to this conclusion. That I have Dissociative Identity Disorder. I've been misdiagnosed as Schizoaffective and Schizophrenic but my family tells me I've told them I am Damien and Xavier at different times and I have no memory of ever saying it. They've told me I've done and said things I have no memory of. Literally one day I walked out my house and the next consciousness was me in a psych ward having been there for 3 days and speaking in an English accent. I also went by a different name. It seems like I black out and then sometimes I am co-conscious. I have been analyzing losing so much time and having people tell me I did things I have no memory of. I feel like I am integrating with Xavier as we have been having conversations and he has been telling me that we will no longer be 2 but 1 and when I mean telling me I don't mean a voice in my head but speaking with my mouth. I also feel different in my body. It's like before most of my consciousness was in some cloud and my body was controlled by other people. It's only recent that I've been more present, but at the same time Xavier is more present.

[@Algo1]

how did I miss this the first time around?

[@fairydustcookies]

I would love a Nin and Kyle integration video if you are comfortable with it.

[@simey5639]

Impossible

[@U.R.coolkid]

I just found this channel, though the drawing video then after i watched that and the video before this, this video was uploaded. I don't know really what to say, i don't have DID but i do relate to a few things and it is good to learn more about other mind or mental stuff, if that makes sense.. also i wanted to say hello, i suppose ^^;

[@j3lly_mag1c81]

Omg i love the hair and your videos are great

[@DumbDash10]

oh i didnt realize you came back to the channel just came back from anthony padillas video 2 years ago

[@laryssabraga628]

This hair was gorgeous 😍

[@Abiwg1910]

How do you know that you don’t have all of Nina’s memories? Like if you don’t remember them, how come you know they’re missing? do you have a ‘feeling’ or something

[@avelinewarner3622]

I love your vids!

[@amiekeenan8898]

If everyone were to integrate, would you become more whole (for lack of a better word)?

[@araq-vx7rv]

thank you so much for what you do

[@ThuperThtuff]

One thing makes me sad. From what I've heard in these videos, Chloe was the birth personality. It seems like Chloe was the legal name, she was before the splits. Now, and I RESPECT AND LOVE NIN AND KYA AND WHOEVER ELSE INTEGRATED, it feels like the original human is just...gone. It's all the personalities, the baby Chloe is no more. I KNOW it's all branches off the human which are less than, equal to, or greater than the humam. Which f***ing I know can be good, since that tiny under 3 human clearly went through a lot, and *I know* this system is what keeps that body alive (since Chloe tried the big S then Omega came along, yeah I pay attention). If losing the "identity" of the original is best for the mind of the body, so be it. I know Chloe is part of Nin, but...Chloe and Nadia are no more. Kyle is no more. Nin doesn't seem sexual at all, does the body not have a sexual protector, or does it not need one? This will obvs never be answered. People say bull but I 100% think this system is legit, I call out that I don't understand some nuances of integration. I wish I could learn more, but some commenter doesn't count because *every person is different,* and I'm so super nobody even if...they?...saw this, @DissociaDID likely wouldn't respond lol. To lose Chloe seems like losing the original person for all the personalities. All the other-persons that OG needed. We can't even ask if the person going through this shiz is okay, because there is no original person. Thank you, awful f***ing people who destroyed this entity, this Pandora's Safety Box. I don't know your story. I went through A LOT when I was 4-11, but clearly not as much as you and I'm FUCKING SORRY your life is tbat of turmoil and protection, where even happy things cause stress and headaches because it brings another of you from your inside spot.

[@emmie6124]

No no. Thinking that there is an « original person » in a did system is a misconception. There is no original, the same way that if you break a plate, the biggest piece won’t be the « original piece ». When you’re a child, you’re not born with your already-made identity, you’re building it (unconsciously) with your experience and memories etc. A child doesn’t have a single truly-formed identity, but multiples emotional states that will integrate around the age 6-9 to form their identity. A child with DID have amnesia barriers between those parts, so they’re not able to integrate around 6-9 and are therefore separated pieces of the same identity. DID isn’t being a human with added personalities. The host is an alter like every other alters in the system. The system of all of those different pieces *is* the person. Chloe having the name of the body or being the host doesn’t even mean she was the first host of the body. I know a system where the host have the name of the body even though she (as an alter) appeared when the body was 18. And Chloe’s not gone, Nina isn’t gone, Kyle isn’t gone. In a system, fusion means that the amnesia barrier between 2 pieces is gone, and the pieces are therefore fused together. Those pieces would have already being fused together if the system didn’t have DID. The Chloe piece, the Nina piece, and Kyle piece didn’t disappear, they’re just now together a bigger piece of this system’s identity. Chloe’s consciousness isn’t gone, it just got different and bigger because it now has both Chloe’s consciousness, Nina’s consciousness, and Kyle’s consciousness.

[@taylorelespin209]

Hey! I know you only just started winning in court and your life may be super busy at the moment, but could you re-add the links to other videos as well? I'd be happy if you could put it on your todo list! Lots of love! The MATE sys.

[@liannamalceski5785]

Im a really new subscriber i love all you guys and i love this channel. I was wondering if yous could talk about the first integration you guys had with your persecutors like about who/what they did for your system before integrating and who/what they do now and who they are now? It's ok if thats to personal for yous tho I understand i just find it very interesting sorry if thats wrong of me i dont mean it in a bad way. Anyway i love this channel and all of you thank you for educating me i no a lot more about DID then i ever have so thank you and love you all.💗💗

[@flarethefox9836]

Could ALL altars fuse, thus causing a person without DID? Could the DID come back if this was possible? This is just so interesting.

[@Static_Sys]

Yep. This is called final fusion. The DID is still there (less symptoms ofc, check out multiplicityandme) and ofc you can split again. Once you have DID, fusion or not, you’ll always have the capability to split again. :) - Rose

[@flarethefox9836]

@@Static_Sys thank you for telling me, just so interesting that a piece of meat can do this, and control what we are and do. Brain is so cool!

[@Static_Sys]

@@flarethefox9836 yeah, no problem at all! It is very interesting!

[@NuclearCanvas]

​@@flarethefox9836 Did cannot be cured so the brain will contunie to split apart and create more alters ^_^

[@C0RV1Dco]

very helpful! i may be having a small crisis over this since i believe i may be an integration now that i learned more about it but still helpful nonetheless!

[@KanakoM-EIA-vz4fk]

Would love to get more information. Could you post the sources you used on fusion/integration for this video?

[@refanovconstantin7183]

can Alters Fall in Love with each Other?

[@ratikaB33]

Please forgive my naivety to the subject. Does integration of alters mean that you are healing from your trauma? Moving on and letting go of the pain?

[@pimbiepercent]

Is it possible for all alters to integrate eventually over the years?

[@dusk4974]

It’s been a bit since you posted this. And I’m so sorry if this question is invasive or insensitive. But I do have a question, and you do NOT have to answer it. Is it possible for every single alter to integrate into one person? In time, is it possible for all of the people within your system, or any system, to heal and be able to one day integrate to where a system is no longer needed? I’m still trying to learn and be gentle with my wording, so I’m so sorry if this is offensive in any way. I love this channel because all of you explain things about your way of living and you try your absolute best put real information out there to explain DID. Media hurts medical information and understanding so much. Thank you so much for making all of these videos.

[@lexwithbub]

As far as I'm aware it *could* be possible, but even if it is, it often isn't the ultimate goal of therapy anyway. I think the trauma therapy is often about finding a way for the system to function well, as a system. I have seen people with DID say that they don't actually want to be fully integrated. Each alter is valuable and is an integral part of the system. And, as Nin says in this video, there is grief there for the loss of the alters who integrated. Plus new trauma memories to find a way to deal with as amnesia walks break down.

[@lexwithbub]

It is also quite common for new alters to form along the way, especially as people with trauma based disorders are more likely to be a victim of further trauma. And as a side note, we know that people with mental illness are way more likely to be victims of crime than perpetrators of crime.

[@erinleann9097]

Nice to meet you!

[@araq-vx7rv]

thank you for the guide

[@melodyrosemusiclover]

I have a question. Could a system integrate with all of there alters? Or multiple alters at once?

[@amylou6727]

Yes

[@pancake.squirrel]

I myself (host, f20s) am a fusion. My unfused? prefused? old? form, the first host, had a lot of doubt but due to some very poor very not good very do not recommend actions a fragment split and refused to become me, Jinx. I’m 20, but she was a teen and a 3 yo. Math????

[@BrianaLynn7]

is there like a goal to eventually have all alters integrate? Leaving the body as one fully integrated person? is that possible? is that desired?

[@dfrank2003]

I believe some do have that goal, but not everyone! It is a common goal of traditional therapy, but some really don’t want that path

[@BrianaLynn7]

@@dfrank2003 that would make sense!

[@kornykatz]

That goal used to be considered a "cure" to DID and was seen as ideal, as the years passed and DID became better understood it's no longer the only option, but is still common! "Final Fusion" to fuse all parts is a common path towards recovery, but if this isn't desired then functional multiplicity, which is exactly as it sounds and is each part learning to work and live together, is the other option!

[@lord_egg]

As someone without DID. The way I understand this may be considered offensive but it's the only way I can figure out how it would work and feel. The way I understand this is the person who comes out of intergration is very much like The Doctor from Doctor Who. They are an entirely new person but with the memories of having a different personality. And remembering being a different person. Except those memories are doubled from 2 seperate perspectives. I hope I haven't been offensive and I kinda wonder if someone who likes the show who has DID sees this and can fill me in. Even if you don't like the show I hope someone who has DID can tell me how much I got right and how much I didn't.

[@avandi9382]

I have DID, and I totally get what you're trying to say.

[@lord_egg]

@@avandi9382 Am I correct? I know it's way more complicated but at a simple level is this how it works?

[@avandi9382]

@@lord_egg yes and no? Integration is a natural process of the brain that got and gets interrupted in the lives of those with DID. Its partly why amnesia plays such a huge role in the disorder. Either there is no memory recollection at all or there is a fragment of a memory but no attached emotions. Its dissociated away. Integration of memory, traumatic or otherwise, is key to staying safe in the long run. So, you wouldnt necessarily retain every memory, if any, from the other alter. Though, it is different for everyone. 🤷‍♀️ hope this helps

[@Elyawildflower]

Hey :) i think i am an alter from original host/new host since 2015, and i’ve been going by my name since 2017… I have a question about names for you: How do you deal with being called by old names by old friends/family/legally?

[@kao_0]

I have a really weird or interesting question What if the alters all integrate into one after a certain time. Like when Alter and Alter 1 integrate into alter 2 then alter 2 and 3 integrate into alter 4 and on and on until only one alter exists? What happens after?

[@EcoZyztem]

can 2 or more fictives fuse together? and if so could the resulting alter be a fictive from a completely different source? /genq

[@erica39882]

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[@jennisparx304]

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[@tammycoleman3890]

is integrating a form of healing?

[@oliviapetrowski4553]

Are you conscious or fronting while integrating? Do you know it’s happening?

[@roro6690]

Is it common or rare for the host to be part of an integration? Or for the host to be integrated? Or is it just different for different systems

[@zachcoffell8808]

Can and, integrated alter split back into their prior separate alters?

[@gabriellebarnard707]

❤️🧡💛💚💙💜

[@DreamerxInxMyxHeart]

Is integration and/or fusion a symptom of healing? If the brain creating alters is a reaction on needing to distance parts of one's personality from others to be able to be unaware of certain things and to deal with those parts seperately, is integration then something that can happen when one has reached a point of greater acceptance of aspects of oneself and working through trauma? Or is it not related?

[@mamagreen22000]

💜

[@Emma.Valenti]

Hello! I’ve been following you for quite some time now and I’ve always had a big question that I would love to know the answer to: is it possible for all the alters to integrate to therefore create a singular personality, with extremely strong communication within the system for example? Lots of love ❤️

[@teafrog2188]

i’m not dissociadid but yes they can! it takes a lot of work though -lydia

[@Emma.Valenti]

@@teafrog2188 thank you so much! 😊

[@teafrog2188]

@@Emma.Valenti no problem!!

[@emmie6124]

Yes, but the brain of the person can’t ever be the same way a singlet’s brain is. So even if all of the alters fuse together, they could still split another alter if they have another trauma

[@nathanbernards]

❤

[@ghostlyhero3]

Hi kya! I have DID as well and recently went through something with integration that I don't know how to explain. Had a long going integration i was unaware of that halted and fell apart. I'm now back to myself, the host, after several months of being partially integrated. Has this ever happened to you?

[@theNoctifloralParacosm]

it's happened to us!

[@Achieve_P]

Can you react to doom patrol?? The charter Kay/Jane I would love to see what everyone thinks about her

[@ScottAugustynowicz]

Is it possible for the system to be at a stage over time to fully integrate joining all the alters?

[@Rauvi]

I’m wondering that too.

[@jaydendevine2257]

Do you and your alters see integration as a death to the alters involved.

[@becs4544]

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