How to Deal with an Existential Crisis - What is Life's Meaning - What's the Point

[@TheDiamondNet]

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[@raidnova1474]

Holy shoot I never realized I was going through an existential crisis almost half my life up until this video. Thank you .

[@arturodiaz1063]

I agree. COVID has made things way far worse. Hospitals, doctors and people in general have become so impersonal. If you are alone with no friends nor family, the suffering is beyond leaps and bounds. I have never had any luck with the human element nor followed the heard.

[@Lucy-xb8wm]

Just being alive makes me uncomfortable

[@mr.actapus4069]

lol

[@micheljurgens]

Glad Im not the only one!

[@Scriabin_fan]

Same here, i lowkey wish i was never born.

[@adinenegaming4803]

Me and my brother relates to this

[@businesslp3027]

Lucy 🎯

[@NatLopezOnYoutube]

I woke up the other night in tears, realizing that I would die, end up in blackness, and nothing would matter. You're right. Everything you said about accepting and being detached while attached have made me feel so much better. I cannot thank you enough.

[@TheDiamondNet]

I'm glad to hear that my video has been helpful to you. Best of luck. :)

[@nguyensoo8334]

Hi I've been suffering from existential crisis but I am not good at listening English I can understand some tricks that you gave us but some I cant. Can you give me the scripts ?

[@gingerbread1268]

There Might Be God

[@seifseif4721]

Nat Lopez you cant ignore the fact that we did not come from nothing its undeniable. you keep ignoring it but deep down inside you know something formed all of this with laws. you just feel this life is long and want to live as you please. you dont want to change your life for islamic preinciple because that will turn your families against you.

[@yadrieldm8814]

Nat Lopez that's how I feel rn but sometimes I feel better thinking there is a god and this is just a test

[@patrickdaniel7760]

I'm a freshman in college right now and i spent the last few months wondering if my life has any meaning.. i would spend up to an hour crying in the bathroom because i just feel so small compared to the universe. I've never been a religious person but i've started to think about fate, the butterfly effect, and how at any moment I could simply just die. It just doesn't make sense to me that I competed against a billion other sperm cells to make it to this life and won, and it doesn't make sense that I am inside of a body that is so small compared to the entirety of the universe. I also fear that I am wasting my time here on Earth

[@kimmccarty247AO]

Patrick Daniel meaning is irrational. how comfortable are u with irrational things...like mythology?

[@appledough3843]

Patrick Daniel Does an existential crisis go away on its own? How did you make it go away? Do I just wait it out?

[@danvyable]

i had existential crisis episodes daily for half a year and now theyre just monthly. I had to wait it out

[@repa9132]

If there is no point to life then you can't waste time ( which also doesn't really exist) because there isn't anything you should rather do.

[@anakinskinwalker996]

Patrick Daniel Existence is meaningless. Period. It's impossible to be happy with it. Just learn to be content.

[@timothystorm1560]

Wow! As a dedicated existentialist, born philosophy major, and someone who has actually not had an existential crises in many years; I’m quite impressed. The worst days in anyone’s life, very repressed, is the day death is explained to us. Im glad to see you mention it. For me, as a 19 philosophy major in 1975 I was assigned Transcendence of the Ego by Sartre to read. It made the core emptiness we all share normal, so I never took it all that seriously. You are sort of a Transcendence of the Ego, thanks. Also, once in college I was in the middle of an existential crises, a friend said to me Tim, you’re never actually alone, you’re stuck on a planet with 6 billion people.

[@rzl34]

whoa that last sentence somehow cheered me up

[@DeathSentryCoH]

For a young woman, you are wise beyond your years..ty

[@TheDiamondNet]

Thank you! :)

[@jprattusabg]

My stupid will to live is the only thing that prevents me from embracing death

[@2okaycola]

That’s not stupid that’s self preservation ~ trauma makes your brain stunted don’t be too hard on yourself

[@veegomi7669]

I just want peace. I feel so uncomfortable being alive I get this scary detached feeling from reality and even looking at the sky scares me. I feel so old and miaerable at 23 I can only imagine how I feel at 30 , 40, 50 😩 I wish I could just feel comfortable being alive and feel preaent. sigha thanks for the video at least its comfortable knowing im not only one having these thoughts of death

[@JonnyAuto]

jane gomez i had these exact thoughts at a certain age (16). I am 33 now. I grew out of it long ago. you'll be fine ^_^ Gaining mindfulness and presence helped me.

[@veegomi7669]

Jonny Auto wow such simple words but it honestly means a lot to hear that 😩 thank you so much. i seem to be getting worse with time. my mind wonders to how were just on this tiny rock floating infinite black space and it starts to freak me out. it just doesnt make sense to me everything feels fake. Anyways I hope To God I feel better because I feel like im loosing my mind and time being in this state

[@JonnyAuto]

Yea i used to trip on the fact that it was pointless to DO anything. Why create the Mona Lisa, the pyramids, or children for that matter. Its all going to be gone someday anyway.

[@veegomi7669]

Jonny Auto same same 😩 Man its more thant i just feel so damn disconnected. I feel trapped. Anyways thank you so much again for your postive words and hope and im happy to hear that you were able to get out of it and are doing much better

[@appledough3843]

Jonny Auto Dude you're making me so much better! I'm going through an existential crisis right now and I'm freaking out! So it just goes away on its own? Because that's reassuring. Please let me know!

[@tylarjones9281]

As an atheist and an antinatalist, I suffer with this everyday. I know that we are all insignificant. Life is temporary. Death is not. I see almost no point to continue. Only piano, guitar, and art help but that is only a temporary escape. I love sleep and sleep is a glimpse of what death is. If only I never came into being because it is existence that is a curse, not a gift. Life is a possession we didn't ask for because life is an imposition, not a choice.

[@TheDiamondNet]

I used to have the same idea about the world, prior to experiencing ego transcendence. And even though these ideas may seem true, this is just one of many filters to see the world through. And filters are always based upon premises. And all premises are always false in an absolute sense. You will be able to transcend these issues if you seek what's true beyond ideas and thoughts. Let go of all filters to see what's true. A wise person knows that they know nothing. :)

[@tylarjones9281]

The Diamond Net This is definetely an unique mindset. I will take the advice.

[@iceydaywalker9198]

Maximum Carnage take her advice but do not abandon your well-informed views that have led you to be an atheist and anti-natalist. Being both of those things is absolutely wonderful, and entirely commendable. So I commend you! Definitely didn’t expect to see a fellow anti-natalist in these comments. Cheers!

[@Naeinsengimnida]

Dealing and escaping the problem are 2 different things, that's why we have to embrace that void/emptiness, that's the truth moment when you are admitting yourself what is wrong and start dealing with it and probably already resolving it with solutions !

[@iceydaywalker9198]

goddamn life that’s fucking hilariously stupid

[@stanleymakulu868]

All I can say is life has challenges and this can be one of them. Don’t be afraid to intentionally pick up the pieces and keep moving forward. Yes we will all die some day but you were given this life so take responsibility of it instead of worrying what to do with it. Create something beautiful and Keep pushing till the end it’s all worth it, it’s always been worth it, that’s why you’ve been given it!

[@IntrustGames]

This is exactly how I’m feeling. Trying to explain this to someone is impossible, but I’m glad I’m not the only one. It’s hard to really care about anything or have motivation when you know in the end everything will be gone.

[@donuttalktome4816]

I get it SO MUCH. Thank you for leaving this comment, this made me feel like I'm not alone. I hope you got better (or getting better). No matter what's gonna happen to us in the end, we all deserve to be happy in the now. We really do. I'm going to see a therapist for the first time next week and I'm really hoping it's gonna help me.

[@0BIWANCANNOLI]

I’m 22 been going through this at full force lately, the one thing I’ve had to continue telling myself is that every single human being is going through the same process as you right now. We’re all in the same boat, obviously it’s a hard pill to swallow but it’s also comforting in the least comfortable way. It’s also made me a way more peaceful person like I’m instantly more kind to people now, can’t believe I spent so much time being an asshole to some ppl or fighting over dumb stuff that literally doesn’t matter. Spread love and accept love. I also always loved the saying “we’re here for a good time not a long time.” It’s rough though, a lot of days I feel such a heavy sadness that it makes it hard to do normal things like get up in the morning, sometimes I haven’t been lately. I’m hoping it passes but I hope everyone reading this feels comfort that we’re obviously not alone in this.

[@franklira3404]

Thanks brother I've been feeling the same thing lately

[@yourlocalbrownguy8629]

Same here brotha, I feel this same way, p.s. also 22.... And useless 😧

[@nayankrishna4918]

Hey, are you doing alright now?

[@8656737s]

I'm not afraid of death. I just don't understand why life is so difficult? Why do we work till we die? Why do a lot of people suffer with physical pain? Why are some people programmed to not question anything? I feel intelligent for asking these questions. I don't want to a minion. It's so frustrating!

[@domcruise3905]

i cannot express how much this has helped me

[@handsomesquidward6704]

Dom Cruise how u doing now

[@mr.actapus4069]

@@handsomesquidward6704 how you doing now

[@handsomesquidward6704]

@@mr.actapus4069 100% bruva. Lasted about 3 months for me but got over it

[@mr.actapus4069]

@@handsomesquidward6704 pls help me, do you have discord? i suffer really much

[@handsomesquidward6704]

Mr.Actapus yep BigRed

[@muhammadibrahim1238]

Bro you’re dead on, this is exactly how it is for me. I been dealing with this since i was young and im a freshmen in college now. I think it was my severe depression anxiety when i was younger gradually ramped up until about 8th grade everything hit me all at once and thats when my existential crisis started. And reading all these comments man i just wanna throw a party with everyone because fuck its hard trying to find people that actually understand

[@tornikegavasheli8732]

These awful existential thoughts swarm my mind especially when i am outside or commuting in a transport, also when i am having a shower. I don't know why it is so, but it is really debilitating, discouraging and puts me in despair when i compare my current life with the previous one in terms of when I didn't worry about these thoughts at all.

[@Quazi-moto]

You say the only thing that causes our suffering is a lack of awareness. In my case, it's the exact opposite. It's the awareness that I have maybe 20 years left, if I'm lucky, the knowledge that I am going to go through the act of dying, knowing I will be powerless to stop it (wondering if it will hurt, will I suffer etc., doesn't help in the least!), and perhaps worst of all is the awareness that I will never again BE aware of anything. I'm nearly positive it will be the exact same as before I was born -- just pure nothingness... non-existence... and that terrifies me, even though I understand it's not like this feeling will be with me past death. But I WILL feel it all the way up until losing consciousness right before those last couple of brain waves fade away. It's also the awareness that I will never again see any loved ones or friends that have died, that we are all just going into the Great Nothing for all of eternity. Just for the sake of understanding my position better, let me say that I believe in a creator (deist, or perhaps agnostic-theist), but not in the supernatural sense; and I don't believe we're lucky enough to have an afterlife. I get that birth and death are natural; even the universe began and will end. But that knowledge only serves to worsen the feelings of "what's the point?" and "why go on?" I will have no children, so no future people will exist because of me. I am disabled, and therefore can't contribute to society as a whole. I have chronic pain that will be with me the rest of my days. I've withdrawn into myself so deeply and for so long that relationships have suffered, but I can't shake this damned feeling that it's all meaningless and pointless. You say coming to grips with those feelings is a good thing, and will lead to a better version of me, but my experience has been the reverse. I've been dealing with this for 5 years next month (after the passing of my mother, though I had the same feelings beforehand, after becoming disabled 12 years ago, also next month, just not as prevalent or as strong -- now they're all-consuming), and I have become the absolute worst version of me I could have imagined, short of being a criminal. But a years-long existential crisis with no end in sight seems more than a little cruel. I feel like death, being thrown into perpetual nothingness, is the ultimate punishment. I do realize death just IS, that's it's not truly a punishment since everything is born already on death row, but you can't help what you feel. I *hhhhhHATE* being able to ponder and having emotions and simply being conscious if all they are are avenues that only lead to feeling like absolute shit. They seem more like curses than the gifts I SHOULD see them as. I could go on and on, but will stop here.

[@Irispia97]

quazzie1 smoke a blunt hun

[@ibbylaun2194]

I feel you that scares me to ,but if you think about it ,everyone thinks like this at one point of there life,so we all are on the same boat

[@cliffkonkle3467]

@@Irispia97 That makes it worse.

[@somethingyousaid5059]

At some point my mortality finally became a reality to me. When it did it triggered an existential crisis in me that lasts to this day.

[@voice4animals2]

Something You Said Same

[@gabby2781]

Everyone’s talking about how their crying but the thing is I can’t even cry and I don’t know why

[@Chrome166]

I want to propose a slightly different perspective on this, based on my current existential thoughts. What if as a child, happiness is so easy because all of our needs are taken care of, and we don't have to participate in life any more than we want to? Later in life that freedom goes away, and our only option is to persevere through hardships in order to get what we want, to get our free time back. I think on some level we recognize this in our subconscious, and even if we accept death, we wonder, if our existence isn't for any real purpose other than our own subjective experience, then do we really have any certainty that putting up with the hard parts of life is worth it? If it's not objectively "worth it" then it's hard to really say if it's worth it to us, especially when life is particularly hard.

[@TheDiamondNet]

I can see how someone would think this as this used to be my thought on the matter too, and I still do believe that this plays some small role as there are occasional points in the day that certain expressions of emotions are not acceptable. But the correlation between aging and the dimming of joy is just a correlation and not a causation. This was one of the insights that I had during my experiences that I've talked about, as the joy of childhood was really the only thing even remotely like these experiences that I had ever experienced before. That innocence and depth of emotion never truly goes away, we just numb it out. We habitually obscure it from ourselves because there are parts of our emotions we never learned to properly integrate. Thus, these emotions are repressed and our disintegration saps us of energy, awareness, and the ability to be aware of our emotions in their full depth and breadth. What tends to happen is that we become used to reacting to reality (including our emotional experiences) in a certain way, and we learn to set up specific conditions for our happiness. Also, there is a cultural taboo regarding expressing emotions too freely. But on top of this, we feel as though we've already experienced everything because we get used to interfacing with and understanding reality in familiar ways despite the fact that every moment is 100% unique. So, our concepts insulate us from this reality.

[@Chrome166]

I definitely agree with that, and it was nice to see it spelled out in detail. Thank you for humoring my thought experiment. :)

[@TheDiamondNet]

Chrome166 :)

[@Fundemons]

I think that part of the problem is that we find too much meaning in production and doing, but not too often in being. Then the task is finished, and we don’t know what to do.

[@JustinSmith-yk2le]

Anyone experience this and suffer from depersonalization/derealization??

[@DayZJ]

Justin Smith Yeah after hardcore weed use for me

[@KTlevine07]

Yes I’m just out the other side of having this. I was prescribed drugs and told I had a stress induced psychosis. I don’t truly understand what happened, but I have felt what you have felt. I have anxiety so I’m still unsure what to truly believe in.

[@alextrusk1713]

God yes

[@AmmoBops]

Justin Smith so here’s how it went for me December fucking 14th 2019 I had for some god damn reason became depressed...., and I still to this day don’t know why.... it’s February 29th 2020 anyways I don’t know why I became depressed... like if it was due to life circumstances, mindset, self esteem, Etc..... anyways I became depressed (for the first time in my life( which I didn’t know was depression until 2 months after) and instantly when I had my first depressed episode I started asking like “what’s the point of anything and why do we live right now and what’s the purpose of me doing anything or anything at all and telling myself that nothing has value and shit like that”....and because of that I started panicking and freakin the fuck out I had started to convince myself that I was going crazy, had schizophrenia, was turning into a murderer and all this type of shit... even just typing this lowkey scares me but fuck it... anyways I had starting have like anxiety attacks, (I don’t have an anxiety disorder even today, but I panicked so much that I caused myself to freak the fuck out) and I ended up getting depersonalization and feeling so fucking wierd and if i was in like a dream... so this is all in like January and I’m like fucking having existential thoughts, not feeling like myself, while also wanting to die all at once and also feeling as if I’m not real and that nothing was real, and vision problems due to the depersonalization ... I swear to god... I have never felt fucking worse... and now everything is starting to heal I’m pretty much done with depression... like a small episode once like a week in a half... and things are starting to feel more real and shit... but what’s kindve stayed/gotten worse becuase all of this came out of fucking nowhere in December and I had no warning or way out and pretty much I just had to fucking deal with it... no amount of complaing or freaking out is gonna make me feel better was the existential crisis and now I’m having to deal with this becuase I’m still freaking out how it was even possible for all that to happen to me like I live a great life I have friends, I’m grateful for everything I have, I have dreams etc... so it was kindve traumatizing to me especially because I had no idea of what depression was and thought my brain was fucking freaking out and going wacko and only figured it out after like 2 months... anyways so yeah I’m here now dealing with existential crisis because this was so out of nowhere and out of my control and shattered my innocence

[@cheeks6310]

Yes. From the age of 11 when I realised I would not exist at least in this form one day. It went on until 33 when I found meditation yet it still gets triggered by certain things.

[@susymansilla8759]

Living just scares me..But dying does too-

[@businesslp3027]

MxxnLxght breeze 🎯

[@jman7306]

[My interpretation of the saying “Every drop fills the sea”] Say that you are a drop of water in the ocean. Now, it might seem small and insignificant, but imagine if there were no drops of water in the ocean. There would be no ocean, right? The ocean is beautiful and mysterious and filled with life. You, that small drop of water, are apart of this. You get to experience all the wonders of the ocean. We are all in this together, we all have to roll with the waves. When the sun sets on the shore so to speak, it will be okay because we had the opportunity to get a glimpse of something so magnificent.

[@Irispia97]

Jasmin V brilliant

[@calroach1]

I agree 100%. Although life may be meaningless I am enjoying this experience. Is that having my cake and eating it too?

[@Bambim8]

Why should it matter if the ocean exists? To be or not to be? There is no difference.

[@katenka_ana3997]

only problem is that for some the ocean is beautiful & fun , while others suffer to no end - for what? Just for the sake of it? Why can't we just end it? that is the core issue

[@EmilyPorter]

This kind of thinking is unable to soothe those in a deep existential crisis because the descriptors beautiful, mysterious, magnificent, and wonder(ful) are merely judgements or abstractions in the state. Even if such a person still feels these feelings on some level they wonder why, like the video example of "fun" at the theme park. In this way the ocean can actually become a source of confusion, perplexity, weirdness, overwhelm, fear, and terror to the experiencer. There seems to be something about abstracting, dissociating from life that makes it incomprehensible, frightening, depressing, or neutral and something about being engaged, grounded, in the body, in the feeling state that makes it feel comprehensible, natural, intrinsically safe, fun, and meaningful. It's not that thinking is bad, but when it gets imbalanced everything goes to shit. Ironically it seems to get imbalanced because feelings can be so difficult we can't handle them and try to escape them and the body and existing altogether. In the video she speaks of fear of death, but all survival fear/trauma is generically fear of death as far as the body is concerned. So even fear of life/emotional/mental overwhelm is fear of death biologically speaking.

[@positivenegative6525]

I am a year into this and I feel that it’s the peak of my existential crisis. I am the type to get up and go when I feel this way. Life is short. What triggered it was a fear of death which now I’ve learned to accept. The fear didn’t leave, it only turned into a fear of regret. I fear that my future self won’t be acceptant of what I think of now as doing right.

[@hollibrooks7350]

I have had this since I was 12 and I'm 24 now and never knew how to explain it in actual out loud language. I lived all these years thinking I was just some depressed psycho person all alone in the world with no one who understands ! So this definitely gave me hope and made me feel a lot better about this and more educated ! Thanks

[@TheDiamondNet]

Thank you for leaving this comment. This is one of my main motivators for putting out my content, as I know from personal experience that having these kind of experiences can feel really isolating and make people feel like weirdos. And most people are ill-equipped to listen or give advice to those experiencing these types of internal crises. So, I'm very glad that my video has been of help to you! :D

[@ConciousConstruct]

I'm pleasantly surprised to see someone as thoughtful as you. I don't think a person can be fully at peace with death. They can only be less upset by it. Death is almost always a violation of will. I don't think we should give up on the idea of purpose and importance. We know that the purpose of life is to be happy and we go about it differently. So using science we know that certain things make us happier than others. It should be our goal to do those things. Having a mindset that has goodwill towards others makes us happier. For me personally, I want to help end the world's dependence on fossil fuels so I can help make energy cheaper and save animal and human lives from the effects of global warming. This is a goal that comes from a place of goodwill which is a mindset that makes me happy and thus it is important and purposeful.

[@chrstina]

but you see: what's the point of saving humanity and the planet when it's all going to die anyways? what's the point of happiness?

[@kennethhoopaugh8375]

Happiness isn't the point. Happiness is an experience along the way that you will eventually begin to recognize easier and attain more often when your purpose becomes to simply just experience life in every wavelength it reaches you in. Feel every emotion it can bring. Hear, see, smell, feel, taste and perceive everything of every moment in a subjective way and you will find path of least resistance which is probably the road to happiness. Just let go. Feel it and then let go. There's no need to control it. There's no need to control anything but your response. That's what will give you the power over your perception and peace over your mind.

[@RockerWelez]

I've been going through an existential crisis due to anxiety and depression... and nothing has helped me like this video, thank you SO MUCH!

[@TheDiamondNet]

I'm happy to hear that my insights have provided some relief. It's a hard road, but it leads to a better place.

[@Celestials1aurora]

The Diamond Net is there a way I can talk with you? Like do you have Instagram?

[@that20sshow32]

His video makes me feel like I’m not the only one

[@9000ck]

This is one of the most unexpected and surprisingly insightful videos on youtube.

[@allenmorgan4309]

We never truly live until we are willing to embrace oblivion.

[@sagezin1111]

Allen Morgan for some reason that drew out a chuckle in me

[@pickletarts8196]

You nasty :P

[@Lazzie_the_Psilocybe_Deity]

Allen Morgan YO! TRUCKFIGHTERS!

[@koolashok88]

"We never truly live until we are willing to embrace oblivion" - Allen Morgan Such a quote it is.

[@soulofshiver]

Morrowind was better.

[@livingstonnyomah6882]

Thank god im not the only one because I almost passed away once I thought deep into death my childhood almost broke thank u

[@casinobeachbum]

Everything can be summed up in one idea : fear of death and the unknown. Once one gets over that, one has allowed themselves to be OK with the Universe/Source Creator spawning you and taking care of you here on Earth and "beyond". Almost all of one's motivations are from fear of death : careers/jobs, "making money", religion-beliefs, group-participation, "healthy" lifestyles of exercise and "diet", consumerism/materialism/hedonism ... you get the point?

[@boysteacher3818]

Yeah that is your own opinion. Just another possible thought bubble you made based on your interpretation and analysis of the observations you had experienced in this realm of reality.

[@katenka_ana3997]

@@boysteacher3818 What else is he supposed to do. Just sit and watch?

[@boysteacher3818]

@@katenka_ana3997 No, but you can reduce the suffering in the world by being an effective altruist.

[@elliotgale470]

I used to have existential crisis experiences all the time, now its like every day I wake up more and more to the truth of reality (or unreality as it were). these videos really help me understand what's going on. the universe truly is astounding.

[@TheDiamondNet]

Reality certainly is amazing. I'm glad to hear that my videos have been of help. :D

[@gomez3357]

I’m 11 I’m not trying do none of that I want these thoughts gone

[@lararule]

I have felt this for a long time. I'm only 13 now but I am truly pondering the point of it all. The one thing that I am sure of though is that we are here so let's live. I went to a talk and the guy wanted to go to Antarctica and doing a health check before going he found that he had a weak heart and needed a pacemaker. He would've had a heart attack within a few weeks if he didn't get that check. The point is that you just need to live life right now. If you want to do something please just do it. Life is truly short. I'm still not sure why we're all here but I have become content with the fact that I am here and I'm just going to help the world as much as possible. I really want to become a vet so I find that my purpose is to help animals and just generally be a good person. I know this was long but I just want everyone to know that you're not alone and you ARE special. ❤️

[@kwa_nguyen]

but what if I want death? as I feel that would just end everything. the thinking mind. the ego. the wants. the needs. the struggles. the happiness. It would be nothingness. no peace. no joy. no happiness . no sadness. just blank.

[@TheDiamondNet]

Well, I would say that underneath the lack of wanting anything, there is likely a desire to get away from something. I don't know if I can relate personally, so this is just my interpretation. Take it with a grain of salt. But lately, I've been feeling this weird rawness and panicky feeling in letting go of many of my crutches and meanings that I've assigned to things. Like, not suicidal and wanting death. I still want to live. But there's also this feeling of being trapped in living this life. Not because my life is bad or anything. But it's this feeling of the only escape being death or enlightenment, and being at the mercy of unwanted experiences and the constant changing of circumstance, people, and emotions. Like, I don't know if I can do this cycle of ups and downs for another 50 years. That's overwhelming to me to think of right now. So, sometimes the thought that I will one day die feels like relief. Like, this too shall pass. But I think the reason why I have this trapped feeling is because I'm still holding on to certain meanings and I want certain outcomes to happen. This is how I've been used to defining happiness, so I still have a hard time letting go even though I know that external successes can't bring lasting happiness.

[@kwa_nguyen]

thanks for the response, sis. yeah i feel exaxtly the same. i read and listen to eckhart tolle and i know he says that the ego wants to expand and feels its not good enough .. then you got guys like tim ferris and tony robbins who promote expanding and improving so you can get the best life you can have. But i just feel likes its this never ending chase. we will never be fulfilled. So how about i practice just being present and not identifying with my ego's want to make more money, buy the material things and go on holidays and have sex with hot girls and have fun with friends etc etc... but to let go of all that is so hard.. I am surrounded by that. the culture i am in. the people i am around. this western world and society. (sydney australia) I know that its a balancing act ..and we must use the ego in this reality . its our shell that we use to get through life and interact with people around us and make things happen and create etc.. But like you said.. its so dam tiring. this balancing act. I just dont want any part of it i just want to be nothing because its easier and i know its also apart of my ego that just wants to give up and its cunning and self sabotaging.. I could go on with some more details but its almost like..i know what i know now. i wish i was ignorant and didnt know about my ego and eckhart tolle..like that guy in the matrix that wanted to get plugged back in.. But now that we know what we know.. it changes everything and it changes how we see life. Ive had 1 ego death through LSD..but i feel maybe i need to up it and try 5meo dmt like Leo from actualized and see what happens after that.. Im so confused lately and i go from being present and zen like to MY EGO FUKEN WANTS TO MAKE EVERYTHING MISERABLE WHATS THE POINT OF THIS SHIT ARGH!

[@christianmorgenroth1677]

funny that I found your comment now. I was just going to suggest maybe an ayahuasca experience. I'm seriously thinking bout it since many ppl seem to have found new meaning, direction and have rid themselves of negativity. let that thought grow in you and see how it feels. I know that's what I'm doing. 😊 cheers

[@kwa_nguyen]

3 months have passed... im doing much better these days. thanks for ur post.

[@lifecoachingtoronto]

Hi Kwa Nguyan. May I asked what helped you feel better? Your response will be highly appreciated :)

[@delanieseals1830]

Is anyone else suffering from an existential crisis, but also super motivated? I know that’s confusing. I disassociate and wallow in my fears of being forgotten, but at the same time I plan out my future and make sure I keep up with my school work and etc. I don’t know what’s wrong with me.

[@DaiBato]

I'm 61 and definetly going through an existential crisis. My dad is alive at 83 with prostate cancer; my mother died when she was 71 from ovarian cancer. I think my grandmothers died in their 80; my father's father died when he was 68 from a heart attack. I believe my mother's father died in 1950, but I don't know what from. Death scares the hell out of me and I sometimes wonder why I was even born. I try to take life one day at a time. I have no pain in my body, my blood test showed no cancer. I don't need a cane, a walker or a wheelchair. I have no fake joints or metal in my body, never required surgery on my chest, have ten fingers and ten toes, and I snap my fingers to appreciate the present moment. Although the passage of time has probably always stayed the same, I look at my watch with alarm as the seconds tick, tick, tick away. I am not now nor ever was a celebrity.

[@shelbyslough484]

Thinking of you

[@gummibears27]

I've been struggling with this since I was young. I like how you admit in your videos that the spiritual path is not easy and often pretty intense depression and anxiety is a big part of it. People think if you start meditating and all you'll just get more and more happy. It takes a long time to get there and you must walk through incredibly dark spaces along the way.

[@TheDiamondNet]

Thank you. :) It definitely does get to be very intense. There have been times in my life where I've felt like I've fallen into a hole and couldn't get myself out. But it really is all part of the journey. Best of luck on yours! :)

[@wrangter]

thank you so much for this. i experienced my first existencial crisis in freshman year of high school, but a bigger identity crisis swallowed it and i was able to get over it. after that it was smooth sailing until freshman year of college, last year, when i started having these thoughts again and i hadn't been able to shake them for months. this video helped me so much, it's been about three hours since i watched and i can already feel the change in my thoughts. i'll definitely keep this saved for when i start having thoughts again, and you have a new subscriber!

[@TheDiamondNet]

That's wonderful to hear that it's made such a difference. Existential crises can be total monsters.

[@wrangter]

The Diamond Net they really can be :( i just went through the day thinking nothing i did mattered and when i tried talking to my friends about it they just didn’t understand or thought i was using the expression to exaggerate. i don’t know why it took me so long to look it up on the internet but i’m really glad i did!

[@mylie864]

I had a dream last night, where I saw my younger self, and I realised that person I used to be is dead. And I woke up thinking, why don't I take care of myself, at all. I don't, and I woke up counting things that make me happy, so I can do them from now on. And as the day passed, I just can't connect anything with anything. I feel void, and burdened at the same time. And yes, significance is key. So many I'm not significant to. That's still ok. I haven't even been considering my own self very significant almost ever at all. What is going on. And it's so awful that I'm actually sharing it on a KZbin comment instead of with someone I know.

[@potatoshaga]

Im 11 right now and ive been having this. I feel trapped and my chest starts to collapse on it self. What do i do? Im so scared of dying and feeling nothiness for ever. Its not the purpose of life, its the fact that i will die one day and i cant stop it. In the geological scale of times, 80 years is a tiny blip in the cosmic timeline. :(

[@potatoshaga]

I feel like i dont know what to do. Im see these records of kids doing things at young ages. Then im like im too old to break it. Then i look at the records that are hard and i cant do it. I look at my mom and i realize the capability she had as a child. Then i realize im that child and i want to do everything that most people cant. But i cant.

[@anthraxdonuts]

Potato Shaga I have felt the way you have for as long as I can remember. Especially from ages 11-13. It's that whole deal about not measuring up to others. And the longer you lament on the fact that someone your age is doing better than you, the more you realize your own inadequacies. It will get you stuck it you let it. Your life is your story and no one else's.

[@EMILY-ek2vx]

I feel the exact same as that and I’m 11

[@lorenzo399]

Thank you for taking the time to make this video

[@DaAutumnLeafMassacre]

Ive faced my existential crisis head on many times and its leading me, day to day, more towards committing suicide. I dont understand how you can deny the negative emotion it raises. I truly dont see a point why I would go on instead of just ending it, there would be no difference if I did, its just cutting the ride short.

[@focus-nct1279]

me too omg

[@Logan-kh8bi]

Really hope that you’re ok.

[@kennethhoopaugh8375]

You don't have to repress your emotions. You are going to have them. It's just going to happen. Just experience the feeling and leave it. There's more to understand about the need to not understand.

[@tommyp.7108]

I concur. I'm planning on committing suicide the day before or after my graduation of high school. Let alone my philosophical positions on consciousness, I just do not want to handle life and the effort it entails.

[@anna-fx6ok]

@@tommyp.7108 I will probably never fully understand your reasoning and the thoughts you must be having since I am on the other side of the spectrum and currently very much afraid of death. I just hope you are in a safe place right now. Your life does not have to be led by anyone that isn't you and you can decide your own efforts (instead of comparing yours with the ones others might have)

[@NitinSingh-xr7ft]

I had a painless existential crisis while in my freshman year at college. It was more like questioning my pre conceived notions and getting closer to reality. I kept wondering, what's real and what's not for about a year. I got all of my answers and that existential crisis wasn't even close to being called a crisis. That pursuit for truth was enlightening, enrichment and quite pleasurable. Now, I am out of college. I passed that entire time living in a fantasy land, despite knowing the true nature of existence. It was as if I was aware but untouched by it. That brings me to today. The mild sweet existential crisis that I had all along during my stay at lala land has now come back like a raging hurricane. It has hit me so hard that I am in a state of panic 24x7. Now I feel this existential crisis exploding in the deepest yards of consciousness. Whole of my existence is shaken. I can see myself following the same path in the far future as the other 7.4 billion people in the planet. I am not significant or important. I will probably fulfill none of the fantasies and desires which I breathed day in and day out, while my stay at lala land. I don't know why it was happening. I was a carefree happy go lucky sloth before the crisis. I am now a carefree depression maniac. I have read that existential crisis is common among intelligent people. Well, I am smart enough to realize that the crisis itself is mundane but I can't stop it. There is no way to cover the ultimate truth which I uncovered myself in the quest for the ultimate meaning. The ultimate meaning is that it's all meaningless. There are no more questions left to ask. I know, understand and feel the ultimate truth. It's exceedingly painful but liberating at the same time. I don't need any more answers for existentialism is the final answer to all questions unanswerable. The truth is starting me right in my face but I want to live like I lived before the crisis. I wish I were normal again, and go back to carelessly exploring other answers but the ultimate answer now prevents me from searching for them. The crisis is never ending. So, I looked for remedies to get rid of this crisis. I read, watched tons of material on the very matter but the crisis didn't end. Then, I stumbled upon your video. Now, I understand. I was meant to have this crisis. Like you said, it's like a fire spiraling outward, burning our meaningless illusions, thus liberating us from our naive concious selves. It's the milestone I have to cross to attain a higher consciousness, which is much closer to reality. Your video was a great help. It didn't solve the crisis but it did answer a question, I didn't even bother to ask, because I was blinded by the terrifying ultimate truth. The question is why am I having the existential crisis in the first place? You showed me the way to find a answer to that question. Obviously, that answer won't stop the crisis but hopefully cause a smooth sinking of this excruciating painful truth into my conscience and hence, transition out a new higher consciousness in me. So, really thanks a lot. And yes, one more thing. You are really cute. In addition to that, your wisdom makes you highly attractive.

[@justhereforthemoment4001]

sometimes I noticed how ridiculous Simple Things Are .. like driving.. when somebody else is driving the car and you're in the passenger seat just notice how many times cars get very close to you..

[@arturofm]

You should be a psychologist. You remind me once more than the more intelligent we become, the more questions about life we ask, the less happy we become

[@domcruise3905]

thank u for this. going through this exact thing

[@pickletarts8196]

How are you now, one year later?

[@rumpsugg]

ye how are you?

[@AnthonyHeadway]

I been lately fearing the unknown again and been paranoid thank you for this video

[@somethingyousaid5059]

Anger is one thing, but rage is another. Existential Rage. Nobody asked me if I wanted to be brought into this fucked up world. Somebody else made that decision for me. Excuse me if I resent the hell out of the fact that somebody else was not only able to, but was also _willing_ to, make that decision for me. Excuse me if I think it's goddamned unfair that my straitjacket of a life (in this insane asylum of a world) was forced on me. - Sorry about the profanity, but I didn't want to cheat the honesty. -

[@K87jk]

Bruh,that "Hi" at the begining was dope asf 😂😂

[@ghilanna5816]

Thank you so much. I'm 11 and going through an existential crisis and this is really helping

[@TheDiamondNet]

I'm glad to hear that it's helping. Right around the pre-teen years, there's a lot of expansion in awareness of how you as a particular individual fit in with the rest of society. During this time, you'll like be making major decisions as to how you are going to be and coming face to face with new aspects of reality. So, existential crises and tender emotions tend to come up in times of growth and transition.

[@coldcreeper1196]

iiNxbula same here

[@calebadam3537]

iiNxbula I am 12 and I feel like life is just pointless and just want to die but I am afraid of death and know it will cause pain to others

[@calebadam3537]

bruce wyatt good point bye everybody

[@xomosmanifestos4580]

iiNxbula Awwwh, How cool are you?(haha) Pretty Cool I would say!! When I was your age I was questioning everything too..I think it's awesome that you are so curious at such a young age..You are already on your way to enlightenment ..Just imagine how much insight you are going to have in the future..Just know that you are always loved and protected from the universe and beyond..peace & love

[@CRWTHTV]

im 5 minutes in and every single thing she said down to car accidents is exactly what has gone through my mind

[@frangy0347]

The only point of my life is the enjoyment of others and the only way I enjoy life is by going home and seeing my dog but when she goes I dont think I will be able to carry on. I see my dog every day and when I eventually dont see her I will not want to live. I will go home and think I cant wait to see my dog and then I will realise that she wont be there. She is the only reason I wont kill myself but it will end and I will eventually kill myself because I always think that I have not killed myself yet because she is there making it worth it but nothing else makes me as happy as she does. Meaning if I dont find somthing else that makes me happy like I am when I see her then I will die. If you think its just a dog then you should know that she has been like my family to me. she is all I need.

[@damar_u0_angki908]

Harry Frangleton awesome

[@tomorrowaboutthistime2958]

Cat

[@shannencharter2873]

Hey man you should get a new dog when your dog dies

[@lucafrattini2484]

It's not the occasional existential crisis that worries me, it's filling that existential vacuum that I find most vexing! ✌😎

[@charisthomas3300]

I really appreciate and enjoy listening to your videos, I've experienced so much of what you have talked about, I really thought I was going crazy and was going to have to go on medication, which is what a lot of Western society would have deemed appropriate. It's so sad but in our Western culture awareness of how fake we all are is frowned upon. I'm not a conspiracy theorist but I don't think this is an accident. I'm just glad that I'm not alone in this experience and there are people having a similar experience and we can share that online and not feel crazy or so lonely.

[@cocoquake]

I can relate a lot to you. I was 11 when I had my first existential crisis. I grew up Catholic and started to question the existence of God and what really happens when we die. I eventually started identifying as agnostic and here I am again at 18 and about to start college. I always had this constant thought of "Am I enjoying my life? Am I doing the right things?" but I always decided to brush them aside until now when it's just collapsed onto me

[@TheDiamondNet]

Existential crisis can be difficult to deal with. The main thing is to just keep seeking more clarity and Truth and not get hung up on any of the negative thoughts and fears that come up. Rest assured, if it feels bad then it's not the Truth. So, never despair. Illusion is the only thing that makes an existential crisis a crisis.

[@kennethhoopaugh8375]

Shhhhhhhhhhh, everyone........... just listen. Just listen. Don't react. Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhh Just listen. Don't think about your thoughts. Just have them.

[@freemancarl]

*FEELINGS. VERY INTERESTING!* It defines existence. It influences choices both inside & out of this body.

[@Mr2sack]

Thank you for this video

[@lazerone6737]

I was flicking through videos, happily, blissfully ignorant of my own mortality. Then I randomly flicked to this.... now it’s triggered an existential crises, I’m riddled with anxiety and questioning every construct I previously just took for granted. Now I’m listening to In Utero by nirvana , and contemplating reality

[@TheDiamondNet]

Sorry to give you the nudge. It can be difficult but it can also catalyze a lot of growth and awareness that wouldn't otherwise be possible.

[@lazerone6737]

The Diamond Net I sort of commented toungue in cheek. I think I had a ten year long existential crises in my 20s , but not in the way that was depressing. I came accross your video whilst looking for something my girlfriend could draw some hope from . She’s currently going through one that has led to hospitalisation a couple times due to suicidal depression and major anxiety . I am not sure what could help her, was hoping your video might. I’m going to show her and hope she can draw some comfort from your experiences

[@justinbyam3972]

I can understand what you mean but just think of all the unrecorded forgotten lives since the first man.

[@rennie2438]

I relate to this on a whole different level. I'm still just 13. This hurts. A lot. I want the pain to pass, but it just keeps comming back. Now that I know I'm not alone, I feel a bit better. I still didn't have my realisation about death, and it'll be a long time before that for sure. Thank you. I started watching Echart Tolle. I reccommend his Channel. Thank you for reading. You'll get though this. You're doing great. Keep going. :)

[@tdoc2874]

I'm okay with being and never being significant. I just want to know what I am. There is a box beside me that is made of physical matter. My brain is also made of physical matter yet the box is not alive and is not experiencing. Sure, my brain has blood and fuel flowing through it, but that is not alive either. It seems as if my body is merely I/O servicing my awareness or life force or soul or WHATEVER. Imagine if all 5 senses were taken away from you and your entire memory erased. Every experience you ever had wiped. I'm technically still alive. Am I me still? If I relearn everything again am I still me or am I someone else? What am I? Everything in life just is. I am some sort of being, a presence. If there is a creator then everything has been created and as such, I might just be God experiencing the universe from my body's perspective. After all it must be pretty lonely being the creator so why not put myself into 7 billion of my creations with a clean memory slate and experience. All just because I felt like doing it. If I could just understand what or who I am then maybe I could find happiness.

[@kennethhoopaugh8375]

What you are is physical matter that undergoes a complex chemical process that leads to biological function. Who you are will come up in bits and pieces as you strive to exist and experience things in the most open and subjective way possible. Don't try to control or even focus on full understanding of why anything you feel or think at any moment is what you feel. Emotions are just going to happen. Thoughts are going to be in and out of your head everyday for the rest of your life. You don't have to understand every one of them. You don't have to react to anything you feel or think. You can control everything by not NEEDING to control anything but your response to your PERCEPTION of anything.

[@kennethhoopaugh8375]

Let it go or that stuff can drive you mad. Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Just feel. Just exist. Just experience.

[@sofiasalinas14]

Im in the same exact place that you are

[@Profoundshiftdevelopment]

I can´t believe more people haven´t seen this video, this helped me alot thank you so much.

[@TheDiamondNet]

You're welcome! I'm glad that it's been helpful. :D

[@DaAutumnLeafMassacre]

Even if you succeed in leaving a legacy, that legacy will also dissipate given enough time. Even an influential person like Albert Einstein will be forgotten eventually. At some point the human race is guaranteed to go extinct, and if you do not believe that, the universe is doomed to die out eventually, everything is in vain. There is no significance.

[@TheDiamondNet]

That's exactly what I said. That's why it's important to not attach significance (negative or positive) to anything. That includes not attaching negative significance to the emptiness of meaning and temporal nature of this reality. It's only the fact that you have not been able to let go of attaching negative meaning to non-meaning that makes you feel negatively about it. You've let go of only the positive meanings. But if you feel suicidal, I highly recommend speaking to someone about it. But the negative association with the lack of meaning in reality only comes from the fact that you have succeeded in letting go of positive illusions but failed to let go of negative illusions. Fears can be much more difficult to let go of.

[@DaAutumnLeafMassacre]

The Diamond Net I appreciate the comment! I have no fears just apathy for life.. Why do you call it a negative illussion? I percieve it more as the reality and thats why its so hard to deal with. Like you at tge theme park I lack the power to enjoy things anymore. Ignorance is Bliss

[@nymphy8812]

I know this is an old comment thread but i agree and/or relate with every comment here and i am experiancing serious and debilitating feelings that everything i do or experiance means nothing and that the universe is existing for no reason and i keep feeling like i gotta break out of this negative thought loop, maybe its just instinctual because its affecting my health (literally i get physically sick from this feeling and not only anxiety but i feel the need to throw up every five minutes when its real bad) but i cant see the reason in getting better because either way, its all meaningless whether i live like this or in a happier state... I like the comment The Diamond Net left about not attaching signifigance, negative or positive, to anything, it relieved a little of my anxiety, even though i dont see why i need to relieve anything...

[@MrsWest03]

You are so brilliant and beautiful. This is exactly what I needed. Then I clicked on your channel and was so thrilled to see more videos on topics that I've wondered about. I'm so excited to watch them. Thank you, seriously.

[@embertheasinine2336]

I just don't understand the point if we have no free will. (Thanks determinism, and naturalistic science!) Why should life matter? Why should we care? Why should we love? Why should we help others? I just don't understand.

[@TheDiamondNet]

Human minds believe that everything must be classified with a rationale for "why" something is valid. There is always a search for value, meaning, purpose, and an explanation for why something is worth existing. We're so used to thinking in a utilitarian way that we start to believe that something has to have a utilitarian purpose to 'merit' existing. It makes sense that we do this, because all things in human society have to have some kind of purpose or value within the context of that society to warrant their existence. However, when we look at reality itself, reality is the context. So, the question becomes "What is the context that makes this reality valuable?" Then, we can find no context for it to have value within. And all the "Why?" questions stem off of this realization that reality has no context to measure its value up against. And many people go into existential crisis mode in this realization. But the existential crisis comes from partial unawareness. A person has become aware that reality is meaningless, purposeless, and empty of value. But the person has not become aware that meaning, purpose, and value are just constructs of the human mind. They have not become aware that the human mind simply cannot fathom of reality in that way. So, they understand the truth that "reality is empty of meaning/purpose/value." as a very negative thing. But reality is so valid beyond all meaning. The human mind can never UNDERSTAND the depth of validity that reality has. But it can be experienced with enough awareness. Existence simply is. You simply are. And by virtue of your very existence, you are valid as you are a thread in the tapestry of infinity. Infinity would not be complete without you existing just now. I wish I could somehow give everyone that experience, so they can feel how value/meaning/importance/significance have nothing to do with their validity.

[@laurenpatricia411]

I want to thank you so much for this video as I had a major existential crisis during my third pregnancy. I thought I was going to die and became obsessed with death. I was freaking out and had a psychotic breakdown. after my daughter was born I had a spiritual awakening. I found meaning to life in my search for truth.

[@TheDiamondNet]

You're welcome. I'm glad that my video has been helpful to you. When I was in high school, I was having a major existential crisis for years where I was totally obsessed with death. I was afraid that my life would always be dominated by it. It was like a horror movie was constantly playing in my mind, giving me macabre images of my own death from the first-hand perspective and other's deaths and sufferings. It was only when I had my awakening experiences that I actually got out from under it literally in one fell swoop, though going to college did help distract me from it a little bit. I'm glad that you've been able to have an awakening. I think that existential crises tend to apply a pressure that often skyrockets people into awakening experiences. Eventually, something has to give, as these types of crises only come about through unwillingness to see the Truth and clinging to tightly to attachments. You can only resist Truth for so long until something finally pops.

[@laurenpatricia411]

I couldn't agree with you more! I am so happy to meet and hear about other people's awakening experiences. It's great to hear your story, I appreciate another's perspective :)

[@RatZapTshirt]

Thanks for laying out an obvious truth: that significance/insignificance is itself a meaningless distinction, ultimately insignificant (ha ha).

[@FreeJulianAssange23]

Andrew Akers ha ha I love it also significance is insignificant

[@rickyv8709]

The thoughts, feelings, and views you shared in this video seem a lot like my own. I was around 16 when I first began getting "existential thoughts", the same time I started drawing and painting as a primary hobby. I've always been a bit of an artist and a thinker, but I unexpectedly lost someone who was very, very close to me around this time, and I went into a deep state of reflection for a while in response. I personally don't fear being forgotten, as I'm sure that won't matter much to me in death. I draw/paint because I have nothing else to do with all these meaningless, metaphysical thoughts that keep running through my mind. What you said at 6:37, I do as well. Just last week I was walking around my college's library and I thought to myself, I could sit and study for a couple of hours, then drive some 30 minutes back home. But if I let myself fall in the middle of the library right now, I could land in the driver's seat of my car, immediately crash into the side of my house, and be back in my bed before I know it. It's meaningless nonsense that just crowds my brain. I'm not looking for any sort of significance or purpose in my life, I'm sure that will come to me as I grow older, but I do find myself fixated on trying to find meaning in things. By "things" I mean items, interactions, situations, environments, anything that occurs. An ant walked across my desk once and I laid there staring at it for probably two minutes, completely lost in thought. It's strange. I don't think I'm going through an existential crisis, I do experience constant existential thoughts, but they don't make me feel uneasy or depressed in any real way. I'll sulk in them and maybe feel imaginary for a moment, but the feeling goes away as fast as it comes. I took LSD two times in 2020 and I remember falling into a three-hour long silence my second time, I laid in bed, and just let my mind run. I don't get to talk about this often, but I think it relates to the whole "existential thoughts" topic, so I'm gonna talk about it here. I'm pretty convinced I suffered from hallucinogen-persisting perception disorder (HPPD) for about a year and a half after my last experience with LSD. I don't know if it's possible to develop HPPD after only taking the drug two times. If any of you know more about this disorder, and don't think my experience aligns with symptoms of HPPD, I would love to hear your thoughts because I still have no idea what all of this was about and it's one of the most confusing experiences I've had. I'm only identifying this experience as HPPD because I'm not sure what else it could be. It started happening around three months after my last experience with LSD, and it persisted for several months after. I haven't had an "episode" since last summer, so I'm assuming this is over now. I want to apologize in advance because I am aware of how this description is going to sound. During this time, about once or twice a week, randomly out of nowhere, an incredibly abstract image would appear in my head, what felt like a memory but was nothing I could recognize. Upon "remembering" this "memory", I would get incredibly light-headed, all the sound around me would momentarily fade into the background, and I would be overwhelmed with incredible feelings of dread, hopelessness, and a humbling nostalgia at the same time. All while my mind is involuntarily trying to articulate what this "memory" is or where it could come from. The feeling is very similar to the brief sensation you get when you stand up too fast, but it's many times stronger and impossible to ignore. These episodes would last maybe 30 seconds at most, and once they were over I would completely forget what the "vision" or "memory" was, and I would be unable to picture it in my head again. I remember having one of these episodes in the shower and having to lay down on the floor for a moment because I felt so incredibly disconnected from my environment. It wasn't just one specific "image" or "memory" that I would see either, there were about a handful of them. Like I said, I don't remember what any of these "memories" were exactly, but I can come up with an example for reference: A static image of a brown horse that could suddenly "transform" into the ledge of a building if viewed from a certain angle, the angle never changes, yet you can still somehow tell the horse could "transform" that way if the angle were to change. The background is dark and cast in a shadow, you can sort of make out a large, red curtain in the distance. The horse is staring at something out of frame very seriously, you can feel how deeply the horse is staring at whatever it is, you have no idea what it could be, yet you feel like you know, though you just don't. A completely surreal and incomprehensible scene. I would say that I had around 30 of these episodes in total. I've considered the possibility of all this being some sort of fictitious disorder, because of how strange the whole thing was, and I guess that could still be the case, but it all felt completely real to me. I have another theory that this could all be related to some sort of unknown early memory I may have repressed. I know that LSD has been used in therapeutic settings to treat instances of trauma like PTSD, so, could I have unknowingly unpacked something when I did LSD back then? Could I be seeing fragments of a memory that I maybe only "stored" emotionally, but not visually or audibly? I'm not sure if that makes much sense.

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Justin Pratt 🎯

[@tommyp.7108]

Because there is nothing to be happy about.

[@joehinojosa8314]

An existential crisis is when you get a "peek" at REALITY. When you're the only one that REALIZES,WE ALL IN THE MATRIX! 🔴 🔵

[@EmyajNosdrahcirEniacSovereign]

Thankfully death is an temporary optional choice, that was made into a great deception telling us that it is forced upon us or is unavoidable. Death wishes that everyone in all worlds believed, that people stay down forever when they die. And that everyone cannot become invincible from being affected by death for any reason. And That you can still find God in mainstream beliefs, or in the copied scripts of today by their altered details I am Glad to have found your Channel The Diamond Net, and indeed you do good work, not to give you a big head either of course. Some of your understandings may be conflicting with mine, but nevertheless i am glad to let that fail, from influencing me negatively about anyone, thus i am looking forward to your next videos, likewise to any other people i find speaking their findings from experience.

[@TheDiamondNet]

Thank you! :) I like your writing. Death is one of those tricky illusions that seems to be so negative from our limited perspectives. But with enough awareness, we can realize that nothing is truly lost in death. Thanks again for watching!

[@EmyajNosdrahcirEniacSovereign]

The Diamond Net Indeed, and thank you for finding these words likeable.

[@discoteque7768]

Why do we need to experience many existencial crisis to expand? Why do we even need to expand? Who decided the rules of the game in the first place? Why can't we just live? Why do we need to constantly seek for happinees? Why do we need to grow our awareness? I see, I am just resisting to flow. Why do I even have a mind that leads me to mistakes? Why does life alow me to ask these questions if they are meaningless?

[@bodytoxic98]

Thank you so much! I'm currently going through Kundalini Syndrome and this surely helped my existential roller-coasters.

[@TheDiamondNet]

You're welcome. I'm glad that my video has been of help to you. It's one of my main goals for my channel to help people who are having difficulties after spiritual awakenings and other similar issues (existential crisis/dark night of the soul/etc.), by helping them not feel so isolated and alone in their experiences and to help people regain their bearings in reality and help them assimilate the experiences better. So, I'm glad to hear that you've found this video at the right time. :)

[@TheMoonKingdom]

I've had many existential crisis, as you say; the most profound coming from the death of my mother a few years ago. It was like the ice broke under my feet; I felt groundless. It was ultimately positive though, as it lead me to search for truth, whether I liked the answers or not. Anyway, your childhood sounds similar to mine in some ways. Bye the way; will you be posting the Google hangout on Astral Projection? I missed the last 20min or so:)

[@TheDiamondNet]

Thank you for watching! Loss of loved ones are common catalysts for existential crises. Actually, the Google Hangout from the other day was accidentally set to public. I didn't realize that I was live streaming while we were recording. I turned red as a beet afterward because my son woke up fussy right at the end of the conversation and I had to bring him out to finish up. :D But I will be posting our conversation (without the fussy baby part) on Wednesday.

[@TheMoonKingdom]

Fussy babies are the unvarnished truth; emissaries of reality. Even if you keep that part to yourself; I'd bet the section with your son pure lightning in a bottle:)

[@TheDiamondNet]

***** Haha! Nah... I'm going to edit it out. I might have opted to keep it in but he was really loud and trying to pull open my shirt to nurse at the very end. Thank goodness he was unsuccessful. XD

[@SusannaSaunders]

I thought I'd share one of my poems called The Bruise of a Smile. Written on the 20th June 1993. (No.176) Does the bruise of a smile Rest upon me? Eyes that look on emptily, Without comment, Against life's Inevitable passing by. A silent pretence of remembrance, Enacted boldly for posterity To embrace, But once. Enmeshed in the lost-of-now. Reliving those cherished sharing's Between two hearts - shared. It is not the same. Loss embitten's the sunset, The music, The wine, The soul. Until the heart is rung, Stifled by despair. There is no gentleness. No soft goodbye, Or farewell, Sweet of the smell of lavender. That which was cherished Has passed, If not forsaken. For the knowledge of parting Severs the hearts chord. Banished to tears instead, Where pillows, Lie damp.

[@TheDiamondNet]

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[@gillbeatsisback01]

The Diamond Net nice synthetisation almost all the way to the end ,too bad the solution wasn't effective for me,all you do is strenghtening that feeling through neuroplasticity.very nice effort for the rest terror management theory and all you have a sub from me.

[@TheDiamondNet]

Thank you. :) If you let me know what specifically didn't work, I can look from another angle that might resonate more with you. This is definitely a topic to approach gradually, otherwise it could be overwhelming. Perhaps, if you had some coping mechanisms to give a sense of having more control in the situation and the ability to disengage with the topic if it becomes too stressful emotionally. Kind of like, learning how to swim by staying next to the edge of the pool, so you can grab a hold of it if you feel like you've lost control, as opposed to jumping right into the deep end.

[@gillbeatsisback01]

The Diamond Net thats the problem i cant disengage with the topic, in my mind this set of realisations are the peak of human rationality nothing more relevant than this. and because i have structured myself to see the world as is ,my beliefs to be in the most calibrated to reality way ,i obviously seek answers from that "intelectual or cerebral registry",and in that registry there is no answer (remember that einstein quote that to solve a problem you have to get a superior perspective than the one that created it)what do you do if your problem is the human condition,no way to get above that as long as you dont become immortal or your self preservation instinct is subdued.Thats why those answers you listed distraction of attention and focusing your perspective to maintain your optimistic biases to keep yourself functional,the illusion of the continuation of conscience which is preached by religions,legacy,being remembered and i might add hedonism or living for pleasure are all of them cheap tricks even the pleasure one-if you want me to expand it i will-, its hard because i would bassically have to kill what my brain made me become,to unknow what i know (which is impossible, this need to order my whole being and behaviour based on what i believe is as strong as the self preservation,sex drive and other evolutionary forces)

[@TheDiamondNet]

The main thing to realize is that your intellectual realizations about the nature of existence, are still a limited human framework. So, the key to getting a higher vantage point, is to realize that thoughts are not actually of Truth. No spoken word is actually of Truth. These are just signs that point the way to Truth that are comprehensible to the human intellect. Many people use the example of the map or the finger pointing at the moon to illustrate this point. So, what you would really need to do is to transcend the ego, to get an actual glimpse of Truth beyond all appearances. And you would see the thoughts as they are, simply a tool for communication and understanding. But the thoughts will never be able to truly articulate Truth, even if you're experiencing it firsthand. Trying to put Truth into words is like trying to load Microsoft Word into a toaster. It's just not compatible. But you can point the way. And you can tell people what to avoid and what to subtract. So, I would say, understand that you truly know nothing for sure. Even if your framework fits very well, it is still a framework and thus is not of Truth.

[@gillbeatsisback01]

The Diamond Net i underestand somewhat where you're going,but i disagree .True, humans most likely dont have acces to an objective unaltered truth-there are no forests in the real world ,forests are a category,a human construct ,an entity which doesnt exist outside of a rational observer.I would argue truth,like time and other human constructs would not exist without us.But lets be pragmatic and reffer to "Truth" as an objective reality outside of human biases and limits. Now we have to aknowledge that even though you make the distinction between the map and the terrain to show that what we know is limited ,and is but a representation,and is distillied and distorted in the processing of information(so as to show my limit in underesstanding/which i could do the same to you/and we'd be in an endless debate as to the validity of what we know-then i would argue that we have to be pragmatic and see that even though we cant see an objective reality(what you call capital t -Truth),even though we cant see light outside of a certain spectrum,i would say it doesnt matter ,because evolution shaped us to have acces and enough processing ability to information that is relevent to the human condition:death,life,pleasure pain,company ,solitide etc are much more relevent; so even if i dont have acces to all of the potential knowledge,or all the human knowledge, i dont really need to,i as an organism have limited and faulty processing abilities ,fair enough,but in 2018 after having civilisations which i can study,psychology,evolutionary theory ,phisycs etc i can say i know all that is relevant and its a valid, but pessimistic conclusion i have drawn. My rationality caused me to see that life might not be worth living,because as im sure you know ,people need to feel as though"they are an individual with value in a world with purpose" in order to function.If not you short circuit that evaluatory-regulatory system of energy use which dictates which actions are worth using effort in order to undertake.Thats where Ernest Becker and TMT comes in: For me the continuation of consciousness which is sold by religions and wished by tehnology (and maybe by Walt Disney by freezing his head),is inaccesible ,because im not religious,and even if tehnology reaches that point in my lifetime i can guarantee only a select few will get to use it. Living to be remembered and to leave a legacy is kind of hard because,i see only mediocrity and oportunism and im otherwise disgusted by most of my fellow humans,needing years to see another quality person; And i know that ill be forgotten rather quickly(tell me if you know all your 8 great-grandparents' names) what can i say of titans like Shakespeare who changed the english lexicon ,which from an opera of more than a 100 works ,people usually know 10 at most. And the last source of purpose is living for pleasure,i think its needless to say that we live in a world where every living thing has its own interests and by default the fullfilling of yours comes rarely and with hardship,where the odds of your happiness are stacked against you,where even your constitution is against you,where the dopaminergic system is meant to give you a tendency to act (the pleasure of anticipating your goal is more pleasurable than when you achieve it),it makes sense evolutionarily speaking,in a world where everything evolves and wants to continue its existence mainly achieved through consuming another thing,in a world of dynamic evolution,where you have to run as much as you can ,to remain in the same place.Where even if you reach a fleeting moment of fullfillment and closure,its like a drop in an ocean .Where ,were you to seek pleasure from drugs, you would find that,in truth you cant do what you want,because the regulation of pleasure is one of societies main concerns- it seeks a functional,sustainable obtaining of pleasure (its rational if you think that people have to coexist in a group,this shows why cheating,stealing not just drug using ,are frowned upon). If youve heard of depresive realism,the biases that maintain human happiness and then what i wrote will be underestood correctly I hope i dont come off as standoffish, my purpose isnt to alienate you,but to find satisfying answers to my existential depression.

[@gatsharon6011]

I'm literally looking around at the world and thinking "this makes no sense, like no sense at all, who the fuck put me here?". And the funny thing is I've being living my whole life secure thinking all this is somehow reasonable, when it's not, and so many people think they know what's going on, when they have no clue. I'm either gonna laugh or cry about it.

[@TheDiamondNet]

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[@dylanjones9354]

Really loved the monster under the bed example. Just let it get you/accept reality, so to speak. That one part around 17:20 really resonated with me the most. Thanks for this video, really helped and reminded me to just accept it is what it is instead of trying to fight it.

[@timothyulmer8166]

if I make you my meaning is that a perjection?

[@VeraliekeBusman]

7:10 - 8:30 This really helped me: My trying to be significant, my trying to stand out, was a complete futile thing, because you can't really add significance to yourself in any kind of existential way. There was this deep sense of validity. I didn't need to justify my existence here. I was just here and that's valid, because it is what is. And what is, is what is. It wasn't that I suddenly felt significant. It was just that the idea of significance was just recognized as that: it was just an idea, just a false measuring tool. And so I transended the need for significance. And so this is the main issue of having an existential crisis. It's the fact that we want ourselves and our life to be significant, we want our lives to have meaning, purpose and value, but significance, meaning, purpose and value are not real: they're just the measuring tools of the human mind. They're frameworks, they're not reality itself. And 9:43-10:03: When we start to see there's no purpose at all, it's like taking a security blanket away from a child. We're so used to thinking about things in that way, that it becomes hard for us to cope, and then we start to panic and that's when an existential crisis sets in.

[@TheDiamondNet]

Glad it was helpful. :)

[@appledough3843]

Does this help you get out of an existential crisis?? Please let me know! Does it pass on its own? Will I go back to normal?

[@TheDiamondNet]

What has helped me deal with existential crises is increased awareness of reality and its truths. But increased awareness is also the cause of the existential crisis to begin with. So, as a small child, you are mostly innocent to the truths of reality. Many children don't even know about death until they're 5 or 6. So, learning about these aspects of reality raises up certain questions and problems. And existential crisis starts. And as a person becomes more and more aware, they come to accept the truths but new truths brandish themselves to which some are uncomfortable and react poorly with other beliefs. So, existential crisis has to do with how your beliefs about reality interact with insights about reality. So, the trick is to let go of beliefs that are false and react negatively with your observations and insights about reality. So, this video is a good first step.

[@appledough3843]

The Diamond Net I see. I also have heard that the cure is mindfulness. Is that true?

[@appledough3843]

The Diamond Net So I just let go of the belief that this reality is fake and stop thinking so deeply about it?

[@TheDiamondNet]

Mindfulness brings the "cure." When you're mindful, you see reality exactly as it is. And the truth of reality sets you free. But we cannot KNOW this truth with our mind, we can only experience it. The issue is that we come to believe that we "understand" and "know" with our intellect. But the intellect cannot fathom of the truth of reality. So, our interpretation is distorted and it creates the illusion that our beliefs are the Truth... but they cannot be by their very nature. The human intellect cannot wrap around reality. However, we are reality itself and we're always experiencing it. So, through mindfulness, we detach from the content of our thoughts and observe reality as it is. And as we become more aware, the Truth that we experience sets us free from ignorance and the beliefs that send us into existential crisis.

[@kobiporat62]

+The Diamond Net brilliant. I had a thought about this but couldn't put it in such a fine way!

[@niko-ni6ps]

This video Made me think: Does importance important? What's the purpose of purpose?

[@bozdogan_]

My existential crisis resulted with me finding God. Even tho my life until then was far from it and I was judgmental about this religion thing my search for reality made me research about it and learn it from its core not from general society that tells what religion is. From the words of God itself not from pope, priests or imams. Then i realised that it was misrepresented to us and it was different from what is told to us. Now i know why am i doing what i am doing. I am so glad that i started questioning what life is all about. Worth all the work, time and depression.

[@matthewtenney2898]

That's my story also.

[@Jacob-jz1pc]

Incredibly well articulated. I have binge watched about 10 other videos on the topic and none are as good/helpful as this one.

[@TopherJayy]

🤔I'm comfortable with death... after we die we are still here just in a different realm with our loved ones.

[@JuN0]

I'm currently going through this again after trauma of a very bad panic attack last month. I feel like I have dp/dr again and questioning everything and time / existence. I feel afraid to die yet the thought of living forever is an equally a scary thought , both cannot be comprehended. living a very long life maybe 200 years would be really cool to see how things advance and new technology / discoveries. Before I could think of these things and not let it affect my life, but I find myself rhuminating over them anytime I'm home for a period of time. I wish it didn't affect my life as it is now so I can enjoy things fully again. I have gone through this in the past about 4 yrs ago and was able to push through it. Nice vid btw appreciate your words .

[@mikehancock1157]

Just dealing with other people is a very very very traumatic experience for me. Lots of anxiety!! Depression. Insomnia. Sadness....and finally anger.😳😳😵😩😩😩😢😢😫😫💔💔💔💔

[@ClubNoiseband]

The first 10 minutes described me ...that’s why I can never do ‘creative visualization.’ Also tried Ayahuasca (im guessing) on my own at early age it helped but it wore off after a year

[@Fonzzz002]

I never really understood what people tried to ask with the question "what's the point of living if you're going to die anyway?". That's like asking what's the point of watching a movie of it's just going to end? The obvious answer: because you want to, of course. It's a good movie and worth the time. And if you don't want to live, that's where the real problem is and that's where you should focus. Why would you want an eternal life is you can't find the motivation to live a temporary one? That's like saying you hate chocolate and see no reason to eat it, then buying a lifetime supply of chocolate.

[@mpho438]

I think I might be going through an existential crisis. Lately I have been asking my self questions like "why we were born just to die someday", if we are just going to fade into non-existent, what is the whole purpose of it all. So I tried Answering that from a Religious perspective , with Religion we have the Afterlife, but even with that, why did we have to come here in the first place. Just so that die.

[@alexanderstyrlander7991]

Your storytelling abilities are fantastic.

[@Nia_was_here]

I am stuck in an existential crisis rn I just keep thinking, why do I even need to do this, or , what will happen if I die, what will I be then, what will people think of me and so on and I'm just in a loop this really helped me though

[@Irisdwc]

I am 14 I have been going through a existential crisis for the last 2 years, I believe iI have gone through it my mind set has not changed.

[@korytoombs886]

I didn't really start having thoughts about this until recently, and I'm 35. I fear the process of death. The pain, the knowledge of your death while your dying, what happens to your body after death.

[@etzenhammer]

Great video, thank you. I struggle a lot with these questions, being older now only makes it worse. If you break life down, it's only fear that is motivating every move and every thought. Fear of death is the ultimate terror. Why were we born into this? How are we supposed to handle this? The answer, after many years of pondering, is: nobody knows. Nobody can really help you with these questions. The abyss is real and once you've looked down, there is no coming back. So I decided that all of this is in fact completely absurd. There is no meaning in life, why would there be? It's absurd! But you know what... absurdity is also a lot of fun (as opposed to nihilism, which is for unfunny people). Absurdism strips you of all beliefs and illusions, why bother with religion or money or jobs or anything? It's actually quite peaceful.