I Am Depressed

[@peachkirbyy]

I just wanna hug Tom right now.

[@sundayzzz3794]

+It's Magic 3 years ago...

[@peachkirbyy]

+Bergentrückung wait are you calling me a 3 year old ;-;

[@artsyanimelover]

+It's Magic I think they meant that this video was made about 3yrs ago

[@peachkirbyy]

Oh right okay. Yeah i know but its still sad to see Tom like that :(

[@bentyndall3953]

+It's Magic Hug me instead?

[@Louisepentland]

It is so refreshing to see people talk frankly and encouragingly about the available help surrounding depression. I'm sending hugs (and you know how I rarely I give a hug!!!) and squishes :) xxx

[@michelle5891]

Depression is still treated like a swing of a mood of a person and really is a serious mental disease that eats you up from the inside for whatever reason... I've been suffering from it for 3 years now and I can tell you, people are afraid to talk about what is, in fact, the most important of issues - emotions and mind. It's thanks to them that we are extraordinary. I wish one day it will be obvious to everyone that being yourself, whether you have a mental disorder, are disabled, of a different religion or race, matters the most. All that matters is YOU. Not what others have to say about it. Thanks for touching this topic.

[@Ryan-bm8lc]

Sprinkleofglitter I am the 2nd reply

[@Laxativeshater69]

Bro pepole are so OG here lol

[@doddleoddle]

I don't know whether saying "get well soon" works here (I do apologise for not knowing much about this) But GET WELL SOON. Sending you magical unicorns playing glittery ukuleles

[@_panilaperman9881]

doddleoddle this was a nice message and no one replied for 4 years, so here ya go.

[@cookiegirl7630]

I don’t deserve to get well. I deserve to die

[@marianacarmona4571]

Cookie Girl don't say that! You might not see this message but I just want you to know that you matter. Stay strong ️❤️

[@ashlyn203]

doddleoddle get well soon doesn’t help for me personally. It’s better that they just listen to me.

[@unicornpuppy4956]

@@cookiegirl7630 no u dont everyone deserves to live!

[@belllaswab]

This video inspired me to call the doctor today and in about an hour I'm finding out what my problem is. Thank you so much :)

[@atomicmuffin3166]

That's very hard to do I'm happy for you

[@dimwitsixtytwelve]

Aiden Brouckxon pick up phone, call doctor.....not that hard really.

[@jos9559]

Dim Wit Your username says it all

[@dimwitsixtytwelve]

Jossie Palmer as does yours 'palmer' as in you like to palm off your problems

[@jos9559]

I'm just telling you that it is difficult for people to ring the doctor as it can make them feel EXTREMELY insecure and isolated. btw why would you make an account called dimwit

[@kirstiewakefield7454]

"I'm a little bit broken in the brain place" - best definition ever :-) X

[@satiricalcorie]

I freaked out when he said the word suicide... I am happy you didn't ever want to commit suicide... I don't know where I'd be in life without you, Tom...

[@zaklarc6441]

Somewhere else

[@aestheticallyamerican9948]

Urgot true (why is this guy saying something for a year old video well aaaaaaaaaaaaaaah)

[@OctoHavet]

Same here, I wouldn't be inspired with camera action and stuff without him

[@drceno]

Hey man. We lost our Joycon king. So where are you NOW?

[@sonicssjyeah]

In what momment he said that?

[@TheHazelHayes]

It's not an easy subject to tackle. Bravo to Tom Ridgewell for being so brave and brutally honest.

[@Len--]

I hate how much I can relate to this.

[@welf5381]

its sad i relate aswell

[@tasharogers6506]

tru i can relate and its sad 😔

[@dippingsauce8937]

BMB same

[@woof2527]

BMB same ;(

[@lupucal532]

BMB same

[@SilentSoaperton]

The people that aim to make others happy tend to be the saddest and/or loneliest, and I can say for a fact that this is true. I'm in High School, currently, and the people there see me as the "class clown", if you will. I'm quick witted, good with words, and always have a smile on my face during school, but when I get home I go to my room without saying anything to my parents. I recently let one of my friends in my head and she told me she had no idea I was so lonely and sad because I've always leaked positive energy. Under this rant is a point, which I believe is this: People like TomSka that have depression express positive attitudes to their followers because they know the feeling. They know it sucks and they'd never wish it upon anyone. We'd never wish it upon anyone. I'd never wish it upon anyone. I wish to make people smile because I don't know their stories and I don't know what they're going through, so regardless of that, when they smile I know that at least for now they're happy. And I'm happy too. Tom, I can't say that I'll ever know what you are going through, but just know that you make quite a bit of people happy (including me). We're with you Tom. Your fans are with you. We'll get through this together. Cheer up, keep up the good work.

[@ericlu9982]

Well said

[@mediumrare779]

The words you say are so true. I am a person that knows the feelings that tomska feels perfectly. I am a really romamtic person, so the break up from my girlfriend really fucked up my life. But this is a half year ago so I learend to feel again and try to let other people feel better because in my opinion there is no one that really deserves to be sad because everyone just wants to make thinks right, even if he's not able to do it because of an psycholigical illness or something else. I honor your strength to make other people feel happy even if you feel sad like nobody else, because I would never have the power to empower others in this condition.. I hope that you can go on like this because the world needs people like you to survive.. Nobody can make it if he's just alone in this world.

[@namnam2701]

Interesting comment except that no, you can't say for a fact that this is true. Just an opinion, and your personnal experience makes you biased.

[@SilentSoaperton]

NamNam A serious, consoling comment is not the right place to be grammar nazi-esque and tell me what I believe and what I believe is. Robin Williams said this quote and he killed himself because of depression, and Jim Carrey is depressed as well as many other comedians. You can say it's just an opinion and that I'm biased, but try doing some research before starting pointless arguments. We're done here.

[@namnam2701]

ThatOneGermanKid Sorry for my english : You're completely missing my point. I'm far from a grammar-nazi, I've always tried to write well and yet never corrected anyone on his grammar. I'm not even playing with words here. I'm speaking about serious principles that are important to me. Everyone think it's normal to think everything he says is a fact, but I don't, and I'm starting to spot this behaviour more and more, it really annoys me. "it's not the right place to tell me what I believe and what I believe is" this is far from what I'm implying. You could have said "I really think this is true" or "In my opinion it's completely true", it was simple, but you didn't. You choose to say "I can say for a fact that this is true". It's the only thing that annoys me, and I agree with all the rest. I think it's truly important to be conscious about the subjectivity in your opinion. You're so missing my point that you maybe think I'm a bitter asshole who don't understand and don't care about depression, and find what you're saying stupid, but if you think so, then you're wrong again. I'm exactly like you and I agree with you. I've been sad and lonely all my life, yet I'm sociable, making friends, always joking around, smiling and looking confident. The few times I've told someone I was sad or had no self-confidence, the answer was often like "WHAAAT ?!" By the way, one of the only thing that helped me to get TRULY a bit better was to stop thinking everything I was thinking was true. Being depressed makes your brain see things darker. Depressed people like me make a lot of statements like "Nice people are sad" or "Girls don't like me because I'm too nice" or even "See this guy over there ? I'm sure he hates me", and it CAN become darker and darker. The ONLY thing that truly helped me was to think "I'm so fucking biased, I often imagine people have a bad opinion about me, and often I realize later I was completely wrong" "Everything I assume about other's people opinion could be completely wrong and made up by my dark brain, so stop thinking". I Hope it can help you too, even if that principle of objectivity/subjectivity is more than a useful advice, and is mainly something I think fair and moral. Side note : I have no idea how to make short comments, sorry, it always make me waste time, I feel every details is important so we don't misunderstand.

[@rhainnongarrard451]

It was brave of you to make this video, dude. Total respect.

[@JoeBroo]

Agreed.

[@coxy2607]

Yep

[@ilikemusic2726]

I got tested for depression a couple of days ago, they haven't shared the results with me. But I feel the same way Tom. I used to love to play video games and guitar, but now I just don't want to do it. I just want to sit in my bed and lay there. It is 7:45 pm right now and I want to go to bed and sleep. I am bored and I am bored of being bored. Sometimes I go to sleep and I kinda hope I won't wake up. But I always think of my family and it helps that last one, but still. My chest feels tight all the time and nothing can lift it. I start something and then I throw it aside and sit down and think for a long time. I think on the sheet, I wasn't truthful. I think I tried to make it seem like I am kinda ok. But I'm not. I act all smiley and happy around my friends to mask the brokeness inside so they can't tell. I get you Tom, I really do.

[@nicolaemily7392]

Good luck with that✌️😔

[@mashmango1669]

This is also sad.

[@cakesarenomsake5418]

I get it. You feel like there is nothing to do, and there will never be anything to do.

[@robsxdclan2]

Hey, don't worry Cassidy. I've been dealing with depression and extreme anxiety almost all my life. I'm seventeen and I've literally got gray hairs from the anxiety I felt with when I was a baby. But I can tell you that now I want to live, whereas before I'd have rather just died. It really does get better, just take your time, find the right medicine, and relax.

[@ToontownCharlotte]

Stay strong, Cassidy.

[@karmaxkrii865]

It's so sad to read through the comments and see all the people that can relate to this.

[@lordstumpy2945]

Yeah it is

[@relictaranidae845]

i know right :/

[@hoovy1163]

karmaxkrii Today's society is just fucked up,and that's all....There are no more arguments

[@marianacarmona4571]

karmaxkrii ikr

[@racridan]

I saw this video the day that it went up. The next day, it had given me enough courage to talk to my friends about my feelings of self loathing and worthlessness. They went to our deputy principle who organized for me to go to counseling sessions. Yesterday was my first session and she told me that I have anger management issues and may have bipolar. It was some of the worst news I have ever received. Now though, through your bravery, Tom, I am getting help and it may make me better. Thank you, Tom. -Rachel.

[@LilDeuceDeuce]

Very thoughtful video. It takes a lot of courage to discuss something like this so you have my respect and admiration.

[@___KIT__]

I was diagnosed with severe depression late last year around Christmas. I was also placed on medication for it and I have felt so much of a difference. Please, I dont care if you "dont want to be labeled" if you feel depressed go see someone! It can help a lot.

[@bamboloveaj-ilikeoranges5780]

+KatieCat I am depressed and I just hide.....

[@laugis1000]

+bambolove AJ - i like oranges DONT HIDE it its not good for you

[@LMGguy]

+laugis1000 thats true indeed, but i find it better than needing to interact with people, where they most of the time just ignore you. or thats the way i pick it up not shure, quite shure this will be ignored, but hell ill post it anyway. +bambolove AJ - i like oranges hang in there man, just letting you know you are not alone

[@ohheyitsrj8789]

+fucksaki None of my business, this being 3 weeks ago - but don't you dare say that. Don't you dare tell someone something that might lead them to die. Depression is a chemical imbalance in one's brain - medication remedies this. It's simple, not dangerous and makes perfect sense. Next time you lay a finger on your key board, don't ever type something so awfully uneducated and horrible.

[@punishedonion5461]

+ToManyGames Don't worry, I've been on anti-depressants for a while, and there isn't Cyanide in it. Also the government isn't trying to kill you.

[@iveyettotakethehint]

So hey, after I watched this video I finally went to a doctor about my depression and anxiety. I've been on antidepressants for a year now and I went through months of therapy, and I'm honestly the happiest I can ever remember being. I don't think I would have had the courage to do that if I hadn't watched this video. Thank you so much, Tom :)

[@pretentiousteatime]

Oooh Tom, I'm so sorry that happened, but yes you were completely right depression is a mental illness and its basically like getting the cold. its literally just something wrong with your body and its just good to know that it can be fixed and there is always help and things can always get better from that point. Anyways, glad to hear you're doing better, hope to see you at VidCon again this year! My sister and I love seeing you every year so much and she loves you a lot hahaha keep kicking depressions ass!

[@theawesomegamr]

We love you Tom! we all hope you get better! just know that no matter WHAT happens, there are at least 2 million, 2 god damn MILLION people that like you. hell, most people would like to have over 100 people like their KZbin channel enough to consider them a fan of their channel. good luck! :)

[@LykAwsm]

I've got a lot or respect for you Tom, this video just increased it. All the best with your recovery and see you soon (hopefully).

[@AsymptoteInverse]

Your sketches are usually hilarious. But I have a real soft spot for these really personal videos. Incidentally, you and I followed a very similar path, although my major problem was anxiety more than depression. I coped with it well enough to get by until halfway through college. I figured a little counseling and some good old-fashioned willpower would eventually see me through it. Then I had a panic attack that lasted 3 days and made me consider going to a proper psychiatric hospital. I tried the meds, and while I have my own issues with them, I'm glad I gave them a shot. I know this is an old video, but on a more timely note, kudos on your weight loss. I wanna work on the same thing.

[@Mejustnow]

One of the bravest things we can do in life is accept and face our problems. Massive respect for you for talking about this and tackling it head on. It's an ongoing process but I really do admire you in taking those steps.

[@The7wc]

Super awesome of you to have the balls to sit on camera and spill your guts like this. I've gone through a lot of similar stuff, and this really hit home for me. I take pills for anxiety, and I'm occasionally a depressed wreck, but the fact that you could come out and admit this to thousands of people is awesome. Way to go, Tom.

[@adriciscute3]

Kudos to you Tom, I always admire you more when you make videos like this and they are always spot on and getting in front of a camera and talking about yourself if difficult and you always manage to do it. As someone who was diagnosed with Schizophrenic Tendencies I can't say enough how much talking to someone or just going to a doctor can help. We're all behind you Tom!

[@obnoxiousxleprechaun]

some doctors are just useless with depression diagnoses when i heard you say you were suicidal and then say you were diagnosed with severe depression, unfortunately my first reaction was annoyance like... "really? you got that diagnoses without being suicidal?" but then i realised obviously YOU'RE not who I should be annoyed with, it's my doctor. I was 100% to bite the bullet and just say goodbye to life and I was told it was a 'phase' and 'maybe' i have MILD DEPRESSION. thanks doc, really got my back

[@raeven5035]

Kay Lace I feel you on the incompetence of doctors but unfortunately I'm also sure it had to do with the fact that EVERY PROFESSION HAS THEIR IDIOTS. Poor choice on your part to insult the entire profession because of one imbecile who could't take a hint. I understand what it's like to be heavily suicidal and it is infuriating when you feel like no one sees the cry for help in your eyes but the fact of the matter is, the doctor can't read your mind anymore than any other person. You should've gone to a THERAPIST, someone who is professionally trained to notice those signs instead of projecting your feelings of frustration (I'm assuming far after the fact) onto a youtube video of someone trying to inspire people with similar problems to seek help. In fact, I would even say going to a therapist now might be a good idea if you're still associating anything with depression to those feelings of resentment towards your doctor. I don't know your life story, I might very well be wrong about these things but one thing I know for certain is YOUR incompetent doctor has nothing to do with every doctor or encouraging other people to get help. It's cynicists like you then snipe out any sense of hope for help in shy people with depression. It's hard enough to seek help without people like you insisting that a doctor can't help them and that there is no hope because of your experience. It's selfish and I hope you realize how unbelievably immature it is to be discouraging professional medical help because of your ow personal hangups.

[@dimwitsixtytwelve]

Krystal Augusto sorry guys but it is you guys that don't understand. With every diagnosis and prescription it is the doctors license is on the line, especially in America. The attitude is 'play it safe and collect the paycheck'

[@fhernachingerzwerg]

Kay Lace I was told I am too young to have depression, and I don't know what they were and idk just utter bullshit. I went to a hypnose therapist and she was the only one who helped me.. Seriously, your average doctor will not help in most cases. If any parents read this, goddamn listen to your child

[@dimwitsixtytwelve]

Alena H how old are you? if thou does not mind my asking?

[@fhernachingerzwerg]

Dim Wit When I went to that doctor I was 18, I am now 20

[@Vulkanprimarch]

Man that video made me want to hug Tomska and tell him everything will be alright. And also share my sad life/death traumas.

[@DebryanWard]

I have a friend who was just diagnosed with Extreme Depression and he is afraid to take the medication. I want him to take it. I want him to start feeling good about the world and being happy.... It kills me inside to see him so unhappy. I'm going to show him this video and.... well here's hoping it helps his decision. Thank you Tom. You are an awesome guy!

[@SmokeySmudgeStudio]

I hope you get better quickly. Correct me if I'm wrong but I wonder if this has been triggered a bit with the death of Ed. I know he died over a year ago now but he was also a really close friend of yours and I know grief can re-hit after a long period of time. I know that other factors added to the depression but I wonder if that was the trigger that made you reach your depression-breaking-point. I think that in order to also help your depression you should go to see a psychiatrist or something to dig deep into your mind to find the things that have added to your subconscious, building up to depression. Because if you sus out those then you can deal with them and help your mind recover faster. I may be talking complete and total bollocks but these are my thoughts.

[@eveashbrook9151]

I just think of Dodie and feel so bad for her and Tom

[@nabzz7026]

Why

[@abcmsaj]

"I don't wanna die, but I ain't keen on living either." - Robbie Williams. I kinda feel the same... I don't do my hobbies anymore. I don't play guitar or record videos or play video games. But I'm not sure I'm depressed. I'm not entirely happy but I think I'm just "feeling sad" rather than depressed. I'm not sure. Need to try and make some changes over Christmas, I reckon

[@the_sammy]

Heh, well done for putting out this video. It's really difficult to do, and to talk about, but people do need to know. I was in *exactly* the same boat about a year ago. My fiancée was the person who browbeat me into going to the doctors. I was at the point where I just couldn't do anything at all, I went to uni and did lessons and shit but I honestly couldn't care about any of it. My doctor put me on a thing and the first two months after starting were the worst I've ever been through. Once it stabilised though I was so confused by how I could ever have been like that before! You're spot on, it is a mental illness. Something that still carries a certain stigma in our society, but there are a lot of charities in the UK working on that. Maybe slam a few links in a comment on the video for their sake? People like you doing videos like this helps the cause far more than you realise. Either way I'm glad you've got where you need to be. It's a tough road, but life is much better from this side of the fence.

[@paperstarjar]

I have so much love for you right now. Dealing with mental health stuff is hard, but sharing it with others and offering support by doing so is just lovely. I've been doing what you are currently doing (not making videos, dealing with being broken int he head space) most of my life, and it gets easier, and better, and I am sad when people have so much fear around it. If you have a cold, you treat that. If you break your leg, you get a cast. Why is this different? *hugs* I'm gonna share this now...

[@donutwarriors3475]

Fucking finally. Someone who has a positive experience with depression drugs! Everyone I talk to is like 'ugh drugs don't help it's crap, therapy does instead' but finally someone agrees with me that medication does help in certain circumstances! Just to clarify, I don't have depression, I have Bipolar Type 1.

[@Sentiqus1]

It depends on the type of anti-depressants you are taking. Not all pills are good for everyone. You need to hit jackpot with the pills and he maybe did. I didn't. If you take pills that aren't "friends with your head", it can have bad side effects. You can have much bigger depression with those pills. I had. That's why i won't ever take that crap again. But as i said, it depends on what pills are good for you. You need to find the right ones for you.

[@LittlePurplePixy]

I just quit my antidepressants 2 days ago and i can't state enough how much they helped me to overcome my depression. Sure, therapy is JUST as important but i wouldn't have gotten that much better in such a short time (i've been on them for about a year) So don't listen to the ones trying to scare you, the drugs do really help :)

[@vixxcelacea2778]

Very old comment, but I can vouch heavily for the fact that drugs help. The reason you see so much negativity towards it is two-fold 1: The idiots who think Big Pharma and anyone having to do with medicine are out to get people (they're out to make money that doesn't mean it's always evil and dubious) and 2; The more common reason. Depression is a very not well understood condition of the brain, and there are various types of it. On top of that, it's a piggybacker symptom to other issues, or can be the main issue with other piggy backers. Due to this, each person is insanely different. You have to try different doses, pill types, pill combos, therapy, other medications etc. It's like figuring out your perfect cocktail. You can be lucky and get it on the first few tries, or you can be really unlucky and feel worse, even suicidal because of the pills. It's hard to fix a brain that isn't getting the right signals, activity and amount of things. Pills replace and change the chemistry. But we simply don't know the human brain well enough to figure out exactly what combo of chemical cocktail will help a person. In the future, we will likely have a brain scan done on a person to see directly what is imbalanced and causing depression symptoms, then be able to more accurately recommend what dosage and type of pills work. I take SSRI's for both anxiety and depression. I recently started a new pill that is just barely different than the other one. It has made a WORLD of difference. I'm a person who on a good day am able to do a few hobbies and a few normal everyday things that I need to do. Before the pills, for months I could go with out doing anything, have no energy, extreme fatigue and sleep more than 12 hours and retarded hours of the night/day I'm currently getting diagnosed for ADHD as that is likely a huge part of my issues. The further we go into the future, the more comprehensive and accurate getting diagnosed gets. And that sucks for the people who were say diagnosed incorrectly naught but 5-10 years ago. My diagnosis takes 2 interviews, a waiting period and at least 4 psychologist visits and 2 doctor visits to see what is going on. Mental issues are so shitty because you can have more than one, and often do. It's hard to figure out what stems from what, if it's a body imbalance (say thyroid issues) brain imbalance, too much stress, not enough of a vitamin, just so many freaking variables. This is why so many people talk negatively about it. Not only that, but depression MAKES you negative. It's part of the disorder. So it's hard to find positives about medications or therapy. There are also of course people who get prescribed depression pills such as SSRI's who are depressed temporarily, such as life events or even hormonal imbalances. Taking SSRI's and other depression medications when you do not have diagnosed depression issues can cause you to have depression, because you're taking a pill that changes the chemistry of your brain. Anyway, I just wanted to share my thoughts on it and that I know for a fact pills can help. They just usually aren't a cure all, because people are too damn unique in their brains to have easy answers. Trial and error, and for some people, they don't have the ability to do that. Depression kills people. I wish more people would be open and honest about what it is and what it does. If you commit suicide, or die of being careless while doing something, likely depression was the reason. You can only have it for so long before it literally saps your will to live, which is part of what makes it a really deadly disease and difficult to treat.

[@Klayre]

It does get better, Tom. I've been really "broken in the brain" for 2-3 years (after many other years of not acknowledging my problems), with severe depression making me feel like my life was not worth living. I wasn't living anymore, just surviving; every morning I woke up just wanting to go back to sleep, but at night I just couldn't let myself rest. I had panic and anxiety attacks almost every day, sometimes multiple times a day. Like you, I sought help and it really, really saved me. Many people think depression can be "solved" just with willpower, but it's not true; if your brain is malfunctioning (because that's what it is), you need something to restore its "mechanisms", may it be therapy, pills or both. It's an illness, and like any other, it has to be acknowledged and cured. There's nothing to be ashamed of. You made the right choice.

[@WraithTDK]

Tomska, Super proud of you, man. I've dealt with quite a bit of depression in my life. As a kid with ADD, they gave me a prescription for what they would later say was far too large a dose of ritalin, which apparently caused it. It was like suddenly I could focus, but the things I was focusing on is everything bad that had ever happened to me, that played over and over in my head without end. When I *dropped* ritalin and grew up, at some point I developed a severe vitamin D deficiency where my body doesn't process sun light properly, and I had somewhere around 20% of the levels of vitamin D in my blood that I was supposed to, and whenever it got cloudy, I got super depressed. My point is, I know that feel, bro. It's maddening to feel like crap for no good reason, because you get in this horrible mental spiral of feeling bad, and then feeling guilty because you know that you have no good *reason* to feel bad, which makes you feel *worse,* which takes you back to step one. You just feel like you should be able to just focus and snap out of it by looking at your situation logically...and it just doesn't happen. I'm thrilled that you're getting the hep you need, and that we'll see more videos from you.

[@vlogoftea]

I think you're incredibly brave for making this video. I've dealt with depression for ages and I know it doesn't really help hearing some one say it, but it's true: It does get better. You will get better.

[@15mice31]

I started realising my depression was really bad after I wasn't excited for Christmas... That was 4 years ago. I have been kinda good since then, apart from now. It's what, 7-5 days away and I just don't want it to happen because I don't want to be a downer. It sucks. And I can't go to a doctor because I'm 14 and my parents don't believe me and I can't do anything myself because anxiety. Help peoples?

[@l.j.a.]

Dude, I feel you- I'm really curious to see if I do have depression, but at the same time I find the idea of asking and being assessed embarrassing. And just generally I'm having this mental battle inside my head as to the pros and cons of possibly being diagnosed. I just haven't a clue I want to push these thoughts away but at the same time if there is something then I want to deal with it. :)

[@15mice31]

+Lucy Anderson Yeah same. Like, I want to get help but as I go through manic phases my parents don't believe me and have called my anxiety 'pathetic and stupid' on countless occasions so they won't take me to get a therapist or even be checked to see if I actually have depression or if I'm 'faking the whole thing' which, at this point, I can confidently say I'm not. I've spoken to my Dad about mental illnesses but not from the perspective of me having one and it's made me feel so so much better and I know he'd kinda be okay with it if I told him, I think, but if my Mum heard anything about it she'd cancel everything because 'I'm just trying to get attention and wasting time and effort'. I really want to get help but I physically can't and it sucks.

[@l.j.a.]

ThisIsNotMe Im so glad that my parents are not like that- at least my mum isn't. It sounds super sucky. Im just thinking, have you tried the online tests because I think that if you collate enough of them you may be able to prove that you are ill to your mum. I just feel like I don't want to be a burden- especially so close to Christmas - but I don't know how much more I can take. Stay strong bud :)

[@15mice31]

+Lucy Anderson Yeah. I've done all the online tests I could fine (all telling me I probably had Major Depression, mild social anxiety, Dysthymia and maybe ADHD but I honestly don't know with the last one) And same. I'm just waiting until Christmas is over but I still don't know if she'll take me or if I can even ask. And you too good friend :)

[@l.j.a.]

ThisIsNotMe I've done a few and they said that I had depression- but the only time I take them is when I am having a super full on depression-ish (?) day, so im unsure- I feel as if I should take one when I am really happy- but I always forget! Do find the winter months tougher than the summer ones?

[@ianlolsatyou]

Props to you Tom. This video took some serious balls to make

[@LokiStarOmen]

I remember watching this when you first released it. I've been told nothing is wrong with me for years despite feeling suicidal since the age of 6. From the age of 14 I was told I have depression by one psychologist. For all these years I've been told nothing is wrong and I'm making things up or I have depression. Just a month go now, I've been told I have Emotional Intensity Disorder (aka Borderline Personality Disorder). All these years and my life has been slowly tearing apart and it still is. But things are beginning to look up despite my mental health and physical health getting worse. You'll get through it Tom *hug*

[@LokiStarOmen]

I'm almost 20 now btw

[@alligatorblood456]

Can I hug you ?

[@LokiStarOmen]

If you want, I like hugs ^^

[@WastedThyme]

Angel Phoenix I really like your hair uvu

[@LokiStarOmen]

Thanks. Unfortunately I've had to cut it all off, my hair was dieing from all the bleach, no pun intended

[@jekyllandcyde]

Thanks for sharing this Tom, I'm glad you spoke to the doctor about it. I think this video could help many people, so thanks (for it and for your honesty with us). Take care!

[@dayp8125]

I can't stop crying. I guess I just found my answer. I have no interest in things I enjoy, I am not scared of not existing but at the same time... I am not suicidal. I want to enjoy the joys of life....I just don't. I will seek help...thank you Tom😭

[@Minerva_Devi]

Tom you are my inspiration. I have suffered from severe Tourette's, seizures, chronic asthma, panic attacks, anxiety, depression and I've now been told that there is a chance that I have a brain tumour. Your videos are a big part of what keeps me going and I always look forward to seeing a new one. I too am a little bit....okay maybe a lot a bit broken in the brain place and I really admire you, Tom. Though I have never considered suicide, I have a fear that my depression may worsen because of the fact that my many, many illnesses worsening. I've gotten plenty of help and support from doctors and family, but for the last 14 years of my life, they haven't been haven't found a cure. My existence is miserable, I can't go to school, I can't play video games, I can't fucking function, but your videos put a smile on my face and one day I hope to follow in your foot steps and become a film maker. Thanks Tom, for all of the support you have unknowingly given me over the last 8 years, from eddsworld's zombeh attack to the skits and short films, you are awesome. :)

[@NaOVGiR2012]

Well Tom I am glad you are better and getting better. I just want to say, I am in the same position as you, back in High School; and I was diagnosed with: ADHD, Aspergers (on the non-extreme side), and Social Anxiety. So 9th-11th grade, I was mainly depressed. Going to half of 10th-11th grade (the whole year), I was in deep depression; I was close enough to suicide. But the help and support from my friends; and the other was EDDSWORLD! You guys (eddsworld group) and my friends help me get through a rough time. So this is what I did to help bring down my depression. I watched my favorite TV Show and Eddsworld videos. So this is a suggestion to help you out (along with you medication), watch your favorite (that are funny): KZbin Vids, TV Shows, and Movies. Why use funny, because it helps bring in laughter in life; and fills up your funny bone (figuratively). So hope that helps. Hey Tom I am here as a fan and friend. I am here for ya (figuratively again). If you want to shoot me message and talk, I'd be more then happy. Like I said, I am for ya as a fan and friend. Hope to see you more happy in your future videos. And keep up the good work. Sincerely, Robert P.S. OH! Just an FYI; never, I mean NEVER, fall into the suicide part. Cause once your there it is hard to get out of it.Just thought I'd pass it on.

[@TindraSan]

thejuzzienater at the brighter side, lots of successful people have ADHD or Aspergers. One example is they guy who made Pokémon :)

[@TrustyJustyMedia]

cool

[@AlienFreaks1]

Good morning Tom, (even if you never see this) I just wanted to say thank you. I saw this video when you had initially posted it and found myself identifying with nearly everything you were saying and eventually pulled myself together to get help. I'm a senior in highschool and for my first three years I was bullshitting my way through, not giving a shit about my work or my personal life, basically doing whatever to see if I would at all be a little interested or excited. I never was and until I saw this video I didn't know why. I would skip school at least once or twice a week, everyday that I woke up felt like hell, moving was a pain as my body always felt heavy, my every thought was of how pointless everything I or anyone else was doing was. But thank you for sharing your experience, thanks to you I was able to get help and I'm doing much better now, I'm getting the straight A's I could've been getting in 9th and I'm Captain of my track team, and because of this video I'm able to enjoy life as I couldn't before. Thank you and I hope you are able to pick yourself up sometime soon.

[@AlienFreaks1]

Lol seriously listen to mvilcis, talk to somebody so that you can get the help that you need. Also stay away from drugs and alcohol. It makes you feel way better in the moment but it makes everything else feel even worse in comparison. The road to recovery isn't easy but it's better when you have support so please get some from those who care. Also KZbin is the second to last place you should be looking for emotional support dude.

[@AlienFreaks1]

My parents doubted that it was anything serious as well but if you were feeling how Tom described he was in this video please continue to pressure them to try to see a therapist or a doctor. It's definitely way better to have wasted some money and everything be fine than it is for you to continue feeling like this even after the awkward teen years

[@AlienFreaks1]

You're supposed to tell your parents so that you can get professional help. And getting out of this is a gradual process, it's going to take a while even with the help of a professional or medications.

[@averagejoey2000]

***** If you have suicidal thoughts, YOU MUST report. It's similar to the rules for finding out about child abuse. If you don't tell, you go to jail as an accomplice. Get professional help.

[@machin8593]

I think it was very brave of you to make such a confession and put it on video. Thank you very much, and i hope you're gonna feel better in the future, you deserve heaps of love and happiness, man.

[@ietsization]

This feels so recognizable. Thank you so much for sharing this.

[@KaylaHalleur]

I know that I'm commenting late on this video, but I wanted to let you know that this video has helped at least one person to decide to take action and see a doctor. Thank you. I hope that things are getting better for you.

[@rach0nt0ast]

I have a lot of respect for you for describing your personal experiences for the benefit of other people. I am so happy that you're getting better and I really hope it continues, keep going Tom, we love you

[@volatile.844]

I'm so scared about my feature!! It seems I always want to be alone I never really want to hang out with my friends or family, I haven't been up for drawing anything. And I'm scared of what my mom will think of me when I tell her I'm depressed. I used to be so happy for 4 of July and go set off fireworks, but that's changed...

[@lilybray5134]

I'll do it if you do it, as I am in a similar situation. I'll pray for you.

[@volatile.844]

+Jack Bray Really? Thanks for praying for me!! It means a lot to see that someone will try to help! I told my mom, she yelled at me..... She got mad and well I don't want to share the conversation..... Publicly.....

[@lilybray5134]

So I prayed to Jesus for healing from my depression soon after I said this and I got it. No more suicidal thoughts!

[@andrewhxrris]

Emma_Draws do not be scared. I promise you that you will be okay! Just tell somebody and get the help you need. If you are afraid to tell your mom then tell literally anybody. A friend, teacher, neighbor, counselor, bus driver, anybody. Heck, tell your dog. Telling somebody and getting it off of your chest is the best thing you can do (besides going to a doctor). It is okay. You WILL get better

[@wanderingsnowflake5874]

|-/

[@Smoofmaster]

This level of depression seems to not be about wanting to die, but rather about wanting to live but feeling unable to do so. I would say I can relate but what you're feeling seems to be beyond typical teenage angst so I'll just say this: Tom, you not only create things and are, in all respects, a creator (which is a rare and special thing in today's world) but you also create things that make hundreds of thousands of people happy. Like laughing so hard they actually cry. Like running to their friends saying "you gotta see this guy!" I live in Virginia. I went to summer camp in Pennsylvania where people were quoting your videos word for word and not just asdf. You have an impact on the lives of people all over the world. KEEP GOING DUDE

[@katelynschmisseur7260]

Sending love to you 💖💖 you kind of just explained everything that I'm thinking. I think I'm going through something similar, I'm not sure why but I just feel numb, and heavy since last October. and I too go to sleep at 7-8 PM because I'm sick of being awake . I'm not sad, but i can't remember the last time I was happy, I just can't feel anything and im not sure what's going on:/ this is awful and I really hope that you are doing better and I hope you have a fantastic day :)

[@lisablue6020]

+ohsnapitskatt love I hope things get better for you soon.

[@Lily-gx9xn]

It will get better because life has something amazing in store for you. I was depressed for three years and I experienced self harm, suicidal thoughts etc and now I'm the happiest I've been...

[@exobrainhd]

whoever dislikes this video should feel ashamed of themselves I hope you get better Tom, i know it's hard, i wish you the best

[@TheImpiroGirl]

I just started on anti-depressants too, I'm so happy you got help I think that's the most difficult part of the process. Take care of yourself, I hope you start feeling better and continue to recover. It's okay to do whatever you need to feel better, including taking pills :)

[@ThatOrmyBloke]

Seems bad dude. Hope you get better. I find this video very insightful as I have felt this way before but just got over it. I doubt I was depressed though. You're strong Tom you'll be fine.

[@EmilyDNelson]

Ahhh, I've done that form before. Luckily (ish) for me, at least in the last few years, my depression has been fairly low. However, usually on the flip side of that sheet there's a similar test for anxiety levels, and that's through the roof. But what Tom describes made light bulbs go off in my head - losing interest in things you enjoy? BIG red flag. It's not an easy disease, people really don't understand how hard it is unless they've had it, so my sympathies to him.

[@JSWUDNN]

It really sucks to be in that situation. I was there recently too over the last year I have been depressed and doing some things like you said: stopped playing video games, going to sleep really early, or sometimes really extremely late like at 8-10 am. I had a terrible strain and dull pain in my head and was constantly preoccupied with the problem. Everyday I was trying to figure out what was wrong with me. I went to a doctor and have been taking some pills and I am getting better too. The biggest thing that I regret is not doing it sooner. Another big mistake I made was thinking I could just therapy myself better. Sometimes it really is a physical/mental thing that is causing it and you need to see a doctor. I regret being dulled for an year of my life but as long as things are getting and they are then it doesn't matter that much. Once you get out of the situation you will really feel a lot better and it will feel comfortable again once you are able to adjust back from it.

[@nebula_wolf3132]

watching this years later im still astounded how great he is, even with his illness he tried to help people, and i think thats something we should all aspire to do.

[@TheMilanMovies]

Take some rest and start making everything a bit easier for yourself. Do something with your friends and girlfriend and have a great time. I (we) want to let you know that we are loving your movies and cartoons but do not make it to hard for yourself. We love your videos, i hope that you will get better :) Mian (and Tomska fans), Out

[@hagechin]

Respect to you, Tom, for talking about this openly. It is so common, yet so hidden. It's time to bring it out of the closet. I followed your advice and went to the doctor and it helped enormously.

[@Thoughtful-]

Thank you Tom, I've been struggling with depression for far too long now and it helps so much to hear from someone in a similar place, no one know's your thoughts exactally but that's no bad thing, I feel so lonely and so alone some times but these little things, these videos with someone speaking to you are so so big and so so important. :) thank you and much respect. Ali

[@cheesepiegreen]

I've been bounced around from psychologist to psychologist as they've been giving me that same test your describing and i am really inspired by the fact that you can go on the internet and post for the whole world to see that you are having a problem. That is the most pure form of bravery ever. Keep being awesome.

[@Davidofsmeg]

dude ive been there, im still pretty much there but I just take everyday as it comes and try to feel less shitty and more positive. i mean i spent my birthday this year standing on a cliff edge with every intention of jumping and ending it but something pulled me back from ending my life that day, looking back on it was my unbreakable love for a close friend of mine that snapped me out of throwing it away. but yeah just fight to be happy everyday and then you will feel more like yourself and one day when you are just happy naturally then you will know the battle is won. stay safe and hope for the best in the future tom :)

[@calebanderson2692]

I have depression too. I know how you feel. Breathing is a hassle. You are not alone buddy

[@ImaginaryRoses]

All the best with everything, Tom, big hugs coming your way from me if you're at MCM again in May :)

[@MyLittleMissAwesome]

"Go to doctors" - Tomska, 2013

[@SteltekOne]

Very glad to hear you're not suicidal (been there, not a fun place) and happy that you followed through and went to the doctor! It really shouldn't be "tough to swallow" that you have depression since it is quite common, yet with all the illnesses in the world, we still stigmatize the ones that affect people's mental health for some reason. Anyway, good too see you on your way to getting better and I wish you all the best for the future!

[@Ultimator2468]

what u said

[@happyangel4eva]

Aww, I hope you get better soon, or at least learn to manage your depression! It's horrific having to live with a mental health problem. Your friends and family (and fans and followers ;D) will always be there for you! (:

[@elem3ntsOFmyLIf3]

“At first, I’d try to explain that it’s not really negativity or sadness anymore, it’s more just this detached, meaningless fog where you can’t feel anything about anything-even the things you love, even fun things-and you’re horribly bored and lonely, but since you’ve lost your ability to connect with any of the things that would normally make you feel less bored and lonely, you’re stuck in the boring, lonely, meaningless void without anything to distract you from how boring, lonely, and meaningless it is.” Allie Brosh

[@kikineptune316]

War Snail I read that chapter in her book. It broke my heart badly.

[@jakubvlasak]

This video is nine years old. But before this nine years, this video helped me realise, that I am depressed. And it helped me to get some medical help. So I guess, i can say, that this video saved me. Thank you Tom.

[@Hollie5192]

When you said 'I don't want to die but I don't care about being alive any more' it just really struck a chord. I'm only young, at 16, but this kind of made me want to speak to my parents and maybe get me to see a doctor. I just need to figure out how to approach them first. Thanks for this video. ♥

[@MrAntoineDaniel]

[@hypnotoad8166]

Sweet ♥

[@daisyli1992]

Ah!

[@aprilfools7771]

Mes tu fais quoi ici?????

[@FISHGOMOO4321]

Some Advice Tom. I was very unhappy earlier this year; Unhappy with myself, Unhappy with my relationship, my job etc. I wasn't depressed, like you I knew I was in these situations and I had full control to fix them. So my advice to you is this, please get back into your work out routine. Embrace the fitness lifestyle, start lifting some weight and see yourself improve. It really really helped me grow as a person. Hope you get better.

[@blueblitzblaze]

Well I'm not tomska, but I will try to help anyway. If you are unhappy with your relationship you need to talk to your wife/gf to fix it. You really don't want to sit there clammed up when perhaps she does not know what's wrong. Your job, well, let me put it this way: If you have the ability to get a new job or time/money to seek out something that interests you, you should just take the chance. If you don't have it right now, save up, and start thinking. My motto is: If you're not happy, think of how you can be If you're happy, think of how you can continue to be. I hope my comment helped, good luck with your life, and if you EVER feel suicidal, don't waste that. If you want to die anyway (which is not recommended) do whatever extreme things you can. Try EVERYTHING first.

[@FISHGOMOO4321]

blueblitzblaze - Haha thanks for the reply mate, but rest assured that everything is going well for me right now :)

[@blueblitzblaze]

Glad to hear it! :D

[@DankSpoony]

I am depressed. SUDDENLY PINAPPLES. This does not help.

[@amywirabudi2143]

Good job. You cheered me up

[@ciarajohanna259]

Suddenly, pineapples.

[@Lookosone]

I just want to say that its sad to hear you're depressed. But I want you to know that we still respect you. When you do upload, I drop everything im doing and watch it. 5 times. Then show it to people. And strap them to a chair if they dont want to watch it and make them watch it (not really) But I wanna say you are one of my main inspartions for making films. I too have applied to study media at lincoln as my first choice. You have really helped me decide what I wanna do. I had no clue what to before that, and it made me stressed. Thats all I want to say, and I hope you make a full 100% recovery, and I want you to know you will always be appreciated; no matter what state you're in.

[@ipjk8717]

hi tom this video is wonderful and your very brave to upload it. lots of people are depressed in this world. Its a sick hard world. but i just want to remind you how loved you are you have got alot of talent and you know it deep inside you just cant show it. You seem to be a nice guy and next time you feel sad just think of people like me and millions more who laugh and smile at your videos! smile and laugh with us WE LOVE YOU TOM!!!!

[@CyfilmsProductions]

Then suddenly, pineapples! Is it helping?

[@lilybray5134]

maybe it made him laugh and made his day :)

[@erikpaghgoodwin1182]

+Jack Bray i hope

[@Pineapple123Gaming]

+hauntedmonsteroonie Yes there is a pineapple here

[@orange.circles402]

Heh…

[@cheatexp]

This does not help.

[@the-chillian]

For me, the worst part of depression is what they call anhedonia. You just don't enjoy the things you ought to like, and even the pleasurable things about life give you no pleasure. I'm glad you feel you're improving. You really do have a lot to offer the world, and you're in good company.

[@freyaaah6945]

My parents won't take me to the doctor to take a test, and I'm a minor. I don't know at all what I can do. Please help.

[@dillan-loves-phan2391]

Go to a site called 7 cups of tea they have little test to take and other stuff

[@Seannn1]

+Hailey-loves-phan I got over 75% on each section, severe, I'm 15 agh ffs.

[@freyaaah6945]

Hailey-loves-phan The amount of times I have tried talking to a listener/therapist and the only advice they give me is "try and talk to another family member blah blah"! I wanted to see how qualified the online therapists are, and tried to become one. From what I remember it's a quiz with about twenty questions. I got in easily. Of course I do not use it because I know even though it says i am, I am not qualified, in fact, I'm not even old enough. Makes me wonder how good those online therapists/listeners are.

[@kirstymadz8234]

Go to a school counsellor and tell them what's going on and get them to talk with ur parents

[@bsentah]

wutsername_ same

[@eleanorhumphries8249]

Please please please if you are depressed or you think something is very wrong, talk to someone. Anyone no matter who it is whether it's people you are close to whether it is someone you have never met whether it's a doctor, a therapist or a professional let it all out to someone. Honestly please do, depression is something no one deserves and everyone has the right to happiness Xx ❤️

[@hellodances]

+Eleanor Humphries The news are , No ONE CARES . :)

[@eleanorhumphries8249]

+Fadwa Soussi Your gramma is impeccable, also people do care about other peoples well being I think you are one if the very few that don't

[@LittlePurplePixy]

I'm really late to this.. but i still wanted to tell you that i just quit my antidepressants a few days ago.. I was feeling exactly how you described it and refused to see a therapist for a long time. But last christmas i finally went to see one and i'm feeling so so much better now :) Hope you feel better as well, and if not yet i hope you'll soon do :)

[@chiefr9627]

Hey Tom, a fan of yours here... I understand depression... I've felt it many times, and have contemplated horrendous things... The best thing to do is possibly ignore some issues, minor ones, and work with major ones in the manor you deem appropriate. In all honesty I understand your background as well... Don't let others get to you, don't allow someone to judge you because they don't approve of your life choices. I'm pretty sure I'm unstable in some way psychologically, but I don't face these problems, I bury them. I don't want others to see my dark side.

[@JohnBarnesization]

This video made me realise I have depression. But like you, I'm lazy as well. Too lazy in fact that I most likely won't do anything about it, I rarely go to the GP when I'm in considerable physical pain either. You have helped me today with this video though, so I thank you, Tom.

[@SparkyDiesAlot]

Nobody cares

[@Vulturess]

SparkyDiesAlot Matthew Bettiss Actually i care

[@G3Dem]

Me too

[@TE4MTIGER]

still a good idea to see a GP and get a proper diagnosis

[@MrAnarchymaker]

You have just explained my problems tomska thank you

[@miffygames3657]

I'm literally the same as you. I know this is stereo-typical for a 14yr ld girl to say but i think i might be depressed and can't help my emotions. i constantly feel sleepless, i've lost enjoyment of everything that used to intrests me, im also SO socially inept and always feel like im saying the wrong things or im just so awkward. I've always been over-weight for my age but i dont really care about that or anything with physical appearance. One day my part of the family sat down with and said "i think you have depression" and i completely denied it cause my mum is always at work so shes wouldnt know and i've grow up with out a dad (all my siblings are 5-15 years older than me). I hate being labelled with conditions cause it makes me feel like theres something wrong with me and that im dysfunctional. I'm happy infront of my friends but i think i subconsciously do that so i dont loose them or let them know that somethings up. I dont feel depressed and i've never cut myself. I just constantly feel melancholy and don't fear death, not that im suicidal but i just dont care if i dont exsist anymore. Recently I've noticed i have a very negative outlook on life and always feel like im fucking up even though i notice it, its hard to restrain myself from that behaviour. I mixed race (black and white) and I've felt always to black for the white kids and too white for the black kids, i dont who i am or where i stand.

[@Trulleman1]

Fuck, Tomska is such a great person. It doesn't seem like he is afraid of sharing anything and this can really help people realize if they need help themselves. I myself have done some things i'm not proud of and they're making me feel really bad but this video helps me a little bit. I think writing things here for other people to read (Although many probably just skips it) is making me feel better and reading others people comments on this video is also helping me. I hope some people will respond with thoughts and idéas. Have a good one.

[@asdffreak100]

Wow respect! I had never thought that you would be depressed, but you totally got my respect for your statement! I really hope you're getting better (Sorry for my bad english)

[@TenThirtyProductions]

I love your honesty. It's one of the things that sets you apart from most KZbinrs. You're a real inspiration, man. I study Film Production, and started a channel with some friends in the hope that we'd be able to achieve someday what you've achieved. You're ace, so keep it up =) Thanks

[@avengerboxer]

Ok I will try to go to the therapist myself, thank you. I again stumbled upon your channel, I saw this video 9 years ago, and a lot of time passes and now I understand something. Thank you

[@burnin8able]

yeah, the game grumps were talking about a similar topic just a few days ago in one of their wind waker HD videos, society has this depressingly sad view that going to therapy or getting mental or physical help from medical professionals is a sign of weakness. Which is pretty bad because these are people who want to help you, and they are qualified and trained specifically to help you, so take advantage of that if you need to.

[@Shlock7]

Suddenly... PINEAPPLES!

[@gabrielchcosta]

psychotic jackalope it does, it made many people smile

[@Shlock7]

gabrielchcosta You're right, I'm actually surprised it got this many +1s

[@Wolfpack149]

Thank you so much for telling us Tom. You're a strong person from what you've told us and I firmly believe you'll get through this! :)

[@ollie9754]

I suffer from really bad anxiety and depression... I'm really young aswell and it is making everything hard... Thanks Tom, this video helped a lot.

[@Sarartistic]

I did feel something was up with you. I'm so glad you're getting better, Tom! As you stated, I'm a bit... "broken in the brain place" myself. Have been this past year, especially. But, honestly, I don't have the money to go to the doctor's... it seems that there may not be any hope for me.

[@xorinoa]

I hope something works out for you. *hugs*

[@qdvgum]

i dont really care if i get crap for this or not, i am a firm believer in Jesus, and i know he has a solution for you *hug* hang in there Sara, you can do it

[@GamerPips]

qdvgum because jesus can solve all medical issues. all you have to do is beliieeeeveeeee right? no? what about all the millions of people who DID believe, but still died? I'm sorry to take this comment section like this, but please, take your religion crap somewhere else. I understand that "this is the internet i have opinions", but that doesn't always mean your opinions are welcomed or appropriate, especially for a video like this. kthxbai

[@potsie5902]

GamerPips Who are you to say that Jesus doesn't exist and that religion is crap? I'm an atheïst myself and I don't believe in it, but I'm not gonna say stuff like that, not in the way you did, people find hope in their religion and what they believe in and you're an asshole for saying that stuff About your statement "this is the internet, I have opinions", he just stated his opinion and it was appropriate and welcomed because he tried to cheer Sara up. You, however, just took his opinion down and apparently, you think hope isn't welcomed

[@Sarartistic]

GamerPips Regardless if whether qdvgum would've brought up Jesus or not, they were being kind. They were caring, and that's really the main point of them saying anything at all. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to start any conflict. I should have kept my feelings to myself.

[@eccotv2707]

This is sad because I'm broken too :( and I always felt ashamed about it

[@jjbluesam]

If your depression gets in the way of entertaining us, it's okay. We don't want you to strain yourself for us.

[@timmyjimmy4669]

"There is nothing to be afraid of, there is nothing to be ashamed of." I just started sobbing. Thank you, so so much, Tom. For everything.

[@ItsElliotGough]

Love you Tom. Take care of yourself.

[@lewisdavis156]

I don't care about being awake anymore too...

[@itzjezic8690]

James same

[@myaquarmby604]

I'm glad I found this video, I'm going through the exact same thing (well maybe not the exact same, everyone is different), and I constantly tell myself that I am broken, but then don't always know how to explain it to someone. I am also on medication, and one time when I forgot to take it, I was right back in that bad place again. Thank you so much Tom for making this video (I know it was a white ago know), but just thank you for your bravery, because it took me a long time to finally admit that it might be depression that is the reason for feeling like Pandora's box.

[@superdude4464]

Tom, you're truly an inspiration to all your fans. It takes such integrity to talk about these kinds of ailments to the faceless masses of the internet, and yet you do it anyway, just so your fans are aware of your personal and mental situations. I'm very glad that things are getting better, and I wish you and all of your friends the best. We're all here for you.