I Couldn’t Fix This One. My Ab**tion Story…

Today I’m going to take you guys through something I’m not even sure I should share, my ab*rtion story.
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Chapter Markers
00:00 Intro
00:57 Leaning Not on Your Own Understanding
01:35 The 4 Different Types of Christians
05:08 Why You Should Join the B-Side
06:14 Christians Need to Work Together
06:58 How Jesus Treated Different Types of People
08:17 My Label (116) Was Built on Distinction
09:36 Failures From Leaning on My Own Understanding
11:25 The Abortion Story
21:21 I Didn’t Process This For Years
23:30 God’s Heart Towards The Sinner
28:39 I Want People to Feel Free
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[@apologiabren1405]

Hey Lecrae. I don't know that you remember this, but many many years ago my dad Clint (he's around 6'7") visited a concert of yours in Kentucky and spoke with you. He gave you some of his artwork which was a baby Jesus and Joseph was in the background and asked you if you could make a Pro-Life song, because my mom many years before knowing my dad had gotten an abortion. You told him a little about your story, but we didn't know everything until now. I don't know that you'll see this, but I just wanted to say my family is so proud of you for opening up about your abortion story. We are so thankful for the grace of God and we are so thankful that you came to recognize it. Much love! God bless! 🙏🏻

[@ashleyvaughn5213]

I admire your openness about your life as a Christian. Some Christians I watched growing up would never let people know how they were living. Which kind of turned me away from congregations. Congregations can be good though as long as you realize the most righteous are just as human as you, even if they are ashamed to admit their faults and gossip and look down on others. ❤ We need more vulnerable Christians.

[@tyheviadavis2807]

Amen.

[@sobyntahondi]

Facts! The good the bad the ugly was an important one

[@placefeature5329]

Yeah

[@Gracious_Gifts]

Lecrae speaks on this in his other video in the "Deep End" series, it's titled "Why I don't hide anything". As leaders in high positions or in our everyday encounters we have the power to speak in truth. Our testimony is that power. Jesus gives us the grace to do this. And this is what we are all called to do. It's not the position or being known, in Misconceptions 4 Care states "you don't need the industry to know you if you know your dope" but we lack faithfulness. And I am speaking transparently, when you fall short so many times, and life shows the same hurt, you tend to turn away from. So something as simple as showing up looks like nothing to you, but to someone else it is exactly what was needed. Im grateful I grew up in NYC, it gave me the skin I needed, now I'm still in NY, and you can't take the city out of me. But this time I walk it with God. I can't please people, I will never truly please anyone, but when you do get in and bare with the process of molding, I'm not as "too much", "rude", and "disrespectful". I just allow God to destroy my flesh and speak through me. My mouth changed from reckless and impulsive to discerning with love and compassion. Love just doesn't look the same in the eyes of all. I learned tough love growing up in NYC, no filter. The only filter now is The Holy Ghost. God is control. The world is watching, and the devices have minds in control, attention and the ability to communicate with another without a device caught in the grip. We have a lot of work to do, but one step is "Unashamed".

[@BornagainKim]

"The less time you spend with truth, the easier it is to believe a lie" 🙌🏾❤

[@SuckerPunch92]

I love the transparency. I had an abortion when I was 18. I think about my baby often. Christ called me to have a relationship with him 2 years later. ♥️

[@mifnp8887]

The fire ants biting your hand was so telling. There is indeed something very different about sexual sin.

[@Taan1aa]

😭 I really needed to hear this. I’ve been feeling shameful of past decisions I made, even after confessing. It’s hard knowing I broke someone’s heart 😞

[@placefeature5329]

You didn’t break Gods

[@dubs_9775]

I got ya, still got the same feelings after what I did to my ex girlfriend. I remember after my confessions (am a catholic christian, I mean I go to catholic church to make sense to confessions time), the priest which I was speaking with ask me a question like, "U KNOW WHAT, THE REAL QUESTION ISNT IF JESUS CHRIST; GOD WILL FORGIVE YOU ONE DAY BCOZ HE ALREADY FORGIVE YOU. THE REAL ONE IS, WILL YOU ONE DAY FORGIVE YOURSELF ?" Hopefully this one will make sense to you as I break my head at that time. Ure loved, stay blessed 🙌❤

[@Gracious_Gifts]

God bless you, I can relate to breaking someone's heart, and also being heartbroken, and in the present time of this feeling I am comforted by God. His word says "Jesus is near to the brokenhearted" I pray that He revisits your heart and heals it beyond our understanding.

[@cristenvalentine]

I pray someone considering abortion hears your story and chooses life. Thank you for sharing. I know that must not have been easy. God will use your story for His glory. ❤

[@placefeature5329]

Amen babies are the best gifts ever.

[@Gracious_Gifts]

Let's pray that no matter what path people choose that God shows His love and compassion for them still. And that they learn from their choice. I had an abortion when I was 18, and to be honest I had no real understanding of what it was all about except as they call T.O.P (termination of pregnancy), I was raised in the foster system, in and out of group homes, so I often think about today that choice I made. I am grateful for it today, because I could have been that same choice, and I also could have lost my own life. I was blessed with 3 boys, I miscarried 2 along the way, and I believe that one day I will see my child, and we will be brother and sister or sister and sister in Christ. I believe God forgave me, I need to forgive me. And this too I pray for Lecrae. We all need to be free in Christ. Not bound to the past. But it takes time, and support. The fact I had a y children after rape and molestation, and being sex trafficked, is a miracle. Thank you for your comment as well. I needed this, to free myself. I speak on my past and often cry in sadness, but I feel stronger today. God bless you.

[@David.Stoglin]

This is what the world needs, we’re all in this together.

[@AbundantlyMarquesha]

I was on the opposite side. Both guys wanted the baby but I didn’t want to struggle and lose my own autonomy. Through it all, God has been so gracious to me.

[@dismantlegangstalking1239]

im having a discussion with my the father of my child because he hasnt been there for his daughter, but god has graced us with the ability to heal that relationship for the greater her. its not easy but i still feel so blessed to be able to do it.

[@jasgirl110]

Had to pause at 27:00 and really worship God. He is so gracious and forgiving. We don’t deserve the mercy and Grace we receive continually. Yet God can still love us and use us. What a redemption story! Whew I feel goosebumps thinking about this..

[@LecraeOfficial]

What's something you felt you couldn't come back from?

[@drewburesh386]

Man, this was so powerful. God bless u sir!!

[@keepitlowkey3053]

Wrongdoings in a relationship that ended.. still feel I can’t come back from it, but also that it’s not about me but about the greater good of it.

[@Mmarjl]

Porn, that bc i've watched it, that i will never go back to the way i was before i ever watched it.

[@Queen_Nae]

This! Your story is mine except I was the girlfriend. 🙏🏾

[@sammyatthewheel]

​@@Mmarjlhow did you overcome those temptations? I need help with mine.

[@Psalms1914]

He gets so real❤ it's refreshing

[@latesahughes]

Thank you Jesus for finding value in me in spite of….

[@davekurschat6791]

Thank you Lecrae for sharing your story.

[@yoobruce39]

Thank you for your story! 🎤

[@user-by8ee8rm4u]

You have gained a unique perspective from your experience Lacrae. You have a great opportunity to save lives by changing the minds of people who are now in your past situation. As a fellow believer and someone who was the baby that wasn't aborted, I encourage you to be even more of a platform on this topic. God bless you!

[@chary1593]

Thank You for this transparency 🙏

[@samanthawright9465]

Thank you man. Respect you so much much

[@desirevanessa]

This spoke to me. Thanks for sharing. Powerful stuff.❤

[@thomashester2]

Thanks for sharing your story ❤

[@ScoobyBrue]

Thank you very much for uploading this videos Lecrae. I have really enjoyed them and learned many things

[@Passion84GodAlways]

Wow...your transparency...just WOW! Thank you for sharing.

[@mmpedro2008]

Appreciate your openness and sincerity🙏God bless you Lecrae

[@Bees4u]

Awesome video Lecrae! Your transparency will lead to other people's transformation.

[@shellythurman2557]

What an incredible message and thank you for sharing something so personal. I needed to hear this. ❤

[@missbreezy3469]

Loving this series. Have watched every upload. Amazing and inspiring of the transof. 🙏🏽

[@shandreka_monique]

thanks for sharing ❤God bless you!

[@tenishastairpraisegod7648]

God's Blessings and greetings from Connecticut 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾

[@destinygregory7756]

You transparency really makes me feel seen

[@tinabrown9958]

Thanks for being so open, honest,& understanding. So many men, I'm sure have been, or are in your very shoes. God bless you all🙌🙌

[@BausikFilmCo]

I just want to say thank you for sharing this and being so vulnerable. I know how hard it must be to share this publicly. I relate to this so much and have a similar experience and it was and still is the biggest regret of my life to this day I beat myself up so much about this. Thank you Crae love

[@jjassunshine]

❤ what an authentic moment on the internet. I'm glad to have taken time to listen to this.

[@tomcoop9750]

Thank you Lecrae. ❤

[@jasminedavis6120]

The still go to therapy at the end was a highlight. I am here for every story Lecrae wants to share!!!

[@Imgonnaswingby]

Thanks for highlighting the "B side".

[@kidjkid]

I appreciate that you were able to share your story and take accountability for your actions. Your story gives me strength and not to be hard on myself because of the decisions that I have made in my past.

[@taylorphockenberry9391]

Your song the good the bad and the ugly is spot on song about. Still bumping it in 2023. Proud of you Crae of how much God has grown you in and your personal growth over the years!

[@boldasalion281]

So powerful, thank you for sharing bro. Felt God’s mercy afresh, for me, and us all. We need that. It’s only because of His great love we’re not consumed. ❤🙏🔥

[@byronicT]

Thank you for your openess Lecrae, I pray God continues to use you for his purposes, alot of people (including myself) will find healing from this video. God Bless! 🙏🏾

[@jacemiddleton3053]

I heard about your music 10 years ago. Never checked it out unfortunately until the last 2 years. I found this on KZbin and I’ve watched at least 5 the last few days. You speak so well and I love how you speak on things that challenge us and hold us all accountable. Keep doing it man, I support your movement!

[@Epicgamer_Mac]

Respect for your willingness to share. God is amazing!

[@yahelazar4266]

It really sets you free when you confess the sins in thy own closet. I was there Lecrae. Job well done!

[@NoVainGlory]

There is so much wisdom that i find. These podcasts are an absolute blessing

[@soloa1645]

Thank you so much man, we are saved by faith, we are family in Christ man

[@KendallTuckerMusic]

Your helping a lot of people bro by sharing your Stories! Respect

[@pauladeleye1393]

Thank you @Lecrae for being a blessing to our generation

[@nicolemerenivitch8551]

“They spend more time looking at how they differ….” -- just spot on!!! 🙌🏽

[@KathyEx07]

Thank you Lecrae!

[@allieliz1505]

I cried like a baby watching this. Thank you Jesus ❤

[@mwizamhango884]

Oh! Man. Praise God for you brother. ‘You don’t know redemption until you have done some things that are deemed as unforgivable, and for God to still say ‘I can use you still’ (summary) Thank you for this. Timely encouragement. I just had some tough conversations with my wife about my past and this is an encouragement. Amen

[@Katrina116.]

Thank you for sharing

[@chelseafailla9887]

Thank you for sharing, again, your raw, not often good reality - yet it's beautiful because it's bathed in God's goodness. Your wisdom, encouragement and authenticity are deeply appreciated.

[@susanschweitzer1090]

Well said. Lacrae 👏👏👏👍🙏💪

[@TLmomofZAHS]

What a blessing. So good. God is so, so good.

[@sondrasmith9338]

I love that you said you are not what you did you are who God says you are! I truly want the freedom you are talking about so desperately! Please keep me in your prayers! Your heart and vulnerability give me hope

[@Gracious_Gifts]

I'm so blessed to be a part of this. Honest when I see these, and hear them, and then I just finished making dinner 😅 Listening to "Protecting my Peace", and some other bangers on my playlist, I am brought to Genesis 2:24-25 "Therefore a man shall leave his father and his mother and hold fast to his wife, and they shall become one flesh. 25 And the man and his wife were both naked and were not ashamed." Naked and unashamed is an actual thing, and a long with discernment and prayer we should all be careful. You are super strong, for this, and I don't know if this means anything, but I am MAJOR proud of you. To God be ALL the glory Crae. It is written 2 Corinthians 12:10 "10 For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong." I'm on the deep end with you, i learned a lot in the wabi sabi part of the reconstruction. I Love you, and the ENTIRE movement. Much love to you all here.

[@yourztruly.ki9967]

Love this video ❤️

[@BarsAndBeatsEntertainment]

Maturity trruly is a process and it's so cool to see how God has worked in you since

[@Gracious_Gifts]

You spoke about being cerebral, and also because of it, it made you believe that God was a "beat you down" type. I can relate. I can say that I was honest one day in prayer, and said to God, "I know what I was taught in fearing you God, and I know what your word says God, but what does fearing you look like for real" And although I wasn't ready for the answer, I am grateful to know what He meant, so when Tasha Cobbs says, "Gracefully Broken" You can definitely ID. I continue to grow every day, not because I want to be better than everyone, but I want to embrace the "new creation" I continue to become. I need people today, but I need God so much more. "Lean not on your own understanding" real ting dat", I remember when I was real about the condition of my youngest, and I embraced Autism, Dyslexia, and Learning disability, I was not okay with it, I thought I couldn't be a mom, I was damaged, I could not be loved, and my kids deserved better, I even though how I can find better for them. And I can tell you honestly tell you that God made living more worth doing. So, my evaluation with people, comes from a place where fear was God, and the repetition with every encounter was evident, because all I knew was a word that gave me an identity "You will never be nothing more, than a crack headed whore, on your back" (My Foster Mom) Now, I'm good enough for God the Father, Jesus and the Holy Spirit. I'm fighting fear today, with a line from the preacher in the Netflix show "Harriet", "Fear is the enemy, trust God entirely". I felt peace, because I know what Harriet experienced, and all I can do is just be still, and follow God. I am watching things I never thought would happen, and He is healing the places where trust died. God is EVERYTHING to me.

[@Amelia7777]

Man Lacrae! You are so right about The quadrants are!!! This has been laid on my heart but could not EXPLAIN IT! All I could think of was how much strife is in the church but ain’t no one wanna work together to build each other up and grow together!! I’m sure this is how Jesus would want it EXACTLY. 8:19

[@Marie-ds9ws]

You are a true and living testimony about the goodness of god. We need the lord. We mess up and life can be rough sometimes. But his unfailing love is our center. ALL BY HIS GRACE!

[@sarahbhattan-pomeroy8762]

Thank u for your transparency, your child will welcome u with open arms

[@Rare879]

Pull Up. It is all about Unity. In Communion. How do we commune and commun-icate together. Thanks for your words. Life is a Circle and God is in the Middle of each of us. Merci Man !

[@cheryldian]

Thank you, we’re worthy

[@rodolfomoreno9404]

I also saw God as someone who would have crushed me. Because I messed up so bad. My transgressions also drove me away from God. For years, I lived with guilt and condemnation. This last year I finally returned to my first Love! I realized He loved me no matter what! Regardless of all my discussing sin 😢 He still wants a relationship with me!

[@Duffield_World89]

Lecrae salute to you brother this interview was very amazing because I've lost a child through a miscarriage of the woman I was with at the time i wasn't supposed to make into this world but God made sure I arrived one of the main reasons why I love and put all my faith in Jesus Christ Almighty ✊🙏🦋

[@elasticheart1245]

What beautiful man the lord has transformed you into Lacrae, I believe things happen for a reason and the lord makes no mistakes. He used YOU for his glory ❤🙌

[@mikaylawheeler8270]

Matthew 24:12 "And because iniquity shall abound, the love of many shall wax cold." 1 John 3:18 "My little children, let us not love in word, neither in tongue; but in deed and in truth. "

[@sarasweightlossjourney1432]

God bless you

[@iamshamari]

This helped me so much.... I have always felt that i was nothing or useless because of the things that happen to me when i was younger, and the things i have done,,, i just really hope that god can forgive me. All the times i was molested and insolated as a child i just pray that God can help me forgive those people and get stronger in my walk with him.

[@bk_116]

may GOD bless you sir.

[@alexcaptinejunior994captin7]

Thank God for lecrea. Thank u crea for beeing transparent. U save me from doing the same thing bro.

[@user-iy8qm1dr7r]

Thank you for this i needed to hear it.

[@richardgreletski6133]

thanks for your vulnerability lecrae

[@monicafischer817]

I love these videos so much, and appreciate all you share the marriage one really got me, I also have severe depression and I lean to your songs, cry for you, I'll find you and walk with me they really pull me through your testimony definitely can show so many of us we are not alone in our own struggles I'm so thankful for your words, your music your story I hope you keep doing these 🙏

[@GOD.IS.THE.DESIGNER]

Thank you

[@TheHaynj164]

Maaaan... the wisdom, the sincerity, the grace in the delivery, The Spirit is all over this. Phenomenal segment🙏

[@keisha5184]

Thanks for sharing L

[@Dman4life221]

Thank you thank you thank you! Lecrae I might be a trash white boy but I love your music and your message you send and truly appreciate this message. I’m struggling so bad messages like this are so eye opening and refreshing. Thank you for your transparency.

[@mwlammbi2650]

You're not trash bro. The value you hold in God's eyes is enough that he would actually lay down his own life for you.

[@boipelotube]

You’re not trash brother.🙏🏽💛

[@legendson5567]

You're not trash bro

[@angelmonroefineazz2827]

Never say that again. Your made in his image and likeness and God isn’t trash. So neither are you I pray we both find value in ourselves so we never speak low or negative of ourselves again. 🙏🏾💕 much life to you.

[@Dman4life221]

Thank you for that and your right we were made in his image@@angelmonroefineazz2827

[@Gracious_Gifts]

And I had an abortion, and it was hard however, the blessing is that I was given 3 beautiful boys after. Your not alone brother ❤Acts 1:8 (ESV) 8 But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit has come upon you, and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the end of the earth.”

[@sean6920]

so good

[@josephholland665]

Same, GOD SEES THAT I PADDLE IN THAT BOAT TOO. GOD IS GREAT

[@danielragin2880]

The whole issue with denominations is because of what you said in 4:00 : We want to show aspects of God in what we understand vs complimenting and MERGING those aspects and teaching each other. The issue with politics is that's what the enemy uses to divide us based on our own pride of viewing ourselves (ie: denomination/method) as the most Godly. One vid I came across (spoke about SSA) and the guest said something powerful: You'll never know unconditional love until you explain what condition you're in and release it. I had told a friend who left a bad church, but is still calling out to God, that he's one of the few who's helping me move forward with my faith and God used him. God uses the imperfect to call out the self-proclaimed perfect.

[@Desireeallday]

I understand all about it . I have never had to forgive myself for anything more. It is big. God is big also so guess who won . Happy new year 🎉

[@romerolancaster1279]

I think this podcast is very dope, mad vulnerable. However, I think every podcast needs at least one other person in the room for the conversation to flow better. Monolog is a tough for ANYONE to pull off every episode.

[@dianamichelle215]

I got an abortion at 18 almost 19 and my partner didn’t want nothing to do with my pregnancy and when I say I’m balling my eyes out on your story… I comend you for expressing your feelings I didn’t know I needed to hear this to know that there are men out here who feel regretful as well not just women

[@mambamentality295]

I really needed this and God really spoke to me through Lecrae....I've been struggling with a porn addiction for years to the point where it started hurting me and the people around me and I lost friends and relationships because of it...I just broke down in tears especially during the end parts because it just felt like a reminder of how loving and gracious God can be despite my situation and how this "thing" didn't have to be the dark cloud looming over me anymore...I was free!....am I still dealing with the consequences to this day? Yes but I am so glad to have a loving God that never ever fails and loves me nonetheless

[@StaytruetoU507]

I’m going through the pornography phase too but we already overcame the addiction we just have to know it mentally first

[@danrichards7927]

@@StaytruetoU507it sounds so cliche, but don’t give up! The Lord delivered from this August 14, 2022….although I fell once since, back in September, it no longer has a hold on me. This is coming from a guy who wanted to die or even take my own life, because of such a sin as this. But the Lord delivered me. Praise Him for His work 🙏 continue to repent and pray to Him! Never give up!

[@sirjohn0891]

Amen 🙏🏾

[@angelicagalabuzi1131]

I wish there was an illustration of the grid at 2:00 . I know i can draw it for myself, but I'm just suggesting such could be added in later videos

[@travelwithsouthernchick5112]

Wow this is deep

[@janineyslava4552]

Yes🌹

[@grownunicorn637]

12:41 JESUS!!!🎉 AMEN!

[@therealchristaholic]

🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

[@cleverboys1z]

Wow bro 🎉👍🎉😎🌄

[@jennymoll3978]

God is firm and a mighty warrior, but He is also loving, forgiving and shows mercy abundantly. There is nothing you can do to remove the love of God from your life. He loves us so much that if we ask for forgiveness and truly mean it, He will forgive.

[@user-do7io5to7f]

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[@emohinga]

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