I didn’t think I’d live past 16 // EP 55

[@Moon-gu4dq]

Every time I think I have an original experience Madeline makes a pod episode about it

[@il..69]

No literally why tf was I like damn that’s me

[@alyssaeden6977]

lighting is giving twilight in the best way

[@taroof777]

YES

[@Alan_Shv]

what edward was listening to while standing in bella's bedroom

[@ana-nim]

Where have you been locka

[@LizzieChie]

@@Alan_Shvdebussy 😂

[@cieloaguilar3722]

Literally came here to comment the same thing, I love it

[@AllisonDenofrio]

All I want for Christmas is an hour long episode

[@Acey_Farley]

same

[@il..69]

As a teen around that age who feels how you did I genuinely hope I will have that switch in my life and now I think it’s possible, so thank you, basically random stranger on the internet for the reassurance

[@ChiaraLuan]

I love it when you talk about your anxiety, because although I feel bad about the fact you know what it feels like, it makes me feel less alone and ashamed about the fact I have and still experience severe anxiety It’s fucking horrible but I believe it can be transformative in a positive way

[@VirtuallySpiritualP]

You are my Sabrina Carpenter. So happy for your success and you made me chuckle three times this episode 😂

[@epushzp]

nobody understands the old sabrina carpenter music and girl meets world love like this and it makes me so happy

[@hafsaali7510]

Girl, you literally described my whole experience being a Sabrina Carpenter fan. I knew about her in 2014 too, but I was 7-8 years old, I didn't knew nothing about social media or anything I just knew that she's my idol and I would be forever (I still). I wish I could go to any of her shows, but unfortunely I live in Spain and I can't, I remember seeing videos of her little shows when she was like 17 or 18 and there were literally only 200 people in a room and her, I was so jealous.

[@pravoslavnibalkanci]

0:27 I noticed that i have two reactions to sad music. If it’s sad music portraying genuine and deep emotion(like sadness but in a human/healthy way) it can actually help me a lot. But if it’s the sort of ,,mindless depression music” that kinda numbs you, then it makes me feel ten times worse. The example for a ,,healthy sad song” for me would be listening to a sad Adele song. If it’s a quality song portraying deep human emotions it can help me tremendously. Idk if anyone is gonna get this yap session but just felt like sharing what helps me if anybody needs it/relates to it😭💓

[@helengrugett]

this is soooo true. i can NOT listen to any sort of ambient music without feeling literally depressed

[@spacebrickz]

STOPP u put it so well bc i saw sat here listening thinking strangely sad music makes me happy but it’s bc if it’s meaningful sad music it’s making me feel seen and validated but when it’s just like mindless depressing stuff it doesn’t have the same effect

[@thealpacalypsenow]

When she talks about not feeling at home on earth along with the crippling anxiety it sounds a little like the effects of early childhood emotional neglect. When I first read about “global high intensity activation” it made a lot of those kinds of feelings make sense for the first time.

[@rosesigado]

I second this, coming from someone who’s had childhood emotional neglect. I really relate to her ever since I found her KZbin and her podcast they make me feel very seen and heard the way she talks about how she feels…

[@karravetisyan]

yep, but she's also mentioned how she's had separation anxiety even before feeling a sense of neglect, which made her mom get her to a psychic medium and stuff, I'd actually recommend you guys watch her video on that as well. If anyone remembers which episode that was, I'd highly appreciate a reply

[@gowrirao7626]

@@karravetisyanyep! It was the one with the past like regression expert

[@shauntanikkiarule888]

As soon as you said “we’ll be the stars” I gasped so loud I used to sing all of her songs to my baby brother to calm him down and somehow it worked I believe Sabrina put spells in her songs because if it was any other song he would cry but as soon as I put on her songs he shuts up right away and I’m just left dumbfounded🤣🤣 also girl meets world all time favorite I’m so happy that I can finally watch it since they have it on Disney+😆😆. And last but not least I am so happy that you are doing so much better I’m sorry for everything you went through as someone who has dealt with depression and is still dealing with anxiety both social and regular it does get better even when you don’t believe it will please just continue to believe that you can do anything you put your mind too I am proud of you for wanting to do better for yourself even though it made you uncomfortable you did it anyway🎉 that just shows how strong you are as a person and also I just recently found out about you like a month ago and I’m already a fan🤣 I will continue to support you and many more I wish many more success and more in the future❤❤

[@roro.y7973]

not me listening to sad music and its winter and its dark at 4 … and i feel you

[@victoriasalexa]

let’s stop!

[@dannionline6015]

She must've been screaming when Cench sat next to Sabrina at that fashion show and played nintendo switch together

[@markustenisons7279]

I have never felt so intrested and involved while watching a video. It gave me a sense of oh yeah lets listen to what Madeline has to say and was so invested. First time i sat fully concentrated on a video in a hot min. Anyway you're awesome xoxo

[@tqmiza]

needed this tonight

[@pedrogaspar10]

"I sat down, was still and relaxed for the first time in my life." "I randomly got this sense of I'm at home here." There might be something to this 😄

[@aleesa3197]

I love u sm ur podcast keeps me going

[@Amelia-k7z]

love u madeline

[@lauren0034]

I’m glad you are here Madeline

[@emozyns]

my favorite podcast 🖤

[@doodlemort]

genuinely every time a new episode comes out i jump for joy. bc why is she SO RELATABLE. i've been listening to phoebe bridgers, boygenius and clairo so much and it's making me depressed. and i just realized today, and now i see this video confirming it?! omg. and the way she went to a sabrina concert. I JUST WENT TO A SAB CONCERT LIKE HELLO lets be best friends madeline!

[@lilyloomis398]

i needed this exactly at midnight madeline thank you

[@livaozola2802]

these podcast episodes are like phone-calls with my long distance bestie

[@chantalbarazarte]

this is literally me talking about how billie eilish GENUINELY SAVED MY LIFE

[@danny-zo8xi]

She’s tooo real.

[@denarendall]

I also remember seeing Sabrina for the first time in girl meets world and becoming instantly captivated because she was SO BEAUTIFUL and SO EFFORTLESSLY COOL and absolutely not a fucking thing has changed

[@ella-cb1yn]

Omg all I can think about is that video of central c meeting Sabrina carpenter

[@azerty4742]

I swear when I saw the notification I thought you were Bella in Twilight

[@leyla7354]

girl i love you so fcking much fck ur episodes got me thru our similar experiences😭

[@goldpurp]

At the last part, I think it of it as you developed a bad instinct or 2 and that's why you had that random reaction but you recognize it and strive to work on it and want to change 🖤 and that's why I subbed to your YT, you work on yourself and it's influential lol

[@aimsfabs6147]

Random : I think one of my favourite old Sabrina Carpenter song is Why, there's something IN that song- it's so good

[@hayleyw9904]

MADZ I so get u with the anxiety thing, I was legit the same. Until I started taking shrooms, and hypnosis therapy (on top of regular therapy), and everything’s changed for me ever since.

[@zarathakkur]

but sad music makes me feel what happy music doesnt 😭😭

[@Starl1ng.]

Try mixing and matching or trying stuff that's bittersweet rather than completely dreary.

[@jamiegultiano]

Babes you just posted, Love you and your podcast!

[@User-yu8er]

You being a Sabrina stan checks out. I didn't know you other than in passing mentions of you from drama but I knew I liked you immediately without having a real reason to lol but now I get it you're on the same wavelength

[@Amnz152]

madeline i think that you are insanely cool. (a sixteen year old)

[@purpletiger9313]

"And then my mom bought us hamsters." So funny. You like LA, I can tell you're happy. Your Sabrina is my Delta Goodrem -- same dynamic, proud dad for her success way back when I was one of the American fans (she's Aussie). California lady therapist, I'll shut up.

[@КамелияЦанева-я2э]

I love sabrina from girl meets world, too, omg. It's one of my fav series

[@Julia-hd2bs]

OMG that couch feeling is exactly how I feel fuck … sorry you can relate it’s terrible it’s like eternal homesickness

[@ALIEN3966D]

i feel the same way Madeline about Taylor Swift album 1989 one of my favorite albums of all time👍😁

[@michellegedzius]

I’m deeply grateful for your podcast. Over time, you’ve become a true source of comfort for me. Your ability to express emotions so beautifully in words is truly remarkable, and I’m so thankful that you’ve found your place in this world and choose to share your thoughts with us. You’ve profoundly impacted my journey here, and I can’t thank you enough for that.🤍

[@marylou281]

Girl u made me tear up at 13:00 ! I feel that so deeply, thanks for sharing it ❤ sending love and peace ur way

[@esthervp_7]

Sabrina needs to see this

[@bella_manto]

i will not be in peace until i know sabrina has seen this and y'all meet

[@reesesdocs]

I dont know how i feel about seeing this 2days before my 16th birthday👀

[@krishos]

lol this was posted the day after my 17th birthday 😂😂😂

[@il..69]

9:05 omg she’s being so poetic about this yess

[@Anaclock781]

I too had a weird obsession with girl meets world when it aired, except I was a Rowan fan over sabrina 😭

[@clairoluvs]

I CAME RUNNING SEEING THE NOTIFFF

[@ljvh123456]

regarding therapy and your body reacting - try polarity!!! Its amazing

[@dianazizan7767]

all i want for christmas is another vlog 🫶

[@sarah10gg53]

I’ve never, never heard anyone describe this feeling - couch surfing on earth / in reality

[@Hanie-r2m]

Immaculate 🤍

[@StephenBelcher-m3r]

“ Babylon Give Me No Plane Germs In The Winter !” Babylon Give Me No Plane Germs Forever!” Unto Jah❤”

[@Sirensecret888]

Watching this before sleep 🫶🏻

[@nailsbyAJP]

proud of you madz:)

[@Goldilocks-g7o]

I LOVE YOU MADZ!!

[@yukii-c8j]

People who will always support madeline Argÿ❤

[@il..69]

2:15 help that so real, not in school rn and I’m so jealous of kids my age going into school and having fun, even tho school has been nothing but torture for me.

[@Prettygirly9877]

I can totally relate to you , Love you💖

[@May-om7ck]

I have the same relationship with charlie xcx IMAGINE THAT

[@athraalgarawi511]

I love Sabrina carpenter aswell it’s almost like we are legit same it’s crazy my whole life my parents told me my birthdays July 7th so i celebrated July 7 until like age 15 or 16 they told me it’s actually July 8 and ur birthdays July 7 I relate to sooo many things u say & Like I said I loveee Sabrina an also was a fan and also was jealous at that time cuz I didn’t go to school either lol but they did when all that went down with u an ur ex I was so hurt for u that I’m not even going to lie I seen her hanging out with ur man at a fashion show & was like wow there going to hookup tonight look how close they are I remember thinking Sabrina’s shady she knows what’s going on u where on every single persons timeline in the world when that stuff all came out n u where brave enough to tell ur story I kind of started to look at her different when I seen her with ur man while u where heartbroken not gonna lie she’s not better then you lmao ur so beautiful I hope u know that

[@athraalgarawi511]

Ur ex man I mean sabrina was pretty cozy with him at that fashion show sis I don’t know about all that love u got for her ur so innocent u don’t even know she was tryna get with ur ex man while u guys where going through it with ice down syndrome, looking ass

[@oosun4942]

i was happy to know u were a fan but i didn’t know u were a STAN😭

[@JessieArt]

You’re so amazing

[@isabel20728]

8:30 She really said 🎶sOmEtHiNg hAs cHaNgEd WiThiN mE🎶

[@hayleyanne101]

Madeline you need to listen to madison beers life support and silence between songs trust me hehehe 😝

[@RugayaBorrins]

Yayyyyy Madz is baackkk🥰🫶

[@jaedawortel5362]

i love ur long sleeve btw

[@marylou281]

How did you, as a girl thats so deeply thoughtful, end up with a guy who couldn‘t use his brain for 2 seconds to think about his actions ? Seriously tho hahah

[@briers9]

There is nothing wrong with your brain, there is nothing wrong with the way you think. Just let go. Live the life you always imagine.

[@LuizaNis]

thank you for this, bb

[@cicine1707]

Glad you still here

[@baraapresley]

I relate, I just posted a video with the exact same concept, but my assumption was 25 😅

[@amiri.knievel]

7:18 this shit should not be this relatable

[@gemmaschmieding]

boygenius mentioned!

[@Muffinss461]

Same, Madeline, same

[@otxtony7505]

HELLO MADELINE

[@kemikaruu]

i love u. u get me always

[@camillehanry4352]

Babe is that a battery ur playing with

[@ttaylorpryor]

i want ur spotify or apple music 💔

[@fcgllegend6696]

greatness

[@DanishtaMahtab-gk5bz]

omggggg i love you

[@KIM.THANHMINH]

Ye save my life, now i'm sane.

[@EmiA05]

I feel so Seen for me It was past 11 because i was convinced i would die by a terrible illness

[@stvrl0_st]

finallyyyy yt was literally hiding me for 9 mins

[@kyokohorii]

❤❤❤

[@garycollingwood4002]

LOVE MYSELF 🎵🎶🎵 HAILEE STEINFELD 🥰

[@brandyledford2651]

I didn’t think I was gonna make it past 18 and have even attempted I’m 20 now and I feel lost idk what to do I didn’t think I was gonna be here and I still feel that way I feel like I’m just a car driving at full speed into a brick wall like I feel like one day I’m gonna see that exit sign and run for it if that makes sense I just don’t see myself making it to old age

[@rachelhahaha]

7:08 omg so true

[@rachelhahaha]

😭😭😭 soulmate

[@arylovesuu]

YAY ANOTHER EP i love u madeline 🫶

[@jamesgreen6629]

it was early 20s... for me... :)

[@8r4ndy]

ahhhh hi

[@marinhoestela]

I could hear you talking for 48 hours straight

[@SR-ec9cs]

I’m sleeping on the couch

[@unknownnn__]

16 years old rn, i’m such a embarrassment and disappointment. my friends might drop me idk yet. i really hope it gets better tho

[@imhoor6459]

Tbh I think the problem is that we think we are a disappointment and embarrassment,which destroys our life to the point we think everyone hates us.Getting over that feeling is rlly hard but it's 10000 percent worth it. Stay strong❤

[@unknownnn__]

@ i really thought my comment would be hidden in the sea of the hundreds of others, i never thought i’d get such a sweet response like this. thank you so so much ❤️

[@imhoor6459]

@@unknownnn__ A person is never meant to be hidden broo. Tbh I just related to u and still do,in this stage together❤️( let's just ignore all the shit things in our life)

[@unknownnn__]

@ we need to, i have such big dreams and embarrassment and shame is making me feel like i can’t achieve any but if i focus i know i can and so can you ❤️

[@imhoor6459]

@@unknownnn__ yasss don't let embarrassment and shame get in ur way,they are just pulling us back from our true potential,Consider them as distractions. Best of luck💗

[@Livia-e1m]

❤️❤️❤️😇

[@chantalbarazarte]

have you ever tried this one?

[@shoug4066]

20 minutes just talking about Sabrina damn

[@alyssamonahan1828]

Same bestie

[@sequoiajohnny9956]

SequoiaJohnny I Stare and Think about you ..

[@issy5726]

Same but i’s say 22’s