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FROM THE VIDEO "I was talking to a good friend about the nasty seasonal depression I went through this year. She said “don't you just hate the holidays?!?!”
That got me thinking, I really used to enjoy Christmas. When I was a kid we had the tree, stockings by the fire, the works. Some really good holidays. Over the years, as my illness progressed, this time of year started to remind me of hospitalizations and some of the deepest depression I've known. Now it's like I'm bracing for this time of year - waiting for the shoe to drop.
For a while there I got really pessimistic and irritated about the whole idea of “the holidays.” My family and friends thought it was simply related to seasonal Bipolar episodes. Well, it's a little more complicated than that.
For me, it's the constant reminders of all the things that I SHOULD be enjoying. It's like being in a wheelchair and watching people do gymnastics! Read that last line again. I see happy people in holiday commercials, people racing around getting Christmas trees and gifts, kids playing in the snow, in-laws and family getting together... People are enjoying things that I can't. It's NOT that I don't want to enjoy the holidays. It's that my brain is sick and there's this giant emotional wall preventing me from feeling what others do."
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