I don't want to be a 'me' anymore, there's so much fear, mind loses power & neutral witnessing

[@melodyf5795]

“The body holds so much fear…always censoring….past trauma, people will hurt me…I have to be perfect…..the stored up fear, it’s really sad” is so accurate :(

[@timothyammons9011]

Yet the alternative isn’t ignorance is bliss… it’s “knowing”, avoiding, confusion, etc…

[@pauladiaz7101]

Suzanne is a real one. Did not interrupt once or interject. Much respect. Amazing articulation

[@ashleyzito5414]

Susanne your such a great listener. There’s so many people out there that just need that extra space to express, but when your used to quick reactions from people, it’s easy to get insecure when you don’t get them… but I’m learning through you everyday how to listen and be listened too. Thank you ❤️

[@emilymacgregor4068]

Lilly so touched by your open sharing and I had tears of familiarity. I’ve been doing it tough and you so clearly articulated it - it reminded me I’m not alone. Thank you ❤

[@annemarieslee7720]

so comforting and helpful, thank you, also the two beautiful women who asked the questions, you are not alone in your fear and questioning, I am experiencing actually the same and it's hell at times, take care xx

[@brushstroke3733]

I feel almost bi-polar. Some days I quite enjoy life and feel like everything is OK and as it must be. Other days, I wish I had never been born and wish I could stop living now. I'm tired of the up and down, back and forth. I don't even want to feel up or good anymore. I just want to stop feeling, stop existing. Why the fook would I choose to take physical form? When it's good, I forget the bad and think whatever I've been through is worth it. When it's bad, I remember the good but it feels empty and meaningless and I don't care about it. Sigh. I'm just a sad, complaining loner I guess. And I don't matter anyway. For what it's worth, bless you all and may your experience be peaceful and enjoyable.

[@barabetta]

I am experiencing the very same thing... By now I managed to get to the point where on the bad days I am a little closer to actually believing myself when I try to convince myself that those moments during the "good days" where I REALLY FEEL that all of this makes sense and is okay as´it is, are as real (or unreal) as the painful contraction I just experience. I think many of us do have similar periods. You are not alone*

[@tatianapassosterapeuta]

Thank you so much for sharing...❤

[@nobodynowhere21]

I very much appreciate the Q&A format. Makes me feel WAAAAY less crazy about the questions I have 😂

[@kristensink3405]

How on earth does someone go through this in a marriage with a partner who has zero understanding or interest in awakening and liberation?

[@indef93]

If there's trust it seems to work. In this case, it has - so far. 😂

[@craighendry9908]

Liberation is freedom to be me.

[@pantherman8719]

I just love listening to Suzanne talk.

[@jillkelly1329]

Thank you for posting this!!! It was like she spoke my exact experience!!!

[@rcstye126]

i'm feeling the same way right now, totally understand what Lilly is talking about.

[@northernyogi]

So beautiful, thank you Lily!

[@Schneebs]

Beautiful

[@elektrotehnik94]

Not nonsense to me. 👍 it’s very advanced self-observation work & therefore, words get a bit “fuzzy” - but it’s also understandable 👍🙂 It’s OK to use the words we have at disposal, to try to convey the meaning. ❤ Love to you all ❤

[@myrealnameisawareness]

So sweet!

[@elektrotehnik94]

@@myrealnameisawareness ❤

[@MsTara007]

I love the shares! And Suzzane your replies are so valuable and confirming of the process. Thanks 🙏

[@propps2253]

I recognise a lot in Lilly's story it's like there is no end to it. For me TRE method works a little bit to remove the tension maybe it's helpful for others in this process.

[@Coreyinthehouse]

Life is built on stories & beliefs that are mistaken for Truth.

[@roycohen.]

It literally is the most uncomfortable you will ever feel. As more people wake up to the full understanding, I think more people need to speak about it now.. it's miserable because you legit can't find any information on it anywhere. Also, people with trauma may not be heard by many teachers because it was not their experience that it CAN be extremely difficult. I couldn't function for a few months because of it. Lilly, if you're out there and reading this, look into getting a good teacher that can help you through this or a therapist (with the non-dual understanding) if you feel like you need one. It can make you feel so alone but there is good support out there, it's a small world! Also: had a good laugh at the part where you said it's scary to not know, because it literally is your death.. and that's the same thing I experienced. the fear of not existing any longer. the fear of total annihilation, the fear of your own death! because the sense of me can make it feel like you're here and this is happening as it's in time.. but without it, poof, you're gone. sit with that.

[@ptanji]

Lilly’s comments … yes, yes, and more yesses!

[@62Bubbles]

So much relating to Lilly. Thanks for the vulnerability Lilly. Brave girl. Fear here too for the “unraveling” and the expectations of “final so-called liberation” have to be way off lol…The conditioning and secretly zero self-esteem from the age of 6 surely adds more layers I’m sure. Had a psychotic break after a manic episode about 7 years ago and remember the overwhelming feeling that I was god..who knows. Only the one manic episode in my entire life apparently induced by depression meds. Zero medication since so I don’t put much faith in labeling from psychiatric doc. Suzanne spoke in the 2nd half so incredibly clear one could almost understand intellectually the apparent “unraveling” to nothing. She is the best speaker ever encountered. She goes into how it feels which most speakers don’t. Thank you everyone for your honesty!!!❤

[@rosa-boom-nonduality]

💗

[@angelmoon8114]

Also how do I attend your zooms? Can you let me know about all of this ❤thanx again ✨

[@angelmoon8114]

My god how much I can relate to what this girl ( Lizzy) said in the beginning of this talk! I hope I spelled her name correctly. Suzanne can I please speak with you in so confused anymore I feel I’m losing my mind…❤

[@wolflarsen3447]

Does anyone know where to listen to the recent audios uploaded that the second lady mentions?? Thank you

[@michael-ig7hg]

how do i join you for class? thanks!

[@iAmNothingness]

"I am not tangible, nor am I real. I have no physical body, nor planet, nor universe. I have no atoms, nor material reality. I am the stark absence of all concepts, a state of consciousness devoid of all thoughts, all energy, and all things. I am the endless void where the entirety of the unperceived universe exists. I am indeed the infinite eternal Source, both the allness and the nothingness. I am the truth, consciousness, and bliss of pure awareness." ...Lalla

[@jacksaetveit]

I have a question. We usually take letting go and ceasing our clinging as being good things or things which are desirable in and of themselves when this is not the case since there is no meaningful good or bad when things are examined closely. I have it in mind then that the question of whether to let go or to hold onto something is entirely subjective and unanswerable as something which is better or worse since either decision will ultimately lead to different paths which individually are neither better nor worse than the other. How then do we decide and move towards letting go or holding on when there is no basis for one or the other? Of course, in my entire comment here, one could take issue with how I have worded things and used concepts like "I" and "Thou," but the point stands. What is one to do when all that's before them is a choice which is neither right nor wrong on either side?

[@elektrotehnik94]

Are you hungry? Is it better, or worse, to be hungry? Now, here is/ was your first decision. ^^ Now, do more decisions; or don’t. 🤷‍♂️ You are free; it’s your choice. 🏆❤️ With respect & with Love ❤️

[@TrojansFirst]

I don’t want anything to do with this path. These people seem depressed.

[@jamesthomas1244]

Indeed. Opening to our deepest shadows and fears is no cake walk.

[@TheAffrojutty]

Why are you here then?

[@Exotixa]

I think you have to resonate with what their saying and listen with deep empathy to understand. It is depressing on the outside, but it truly is just being vulnerable.

[@TrojansFirst]

@@TheAffrojutty I didn’t know until I clicked and watched. It strikes me as a form of nihilism.

[@koolyman]

​​@@TrojansFirstit's a sort of radical stoicism. You completely open up to your deepest and come closer to harmony with everything around you and everything within you.

[@trevgrooves]

I’m looking for a teacher or spiritual friend. I would like to work with your group or someone you could recommend, I know you are probably full. I have had experiences and would like see to see if anyone could help me along. I feel alone because I would sound like a crazy person to most/all people in my immediate life.

[@cjbailey31909]

Everyone that seems to be awakening seem so sad. What's up with that?

[@lunkerjunkie]

it's what we're holding un met finally being expressed.

[@Foxbrother90]

Not every one awakening is sad🎉

[@indef93]

I thought that too, until this happened for me. Even if there is lots of grief, it is beyond whatever "sadness" was taken to be. Ultimately, in a beautiful, graceful way. While such emotions purge, there is an underlying depth of paradoxical connectedness and groundlessness, all at once. It's definitely not just the typical emotional rollercoaster known before. You can't even own the experience anymore.

[@PetraKann]

So you haven't grown up yet? Join the club.