I felt paralyzed and frozen... Loss of identity can be traumatizing (& healing)...

[@laurenkensit]

just wrote in my journal the other day about not feeling like I have a void but that I am the void, complete emptiness. I feel you

[@noname-hb8vk]

it's like hearing my own story... going crazy, loosing memory, horrific fear attacks, confusion, sadness beyond sadness and crying backets of tears for years, body problems, madness... 😱 thanks for sharing Suzanne...

[@cheriemiller669]

So far this video has been the closest to my own experience. One thing I've noticed after being at this for 40 years is that now each place I land is much more of a gentle step down a gentle staircase. Each time I land it takes a bit before I realize that this isn't it either. Meanwhile that next layer gets stripped away. I have had traumatic experiences that have ripped away a lot all at once, but now I feel these last few steps feel lighter and lighter. It seems your journey was much more all at once. With each step in these last few years, there is so much more love in every moment.

[@giuseppe6273]

What caused the collapse ? Meditation or something else ?

[@timothyammons9011]

@@giuseppe6273cause~less …though I’m partial to the notion that such practices can make one more accident-prone 😊 Accidentally waking up that is 😁 Follow Heart 💗 May Heart lead mind

[@BandofAdventurers]

I would say stuff like we are so similar, both chill in graveyards, both experienced awakening, both kinda lived alone in a city because just felt like it. But then I'm like yeah...there is no i. We are just...the same. So, cheers to you! It feels nice to hear my experience spoken from another mouth.

[@someonesomewhere8406]

Absolutely beautiful Love you so much

[@kundaliniandnonduality]

Intense. Thanks!

[@Cheese-is-its-own-food-group]

The cemetery backdrop is beautiful!

[@BA-ei7tl]

It's always quiet there. It reminds you of ones mortality.

[@dandelobo9284]

Take a look at this famous quote: "Beauty will save the world” - Dostoevsky . I would say the world is first of all your world. Beauty can safe your world. It is like an only beacon which never stops to light, because everything else, every way and wisdom could turn to ugly if it is not beauty. What is beauty is different and it is always yours and always dynamic depending on the context. You can always light up a little candle of beauty which can not be extinguished even by the all darkness of the Universe.

[@kurtholzmuller2828]

This is the clearest I have ever heard this truth communicated. I have been chasing (what is already here) for several years. I have watched hundreds of hours of Non Duality speakers share their message. But the way you share your journey or "un" journey resonates with me. Thank you for being so vulnerable and sharing this "story". It is helping me (yes, there is still a me, LOL) to let go and understand there is nothing I can do nothing I can undo to make this shift in perception happen. I'm already there already that have always been...........I still have hope (the me again, hoping) that the me mind will dissolve and there will be the experience of freedom. I appreciate you and your message SO much.

[@selmayoga4721]

Walking barefoot on earth helps to realize energy stuck in the body .

[@danriffraff37]

Thank you will try this today :)

[@shortmindedbitches]

Grounding is scientifically proven to have all kind of healing benefits,you also connect to the natural dc of the earth

[@dominicfagan5496]

Years ago I drank ayahuasca with the intention of dissolving my ego. I didnt succeed in dissolving my ego, I just traumatized myself. I had an exorcism but I didnt release the trauma. Life is a mysterious thing.

[@dbuck1964]

Stop doing things to heal.

[@gumfun2]

I had an experience where it felt like "I lost my mother" (when living at home with her.) The attachment-object just kinda of dropped out of my "being". It was an intense experience for about 3 days and it gradually balanced out over a few weeks and then 1-2 months (and on). At the peak of intensity, I was grieving a lot (i.e. intense energy was coming up), and my body became paralyzed and froze up (and i was just as aware of the aspects of my experience as I was before, just that the contents of the experience were different.). I think I recall my organs felt like they locked up as well and my breathing became somewhat stuck. But, I remained equanimous and aware (due to meditation), and after a few seconds I realized there wasn't anything to worry or have anxiety about. My awareness was intact and my body was just in a certain state. ONLY BECAUSE I let the experience happen, did my body unlock and balance returned.

[@donwhite5129]

This video reminded me a passage from A Course of Love: "In order to experience the truth, you must move into a state that is real. Nothing is as real as everything, and is what some of you will or have experienced as a “dark night of the soul.” To realize that you reside in nothingness is but the counterpart of realizing that there is an all to which you belong."

[@kf1559]

Thank you. 🙏

[@kelliedawn9229]

This video touched all the places i don't necessarily want to except as i prepare to head back to California to support my dear aunt with pure knowledge that other family members could care less about my arrival & a mother who supports there excuses. I thought i could protect my heart but i was wrong. I stand again at another window of opportunity it hurts all the same 🙈 Thank you for sharing 🙏

[@yasminel-hakim4348]

thanks for sharing Suzanne. ❤️🙏

[@susanamos6237]

Hi I have stopped washing my hair, just went a bit longer each time, occasionally I have a bath seems to happen about every 6 to 8 weeks and I wash it once with some organic rose oil shampoo. I spray it with rose oil diluted in water.. I do not seem to worry what it looks like or that it exists anymore.. it doesn’t get greasy anymore either…

[@WingZeroDuality]

No landing. Not the mainstream approach. The commitment to no landing is the sort of rising of the phoenix that is found in stories of healing from trauma. Commitment can waver, as mentioned here. Rabbit holes and spikes of pain. But, its worth taking life seriously.

[@hempfu]

whatever trauma or pain happens : it brings You to where You belong every moment in time ; every situation is tailor made and ment to happen moment by moment : it couldn't be different before a crack takes place ...

[@gameofthrones5655]

Nice...did journeled it all down...that helphed a lot...2 keep the inner heartmind shining.The body is like the whole universe...the whole cosmos= just sometimes veiled...through the society mindhypnoses= a total false Reality we been told.❤ Thx 4 sharing ur heartmind❤

[@munirah_a]

Beautiful, thank you ♡

[@trinidad111]

If you like cemeteries and are ever in Cleveland, Lakeview cemetery is absolutely stunning

[@ami156]

Lol

[@ToThePureAllThingsArePure]

cemeteries are the BEST for first dates! :D

[@niksy4]

Thank you soo much on this videos...it's so precious how we all connected are no metter where and who we are. Universally ending of self happening...❤❤❤

[@pomidoris24]

Thank you so much!

[@n-xsta]

Powerful ❤

[@macparker3549]

So amazing to live in a moment where this can happen-such an intensely intimate expression of the impersonal. More captivating than any drama. Thank you, as always, for sharing your “walk.” 🙏🔥🫥⭕️🌻

[@Natty183]

♥️

[@danriffraff37]

Thank you Suzanne 🙏 these videos are like a breath of fresh air... Just when sometimes I happen to be feeling like in the pits of despair a new video of yours comes up and that despair eases... Although we are alone the fear of that kinda dissapates when I hear you speak about what you went through.. Something recognises that everything is ok really... I like what you said about allowing the body to do it's thing and heal the trauma.. Let it thaw out the freeze... Made me realise that I do somehow have the ability to feel that freeze if I rest... Would you say that the freeze is the resistance? So if possible resting in that? Much love my friend 🥰

[@swimmingbird238]

Thank you so much, Suzanna and for sharing ♥️☀️

[@Corey_jam3s]

Lmao I just burst out laughing so hard. I swear I had a shower yesterday, or maybe it was the day before… I swear I’m clean hahaha ❤❤❤

[@life13525]

Why do so many say then it is such a relief?...Anyway...to hear someone talk about this fear, aloneness, hopelessness panic ect. that is experienced feels somehow a bit comforting...thank you Suzanne

[@nobodynowhere21]

I mean, the recognition of the lack of some bizarre idealistic belief in free will is, in and of itself, a huge relief. The guilt and pride and blame all subside. And you get all that energy back you would have wasted on perpetuating illusions - you stop scrambling to build a sandcastle in the rising tide. So ironically the character can accomplish MORE, not less, and the energy is spent more productively. That's the interpretation here.

[@bolaursen1]

Its not so much that it is wrong and what are other people going to say. It is more the terror of being so fragile that even the slightest impact from other people can shatter one.

[@ItApproaches]

The most critical trauma in the dream! WET SOCKS!!! The horror, the sheer horror!

[@felice9907]

haha, that was a very special moment ...!

[@franspruim]

thank you super

[@spontaneousmusic3709]

I think there is always a mind , its just that one gets inflated like a bubble then pops out and fails at one point then another mind gets the next air subscription and is more in adaptation . You .. the taster of minds :) , their inflater and destroyer as well :)

[@premganga8822]

🌷

[@danielcowan8673]

I want to go to the cemetary today but it's closed.

[@dabpiy]

cemetery isn't very conducive to non-self thinking, albeit peaceful, but other distractions tend to dwell on time and endings ;) ♡

[@shawn6306]

I do respect everyone's free will if someone choose the ego which is the mind and some don't choose no ego i think there's no right or wrong on that at all but at the sametime there is also a side of me i actually do resonate with you said in this video suzanne because that's exactly how i truly actual feel too suzanne

[@JustDontMove111]

Love you Shawn your the best ❤💛💚💙💜

[@shawn6306]

@@JustDontMove111 i love you too your the best too i also want to send you love and hug energy as well❤🧡💛💚💙💜🤎🖤🤍

[@JustDontMove111]

​@@shawn6306Thank you so much Shawn ❤💛💚💙💜

[@shawn6306]

@@JustDontMove111 your welcome have a great amazing day take care

[@mehriravel5619]

You can't land anywhere.....🤥. scary. hugs to you.

[@UC241]

Nice to hear your expressions. I am left wondering what observation practices and questions led you thru the falling away of illusion?

[@lindahudson888]

Surrendering to "what is" happening that you have no control over. Observing and allowing the body to process and release without the "thinking mind" which creates only mental structures that are illusions.

[@UC241]

@@lindahudson888 Of course! that can be, and is anything, everything, and nothing without resistance of any kind.

[@dar_jada]

Believe the sense gates.

[@MelodicaWorld]

❤

[@spontaneousmusic3709]

The last part was cute :)

[@cprauss7254]

has she ever talked about the money, security factor?

[@PetraKann]

Identity is not a constant. It is always in Flux and travels along with us on our unique journey or pathway which intersects the pathways of others - sometimes purposefully, sometimes randomly by chance. Therefore one can never really lose their identity. The Trauma is really fear and anxiety of taking your next step - wherever it may lead. There is one thing that is certain about life, and that is our inability to understand and control it. Nobody knows the truth all the time - why do you think that you do?

[@lindahudson888]

Would you say that where and what you are is Love? Love Being Everything? Where we "land" as Source?

[@laurenkensit]

feel like I'm on this journey with you

[@jollyrodgertr]

Looking back what would you say could have made the process less traumatic/difficult? It seems inevitable it'll be uncomfortable but also seems like it's wise to learn from eachother's experience to make it as comfortable as possible... Sounds like if some practical things aren't in place/someone isn't resourced enough then the awakening process could drive some to suicide

[@aldensavon2247]

I definitely agree. As someone going through this right now, I'm suffering unbelievably and suicidal thoughts arise far more often than I'd like. I wish there were things to make this easier.

[@lindahudson888]

The Thing that makes the process easier is to simply surrender to what is happening and allow the body to process it all as The body has a consciousness of its own - connected directly to Source by your breath and energetic field. Just become the Observer - allowing everything to come into a new alignment. Especially if you physically have no way to control anything and there is no hope!! This is your holy moment!! THIS. IS. WHY YOU EMBODIED HERE. NOW.

[@lindahudson888]

Destroying the body doesn't solve the "problem ". Only Living through this "dark night of the soul" brings resolution. Peace and Love. The ultimate realization that our greatest fear is not death - but our Eternal Nature!!

[@vladn6031]

@@aldensavon2247 You can establish a connection with a fully realized beings, ask their blessings daily and feel them in your body/mind. Guru Rinpoche, Yeshe Tsogyal, etc. whomever you resonate with.

[@mtotheptothed]

Speaking as someone with a long background in meditation, but with no substantial awakening - I so wholeheartedly agree. I'm so thankful for the ever-growing access to this message, but at the same time I feel like there needs to be a conscious coming together of heads of people able to speak from this place to address this specific point - thoroughly. Tony Parsons and Suzanne where the first non-duality speakers, besides the Dzogchen, Advaita Vedanta, Adyashanti, Loch Kelly etc that I had been listening to for years already, that KZbin sent my way that were really speaking this directly/blatantly. And to be honest I kind of hated it - as much as I could agree intellectually with what the end point was pointing at - the utter hopeless feeling I got/the I might as well just do nothing because there is nothing I could do to possibly help grace along bothered me so deeply. After a week or so of listening I just felt like 'ugh, I gotta turn this off cause I'm starting to have dark thoughts - and I'm not usually one to do so. It has thus far been Angelo at Simply Always Awake that seems to be best at delivering that message, yet not leaving me feeling hopeless. After spending a lot more time listening to Angelo I've felt more ready to try listening to Suzanne again - as I do like her. But even so, her somewhat recent interview with Angelo's partner Violet also really left me feeling like -ugh- are either of them actually better off having gone through all this? Are they still just processing so much since they both have been going through this fairly recently - as compared to say Angelo? Even though it seemed like they had made it through the 'worst' of it I still felt unsure if I wanted to be where they were. Even though they both said "beautiful" a lot - in the end I felt more of their trauma than their relief - almost like they were still trying to convince themselves it's better on 'the other side'. Please don't get me wrong, I love Violet and Suzanne and have gotten a ton from both of them and feel they have so much to teach and share with truly deep insights. I'm more just sharing my honest thoughts to see what it says about me - my unenlightened ego-identified mind can get quite confused by this all and this has been running through my head for a while... Maybe it's just the fact that the ego doesn't like the message - I get that part - and maybe that's all it is. But, in one sense, like if the Buddha said "this is the 8 fold path that leads to feeling traumatized, suicidal, and then just empty (but not even quite sure if it's the 'good' kind of empty) - I don't think the teachings would still be around. Might as well take the highs along with the lows of delusional life. It seems some people seem to describe awakening as almost completely 'positive' - a huge relief, free of suffering etc.. Are they largely just leaving out what they went through and just speaking from where they are at present or are there just as many people who go through awakening basically smoothly as there are people who went through the depths of despair? I am SO appreciative of how honestly you share though Suzanne.

[@someonesomewhere8406]

You are amazing Suzanne I really love you But what is this obsession with Cemeteries about?

[@niksy4]

Can we say that somehow separation " creates itself and last " In brain? And than all body pick up different kind of energies depending how the story is created...

[@rosa-boom-nonduality]

💗

[@Shmyrk]

My most profound awakening experience was fucking SO intense As intense as anything could be, maybe Even if you logically know the truth, REALIZING the truth is the most *real* thing there is

[@giuseppe6273]

What was the collapse caused by ? Meditation or something else ?

[@lindahudson888]

Trauma collapses "reality" sometimes

[@someonesomewhere8406]

I am not criticising but an explanation would really help please Cemeteries?

[@cprauss7254]

so does Suzanne believe there is no free will in humans? Has she discussed this in another video?

[@laurenkensit]

only place from here is the heart space but even that has a mind of its own

[@russelltalker]

Have you had a God realization, or some other transformative, impactfull, deep perception of the divine that is responsible for everything manifest? I ask because I know you speak about the no self experience, something I am after. But aside from this ultimate state of no self, is the conviction and knowledge of the divine and your apparent self as a sort of tiny but loved cog in the great scheme of things beyond our understanding. For me it happened during some experiences in isolation that I'm sure was the processing of repressed knowledge about my self, as it automatically surfaced because of the isolation, and I believe lead to an opening up of the psyche, and the nervous system, and consciousness, and less tension in all those regards. During these experiences were bouts of intense but silent and still weeping, that felt like massive energy movement, like vomiting, and at some point they culminated in these experiences of the most prized, impactful bouts of sheer felt intensity and love that would leave me breathless and still. Just enamored by everything sensed, felt or perceived or known, with this overflowing gratitude, as tears would free flow from my face and it felt like a beam of this intensity was shooting from the center of my chest. It happened lots of times a different intensities depending on the situation and how much privacy I had. It left permanent changes on me too. From what I've understood, this is the divine, or Shakti, or God, Brahma. The manifest self or the foreground self. You talk about emptiness and no self, which I think is the other state behind that. The unmanifest. The background self. Pure awareness. Pure bliss. The absolute. Shiva. But yet you also talk about acceptance, and processing of feelings, which has been a very big part of my understanding and my experience and now my practice. So it spurs me to ask if you also know the experiences of the divine that I described above? I believe I've developed a strong liking to you in part because you remind me a lot of my older sister who I'm no longer in contact with. It's very emotionally rewarding to watch you while in the cemetery because it feels like the viewer is there with you.

[@MrPipo54]

I am hopeless and unclean, ufff, never mind ! 😏

[@hempfu]

We are going to die one day ! since You like to walk in graveyards I feel Your ultimate talent would be to liberate from this basic fear which could be a shortcut to liberation from all other fears ?

[@lindahudson888]

Our biggest fear is not death but fear of our own Light and Brilliance

[@hempfu]

it works together !

[@keshavyoganathan832]

Too many buzz words and suggestiveness...seeming to project and just regurgitate conditioned, subjective, humancentric perceiving, exeperiencing and, thoughts of the identity, confirmation biases etc. Too many loose words, abundant with connotations and misintrepetations without any clarity or definition. Definitely agree with body-mind and the minds lack of understanding...we are a young species with much to learn about our own biology, functioning, brain, body complex...science will continue to help us learn more. The body does function and react in ways that we are not at all conscious or even aware of, let alone scientifically understand. For example, conversion disorders and movement disorders... But this vid is just the same regurgitated shizz by countless so called gurus and new age cult leaders, cult of personaility much...?

[@rezamoradi4073]

MInd is a myth therfore thought is matter.

[@swimmingbird238]

God is a girl

[@claudiknits]

❤

[@RonnyH75]

❤