I Have An Eating Disorder - My Story

[@TesIaNews2024]

The “right weight for my height” scale doesn’t take into account bone density, breast size, body structure, or fat-to-muscle ratio. It needs a major revision bc people get caught up in it and wind up with eating disorders.

[@sarahdavies2923]

I agree that the weight-height paradigm needs revision but do you think that factoring in heaps of other stuff with stop people getting caught up on it? I feel like it would just give people with eating disorders more measurements to obsess over dude

[@TesIaNews2024]

@@sarahdavies2923 I don't have an eating disorder, so I won't claim to know how obsessing over numbers and such works; however, if there is a revision to the scale which takes into account all of the aforementioned factors, maybe the obsession over it would garner a healthier outcome. I'm not claiming it would be a panacea to eating disorders because they will always be prevalent in society. Young minds will continue to be influenced by social structures, physical demands due to training, trends, fashion, and the "popular" people's ways of dressing. But, perhaps, if medicine can fix just one area of stress for people with eating disorders, we might see a positive change as a result. Thank you, by the way, for taking the time to introduce your concerns since I'm not as well versed in the eating disorder spectrum as I am in the mood disorder spectrum. I genuinely had to take a moment to put some thought into my answer. And I really like to think, so this gave me something to chew on. :)

[@texasktea]

I hate the BMI statistics or whatever it says height vs weight. I'm 5 feet tall and no way can I keep my weight under 120. If it's 140 I'm overweight? That's just insane!

[@anwensu4381]

Sarah Davies I see your point but I struggled with disordered eating and some of the other factors the person who posted the original comment mentioned actually served as explanation for me and I was greatly relieved as a lot of those factors are out of your control. Also factors like socioeconomic status, mental health...etc. It’s sad but not everyone has adequate access to health. Anyway, I went off on a bit of a tangent. For me having those other factors explained greatly relieved me, but I can totally see your point about how some people would obsess even more.

[@anwensu4381]

Texas baby ktea Totally agree. BMI was created by a mathematician, not a doctor or anyone who is actually qualified to be making any sort of judgement on whether people’s bodies are healthy or not. And there are SO many factors BMI doesn’t take into account. Time to get it removed from doctors’ offices as a means of measuring health.

[@ea144]

People don’t realize the effect their little comments can have on ppl, especially children. When I was in cheer in middle school, one of the other moms said that I’m too big and need to move out of the way because I was blocking her daughter and that’s something that really bothered me as a child and made me feel so ugly and fat compared to the other girls. When I look back at the pictures of me in middle school I was literally tiny! I was the same size as the other girls!

[@Neesi392]

So true. I was treated also like this my whole life because i am tall and i have long limbs, also i developed early so i had comments from adults and children about my bust🙄 I developed a bad posture from constantly hunching up my shoulders and sucking in my chest because i was trying to make myself smaller. People are so ridiculous and cruel. Its sad but whenever someone makes a comment about my appearance that is mean or try to embarrass me, i do it back to them lol So if they say I am too tall or something I say "well you are really short like a goblin, im happy not to be so short like you"😏. It makes them think about what they are saying and if they are making you feel ugly you should make them feel ugly, pick on their insecurities dont be nice to them

[@ea144]

Deborah Debbie I didn’t mean it was a little comment, I meant to the person saying it, it could be a little comment but to the person they are saying it to it’s not little

[@CS-dw4kw]

@@Neesi392 wow I feel for you but you don't have to throw short people under the bus lol! But it's okay, I don't mind being short :) I developed bad posture as a short person due to abuse too, though. I guess they made me feel even smaller than I am and I postured myself that way.

[@luckygardeniasdashboardcon9214]

Erica Chappel I am so sorry that happened to you!

[@starchannel123]

en cee I'm short and I was treated like shit by adults in 6th grade because they didn't think I would grow. I think you are doing the same as them by making fun of short people.

[@itsjustme7498]

It should be illigal for dance "teachers" to give such dangerous advice that could cost young girls they're lives, plus you would thing they would be worried about you being healthy so you could perform without literally breaking bones from being malnourished. Its sick.

[@MermaidKitty]

As a swim coach, I would NEVER treat a student like that. You need fuel to use your body. I promote healthy living to my students...mental and physical. This teacher had a serious problem.

[@sarelawson7491]

Mermaid Kitty that’s wonderful My swim coach was the opposite during my intensive training.

[@MermaidKitty]

@@sarelawson7491 it's one thing to be stern and hold high expectations, but another to tear down someone's spirit.

[@olivedog1880]

Just remember guys, you’re not alone. Shame on that ballet teacher

[@rileygmx3404]

Olive Dog that teacher was probably going through a lot mentally to push those opinions onto others

[@tristanrobinson9841]

I agree she probably had something going on in her life that made her act like that to the kids in her class which is really messed up and hopefully karma got her cuz what she did was really wrong

[@raqueldain9223]

thats why i also have an eating disorder, bc of my ballet teacher. i do love dance though but after that ballet just wasnt for me...

[@ea144]

I also have an eating disorder. And body dysmorphia.I’ve been this way for as long as I can remember. I feel like I’m always trying to recover but always fall back in the same horrible habits. I hope you can recover and put it all behind you because it’s no life to live girl. Love you so much ❤️

[@laerkema7678]

Hope you get better soon girl ❤ Don't give up

[@abbsartistry]

I have bdd too. It’s so so hard. I see myself as being 300lbs even at 140.

[@anwensu4381]

Have you heard of intuitive eating? It has helped a lot of people and is a wonderful gentle approach to recovery. :)

[@ea144]

Anwen Su that’s a great suggestion and thanks for your comment ❤️ Isn’t intuitive eating just eating when you are hungry? Not being rude I genuinely am asking because from what I’ve read about it, just seems like you eat when you are hungry? Problem with that for me at least is I’ve been anorexic for so long that I really don’t get hunger cues anymore. I can go the whole day without eating and not even think about it till I’m in bed and I’m like damn I didn’t eat today. Again thank you so much for the suggestion

[@anwensu4381]

Erica Chappel You’re welcome! 😊 And yes, it does mean just eating when you are hungry, but also being in tune with your body’s needs and eating what you want when you want. You may not even be hungry (for example, just going to get ice cream with a friend because it sounds fun!). I know that can sound scary, and it’s perfectly okay and normal if it takes you a while to learn to eat for enjoyment again and you aren’t ready for that step just yet. It took me a while. As for not having hunger cues due to anorexia, I would suggest more energy-dense foods in manageable amounts. Your metabolism will wake up as your body starts to trust that you aren’t starving yourself. However I highly recommend you let your doctor know of this issue if you haven’t already. He or she can help you. Also some excellent instagram accounts to follow for EDs and body dysmorphia are maryscupoftea and ditchthediet! 💛

[@niky5052]

Oh my goodness, how could someone give advice to a younge teen on how to starve yourself! Thats horrible!

[@rileygmx3404]

Niky that teacher was most likely having ur own mental struggles and not aware the damage she was doing

[@sarelawson7491]

@MARY mine began as an 11 year old when I was in intensive swim training 4 times a week and rowing twice a week, i was time if I was slimmer (already a very tiny person) I would be more stream line faster and make it further

[@microcranny]

I’ve been struggling with anorexia since I was 11 and am currently in hospital fighting to be happy and healthy again. This video is so so powerful and upsetting as you deserve the best not dealing with the pain an eating disorder brings xx

[@jasminx1838]

I hope you will feel better soon xx

[@danrichardson2936]

Sarah Cranny neither you girl, hope you recover fast and be happy

[@SanShine2309]

I'll pray for you to stay strong and battle your eating disorder. You are loved, and you can do this!😘

[@nataracoaxum8859]

You’re beautiful. All of us women understand what you’re going through. You’re a fighter, you’ve been fighting this for years, fight even harder now. You deserve to be happy.

[@madiboo20]

Girl, go look in the mirror and say that last sentence to yourself too! Talk to yourself how you’d talk to your best/most dearest friends 💜 you’ve got this 👊🏻 find time everyday to hype yourself up like that badass woman you are

[@JessiHdez]

You're a strong woman 💜 we're proud of you. You're not alone💓

[@weloveyou1234]

Julia, you don't need to hear "your fine as you are" or "but your so skinny" or "your perfect as u are" none of that matters when you have disordered eating habits, just know you are So loved by many, and we are all hoping for your recovery! ♥

[@liveyourbestlife143]

Julia. You and your wife are always in my prayers. The both of you are not afraid to look into the camera and tell the truth. I admire you both so much.

[@hannar.1970]

Told my boyfriend about my ed a few days ago, i feel kinda better now. It helps me very much hearing someone like you,someone i appreciate so much, talking about that❤ we can do that!❤❤❤

[@davixoxo4227]

red honey hope you find your peace xoxo

[@reemclaughlin4260]

I’m praying for you sweetie. When I was 15 I weighed 160, and I turned 16 just four months later at 94. I lost hair, stop having my cycle, and of course thought I was fat. You can do this. You’re a very strong, intelligent woman. Please keep us updated if you feel you can. Xxoo ♥️☮️

[@thespotteddog9552]

As a 36 year old who spent over 20 years with Bulimia, I applaud you for having the strength to share your story with us. I kept my secret for 18 of those 20 years, not even my family knew. I wish you the best of luck in your recovery and I know it’s going to be hard but your lucky to have your amazing wife by your side.

[@ingridtipsydoodle5817]

You’re so strong Julia. You’re an amazing person , don’t ever forget that ! You have so many people supporting you :) sending positive happy vibes to you !

[@strawberry_ho3]

i never could have known! i was always so jealous of your body. you look so confident in your body! i hope you’re doing better and your story is so inspiring for someone who has an eating disorder like me :) 💕

[@secrettimebabyliv]

You are so brave for sharing this, Julia. Thank you so much for opening up about this- I am suffering from similar issues of binge eating for days unnecessarily then starving myself on other days and Im finding it a really difficult cycle to break because Im hating myself when I do both things. I feel better that someone else has gone through this. Stay strong lovely I am always hoping you are well and healthy xxx

[@laerkema7678]

Please don't listen to the few negative comments, there are SO many people that love you and are rooting for you, including me. You are such a strong person and I know you can get through this!

[@LADYLUCK7804]

Awww hun I have bad PTSD and anxiety as well as an anorexia disorder. You are not alone I am here praying for you and will be a truest friend. Thank you for sharing your story it means so much!

[@teckensprak]

Thank you soooo much for sharing this! You can't imagine how much it means to hear you say these things and telling us about your life and your struggles like this. I know I'm not the only one of your followers also suffering from an eating disorder and listening to you telling your story feels so good and gives so much strength to carry on with my own journey towards a healthy living and a "normal" attitude towards food and eating. What you do is so important and you make a real change in the online community. Thank you again, you are the best

[@Jess.Anderson]

I cried hearing this story. I hope you recover, and get to a place where you are balanced and feel good, body and mind. Thank you for sharing, you are inspiring because of how brave you are talking about this kind of thing and you're a beautiful person and one of my favorite youtubers EVER! 💖💖💖

[@dawngilstrap8505]

Having an eating disorder is so difficult to cope with. I have always struggled with weight myself. A couple years ago I was in the thick of a vicious cycle. I started out very much like you. Eating well and walking a lot. I began seeing results. After a while, it morphed into me just not eating or if I did eat, I would immediately work it off. I tried to purge once but as you said, it's very hard to do so I just stuck with not eating and rigorous over exercise. The mind is so powerful, the disorder will make you see what it wants but everyone else sees a very sick person. I went months without a period so I am glad you still had yours. It is so important that people are educated about the real harms of degrating a young girls appearance. It haunts them. I still struggle. I hate eating in front of people. I'm so proud to hear you have such a positive outlook. Stay strong gorgeous and thank you for sharing your story.

[@mikasablackerman6776]

Thank you for being vulnerable with us,Julia. This made me realize that I have some of the same patterns. I am a plus sized woman and I struggle with having a healthy relationship with food and exercising. It’s been this way my whole life. Thank you for sharing. You’ve made me realize I should bring this up to my therapist. Thank you for sharing and I wish you well on your journey.

[@Natalie-tn9fx]

Julia, thank you so much for sharing this and bringing awareness to the issue. I have been a pretty silent subscriber of yours for a few years. I had Anorexia and later Bulimia starting at age 15. I also had bad experiences in dance, and a hard childhood. I recovered relatively well, but still struggle with some symptoms. The worst is your feelings about yourself. Thank you for reminding people this is a real issue. ❤

[@AJ-hg4by]

I also always suck in my stomach. Without realising it a lot x

[@1Pineapple]

Same! Even tho it's something I haven't actively been focusing on doing for 5 years or more, I still do it all the time 🙈 My boyfriend can stand in front of me and tell me to look him in the eyes, then close my eyes and breath calmy; then it will actually be relaxed, but as soon as I turn my head to look at my relaxed stomach in the mirror, it tightens up again as if it doesn't want me to see its true form, lol 😅

[@marialexha]

It's great for your abs, it helps to keep your muscles active.

[@AJ-hg4by]

@@marialexha yeah except people don't do it for that reason so...

[@marialexha]

@@AJ-hg4by I mean, from all the crazy shit people do to look thin, sucking your tummy in isn't a problem at all.

[@tristanrobinson9841]

I suck in my stomach without noticing it, but I don't do it as much when I'm home I do it mainly when I'm out in public cuz I think people are looking at me like I'm fat if I don't suck in my stomach

[@laerkema7678]

I am really proud of you for sharing this with us. It is very brave of you to share something so personal with us and it is a step in the right direction. And don't ever apologise or feel ashamed about your eating disorder. It is not your fault. Just like it isnt your fault if you are depressed or have anxiety. It's the same thing. It is a mental illness. It is not your fault. I'm so glad you are better and I hope you stay healthy.

[@yas5392]

Stay strong julia 😞 . I really hope you can get the help and always have the support you need.

[@Sotweetie]

Thank you for sharing your story Julia, I think you would be surprised by how many people can relate to what you're going through. 💗

[@lovablc6059]

Remember you have fans that are here for you and so is Eileen don’t ever think your alone I had no WiFi and now I’m so late 😢

[@emilykate3324]

Ohh Julia I’m here for you!

[@krisbf]

This makes me so sad because I think you’re so beautiful! Inside and out. There’s very few people in this world who can be 100% themselves - but you are and it’s a beautiful thing to see. I hope you feel better. ❤️❤️❤️ Also, the love you and Eileen have is so beautiful. Lots of thoughts and prayers for you.

[@yeetiusthethotius7328]

I applaud you for being so strong to be able to talk about this to us. Ofc I haven't watched the video yet considering it hasn't been up for long yet. But you are such a strong woman Julia, never forget that. We love you so so much.❤

[@taigangillotti]

I really love how open you are. Been a subscriber for a long time now and I'm s proud of you. I have to say your real subscribers will always love you and support you! Your beautiful inside and out! You are brave! I also have gone through an eating disorder & I have overcome heroin & cocaine addiction. I've been sober for 7 years! I love you so much Julia, keep on keeping on love. Love from Vermont XOXO

[@thezennoodle1457]

Thank you for opening up and being so honest ❤️ as someone who has struggled since a teen with eating, just know you are not alone. We are all here for you and you’re a beautiful person 💜🖤❤️

[@larafeyma2391]

Julia thank you for your honesty. Eating disorders and mental illness are such taboos even in 2019. Thank you for talking about these things. You are helping out loads of ppl! You’re beautiful inside and out!

[@heatherlawrence7908]

I also used to get criticized for my thighs. The pain is real!

[@crystalwells7045]

Julia i am so proud of you it is hard to talk about something so personal but at least now you can get the help you need and thank god you have Eileen by your side...i hope things look up for you...i love you guys please take care of yourself

[@star7827q]

I'm so proud of you for coming out with this. You are so brave and strong! You can beat this! We love you, Julia.

[@vanesapenarodriguez5090]

I’ve been suffering from an eating disorder 6 years now.. I know how you feel and I hope we can recover soon 🙏🏼 sending you so much love 💖

[@anaaalauu1529]

Fingers cross you make it through! I'm currently inpatient and my eating disorder has been returning as well and I'm too hiding it from everyone so I know how you felt. Glad that your wife is so supportive. Much love xx

[@lily3350]

I struggled with an eating disorder for years and although I'm pretty much recovered now, it's still a struggle every day. Thank you so much for sharing your story, you are so brave and we all know you can beat this, we're so proud of you and we love you so much 💗

[@sophiashmia6587]

this story really helped me. I never thought someone is going exactly exactly what I am going through. I cant tell anyone and think you are so courageous. thankyou so much for sharing this

[@kitty1256x]

Don't feel ashamed about anything, it's just life, no one's life is perfect. Be easy on yourself.

[@deborahwyatt4001]

Thank you for your bravery. You are never a disappointment when being honest and transparent. Hopefully this will help others battling this disorder.

[@Chris-qr1io]

No one should feel anxious to eat a certain way or look a certain way . I hope you’re better now and feel more comfortable with yourself and food.

[@hfortenberry]

Thank you for your courage in sharing your story. You are doing so good with the progress you have made. I want to share one thing that might help you with the anxiety. I too suffer from anxiety and occasional panic attacks, or I DID, but not anymore. I started taking Magnesium citrate powder in my water bottle, 1 tsp in my water bottle in the morning and 1 tsp in the evening and it knocked my anxiety WAY down! If you take it in the middle of a panic attack, about 45 minutes later, you will feel peaceful again. It's a miracle. I learned that the reason it works so well is because magnesium is one of our 4 essential minerals (along with sodium, calcium and potassium) and most people are depleted due to poor diet, depleted soils (soil our produce does not have as many nutrients as they did 25 years ago) and stress. Magnesium is stored in your bones and one of it's many functions is to help the body during stress by binding to the brain receptors to calm the brain so you feel peaceful. But when you have chronic stress, especially if you are not eating a nutritious diet, you will deplete your magnesium and start getting anxiety and depression. So please go get some magnesium powder and try it. I discovered it a year and a half ago and I have not gone a day without it since (except for a few days once). It's so important to get enough magnesium and especially important to eat a nutrient dense diet and not crap food that is bad for your brain. Please try it and I think it will definitely help you. Take good care.

[@AG-nc7wj]

Good to know it, thank you to share it !

[@coquelicotberet]

Thank you so much for opening up about this. I've been through the same thing, binge eating, anorexia, disordered eating for so so many years. I wish I could get better ❤️

[@pandabear8846]

Thank yo so much for this Julia, I recently just came out on my Channel about my bulimia and you have given me so much more courage and inspiration to talk about it more, I feel so less alone and so uplifted in hope for my ED, and I had no idea our stories where so similar, and now that I’m public with my ED sometimes I’ve felt more isolated thinking no1 understands, I get lectured about healthy eating even though I speak with my dr and a dietitian and probably know more about healthy dieting than the person lecturing me does, I’m morbidly obese from food addiction growing up so I’ve been losing weight to be a healthy weight for over a year, and all my logic and self worth is separate, people lecture me on losing weight better when I tell them, and when I explain I only binge and purge from high anxiety in my life but when I lost my 65 lbs last year I worked hard in a healthy way! I ate 1,800 a day and walked for 40 minutes, I was and still am under dr supervision, sometimes people will be more open and they will watch my channel instead of assuming and lecturing, but I have to explain my mental illness is separate from my weight loss journey, and my family now know, my dr, my therapist, and yet I still get lectured, this has really inspired me to have more educational videos on the matter on my channel, and given me courage and inspiration, so again, thank you so much Julia, this means so much to me, especially since I’ve watched you for years and as a new KZbinr I really look up to you so much, wishing you the best wishes honey and know we are always here for you ❤️❤️❤️

[@Iskah333]

You are so strong and your message will empower many people going through the same ❤️❤️❤️

[@rebeccaperkins2809]

Julia I am so glad to see someone with your platform addressing these issues. I don't have this issue but my oldest daughter did because of a woman that works at the Health department! Shame on any one who body shames any woman! We are all made different because that's how GOD made us! You are such a beautiful young lady inside and out. Sending you guys love from the great state of KY!

[@morgieporgie111]

I really needed to hear this. My mom is always on different diets and saying stuff about how she needs to be just 5 pounds lighter, but I am heavier than her. It also makes me feel bad when she body shames other woman. Like no body deserves that. You don't know what kind of stuff they are going through! but anyways, thank you for this I really really needed it. :)

[@jackf7256]

So for 4 years i’ve been sucking in my stomach. i have gone through binge eating and purging. At first i didn’t tell anyone but i finally opened up slowly to someone close to me. I am now 240 pounds,5’5,and a teenager. Although i am over weight i became vegetarian and i’m slowly loosing weight in a healthy way. And for anyone out there who has not had an eating disorder it’s hard to stop and it’s hard to be happy when you constantly look at yourself badly. I’m so proud of you and everyone. You could even just tell someone and that’s a step in the right direction. Every body is beautiful. ~Jack xoxo

[@MyNinjaPickles]

Julia, your storyline/ progression into an ED is almost identical to mine. When I started my recovery journey it took me several months for the binging to stop. My body was recovering from all the abuse it had endured and it still felt it needed to hoard food because it was USED to being starved. DONT lose hope! I still have some bad mental health days, but I can say with my entire heart that my eating pattern is COMPLETELY 100% recovered now. It is such a relief to be able to eat normally. A year ago, food never left my mind.. now I don’t even think about it. Please don’t be discouraged. It gets better with time. Love you =)

[@victoriablanton2756]

Sending you much love and hugs.. So proud of you for making this video and sharing your story with others.. We need more people like you who have the strength to step forward and help others with similar struggles by letting them know they are not alone. 💜💜 your never alone girlie you have soo many people who love and appreciate you and your strength.. Thank you thank you!!!

[@leentheghost8974]

Hey Julia, first of all I want to tell you that you're so brave, I'm proud of you 💖 I also have an eating disorder since I'm 12 years old (I'm 19 now), and some days are hard but I do my best to fight it. Thank you for sharing your experience, it's good to feel less alone and I really needed that. I'm sending you much love, you're amazing and I hope you'll get better ! Take your time to heal. Love you 💞🌸

[@brittanyfreeman4649]

Thank you so much for sharing your story! You are so brave and beautiful and inspiring! Watching this made me feel a little bit less alone today. I am so sorry to hear you have been struggling so much and wish you all the best in recovery xx

[@FRUITCAKEXT]

Thank you for sharing this story, Julia. I went through something similar from the age of 19-22. I became vegetarian at 22 which really helped me develop a healthier relationship with food. I especially like your point on how some people get so sick that they are hospitalized because it seems like people don't realize they have an eating disorder when they do because they're not hospitalized or in rehab. I know when I was restricting my calories to 300-400 a day I didn't think I had an eating disorder because I was still able to go to school and go to work. I was just really unhappy and obsessed with restricting calories. So thanks for sharing this. I hope you feel better

[@jessknight9439]

I just want to say thank you. From the absolute bottom of my heart. I have been struggling with something similar and it’s honestly such a great comfort to know there are other young women out there like myself

[@lynnx7187]

We are all here for you! Stay strong everyone. Sadly ive been feeling awful lately, and I have relapsed this week. You are not alone. 💕

[@lesiGayle]

I am so proud that you can talk about this. I am 55 and just one week ago was able to talk to my doctor about my eating disorder that I have battled for over 40 years. I feel such a sense of relief and I you do too.

[@SanShine2309]

Be proud of yourself too! That's a tough thing to do. Sending love!

[@elinepaulsen5653]

we love you Julia!

[@deborahernandez4828]

WOWO THIS IS SHOCKINGGGG I WASNT EXPECTING THISS 😭😭😭😭😌🙏🙏🙏🔥

[@KatarinaPark]

Stay strong hun! We're all here for you. Having mentel problems are the worse but sharing it with the people you love will make you stronger and those around you. ❤❤❤

[@laurie381]

It has been a life long struggle for so many of us. Nothing but love and good thoughts sent your way❤

[@heatherakagamermom7790]

Thank you for sharing your story. You are strong and brave. Just doing this can help someone that is in the same situation. Take it one day at a time. I’m proud of you.

[@shaharlevy7876]

You are so brave for opening up and talking about your this subject . I’m behind you no matter what. you got this! Stay strong and think positive. Love you, take care ❤️❤️

[@KarinaCappucci]

I love you Julia. You deserve to recover I know it's not easy but you can do it. I'm 11 months into recovery from bulimia and it wasn't easy but it was so worth it. You only have one body and you deserve to be happy and healthy. ❤

[@sofiawilliams4089]

Wow, this takes so much power to admit!!! I’ve been struggling with disordered eating (specifically bulimia) since I was a mere 8 years old, you’re not alone in this!!! You deserve happiness and one day we’ll all be free of this

[@dearMxDaring]

I'm recovering from an ED myself. Tbh, it's the hardest thing I've ever did in my life, but I know you can do it too, Julia. Sending you all my love and support ❤️

[@sleepialien]

i really hope you’re truly feeling better, i understand so well what you’re going through. i myself struggle with my weight a lot, i am a curvy girl naturally curvy and i weigh around 57/60kg if i’m not wrong and i’m 5’7 tall. eating disorders are so crazy specially because they normally come because of trauma, or other mental health issues, or something like that. you are so incredibly beautiful inside and out! you’ve got a heart of gold and it’s so obvious how much you care about the people in your life include us your followers. you are incredible and thank you so much for telling your story. you’re not alone and i’m so proud that you searched for help that’s a big step and you should be proud of yourself also. love you 💕

[@locasiare]

Thank you for being so brave and sharing this with us 💖 much respect hugs 🤗

[@lorat.4701]

Julia you are so strong. Thank you for sharing such deep stories with us. I wish you all the best without knowing you personally, even though I sometimes feel like you are one of my friends. ❤️

[@chelsiemuscarella6504]

Julia, You are so strong I admire you for your personality and willingness to open up~ We all adore you & support you! Xo

[@jordan0543]

Julia you could never disappoint us, you’re so strong I’m sending so much love💕

[@lovisawi02]

I'm so sorry you went through this/are going through this, but I'm so glad you felt you could share this with us, we understand you and we support you.❤️

[@krijnaketting1712]

Darling! We love you so much! You're perfect in your own way. We will support you every single moment. We love yaaa💙💚💛💜💋

[@snics0619]

Continued prayers! I know you don't believe, but I do! I'll keep the faith for you darling! You're a beautiful human! Stay strong!

[@lindseywitkowski9661]

Julia, you are so strong and amazing for sharing your story! And how supportive of Eileen, that really made me tear up when she hugged you and offered you nothing but love and support ❤️

[@RoxsanneL]

You are so brave to talk about this and bring the discussion into the world in a positive way. I'm happy you are getting help and that Eileen is supporting you. I wish you all the positivity I can, keep being strong! x

[@lornacunnington7377]

That teacher had no right to say anything like that or make u feel like that, she had no right at all, sounds like she had a problem to be honest, adults we look up to when growing up have such power and they know that, I'm disgusted with her actions,, so proud u felt comfortable to speak about this hun, love u lots Julia, u are beautiful inside and out, xx💕

[@SerotoninaCuSonia]

I am glad you talked about this. We will always be here to support you no mater what.

[@kaylasorrells685]

😢I'm so sorry you are going through this! Just remember you are beautiful and to take care of yourself because you deserve to be happy. Your such a kind and good hearted person and I hate this happened to you! Your body is gorgeous, your face is gorgeous, your personality is gorgeous and your heart is gorgeous! So glad your wife can be there for you and dont be afraid to let her in when you need someone! I love you guys so much and will be praying for you!

[@kaylasorrells685]

Also I have sucked in my stomache since I was 10 and am 29 now. When I'm not sucking in i feel to relaxed like I'm gonna bust open or something. I dont mean to do it anymore either just naturally sick In. When i first started i remember it hurting so much causing cranes and feeling like i did a bunch of situps or something and would make my stomache hurt. I didn't know many others did this also.

[@negativecreep8066]

As somebody with anorexia and just graduated from a hospital program, Julia does NOT need to hear about your “natural skinniness” and other triggering details about your weight/shapes. ED’s are extremely complex and competitive in nature, and content like that can be extremely damaging to sufferers. She needs compassion and support, not comparison. I’m here for you Julia, please keep fighting and know that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. It’s very difficult and seems impossible at times but it’s worth it.

[@LiliZK]

Thank you for this video Julia. We love you 💕

[@n.zsofiaszabo479]

One more thing, as a future dentalhigiensit i need to say that you need to see a dentist or a dentalhigienist of course You know throwing up and coke and these acidic things make your teeth wrong.( Erosion) and with lot of love i would suggest please dont hate yourself ❤ we love you, Eileen loves you, you need to love yourself too

[@CindyKHole]

I second this! In the beginning of this year I had teeth reconstruction bc I dealt 11 years with an ED and it fucked my teeth up. Been in recovery for 4 years and I was finally allowed to get taken care of my teeth now that I got pretty stable.

[@monaaa3034]

I myself have anorexia so I totally get what you are going trough and I just wanted to say that you are strong and you've got this

[@kayeg9693]

I'm so glad you're okay and that you're coming to us! Here for you always and love you guys! Stay positive beautiful I know you can get through this!!!

[@jacquelineholland2453]

There is so much power in talking about things openly and honestly. Glad you are helping yourself.

[@saraj9429]

Been following you for years. Thanks for sharing. I have great compassion for you!

[@keke_oh]

Julia you are so strong to go through all that and have no one know!! So proud of you for getting through it and speaking about it. You are beautiful inside and out! Imposter syndrome is a thing, you should look into it to feel less alone. Wishing you the best beautiful

[@drakulauna]

Thank you for sharing your story. The temptation to return to your eating disorder will lessen until one day you won’t think about it at all. I had anorexia and bulimia from the time I was 9 years old and didn’t quit it for good until I was 16. Now I’ve been free of it for 7 years and I’m not tempted to go back. You will get to that point too. Keep up the great work.

[@olivialq6281]

Its nice to know someone you admire look up too, actually knows the struggles you go through 😭💛. Thankyou for sharing this with Us. I know stuff like that is never easy. I think you're absolutely gorgeous the way you are❤. It's hard...its like we wish we can see ourselves in other peoples eyes if that makes sense. Chin up doll..I hope you're getting the support you need😭. Love you!!!! ❤❤

[@emmabarnett3594]

Oh sweetheart im so proud of u. This must have been a scary thing to do🎃.I had a feeling ud been dealing with Ed. Youre a strong,beautiful,bright girl. By opening up like this u might encourage others to seek help. I cant believe how brave ur being. I want to give u a hug right now, but i cant so here,s a flower patch xx 🌹🏵🌼💐🌸🌹💮💐🏵🌺💮💐🌸🏵💐💮💐🌼🌺🌸💐💮🌼🏵💐🌹💐💮🏵🌺🌼💐🌹💐🌸💮💐🏵🌹🌼🌺💐🌹🏵💮💐🌼🌹🌸💮💐🌹🌸💮🏵💐🏵💮🌹💐

[@n.zsofiaszabo479]

You are so brave to talk these things out. Respect! 😭❤ I am so sad bc you cant see the beauty what i see when i look at you

[@chavessouza05]

i am 24 and struggle with eating disorders since i was 14. Our stories are very similar. My family always said i needed to lose weight, even though i was skinny. I've always had a big butt, and people made fun about it, calling me fat. I was 50 kg, 170 cm tall. When I was 19 i moved to the US and started to suffer from depression. At the begining i couldn't eat, but then i ate as comfort. I gained more than 30 kg in 16 months. When i came back to Brazil, people started to treat me different. My father once called me "it" just because i am fat. I started to throw up every single day, and unffortunelly i still do. I feel reliefd, throwing up is like a victory for me. that's how f**d up mymind is. I can't do diets, even with professional help (therapists, nutricionists, etc). It's like i don't wanna get out of this, it's like the disorder don't let me. It is very hard, I know there's a long way to go. Eileen is such a lovely lady, helping you instead of judging. You are very lucky to have her support, you'll get out of this! You are a very strong woman! I am on my own on this, my family says i'm lazy, my friends say it's not true,i'm making this up to get attention, but besides all of that, i know i'm gonna get ou of this, even by myself. We are strong!

[@ldesai5991]

You are beautiful inside and out and you deserve love. Hope you get to feeling better soon 🥳

[@sea.sha3350]

You are very brave. Thank you for sharing your story. I’m in an age-gap lesbian relationship so I am so happy to have found your channel! Not sure if you have heard of the fitness KZbinr Stephanie Buttermore but she is currently doing an “all-in” journey to restore her natural hunger cues and help with her extreme hunger she experienced while doing restrictive dieting. That kind of thing might be helpful to you. Best of luck to you! You’ve got this!! ❤️❤️

[@jessie-jean4775]

I am so PROUD of you. I have struggled with my weight my whole life. The best advice I have is to work on your self control. A little at a time. Give yourself the control back. Say and plan meals and follow through until you trust yourself to do what is right for you and your health. This broke my heart. I literally think you are one of the most beautiful women I’ve ever seen. I love your style. You are so sweet. Take care of yourself, build back the confidence that teacher and the world tried to take. The first step in any recovery is to admit you have a problem. And you’ve done that. Eileen seems to be a strong minded women let her teach you, learn from her. Opening up and accepting help can be the hardest part. It has been for me. Stay beautiful 🧜🏻‍♀️🧚🏻🧚🏻‍♀️💐🌺🌷🍄🌻⭐️☀️🎈🎀💙💚💛🧡❤️💜

[@dearmartine]

Thanks for sharing your story. I love you. Don't be ashamed. Just keep getting help from doctor and counselor. You're brave and gorgeous.

[@ilikedrawingbruh8788]

You're the strongest woman on earth. You're going trough a lot of shit but you keep fighting anyway and that's brave and amazing. Always here to support you 💕