I'm Not Dead!! (So Where Have I Been??)

[@Aeon_Pirate]

Glad to hear you are doing better. You have been dealing with some of the heaviest stuff we men have to deal with. Speaking as somebody who went through a very similar situation, I understand how it makes you question everything about yourself. It'll push you right up to that edge, I'm glad you have got the help you needed to walk back from that edge.

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you. It wasn't fun, but I feel stronger now.

[@grandmastasash7376]

Thanks for sharing this information. Cross my fingers Captain for you. Wonderful having you here❤

[@captainbenzie]

Thanks so much!

[@snoupdug7582]

Hello Cpt, I have only recently discovered your channel and have really enjoyed the content. After watching this video, I just have to let you know that you are not alone, mental health is something that I have struggled with for decades. So I applaud you for your openness about it, not an easy thing to accomplish. Please keep making content, it was your vids on YT that brought me back to the game after I took time away to deal with the stuff in my head. I thank you for that 👍

[@joekeo318]

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[@captainbenzie]

I'm really glad that I was able to help bring you back. Thank you so much for your kind words 🚀

[@fibthejib]

o7 captain, I am glad your back, since I discovered your channel you have been my favorite eve content creator for many reasons including having been diagnosed with aspergers (which is a type of autism) and ADHD myself. I am sorry to hear what you have been going through and I hope you fully recover from the trauma that must have caused. May you find hope and purpose in New Edens great expanse and fly safe!

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you 😊

[@altostratus9342]

Real life first, Captain. We will wait and hope that you find your way back to enjoying content creation. In the meantime take time for yourself and focus on being in a better place. Wishing you all the best. I just started playing Eve 2 months ago and I have learned so much from your videos to ease the learning curve and enabling me to enjoy the game. Thank you for all of efforts!

[@captainbenzie]

Glad I can help and more to come!!

[@dallassnyder1764]

I just started playing EVE about 4 weeks ago, and I have watched SO MANY of your videos learning how to play. Loving EVE so much & couldn't have done it without you ♥ Seriously brother, congrats on being determined enough to make it through the storm. It takes some serious grit to remove yourself from that situation and then accomplish what you did in therapy. It will be the best gift you ever give yourself because that mental and emotional power you fought hard to earn will last your lifetime. I used to feel ashamed of my battle with mental health, but I came to realize that gaining the upper hand against it is a Herculean feat deserving of your unconditional pride. If your experience is anything like my own, this all leads to you becoming a better version of yourself than you could have ever imagined before the storm began. Congrats again 💪

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you 😊 this really means a lot to me to be "seen" like that. It's been tough, but it gets a little easier by the day.

[@TheGarlago]

The way you navigate truly sets you apart as a formidable force in the galaxy Captain Benzie. Huge love from Canada ❤I feel like all of earth got put on a rollercoaster of emotion's Cheer's to better day's mate 🍻

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you 😊

[@jpuckett343]

Yo Capt. Much love and support from Texas. Know that whatever path you choose you are loved and respected. God Bless Ya Brother

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you so much 😊🚀

[@nevveran3280]

Just got my second month of omega. and for the first month I've watched your videos to try and find/figure out fits and what works with certain content and they helped a lot. The days can be dark but since you've gotten this far you're a guy who can accept the hand dealt and work around getting shafted and come out on top. Glad you're back bud

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you so much 🚀😊

[@JamesHarvey-y7q]

Glad to have you back Benzie, your videos have really helped me get into Eve Online and guided me over the past 3months of gameplay! I've been through something similar so I know a little bit of how tough it can be - keep going mate, it WILL get better!

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you, and I'm glad that I've been able to help!

[@Aomoi]

I have seen your post on Instagram, you really look happy singing shanties, it always bring a smile to my face seeing you like that. I am sorry for all you have gone through, sending you a big hug! Take care, keep doing things on your own pace and time :)

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you so much!!

[@boojumverse]

Glad to hear you’re doing better! Your videos have been an inspiration for my own Eve content creation as a new player. I am currently leading a wormhole expedition and your C3 and J space guides are invaluable! Welcome back Capsuleer!

[@captainbenzie]

Awesome, thank you! And well done!!

[@ubikii5926]

Thank you for all your videos, I've learned a lot thanks to you ! Fly safe Captain

[@captainbenzie]

Glad you like them!

[@Dorm_]

Wow Benzie, I just started playing Eve like 1 week ago, your videos have helped me a ton, all from wh scanning and explanation, to ship fits and abyssals! I really love your content, and I am saddened to hear about your mental issues, as I am going through some tough thoughts and some health problems myself. I applaud that you are open about this, we need more focus on mental health issues and we are topping all the statistics, and not in a good way I am sorry to say. I just turned 40 and and been through some ups and downs, and all i can say is that it gets better with time, your situation might not be the greatest right now to say the least, it will get better! You seem to have the right mindset and enthusiasm to keep fighting! Great video, and tbh i teared up a bit there.

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you, this means a lot and I'm doing better. Just trying to get my life (and content) back on track now!!

[@Inirit]

Came across your videos a few days ago looking for relatively recent EVE guides and they've been very helpful for me. I'm sorry to hear about your mental struggles, I've got my own baggage that I've been dealing with for over a decade so I know how that goes. Sounds like you're getting a good grip on yourself again and I hope you find success in the future, here on KZbin or otherwise.

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you o7

[@Dalbright0405]

Found you on some of your older videos and they’ve helped so much getting back into Eve. Love your content. Thank you and stay strong.

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you and glad I've been able to help!!

[@giuseppeviscomi7033]

New Eden must have your passionate content, Captain. I hope your RL will lead to tranquil waters.

[@Rockbear78Hoosier]

I found your videos about a month ago and had not played eve in almost 5 years, you got me back into it with a couple of friends as well. Thank you for your fun interesting content. Sending prayers your way as mental health is so so important yet so so overlooked still. Keep pressing on Hard times make good men.

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you 🙏

[@johnmiller7322]

Sending prayers 🙏 Hope things get better.

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you ❤️

[@wazitsay]

Thank you for sharing what you've been going through, I'm glad you got the help you needed and that you're still here. It's great having you back Cpt, I'm looking forward to the new content!

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you so much!

[@Sol4c3]

Just started playing Eve Online this past week and I've got to say, your content has been the biggest help for me. This game can be super overwhelming but those videos have at least given me some guidance on different professions to experiment with in the search for fun. Hang in there, partner. Things will undoubtedly get better with time, especially since it sounds like you are actively trying to get back to a sense of normalcy. Thanks man for your help and keep doing what makes you happy.

[@CMDR_Verm]

I am sorry to hear of your difficulties. I'm not sure if I would have been able to handle the problems you describe. All I can say is I wish you all the best for the future and it will be good to see you back. Good luck Sir.

[@captainbenzie]

You wake up, you press on, and it gets a little easier as each day passes. 😊

[@NikeGess]

Glad to hear you are doing better, I am sorry you have had to go through all of this. Looking forward to your new Eve content since I really enjoy your videos.

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you so much!

[@spoko_juzik8236]

Oh Captain, I just hope U'll find in yourself that one bright thought and hang on to it so hard, that eventually U realise, that life is worth living, despite all the shit U find on Your path. I hope U will be up and about soon, more than alive and kicking. I really really think U have it in You. As U were - be my Captain. Sun always comes out after the storm. Be strong, my friend, You've got this. Wish U all the best, sending love. U've got this. U'll manage. You are the best. You are my Captain.

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you so much for your kind words 😊

[@pcpproduction9071]

Welcome back from having to deal with a bad stretch of life issues, hope to see you in Eve and hear from you here as your situation improves!

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you! Will do!

[@niccolomurolo8029]

I miss the good old PTHUKKER. And wish the best for you. All the best :) ❤️

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you 😂

[@marty2228]

Good to hear from you Benzie, glad you are doing better, and i hope everything will continue to your way! Wishing the best for you!

[@captainbenzie]

Much appreciated 🚀

[@canuckdownunder7303]

Good on you for talking about your mental health mate. I wish you the very best getting back on your feet again.

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you 😊

[@darrylkerbow7948]

Welcome back Cpt. Would love to see your dropfleet commander figs.

[@captainbenzie]

Haha I'll showcase them when they're done!

[@1982Clarkey]

Benzie, I have been there and gone through what you have too. I'm glad you have come through the other side. Take it easy, small steps and enjoy what you like in life. It's so glad to hear your voice again tho on KZbin.

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you, I will 😊

[@shane3478]

It's good to hear from you again. I'm so sorry of all the stuff you've been going through. I can relate with the suicide thoughts. As I myself have struggled with it off and on. I'm 47 now and sometimes I just need to back away just to breathe a little I love my family but sometimes stress can be a real problem, especially if we let it build up. Just take one day at a time and remember that yesterday is the past, tomorrow is not here yet, but today, live for today because that's all you have right now, so only worry about today. We'll keep praying for you . By the way after I saw your video on the eve board game I just had to order it :) I can't wait. Just remember one day at a time

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you and I'm very excited for it too!

[@phoenix7997]

Thanks for the update Cpt. You have my prayers. I want to thank you for all the help you've given me indirectly in game. You've made coming back to Eve a lot more fun, and really expanded my horizons in game. Thank you. I've been where you are, and as cliche, and unhelpful (at the moment) as it may be, "This too shall pass" kept me going. I'm now married and happier than I could have ever imagined in the past. Stay strong brother.

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you, the support genuinely means a lot, and yes, the worst (I hope) has now passed.

[@leroybrown640]

Great to hear you are feeling in a better place now Benzie..! Wishing you the very best buddy.

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you 😊

[@allengordon6929]

I don't know how, but I could tell just from watching your videos you had emotional strength.

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you ❤️

[@Wishi-Washi-tz3de]

I've missed your content Cap!! It's because of your old videos that I am currently enjoying Eve Echoes even though it's been only A few weeks that I have played. I hope you are feeling better! And I hope I can play with you in Eve Echoes someday

[@captainbenzie]

Glad you like them!

[@1Dropboys]

I've been following you since day one of eve echoes :3 I still play it, but now I upgraded my pc and I've been able to watch you again for your eve tutorials! Thanks man for all the years of hard work o7

[@captainbenzie]

Awesome, welcome back, and glad you've been enjoying! Thank you for all the support!

[@wewantcabbage8781]

Sorry to hear that news. Good to hear you're bouncing back. Take care

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you 🚀

[@psbates]

That's rough, Cap. Directly and indirectly, I know what you've been going through. I wish I could support financially, but I will keep you in my prayers. God bless. Stay strong.

[@captainbenzie]

This means a lot, thank you 🚀

[@Haydar_Maliki]

The hard times will come to anyone benzie you just need to be strong and patient and you will be rewarded remember that every time you feel tired also I'm moving from eve echoes to eve online soon ❤

[@captainbenzie]

Awesome! See you there!

[@RetroLooter]

Glad to hear you have improved! Benzie you have taught alot of us many things. Remember sometimes thinks seem bad but end up being for a better reason in the long run

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you, and I'm looking out for fairer weather!

[@eriktred]

Benzie, you are one of the most articulate people I’ve ever heard in the KZbin/gaming space. Lean into your strengths. Expand your content topics utilizing your fantastic ability to describe complex topics in simple terms. I’m rooting for you.

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you ❤️

[@Tom-vt5bf]

I am glad your in better space. Hang in there.

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you

[@MrSeboule]

Glad to hear your voice again! I love your content so much!

[@captainbenzie]

Yay, thank you!

[@SumBrennus]

I'm glad to hear you're better. I have had similar problems in my life related to my Autism diagnosis. It has proven to be a career killer here in Canada. There is an experience called Autistic Burnout. It sounds like what you experienced. I actually lost life skills when mine happened about 8 years ago. I've been unemployed since. The added cross-border/continent employment complications are soul crushing. I live in Canada and tried to get jobs in my field (Astronomy and Astrophysics) in the USA. Given the current state of things, that is virtually impossible so I am generally familiar with how crappy cross-border job hunts can be. Does the UK not have state benefits for Disability? I am somewhat lucky that my province does and that with the generosity of my partner and parents (with whom I lived 6 of the last 8 years) I can get by. I cannot offer material support but I do wish with all my heart I could. And share your videos with my EVE friends. Cheers!

[@captainbenzie]

I'm AuDHD and the burnout has been real 😅 UK benefits have been gutted over the years. I can't claim Job Seekers because I have AN income (however small) and Autism/ADHD aren't supported as disabilities. Even then, I'd need an NHS diagnosis which is a seven year waitlist.

[@jiiaga5017]

I got the eve bug bite again after many years, just started a new account figuring I'd bounce away, and instead I've dragged 2 or 3 friends into it at least in the short term. I've basically been binging your videos just to remind myself how eve kind of works. So thanks for being a fun, informative, kind voice and source. If you wanted a deeper content suggestion, on the important 14 skills stuff, outlining good times in your skilling to pause and work on them might be an excellent fairly short but valuable video? Such as when you get to cruisers is a good time to pause and grind up isk, faction rep, whatever while powergrid and cpu skills cook in the background so you can do the kind of fit you actually want on your first battlecruisers, etc. ? Or if covops ships are an eventual goal, then before you get their minimum requirements you really need X skills to actually fit them well, so that's a good moment to let some of the 14 cook, etc.

[@KC93SE]

O7 glad to hear you're doing better. Divorce is never easy to go through. Neither is being the victim of infidelity. Seeking therapy for all of your struggles was and is by far the best thing you could've done. For what it's worth, I'm proud of you. I'm proud of you for doing what you need to be safe and growing better. Going down the spiral is painful and scary, keep your head up. I saw your singing and I was very impressed! Keep at it even if it is for no one but you.

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you 😊🚀

[@KC93SE]

@@captainbenzie you're very welcome! I've been down a similar route before so it was not easy. Reach out if you need or want to. I'm on Eve as "Tomasz Wisnia"

[@x-Spirax-x]

droppin a comment and like for support, welcome back capt

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you 😊🚀

[@shortround9201]

I'm happy to hear your voice. Do what works for you, as you are, as obvious as that sounds. I'm looking forward!

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you so much!

[@tfduleadership]

Captain, I am sorry to hear that you had to go through these painful experiences. I got your back... ill be adding your creator code whenever i make a eve-online purchase. Lorrothmos

[@zee4265]

Benzie, sorry to hear everything you’re going through man. Life throws you some hurdles, but on the opposite side of it you’ll come through stronger.

[@aloneinfinland]

police clearance in zimbab can be paid through iban and the form can be downloaded and submitted to the consulate in the uk, fingerprinting can actuallt be done by the local police force. I went through a few of these with people coming to work with kids in the UK from Zim. Hope this helps.

[@captainbenzie]

I tried this and was told that it wasn't sufficient since I'd been there so long on spousal visa

[@Crittek]

Takes balls to share this publicly, I hope it helped take a load off. I’m new to watching your content and it honestly fantastic. You should be seeing an uptick because you’re basically on the front page. I’m an old returning player and part of the Star Citizen community, there has been a lot of talk about Eve so there’s probably going to be a lot of people joining because we’re still waiting on our vaporware. Time heals all wounds, it’s just about having the right attitude. Which you seem to be getting on track of. Good luck to you, I’ll be waiting for more content and I’ll be using your code from now on.

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you, that means a lot, and I'm really glad that I've been able to help 😊

[@ElizabethRobertson-b4z]

I'd recommend orbiting the station in a whatever instead of spinning ships for audio stuff... The view is nice, I still get off on it. Fly safe o7

[@captainbenzie]

Not a bad idea!

[@DanRead-r5j]

Ahoy there Cpt. I'm one of the people who was recommended your channel recently. I was in a similar place to what you're describing in this video at the time. I wanted to say thank you. Your how to find your fun in eve video motivated me to pick the game up again, having a distraction has really helped. It's amazingly brave of you to speak about what's been going on for you publicly. It's not something I think I could do. Cheers for adding your voice to ending the stigma around mental health. It's great to hear that you're doing better and excited for eve and making content again. I've been really enjoying your podcast style videos, I'd love to hear your take on the pirate factions names / lore. It'd also be great to see a mad use for the nemesis because that ship looks sick and needs more love! Hope I see you in new eden some time. Fly safe. o7

[@captainbenzie]

I love the Nemesis too and there's still the pirate naming videos to come! And thank you. I used to struggle with the idea of posting this kind of stuff publicly as I wondered who would care but I've learned that it helps me to share, it helps others to see it,and I'm fortunate to have such an amazing community!!

[@madmoxie7471]

Tax Rebate !!! ha ha ha good one . Glad to see you still got your sence of humour

[@captainbenzie]

We do get them here in the UK 😅

[@madmoxie7471]

@@captainbenzie i know but they are as rare as rocking horse shit . ive only had 1 in my entire working life . The rest of the time its `You owe us more`

[@kostyavirchenko2590]

good to know, that you are ok. mental health is very important. my best wishes , from Ukraine. keep on board!

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you and hope you're safe and well too!

[@MrYoungKen]

Remember, every situation in life is temporary. So, when life is good, make sure you are enjoying and receiving it fully. When life is not so good, remember that it will not last forever and better days are on the way. Follow the gems of happiness and they will lead you away from the blemishes of sadness. Keep moving and I hope to see you flying safe once again. o7

[@captainbenzie]

"This too shall pass" 🚀 thank you ❤️

[@Radonsheep]

Glad to see you are on the mend, looking forward to your new content.

[@captainbenzie]

Working on it!

[@militarymoose87]

Glad to hear your doing better these days mate. One day at a time, progress not perfection. As far as videos go...a while back you were talking about visiting all the systems of New Eden. How has that adventure been going? Love some possible lore dump updates or Captains logs of working your way through those systems like you did for your pilot joining the Angel Cartel back in the day.

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you, and yeah, got some plans. I'll never complete the Katia Sae challenge though 😂

[@WeathermanMilSim]

damn man...i'm so sorry to hear what you've gone through...but i'm glad you're feeling better and hopefully things will stay better. Love your content.

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you 😊

[@kenneth3537]

Hang in there. Set new goals with achievable milestones along the way. Cheer and celebrate yourself when you reach them. Use each minor victory as a steppingstone towards the next. Good to have you back. Fingers crossed for you! Cheers

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you ❤️🚀

[@M5onster]

It is great to hear from you. I'm glad you're doing better and I look forward to future content.

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you!

[@psychedelicsoul8438]

So I am a eve veteran, have been suscribed for a long time and I want to say that for some reason, I have found that the eve community is kinda harsh and trollish, but also very understanding of these issues. Many of the players have problems in real life, we can sense that through their voice, or how they act in game, its really not that rare to see in the this game. has happened with me and most of the poeple I fly with. I for one am always here to help ANYONE on a personal level but I WILL blow your ship up if I can. Hope the best for you Captian Benzie and know that most of your audience will connect with your message on this video. It wasnt the video I expected but I do relate to most of your struggles. Fly dangerously o7

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you ❤️ I think the EVE Community is full of awesome people who like to pretend to be vicious pirates but drop that persona the moment they sense something else is needed 😊

[@savadious]

Thanks for sharing Capt !

[@captainbenzie]

❤️🚀

[@xPeachPeach]

o7 we're here for you cap

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you o7

[@CrossFireX32v6]

Capt., sorry to hear about that rough patch, and glad to hear you've made it through the other side. Onwards and upwards, always moving forward, going at a pace that's comfortable to you, not what others dictate. least that's what keeps me going when things go south. Just wanted to say thanks for your content. I've only just come back to Eve after a very long time (2011) and your videos have really helped explain stuff as well as set me on a more efficient path for a new character compared to my og main as well as generate a bit of hype for playing again. Take it easy man, all will fall into place in time and who knows might bump into you out in the void.

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you 🚀 and welcome back!

[@blackpool225]

dude sorry to hear what you ve been through, hope everything turns out ok. we will be very happy to have you back!! really hope everything works out fine!

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you kindly

[@sanpo87]

Hey cap, glad to see you back. Sorry you had to go through a heavy time to get there though.

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you

[@BigTastyPeter]

I hope it gets better. As for an video idea, how about stealthbomber and how they work in eve. Besides that i wish you good luck, stay frosty Cpt.

[@captainbenzie]

Thanks for the idea! I love bombers, so definitely a good idea!!

[@LourensCoetzer]

Howzit. I'm from South Africa and I feel you. I have been following you from Echoes. I have also been cheated on ,so I feel you. Also had to go to therapy. Benzie it will take time BUT it becomes better. Love your work, love when you freak out( tell the truth harshly) . Love you boet.

[@captainbenzie]

Thanks Boet! Means a lot 😊

[@haldrikk]

Since I started playing EVE again after a 10 years break I'm watching all of your videos and I'm loving! Keep up with this great work but most important is to fly safe!

[@captainbenzie]

Welcome back!

[@philhous]

Just subscribed. One of my favorite sources of content on EVE. I wouldn't be committing to any sort of schedule at the minute if I were you - personally if and when you post I'll watch it. I'm sure I'm not alone in that. Take care.

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you 😊🚀

[@neilthatcher5243]

Glad to here you are still with us and feeling better, stay strong!! Have had to rebuild my life from Scratch twice I know how easy it is to say and how hard it is to do but it does get better =)

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you, it's tough but I know I'll be even stronger once through it

[@louisferreira9055]

Wow!... you and I have sooo much in common in real life! And yes, I am a Zimbabwean living in the UK, so I really get it. Reach out if you need a broad shoulder, mate.

[@davidnobular9220]

Welcome back !! I for one have really enjoyed your content and appreciated your efforts over the years. I think you will be stronger and more resilient after going through what you did and coming out on the other side (a metaphoric wormhole maybe ?). I'll try to keep the Ishtar jokes to a minimum..... Cheers

[@captainbenzie]

😂😂😂

[@Fabsterman]

wow... what a ride man.... wish you all the best man

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you 🚀😊

[@kr4ftt]

In true eve fashion, when I lost my job back 3 years ago I told my corporation friends about it and one gave me the tip that basically saved me from depression: turn "search for a job into a job itself". Wake up early, shower, eat, then sit in your chair from 9 to 12 searching and applying for jobs. Then stop, to lunch, have a break, start searching again from 1 to 5 in the afternoon and... Stop searching. That kept me into my old routine, I felt I was achieving something and gave me the balance of "work / free" time that I needed... I got a new job in about a week after I started doing this ❤ I hope this helps you as much as it helped me

[@kr4ftt]

I know every person is different and this tip may not help you at all, but if you could at least look into it, maybe mold into your own needs, your own reality, maybe then you can mark it work 😊

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you for the advice. Sadly, this is what I was doing and it, in itself, was destroying me. Now, I'm still looking for work and applying, but at a more relaxed pace whilst also heading out busking and singing shanties in the streets. It's giving me joy, bringing in money, and can be worked around applications etc.

[@RadioWhar]

I have been away from EVE myself but i still keep up on it watching videos. Glad you are alive and in tact. Take care of yourself!

[@Cut_the_red_wire]

Well fought Captain!

[@captainbenzie]

o7 🚀

[@TurnedupFitness]

Glad to hear your ok and have missed the fun

[@captainbenzie]

Thanks 😊

[@connorbrown3588]

I'm sorry to hear you've had a hard time. You spoke of it a little when I met you in Canterbury, but yeah, that's rough. My solution to burn out is just mixing up the games I play. So for you, maybe do a poll of games you'd like to do videos on and then see what people vote for. This may also help with building up an audience as you'd have a broader library of content. Also, when you're doing your shanty singing, you may be able to perform on stage at comic con events or anime/gaming league events. I'm not sure on how it all works, so would require a bit of research. But it's a good way to promote yourself and let new people discover who you are. And there's the benefit of attending the events too. One final thing, could you tell me the name of your other chanel so I may subscribe there too? 👨‍🚀🏴‍☠️

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you for the advice! Yes, the other channel is simply @cptbenzie

[@CyberDoedel]

Thanks for sharing! The Algorythm seems to be with you since this did pop up for me, so that should make it a little easier for you to get back into the swing of making videos. I'm sorry you had to go through that dark path, but I'm glad you came out on the other side. Keep that up! 👍

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you 😊🚀

[@rcgamer4524]

Howdy again! :) all the best.

[@captainbenzie]

Thanks! You too!

[@razvand5243]

There comes a time in a man's life when everything comes to a head. All your life that you have lived until that point is consumed to make space for a new life. Its not easy. I've been at this for a few years now with ups and downs and I hope for you will be easier. But to be honest. nothing like this comes easy. So hang in there, learn who you are and make the distinction between you, and what other people told you about who you are. Not easy, but i guess its better than the alternative. Cheers

[@captainbenzie]

That's a really interesting way of looking at it. The Old has to be torn down into raw material for the New. I like that.

[@SHOTSLAPOUT]

Glad you made it. I tell our newbros to look up your videos.

[@captainbenzie]

Awesome! Thank you!

[@liviustoiann]

Hey Benzie, I lived in Sholden near Deal for a few months back in 2009

[@darkarcanum1814]

Thanks for sharing, sometimes it isn't easy to share though its results usually are. o7

[@captainbenzie]

So true!

[@EradicationGod]

Sorry to hear that buddy. Hope your doing well and hope to catch you around in here and in EVE once more... (Thanks for the fair warning at the start, I couldnt watch this as I am a former patient of what you mentioned at the start.) Sorry, still I wish you all the best mate, Greetz and my heartfell support from the Netherlands

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you and hope you're doing well too!

[@RustyTexan]

Itll be good to have you back Captain. Started thinking about getting back into the game a few months ago and Catskull helped me get hooked again. Look forward to flying with you!

[@ivarsingh7920]

Welcome back! I just started playing the game and i have to say your videos are my savior! please keep up the good and amazing work, and i assure you that better days are coming. o7

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you and glad that I've been able to help!

[@andysayers1656]

Mental Health issues are tough to deal with. And tougher to overcome. I found last year just allowing myself to accept i needed help worked wonders, then talking to others and telling about my journey and experience was the medicine i needed. My only advice would be Keep talking to people about how you feel. Good job, and you wont believe how much of a positive impact this video would have on someone else going through their own issues. EXCELLENT JOB! Im staying tuned and hoping for updates on how you get on!

[@captainbenzie]

I can only hope that it perhaps helps others. Otherwise, I have no qualms talking about it, I agree that, men especially, need to talk about mental health more. Thank you so much for your kind words and support!!

[@andysayers1656]

@captainbenzie it will have an impact. If just 1 person watches the video and it comvinces them to reach out and talk then that would be an amazing outcome. Good job and Keep talking!

[@captainbenzie]

@@andysayers1656 thank you

[@robkewley]

Thank you for sharing. I had a painful divorce that left me broke in more ways than one. That was a few years ago and I’m now happier than I ever. I’d be happier still if you shared a video of the sea shanties

[@captainbenzie]

Haha, check out my other channel (@cptbenzie) and you'll see some there!

[@gbaeck]

Always enjoyed your videos. Glad to hear that you are getting better.

[@DiekenSmith]

Glad to hear things are happening to get back on track for you IRL.

[@silentsnooper3307]

Keep it up, Captain! You're doin great!

[@captainbenzie]

Thanks, will do!

[@MrCayuga]

Hey man. I've returned to EVE after 15 years, playing a new character. Your wormhole and abyssal videos have been really great! Thanks for sharing that story and wishing you all the best. Hope you can get back on track making great EVE content, and hope that your revenue will climb back to where it was. See you in the black o7

[@captainbenzie]

Welcome home to New Eden!

[@allthingsconsidered5958]

Glad you are doing better. That's a lot to deal with in a year and I wish you all the best in dealing with all of that.

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you

[@bghc64]

The universe throws at us only what we can handle. You can do dis 💪

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you 🚀

[@TibbeC4]

Really good to have you back in business again, been missing you!

[@captainbenzie]

Thanks man!

[@borninvincible]

Hey, CPT o7 we love you and glad to hear you're cool. ❤

[@captainbenzie]

Thank you ❤️