I'm Sick Of Being Schizophrenic

I'm tired
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[@dadcanibeagirl]

im 26 been schizophrenic my whole life... cant work no girlfriend still at home with parents.... its bad..... but at the end of the day..... i can relate with how you feel..... hope it helps knowing someone somewhere on this planet feels just as scared and lost .... i love you bro

[@Nandita077]

gdffgdf dgfg hey..how r u doin? I'll b frank, it's like a fine line to balance when we know someone is diagnosed..I mean as a person who cares for dear one diagnosed ,yea ,maybe help isnt the thing,symapthy is not the thing..but how should I approach,behave ? Stay around means don't speak about it at all? I really would appreciate if you could give ur insight..

[@CPSheepCow]

Just talk normally about it like a normal conversation and avoid saying "That's to bad" or "I'm sorry for you". Also avoid having a too serious look on your face, you should feel confortable not uneasy or serious. This helps for me at least, can't say for everyone. (I'm schizoaffective).

[@danichesney1876]

♥️

[@mll3436]

Much love 💗💗

[@transfer-ugnl4770]

gdffgdf dgfg try beam surgery for schizo it works

[@katedollen6560]

Mental illness is terrifying...people kill themselves because they can’t cope with it. I don’t think anyone who hasn’t suffered from psychosis etc can truly comprehend how utterly terrifying and lonely it is to try to cope with it one your own. Stay strong x

[@codywilliams2368]

very very true !

[@mexican_wbc9946]

Kate Dollen I don’t have psychosis but I have another mental illness and I do comprehend I used to have hallucinations as a little kid and I’m a paranoid type of person but I don’t have hallucinations anymore and I’m paranoid but not to the extent of a schizophrenic but I have other problems with my illness and on top of my illness I do have stages of a type of psychosis called depersonalization ever since I smoked weed but my illness I was born with is more serious and it prevents me from being normal and my illness causes me anxiety and depression sometimes too

[@complimentbotd7232]

I don't know what it's like to have schizophrenia at all. But I know the feeling of being exhausted because of something you can never escape and a constant blind chase for a normal life. I've always been inspired by your videos man, you're as charming as you are smart and have taught me a lot. What I'm trying to say is, you helped me go on and you helped a lot more people too, I wish you the best man

[@theusedbert24]

I don't know if you'll read this or not....I've been watching for a long time and I've always felt like I could relate. I was diagnosed at 15 with Schizoaffective Disorder (5 years ago). I understand being tired of dealing with this and I too, ask myself "why?"....I wish there was an answer, or at least a cure. Unfortunately, not enough people participate in research studies and it's such a complex disorder. I understand the feeling of something in your head that has to come out...I've always had this (what I called) itch in my head that I needed to get out, like there's something there that shouldn't be. I hope one day that we can discover what it might be....I'm glad that you have this as a positive outlet and I hope you know that it helps others. I hope that things ease up, even just a bit, for ya...My heart is with you.

[@Kingdomchild_5367]

theusedbert24 Today is your day my friend to really know what’s happening and to understand why you’re experiencing the things your going through!! Demons who are called fallen angles are the ones that are oppressing you!! The reason why they attack humans is because we are created in the image and likeness of God, they hate God’s creation. Like I mentioned before Satan and demons are fallen angels who fell from heaven because of pride and rebellion. Satan wanted to be like God. Isaiah 14:12 says I will ascend into heaven, I will exalt my throne above the stars of God; I will also sit on the o mount of the congregation On the farthest sides of the north; 14 I will ascend above the heights of the clouds, I will be like the Most High - this Satan talking Revelation 12:7-12 7 And war broke out in heaven: Michael and his angels fought with the dragon (Satan); and the dragon and his angels fought, 8 but they [a]did not prevail, nor was a place found for [b]them in heaven any longer. 9 So the great dragon was cast out, that serpent of old, called the Devil and Satan, who deceives the whole world; he was cast to the earth, and his angels were cast out with him. Revelation 12:4 mentions a third of angles fell along with Satan earth!! So from this passage we see that Satan and other angles being kicked out which is why they are called fallen angles!! Now if you’ read the book of Genesis it’s Says in the beginning God created the heavens and the earth and also created Adam and Eve the first humans to be created and he placed them in the garden of Eden. The bible says that he created everything good in the beginning. God told Adam and Eve that that they could eat from any tree in the garden of Eden except from the tree of knowledge of good and evil, he warned them that the day they eat from this tree they will surly die. In this passage God is not only talking about physical death but spiritual death. After God warned them Satan the fallen angel came and deceived them saying “ Surly you won’t die for the day you eat from this tree your eyes will be open and you’ll be like God knowing GOOD AND EVIL. So it happened that Adam and Eve listen to Satan and at from the tree of knowledge of good and evil and that’s how Sin came into the world and humanity became evil which is why everyone has committed sin!! In fact the bible says that all have sinned and fallen short of the glory, it also says that there’s none righteous no not one!! So therefore you’re sinner no one perfect. No you’re probably wondering what has to go to do with what I’m going through well it does because sin opens door for demons to posses or oppress somebody perhaps it wasn’t you that opened the door to the demons it could be your family line. There are many open door any I can give you some examples, witchcraft divination physic tareet card reading pornography music violent movies and video games etc..... this is why God sent Jesus Christ to die on the cross for our sins, to set us free my bondage, demons, heal us and give us eternal life when we die!!! Jesus says the thief ( devil) comes to steal kill and destroy but I’ve come that you may have life and have it more abundantly. Jesus says “come to me all you who weary and heavy laden and I will give you rest for your souls”. Jesus says that all power in Heaven and on earth has been given to”. My friend you can put your trust in Jesus Christ the son of God who is able to set you free!!! Hell wasn’t created for us humans initially it was created for Satan and demons however because we also have sinned we are all worthy of death. That’s why the bible says the wages of sin is death but the gift of God is eternal life through our Lord Jesus Christ the son of God!! Sin separates us from God because he is Holy and judges sin. To be separated from God means torment pain suffering perhaps hell why? Because doesn’t dwell in sin and he is Holy!! Jesus Christ is the only one that can reconcile you back to God so you can be on right terms with God and forgiven for your all your sins!! Satan knows he’s going hell he’s doing all he can to destroy lives and bring us along to hell with him as well as his with his minions (demons). Just want to emphasise that the voices and visuals that you may or may not see are demons it’s not you!!! Demons are real Jesus Christ casted out demons in the bible he still sets people free today!!!

[@nikki-qb7iq]

I'm so glad you still make videos. I wish you didn't have to suffer this way, you seem like a good and intelligent person. I hope you find something that works for you

[@stefaniamich8772]

you're an inspiration to everyone. stay strong ♡ our mood is like the sea, the waves go up and down

[@BobDowns]

Thank you for sharing your insights into your illness. I enjoy listening to your videos (it's especially nice now that you have a nice mic - I'm hard of hearing, so those sorts of things matter to me.). 😊

[@watchreadplayretro]

Thank you again for this. Must be tough to sit and record, but I learn as much from listening to this as I do from listening to your other videos. Heartfelt.

[@suzannealsop3394]

Stay strong always Jacob. I know how hard it can get. You are such an inspiration to me Xx

[@InternalMind]

It’s the subconscious mind that stores all sorts, and then randomly decides to show you, its like the subconscious mind is a net that catches and collects random fears phobias or something, and throws it around

[@FocusBeDrifting]

Prayers, love and best wishes to you brother.

[@Vissysaurus]

You're sort of my reminder that it's worth it to keep going. You have more to deal with than I do, and yet you find the strength to plan your future and stay hopeful. Seeing that you have bad days helps, too, although it also makes me sad, of course, since I wouldn't wish it to anyone. But it keeps things real, you know, from a viewer's perspective. The struggle with medications is something that is very difficult for people to imagine who haven't had to deal with it themselves. It doesn't sound as hard as it really is, finding something that helps. I wish you the best!

[@suzymentzos1]

Good for you for talking this shit out. My daughter was recently diagnosed bipolar. I was wondering if you could do a video on what your parents did to help you. What worked for you and them that is a positive outcome for you. I’m lost and don’t know what to do. I’ve been watching you for years. Take care and good job for doing what helps you. 💜

[@AgneseS]

You are so strong. I am glad that you made this video and it is very healthy to vent and just to talk about things. Its so good that you have us. We will always listen to you. You should talk more and more just to get it out of your system.

[@emmarobinson1257]

Rubbish! Hes just feeling sorry for himself. He should learn some fucking coping skills instead of posting his misery on the internet.

[@medicalstudent8440]

emma robinson we all get weak some point in ourselves... He suffer from daily hallucinations!! Which is just 1% of his disorder... He needs help!

[@Effy2023]

emma robinson And you should learn to keep your mouth shut if you don't have anything helpful to say. Bitch.

[@jh4271]

Nice compassion, Emma. People are allowed to state their feelings. You did not have to press play on the video, you empty, cowardly, soulless individual. Disgusting.

[@lisakaylanemorris]

@@emmarobinson1257 schizophrenia is most likely an autoimmune disorder in many cases of the brain. his immune system attacks his brain. he isn't having fun and he is isolated and suffering. this is real. My brother has schizophrenia even worse.. its bad. but he is human. we all are human. I don't have schizophrenia but I know how he feels. I have an autoimmune illness when everytime I stand up my heart rate goes from 68 to 140. Just standing. Doing nothing. I want friends, I want a job, and I want to run and dance and go to carnivals, but I can't. I have to sit or lie down ALL the time. So thank your lucky stars that you have health and a normal immune system. Enjoy your time and your life. Every single day.

[@burra941]

I relate so much to feeling it inside. I know exactly what you mean, and I don't think anyone who doesn't feel it can understand how truly exhausting it feels. You're an inspiration, truly, I've been watching your videos for years and they help me, and many others I'm sure. I wish things will get better for you. You deserve it

[@thepetkeepergirl15]

I’m tired too. I wish I was brave enough to talk about my illness like you.

[@crimecapx7703]

Dont be scared

[@maghrebunited496]

♥️

[@absaloj]

We hear you. Please do talk. There are also healers in this world. Because we wish we could connect with you as a friend. As a human.

[@dumdumdumdum8804]

Wish we could show you the truth, that it is not an illness but a conspiracy of the occult. They are sending signals to your brain.

[@pronerd5761]

You're so strong dude. There are so many people, including myself, who wouldn't be able to do this. You're bravery is very inspiring.

[@natanforlife]

Yes it is. Thank you brother for your honesty. It's admirable 🌗

[@teanapacheco5106]

Hi! Not to throw words out there; But I have schizophrenia, ocd, major depression, anxiety. I see things and hear things. Paranoid, always on edge. Right now I just feel so tired sick and tired of having this illness. Lately I’ve been having trouble sleeping. I just be so tired I need to sleep.

[@leannecroteau]

Hang in there. I have had Schizophrenia all of my life too. I am doing better with it now mostly, but I had a nervous breakdown when I was fifteen and I had to go to a mental ward/hospital. I haven't been back since, but I have to keep my stress levels at a level I can handle. I no longer hear voices, but sometimes I think I am hearing voices when I hear the ice cream truck going down the road playing the annoying music they play or when I hear my phone ringtone. I still have some hallucinations and paranoia. The worst part of having Schizophrenia for me is the ideas that other people have about it and how they perceive those that have it. It's good to vent sometimes. I enjoyed watching the video. There are things that only Schizophrenic people understand.

[@bplperez7628]

18 years ago i was diagnosed and have been married for 20 years after all this time i was not able to express what it feels like I had hubby watch and wowowowow you made a hopeful and perfect example and he has changed how he talks to me ty for your videos they help more than you think

[@andrewworkman9488]

What you're dealing with is very tough. I am diagnosed with schizoeffective and bipolar hear voices at times plus my main problem is the paranoia and delusions that keeps me from going outside and having a decent self confidence which completely is horrible.

[@notsuicidaljustdiecurious5155]

You’ve inspired and empowered so many people, including me. We are all here for you during this rough time. Keep holding on ❤️

[@sarahbucket8037]

INCEL Assraper ..

[@prettymommy6579]

I am so sorry that you are going through this. Don't take it as pity, but I truly feel bad for anybody going through this hell. But please know, by you sharing this you are helping a lot of people probably especially young people so that they know that they are not going through their own hell alone .Thank you for posting

[@Allykitts25]

Keep your head up! Your schizophrenia doesn't define you and don't let it control you! (I'm not pitying, I just want you to know we care about you)

[@jh4271]

Ally Kitts doesn't define us, you are right. We do have to live with it daily, however.

[@jackcarpentiermtb4838]

Stay strong bro it will be alright in the end

[@julia-tq5ic]

Thank you so much for sharing! I feel you! I stay in my room to in order to avoid an episode and so I don't go to the hospital.

[@derrickkolbe1900]

Dude your a really cool guy and i hope you get the help you need. Keep hope and faith and read positive affermations of positive things. Dont let your inner critic get the best of you. Remember your strong and dont give up. Keep your head up dude.

[@immikeyiiirockk]

My brother has developed what I think are very severe symptoms over the past several years. I hope we can some day get him to a place where he’s as much in control and, self-aware as you are. Keep up the videos - much love

[@Ezcxta42]

My medication works about 35% of the time, sometimes the voices are there minute by minute and it gets brutal when I go outside, my delusions are still there too, along with my emotions, stay strong, you're much stronger than me as I'm too scared to blog about this, but keep going on, I care about what you go through, along with others here.

[@kathrynhardin5692]

I got diagnosed schizophrenic when I was 16, I was on meds for a little, but then I was kicked out because my sister got pregnant, so I left and stopped taking meds, I’m 26 now, I feel like I’m doing the best I ever have, i gained a lot of logical reasoning to lessen the fear I used to have weighing down on me, until yesterday, I hallucinated a few times and I tried to ignore it, because I was so happy that I had been feeling like I was doing better, but then I hallucinated again, and just realized it’s always going to be here. I agree it is torture, when you said that it made me tear up, the worst part is not having anyone understand any of it, you’re alone and just tortured. Honestly the only thing I could think of to do was look up your videos, because I remembered seeing them a few years ago and they interested me, and I’m glad I did, because you have new videos and it’s comforting, to know at the very least I’m not the only one dealing with this. I know what you mean about feeling like something is physically in your head, mine feels like in a similar way, I just started feeling that way this past two years and it is terrible. I took abilify, it did not work for me at all

[@canman7773]

It will get better dude. Sending you good vibes

[@isaacthedestroyerofstuped7676]

I just want to tell you that you are an inspiration and that I relate. I don't know if you remember the stream where I, IsaacTheDerp, told you about my migraines. I haven't been able to watch your streams and couldn't update you guys on them. I went to the migraine clinic and was put on new meds; they helped, but now, their effects seem to be wearing off now. I wont be back in until September. My migraines are flaring up more and worse. My paranoia is back and my depression is too. I too often wonder why people have to go through such suffering or even why is pain exists. Why does anyone have to go through this stuff? I hope we can all find some relief. I hope things get better for you. At this point, I've kind of just accepted that I'll have to be medicated for my whole life.

[@Wufei22]

First step to strengthening one's self is identifying the problem. Which you've clearly embraced your ailment. Your a tough dude and it's good your on youtube talking about because you'll reach out to other's with similar problems...

[@peachtrees_]

I slept in my parents' room until an embarrassingly old age because I was scared they were going to die in the middle of the night.

[@yummyjackalmeat]

Thanks for talking about this. I do sometimes wish I was normal. I sometimes ask why. There isnt an answer. The world is messed up, people are messed up, the universe wanys to destroy us....yet you see a mother taking care of a child, a human smiles at another human, a doctor saves a life, a guy makes youtube videos and it helps give some relief to other people who are in pain and fear....you see these things and instead of thinking how it got so bad, youll say how are things not worse?

[@EvilisAnihilisUlsTFRID]

Stave off madness by facing the perceived madness. It's painful and I won't tell you otherwise. Just a few days inside gets me back into more and more stress when it's time to face the world and live. You've got to live too. Our body is screaming at us I believe to move and be alive to the utmost degree.

[@gabrieltdu5780]

im sick of having c ptsd as well.i respect you because your struggle is even greater than mine lol

[@activis1977]

i dont have schizophrenia but i have a pretty horrible psychosis from my upbringing. i feel you man, always feeling shit from what the hallucinations say about you (for me anyway) always degrading you, having brain pain when they shout and believe what the voices say, mine interfere with what i believe other peoples thoughts are on me (feeling there planning against me especially if there in a group) i feel like im going to come into confrontation like begin stabbed or something, this makes me want to hurt them before they can hurt me. i dont go outside for both my and everyone safety. its like living in hell when the voice(s) can play with your emotions

[@buttermuffin94]

I hate being pitied too, especially when you're explaining your thoughts to someone and you just want them to listen and understand what you're going through.

[@sullieskye]

i kinda get that contradicting feeling where i want someone to care about me and understand me but i dont really want someone to be so concerned for me and feel bad for me. idk its weird. i've been diagnosed for almost 3 years but i've had terrible anxiety my whole life. you're a great dude man

[@MayaImaniAmani]

Hang in there bby 💋

[@hiddenagenda4067]

Maya Imani-Amani ewww

[@timothy4016]

I love your videos maya. You and Jacob are part of the mental health KZbin community who make other people feel less alone. Thank you for the gift

[@alisalimmariaka3888]

Wooow Maya ! ..Glad you are here to support him too

[@mrblue8439]

Thank you for sharing your story

[@PsychicSploob]

Hey man one thing that always eased my mind was keeping a journal. Sounds silly I know, but writing is a form of meditation. It gets you thinking and it can make you more mindful as overused as that word is...

[@LeenaY88]

I totally understand that it is draining. I mean to live in fear is the worst thing ever. Have you ever tried the long acting injections. Much Love

[@juliakubiniec7896]

I really look up to you. You are so smart and strong. I can't imagine how hard your life is. But you will survive everything, just stay strong and don't give up, okey? We are here with you and for you. If you need to talk, just let know.

[@totowhoa2011]

I just came across your amazing videos. I hope you're still here to help us. I hope you feel re-energized.

[@Rebecca-tm8dl]

You're not alone..just pray for love and happiness, does't have to be a god...but for yourself. I love how u talk about this.

[@OneWhoPullsTheStrings]

You’ve inspired so many people, and I hope that we can inspire you to just keep you’re head up! I sincerely know how painful psychosis can be, especially when nothing seems to help at all. I really hope you feel better!

[@luanne4380]

🙏I can't even imagine what you are going through, or what it is like having to deal with being terrified on a daily basis. I'm Praying for you...praying the Lord watch over you, and keeps you safe, and that you can feel his presence, comfort, peace and healing🙏 Thank you for being so courageous and strong by sharing your story.

[@sammie6028]

I have schizoaffective and I get how it feels like there’s physically something in your brain that needs taken out moved or changed in your head

[@secretaryofoffense7118]

I don't have schizophrenia but man can I relate to the dead end frustration of not being able to function like "normal" people. Or not being able to function at all. Hang in there, you're definitely definitely not alone.

[@JenJett]

Be Strong Jacobb!,,,,,I Will Pray For You !,Your AGood Person !,,,❤️

[@DPTavares]

Hey man, I wanted to say I feel for you. As for the question why, it’s an impossible question to answer. I’m sorry. Some people have it worse than others. All we can do is live the life that the universe throws at us and find as much meaning as possible. Keep your head up. This mind state will pass.

[@Rollyax]

Thoughts create out reality. The way we grow up in this society is very bad. It disconnects us from ourselves and we are programmed since early childhood to think in a certain way about reality, which is not reality at all. Now maybe something that bothers you is that your experience of life doesn't fit with society's expectations..and make you feel alienated. I hope you somehow get the point and I would love to talk more about it with you. As I'm studying more and more of how our mind works I'm starting to see why there is such a thing as 'suffering'. We are our mind and we work a certain way without seeing that deep down there is somethin happening outside our control. I don't know how schizophrenia is manifesting but I believe having a right mindset can escape you from those fears, more or less. Love you! ❤️

[@08jkhnor]

I used to have a sever depression and I remember vividly that the worst part of my day was right when I wake up. along with me taking medication -which helped reduce my symptoms- I tried mindfulness techniques right when I wake up and it was difficult as first but it became a little habit that snowbolled over the years. Now of course schizophrenia is a psychotic disorder and I can’t compare it to depression, but studies (as far as I’m concerned) indicates that mindfulness can help schizophrenic patients (especially those who fit the diagnostic criteria of schizoaffective becomes they deal also with mode fluctuations by having episodes of depression or mania ) in dealing more efficiently with their symptoms. so maybe you can look that up if you’re interested, all the best.

[@Rollyax]

Sam I I really hope he read the comments

[@user-tw5lr2ie2o]

i hope ur alright. much love

[@sullieskye]

dude i feel the same. i hate the whole 'why me?' thing but i do think about why i am the way that i am. but i'd rather get more introspective about the subtle feelings that i know we all feel. that most people are oblivious to. but still feel.

[@lindseywhidden1676]

I've been avoiding all excitement. Upbeat music, going hiking, and seeing friends&family. I can have uncomfortably fast thoughts that turn into full blown panic attacks. Stress free zones! Science is making great strides. Our meds are so archaic. Have you seen that DMT was found in urine of schizophrenics and other affective/nonaffective disorders?

[@lunam432]

I get you.

[@1961maya]

I totally understand you!!! Hugs!

[@sydneyschmidt4267]

Always here to listen to you vent if it helps you💖

[@kellymiller7632]

Your a amazing man Jacob!!... keep your head up 😘

[@ToniCarrington]

Look forward to the good days bud ☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️

[@playbunny.]

Hey also a schizophrenic with only visual not auditory i sometimes get tired like you im wondering if your solom slowness is from meds or from not taking meds and spending time with schizophrenia. Does it slow you down into disassociation. What does that maybe DMT chemistry and increased white matter in the mind. Or grey matter causes schizophrenic symptoms have to look it up just a theory. HSP sensitivity. Im on invega sustenna watching your video and replying same time. Probably spirtual ideations linked to possible family generational curses possibly coded as genetic inheritance. It is oddly just so spirtual than normal right?

[@khalidpictures186]

I said like you when before 2 years i came out of bipolar disorder it is hell miserable.

[@sarahwynosky3421]

Let go of time . my voices used to hurt me with time and when I let go of time it couldnt hurt me anymore that the voices may never go away

[@jeusvox2878]

I’m here with you bro.

[@tashawaters89]

I’m sick of “spies”, but maybe they’re unaware of being spies, and we’re just controlled by magnets sometimes. You give me strength! You have a lot of experience with schizophrenia.

[@oshnapgurlidid]

Did you try Clozaril ? My psychiatrist told me this was my "last resort" medication. I just started taking it about a month ago and my voices haven't gone away but their tone changed. It's so hard to explain. But I noticed I have some realllly bad days on it but usually I feel kinda okay.

[@gracelloyd7451]

Huh, this feeling is too real. I get it, I have suffered my entire life also. I get anxious everyday that I am going to be alone, I just some days wish I could disappear, you know. I don’t like being trapped and alone and feeling like I won’t ever have control

[@tolisk1338]

im sick too.but in my case im so more disorganized iin my speech than u.u dont seem psycho dude u seem heallthy thats the truth confidence in urself and everything gonna be ok.

[@SchizophrenicCathy]

I am sick of being schizophrenic, too. I just got home from a four day stay at yet another mental ward. It sucked. They put my ass back on Haldol, despite having tardive dyskinesia and akathisia. The doc talked to me for all of two minutes before changing all my meds around. If you need to chat, I'm on Facebook, Instagram, etc. Hope you find some relief.

[@SchizophrenicCathy]

Have you tried Rexulti yet? It helped me for a while. Unfortunately, as you can probably relate, my body builds up tolerance to meds, so I have to switch meds now and then.

[@maghrebunited496]

You are soo strong i m very proud of you. You are handsome inteliggent man 💖

[@playbunny.]

Can you describe your experience with invega sustenna paripalidone is it 0.75 mg or higher. It makes me feel weird and slow and like i dont want to live because i cant experience wholeness of emotional expression and focus.

[@chriskeller3229]

I know what you mean, I feel it through out my body and mind, and it makes me numb and mad to sad I'm an instant, iv been dealing with it for 4 years now, and I don't feel anything anymore its just maid me numb

[@callumgeier9621]

Im with you brother ....Feel you.

[@ManoftheClouds]

I know how ya feel man. I'm under the impression that those voices and paranoid thoughts come from someone somewhere. I say they've developed the technology to cause schizophrenia in people's brains with some type of radiowave or something. It's hard to tell what exactly it is but have hope that it'll all come to light in the future. Remember to stay positive and maintain forward progress.

[@artificialintelligence5087]

I don't have schizophrenia. Schizophrenia was observed for thousands of years. Human body and brain is complex, it's easy to see that something can go wrong. Nobody is sending any radio waves to cause schizophrenia. Even aliens (if they even exist) would have zero benefit from sending meaningless voices into people's head.

[@breeneb2705]

@@artificialintelligence5087 You don't know if they derive no benefit from doing so. Aliens' nature and mind is unknown to us. It's obvious that they have no problem traumatizing and kidnapping people for the purposes of study (as far as we can gather). Most alien encounters described by people that have been abducted or encountered a ufo feel unease or go insane. As for people doing evil things to one another, study psychopathy and narcissism. When you subtract self awareness and empathy from a human being, little they do makes sense or is warranted and all of is either evil or atleast destructive. Evil people don't need an excuse or a reason to be evil. Maybe they get enjoyment out of it; it's called sadism, and if you think there aren't sadistic people in positions of power in this world I don't know what to tell you.

[@restkeeper5019]

So happy that you’re a strong oerson

[@kirasussane1556]

I don't have schizophrenia so I understand that we have different struggles and experiences but I have depression and severe social anxiety first memory of feeling depressed when I was 4 years old . I had difficulties going to school when I was a little kid i would cry before going to school and also cry when I was in school . My mental illness has take in many ways my life away I couldn't finish high school and having a job to sustain myself is my biggest goal. Daily things like shopping or taking abuse are extremely difficult for me. Last summer was a horrible time for me . I was so paralyzed by fear an anxiety that was not able to eat,sleep or just enjoy life It feel like agony i was afraid of getting hacked, driving or traveling cuz I fear crashing and dying. I would had three panic attacks in a day . I spend almost two years without leaving my house I'm doing better now my depression crisis usually happen every year or two has been like this since I was a little kid. Sending hugs 💖💖 Just wanna let you know your not alone and is ok to feel angry,sad and lost. Having a mental illness is difficult Sorry for the long comment.

[@itsme-vx8lg]

It destroyed my life sometimes I hate my self and I started crying

[@catarinamarcelo6666]

Keep going. You can deal with it.

[@hypolaristic]

research is going faster atm. stay strong...

[@Johnphilips1234]

Have you listened to Adyashanti or Rupert spira? I’d recommend it, it helps you to wake up from the identification of though and the limiting label of ‘schiophrenia, and simply embody the awareness that you are. The awareness or the knowing in which the good, the bad, the ugly, the hallucinations and delusions all arise and pass arise and pass - just a vast empty space that you are. Don’t wanna be a spiritual evangelist - it’s not right for everyone but I always think it’s worth a shot - it certainly won’t do any harm! Also I don’t have schizophrenia so I dunno how spiritual awakening would arise in someone with schizophrenia . Keep strong my friend!

[@AshOfTexas]

I don't have it as bad as you, and I also have PTSD. It helps, unfortunately, to hear someone explain what I am going thru but can't put into words. Mine comes in cycles, with breaks from the extreme hallucinations but still deal with other symptoms. I found out that caffeine really messes with me mentally. Also bright, fluorescent lights, like in stores. Try wearing a hat or sunglasses in stores and get rid of ALL caffeine. See if that helps. I pray for you, and all of us who suffer. I sometimes ask 'Why me?' too. Idk if you're religious, GOD has a reason that is beyond our comprehension. For non-believers (no judgment for those who don't) 'Everything happens for a reason'. Your stories of struggle is powerful to many and an insight to people who don't have mental illnesses. Stay strong!

[@leroygeorge9058]

Be strong my friend

[@Alexander77729]

I have schizophrenia too i know your pain took me years to master it everything you hear in your head or see its not real ignore it. Oh and make sure you dont smoke weed because it will make life wayy more horrible a call them bad trips

[@chriskeller3229]

Yes for now we have to live with it, fuck it there's nothing we can do for now, I know what it's like and it sucks

[@jahanzebsiddiqui9499]

You can always share your feelings

[@drftw9712]

Sending love :) I know just how you feel...

[@colemithrush]

I have the same thing I just choose not to believe the voices they are easy to ignore if you have the desire

[@kcamroccamian]

Have you considered trying clozapine?

[@Ph.C]

Have you tried CBD oil ? Or Meditation ?

[@EntertainmentWatch]

Hi Jacob, Are you able to keep a box of food in your room? I find that I can collect items that keep and are easy to eat when I am hurting all over because it's really hard for me to eat when I am not hungry and hurting. I like tortillas, bread, or saltine crackers dipped in olive oil. Hawaiian rolls with honey, or peanut butter on Ritz crackers. Poweraid, and bottled waters, or a cup for the sink. Just basically gather food when your parents are not around to intimidate you or make you feel worse and keep it in a box near your bed. It looks like you take really good care of your cat. We are having a fuller moon until July 2. So you might want to hang blackout shades in your window or hang a blanket or towels to block out that sun so you can sleep. Might ask your pdoc for some Ativan or lorazepam to take the edge off the extremely high anxiety and help you sleep. I am not sure if you are being abused by a covert narcissistic family member, but you can look up NPD on KZbin to learn more. You are going to get better just ride out one day at a time. It gets better as you get older. Also when you are in an intense stress phase if you get blisters in your mouth from stress "fluoride free" toothpaste helps with that. And if you have any stress infections on your fingers or toes or any little sores anywhere Bactrin is great for that, someone can get you these from the grocery store maybe. Then wear the softest clothing you have. Basically, when your body is super stressed out you need to treat yourself with extreme care like baby skin, walk slow go slow. The peanut butter can help you rebuild your muscles like your heart and legs. And on better days think of Audrey Hepburn, Frank Sintara, Lions, Jupiter and all the beauty and mystery in space, and just enjoy old movies. You are a very good and informative spokesperson and being on social media is really your job. So don't worry about your future just keep doing what you do best! Thank you for being an inspiration! I know it hurts, but just take one day at a time, there are good days and terrible days but you are helping people and that is you putting something really good back into a world that feels so dark sometimes. I wish I could help you more, but for now just take a break if you need one and get some rest, I know easier said than done but you need to go nite nite so you don't end up back in the hospital.

[@beargrizzly3120]

I am 16 and have schizoaffective disorder. I am on risperdal, abilify and lithium and nothing is working. I feel like my last resort is suicide.

[@alinamuller1186]

I just want to hug you. I'm in the same situation. I would like to write, don't give up but I have. Suicidal every day. It's hell

[@finallyfightingback2750]

Hi there, I’ve been watching your videos because they’ve been helping me deal with my younger brother’s schizophrenia. Well, all signs point to schizophrenia, but no one knows for sure since he’s in deep denial and also brainwashed by my mentally ill mother to believe that “there is no mental illness in our family.” I know he’s in a horrible place and I don’t know how to help him. I feel such a warmth for you because you really remind me of my brother, the way you look and talk. Do you have any idea how brave it is that you make these videos? That you say “hey world, I have schizophrenia and it sucks. I have good days and bad days and today is a bad day. I look for ways to remedy this horrible illness and make my life as awesome as it can be.” That’s what I see in you. That’s what I wish my brother would say too. I wouldn’t for one second feel sorry for you. Thank you for making these videos. You are helping me understand my brother.

[@karimdima2273]

I hope your brother will have a happy life one day

[@jjninja1000]

I feel like this a lot because of my schizophrenia. I just want to give up sometimes I just want a life without this illness

[@dumdumdumdum8804]

I am hearing them from as long as I can remember.

[@Rollyax]

What if you let go of your fears? And I mean completely feel them without trying to escape the moment

[@shepherdsoutcry1380]

If you pause linkin Parks Video “given up” you will see “schitzotypal personality disorder” with its DSM description. I was diagnosed schizoyypal at 13 then schizophrenic then schizoaffective. I too feel my brain. Sometimes it’s like a magnet that moves dynamically over my cortex as my thoughts change. Mostly it is a “headache” but only in a specific brain region. 99% of this pain occurs in my frontal cortex which, ironically is the part of the brain destroyed by medication and likely schizophrenia itself.

[@notheretobeloved]

I don't have Schizophrenia. So I cannot say I know exactly what that's like, though I have had psychotic episodes. I have Borderline Personality Disorder. My emotions are higher than "normal" good and bad emotions. I also sometimes hear voices before I go to sleep... one of my meds is supposed to help with that... and it clearly just doesn't. Getting a DNA test for medications that would help me was a little beneficial... makes sense why anti-depressants didn't do jack for years....etc. I know I'm not in your position, Jacob. But I do understand the frustration of Mental illness... the system being fucked up...etc.