i made a movie. it stunk.

[@austinmcconnell]

Hi! You can support my next movie here: bit.ly/GOATLAS

[@Arthur-we3jd]

sure

[@jaypaint4855]

There’s no such word as ‘stunk’. You mean it ‘stank’. The abuses inflicted on my native tongue by americans makes me weep……

[@dannycomellas]

Hey Austin: Is there any way we can see Sprouting Orchids?

[@alexslusher16]

So I have a few questions regarding your film. 1: Who was the casting director for your film? 2: Who was the videogropher for your film? 3: Who edited the film? As an aspiring creator, I would really appreciate the advice.

[@DrJigglebones]

Can't believe you're anti-choice and homophobic. Disgusting. Anyone else who wants to see the proof search "Austin McConnell - Who Should Christians Vote for?" at about 12 min

[@gnaek]

Bad movie turned into the best "making of/behind the scenes" video ever

[@creamofweber5170]

hahahahaha...

[@starkingbiker]

I’d say that still goes to episode 1

[@realfilms3348]

The disaster artist?

[@aaronsart8465]

that's what I was thinking

[@remusgrrrl]

Joaquin Vega I agree completely.

[@Lazdinger]

“I’m Austin McConnell and this is my Master Class.”

[@thecandcake]

XD

[@kkbdagupanofficial976]

hahahaha

[@icecoldrugby]

Thank you for coming to my Ted Talk

[@namkedi]

Lazdinger no one came lol

[@bippolhdt4730]

@@namkedi 8 people came

[@zactocher6335]

This wasn't a "making of" or a "behind the scenes video". This was a short film about the life of a filmmaker creating their first feature film. Simply an amazing short.

[@ccn690]

It really was.

[@konstantinopoulos33]

One might even say... it was a decent half hour movie

[@josephzhavec964]

It was. Brilliantly spliced together.

[@mdoerkse]

Yeah, I'd call it a confession.

[@BusyBeeStitchery]

“Planting Orchids”- a movie about a young director’s challenges as he shoots his first film. THIS is the movie you should make, my man.

[@tim..indeed]

That's like the most cliche low-budget movie concept there is

[@LAE-7]

agreed

[@thisisdylangreenberg]

That was literally the thing that you just watched

[@acutecloudd7970]

@@tim..indeed Everything has been done, it's about putting your uniuqe twist on it. Not sure why so many fmmakers online are negative and enjoy spreading pretentious opinions

[@EyeballParalysisProd]

@@acutecloudd7970Simple insecurity i believe, fear causes assholes

[@JimsEquipmentShed]

The important thing, is you did it. How many people have abandoned a dream before they even started. You followed, completed, and documented the process.

[@ActionMediaProductions]

JimsEquipmentShed I was told those same words when I completed an awareness film, and it put it in perspective for me. I did what most couldn’t.

[@YeviCoulson]

This comment will mean so much more to me in a month

[@yanstein8464]

@@YeviCoulson how are you doing now after a month?

[@YeviCoulson]

@@yanstein8464 thanks for asking I've been meaning to come back to this comment I've started a comic book club i haven't documented it but i will i was even thinking about making a movie using our phones then making a comic based off that movie but as of rn idk what i will do next but whatever it is I'll go through with it under almost any circumstances

[@yanstein8464]

@@YeviCoulson that sounds great, good luck :3

[@ladyioan]

wow that was brutally honest, well done!

[@BenFromCanada]

yeah good video mate

[@GanKtaz]

I was gonna say the same!

[@meowtherainbowx4163]

I love how he doesn't beat himself up too harshly over it and instead just puts it into perspective.

[@trlittletoaster]

fuck you

[@JW_937]

I almost cried. I felt his pain. And the movie doesn’t even look that bad.

[@PaulKyriazi]

Walt Disney said, "Everyone should have a big failure at a young age." He didn't say why, but he said it on film. His failure was loosing his Oswald character to a NYC distributor. He invented Mickey Mouse on the train ride back to LA. Hey Austin, you completed a movie. Completed. Congratulations. .

[@Spectrescup]

Losing ffs.

[@DavidMaloneyProductions]

@@Spectrescup Loosen up a bit lad.

[@codenate02]

@@Spectrescup Yeah, man, Losen up

[@CTGReviews]

@TheCoffeeNut711 And he worked for Disney. So Disney did invent him. :/

[@TheSpiderPan]

You and I are friends now...we just haven't met. Anyone who can quote Walt is a friend of mine.

[@AlienMythos79]

That pain in your voice at the end, I have felt it. Nothing can cut deeper than putting everything you have into something that ends up unloved. It's been nearly five years since you released this video and I'm just now seeing what you and your channel are about. But, I am willing to bet that what you have done with this past five years is awesome.

[@JackassBauer1]

"Everyone have a plan until they get punched in the face..." -Mike Tyson

[@KatieKamala]

That' hilarious, go mikey

[@lisanshahariar6003]

has not have

[@zyaicob]

@@lisanshahariar6003 You hear Mike Tyson talk?

[@haveabananaproductions9117]

@@zyaicob Mike tython

[@haveabananaproductions9117]

@EL INNOMBRABLE hath*

[@HouseholdHacker]

Wow, that was deep. Watched the entire thing. Stick with it!

[@austinmcconnell]

I'll do my best. Thanks. :)

[@jalilphillip4842]

austinmcconnell Im actually excited to see more from you.

[@missionbiker]

That movie may have been many losts for you, but you took some perspective and now you made the most out of it. I love the narrative of this video by the way, is it one uncut audio track ? And... Deal !

[@thecookiemonstergaming3089]

HouseholdHacker hi and btw don't hack my house please

[@1oftheworstclashers740]

HouseholdHacker I did the same

[@larryroyovitz7829]

I'm 44 now, but I spent most of my "youth", lets say 16 to 32-ish, trying my hardest to make it in the music scene. That was a decade and a half that cost me so much money. It was very hard work. It never paid off. There were times when it came close, but something always "messed it up". Although not the same, I know how you feel. We bleed for our art. And now, I'm an old man and have given up on the "dream" for over a decade. I am not bitter though. Some of that time was the some of the best times of my life.

[@scottrastyles2592]

You aren't too old! Keep the dream alive

[@silentwitness536]

70 plus is old. 44 is youngish.

[@WhirlOmar]

Dude, you’re not old. 44 years of age is still young to do things again or even start all over with something.

[@leeartlee915]

I would think the journey would be big part of trying to “make it”. Wiling to bet you met a lot of interesting people along the way, maybe even found love a few times, on your way to failing to make it. Because, in the end, you were doing something.

[@82jp]

Hey, I'm 48 and I'M not old, so you can't be 😊. Find a new dream. There's so much time left.

[@BriannaGipson]

The part where you said you wanted to make the movie not to tell a story, but to just be called a filmmaker hit me hard. “That’s vanity, not art.” I feel like a lot of people (including myself) are guilty of this, and great respect to you for being able to face your mistakes, learn from them, and share them with the world. This was a great story to tell :)

[@treymoodyjr9875]

Dam, he going through something stop dropping hate. Feel his growing pains.

[@tcindie]

Guilty. Definitely. If I had a story to tell it'd all have been so much easier and have happened by now. Instead, I work a full time job that pays really well, and have a basement full of gear collecting dust... and still have nothing compelling to say :)

[@KevinMcLean]

At the moment I want to make films just to have the fulfillment of doing all the aspects of film and not so much to tell stories. So am I okay for that or no?

[@Vinadet]

@@KevinMcLean yes! There is a place for people like you in film. There are so many aspects to it besides just the storytelling. You can go and use your skills to help someone else tell their story. Making film can be a one-man show, but don't feel bad if it's not your "strength" right now

[@KevinMcLean]

Alex Xavier When you make your first issue or even a decent rough draft you gotta come back here and link us to it. That way you have a good chance of getting some good support. Personally I’m always interested in seeing something fresh and different, so I’ll definitely give it a look whenever you make it.

[@estebanmendez5830]

I have no words. "I see a scared obsessed an angry 23-year-old who knows he's not going to be the thing he told himself he'd by 24". That phrase hit me hard This video just hit me hard. One of my favs original videos on YT. Amazing video Austin, soon as my financial situation improves, count with my support in Patreon, is the least I can do for you.

[@ninopan1683]

Claro, eso es lo que no entiendo

[@Cheaplinx]

Why did i look at this comment as that part of the video played

[@palsemanden471]

dum kommentar

[@jacobheasley2618]

That's a lot of words for someone with no words.

[@ouchtor]

@@palsemanden471 1. How the heck do you think these people will understand when you write in Swedish? 2. YOUR commet is freaking stupid! Not Esteban's! 3. Delete your YT account or something, HATERS are NOT allowed!

[@anirex3919]

This was a incredibly well done little mini-documentary.

[@Daviancook]

69

[@thegamingsack]

Nice

[@CaueJulio]

Nice

[@MoltenB]

An*

[@lepmuhangpa]

An. Dude!

[@paulinerenoult1266]

As an "emerging" filmmaker, I watched your video and had tears coming to my eyes, listening to your testimony. Filmmaking is definitely not an easy art, and talking about PTSD is not out of the charts either. I had to quit my job this year, working on a multi-million production movie, (I was at one of the lowest job in the food chain of that production), because I almost wanted to end my days due to bullying by one of my superiors on top of some extreme bad events happening in my personal life. Since, I got diagnosed with PTSD. Long story short, this inspired me to write a script, which turned out to be a feature length script. I feel it's about time to make this movie happen. So I will, because I need to like most filmmakers. I hope you are doing better (you sound like you are, towards the end of your video) and I wish you the best in the future to make new film projects, whether they will be shorts or features. Take care

[@anthony.esper21]

Hey! Any updates? Hope you're doing well!

[@paulinerenoult1266]

@@anthony.esper21 Hi, thank you for asking! I am doing better, it was a huge roller coaster getting my life back together, but I'm getting there. And since I've been in the pre-production of my script so... fingers crossed!?

[@gabethehoward]

@@paulinerenoult1266 That’s wonderful to hear you’re doing much better now. Best of luck on your project; please keep all of us updated how the project goes! :)

[@RockOnTheKitchenTable]

Just wondering how the movies going

[@ThomasFlight]

Damn man. As somebody who's made a no-budget short film, worked on people making low-budget features, I can relate. You should know this 30 minutes is one of the best bits of storytelling I've seen in a while. I felt more at the end, then I have watching any film recently. You're doing what you set out to do, just maybe not in the way you initially imagined. Here's hoping you get that second go at things!

[@haven1048]

Thomas Flight I think this is his second go.

[@thema1998]

Haven104 What was Austin's first go?

[@benbruen7557]

Andrew Del Pilar the movie you silly noodle

[@nixietubes]

Is it this one? player.vimeo.com/video/86915456

[@xualarenthlei3704]

Shameless self promotion. FUCK OFF

[@OrrinMonro]

This is by far one of the most expertly crafted, well structured and beautifully delivered 30 minutes on KZbin. Honest, emotional and deeply personal, Austin, thank you for sharing your story.

[@z_slay3r544]

Orrin Monro I’m guessing you don’t watch iDubbbzTV?

[@timothywalker1774]

I didn't realize it was 30 minuets till i read this, felt like 5 or 10. it was what I needed to hear, and I'm glad I did.

[@orinking8064]

Dude we have super similar names

[@Skyriths]

GamerDudePlays This is better than Idubbbz in my opinion, but you can't really compare them, it's completely different. Idubbbz is not emotional, to me it's not expertly crafted, it's comedy, not a documentary like this basically is.

[@johnspiffman6539]

Lmao what do you watch minecraft letsplays.

[@ravenclawtom]

what i learned; 1. expect the unexpected 2. expect that everyone will hate you at some point during the shoot 3. no one will like it

[@vvcreative2628]

Also make backup of the footage you have because if you lose the one you have , you always have the backup.

[@nicholasgawler-collins5754]

@@vvcreative2628 And another backup, just to be on the safe side.

[@mojo6112]

@@nicholasgawler-collins5754 and another back up on top of that back on top of that other back up just for safe measure

[@jacobmitchell9659]

@@mojo6112 and another back up on top of that back up and on top of that back there is another back up on top of another back up with a back up on top of that back up and then all those back ups are on all different engines that each have 3 back ups if that back up

[@Homer1e2]

And don't expect people to come to your screening on mothers day.

[@jeffm2586]

Austin, I found you by a recommended video of how to survive if my parachute failed, like I am sure many people have. Although I have never had any intention on jumping from a plane, for some reason I clicked on it because of, well, curiosity. I figured I would subscribe because that video was fun, short, and a break in my day that I desperately needed. I subscribed thinking that your channel was going to be full of content like that and because sometimes a 4 minute break from the stresses of work, life, and well anything stressful is a great release to recalibrate and remember that it's ok to laugh. I think it was the animation coupled with your voice and humor that made me click without thinking. Here's the thing... I stay because of things like this. I watch your honesty and raw outlook on yourself. I see me and the things that I did to try and make it (music) and how I failed. I watch you lay it out for everyone to hear and see and I will tell you the strength it takes to do that is inspiring. I am sure you may not read this based on the shear quantity of comments you receive, but know that this is the good stuff. This is worth something and this is the story people want to see and hear. You will get to make that film you want people to see, but in the meantime realize that this is how it should be set up and that this is what you will want to mold your film as. I know my opinion doesn't have any weight, nor should anyone care what I have to say, however you have your story right in front of you. Use your reality to create your fiction.

[@austinmcconnell]

Thanks, Jeff.

[@jeffreywilliamson4863]

Great comment. I too wandered in and now find myself quite interested in were Austin's path will take him.

[@jamesonjones1935]

@@austinmcconnell impactful

[@Grace-rv7le]

You seem like a really down to earth dude that's had a lot of adventures and learned a lot of lessons. I really do see huge things for you in the future. Good luck out there, man.

[@alwaysalone6412]

1.1k likes and only 2 comments

[@zachyoungyuen]

3

[@RelampagoFilmsTV]

You have to submit this to film festivals, this is like a documentary short film. I would pay to see this onscreen.

[@diiii_mond]

Seriously, this video was amazing. I sympathized this this dude, I learned a whole lot on what being a filmmaker is like, etc. I straight up said to myself "this is like a short film." lol He should be proud of this because he's just made himself an amazing idea for a movie/short.

[@stargazingstar3239]

Same

[@FusionAnimations]

As a fourteen-year old who is hoping to one day get the chance to produce a film, I'm grateful that you've shared this story.

[@corinnevalerie7579]

woah your only 14 and make those animations?!

[@snowykaze]

I too really want to get my story's out. I'm the same age as you, and I have a lot of stories I've always wanted to tell. I just dunno how to do it.

[@zoomshortsxd]

Same age and my dream is to be the next zuckerburg(but not so creepy and sneezy) I am really into programming and know 6 languages already and I am hoping to be successful for I can support my family that has supported me for so long. (Sorry started ranting on ) Edit: ur animations are good af

[@cartman1363]

r/im14andthisisdeep

[@pengwino828]

This also has helped put me in check. I had high expectations for myself but it really did help A LOT. This same thing would have happened to me just not with film making. Eat your heart out kid.

[@monibahmad]

RIP Steve...whoever you are.

[@iballisticsteve4042]

This was, in all honesty, the most honest video on KZbin I've ever watched. 30-minutes well-spent

[@austinmcconnell]

Thanks. :)

[@GMTK]

This is super interesting, thanks for sharing your story!

[@nostalgia_junkie]

woah its you!... you guys should collab.

[@ddanenel]

Oh hi!

[@palmleafcooking]

mark brown!!!

[@KEVINSIEGERVIDEO]

huh? did not expect you!

[@maxvetter1336]

I should have expected that you like this guy, you two do have mildly similar content.

[@EricNorcross]

PTSD from indie filmmaking is a very real thing. It took me five years to deal with my own.

[@imperiumoccidentis7351]

Vietnam was nothing compared to the horrors of indie filmmaking with a tight budget.

[@asherpikesgoldenmoralcinem5770]

TheApatheticAtheist that may be a bit of an exaggeration

[@gigi-ub4wc]

@@asherpikesgoldenmoralcinem5770 a bit

[@incandescence5547]

It's not. Trust me.

[@sani337]

Netronos X have fought in Vietnam and filmed an indie film

[@Evanz111]

Honestly, the story of you trying to tell a story is even more captivating than the one that cost you thousands of dollars. Amazing work!

[@objectionablechione]

Came for the inside look at a crappy movie, stayed for the feels and regrets of early 20s. 10/10 would watch and cry again

[@LordoftheStrings109]

The Disaster Artist 2: Electric Boogalo

[@EveshkaGhost]

i very nearly cried too... awesome twist at the end.

[@merv629g]

Weak

[@merv629g]

Never mind I just cried

[@EveshkaGhost]

hahahaha did it getcha

[@jakekirby259]

My father always had this saying - “embrace the suck”. Sometimes you just need to learn from your mistakes. Keep at it, you’ll do big things

[@leleled6467]

when i read it, i took it in a different context.

[@g01d3nfreddyYT]

@@leleled6467 please stop, you've gone too far

[@shanonfree8210]

E M B R A C E THE S U C C

[@biglad3941]

‘ embrace the suck’ christ on a bike that’s fucking hilarious

[@weirdwhitepfpguy6457]

@@biglad3941 Christ on a bike I'm gonna be using that

[@danielnoonan3049]

I didn't think much of this video when I clicked on it. Then I watched it. And I loved it. And then the last 10 minutes brought me to tears. It may seem strange, but you taught me something which is more than many KZbin videos achieve. So, thanks.

[@WhirlOmar]

Choked me up at the end. You’ve experienced watch all filmmakers experience. The majority. That’s why people say that you have to be crazy to make a film. But when you have a love for it, you go through it and do it.

[@FreezepondMapping]

This 30-minute video would actually make a really beautiful entry to a film festival. I honestly did learn a lot just by watching through this. I have never undertaken a production of anywhere near this size, no matter how small and independent this movie was, and I am not even sure if I ever will do something like this, but I do understand the type of stress that you must have been facing, being the single writer, editor, director, and even having to bear the weight of being a lead actor as well as a cameraman. As for my thoughts on this video, this video was *worth watching.* That is a distinction that I cannot make for practically everything I have ever seen at an Independent Film festival. Good work!

[@sleystad872]

I feel like his story can be made into an award-winning movie. Maybe he should make a movie about this journey, because honestly, it was a roller coaster of emotions for me.

[@Visuwyg]

Good suggestion, honestly!

[@SpatsirkSpart2.0]

Look at this fucking nerd

[@maxhwoo]

100%.

[@SpatsirkSpart2.0]

@SublimeHawk6 Why can't a man call someone a nerd? This is a free internet

[@CurtRichy]

I haven't resonated with something like this in a long time. You're inspiring. Honestly. I've always been a fan, but now I can say I truly feel where you're coming from. Thank you for sharing. I feel like I want to be better, all thanks to sitting here for 30 minutes, and listening to the words of a man who has made mistakes and learned from them. Seriously thank you. I doubt you'll see this but I hope so. Don't ever stop. Please.

[@1ava]

oh, curt... didnt know you watched austin :)

[@coolshadow4541]

Wassup curt.

[@yussufabukar32]

Bro what are you doing here 😂😂

[@Veon_512]

oh hey curt

[@dontstopme5136]

I was not expecting to see you here

[@SHOOTEgy]

I'm speechless, it's like you dropped your life into the video, and it's awe inspiring, I wish you the best going forward and thank you for sharing this

[@BrucePSquirrelOfficial]

You are by far, one of the most interesting people I've seen on KZbin. I've been watching a few of your videos. It's nice to hear truths by other creative people. The projects that you claim you failed with are actually inspiring because you did the work and put something out there. They're all great and creative ideas. Keep it up man!

[@69mviewsnt]

don't worry guys. this video's revenue alone may 10 times the movie budget. he did it

[@69mviewsnt]

@asheritis i made my math. this guy might got more than 10 times smh

[@69mviewsnt]

@@rajendrapatel1651 oh shit i thought his movie budget is under 3k please kill me

[@scene6289]

Wait a minute this video has no ads... Can one still make Money on YT without ads?

[@oussemaghorbel7578]

@@rajendrapatel1651 you made the wrong calculation mate

[@69mviewsnt]

@@scene6289 absolutely no. but he did mentioned his Patreon so...

[@Nazinsky]

This broke my heart. Especially that end part. I am crying. Thank you for sharing this.

[@samodelkini]

Me too, and it feels good crying

[@fox25_fpv19]

Same here.

[@clovercard22]

Doing such a raw commentary on your own work must have been extremely difficult, and I'm in awe with how you managed to be honest about it, even if sometimes painfully so. This was beautiful.

[@zeeiremonger9201]

Please, please send this to a film festival. Edit to be a bit more documentaryish if you want but just please do it. This was an interesting gripping story, and I'm not ashamed to admit i teared up at the end.

[@SEeE]

Zach Iremonger i really hope that he took your advice. This video was amazing. I never ever watch a 30 minute KZbin video. But this one you just can't stop

[@peterplaysbr]

I was going to comment the same thing. This video was amazing to watch, and I teared up at the end too...

[@danbark4603]

the last few minutes hit me really hard, how insane it is to be an artist, and go through sso much pain and not even truly fully understand why at the time and only assembling the full picture years later, I embrace you virtually, keep yoour head up, you have done more than what many wish they could evven do, I salute you mad one

[@jacktherabbit2375]

bro, when you started tearing up, and I heard the crack in your voice......the feels man, THE FEELS!!!

[@dinidusamaranayake3266]

yeah

[@stevejacob3843]

Yeah...

[@spawncasidy]

i thought gaylord...

[@luked8449]

I didn't even realize until afterwards that this video was 30 minutes long, it just flew by, and I was hooked the whole time. wonderfully done, Austin

[@Jewn8ug]

wait what???...it was 30 minutes long?...wow...didnt realize it til you said it.....wow

[@anandsuralkar2947]

True

[@VOLAIRE]

Holy cow I had no idea

[@huy4512]

wow, it's not wasted time tho =)) so it's good

[@noirline]

Woah

[@riaincash6849]

This is the story you should make a film about. There's so much in it, between all of the struggles around the movie itself, you lance and Rachel going through life changes, and how it shut you off from friends and family as well as the premise of you wanting to make a movie just to say you made a movie. It's actually an incredible story, and it's the kind of movie I'd want to see. Thank you so much for sharing.

[@TravisHouze]

I think his backstory of making the movie could make for a great film in itself, but at the same time I could understand him not wanting to mentally go back to that head space telling it all again.

[@pokekitty1]

like the one about the making of the room

[@Xylophonx]

xDD

[@meowtherainbowx4163]

The Disaster Artist 2: A Little Less Disastrous

[@CallMeCJ_]

So... You want him to make The Disaster Artist?

[@vjeranjanes5783]

This got hella emotional. Even though your movie was a "failure", you're still a big inspiration to me and many others.

[@darryl0745]

I want to be a filmmaker. This video scared me. I almost cried when it heard like you were about to. This didn't teach me anything about criticism of movies or made me know how to do stuff, but just for listening this I learned a valuable lesson. I'm grateful. And I hope things are rolling better for you. In your carrier and in your personal life.

[@asherpikesgoldenmoralcinem5770]

Alejandro Cabrera well it’s not all bad. My film has been a relatively great success. For 2 years I’ve been trying to make a fantasy film, I started when I was 13 in start of 2018, failed a lot, then now in 2020 I’m nearly 16 and I finished the film after much dedication. To be honest it’s been worth it for me. After only one week of it being online it’s got nearly 600 views, many reviews, comments, people seem to love it. Also 3 tribute videos and a proper review vid were made for my film. So for me everything has been a good success so far for my first short film. In the end u just gotta have fun, be chill and have passion. -Btw, I’d love if u could check out my film and give Ur opinion on it, it’s the latest on my channel :)

[@Ladyblue7620]

@@asherpikesgoldenmoralcinem5770 any further updates?

[@noonelikesmycomment3891]

Hey I wanna be a writer too. Working on my first novel. I hope in future we can collab

[@darryl0745]

@@noonelikesmycomment3891 Yeah. That would be interesting. And I wish you good luck with that novel.

[@breyerhorsestudios2964]

@@asherpikesgoldenmoralcinem5770 which video editing program did you use? How much was your equipment?

[@greg3589]

He's made a movie He's made a book He's been the CEO of a company He's been a voice actor He's Done *E* *V* *E* *R* *Y* *T* *H* *I* *N* *G*

[@beckett498]

dont forget internet show

[@pungoblin9377]

And all of that in the perfect amount of technicality so as to remain anonymous enough to have his own internet show about all of it.

[@doofusloofus8359]

One can either do something perfectly, or everything moderately.

[@pungoblin9377]

Anne TheReader, lonelygirl15

[@jayc222]

I envy his failures. If I had even one of those, my life would be better and I’d be so much smarter and more experienced.

[@grace-ok5dp]

Wow. That's the best story I have ever seen on KZbin.

[@berka5526]

As an almost graduating architecture student that doesn't wanna be an architect but loves drawing, visual communication, storytelling, taking photos and edit them like his favorite cinematographers' movies cus he cant afford a video camera, this actually inspires me to work harder towards a career in filmmaking, thanks Austin

[@danielastorga2296]

You know you've comed a long way when the behind the scenes of a bad movie is a masterpiece.

[@tawdryhepburn4686]

This is one of the best KZbin videos I have ever seen. It’s so full of truth. And pain. And honesty. And, as a dude who made a couple of disastrous short films (with exponentially larger budgets!) I relate deeply. It was cathartic and made me feel better about my own failures.

[@JasmineLajeunesse]

me too :)

[@AgentKuo]

"Strangers who have never met." Not like a regular stranger, like one of those strangers you've never met.

[@sigmacademy]

The deafening silence. Same thing? ;)

[@isakgm]

Hahahah this guy is outside the matrix

[@soylentcompany5235]

Cant believe you just spoiled Sprouting Orchids ...

[@hippapodacow8087]

STUNK IS A WORD!

[@gosh2bosh741]

This will go down as one of the most important things for young filmmakers to watch. I watch it at least once every 3 months to keep everything in perspective.

[@jackcrazy9327]

I'll have to agree. Just listening to him talking about problems/failures, it make me embrace the the events that are going to come.

[@asunflower7993]

I am so glad I watched it I haven't made any short films yet much less long ones but I'm planning a script out I have to wait because I'm young I'm only 13

[@matchcutcinema8949]

@@asunflower7993 Hey, I just wanted to encourage you to get started filmmaking now. Even though you're only 13, you can still start. You may not be able to make a complex short film right now, but you can practice making 5 minute shorts with your friends and family. Even if they turn out terrible and you never show them to anyone. I became seriously interested in filmmaking in my late teens, and I can say from experience that I wish I had started earlier. All that to say, even if you're not ready to tackle a short film, at least grab a camera or a phone and just film something, anything. I promise you it makes a difference. Anyway, I wish you best of luck whether or not you decide to pursue filmmaking!

[@asunflower7993]

@@matchcutcinema8949 Thanks for the kind words I can say once I get a phone that I can film I will but Covid is annoying

[@photoshopcafe]

I can't believe I just watched a 30 minute video on KZbin. But I'm glad that I did. I watched the whole thing. This was really touching and I appreciate your authenticity.

[@henriklarsen8193]

Dude.... you made a movie. A feature film. No matter the results, YOU MADE A FEATURE FILM! That puts you head and shoulder above 99.999% of your critics. You rock.

[@qine6559]

So true!

[@brennankretzinger1578]

21:27

[@abhinavsandeep3417]

Henrik Larsen he said it was a failure but it isn’t. If you look it up in google then you get a rating of 7.8

[@ziggyzoggin]

yah those critics SUCK. its so mean to push people down like that. i'm making a movie and i'm proud of austin's work. its way better than i could ever do. mine's only 20 minutes!

[@kingkylie9655]

you missed his biggest lesson , he made the movie for vanity not for art, that doesnt make him above critics, it makes him worse than a critic!

[@alannacarlson6715]

"That's vanity. Not art." hit me so hard! What a beautiful lesson to learn!

[@limeflake4192]

Lol I found his movie in a Russian library

[@Oscareuh]

Lmao

[@Luhar19]

Pls send link to the site , ive search i didn't find any!!!

[@howisthis8849]

(X) Doubt

[@jonatansvar8076]

@@Oscareuh please delete your reply

[@Oscareuh]

Jonni SP ...why?

[@dduuddeechil]

2018 was a hard year for me. I'm not a filmmaker, I'm not a KZbinr, I'm just some dude. This video really got to me man, I know where you're coming from. Thanks for making content and keeping my mind busy from the bad stuff.

[@alephgates7519]

I hope you have a wonderful day :)

[@jkamagie]

Maybe the movie was supposed to be a trigger for this video to be a great one.

[@ena1485]

It's fate.

[@supergoku551]

I like your way of thinking JKamagie

[@ozzybaba3128]

As ridiculous as that sounds, if he ends up making his bargain bin cinematic universe it will be an equally life changing experience

[@AndWeDanceVlog]

Well, now that there is a lump in my throat.. you have earned a new subscriber my friend.

[@bamboocarver]

AND WE DANCE. VLOGS Same, i feel like crying but I wont. I subbed to

[@dokuujin1851]

... I was gonna leave pretty much this exact comment... Subbed. Jesus.

[@AndWeDanceVlog]

Swarley really? That’s crazy.. KZbin is so big. Maybe we just have the same taste in videos? Idk ❤️😎🎧

[@bamboocarver]

AND WE DANCE. VLOGS Yeah, I've seen you all the time to

[@misternathanfowlkes]

Me to

[@echox000]

This video is *beautiful*

[@deansforyou9394]

Its pronounced 🅱️eautiful :)

[@NCRRanger16]

Bootiful

[@Koliflower]

I'm a teenager about to apply to college. I plan to study filmmaking. I want to be apart of great movies and make gripping stories. But this video did not just show me the good or the bad of my possible future in the world of film, it showed me reality. I'm still a kid and I do not know how I am going to steel myself for the impending difficulties my life as an artist is going to entail. I guess... I guess all I can do is remember to have fun and smile because that is what can keep anyone going.

[@nickcyre6166]

you need to believe in yourself, don't let your dreams escape you.

[@David-if2hj]

Yes but he's also being realistic, he's not saying he's giving up, but he is acknowledging it's not as easy as it seems

[@justayoutubecommentator3059]

David Kolifrath how is it going so far? I’m going into college soon as well and I’m going to study film.

[@nopenotme8701]

Keep fighting! Hope you reach thay dream. 💛

[@Blemonade1]

I'm in the exact same situation and your words really inspired me.

[@Samael0981]

This 30 min video deserves an oscar

[@cormyat07]

Wow. I was bored and checking out videos on cinematography and this came up on autoplay. I never would've clicked on it. But this turned out to be the best video I've seen in months. I'm a couple years late to the party, but thanks for sharing this.

[@tridus1962]

You've just made a documentary, that made me, a sprouting filmaker about to work on his first ever feature length film, scared. Not of the critisism, but of the self hate I could experience if it flops. I know it'll get lost, but you put hope on my shoulders. I'm gonna use this as a starting off point, and take the leap of faith into the abyss and hopefully come out a better person.

[@InviWasTaken]

Be careful, that abyss is dark. Don't let it own you.

[@fullanalysis93]

Don't EVER sacrifice yourself for your art.

[@JoeFresi]

Tridus please publish your film on your channel, I’d love to see it!!

[@adriancarrera7523]

No need to hate if it flops don’t be scared like this video proves any thing can be a learning experience you got this

[@KatieKamala]

Exactly, I'm in film school and we will make mistakes but that's how we learn. Austin needed to have less pressure and more humor, but what wisdom he ascertained.

[@CheekiStalker]

That ending hit me harder than I could have imagined. I think your video helped alot of people that went through similar things in their mid 20s. Thank you.

[@bananasauz4337]

I came here from the stunk video and dear god, I was not prepared for this emotional rollercoaster

[@TheNoahRough]

Dang this kinda hit me hard. I'm basically approaching 2019 like how you approached 2013. I have the same ambition to tell stories, and I may need to take a step back to rethink. Thank you for this video.

[@bertoclips7123]

Dont think like that bro. Just take it slow. Keep that ambition, because one of the most effective ways to learn, is to fail. Fail, fail, fail and try again till you can successfully express ur stories

[@alexzander4426]

It’s a good idea to have a clear conscious when going into stuff like this but just so you know, the itch to tell a story wasn’t the issue here. In fact if he wanted to do that the production would have been much better. It was the mindset of the guy producing it that made this whole thing go and stay downhill. Idk if you understand this or not, comments can be read the wrong way. The thing is when you make a movie because you want to tell a story, that is art, beauty, whatever you want to call it I don’t know but that is what the platform was designed to do. Making a movie just to be called a “Filmmaker” is the complete wrong mindset. That’s what will ruin your reputation and most likely your movie. Just to clarify from another perspective. Good luck to you in the future!

[@flipyu9271]

The guy's hard on himself, but he actually made a fucking movie. Maybe he could have done things better, but it's even more likely that he never would have made a feature length film. Some lessons you have to learn the hard way. Sometimes making great art means pushing through crap.

[@dragoniraflameblade]

I was crying by the end. I know what that's like and I know what you mean. You'll do awesome things.

[@arturaraujo73]

He already has, he already has.

[@luzifervii8982]

I don't know what that's like but I was also crying.

[@trentb3037]

loser

[@trentb3037]

Nevermind im crying now

[@frickmeinthebuttholedaddyi7364]

Felicity Swan You don't even gave content on your channel, what do you mean "I know what it's like"?

[@OrangeC7]

I... Well, I didn't expect to watch this, but... I'm glad I did.

[@levitaylor883]

This was seriously so moving, and much needed in my personal life. A very accurate representation of the chaos behind the scenes of any production--and a wonderful reminder of why we still love it. Thank you for having the courage to share :)

[@lonjohnson5161]

THIS is the story you should tell. Don't make a lame sci-fi story where the stakes are the fate of the world; leave those to DC and Marvel. You have a story, YOUR STORY, of a man with dreams and flaws where the stakes are his very identity. THIS is a story where you can make an audience feel something. Isn't that why you want to be a filmmaker?

[@pranavg.9811]

Lon Johnson brilliant idea

[@neurofiedyamato8763]

I was thinking the same thing.

[@enriquepena2009]

Yessir make this YOUR story. It's right there in front of you

[@liamrust9530]

That's genius.

[@paulwebb2078]

So something like The Disaster Artist? Intriguing idea, although considering he's still somewhat experiencing PTSD from the production of the film, I'm not sure if he'd be the best person to tell his own tale, ironically enough. Since he already has his biases from his experience working on the film, this postmortem would probably be the closest he could get to making a film about himself and his own film without seeming pretentious or angsty.

[@long-timelistenerfirst-t-us2yy]

ironically, more people saw this video than they did "sprouting orchids". in that way, you accomplished the goal you set out to achieve with that movie.

[@Redstar2613]

Not really...

[@attilamagyar91]

he showed that he is a filmmaker. he is now. He can tell that he makes short movies, sketches, films, for youtube. For an audience who doesnt go into theaters, but stays at home and watches his thinkings, his mind, hes movie projected onto digital media and sent onto the internet. I think OP is right, redstar is wrong.

[@joshrobbinsditto3055]

@@attilamagyar91 Yeah, and theaters is the past.. Watching prememiers online is the future so I'm glad that Austin has changed.

[@LesGensDair]

Please do not mistake a videographer with a filmmaker. Not to diminish the experience.

[@Jolipolie]

@@LesGensDair Don't be a snob. This is basically a 30 minute behind the scenes documentary that happens to use KZbin as a platform.

[@JustinStarrPhotography]

I did not foresee the emotional turn this would take in the final moments. I did not predict that your voice would crack with choked back tears, nor that I’d cry along with you. What I thought was merely going to be a story of things that happened became a very relatable human experience of ambition, failure, reflection, growth, longing, and moving on. Thank you for this beautiful video.

[@cygil1]

I found it as manipulative as fuck. The "tearup" sounds rehearsed and a conscious ploy for sympathy. I think our "older, wiser" filmmaker is still on an ego trip, just posing as the "penitant" bully to garner sympathy.

[@_lol.imagine_]

cygil1 🧍🏾‍♀️

[@thatcatalyst]

@@cygil1 well I think you are just being a contrarian just so you can feel like a special little snowflake

[@Nyota0677]

@@cygil1 Uhhmmm what how.

[@BatmanFanGirl]

@@Nyota0677 Some people are just cynical and expect everyone to be manipulative and assholes. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[@josephzhavec964]

I tapped on this thinking I was gonna see a summary of your movie. I was expecting to be entertained. I was not expecting to be moved by a life story. Oh my god. The last few minutes were a rollercoaster of emotions. Made me tear up. It moved me. I watched the whole thirty minutes plus the last few seconds. I hope your in a better position, and I hope your friends are too. I just discovered your channel today after watching your review on the Harry Potter Cursed Child book.

[@TheN00bpower]

Let no one say you're a bad filmmaker. You made this. It taught me something. It moved me. Don't give up. I hope that through the following you have gathered, you will get a second chance to show who you really are. A filmmaker. A good filmmaker.

[@plushiecore]

No one: Captions: my first feature film SPROUTING ORGANS

[@AG-AG]

Lol

[@ButterStick64]

The Halloween Reboot

[@Shortfilmsyou]

Paulo Sérgio das Fontes 😂😂😂 you legend 😂🙌🤪

[@friun.6824]

2:21

[@mostafaa.363]

a s h i a p Thanks lmao

[@MelanieAnneAhern]

Honestly didn’t expect it to get that emotional near the end, but I’m glad it did. I’m grateful for you allowing us to see a bit of your flawed history that helped mold who you are today. I definitely understand how it feels to come to the moment when you realize “I’m not who I thought I’d be at this point in my life”. It’s rough. But I like the idea of someone’s film school being just making a film. There’s some things that can only be learned through experience. Anyways, I’m so pumped for anything you create in the future. Can’t wait :) Also, is there anyway for us to watch/purchase this or your other shorts films?

[@SianaGearz]

Nobody exists on purpose, nobody belongs anywhere.

[@tsarnicholasii274]

Oh what a cute little edgelord you are!

[@aeyt4250]

I'm an unmarried 34yo father of a 4yo little girl. I don't have a real career, don't own a home, and my car is falling apart. I completely understand feeling like I'm not the person I was supposed to be at this point. My life seems like it's a mess a lot of the time. Then I remember that the changes in medicine, lifestyle, and technology, I will most likely live past 120. Our younger generations are going to be around a lot longer. We all still have a lot of time. But we should still work toward our goals now, and not wait. My new mantra is "Suffocate your bullshit excuses and go do something!"

[@axjkalsok1058]

Dom'sDominatingGaming You do understand what childbirth is, right? Purposefully bringing yourself into existence is quite literally impossible.

[@Skyriths]

Siana Gearz Jesus fucking christ, somebody's irradiating edge out of my screen holy shit!

[@yaktyafiyae]

ima be honest i listen to this at least once a year because the ending is like a film in and of itself. i've wanted to use the audio in the ending for cinematic stuff in the past but never found a way to implement it. it's crazy man

[@Crowbars2]

I feel like a lot of other youtubers who would have made a film before their KZbin career would spend most of the time explaining what it was about, how they did it, and humble-bragging the entire time about how they were an "official" filmmaker before they made KZbin their job. You on the other hand, have shown that you didn't like the person you were then, and explained why the experience, and who you were then was so bad. 25:07 Not many people would have the balls to go into such detail about their actual negative experiences, and others negative experiences about them during that time.

[@asherpikesgoldenmoralcinem5770]

Crowbars2 hey, I would love it if you could check out my 20min Fantasy film on my channel. Took 2 years for me to complete, lots of stress and people saying it woudnt succeed, and I’d really appreciate your opinion of it :) It’s called the kings world:Battle of the Soul. About how a fantasy world has been conquered and a young boy Arcaydes has barely survived his villages destruction. So he wanders in the wild trying to find hope against the enemy. Thanks you Id u do I really appreciate it.

[@Tralby19]

@@asherpikesgoldenmoralcinem5770 will do soon

[@asherpikesgoldenmoralcinem5770]

@@Tralby19 thanks friend. I appreciate it, I hope your feeling good today and that u have a great week.

[@temmorijken5762]

Sprouting Orchids in combination with this video should be presented in theater colleges.

[@Netherman14TheHellblazer]

Directly one after the other, so first the movie itself. and than this video after it.

[@alexkoutoukas2266]

Why don't you send this particular video in movie festivals as a short movie? Because I think this would win a lot of awards. This right there... was GREAT storytelling! I didn't even realise how these 30 minutes passed.

[@yaweimar]

It would elevate KZbin content to something of artistic value; quite interesting idea, I bet in 20 years there's gonna be Internet Video festivals.. online...

[@oscarcolindres2486]

I've kept this on my watch later for a long time (It's 30 min) and I finally got to see it, I cried. You bring inspiration to many aspiring filmmakers, like me.

[@csec9291]

This could be submitted into a film festival and probably win honestly

[@AliJardz]

This was an absolutely fantastic video. So honest and raw.

[@buffoonustroglodytus4688]

IT'S FUCKEN RAAW

[@TheSecondVersion]

"A young man and a woman recover from separate tragedies. Unseen forces in the universe work to bring them together for a purpose far greater than themselves." (Pretty vague right?) Could even be Star Wars: A New Hope

[@natewatson6962]

the force awakens too

[@heather2947]

Eragon

[@UnityBringer]

@@heather2947 Eragon copied Star Wars, don't even bring that up, pt.

[@mariomoneta2833]

@@heather2947 eragon? wtf

[@mariomoneta2833]

@@UnityBringer wtf

[@DarksBasement]

I’ve come back to this video after making a short film with my best friend where we had a small crew and a teeny budget. I’m so happy I was able to take the lessons you put forth and make the most out of what was ultimately a hellish production loop. (2 shooting days, a hectic personal schedule and multiple last minute dropouts) however I’m happy with it and I’m happy I did it and I hope you’re happy too, Austin. The last bit made me cry a little bit and I absolutely hate crying but I’m so glad moments like these can still tease out the emotions. I’m so inspired to continue creating, and I hope you will always be too! Thank you.

[@xtfj]

"30 mins of honesty" maybe that's the reason why I came back and watched the entire video even when I had work. And it was deep. I could truly understand the struggle you went through and feel the happiness you had. A huge thanks for sharing you experience.

[@antonyloodus]

"When I watch it now, I see nothing but it's flaws." This is so true. When I watch my shorts I have been always thinking am I the only one who sees their movies like that. Thanks for sharing all your experiences.

[@CinecomCrew]

Recently came across your channel and I was intrigued to watch this video too. Never thought I'd watch it all out, 30 minutes just flew by. Sprouting Orchids might not have been great, but the story of this video got me entirely! So in the end, I believe you can be pretty proud about your film. It's the foundation of this video :-)

[@sollertia_]

Wow cinecom hahha

[@ellalalalalalalalalalalalala]

just like the room...

[@yourlocalmemejoint8325]

Didn't expect to see you here

[@xualarenthlei3704]

Shameless self promotion. FUCK OFF

[@rynehall9990]

It is better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all...at least you're not getting razzed for making something like Champagne and Bullets. After all the painful lessons learned it would seem a shame not to keep an eye out for another shot. It took more than one try to reach the 🌙 moon-it took more than one try to chisel a boulder int a wheel.

[@YassoKuhl]

"I see a scared, obsessed and angry 23 year old who knows he's not gonna be the thing he told himself to be when he was 24." Shit. I'm 24 at the moment and feel your old you so much. Thank you!

[@deborahminter6231]

Don't give up. Enjoy doing what makes you happy.

[@loganphillips5142]

This video had a strong shift in narrative at the midway point

[@ahmedsaber3093]

I suddenly gained a HUGE respect for you. Thank you for being so honest and open. You made me rethink myself.

[@selwrynn6702]

I ended up here because of your lonely girl video appearing in my recommended for like 2 weeks and I stayed because your sleek style, well placed jokes, and the sheer variety of topics your videos go into.

[@acronmd]

Selwrynn same

[@Kjersten_w]

Selwrynn i think i started watching with that sane video

[@XGODSRADDITX]

Haha I did the exact same 😂😂

[@Dogman_35]

I ended up here because of a fried chicken rant.

[@VoidLantadd]

UNBGBBIIVCHIDCTIICBG

[@SEB11384EB]

One of the best things I’ve seen on KZbin. Thank U for this, Austin 👍

[@NedWasHere94]

Okay, you need to make a movie about a struggling indi filmmaker because that monologue at the end broke my heart, inspired me, challenged me and made me laugh in the span of 2 minutes and holy cow I’m shaking and I want more.

[@raind0ll]

damn. came into this wanting a laugh. left in tears after i realized just how true it was.

[@snuggys56]

fs

[@quackarydo5824]

J

[@fernandomartin9190]

ikr, like looking in the mirror for me. damn.

[@ricardobernardini709]

First, CONGRATS on finishing a film, and my respect for sharing your experience!!! And second, You manage to keep me engaged for the 30:45 this video last. Austin, this is my first time on your channel, and I don't know anything else about you or your videos, but, I think, and this is my humble opinion, that the only way you won't get where you want to go, is if you stop. Please don't stop.

[@yousefzidan3362]

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[@Gunth0r]

Oh shit, it's Bernardini!