I need to be honest, I'm struggling

Being a parent to a child with Autism has its challenges, but this is the hardest thing I ever had to go through.
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Video Producer:
Tiara Westlake www.kamukami.com/
Music:
Ben Sound - Piano Moment
Steffen Daum - Goodbye My Dear
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[@PinkRazedDoodleDonut]

We Autism mommas are the toughest women! We do have our breaking points and moments of depression. I have spent countless times when everybody in my household is finally asleep and I cry it out in the shower. I wash away the day and take the next day as a new start.....day by day....minute by minute. You are the best mom for your child. Please stay strong and focus on the fun....positive things. Even if it's playing a funny movie or blowing bubbles for the kids. I'm sending you an online hug🤗. I understand.....I have two boys on the spectrum too. You are amazing! You are a warrior!

[@ComingHometoAutism]

PinkRazedDoodleDonut thank you so much xox

[@kicosumpter7049]

you sound so great , im awake , my son is awake as usual until maybe 3 or 4 am , if im lucky and if he is lucky aswell ,its enough we all have to deal with our children and your right we are the best , there are not many of us that would do what we do , with love , compasssion ,shire determination , i am absolutley so knackered its been 13 years grabbing sleep when i can wether its in the afternoon , im 50 and so im feeling it more and more , but i would move a mountain for my son , that s how i feel and i will fight so hard to keep him heathly and happy and make life an adventure a memory i know he will never forget but then life gets in the way , and people who i thought had all the answers or at least knew more than i have let me down ie the doctors and so called experts , i have faith in some , but its times like these , i feel like i am knocking my head against the biggest wall , why can't they hear me and just help my son , patience is the key , and for me keep calm, and speak softly i cannot loose it or get angry , like you sometimes i wait til he is asleep to have a little cry but my sons hearing is so intuned , he can hear me threw 3 rooms and 3 doors and i am whispering , anyway , i think , thank god there are mothers and fathers like you around to look after our unique children who love and adore them so much . he is my life and i am his , we are making the most of what we have ,living in the moment , with a glance into the future ,you never run out of love xxxx i thank my son for loving me so much i feel so blessed he does xxxx

[@joannazinman8541]

Sending prayers and positive thoughts. Wishing Dylan a speedy recovery. You are an incredible mom. Stay strong. You’ve got this!

[@ComingHometoAutism]

Thank you so much xox

[@mrs0yt161]

Ah, my lovely strong fellow Asc mummy, I felt your frustrations and your sorrow in this video.. I’m keeping your son in my prayers and you don’t have to be iron built and strong all the time.. you ARE allowed to fall, allowed to be overwhelmed and allowed to need someone to hold you as you hold Dylan.. you will get answers and you as a family will come through this .. xx

[@ComingHometoAutism]

Mandy Uk thank you. I was so worried to be so honest in this video but I felt I owed it to you all to let you know what’s going on .. xox

[@apie1983]

We have a son also with Autism. Speak Blessings over Dylan and Speak positive things towards him at all times. He is an angel, And a child of God. As all of our children are.

[@ComingHometoAutism]

Thank you so much xox

[@h_s8802]

When you cry it makes me cry as well because my son is autistic too , i can understand you very well . I hope 🤞 your son get better soon , tnx for sharing your vedios with us ❤️

[@bunnybird9342]

Why is autism bad?

[@shahshah4681]

Oh Tara You are such a strong, sensitive and kind person. Just hang in there. This too shall pass. Sending lots of love and hugs for you and your son, please dont feel alone. Hope he feels better soon. 😘😘

[@davidwinterburn5072]

Appreciate your sincerity, honesty and sharing your life. Hoping Dylan gets well soon.

[@passion44441]

God I cried so much!! I’m sending you love and lots of prayers. Our Noah is turning four in two days, and we are constantly worried about such issues, he gets better in some aspects of his development, but then goes through phases were it’s hard and scary, and no matter how much I read and watch stories of other parents talking about this, you always end up in a dark place....praying for your baby to get well ♥️

[@ComingHometoAutism]

thank you so much x

[@anothergoldilocks1077]

I watched a few of your videos last fall, but haven’t watched again until I just saw your latest video now. I have a 2.5 year-old Grandson who is a late or delayed talker. He’s had many tests but has not received a diagnosed of Autism. I have been impressed w/your strength, dedication, and fiercest love for your children & family. I am a Christian & believer in God and how He answers prayer(s). I will add Dylan’s health issues and you and your entire family to my prayer list! God bless Dylan, you, & Dylan’s medical Doctors that they will get an accurate dx SOON! 🤗🌹♥️🌷💝

[@lifewitharzoo1786]

Lots of love...my son is 2.8 ..recently he is assessed for autism...i watched ur whole videos in a day..lots of love snd prayers for u and ur family... I want to b courageous as u r

[@lesnenka7611]

You know it can happened to woman who is so strong. It Is obviously painful and you are in the stress continuously. You're great mum great woman!!!! If it's possible take your time and pamper yourself. Love you!!

[@ComingHometoAutism]

Thank you so much it was a rough patch for sure I’m feeling so much stronger in myself now that I know what is wrong with him x

[@tingyang5619]

Sending a lot of love your way, and a big hug. 🙏

[@ashleylaine29]

Sending you so much love!!! You’re such a strong mama! ❤️

[@annabrykalin1804]

Praying for you and Dylan! Thank you so much for sharing this. We love your family and share in your struggles.

[@LostAtSe]

I'm so sorry to hear about all of this. My prayers and thoughts have been sent above wishing the best for you and your family

[@yazt3312]

I feel you..may God bless you and get you through these difficult times

[@katiee8663]

Sending so much love ❤️ so thankful for you ❤️

[@peterrabbitfairytales2900]

What an amazing mum you are !!!Sending prayers and strength ❤️

[@MarcusV741]

I always look on a bright side of things.. when my son is not eating I kind of think and try to let myself believe that this is a sort of Fasting for him.. and maybe because i have searched that fasting is a way to heal our body.. but then still it is important to have the tests..

[@jessreidy6765]

Keep strong !💕 hoping for a speedy recovery for Dylan, sending love and hugs xxxx

[@teachermichelle9632]

I went through something similar Mamma. This is the age that most children are diagnosed. So it's the toughest age for many moms and dads to go through. My son Juan also starved himself because he thought food was making him sick. We spent many days in hospital and went through hell. He almost got a feeding tube. He is almost 13 now and he is much much better. If you would like to know what worked for us just let me know. Sending you HUGS and thoughts and love!

[@ComingHometoAutism]

Michelle Engelamm thank you thank you. Would really appreciate that. So nice to hear that your son is doing better now. My email is [e-mail] ❤️

[@juantwo322]

Relapsing Polychondritis is an autoimmune desease that can shoot up the white blood cell count.. Mention it to his doctor 🥼.. Hopefully it’s not that serious & I’m praying 🙏🏻 for U, your child & your family that turns out well.. You’ve got your Utube team here for U.. 💪🏻 .. Safety comes in numbers & U are not alone.. Take care 👋🏻

[@Vanessa-ck4pv]

Thank you for sharing Michelle ❤️ We are in this together.

[@sadiyaab9713]

Please tell me what you did to help your child communicate. My son is 5 and is autistic

[@taimur74]

hi all the way from Dubai . God bless you for the good you do . We have a 3 year old autistic son and it has been very hard for my wife . I cannot imagine the pain mothers go through

[@merinbabu1760]

Tara, you and Dylan.. and your family..Are in my daily prayers!! Lotslove

[@moderngeaisha5113]

Oh dear so sorry to hear this praying and sending positive energy

[@sinemyildirim2643]

You’re such an amazing mum, you’re very strong. I hope Dylan gets well soon wishing him speedy recovery ❤️❤️❤️ keep positive hunny

[@ComingHometoAutism]

thank you so much x

[@chipmunkzoo]

I am SO SORRY you're dealing with all of this. Prayers to your family as you're weathering this storm.

[@stayinghomewithautism5973]

So sorry your family is going through this! I will keep Dylan and the rest of your family in my thoughts and prayers ❤️

[@noreenahmad9890]

I totally understand the stress. We were ok with the autism but the medical issues are hard for us too and it’s ok to feel like that. Our children are precious. I hope ur son comes through and he gets the right treatment

[@noreenahmad9890]

🙏🏽

[@ComingHometoAutism]

Noreen Ahmad sending you a big hug mama too . It will be ok we can do this together x

[@Townsendadventures]

I’m so sorry what you all going through. My heart goes out to you. Poor lad. My son hate blood test too . I will prayer for you I have a home group we will pray my friend. Keep strong xx

[@ldycaithadh]

Prayers lifted for you and family and your precious son. Our father knows our needs and will know what to do. Many hugs and prayers lifted 💖💖💖💖

[@thuytienlives8487]

You are so incredibly strong and a wonderful mum, hang in there! Sending you and your family all my love. ❤ Thank you so much for your update. It must be so hard seeing Dylan go through this. It's all right to talk about the ups and downs in caring for Dylan.

[@Mgg916]

I’m sorry, you are strong, you will get through this🌸

[@hillortz9921]

My heart goes to you and your precious son, Be strong and have faith that everything is going to be alright You and your family would be in my prayers. ❤️🙏

[@Kaylah4690]

I needed this more than ever right now. You are not alone Mama! Thank you for the honesty and showing the ups and downs. You have no idea how much you’re helping other parents going through this by sharing his journey! Sending lots of love and well wishes for your beautiful boy and family. Take care ♥️

[@ComingHometoAutism]

Kaylah Garcia thank you so much felt so vulnerable sharing this. But I want to be honest always x

[@Jadisek]

Tara, you are incredibly strong, loving, amazing mom! Many hugs and loads of positive energy for you to get through this difficult time ❤❤❤❤❤ I wish I could really give you a boost of strength, but from what I saw of you, you will get through it and find a way to help your lovely son. I wish all the health for him and your whole family! Many warmest hugs! ❤❤❤

[@fatimahaid8705]

Sending my prayers to him and i wish him well, you’re an amazing mother you helped me a lot god take all the bad things away from your family . ❤️❤️❤️

[@kanwalvirk9373]

We are your family,please don't worry.I too talk to myself and there are times I am lonely and cry and cry.

[@ComingHometoAutism]

sending hugs to you x

[@kanwalvirk9373]

Your this video is such an example for all posting on gifted kids.Other vlogs by other people show only the good.Which is absolutely not normal for mother's like us.This video of yours is so much like me,myself a mother..mother of a gifted child.I am from India.Tears roll down the eyes of we mother's all the time.We wipe of and set to chores.Salute to us!We are amazing !

[@kayisedazza7123]

Sending my prayers all the way from Africa. ❤❤❤ You are an inspiration to me...I'm also on this journey and I see a lot of me in you; the positivity; the resilience; the fighting spirit and the unconditional love for your children. Aut moms are the best❤❤❤

[@madihafarooq841]

I wish you all the best and may your Dylan recover fast.

[@Karenkearns007]

Dylan is so lucky to have you. You are a fantastic Mom and a beautiful person. ❤️🍀❤️

[@jshsjsjsjslskdh8630]

Love you tara. Please stay strong. Not just for your family but for our families please. You are the best. You can do it.

[@jenniferowens1197]

Oh my goodness, my heart sinks! Praying for you... you will get thru this ❤️

[@ComingHometoAutism]

Thank you so much! x

[@KC-ct2cx]

BIG hug and all my love.🙏💓

[@JennLoneWolf_8]

Just saw this now. You are so strong and awesome. I have a autistic son too, I know what you’re going through! Don’t ever give up! This video helped me so much! Thank you! Sending good vibes your way! ❤

[@levnima1999]

You do a really great job. you are the best mother for dylan, i pray for you and wish you a lot of strength also for the rest of your family. Thank you for the Videos. Hugs from Germany.

[@gorgeouswales9635]

Prayers for all of you! God can do anything if you believe 🙏🏽

[@carinasaramago9244]

You are such a beautiful mum, strong woman and you will get through this!! I truly believe the power of positive energy and prayers... I'm praying for you n Dylan... Unfortunately I know exactly what you are going through right now, and how overwhelming n draining all this is (hospital, testings, waiting for results...) THANK YOU FOR BEING SO TRANSPARENT this community is here for you too ❤ wish I could give you a cuddle mumma. love you

[@margaretno211]

Thank you for sharing your struggles and your triumphs. My daughter was diagnosed with Pervasive Developmental Disorder about 1985 when she was 5 years old. I learned some 20 years later that was the term then used for children on the autism spectrum. Knowledge and services did not become available until the 2000's. As well she had been diagnosed with another condition which was rare which took precedence in the mind of her Doc. I can relate to your feelings of wanting to do do everything you can for your child and his siblings. It can be very overwhelming. I am glad to hear you have Andrew's support because, as you know so well doing it on your own and keeping your sanity is nigh on impossible. At the time I was caring for my daughter I so desperately needed to hear the stories of others, the good , the difficult and the solutions. One important thing I have learned over the years is the importance of doing one thing in your day to do something in your day that is just for you that can't be undone. Clean dishes, a copper floor, a meal are always undone. Painting your toe nails, a bubble bath, listening undisturbed to a song that gives you pleasure can't be undone. Thank you for your sharing and may Gods blessings continue to be with you.

[@kapilrules]

You are hope for lot many parents like me. You are really very strong mom and an inspiration. I cried while watching this. Hoping your son will be healthy and all right soon. Sending prayers your way 🙏🙏🙏

[@dianenampe7063]

You're a wonderful mum and a great inspiration to many mums out there. The lord is your strength. Prayers and positive thoughts to Dylan. Get well soon super man

[@olga88ost]

Love and hugs, you are amazing, everything gonna be ok, thanks for your pure feelings

[@ComingHometoAutism]

I appreciate that thank you so much x

[@GordonGekkoWin]

Thank you for sharing this. As a mom with a naughty toddler, I sometimes feel tired to take care of the family and work at the same time. But after watching a few of your videos and see other parents with autistic child's comments, I feel I've been spoiled. You taught me and other parents who haven't been through all these what it is like to be strong for our own child! You'll get through this! It's just another obstacle to concur and a phase in life to remember.

[@ComingHometoAutism]

Thank you so much x

[@MrWhareponga]

I think your doing a great job looking after your children. Very impressed.

[@parotulasi]

Stay strong Tara! All my prayers with you and family ❤

[@ComingHometoAutism]

Thank you so much

[@debbielopez9944]

Prayers for your precious son. Prayers for y o u and the family. 💕

[@ComingHometoAutism]

Thank you xx

[@2ummis]

You and your family are in my prayers. Thank you for being open with your story.

[@ComingHometoAutism]

❤️❤️❤️

[@hearthome.]

My thought is with you and is praying for your family. Thank you for your honest talking. Keep going, this too shall pass as you said. 🙏😘

[@ComingHometoAutism]

Thank you so much , it will i just got to get back up again and fight again x

[@vgirl4692]

Big love and hugs hun, you're in my thoughts and I'm hoping & wishing Dylan gets better soon. Xxx

[@ComingHometoAutism]

Vanessa Millwood thank you ❤️

[@iwonashearer9954]

Big hugs for all of you!!! You’re doing amazing. Hope everything will be good very soon. Take care xxx

[@ComingHometoAutism]

thank you so much lovely xx

[@lolipop13081983]

Sending you lots of love and I big hug ❤️xxx

[@christineevelyn660]

Thinking of you. Sending prayers your sweet boy feels better soon and you get the answers you need. 🙏❤️

[@ComingHometoAutism]

Thank you so much!

[@verovero4725]

Bless you beautiful angel-mom ! ❤️

[@kingchen8881]

I do believe everything will get better!

[@jasmineibe4332]

I am sooooooo very encouraged by your bravery! Thank you for sharing this part of your journey with us. I'm sending a prayer of peace, expedient recovery, and many more blessings for you and your family.

[@ComingHometoAutism]

Thank you so much xx

[@Vanessa-ck4pv]

Praying for you so hard right now. You are a such strong mom and we admire you so much Tara. Thank you for sharing.

[@ComingHometoAutism]

Thank you so much xox

[@kimberlyjgal]

Praying for your family 😭❣️

[@Luckymomof3superheroes]

Sending you and your family much love and prayers! Thank you for being so real and sharing real life not only with ASD but with everything. I’m a new mommy to a shield with ASD and I find comfort and hope in watching your experiences. Thank you!

[@ComingHometoAutism]

Thank you for taking the time to comment . Welcome to my on line family xox

[@miaharis17]

You are an amazing mum and an inspiration. Stay strong xxx

[@ComingHometoAutism]

Samia Kenley ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@martinaschiavolin1020]

Sending all the love in the world to you and him. You are amazing and it will get better❤❤❤

[@ComingHometoAutism]

Martina Schiavolin thank you so much x

[@elinak792]

Sending you lots of hugs! You are amazing mom. And you’ll go through this like you always do. Compare to you I’m total failure for my ASD child. You’re are great example for me and I’m sure many more moms. Stay strong 😘

[@ComingHometoAutism]

You’re an amazing mum and don’t you forget it all in this together. 🥰

[@gilltaylor2408]

God Bless you. Stay Strong . You are a Beautiful mummy and a Beautiful person xx

[@unad6426]

Thanks for sharing. Sending you lots of love❤️. You are an amazing mom and hope to God everything is alright

[@ComingHometoAutism]

D A thank you so much x

[@hodansaid3280]

You are amazing mum And strong . Thinking of you and pray things get better soon. You are the rock of your family . I watched from day one. Much love to you.

[@ComingHometoAutism]

Thank you so much!

[@ITXSHEL]

All my love and blessings for you, Dylan and beautiful family! 🙏✨🌹💜🦋

[@ComingHometoAutism]

Thank you xox

[@annapurnashukla5393]

Lots of love to you and the kids... hope Dhillon gets well soon

[@itumelenglelosa4627]

Thank you for sharing your life with us. I am so sorry.

[@rachelcaldwell5414]

Sending you a virtual hug during this particularly challenging time. Thanks for your transparency. You’re an amazing mother 💜

[@ComingHometoAutism]

Thank you so much! x

[@vanessamendoza3100]

I’m so sorry he isn’t feeling well! I will be praying for a quick recovery for him and your family! Thank you for sharing!

[@ComingHometoAutism]

Thank you my friend

[@warsinish4942]

You are a great mom and a strong person.... Been following you just since last week. This too shall pass, must just be a phase. All will be well... Prayers for you and your family.

[@ComingHometoAutism]

Thank you so much! and thanks for subscribing to my you tube family xox

[@taraharan4524]

Wishing Dylan a speedy recovery. Thank you for this channel. Thank you for your honesty. I see you as my family too..Stay safe. Stay strong.

[@ComingHometoAutism]

big hugs to you and thank you x

[@patriciacarey6324]

Sending strength love and 🙏

[@gazalaatique]

You are strong woman tara.... you will get through this.... you are doing best you can.... This shall pass too.... i am sure you will have stronger bond with your family after this.... ❤️ Hugs to you...

[@ComingHometoAutism]

Thank you so much! x

[@10ewelch]

Stay strong! You guys are amazing parents!s

[@nikki-qm9wz]

My love honestly I sensed something I worry so much wirh Harrison and notice things like his dark eyes when he not been toilet, dehydration getting them to drink and not managed to get blood either Thankyou so much from our heart yes please keep us informed sending you a virtual hug 🤗 xxxxx

[@ComingHometoAutism]

nicola richardson sending you a huge hug I hope Harrison gets better soon too. Xxo

[@chrisalexis6425]

Keeping your family in my prayers! You *will* get through this and be stronger on the other side! You're clearly an incredible mother, and Dylan is lucky to have you! One day at a time, one foot in front of the other. You've got this!!

[@ComingHometoAutism]

Sorry for the late reply it’s been a bit crazy here as you can imagine I really appreciate your message so thank you very much

[@gunjansahni4180]

I love the spirit you have to keep going on. That's the most valuable treatment for anything. I love you and your family. My prayers are with Dylan and you. Dylan will be absolutely alright. Faith, believe and let's keep going on. Love and prayers for your family.

[@ComingHometoAutism]

Bless you thank you x

[@martybixwheeler]

Thank you for sharing your story, once again, even though it is so hard. Health challenges with our ASD children can be especially trying, to be sure. Your family will be in my prayers. +

[@ComingHometoAutism]

Thank you so much that means a lot

[@hiswife2002]

Just stumbled across your video and it touched me. I'm the mom to a son with autism as well, and the challenges and victories that come every hour of every day with autism. He also had what we thought was just a particularly horrible entry into adolescence but turned out to be bipolar disorder. He became so delusional that he had to be admitted to a nine month residential facility in order to stabilize and heal from his psychosis and I found myself having to share custody of this child who is my world with strangers who don't see him in entirely the same way as I do. It was beyond stressful. We got through it, as families do, thank God, and we are on a much better place now, though it is a day by day process. All this to say, you're not alone, even when this journey makes you feel completely isolated and beyond exhausted. There are others who really understand, who are from within the same situation and are struggling too. Hugs and peace to you!

[@alfeeliyana]

I feel you. I really look forward to see your videos as its really helpful. there are also times when I felt like giving up because i do struggle on most days with my autistic son (he is 6) and i feel lonely most of the time. He has his bad days too. Always take one day at a time and we are human, we arent perfect. Its okay. 💕 We will be okay. Take care. 💕

[@ComingHometoAutism]

please never feel lonely we are in this all together x

[@lollysvlogsxox2218]

Oh tara my heart truly goes out to you! Your a fantastic mom and have a beautiful family. Although a very different scenario, my 10 yr old daughter wouldn't eat due to crippling anxiety and the thought of choking on her food so she stopped and I only know of that heartache but I really hope and🙏to god that your boy can and will get through this... all of you stay strong. Much love sending to your family and tara a big massive hug ❤

[@ComingHometoAutism]

Max F thank you so much really appreciate it x

[@kvanners]

Loads of love and Healing to D,your doing an incredible job in extremely difficult times Tara. I hope Dylan turns a corner with his health soon and you can build your boy back up.x

[@ComingHometoAutism]

Katie Vanston thank you my sweet friend. Just feel like I gotta kick myself in the butt and try find a way forward for dylan to make him better x

[@MakebaGies1]

I have just come across your videos today. I am watching all. You are so wonderful, and strong. I will be praying for you all. My son is just 4 the end of March and has ASD. Thank you for your strength. Sending you a BIG hug! My son is back in his program with one on one and they are only allowing a few kids back in and wearing mask etc. But I must tell you as well i am so emotional everyday about COVID-19 and praying i am making the correct choice by sending him back. he needs his therapy. Stay Strong Mama you are amaZing! Thank you again for your videos. My day has gotten better as I sit here watching them. HUGS!

[@janicemadigan186]

Keep faith, this too shall pass. Big hugs to you momma.

[@jennietee2450]

Stay strong tara💕 my heart broke I literally can’t even imagine your pain. Pray pray pray❤️

[@ComingHometoAutism]

Thank you so much xox

[@hopeandalittleautism]

Stay strong tara. I can totally relate to the pain when u see your child struggling. Just hold on. Dylan is a brave boy and so are you. U will get through this.....

[@ComingHometoAutism]

anjali sinha thank you xox

[@carisa5006]

Your beautiful son was sent to you for a reason, you are so strong and so loving..he is so blessed to have a mother like you❤️ I’m praying for you and your family ✝️🛐♾️

[@sharmilashathish5947]

be strong mum. i know its hard but this too shall pass mum. you are a great inspiration.

[@carmeldemirandaneeconlon9100]

Oh dearest, God love you precious lady and I will pray daily for you and your family. You are not alone and I know how brave you are. You have such a gorgeous family.

[@ComingHometoAutism]

Thank you so much for your lovely message sending you a big hug

[@subali6145]

Prayers for your child ..hope everything becomes easier for you ....you are great more power to u

[@ComingHometoAutism]

Thank you so much!

[@Nojusticenopeace23]

You are just such an inspiration to everyone and every parent. You’ve been such a great source of comfort and reassurance for all of us with autistic children in our lives and families and as a thank you for your soul, your honesty, your compassion and your insights I will pray for you every day. As a Muslim we pray 5x a day and I most certainly will remember your family and Dillion in each of those prayers. Please god he makes a full recovery. Amen. Please god he has no untoward or serious diagnoses. Amen. Please god he and all your family are blessed with good health, peace and strength. God bless you. You are such a strong fighting spirit and you’ll carry your son through this.